#the paranoia dude.......

[rustedspurs]

ptsd is fucking bullshit dude

[sandeewithtwoe]

Late night thoughts

Dust belongs to ask-dusttale

Transcript:

Dust: Either I’m going insane or someone is pulling a prank on me

Phantom Papyrus:

Dust: You’re right, it could be both

With no speech bubbles ^

[good-wine-and-cheese]

Pumpkins for this year :)

I thought about doing Kaiji or PLUTO but I already had these ones planned

[bacchuschucklefuck]

riz gukgak is SO distressing to have as a favourite character I can never funckign rest out here

[campgender]

in s1 “bugs” dean saying john used to swing by stanford to keep an eye on sam whenever he could vs s5 lucifer revealing that some of sam’s friends, classmates, teachers were demons…. you can never actually get away you’re never free you’re never safe

[gutfaced]

okay so based off of haymitch ripping his house phone out of the wall, i think he's had several incidents where he's broken certain important things in the house and. did not fix them. the clock's too loud? there's now a knife splintering the middle. looking in the mirror is too much? they're all covered minus the bust-level ones. some are broken! he doesn't own a microwave because the beeping is god awful! the washing machine is in a designated room because if he hears the sound it WILL set him off! like yes he is rich but lavish living doesn't concern him because he is in his own personal hell and money cannot fix what the mentality is tormented by. no, he's not going to see a shrink unless he's forcefully tortured. and all of that is painfully old school.

[s1x-foot-deep]

vicious cycle

[spaciebabie]

shoutout 2 this person in my class who i can tell wants 2 talk 2 me really bad but instead of doing that whenever she has the chance she'll talk 2 whoever else is around and ignore me entirely unless im mentioned by name

[tropicalcontinental]

Nicholas and childhood and drawing

[carnage-cathedral]

guess who got fucking busted for shoplifting

[doginasillyhat]

wow! so basically i can absolutely tell that my meds are not working for me. it’s been close to six months since my dose got changed and i think that’s enough time for me to figure out that this still isn’t working.

i’m feeling so constantly paranoid and anxious. i’m sleeping more than i’m awake again, i’m eating bad, i’m getting lax on my hygiene, i’m not responding to messages - it’s getting bad again.

i definitely need to take a step back! i think i need to Log Off for a bit and get back into the swing of things. see a doctor and get my medication sorted, get my dog back into agility and get into exercise again. i need to focus on work again and get back into seeing my friends since i’m starting to isolate more than usual.

posting content isn’t going to be a priority. i’ll probably still post things when i have the motivation to write, and maybe i’ll linger a bit and see what’s going on in tags. my absence is minuscule and will Not be missed, but hopefully when i return in a little while when i feel better i can still be Appreciated! sex positive hat has loved the reception its been getting. sex positive hat does Not want to let that go!

anyway. tldr taking a break until my mental health evens out again because i am actually doing so terribly. i’ll be in and out but overall. probably super quiet. i’ll still be around in pms for the people i’m talking to there :)

[tacagen]

xenophobic fucker my beloved. who else would take a reasonable and even noble 'we must prepare to face any alien threat and prevent whatever happened to me from happening to others' takeaway from his traumatic life events and somewhere along the way straight up make it into 'I HAVE TO MAKE A SUPERIOR HUMAN RACE BASED ON MUTATED RAT GENES AND MY APPEARANCE, INFILTRATE THEM INTO THE HUMANKIND AND IF THEY KILL 57% OF IT WHILE SEARCHING FOR MUTANTS/ALIENS IN HIDE THEN SO BE IT, THAT WOULD ACTUALLY BE A HEALTHY OUTCOME FOR EARTH.'

[voidscreamns]

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[racmune]

oil paint csp brush?? ohhh i get it there is boundless joy to be experienced with art

[neim-batteries-not-included]

jonathan jarchivist sims when i fucking catch you

[katyspersonal]

I have only two possible emotional responses to feeling really safe and warm talking with a new person:

1) Withdrawing from them almost instantly and rarely responding, even if against my wish or control, because of reflexive fear of attachment since usually everyone I felt safe with blocked me out of blue and revealed that all along I was giving them """red flags""" I didn't even know existed

2) Somehow not falling for withdrawing reflexively, but in turn the value of everyone else I know that does NOT make me feel safe (so, 95% of the people) sinks in my perception and now I have to struggle against a very strong wish to abandon everyone except The Person. Why waste time on anyone less than this?