#the pain is so real right now
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
offer me that deathless death, Good God, let me give you my life
#i feverishly hurried to draw this while rewatching the mv to take me to church#maybe im satosugu brain rot rn but like#the pain is so real right now#my art#wip#satosugu#jjk#jujutsu kaisen
60 notes
·
View notes
Text
Like all of tumblr, aparently: we 💜 love ✡️jews✡️ and we would 👊 punch nazis and we reblog five 5️⃣ different haukkah 🕎 posts a year we are like so progresive 💁✨️
Also all of tumblr, aparently: death to all jews 🚫✡️ if you're a jewish person who lives in IsNotRaEl then you're an evil 👺 bad jew and you deserve to be raped and murdered ☠️☠️ what? You fled to israel because we were murdering you by the millions??? Well you should have all died lol ☠️☠️ happy hanukkah btw 🕎
#jewblr#op is pissed off#ישראבלר#jewish#antisemitism#i/p#i/p conflict#antisemitism is so real both on this app and in general leftist communities#and I used to side with these people#if there was an attack on people based on their sexuality; gender; race; religion ect I like to believe I would have cared#that I would have shows campation to your loss and understand your pain#instead of actively be part of the bigotry againsts you#i don't trust so many of my mutuals right now because I now know that if there was a nazi uprising they wouldn't hide me#they would cheer at my death#THIS is why jewish people can't trust you guys#YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT JEWISH LIVES#there was a really good article that explained this really well and how so many people have and will lose jewish friends#because we now know that you aren't there for use. and that you were never there for us#'punch a nazi' and 'never forget' are just cute little slogens to you but they actually mean something to us#it used to mean safety; used to mean that we could trust you; now it's empty wprds ringing with betrayel#never forget#jewish lives matter#hamas#palestine#israel#bring on your hate I don't care y'all are a bunch of privliged fucks anyways who would have rallied behind hitler like a bunch of pigs#noa's jewish talk
668 notes
·
View notes
Text
Bestie Deficiency
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#a-qing#xue yang#xiao xingchen#Xue yang is cold because cold blooded creatures can't generate their own body heat#I am skipping over drawing the stories they tell due to the fact this arc is already really dragging#but I think they are very key in understanding the yi-city characters#Even if they are stories that really bring down the slumber party vibes A-Qing was hoping for.#I mentioned some of my thoughts in the tags of no. 76 but to continue on a bit more#I think xxc and xue yangs stories inversely mirror each other on the meaning of sacrifice and what it means to 'deserve' something#to xue yang he has only ever sacrificed - therefore he is in his right to 'deserve' what he wants. And he wants everything.#xxc leaves song lan thinking its the best course of action to atone but my god. No it wasn't. Poor communication crown actually goes to xxc#but it's what xxc he feels he deserves - continued sacrifice to atone. He wants to want nothing.#both are very stuck in the past in ways that are not actually accounting for their actions#It's easy to look at xue yang and go 'dang you need to get over your childhood trauma'#but that very much ignores that fact that we - real human beings - define so much by our childhood pains.#Growth is having to come to terms with it and trying to move past it...and not everyone is ready for that.#I have a lot of thoughts on that matter but I'll let it be for now.#Anyways. Amiguito appears to be one of those words whos meaning change depending on speaker and contextual factors#So as far as I can tell it slides around on the scale on romantic and platonic. Which works for this dynamic. I think.#Native Spanish speakers I am so sorry.
730 notes
·
View notes
Text
Every time I revisit the comic I feel people around Ai were fortunate to have her
she's really kind inside. She loved everyone so much.. no wonder her name means love
#oshi no ko#oshi no ko spoilers#hikaai#hikaru kamiki#ai hoshino#many took her for granted..overlooked her pains!!! but they won't get someone as good as her so easy(that's why everyone misses her now)#I don't really want to blame her bf..he had terrible things going on and he was a kid too. he's all right on this regard in my opinion#BUT THE ADULTS#they just tossed her in the industry and thought she'd fare well all on her own and Ai really tried. She did her best. that's so realistic#hopefully people will be more attentive and kinder to each other in real life#doodle#spoilers#aand I'll be off for a trip.. I won't be able to draw the next couple days!#I'll miss drawing~
50 notes
·
View notes
Text
RealAgeAU Drabble - Gameplan
Hello! Another Drabble (second one i wrote) concerning the idea of Nightmare returning to his original form (Lovely Prompt idea by @spotaus )
First Drabble here Prev drabble here Next Drabble here
Warning, unedited and unbeta'ed. We die like my ability to spell anything.
----
Cross checks around the corner towards the street and waits for a moment longer before nodding "I think we are in the clear. We can talk here for a moment."
Killer just lounges back against a dumpster as he pants "Good! Cuz! I am not walking another step!"
Horror frowns as he searches his backpack. Slowly taking out some fruits "We need to stop this. We can't get the resources we need like this."
Cross groans as he rubs his face "I know I know. But we can't just settle anywhere! How do we explain..." He stops and slowly turns to look to the side at Dust.
Dust sits completely calm on the gorund, cross legged. Looking perfectly calm and content. With the still struggling Nightmare in his arms. Dust just sits there and looks at Nightmare with a raised brow and moves around a bit. Easily getting Nightmare to sit back in his lap with one of Dust's arm holding Nightmare around the middle wiht both arms trapped. And the second arm around his shoulders to pull him back easily. Nightmare looks grumpy beyond believe and Cross can't take it too seriously as Nightmare lost all his goop and corruption. All that remains is a perfectly normal and adorable tiny babybones.
Cross turns back to Horror and Killer and waits.
Horror looks at the scene before shrugging before turning back to prepare a snack for their now tiny charge. Looking calm as he moves.
Killer snorts "Why would we? Boss is tiny now. So what?" and he shrugs.
Cross groans as he rubs his face. He can admit that he will still need some time to get used to the change. But it is okay as he can accept it. After they found the old picture book and the just as old crown they had been putting together what actually happened. And well, even if they sometimes act dumb three out of four of them have university degrees of some type and Cross had always been one of the smartest soldiers.
That together with the known fact that Drema broke out of the stone young but grew up made the fact obvious.
It wasn't that they were in a situation of Nightmare having been deaged. They were in the situation that the Nightmare they had known had been an aged-up version of the real nightmare. Which is the very same grumpy babybones that Dust is holding right now.
Yeah. Cross just needs a bit more time.
Cross glares at Killer and focusses at the issue they need to actually fix "We know that!" he waves around them "But how do you think anyone is going to react to knowing we have Nightmare and that Nightmare is well... like this again?"
Killer hums and nods "I guess..." he turns towards Nightmare "How about a different name? What do you think Nighty? What can we call you?"
Nightmare glares with all his six year old force "Boss."
Killer snorts "got it tiny boss!" and he grins at Cross and shrugs "Guess that idea is a burst. anything else?".
Cross groans as he rubs his skull "don't you see the issue?! If anyone finds out about this they will try to take him from us and bring him to the Stars, if they don't just call the Stars!" Or worse. And they will think that killing Nightmare would be a reasonable solution to keeping him from aging up.
Killer actually glares as he radiates his blood- and LOVE-lust "Let them try."
Cross sighs as he rubs his face "what do you suggest we do?!"
Killer huffs "Obviously we do what we are doing now. We keep moving and universe hopping." and he nods.
Horror looks up with a frown "We can't do that. We will run out of resources. babybones need nutrients" as he says this he sits by Dust and Nightmare with the cut fruits. Nightmare focuses his full glare on Horror but Horror doesn't even blink. They have gotten used to this routine over the last few days and there is a good reason Dust and Horror do it.
Dust nods as he helps Horror by aiming the still struggling babybones "Not to forget his schooling. Now that he is young again he will need to relearn things. Can't do that while hopping from place to place."
Cross turns back to Killer and crosses his arms "See? horror and Dust agree."
Killer grumbles. "Fine! We find some stupid positive universe to hunker down in some abandoned building and do raids to get stuff. Easy!"
Cross crosses his arms "Still the problem of what we do if someone sees him. How do we explain that? people will think we stole him!"
Killer goes to speak. pauses and tilts his skull "I mean. Technically we did kind of steal him. Sure he was originally our boss, so ours. So we have the right to steal him again but still. Very much stolen."
Cross sputters "I! I wasn't serious!" well he was but not about the stolen comment!
Horror speaks up even as he feeds Nightmare, which Ngihtmare tries to fight but Dust is there to assist him. "Technically it wasn't stealing."
Cross sighs "Thank you Horror-"
"We kidnaped him." Horror finishes his statement as he manages to get Nightmare to eat a bit. Nightmare actually pauses and the stubbornness makes way for the much younger mind that enjoys the food and a tiny soft purr starts to leave the babybones. He doesn't struggle as much anymore as the second bite is brought over.
Cross stops and lets his skull fall into his hands "we are so fucked."
All three speak up "Language."
Cross groans louder. They are so fucked.
---------
First Drabble here Prev drabble here Next Drabble here
#RealAgeAU#utmv#fanfic#drabble#deaged nightmare#bad sanses#That moment when your old boss gets transformed into a child so you forcefully adopt him instead#found family twice over lets go#What are the four to each other here?#maybe poly? maybe friends?#Somewhere in between?#Hell they don't even know. They just know they are struggling#Nightmare still has his memories.#But also his mind and body both returned to his real age which is six#without the extra powerups and with all the real fear and pain from his past abuse#He is not going to be an easy babybones#Do I need to tag all of them? Probably right?#I will just not do it for now. I am sure it is fine.#Yes also Nightmare is goopless and just Baby. Which is why he has been promoted (demoted) to babybones#Nightmare has a lot of large feelings now and can't process them all so he is also struggling#Not as much as his gang members though but still struggling
63 notes
·
View notes
Text
ok but im rly into the idea of till having a new era that brings the light back to his eyes and drives him forward if he gets to escape the arena. idk where he'd go from there but i want to see ivans sacrifice both haunt him and drive him to actually live his damn life after being the captured bird refusing freedom cause of mizi. once he knows she's alive with the resistance he might be able to actually experience other things and widen his world and if that happens and he puts his personal sense of rebellion towards the human cause OR settles into finding some other way to feel fulfilment that isn't a single person that could be deeply fascinating to me i think
#alien stage#ramble#idk#till alien stage#as an xxxholic fan i want to see caged birds fly and all the fear and loss and grit and progress that comes with it#till era would be so fucking fun#especially when characters r built arnd one person or one goal or something you want to see them find new things to suffer or thrive abt (?)#random inconsequential thought imagine till hooking up with hyunas besties and they become a resistance throuple#idk i just want till to experience the wider world as the one that was the most restrained by his heart AND literally#cause even compared to the other anakt kids he suffered so much in those damn buildings and labs#i wanna see him freed and what that means for ivans legacy as the person who was unseen but someone who both contributed to and desperately#tried to stop his pain and confinement no matter what#honestly the thing i wanna see most rn off the top of my head is#till coming to terms with what he knows and sees about ivan now#no matter how he feels about it i think ivan wont be forgotten that easily#i want to know whats going thru tills head rn immediately in this moment#cause this snapped him in some way and he is acutely aware of things he didnt even notice before#while handling the mizi desth thing#that he assumed was happening#if he is assumedly saved i want to see the explosion that is knowung mizi is alive#knowing ivan is dead and how ivan felt#and knowing he has a way out of the cage#because its a triple whammy#i want to see his brain exploding in real time thinking abt all these things#and what sort of person the revelations will make him become#also i want to see mizi and till have like an actual conversation cause itd be a wildcard especially right now
70 notes
·
View notes
Text
wondering about Frank and insects but specifically about how it looks like the WH insects are highly stylized, so does Frank even know anything about real butteflies/insects?
& if he saw a real one, would he recognize it? are all of the species names he applies to the WH bugs real, or are they all made up like "Vibrant Eyespot" or "Fluttering Heartwing"?
and then there's the question - does the neighborhood have some of the more 'undesirable' bugs like moths, worms, roaches, spiders? does it have bugs outside of the generic groups of beetles and butterflies? like are there mantids? leafbugs? dragonflies? weevils? or are those too specific/complex/not-cute for the Playfellow Workshop to have included?
and then there's the question of what are the bugs? props? puppets? are they alive or do the neighbors just perceive them as such? Do they even exist outside of art, storybooks, and animated segments? I highly doubt they're alive like the neighbors are, since in the gif of Frank's head spinning, the framed butterflies' wings are moving. which is kind of horrifying if you think about it for more than a second.
just... the critters Frank loves so so so much being a complete fabrication... every piece of knowledge he prides himself on / delights in knowing being utterly Untrue... oof
#by not-cute i mean that most bugs dont sell well as marketable plushies#cute butterflies? round adorable beetles? those fit right in with a vibrant puppet-y world#so it'd make sense if those are the only two bug groups that exist#along with like. caterpillars of course. i can also see bees being a probable candidate for Existing In The World#AGHHHHH THIS HAS BEEN EATING AT ME FOR DAYS NOW#been questioning how the neighbors' consciousness and awareness manifests as well#might make a different post on that since this one has a Topic and id like to Stay On It for once#well. its related. but that deserves its own Pondering#welcome home speculation#i dont know what else to tag this as!#absolutely unprompted#ALSO ALSO are there any animals outside of insects?#does the neighborhood have birdsong but no birds? if one listens real hard to it will they notice it looping?#do they have squirrels? critters in general? is that why wally doesnt know what a rat is? he'd have no reason to.#in his world they simply don't exist.#anyway but i wonder how frank would react to seeing a real butterfly (& insects in general)#the WH ones are gigantic in comparison and overly-colorful and friendly & cutesy#wouldnt it be painful if he was scared of them. if they look too alien. would it be the spongebob butterfly episode all over again#many many thoughts tonight....#but also....#what if he tried to frame a real one. expecting it to be Fine and Alive when he pins it bc they always have been#theyve always been perfectly happy fluttering in their frames#but a real one would fucking die. so. yikes#traumatic core memory unlocked! frank frankly has discovered Death
219 notes
·
View notes
Text
To Hell and Back (werewolf-hunter au)
fic tidbit below
The lycan growled, his ears flattening. The fur along his spine and his tail puffedup, making his silhouette even larger than normal. Stone’s teeth, normally shining bright, were dark and stained thick with blood. His fur was also covered in what looked like a viscous mixture of blood, mud, and phosphorous slime. The wolf favored his left front paw, snapping at him in warning – Don't get close.
"Stone. It's me." Robotnik spoke firmly, with no room for doubt. "I'm here to bring you home."
The word "home" landed hard. The growling stopped, and a small whine came out instead from the wolf. Stone stood fixed in place, his legs shaking from his body’s prolonged state of fear and exhaustion. His eyes darted cautiously, still searching for the impending danger.
"Yes, home." Robotnik repeated, removing the gas mask off of his head. With great strength of will he ignored the sweltering, noxious heat and stench in the air. He cleared his throat, fighting back the instantaneous nausea, and softened his voice to speak again. Back to the voice he used only when they were alone together. "Samir. Come with me. We'll be together again."
The lycan's mouth opened, panting in slow, heaving breaths. Two trails of tears streaked clean amidst his blood soaked face. Stone took a step towards Robotnik, then another, limping closer.
Just as they were about to be within arm's reach, a searing scream pierced through the air that was quickly joined by a hellish chorus of voices. A pack of demons were approaching.
Robotnik raised his shotgun. "Time to go! Move it!" He slipped his mask back over his head and beckoned Stone to follow with a hard swing of his arm.
#sneek peek. WHY do i keep coming up with long fics. pain#werewolf au#stobotnik#werewolf!stone#jimbotnik#my fics#my art#i AM writing the werewolf au its just..... all over the place right now#tried using the “real g pen” for sketching to see how it turns out... i like it so far
79 notes
·
View notes
Text
people actually went on about how game of thrones made it socially acceptable to be a fantasy nerd, as though the lord of the rings movies hadn't been released less than a decade earlier and left far greater cultural ripples and i am just
got may have made the adults feel better about liking fantasy, but lotr got into the kids' heads when they (we) were just young and impressionable enough to be absolutely transported and emotionally rewritten by don't you leave him, samwise gamgee and my brother, my captain, my king and and rohan will answer
lotr was rewriting entire generations' brain chemistry long before asoiaf and so obviously it's not fair to compare any post-lotr fantasy novel to it, and each book series was trying to do different things within their own spheres and so that also is not a fair comparison, but in terms of the cultural impact of the adaptations that came out within a decade of each other, saying that it was game of thrones that made fantasy mainstream is baffling
game of thrones could only run because the lord of the rings movies laid the path, and i will die on this hill
#lotr#lord of the rings#lord of the rings movies#i started this post because ''may it be'' came up on my playlist but now i think i'm going to start my nth rewatch of the trilogy#there is a lot to discuss about it re: comparison to the books but it's like...#for all the changes they made - good and bad and neutral - everyone involved in making the films *loved* the source material#they all *wanted* to do justice to it and believed in it and it shows#i think of some posts i've seen about how frustrating this modern push towards tongue-in-cheek irony over sincerity#so afraid to be corny or cheesy that you have to tack a joke onto every real emotional moment#like no fuck that#give me sam hauling frodo onto his shoulders saying ''i can't carry it for you but i can carry you''#give me aragorn gently kissing boromir's forehead as he dies#give me merry and pippin throwing themselves at the uruk hai to distract them from frodo#give me theoden's grand speeches and gandalf's pained expression when frodo says he'll carry the ring#tbh i think that sincerity is a large part of *why* it has such staying power even now#because it is a story you are meant to get deeply emotionally invested in and not hold yourself a little ironically apart from#it isn't meant to sell merch it's meant to bring you to middle-earth and capture your heart and make you believe that the war can be won#with love and loyalty and hope and fellowship and fidelity and integrity and just... just refusing to give in to despair#it is earnest. it is unafraid to be melodramatic or corny because it believes in the story it's telling.#and so it imprinted onto a whole generation growing up right at the cusp of a barrage of apocalypses#anyway. i have Feelings about these movies and their impact and how that mirrors and enhances the books' own impact
130 notes
·
View notes
Text
Here's part two of drawing my family pictures as the Bad Batch because I can and you can't stop me
#i can tell you right now that drawing their armor was a fucking pain in the ass#and the l e g s jesus fucking christ#why do i have to care about anatomy#don't ask where crosshair and wrecker's legs are btw i wouldn't know#fun fact the original picture is from our summer vacation to Italy back in 2018#tech is me in this picture actually real and true#another fun fact#omega's eyebrows were blonde until the very last minute because i felt like they looked kinda odd#and she does actually have dark eyebrows in the show so--#i don't know if they look any better now but ehh good enough#hunter looks so wrong for some reason but i can't fix him i'm sorry#also yes they're all in their blacks because a) i couldn't be bothered to draw all the armor again and b) they deserve the comfort#i might do proper shadings if i find the motivation for this but until then this is what you're getting#the bad batch#bad batch#tbb#the bad batch fanart#bad batch fanart#tbb fanart#hunter#omega#crosshair#wrecker#echo#tech#the clone wars#star wars#star wars fanart#art#my art
378 notes
·
View notes
Text
IMPORTANT QUESTION.
#if your secret third option is ''bring the dog'' a) i don't think they will allow him on amtrak and b) he hates hiking. so much.#''swan is your dog not a border collie'' yes and he was born to work a desk job. many have said he would excel in middle management#[through gritted teeth] ghost i love you more than life itself and would throw myself into a pit of spikes to spare you a moment's pain#but right now you are standing between mummy and her calochortus. so let's work that out real quick#welcome to the hotel calochortus
20 notes
·
View notes
Text
Just finished listening to the ancient rome sidequest again and I'm still feeling so emotional about Sasha. Like she never expected to live long but now she gets so much time and she's in a safe place with people she cares about. She doesn't have to violently die in a fight like she likely thought she would but instead she gets to have a new chance at a life. She actually gets to be happy.
#The end of her story makes me so happy#that as she walks away from rome at the end she gets to leave the pain and destruction of her old life behind#and just like the ruins of rome her past will still be there and real but she can live a good live despite it#it just means so much to me#that no matter how many hardships you had to endure you still have a chance at happiness#I'm not even sure how coherent I am right now I've been busy crying the last few minutes#sasha rackett#rqg#rqg spoilers#rusty quill gaming
28 notes
·
View notes
Text
ot5 itzy is back for real i am not okay I am crying.
#I started bawling hearing Lia in born to be#midzys are we okay right now#sorry transfans on this account the love of my life the person I look up to is back#YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND THE PAIN OF HAVING YOUR FAVOURITE PERSON/SINGER BE ON HIATUS AND THE GROUP STILL RELEASING MUSIC#I'VE MISSED LIA AND HEARING HER VOICE SO MUCH#HEARING THE FINAL VERSIONS OF THE BORN TO BE ALBUM I'M CRYING#so emotional rn#itzy means so much to me I can't even begin explain#imaginary friend hit me in the feels because itzy are like my imaginary friends they're songs are always there when I need them#itzy has always been there for me 🥹🥹 my imaginary delulu parasocial friends#i sing the parts of btb on first listen and THEN REALISE IT'S LIA'S PART NOW AND I JUSYBSHDHEWKWKSNSKWKWJSKQ#yeah#when i saw ye-ry-ch-yu on the btb tour I couldn't believe they were real and now I can't believe ot5 is back and real#It hasn't sunk in yet 🥹🥹#itzy#itzy kpop#itzy gold#Choi Jisu#THE LOVE OF MY LIFE#itzy lia#Lia#yeji#hwang yeji#Shin Ryujin#ryujin#chaeryeong#Lee chaeryeong#shin yuna#Yuna#itzy yuna
12 notes
·
View notes
Note
What physical part(s) of Arsay does her partners find the most attractive! Is it the same for all partners or does it differ between them?
(also optional bonus ask of what part(s) of/about Arsay generally do they love the most, physical or not!)
Meanwhile, if you were to ask the same of Arsay:
#ffxiv#wolship#g'raha tia#y'shtola rhul#wolgraha#wolshtola#y'shtola x wol#arsay nun#graharshtola#y'shtola calling arsay a pain in her side is very much an affectionate thing btw#and i couldnt pass up the joke of g'raha giving the sweet gentlemanly response only for yshtola to be like 'tits tbh'#her defaulting to an answer that would probably stop the conversation before she has to talk to much about her deeper feelings imo#i have. a lot of feelings about yshtola and arsay's friendship#someone who is constantly trying to build walls between herself and others vs someone who desperately wants to form real connections#its not a 'wearing that person down' type situation either#just one lonely person seeing another lonely person and hoping that they could be less lonely together#or that she could at least bring some cheer to#and idk yshtola strikes me as the type to have been like 'if they want to be my friend they have to work for it'#which arsay certainly did#i could ramble on and on how their friendship lines up so well with yshtolas character development but theres a limit to these tags#so just look at how cute shtola is with the slightest blush on her cheeks#graha is a much more complicated topic since he went from Extreme adoration to I want to be her friend but I dont think im good enough#to 100% Hero worship again to Shes my hero and I love her to Shes a person and I love her#to I love Arsay. Even the parts she can't love in herself. I will love all of her till my dying breath.#he thinks shes the most beautiful person in the world and the most important thing in his life#but he now knows how insane she's been about being everyone's hero and he really doesnt want to feed that beast#so hes trying to build her up in other ways#focusing more on the adventuring side than the saving the world side#and then there is arsay who loves so much about her partners and is in capable of narrowing it down to any one thing so its#'here let me list everything that comes to mind right now' with 0 shame or filter
46 notes
·
View notes
Text
If I ever met Cale I’d laugh in his face because my life is everything he wants his to be (I slack off and he doesn’t)
#I do nothing all day#I’m the real slacker between the two of us#he’s actually such a fake slacker I can’t believe him#he’s so in denial about it too#I love him he’s so pitiful and unfortunate#he doesn’t even know he’s digging his slacker life’s own grave#tsk tsk#Cale let me tell you from a real slacker to a fake one#a REAL slacker does the bare minimum of everything possible#if something sounds like a pain you find a way to avoid it entirely and do something where you can get the most rest right at that moment#while I think your method of slacking off for the future works occasionally#you must find balance between work and rest#and you poor soul have found yourself forever drowning in work because of your ‘I have to do it now it’s more convenient’ mentality#rambling#I like to make fun of Cale a lot actually#Alberu too#it’s just so funny#My favorite old man workaholics#one of them is in denial about it the other is not#tcf#lcf
26 notes
·
View notes
Text
Not sure I care enough to engage with the post, but to read SVSSS + extras and come away with the interpretation that SJ doesn't care about why YQY failed to save him, just that he did fail, and therefore would never forgive him or change his behavior towards him if he learned the truth, feels off-place to me. It seems to lean into the view that SJ doesn't actually care about YQY, just sees him as a useful tool, and thus couldn't be hurt by the supposed abandonment - with that interpretation it would then make sense to think he would neither care nor change his behavior (towards YQY) upon learning what actually happened.
#generously put - I suppose it's not an interpretation that the text of svsss completely forbids#but I don't see it as the most probable interpretation by a long shot and it doesn't explain their interactions or themes well at all#given that Shen Jiu eventually canonically forgives YQY even without an explanation I don't see why he wouldn't if one was earnestly given#I could see SJ continuing to throw some lingering degree of fit if he learned that YQY had indeed tried but failed#(and YQY honestly doesn't need to elaborate on the whole trauma only the important part - that he set out too late)#but I really don't think their relationship would have been anything like how it turned out in canon#no real comment on how SJ's actions would change on ~everything else~ since it's so counterfactual after that point and we know he's a git#I do honestly feel that the novel bolsters this idea with the whole thing at Maigu Ridge#where SY learns of YQY's tragedy and immediately sees what he has to do to avert the same with LBH#he saw how important it was to explicitly let LBH know how loved he is even if he can't explain everything because it CAN change things#and it does for them#the responsibility part is... well everyone is responsible for their own behavior - including SJ#now I don't have strong opinions on this next part#but regardless of trauma or his right to remain silent - YQY has some responsibility for the ~direct~ consequences of the choice he made#namely referring to SJ's belief that he was callously abandoned and his pain and anger over it#but he is absolutely not responsible for SJ's “everything else”#idk just had some thoughts
23 notes
·
View notes