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The difference between Inkheart and Inkdeath are literally insane.
The bad guy in Inkheart is like… a local mafia boss and his handful of cronies. Oh no, he put us in the animal stables and people talk about that he enjoys killing but we don’t ever see it and the worst thing he does is giving Mo a cut on the face and putting people in cages I guess.
The bad guys in Inkdeath, however, are the ruler of the land but also Death herself and we desperately fight against destiny. Every other chapter there’s a fight and people get brutally killed. We are about to scatter Mos fucking kneecaps. Mind torture while experiencing actual torture in the underwater dungeon. Everything is out to kill you but with everything going on death is kinda the least of our worries??
Like boi… that’s full a 180,,,,
#the mind torture got to me#like Jesus#like the actual torture wasn’t enough and made it WORSE#swugs ted talk#Inkheart#inkspell#inkdeath#Tintenherz#meggie folchart#mo folchart#resa#meggie inkheart#the aderhead#dustfinger#Farid#I miss basta
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How many people witnessed softie food addict horror who needed something in his mouth or he would actively kill and turn to cannibalism 🧍♀️ or was that just me.... anyways honestly it was silly.. he'd maybe get along with cook horror... I just like fanon crossovers guys*sadge
Anyways canon horror is also silly(really silly. What an asshole, man)(no seriously he's actually such an asshole.. I might love him for that but-) I don't think he would get along with the others(loser)
#me when I acknowledge as many sides of an argument as possible which just makes me confused because I am trying to take off of other people#but they're so diverse that I can't mix all of it and so I don't know how to interpret any characters anymore and what makes it worse is my#ahh not actually understanding people or relationships because I got minimum emotions maximum carelessness but I also love emotions so I#love the psychological torture of all of this but I also don't understand it so I'm depending on everyone else but yet again they're so#mixed I get confused and I don't know how to deal with any of it so I'm just here standing confused screaming in my own mind as I try to#understand how to make it all work together and then#....#Jesus fuck#sans au#utmv#undertale au#horrortale#horror sans#UwU#anyways disregard any ideas I may have ever because they will always change and I don't know what to do anymore.......#bro I'm boutta resort to Wattpad fics.... get ready for Wattpad highschool fic😼/j#I want to do that but I lost my fluidity in writing sighs...#I never graduated from Wattpad sorry guys😔#I didn't do that well drawing canon horror tbh but it'll have to do
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You love to bring up our record. Our record is 4 and 1 after you beat me at WrestleDream, and you beat me, I will give you that.
#aewedit#wrestlingedit#hangman adam page#hangman page#adam page#aew#aew dynamite#fright night dynamite#my gif#hanger gif#that 'not for me' hasn't left my mind one second#this promo hasn't left my mind one second#he's so so sooooo good#the best storyteller in the business and i will not take criticisms bc i am right#i wanna gif the whole thing but my computer has been crashing every 2 seconds this week#i legit wanna ***#anyway bye#edit: i just scrolled down the aewedit tag and there's like at least other 3 versions of this very moment lmao😭😭#sorry i was out all day i only opened tumblr to boop ppl and when i got home i got straight into making this#bc i'd been thinking about it all day i was away from ps it was torture so i didn't see skjdljd so like enjoy all 3467 vers of this ig 😁
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Capitalism shure will make you feel guilty about wanting to work on a later schedule than 8 to 5
#I want to work 12 to 9 or something like that#I never took a class in college earlier than 10#and I didn’t mind classes that lasted until 8pm#besides walking back to my dorms in New England winter weather#but that’s the climate not school#idk#i’ve been treading on this thought for a while and finally got to verbalize it to someone#which made me realize#yeah#I would rather work late than torture myself by getting up early#G muses
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jiang cheng, age nine:
madam yu: you shouldn't hang out with wei wuxian! He'll bring troubles! Don't you see how your father favors him over you?!
jiang cheng:I'll thrown his shit out of our room and then I'll search for him! Mom, you don't know him the way I do. He's my shixiong now!
jiang cheng, age eighteen:
cultivators: Look at how that wei wuxian disrespects sect leader jiang! Why doesn't jiang cheng discipline him? Oh, they were childhood sweethearts, lol. What a disillusioned maiden.
jiang cheng: Tks, it's not like that: our fight is fake. He promised. I trust him. Why would he lie to me?
jiang cheng, age thirty-something:
wei wuxian: yeah, everything I did was out of duty. Bye bye. Gonna start a new happy life without you.
jiang cheng:...
#Like. The fact that jc still loves wwx after everything. Is up to him#But#It's endlessly funny to me how at the end jc got confirmed his worst nightmares: wwx didn't love him and did everything out of duty!#'that was my duty to the jiang'#JC IS NOT A MIND-READER#That's not a 'love you' in particular coming from someone who can't sit still with you for one second#jiang cheng#beloved#Mdzs#In love with how the cultivation world is divided between people who think that jc is a soft hearted maiden incapable of being a good leade#And others who think he's the meanest bad bitch alive who spends his days torturing people
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From my reincarnated sukuna's s/o drabble
Tw pregnancy (reader has sukuna's kid), death of unborn child, mentions of starvation
Seeing all these fics were suku tries to impregnate us made me think....
What if at that time reader was like pregnant when they died? Like even after sukuna's sealment urame tries to save sukuna's s/o and unborn child but the moment he finds them its too late, both them and the baby are already to gone to save. They find their body in a cell outside the villages, already thin and dry(???) from starvation, since that was the only way for the socerers/ villagers get rid of them.
But years later reader's reincarnated and so is the unborn kid, the lil one being reader's younger sibiling now, but after they encounter sukuna the lil one's hair starts to change color by the few weeks...from its original color to a pinkish color
Ya'll see where im going with this?
#look idk if urame died or got sealed too#unless i find otherwise this is gonna stsy like this#i dont mind spoilers but just mark it if yall wanna tell me#sukuna x reader#sukuna x you#jjk x reader#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jujutsu kaisen x you#jjk x you#tw pregnancy#tw starvation#tw torture#i think#fic?#tw death of a child#jjk spoilers#sukuna fic
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the way i rewatch any part of rottmnt and once again come away from canon leo wondering where the actual heck are people getting this “oohhhh he only thinks he’s good for self sacrifice or as a tool, he has absolutely zero self worth whatsoever” instead of the canon version who’s kind of a manipulative lil stinker and KNOWS he has stuff to bring to the table but isn’t sure how to be Seen
it’s not that he thinks he’s worthless or not wanted. i fuckin promise you that about rise leo. he does not seriously think he is unloved or unwanted or ~one mistake away from being dropped by his own family~ or whatever
what he IS is rejection-sensitive in the way that makes any time he fails feel like the end of the world to HIM (setting aside that time he messed up and it did literally trigger the near-apocalypse and near deaths of him and his family lol), so he’d rather not try than risk messing up
#rottmnt#if i woobified raph the way ppl do leo itd be like 3k word essay on how#idk#the ms cuddles prank was actually extremely cruel and insensitive and CLEARLY why raph had so many trust issues#esp w his dad laughing at him etc etc etc etc like#i dont get it i really dont!!!!#like even as far as the movie goes raph kinda. suffered.... more. yk.#im not big on suffering olympics but like.#raph also self sacrificed and got physically beat up in the big alien fight#AND tortured AND mutated AND mind probed AND controlled into hurting his own family#raph literally starts the movie trying to explain to leo how it is HIS JOB to keep their whole family safe and ready for the next struggle#his entire finale arc is about how tied into the identity of protector and carrying them all he really is and how bad that is on him#fandom makes me so mad when the canon material itself i always enjoy and want to pick apart even for leo#(who frankly im burnt out on! bc of the overwhelming attention he always gets!)
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tired of people saying that evil morty is just a morty who snapped, and he doesn't have some good villian origin story. like !! yes he does !! he's implied to be a product of and is canonly a witness of the morty industry.
tw for human trafficking mentions under the more
which, because people in this fandom kind of sugarcoat that or don't see it for what it is, is human trafficking. evil morty isn't just some morty who got tired of a rick, hes a human trafficking victim who was likely passed between more ricks than he can remember. he's witnessed so many deaths and so much systemic morty torture that he's desensitized. the way he scanned all of those rick's brains mimicked the fucking dead morty disposal line.
so, no, evil morty isn't just "some morty who got sick of a rick," he literally apologizes for being such a high maintenence morty to make his rick shut up. that isn't something a regular grandson says that's something a grandson who has been trafficked and used by vile versions of his grandpa in such amounts that his life is unrecognizable without it.
for the love of fuck, r&m fans, please understand complex characters with complex trauma
#cw human trafficking#cw child trafficking#cw ht#cw ct#cw tbmc#cw torture based mind control#cw torture#idk maybe its because i went through something similar but i literally take personal offence to this LMAO#please stop watering him down#he went through unimaginable trauma just to be called some morty who got sick of a rick#hes so me#im so him#evil morty my love
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I've already decided that if I do do yehawgust one of the characters I make for it is gonna be named Whiskey, they're gonna be frisky, their daddy grows corn, and they love the rain. I know Nothing else about them yet.
#i dont want to play the cowboy thing straight#i want to keep the aesthetics of like. rio grande area because thats Home#Maybe something to do with purple sage? Whiskey is out on a ranch many miles from home.#Nah. Whiskey is the thing someone is going to be meeting.#Whiskey take my mind....#take care of me. youre all ive got...#dont let her memory torture me#Maybe a heat stroke delusion? Maybe something luring a cowboy further away from a path that might lead them home?#im drowning in a whiskey riverrr#dont run dry...#Cowboy and mermaid maybe?#Ill figure it out#spirit of spring? or summer?
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I'm 5 feet tall with a delicate build, and I work out regularly. No amount of body-building changes the fact that the average man could easily wrap his entire fucking hand around my neck and EASILY choke me to death, or break my wrists or my fucking spine. That terrifies me. It terrifies me than in a real one on one fight to the death, I'd probably be the one dying. I'm thinking of that video where a woman stabbed a guy with a big knife like 15 times, and he still kept fighting, whaling on her. What the fuck are those tiny "self defense" blades supposed to accomplish ? My best bet would probably be to slice his jugular or push my thumbs into his eye sockets, but how the fuck am I supposed to do that if he's restraining my arms. It TERRIFIES me that I can't fight, and even if I could, I'd probably not stand a chance against the average man, and definitely not if there were more than one.
Do any of you know self defense tips that ACTUALLY work? No convoluted moves. If a brute has got me in a fucking chokehold, I won't be thinking about the steps of popular self defense moves. I'll be panicking, losing strength and consciousness. The way i see it, my best bet would be carrying a fucking dagger, but even that requires intense training to learn how to use efficiently.
#going through news headlines and losing my mind why are men such violent dogs ?#rape and mutilation cases EVERYDAY#i want to kill them#i want to fucking clean out the filth by serial killing rapists#kam kam kam my god what a wretched world#mine#they start wars and WE are the casualties we are the ones suffering rape and torture and mutilation#you want me to feel bad for veterans with ptsd ?#i hope every single one of you kills yourself#holy shit#usually i skim the headlines but i decided to read through the stories today#and all it's done is make me realize how depraved and horrifically perverse men are#and then you've got libfems on social media making cutesy posts about how men are soft and smol and deserve love and tenderness#like no all you uncivilized fucking hyenas deserve is a bullet in the head#and even that is being merciful#reading about the nanjing massacre and i'm on the verge of tears holy fucking shit#it's ALL of them#no matter how civilized and polite they pretend to be#all of history is a testament to it#radfem
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My ex is at it again
#having to deal with her almost on a daily basis is hard#and she's still a bitch to me everytime she can as if i was the one treating her like shit when we were together#and ofc the girl she got with like 5 days after we broke up left her#no doubts in my mind it would happen because really#people like that act all nice and sweet and caring until you slightly disappoint them and then snap at you with no warning like wtf#it just hurts because what she did to me can't be undone and even though i tried during the last weeks to be normal when we interact#cause i have to interact with her most of the times#she's just passive aggressive and borderline offensive and for what?#i tried to let go because with my mental health i can't afford to torture myself with those memories too#the alternative was leaving martial arts but i didn't want to because i love that sport its important to me and helps me cope with things#i'm just bitter and sad and i try to keep my composure but it affects me more than i'm ready to admit cause i don't think i deserve it#tw vent#tw mental health
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If I block u on spotify its truly over 4u in my head
That means i literally do not want you to know me anymore since music taste is genuinely intimate in my opinion
-confessions of a the bolter stan
#don't mind me i was just thinking bout the time i had a falling out w my closest friends#i do be reminiscing#also this was the friend who got me into taylor swift hehe#no i do not think about her everytime i listen ts is everywhere amd not some indie artist who i could only associate w smt spesific#felt the need to clarify that#i was listening to the bolter and ended up reflecting on my anxious avoidant attachment issues#spotify#taylor swift#the tortured poets department#the bolter
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Woo hello 🎬!! I kept all of your ask here -- I put it like this for my own easy scrolling, but no way am I cutting any of this, it's so perfect AH
Oughhhhgh Haruka getting more confident from hanging out with everyone and getting such positive feedback… I’d imagine the back to back innocent verdict and night of compliments would do wonders for his psyche ;-; And same for Muu and Amane! Minus the inno verdict, but the sudden influx of explicit compliments and acknowledgement of “hey, that was fucked up what they did to you, okay?” I wonder if there’s any awkwardness since After Pain directly follows Bring it On, but I like to imagine Fuuta and Muu have a deeper talk about things in private (and maybe Muu hesitantly mentions her involvement with Rei in preparation for INMF…)
Damn, who’s going to give the sex talk to the kids after Yuno’s vide-- Shidou. Sidou does. Without hesitation. They have to stop him because no one wants to hear it and everyone there already understands the basics.I love the idea of she, Mahiru, Muu, and designer Mikoto chatting about everyone’s fashion sense (I can imagine them poking fun at Fuuta’s tracksuit and Shidou’s patterned shirts.) And planning shopping trips that include everyone!!! Amane and Kotoko are given no choice in the matter, and a lot of the guys are genuinely interested in coming along.
Awww, I love the thought of Haruka getting into a “boy” interest with Fuuta and Mikoto -- he never knew what it was like to have brothers but he’s really enjoying it <3 (Also I’m cracking up over Fuuta trying desperately to convince them “it’s not cringe!!!”)
ASDFSDF Mappi just straight up sobbing and Mikoto handing her tissues 😂 But yes, she also gets choked up during Magic and Amane can’t figure out why. This begins the adults’ efforts to get her out of whatever situation she’s currently in (which Jackalope was already half-working on, but is definitely spurred on by several angry almost-murderers demanding he get it done now.)
I do like that idea of Red more comfortable with showing skin than Blue. (I know people are very emotional about the stalker theory, but I personally never took it in a harmful way. I always enjoyed how it was a symbol of stripping away everything else until you’re left with your true, whole self.) So I like to think that Blue feels too exposed, but Red/Green are the ones who pitched it in a symbolic sense!
I’m losing my mind at Kotoko/Kazui/Red talking about sparring. Everyone else is like “hell yeah, let’s see it!” and Shidou just sitting there like “you all are going to be the death of me. You are NOT fighting.” Because I really want to think about it happening, I’ll say they manage to sneak away at least once and nearly break a prop in the process, to which even Jackalope shuts them down.
I think they all manage to get pretty serious again by the time T2 rolls around, but the hiatus is filled with a lot of sweet moments and healing conversations between everyone. Also, making so many plans for the future helps keep them sane when some of the project immersion gets a bit too real. Whenever they start realizing they might be condemned for their actions and worried that they’re too broken/they’re life is ruined, they come back to those plans and relax a bit.
Absolutely no pressure, but I would love to hear your T2 thoughts! 👀👀👀 I’m so incredibly grateful you’ve taken the time to share your ideas -- from the very beginning this au has been a big collaboration, so it’s super fun bouncing ideas around :D
#milgram#ft everyone!#i really love all of these ;---;#thank you so much!! ive been enjoying these so much and im sure everyone else is as well#i keep swinging drastically from torturing myself by thinking deeply about upcoming angst#and then healing myself thinking of everyone chillin in this au sdfsdfa#pretty soon ill write up a post with little details ive had in mind here and there 👍👍#i just havent had the motivation to put em down on paper yet but youre inspiring me!!!!#and yeah... i swore id finish a few of my current milgram wips before starting anything new but youre tempting meeeee#there will be plenty of time over the upcoming trial break for me to get some writing in im sure 👀#in a more serious tone i want to write a little drabble of the prisoners leaving/returning to the prison area#the odd relief of dropping pretenses and feeling free again#and then the heaviness that settles over them when they put on their fake bandages and torn uniforms and walk back in#but movie night my beloved!!!#not in a limiting gender role sort of way but i think with all the femininity that was forced on haruka he has a great time with the boys#all that fashion advice was Not heeded when choosing outfits for backdraft and triage#the Dad Fit was all shidous idea#(<- says this but i love the backdraft look jsyk)#i feel like t2 movie night would be much more chaotic since they were involved for a lot so they can get rowdier#then again some things were left secretive -- they never got to meet shidous kids and most didnt watch tear drop filming#and some of the post-filming effects probably turned out cooler than they were expecting#lights camera sing your sins#ask
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I wish I could find a doctor that wants to find out what’s actually wrong with me instead of recommending prescriptions to address the symptoms. I’m so tired of being recommended ibuprofen for debilitating pain. Tired of relaying my medical history to a new doctor and getting the same furrowed brow and shrugging shoulders I get every time. Tired of having so-called medical professionals ask why I need a cane if I’m able to walk down their clinic hallway without it. When will someone fucking help me?
#Leif barks#this is gonna get vent-y and shit in the tags just general mental and physical health issue TW#I’ve really given up on going to doctors atp#I used to have at least one sometimes two dr appts every week and I haven’t seen anyone in 6 months#saw a specialist in January for an MRI follow up and he basically went “wow your spine is fucked up! want some pregablin?“#I am 25yo with degenerative disc disease in 4 discs and facet joint arthritis and you as a specialist are not concerned?#because I sure fucking am!#why is my spinal column breaking down inside my body#I also developed an eating disorder in all of this mess bc when my symptoms first started at like 21yo#the only thing I heard from dr’s was “lose weight” so guess what I did#150lbs in a year and a half#and now when I go to a dr I get congratulated for losing it and then get told to take ibuprofen again#also wow getting told you did a good job at starving yourself is a crazy mind fuck#like you can look at my chart and see the weight loss in real time and that’s apparently wasn’t concerning either#I’ve stopped losing weight but now I’m terrified of gaining and I’m in this maintenance limbo that is literal torture on my brain and body#I’m just over here suffering#I tentatively started therapy again bc the depression-anxiety-cptsd-autism-eating disorder combo is killing me#and I’m not kidding I got three sessions in and she told me I’m too much for her to handle#so I guess I will be letting it kill me bc I don’t know what the fuck to do
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Is it supernatural brain rot, or is it just a song with biblical imagery?
#sinister kid by the black keys is so sam Winchester coded#“thats me the kid with the broken halo” sounds like castiel#but the fact that its immediately followed by “the devil wont let me be” makes me think this is sam Winchester#“i got a tortured mind” SAM??#this song hits so hard though#listen to it#the black keys#supernatural#spn#sam winchester
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Desperately trying to pack up my stuff despite still having no moving date and just going increasingly insane
#what the hell is any of this stuff... that doesnt mean i want to get rid of it#i hate having things in BOXES i am losing my Got Damn MIND#god willing soon i will have SPACE in which to make COLLAGES.... please i miss collaging so fucken much ;_;#making me put my things in Boxes is Torture
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