#the man is trans you cant tell me otherwise
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Reasons why scar is trans to me:
1. Keeps showing off them tits. He got them custom made ofc hes gonna take off his shirt at every opportunity. Designer tits.
2. Hotguy
#literally no reason why i posted this#the man is trans you cant tell me otherwise#(i am talking about the character i hope thats clear but atp i feel like i need to spell it out every tim3 sjfjrgksk)#stiff talk#gtws#goodtimeswithscar
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I was randomly reminded how a guy in high school kept calling me "dumb hoe" because he thought it was quirky and hilarious and thought I found it funny, too.
Years later I found out he had a crush on me and he didn't get why I didn't have one back...
#🍁 dust rambles#he then tried to drive a wedge between me and my (still) bf#yeeted his ass and the attached friend group#haven't heard from him in years#but I heard he changed for the worse (however that is possible#he has also manipulated said friend group into disliking us and distancing from us#what a time...#to think that was almost 10 years ago already wow...#oh also he did the backstabbing thing to another guy in the group who got together with a trans man#claiming they 'dont like it when he is there as well'#transphobia wooo...#he said the same thing they said to me 'we want you to still be a part of our group but not him and please don't tell him about it'#'otherwise we know we cant trust you'#peak gaslighting and manipulation
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look i really dont mind having a pre t body with its little biological quirks but i have a limit and the limit is waking up at 4am with immense pain and a puddle of blood on my bed
#im probably most likely overhyping what t will do to my body but i cant wait till my periods stop#if they dont stop i will fr go after some way of stopping them im not kidding there is literally nothing good that i get from having them#its just. its just pain and blood and a constant reminder of how Woman i have to be. it makes me sad#like. all the good cramp medicine is like WOMAN PILL FOR YOUR SCHEDULED GIRL MOMENT OF THE MONTH [picture of a woman]#[venus symbol] [flowers]#and all pads come with th same thing too. like i get that its technically not harming anyone but please man cmon#my mood gets all janged up i cant think straight in the worst ways possible im always having breakdowns during them#and i have to deal with genuinely unbearable pain! and! a heavy flow! because my moms ovaries! are the most fucked ovaries ever!#hhg the only good thing i can think of is that if there was a death metal band of trans guys the lyrics theyd write would be sick#[hi this is me telling you im about to get a little gross so if stuff like this grosses you out uh. yeah]#like the gruesome symbolism of periods is pretty damn cool if im honest. i dunno#i genuinely really like the movements on normalizing periods and how they are not something to be ashamed of and happen with a lot of ppl#but. but.#it puts a lot of emphasis on how its a Woman thing when a lot of women (cis or otherwise) dont have them#and it excludes all the other non woman people who have them#re personal opinion but i think our image of periods really shouldnt be flowery beautiful woman moment that passes by in a blink.#i think we should talk about how it hurts and how it will suck a little too hard for some people and that#periods not always mean a symbol of feminity and fertility and other stuff (its 5am im tires) to everyone#like to me periods are misery and oain and dysphoria but i have a cis friend who sees her periods as symbols of her womanhood abd#*and like. shes not wrong but im also not wrong either#idk my head hurts and i wanna go bacm to sleep so bye#sg.txt
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Quite honestly, i think people just dont like to acknowledge how many times i have been victimized bc it doesnt work for their narrative of the Scary Bad Trans Guy With No Regard For Others And Likes To Kick Puppies And Doesnt Know Real Pain Or Trauma
#bc otherwise yall would have to feel bad about putting me through way more additional unnecessary trauma on here#and i swear its yall who believe everything my abuser says about me. you need to tell yourself its true that i did the shit they accuse me#of and theyre just this pure uwu innocent pewson who doews no wongg umu#yall dont wanna except ive been through hell bc then you gotta accept youve put me through additional unnecessary hell that only warped my#perception worse of a community i thought i was fuckin part of and accepted in but apparently tf not#like you only have yourselves to blame for that shit. for why i hate online queer spaces now.#man it would just suck so so hard for your narrative if i was actually abused as much as i say and my abusive x was actually lying about me#bc otherwise how will you pretend trans men never ever experience any issues ever?#like i dont need to look. ik im one of the main blogs yall like to target and put on blast for transandrophobia stuff bc im super fuckin#outspoken about my shit (nevermind that yall never directly confront me). i already know thats how it is bc theres ppl on here who have a#apparently deep interest in constantly hating me and trying to find reasons im wrong. so when i say something is bad they habe to act like#its good actually somehow. and ik it all roots back to my abuser. there is literally no other reason i can think of that would mame ppl#that invested in hating me unless they believe everything my ex says. so undoubtedly theres ppl in my exs spaces who believe#transandrophobia is fake men arent oppressed ever etc etc. i digress. but ik its yall who've propped this whole shit up#ik its yall who put me on blast for this first and triwled to spread it that i was one of the Big Bad Names in the transandrophobia spaces#so ik yall use me as an example. ik you tell people i lie about everything. ik you tell people i exaggerate. ik you tell people im crazy#ik you tell ppl they cant trust me or rely on me and spread all the bs my ex says about me and even spreads their abuse toward me further#by even doing that shit. yall NEED to keep believing that im the Big Bad Trans Guy that you think i am bc otherwise your whole worldview#falls tf apart. everything you've been standing on online about how trans mascs who believe in transandrophobia are bad would fall apart.#if i am really as fuckin abused and victimized as i say. suddenly you dont get to use me as the example for Bad Transandrophobia Believer#and I KNOW thats the only reason yall choose not to listen or believe us. its LITERALLY just because you're choosing a side in a personal#relationship situation. ik it has nothing to do with politics for plenty of you. you're taking a side and shitting out reasons for why you#did after the fact.#if you really care about politics n shit you should listen to ALL THE OTHER TRANS MEN TALKING ABOUT THIS#besides using one person as your example for why you shouldnt believe people who believe this is a thing.#i mean. even aside the fucking fact that its all bs. if yall dont wanna believe me. whatever. you can get traumatized by them if you want#idefc at this point. if you actually care about politics as much as you say you gotta engage w people in good faith and uh maybe try n#listen to the SWATHES of other trans guys who also talk about this shit and thinks its real.
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ive been waiting for someone to make a fucking video (sapphic blog) about this (zzz) /ref .. i need genderbent lycaon its not even funny. that is a WOMANN that is a trans woman and i need her so bad. could u do fem lycaon w a reader whos her coworker ..
Fem! Lycaon falling for coworker! reader
note -> LYCAON IS A WOMAN YOU CANT TELL ME OTHERWISE!! We need more sapphic blogs man >:[
warnings -> none.
content includes -> fluff and angst, Lycaon trying to act professional, a forbidden relationship :[
Lycaon knows that its completely unprofessional to fall in love with a fellow member of the Victoria Housekeeping Co. But she just couldn't help herself
From the moment she met you, Lycaon had her eyes on you, she was smitten with you the moment your eyes met, it was obvious by the way her tail wagged whenever she spoke to you, even when she acted professional
When she learned that you too had feelings for her Lycaon didn't know what to do, you two couldn't be together unless one of you quit, and Lycaon knew that neither of you would do it
Lycaon knows that relationship between coworkers wasn't allowed in the Victoria Housekeeping Co. so the only thing she could do was to stare at you from afar, maybe one day you two could be together
#von lycaon#lycaon x reader#zzz lycaon#von lycaon x reader#lycaon#zzz von lycaon#zzz#zzz x reader#zenless zone zero x reader#zenless zone zero
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if you cant accept the lived experience of others in a way that might conflict with ur own to the point where you not only dismiss it entirely, but also make an effort to silence and degrade those voices in an effort to dismiss them from the conversation that you claim is a fight to bring equality of us all, then idk what to tell you.
i have no idea what happened in the last decade but it seriously feels like we've backpedaled to a time where i was fearful that by taking hormones and becoming a man, i would become the enemy of anyone who calls themselves a feminist. the cultural attitude i was brought up in led me to put off my transition for years, and it took me to a very dark place that i wouldn't wish upon anyone.
i also hate to bring this up but, being raised as a girl, i was very often spoken over or not listened to, told i was stupid or otherwise infantalised. Most of us hopefully realise that this isnt fair and want to move towards a society where this isnt the case. When i speak about the particular issues trans men face, i cant help but feel an eerily familiar feeling when im told that my issues arent important, that they do not exist or i'm selfish for wanting to do something about it.
people claim tme/tma labels are useful for speaking about populations but fails to concretely describe who is part of that population, by picking and choosing who should be included based on the issue being argued. how can this framework be considered inclusive when it seems to be fundamentally built upon excluding or refusing to acknowledge people?
you cant make a framework that, by default, cant support trans men/masculine people, non binary people, intersex people and other swathes of demographics, and then act like those people are whining, selfish brats or brutish, misogynistic idiots for calling you out on the exclusivity.
actual scum behaviour, please go spend time with queer folk in your actual, real life community and learn that we arent the enemy you seem to think we are.
thanks velvet nation, i really needed the vent space.
You're always allowed to vent here. <3
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because i think this deserves it's own post: ive seen the rhetoric that because marsha never outright referred to herself as a trans woman (that i know of), lots of cis people tend to try to erase her identity or at least make it seem like she was a cis gay man, which if you've read anything about her at all you know she wasn't.
while labels do change and i cant find any record of marsha outright saying "I AM A TRANS WOMAN", she did refer to herself as a woman quite often like, for example, on rapping with a street revolutionary: an interview with marsha p. johnson when she literally straight up says "Lots of times they tell me, “You’re not a woman!” I say, “I don’t know what I am if I’m not a woman." (actual quote copy pasted DIRECTLY from the s.t.a.r. survival, revolt and queer antagonist book). can we say for sure that if marsha was alive to this day she'd identify as a trans woman? no. can we make a pretty fair assumption, considering she's definitely not cis and tended to call herself a woman? i think so.
and either way, even if she's not a trans woman, again, she is definitely not cis. she reportedly desired gender reaffirming surgery, back then more commonly referred to as sex change surgery. she presented femininely. she used exclusively she/her pronouns. she called herself a woman. she used feminine terms to refer to herself. if she was or wasn't a binary trans woman is pretty much meaningless at this point - marsha was absolutely trans, and so was sylvia rivera, and saying otherwise is just trans erasure, plain and simple.
don't pretend that trans people that are important to queer history are actually cis. there are cis people important to queer history. focus on them if you want. leave marsha and sylvia alone and respect their memory by respecting their identity.
⚠️do not pretend ex cop fred sargeant is a reliable source on my post or i will lose my shit⚠️
#mine#not to be taken seriously#personal#cw discourse#discourse#sylvia rivera#marsha p johnson#trans erasure#lgbt#queer history#star#s.t.a.r#trans#transgender#trans pride#transexual#fred Sargeant
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more pjo headcanons cuz the last one was really long
•will has a southern accent but it faded a bit over time
•the tyche and nemesis kids argue alllllllll the time and it drives chiron insane
• they constantly manipulate each others luck in training/chores, sometimes even dates (not very often since the aphrodite campers aren't above breaking a few toes)
•the hunters of artemis will ALWAYS accept trans girls
•when artemis learned how close nico and reyna were to the point where they were like siblings it reminded her of bianca and she felt so bad that she let reyna took every other saturday off
•the other Hunter were wary of this until reyna brought up that nico was gay
•calypso is t e r r i f i e d of toasters
•leo finds it hilarious but made a quiet toaster for her anyway
•hazel cant visit the underworld with nico anymore because it gave their dad the hades/pluto effect
•https://youtu.be/WskMx1_PBv4?si=k8CnHTZa3qFydOGV this did indeed happen in the big house one day
•one time rachel and annabeth were hanging out (it was mentioned in hoh that rachel and annabeth were good friends dont come at me) and percy was on his way to see annabeth and rachel and annabeth pretended to argue as a joke
•percy ran straight back to his cabin
•once during capture the flag dionysus decided to be a little shit and split every couple on opposing teams
•there was much making out in that game
•will made clarisse a friendship bracelet when he was 13 and shes worn it ever since
•percy laughed at the irony of it and got a nice kick in the shin
•upon meeting hearthstone and blitzen everyone has thought at some point they were dating. Magnus has never told anyone otherwise
•T.J. has been single since he arrived at valhalla and alex and mallory have made it their mission to get him a gf cuz if anyone deserves bitches its T.J.
•hazel was completely shocked upon leaving the underworld and realizing how diverse the world is
•jason takes FREEZING showers
•leo takes the hottest showers known to man and is known to make cabin 9 extremely humid
•all you need to do to find leo in a crowd is start singing girl on fire by alicia keys
•"this girl is on-"
"FIREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE"
•as zoe was put in the stars by artemis, she lives in elysium AND the cosmos and has meet andromeda and perseus before
•the judges in the underworld spent a little over an hour trying to decide where luke would go (every option was available)
•they solved it with a rock paper scissors match and he got elysium
•athena has to remind most of the gods what they're the god of a lot
•it got so out of hand with hermes she tattooed it onto him for another century
•the hypnos campers can tell when people are awake or sleeping and will sometimes tell the harpies who for money
•nico went to the underworld once and came back with a whole ass haircut and will thought it was the hottest thing
•nico did hate mcdonalds because of the bianca thing but after tsats when he saw her for the last time he ended up liking it again because he has finally moved on
•jason met grover, they're actually good friends
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I am god and now am giving out sexualities to lotr charachters because no one can stop me. And I have insomnia and sleep deprived.
Frodo: A gay trans man and on the ace spectrum
Samwise: Bisexual and there's a reason I nickname him transwise gamgee. (samfro is t4t)
Pippin: Just a feral nonbinary guy (They/he) and is pansexual. he falls in love easily. Probalbly had a crush on everyone they met throughout the journey. (he even had a crush on tom bombadil because he liked his little gay songs)
Merry: Token straight out of the hobbits and is in love with eowyn, which is now his sexuality.... (I mean i dont blame him)
Boromir: Definitely not straight. I mean have you seen him? gay, absolutely gay
Aragorn: Straight but has questioned his gender many times.
Gandalf: The most aro/ace icon out there. Uses all pronouns. Will trans your gender and turn homophobes, transphobes and general bigots into toads. Move out of her way or you will be crushed by her heels.
Legolas: pretty fluid when it comes to gender, mostly uses he/they pronouns however he really doesn't mind anything else. He identifies as queer.
Gimli: he's a bear bisexual and will kill anyone who purposely misgenders another. He is dating his partner Legolas and has a lot of fun with them when they hunt down bigots.
Eowyn: She is bisexual and also loved merry (except they are both too scared to make the first move)
Faramir: Gandalf helped him transition when he was a child. All he wants is to be accepted by his father. Boromir loves that he has a brother. He is also unlabled.
Denethor: Repressed bisexual.
Arwen: I cant tell if shes straight or bi, but I’m leaning towards the latter
Elrond: The best dad in the world, but otherwise he is also straight.
Bilbo: The gay traumatized fun uncle. Obviously had a dwarf husband, but sadly is widowed. Now he sings his gay little songs and everyone adores him. mood tbh
Eomer: Straight but is extremely supportive of Gimli and Legolas that he cries whenever they do something sweet to one another. It gets worse when he's drunk.
Theodred: Hes not even really in the book but I need to spread my Boromir/Theodred rare pair ship. Hes bisexual obviously.
Galadriel: Intersex, nonbinary (they/she) and has a hot trophy husband.
Celeborn: the trophy husband, a trans man and is queer.
Saruman: He is the definition of the queer-coded villain. I mean his name is saurman of all colours and he literally transforms into a gay pride flag.
Tom Bombadil & Goldberry: They deserve to be grouped as one because they are the best representation of a queer platonic couple out there. Goals.
Rosie Cotton: Bi but doe sent really know it, but if she ever met Goldberry, she might then have her awakening.
last and not least we have Sauron himself, and anyone whose read the Silmarillion know exactly what his sexuality is. so go read it.
Anyway tell me your hcs if you have any, I would love to hear them.
#lotr#the fellowship of the ring#lord of the rings#the return of the king#bagginsheild#frodo#samwise gamgee#bilbo baggins#gandalf#hobbits#headcanons#tolkien#Sauron
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my gendy bendies. if you even care. close ups + notes under the cut
doc: no longer an insane med school dropout and lying about it, doc is now an insane nursing school graduate and still lying about it (both are saying they're doctors)
carolina: frankly carolina is way less interesting as a dude, goes from being a woman who has to be masc but not too masc but also masc enough to be Good Enough for the army/her farher/ her own neurosis shes now just just bog standard army brat type man. although without all the internalized misogyny to wrok through first hes a lot more concerned with the latent honosexual tendencies now.
tex: same issue as carolina to be honest, goes from being butch becuase she likes it (and to my mind, to be different from allison), is just like. a dude because she is a dude. differentiates himself from allison by being trans. he just chooses to do that. but its like. adding 0+0. a process has occurred hut you cant tell. (to me regular tex does this too but i digress)
church: shut-in IT department manager becomes shut-in fujoshi forum warrior
caboose: he doesnt think that hard anout any of this, i think he just wears whatever his mom dressed him in when he was little and calls it a day, as long as it's comfortable. swapped the goetee for glasses because the goetee reminds me of shaggy scooby doo and the glasses remind me of velma :)
tucker: tucker goes from IM A MAN IM MASC IM A MAN IM MASC to 'im not like those OTHER girls im one of the BOYS like YOU. but im also NOT A BOY im A GIRL im FEMININE and never insinute otherwise. puts effort into her appearance but doesn't want you to know it - she wants to appear effortless, asopposed to regular tucker who doesn't want you to know it because it's girly to carw how you look.
wash: girl wash purchases pain killers. thats it
kai: her main gendy stuff is modtly just "how hot and slutty and DTF as many genders as possible can i look at any given time" so she's easy peasy. she wants you to see her bulge so bad.
grif: trades stubble for a rack, he doesn't put effort into his appearance and his taste wouldn't change, so it's very little difference.
simmons: a boy child bullied for being a nerd and who mostly hangs out with girls until he gets scared of them and a girl child bullied for being a nerd and who mostly hangs out with boys until they get embarrassed by her is the same child basically. so very small detail changes and not much else.
sarge: sarge is not a gender presenter sarge is a bit presenter and baby am i dedicated to it. girl sarge is still saying shit like "ive never hit a girl in my life" and not thinking twice about it
donut: donut is a silly little man whos going out of his way (intentionally or not) to look and act like a homo gay fag scream it from the rafters. the first insticnt is to make him be a hyper feminine bimbo type, but i think they were right when that one gender bend ep of s14 said hes a butch now. i agree even if they did it wrong. hes now a free-the-tit type butch with farm muscles (girl edition). enjoy.
lopez: in the spirit of all the great photoshop gags of early rvb, she just gets a bow to show that shes a girl. he likes it but will never admit that.
sheila: she is a tank and caboose can't tie a tie so that's right out.
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oh you want to force the label "butch" on to me? well looks like its time to go back to strictly fucking cis men
#damn and i was really comin around too! too bad ig. yall know whats best or whatever you need to tell yourselves.#im a man. call me a gay man before you think of calling me that shit. call me EVERY slur one would call a gay man before ever calling me#ANYTHING NEAR a fucking lesbian of ANY variety.#i will stab women to prove a point to you until you fuck off.#we'll never be seen as equal to cis ppl till yall stop forcing identities on to people. literally doing the exact same shit cis ppl#do to me already but bc you tell yourself you're above it and woke n shit suddenly you're somehow different. fuck the entire fuck off.#until you can look at me and see me as just a fucking dude. we will never have equality. until you're able to STOP trying to see me as#ANYWHERE NEAR adjacent to women- we- as trans people- will never have equality.#and no i dont think that means lesbian = basically just women but it does subconsciously in plenty of yalls minds.#otherwise why tf would someone be saying trans men/butch as if they're equivalents? why cant you just say trans men?#or better yet and more accurate would be trans men and/or butches. bc otherwise using a dash in between trans man and butch#means you think they're the same thing and just different phrases for the same thing. thats what it means to use that dash#like that.#yall make being a stealth trans guy sound so much more appealing. if as soon as i mention im trans you start thinking#'butch' or 'afab' subconsciously and go on about the struggles of afabs or whatever then ig that means i gotta be stealth and never reveal#that im trans ever tf again bc yall STILL dont fucking get it.
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can you write penelope garcia with a trans-masc (he/they) reader? Maybe reader is feeling a bit insecure about their identity and penelope validates them. 😕🙏🏾 my little trans heart needs this
omg yes absolutely, this is such a cute idea :((
there's truly not enough penny love, and there's truly not enough penny x trans-masc reader and i am happy to provide
penelope garcia x transmasc!reader
warnings: just a teeny bit of angst but otherwise none, just lots of cavity inducing fluff :3
word count: 497
a/n: i'm sorry it's so short, i feel like i didn't this idea justice. i may come back to this later and rewrite it if i can think of a better way to write it. anyhow, reader is transmasc and uses he/they pronouns, it is not specified whether or not reader is on hormones or has any type of gender affirming surgery because i wanted to leave that up to interpretation of the readers. every trans person is different so i want to make this as inclusive as possible, i apologize for any slip ups that could be in here.
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"you wanted to see me pretty girl?" you ask softly as you walk into penelope's batcave, the blonde turning her chair away from her many monitors to face you.
"yes, i did. come sit." penelope replied, pulling another chair over to where she was and patted it.
you complied with a soft chuckle and sat on the chair across from her, giving the woman a sweet smile. "what can i do for you my gorgeous angel?"
"tell me what's got you so down pretty boy."
"what?" you ask in shock, taken aback by her bluntness. how did she even know you were upset? you had barely seen her today and made sure to put on a smile each time you did. you didn't want to bring your bubbly girlfriend's mood down because you were feeling insecure and dysphoric.
"you heard me baby, why are you so down in the doldrums?"
"oh, well... -god pen, it's dumb. don't worry about it." you brush off.
"handsome, your feeling are not dumb. i love you, please let me help you." penelope said a little firmly, grabbing your hands in hers.
you almost break at those words, feeling your throat getting a little tight as you try holding back the tears of both relief and sadness.
"i've just been feeling really insecure lately again, i guess." you began with a shaky voice, trying to keep your calm as you explained your bottled up feelings to your angel of a girlfriend.
"like i'm not good enough, manly enough."
"oh my love..." penelope says softly, her face falling into a heartbroken expression. "is there any reason for this? or did these feelings just creep up?"
"they just creeped up i suppose. i just, i don't feel like i'm being a guy right. that i'm not good enough of a man no matter how hard i try..." you confessed, tears slipping down your cheeks as you tried to not let out any sobs.
"(name), there is no right way to be a man. you are the perfect man just as you are. no matter the body you have, no matter the hormones you have coursing through you. you are a man because you know you are, it makes you feel right and happy. and you're an amazing man at that." penelope assured you sweetly, wiping your tears with her thumbs gently. "what i look at when i see you is a handsome, capable man who is amazing at their job, amazing at his studies and the perfect boyfriend. i know i cant make these insecurities go away over night, but i want you to know that i am always always here for you when they appear and you need help. i don't want you hiding your feelings and struggles from me handsome. promise from now on you'll come to me?"
"i promise pretty girl, i wont hide from you again. thank you, for being here. for everything you do."
"what else are girlfriends for?"
#penelope garcia x reader#penelope garcia x transmasc!reader#penelope garcia fluff#ghostedéabha#éabha writes#éabha's 💌
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I posted 667 times in 2022
That's 173 more posts than 2021!
230 posts created (34%)
437 posts reblogged (66%)
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I tagged 409 of my posts in 2022
Only 39% of my posts had no tags
#rainy babbles - 107 posts
#penposting - 92 posts
#rainy answers - 60 posts
#rainy talks - 46 posts
#toyposting - 32 posts
#rainys conditioning - 15 posts
#penposting  - 13 posts
#hypnosis - 8 posts
#rainy real - 7 posts
#teehee - 5 posts
Longest Tag: 76 characters
#even if the night ended badly its a beautiful day tomorrow with you in it <3
My Top Posts in 2022:
#5
thinking abt the point in trance where ur just too blissed out n distracted that your only response to anything is
“nnghh”
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#4
only trans people can see this post all others will be shot like a farm animal with mad cow disease
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#3
anyone wanna hold me and bombard me with perfectly soft pleasant brainwashing until i cant remember how to talk, let alone think
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#2
Day Two: Blink
She blinked.
“Just waaaatch the crystal. 5 minutes, no looking away, no cheating, and I’ll pay for dinner. Scout’s honor.”
She would roll her eyes, but that would probably count as cheating. So she just stared. This was sort of a stupid bit, now that she had the peace and quiet to think about it. Some moronic stageplay ‘hypnosis’ act. She could put up with the cornier bits, so she didn’t mind. She just couldn’t wrap her mind around how anyone thought this would actually work on someone.
Sure, it was easy on the eyes. It was nice to look at, had a pretty glow to it and about a million sides for her gaze to shift to. The facets all glittered in the sun, shining pretty light everywhere. She could admit it was nice to admire while she breezed through her time.
She blinked.
“There you go. Just watch and relax…”
She resisted the urge to tell them to shut up, but their voice only came to her in a muddied mumble. She was focused on the crystal dangling in front of her now. Had it gotten bigger since she refocused her attention? Or had she just…needed to stare longer..?
No, it seemed bigger since she blinked for sure. Or just closer. It didn’t matter—though her eyes lidded a little to counteract it. She didn’t know how much time had passed. She was pretty relaxed, to be honest.
She blinked. Slower, this time.
The crystal had most definitely dropped lower to her face. It twisted and shone in the pretty light, shining all its pretty colors across the walls, and it…it looked, um…
“…pretty…” she heard herself mumble, jaw slack, as her eyes fluttered slowly. No one else was doing any of the work—“hypnosis” or otherwise. As far as she was concerned, she was doing the heavy lifting. Her eyes, that was. They felt so heavy…and the crystal was drawing even closer, filling up her entire field of vision. It was so much to try and focus on all the glittering sides at once—too much. It was too…much…
Her eyes rolled back.
“…man. Only lasted 2 and a half this time. New record!”
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for valentines day can i be your giggly pretty mindless toy, knelt in front of you and helpless to your complete control?
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you're assuming a lot about binary trans people, and if anything it makes me think that our understandings of our genders aren't actually that different? Not every binary trans person wants to pass as a cis person. I don't want to pass as a cis woman, I want people to understand me for what I am, a collection of internal beliefs and thoughts that I've constructed an identity with. It sounds like we both have created identities for ourselves! If you think that non binary people are the only people capable of creating their own identities and striving to be seen as them, that's on you
im gonna try one more time. i cant really tell if youre being sarcastic or not so im gonna assume youre being genuine when you say you think we have similar understandings of gender. but to me it sounds like you are deliberately ignoring the Actual Words i am saying.
we need words to describe our experiences, both different and common ones. those words may be in themselves faulty or somewhat inaccurate, but they are what we have to discuss important concepts, and they function well enough if they have a generally agreed-upon meaning. right?
so. the dominant culture of the imperial core is one of strictly binary sex. anything that breaks this, is deviant of the "rules of nature", to this dominant culture. right?
so then we call people who are NOT of this binary system multiple different things depending on cultural context and personal identity and personal circumstance. right?
'nonbinary' is only one of those words. to each individual it may mean any one of hundreds upon thousands of different things. everyone has their own personal identity, and while we may use the same word to describe said identity, no two people will have the same definition.
this is true of 'manhood' and 'womanhood' as well. every individual, cis trans both neither intersex perisex and so on and so forth, every single one of them has different PERSONAL interpretations of these words and the concepts they are meant to describe.
but 'woman' has to mean something in order to function as a real concept. it has to have some semblance of shared meaning, shared experience, shared conceptual feeling and vibe, for it to work within the imperial core as a means of systemic control and oppression, for it to work as a communicable identity, and for it to function as a word in a language.
in the same vein of thought, 'binary' is a word we are using to describe someone whose gender, in some way, shape, or form, fits into the schema of 'man and woman'. your internal definition of your own gender does not actually matter very much to other people who do not know it exists.
for me, it matters that i am percieved as a binary gender no matter what i do. it matters, and hurts, a lot. and for some people, it matters and hurts less. for some people, it matters and hurts not at all.
whether you consider yourself binary or not is entirely up to you and how you interpret your own navigation of the world. its very strange to act as if im saying anything otherwise. YOU defined YOURSELF as binary in your responding to me. you said you were also agender, so, like i said in my prev tags, i dont think youre the target audience. but the way youre reacting, it seems you think you are. i am also going to reiterate that 'binary' is not a bad thing to be - binary trans people and for that matter, binary cis people, are not my enemies. but i deserve to have the language to talk about my experiences as they compare to binary people. that's all it is.
#if we cant reach a resolution here i think itd be best if we block and go our separate ways also lol#i also think its strange to assert that theres no such thing as a binary trans person bc that sort of fundamentally spits in the face of ge#derqueer and nonbinary trans identities imo?#there are certainly people who identify as binary to whatever degree that they do#nonbinary identities arent 'complex inner gender feelings' they are quite literally genders that DO NOT FIT WITHIN THE MAN/WOMAN SCHEMA THA#S IMPOSED ON US#which again this is sorta what i was talking abt in the original post#i cant talk about things that are unique to or uniquely affected by my gender as a not-binary gender without binary (or again 'binary-adjac#nt') people being insulted that i would dare try to talk about exorsexism as it affects nonbinary people#which is exactly why i need to use the word binary#its genuinely really frustrating how every time ive tried ive met the same resistance#the first person i met who didnt was in fact a binary trans man lmfao#and we talked abt the differences and similarities between being a gnc man and having 'pansy' be your desired presentation and what my desi#es were presentation wise. that i couldnt be an effeminate man or a masc woman bc either of those are still recognized as men and women#and i really dont understand why more binary trans people dont make that same effort to meet me and talk w me abt these different ways we a#e treated by the patriarchy#and instead essentially say that nonbinary identity doesnt actually really exist bc Everyone is nonbinary/No One is binary#like thats kinda shitty
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ramble about my aromantic tendencies cuz im all. confused im SURE theres a word for this i just think im not ready??? i think like. not in a personal way, in a PHYSICAL way like something needs to change before id ever CONSIDER IT, makes me sick otherwise like theres so many things!! so many hurdles and stuff that would deter me from all that nonsense but i still like the idea of it like the idea is so sweet, its why i enjoy it so much in fiction but. in execution? IDK MAN.. freaks me out for so many reasons
romantic love is so cute bro like. its genuinely adorable to me, i love listening to love songs and just feeling the emotion and passion behind all the words, but ummmmmmm. i think realistically im capable? i just think that any attempt wouldnt go well, i dont think i can give someone what they might need, its always been like. okay 1. im going to be OBSESSED with you ill do anything you say ill let you mistreat and abuse me ill do anything for you okay which is not ideal!! not ideal, made for bad people dont want bad people. but?? on the other hand its also like i cant imagine loving another person more than i love my friends, but thats whats expected of me isnt it? i think they wouldnt like it very much if i had an equal amount but like. is it even possible? I REALLY DONT KNOW.. i know ive said it before, i just feel like. love, not platonic not romantic just LOVE pure unlabeled love. what kind of treatment would i give to a partner that i dont already give to my friends? itd go really wrong there im sure, i dont wanna hurt anybody yknow
idk its like such a cute little fantasy tho isnt it? maybe i meet someone and we become friends and then it leads to something more, is going on dates fun? maybe it would be but. i go on dates with my friends!!!!!! like is it different? i guess, but im out with someone i love i dont see how it could be much different
sometimes it feels like people like me dont get that. its hard to be good enough for someone else, like. i know theres like 8 billion people in the world but its always. im too fat im trans im not hot enough im too mentally ill im too awkward too. TOO EVERYTHING!! so on top of like. how can someone possible be more than what i already have, i have to be good enough too!!!!! so much work, i honestly. after brian, i was so content to just fall back on fictional characters, i know it sounds silly but self shipping LITERALLY saved my life i was hanging by a thread after him and then i found a coping mechanism that made me feel so good
i think its uncertainty, when it comes to fictional relationship? i make the rules, the scenarios, its perfect for me but. in real life you cant do that, im thrown in BLIND. i know its part of life, you learn and grow together but erm... im autistic please dont do this to me PLEASE if i plan out my conversation at a grocery store with the clerk and im STILL THROWN OFF... yeeowch!!
thats the thing im very offputting to other people like. something about me, i can see it in their eyes, see the way they kinda. like im. somethings all wrong with me!!!! they dont like it, i cant imagine myself being charming but.. maybe if i start T, ill be less. dreadfully anxious about seeing other people, then maybe ill flourish a little more. we'll see, it still freaks me out the thought of loving someone more than my friends like TO ME i dont think its possible and i dont want to find out about it okay it makes me sick it feels like betrayal, never tell me otherwise or ill feel awful, its betrayal to me!!!! cuz i want to give my friends the most i can give, they deserve it, so like. what, am i supposed to give less? give someone else more?? like ew who are you1!!! i dont need you i just need my besties thats all i need :] but its still a nice thought isnt it? its cute
i think i just have like a limit on the amount of people i can know at one time, ive always wanted more friends and i have more friends now!! sooo i dont realy need anyone else then? its very easy for me to feel satisfied with what i have, of course i am!!! grateful even!!!! so im like. it just doesnt matter so much to me. nice thought but i dont see it happening like i dont really WANT it to happen like i do but also. like. listen.
am i still gonna throw down to little love songs? absolutely yes sir!! to me tho like its feelings i can easily project onto my friends SKFJS like how me and my bestie kiss eachother on the head okay. because i loooooove them, its so easy because i love them!! its a love song, i dont care what kind of love its made for, i feel love and ill hear it how i want :] ITS. its some weird social bullshit okay, who says we cant? who says we cant go on little friend dates and kiss and hug and be in love with eachother while also being JUST friends? WHO SAYS!!!! its what i dont get, theres some disconnect between romantic and platonic love that i dont see at all. why should one be more valued than the other? hogwash okay its gobbledygook its. nonsense!!! im glad i dont see it that way, the hard part is finding other people who also dont see it that way, i realize my feelings on it arent STANDARD.. still, im satisfied. i have a lot of love to give and im always allowed to give it, isnt that so wonderful?
#i said like 34 times here#very californian of me#this is some crazy bpd moodswing shit alright i know i sound very whimsical here but#watch me crash in like 20 minutes into the deepest darkest depression ever witnessed#maybe ill survive actually. its hard to feel very upbeat at all given the circumstance#this is the lightest ive felt since he went missing#it will not last. why would it
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transsexuals isn't a widely accepted term anymore
i suppose the first image is trying to represent a trans woman. a trans woman is not a homosexual male. a homosexual male is a man that is sexually attracted to men exclusively. a trans woman is a woman that was assigned male at birth
those are outdated ideas and terms. psychology - especially gender related psychology - is an ever growing field. i cant tell you a single reliable doctor who'd tell you that being trans is directly linked to autogynophilia, despite what outdated beliefs claim
can being trans and being an autogynophile coexist? sure. is it bad? no! is it normal? yes! are they directly related? no. no """man""" is going to face extreme violence statistics, spend an insane amount of money, risk losing friends, family and a support network just because it turns them on. maybe it turns them on as well. i guarantee you that's not the only single reason for socially and/or medically transitioning.
amab folks who dress up hyperfeminine purely for entertainment usually don't identify as trans women. obviously, this isn't a rule or a law, but generally speaking. drag queens or otherwise performers usually don't label themselves as trans women
even those that do, it's still fine. who gives a shit. so what if she's amab and performing stereotypical femininity makes her happy for whatever reason, whether that's empowerment, gender euphoria, arousal, a mix of all three or a secret third one? im afab and performing stereotypical masculinity often makes me feel empowered. does that turn me into a fetishist? or does it only apply to trans women? wow. i wonder why.
why am i even taking my time to answer this? how bored am i really? i should wash my hair. it feels greasy
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