#and i swear its yall who believe everything my abuser says about me. you need to tell yourself its true that i did the shit they accuse me
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Quite honestly, i think people just dont like to acknowledge how many times i have been victimized bc it doesnt work for their narrative of the Scary Bad Trans Guy With No Regard For Others And Likes To Kick Puppies And Doesnt Know Real Pain Or Trauma
#bc otherwise yall would have to feel bad about putting me through way more additional unnecessary trauma on here#and i swear its yall who believe everything my abuser says about me. you need to tell yourself its true that i did the shit they accuse me#of and theyre just this pure uwu innocent pewson who doews no wongg umu#yall dont wanna except ive been through hell bc then you gotta accept youve put me through additional unnecessary hell that only warped my#perception worse of a community i thought i was fuckin part of and accepted in but apparently tf not#like you only have yourselves to blame for that shit. for why i hate online queer spaces now.#man it would just suck so so hard for your narrative if i was actually abused as much as i say and my abusive x was actually lying about me#bc otherwise how will you pretend trans men never ever experience any issues ever?#like i dont need to look. ik im one of the main blogs yall like to target and put on blast for transandrophobia stuff bc im super fuckin#outspoken about my shit (nevermind that yall never directly confront me). i already know thats how it is bc theres ppl on here who have a#apparently deep interest in constantly hating me and trying to find reasons im wrong. so when i say something is bad they habe to act like#its good actually somehow. and ik it all roots back to my abuser. there is literally no other reason i can think of that would mame ppl#that invested in hating me unless they believe everything my ex says. so undoubtedly theres ppl in my exs spaces who believe#transandrophobia is fake men arent oppressed ever etc etc. i digress. but ik its yall who've propped this whole shit up#ik its yall who put me on blast for this first and triwled to spread it that i was one of the Big Bad Names in the transandrophobia spaces#so ik yall use me as an example. ik you tell people i lie about everything. ik you tell people i exaggerate. ik you tell people im crazy#ik you tell ppl they cant trust me or rely on me and spread all the bs my ex says about me and even spreads their abuse toward me further#by even doing that shit. yall NEED to keep believing that im the Big Bad Trans Guy that you think i am bc otherwise your whole worldview#falls tf apart. everything you've been standing on online about how trans mascs who believe in transandrophobia are bad would fall apart.#if i am really as fuckin abused and victimized as i say. suddenly you dont get to use me as the example for Bad Transandrophobia Believer#and I KNOW thats the only reason yall choose not to listen or believe us. its LITERALLY just because you're choosing a side in a personal#relationship situation. ik it has nothing to do with politics for plenty of you. you're taking a side and shitting out reasons for why you#did after the fact.#if you really care about politics n shit you should listen to ALL THE OTHER TRANS MEN TALKING ABOUT THIS#besides using one person as your example for why you shouldnt believe people who believe this is a thing.#i mean. even aside the fucking fact that its all bs. if yall dont wanna believe me. whatever. you can get traumatized by them if you want#idefc at this point. if you actually care about politics as much as you say you gotta engage w people in good faith and uh maybe try n#listen to the SWATHES of other trans guys who also talk about this shit and thinks its real.
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An Analysis in Threes
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MUSE: Captain Red Handed Jessica
Three Strengths:
    Her adaptability and resourcefulness. Is she brave, yes. Is she lucky, also yes.  But over all, she can roll with the cards sheâs been dealt in a way that many would call inhumanly clever. Her intelligence, her perception, and her charisma are all different ingredients of this indomitable characteristic of hers. She can see the value in just about anything and anyone, can pick up on clues and tangents few others can follow, and can remember seemingly endless details, tho unfortunately not on command. But even then, her patchy memory seems to contribute to this adaptability as well, as it usually allows for detachment. If she can find resources everywhere, it means she can survive everywhere. There have been countless times where the wheel of fortune has suddenly turned on her and sheâd lost near everything and her response was more or less Damn, ok I need food water and shelter lets go. No food? Grow food. No water? Ask someone if they have water. No shelter? Sleep outside. No money? Steal money. Canât hear anymore? Cool I can use loud weapons. Crashed on an island? My island now. Shot? Free bullet. She knows when to push, she knows when to quit, and sometimes she knows when to gamble based on her ability ( what a man can do and what he canât do and all that ). Strong she may be, she knows its foolish to rely on strength. Survival of the fittest actually rarely means survival of the strongest. ( edit; this is the theme for the entirety of her character. I will say it 50,000 times. I am very sorry ). And as a student of philosophy and biology, she understands that phrase better than most. Leading to our next point.
    Her understanding. As I stated, her charisma is something unmatched, and is a key element in all three of her strengths. This charisma might not exist as prominently were it not for her ability to understand. She has limited ( Iâll get back to that ) but deep running empathy and while not terribly observant all the time, she is always perceptive. Not only that, but sheâs personally known abuse, hardship, and uncertainty, and understands that hate or anger can be rooted in similar pain. She was schooled lightly in both Christian and Buddhist values before diving heavily into democratic philosophy, meaning she believes all being experience suffering and therefore kindness is a powerful sign of strength, but also that suffering while free and equal is better than comfort in oppression. And between her sweet words and beautiful face, she can get most people to open up in ways they themselves my not have expected. Being very good with people means she can learn from them, gain something from them, lead them, and/or use them. But Jessica isnât a manipulator in truth; her intentions are almost always kind or healthy ones. She absolutely uses people from time to time but not EVER without them consenting to or being made aware of such because again, unlike a manipulative person, she understands that can ruin a relationship and therefore ruin a resource. What it makes for is an excellent leader, a beloved captain, and a trusted ally at most and an excellent conversationalist at the least.     But her understanding isnât just social, oh no. Itâs academic as well. Armed only with his little library and the lessons of his own teachers, Jessicaâs foster father tirelessly smithed her into a not just a girl who knew a lot of things, but a truly intelligent, thinking mind. Heâd die before learning heâd succeeded tenfold. Jessica isnât one to just except things as they are, facts or otherwise. She usually needs to prove it, experiment, see things from a new angle. Debates with her are fun! She has no issue admitting sheâs wrong or confessing sheâs never thought of it that way, and is actually wrong a lot of the time. It doesnât bruise her ego, it excites her. It means thereâs more to learn. And her ability to constantly understand new concepts paired with her ability to overwhelmingly understand people combine to make for a very powerful core idea of hers: We are fittest to survive because we all fit together. Our humanity, our empathy, our community are our strengths because they keep us united, which keeps us the fittest. No one is independent, no man is an island. People are power. And thus her final strength is just that.
    Her power. While she and I still firmly state that strength isnât everything donât be disillusioned; its very goddamn important. And itâs something Jessica has plenty of. She is durable and clever because of her rocky early childhood, she is quick and versatile from her youth in a pirate port, she is physically strong and mighty from her years training in martial arts, and sheâs an absolute crackshot after years of diligent practice with her trusty pistols. Her true strength may lie in her brains and in her allies yes, but even without them, Red Jessica is a powerhouse of a warrior. She can end fights extremely quickly or run from them without a prayer of catching her ( no shame in the later, both skills keep you alive ). And it may be in bad taste to say, but ever since loosing most of her hearing, Jess swears up and down itâs made her vision better, her reaction time faster, and her quick thinking even quicker. Yes of course sheâs slowed down with age, but a bullet shoots at the same speed no matter how old you are. And you best hope she didnât bring her firecrackers, because while sudden loud noises will absolutely temporarily discombobulate or debilitate an opponent with healthy hearing, itâll hardly effect her at all and suddenly, youâre a sitting duck. You see those thighs? You see those calves? She can crush PINEAPPLES with them! People have seen her do it! Do you know how many micro-fractures broke and rebuilt those hands? Thousands! She can crush a trachea like a fucking beer can! She can kick you to death! One ill placed curb stomp and you are DECEASED. Sometimes sheâll just psyche you out because she KNOWS you know she can kill your stupid ass!     But while her strength, mental and physical, have always been there, her power is relatively new. As stated before, people are power. Not knowledge, not money, not strength. People. Sheâs a fearsome warrior but sheâd be useless if outnumbered. Shes a very successful pirate, but sheâd never make it out of port without a crew on her ship. She found a gorgeous island, but itâd still be wild without those who built itâs piers and buildings. She manages orchards and tends to them and harvests them herself, but she would loose all of her crop without the helping hands of her employed farmers. And like I mentioned, she deeply understands this. Freedom is not independence or vice versa. Did you make the clothes on your back or the fabric that made those clothes? Did you write the books you read to make you smarter or teach you that skill? Did you plant the seed years ago that grew that orange youâre eating? No, of course not. Jessica didnât either. Another human did. We all need each other to fill the holes in our lives that we canât fill ourselves. Humans are puzzle pieces in that way, there is no bigger picture or prayer for survival on our own. And because of this, we can do anything we as a community, as a SPECIES work together to achieve. There is no knowledge if thereâs no one to learn from, there is no money if a society donât give it value, your money is worthless if those youâre paying decide to rise against you, your role as leader only exists at the consent of those you lead, and your strength wonât save you from a sinking ship. People are, and always will be, power.     And as someone who is exceptionally strong and exceedingly smart, Jessica has slotted herself in the humanity puzzle thusly: The strong exist to protect the weak, the smart exist to educate, and the lucky exist so the unlucky may be given aid. And it is with this fairness and compassion that she has won the trust of so many. She has a great many friends and allies even outside of those in her crew or on her island. And she can make many more with ease. That kind of power is not a power to be trifled with, even if she can kick your ass six ways to Saturday without it.Â
Three Weaknesses:
    She suffers ADHD. Now before ANY OF YâALL SAY ANYTHING, I myself also suffer ADHD. And yes I do say suffer because well thatâs what it causes for Jessica and I, suffering. Yes, it is ableist language to say âsuffering fromâ rather than âhasâ or âis diagnosed withâ and yes it perpetuates a stigma against us but god DAMN IT in both Jessicaâs case and mine, it make life much much harder than it needs to be. At the end of the day, Red Jessica is a fantasy of mine; I pour myself into her whether I mean to or not. Sheâs the adult I wish I was, the person I might be if I had no anxiety, or brainfog, or lived in a world were I didnât need a credit score or a degree. And even then, I canât say I know anyone elseâs problems better than my own. So if my character has problems, by sheer osmosis they are going to reflect some of mine. Both of the characters I write have ADHD because I have ADHD and I couldnât even begin to know how a non-ADHD mind works to write it properly. And no, Iâm not being dramatic when I say it causes me suffering. I canât drive, I canât hold down a job, I nearly flunked out of school, I still cant read very fast or spell very well, I am constantly overwhelmed by mundane things, Iâm a slow learner, I forget very important things or recent things, I forget about things that mean the world to me, I forget about people, I stumble through tasks, I procrastinate hobbies and basic hygiene, and everything I do takes all goddamn day and I can only really do one important thing at a time and in order of importance. If I have a date at 4pm, Iâm dressed and ready at 11am because Iâve gotta do the important thing first or else I will forget to do the important thing. I started typing this at a little before 5pm. Itâs 7;30. Itâll probably be 10 oâclock at night by the time I fucking finish ( edit: l m a o its 1am bitch you thought ). Iâm 26 and am just medicated enough to barely function. So yeah. Suffering is the word.     Though for Jessica, perhaps suffering is a tad strong of a word. Her ADHD affects her ability to function in far less debilitating ways ( though whether thatâs a result of a less severe diagnosis than me or the result of the society, situations, and responsibilities she functions in and around are far different from mine, whoâs to say ). For her, she has very consuming hyperfixations that can last anywhere between weeks to decades, a spotty memory that is detail and memento oriented, sheâs scatterbrained more often then not but can focus with amazing clarity on her interests or in high adrenaline situations, is is ABYSMALLY bad at math and EXCRUCIATINGLY bad with numbers ( as opposed to me, who is good at numbers but shit at spelling or reading ), she can forget anything no matter how important it is to her or to anyone, sheâs bad with names and dates, is COMPLETELY time-blind, has trouble prioritizing, and of course, wile not actually that materialistic, she absolutely has the olâ magpie instinct.     While her poor memory assists in her adaptability and ability to move on, it also means she forgets things she needed to remember, like when the last time she bathed was and who this person is and what happened between her and someone else or what conversationâs shes had. Unfortunately this means sheâs a very good friend and leader... while youâre around and interacting with her on at least a weekly basis. Itâs almost a lack of object permanence in both a social and very real sense. If something is not right in front of her, odds are sheâs not going to think about it. And while its something she constantly kicks herself for and actively tries to be better about, it applies to people too. Face to face is the best way to interact with her; she wonât think to write you and in her modern verse she wonât think to ever call and sheâll text you back in perhaps a few days. She doesnât value you any less, I promise. Sheâs just either distracted or overwhelmed. Also, for someone as understanding as her, she is surprisingly self-centered. Not selfish, self-centered. Sheâll talk about herself more than she should, and will assume people understand that sheâs doing so as a form of showing empathy rather than bragging when they may not know this at all. Actually she accidentally assumes all the time. It was far worse when her hearing was functional; sheâd finish your sentence for you or guess what it was you were going to say ( again, not to talk over, you but to show she understands you and the conversation, tho it usually came of as annoying or patronizing ). Sometimes she mistakenly assumes you believe or know the same things she does without even realizing it. Maybe she perceives the right idea off of someone but isnât observant enough to notice anything past that. And while she is willing to change her mind about things, she might change her mind a tad too quickly. Sheâs an over-sharer and is horrible at keeping any kind of secret. Romantic relationships tend to fizzle out. Her impulse control is improving but has a VERY long way to go. Sheâs always chasing something new.     All and all, when youâre a pirate, a librarian, or even a captain, all of these things may be irritating and inconvenient, but are overall manageable in chunks. ...But as a governor to her island, as a leader of an entire population... oof. In the position of leadership that sheâs in, she canât afford to make too many massive mistakes, and she knows this. âThere is no power quite like the power of being underestimatedâ is a phase youâll hear her say a lot but for her, there is a shift in connotation. If people expect less and you do more thatâs a great upper hand in any situation but for her, it was a safety net. Having ADHD sometimes means going months or years being fine and then eventually you fuck up and everyone around you wonders how in the world you managed to do that. She has only barely avoided disaster more times than sheâd like to admit. Even with the resourcefulness, the understanding, and the power she wields, sheâs finally starting to realize that sheâs bit off more than she might be able to chew, with the entire well-beings and livelihoods of others on the line. And she fears that one day sheâll play her cards wrong and everything sheâd built, everything sheâs done, will all come crashing down in ruin.
    She is Hard of Hearing. This one is literally as simple as it sounds: she has moderate and degenerative hearing loss and tinnitus after years of canons, explosions, gunshots, and a definitive, scale tipping attack in her early 30s. Her ears just donât work at all like they used to. The whole world sounds like it would if everything was underwater: she canât pin point the location of sounds, how far off or close sounds are, and barely registers changes in volume. And it only gets worse the older she gets; one day she wonât hear anything at all. And while yes, again, it might be very harsh and ableist to say, the truth of the matter that being deaf a â weakness â more often than its a strength.     That said, it very well can be a strength. Iâve already mentioned that trick with the firecrackers and let me tell you it is a DAMN EFFECTIVE TRICK. Shes around explosions and canons and guns all the time and now she can focus while being around them five times better than she could in the past! But unfortunately it also means sheâs very easy to sneak up on, she sometimes isnât aware of danger until itâs nearly too late, no one can get her attention or warn her across any distance, itâs very easy to escape from her, and itâs easy for her to be just... left out of things. She might hear you talking, but she has little to no idea what youâre saying without sign or lipreading. Some people donât have the patience or even just the courtesy to speak slower, or clearer, or repeat themselves a lot. Though, those last too thinks arenât weaknesses of hers so much as they are the weakness of others, but they still negatively affect her self esteem and her effectiveness as a leader.     All of this has taught her to pick her battles carefully, and plan around the elements of surprise and discombobulation. And while communication was tricky at first, it only got easier, and now she can talk to you almost like anyone can, so long as sheâs looking you in the face.Â
    That damn bleeding heart. We have established a number of things that should easily add up to an overly empathetic, trusting, fight-the-good-fight, martyr-some, idealistic pushover; she believes humanity and kindness are strengths, she has taken on the role of leader and then a provider, she has known suffering and tasked herself with ending the suffering of others to the best of her ability, she lacks the clarity of mind to assume people arenât just as good or capable as her automatically, she can have poor impulse control at times, she wants to have relationships, and ( while I never stated this outright yet it can be inferred ), she believes that being able to see yourself in others is the foundation of humanity and ( as i did say outright ) humanity is what keeps us unified and unity is what makes us fit and strong. Keeping up? Good. Hereâs the curve ball: How can she whole hardheartedly preach and believe all of this, to the point of it being the foundation of her character, WHILE BEING A VIOLENT THIEVING AND BLOODTHIRSTY PIRATE?! HOW, MANGO? HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE?! MAKE IT MAKE SENSE!! Ok, fine, sure, I will. Iâm sure about one half of you are looking up from the screen and going â Oh yeah, wow I totally forgot that bit. â and the other half got about two and a half paragraphs in before squinting and silently calling bullshit. So let me explain.     In short, sheâs a detached hypocrite and is well aware and unashamed of her hypocrisy while far less aware of her detachment. Iâll cover both: Western culture as a whole seems to be under the impression that hypocrisy, despite context or importance, is automatically bad. I donât know where this comes from personally ( my bet is Christianity but I have exactly 0 evidence ) but its a very... flawed idea. Take the freedom of speech vs racism problem; say you owned a bar where all could speak their mind freely over cold drinks. Excellent concept without context, right? Sure. ....Then a die hard racist covered in slurs and symbols walks in and orders- what are you going to do? The correct answer is to throw him out instantly. Not let him sit so long as he doesnât cause trouble, not just ignore him and hope he doesnât return, you throw him out. Is it hypocritical? Yep! Sure is! But it is also 100% necessary to protect your other patrons because if you donât, the racist starts feeling safe and bringing his racist buddies, literally everyone else starts feeling unsafe and starts to hang out elsewhere, and two months later, ta da! You now own a n*zi bar and there is literally nothing you can do about it. Jessica is in a somewhat similar situation. You as a pretend bar owner need to make a decision as who to let into your bar and who to throw out for the good of all of your patrons. Jessica too is faced daily with that decision. If she wantâs to help as many people as possible, the only realistic way she can do that are by protecting those under her leadership... only. She is surrounded by hateful, angry, sneaky, traitorous, abusive, or otherwise evil people. Piracy as a profession and poverty in general can do that to a person. Of course there is a clear difference between those down on their luck and desperate, and the truly cruel and twisted, but unfortunately both types of people yield the same wrongdoings. Itâs absolutely her nature to extend a hand to anyone and everyone but.... she just canât anymore. Too many times has her trust been betrayed, too many times has she gotten in peoples business trying to be helpful, only for her to absolutely bite her in the ass. Too many time the extended hand is bitten and once or twice, sheâs actually made things worse.     Now, she will only help someone she loves, someone under her leadership, or someone who seeks her out. Thatâs it. And even then, sometime it manages to bite er in the ass. But she had to set that hard limit for herself out of necessity, one she does her absolute best to adhere too and... these days she adheres a little too well. That leads us to our next point; what I was alluding to at the beginning of her Understanding essay when I said she has limited but deep running empathy. That detachment again, courtesy of a very unattached mother and unchecked ADHD. ( It isnât a strong enough characteristic to even rank as a strength or a weakness but damn if it isnât an undercurrent to a lot of her motivations and experiences. ) Strangers are fair game that she tries to ignore, but if she even perceives you as a threat, you could be in danger. Like anyone used to violence or perhaps anyone trapped in an us verses them mindset, she can just... flat... turn her empathy off. Not on command, sheâs not a socio or psychopath persay. But she has become totally numb to the horror of violence via her warrior upbringing that, in her mind, violence can actually be rather fun. Pair that with the fact that she purposely tailored herself to only be empathetic to her allies and boom. You get a kindhearted killer. Cops and soldiers in our world do it literally every day. Actually anyone can do it really, even you if you tried. You donât have to be evil or even angry to kill or steal or lie... you just have to believe youâre right.
Three Secrets:
    WHAT SECRETS?! LMAO this bitch is the oversharing queen!! Iâve been typing and pondering her character for literal hours ( its currently 11:16, fuck you adderall ), and I still can not think of a single goddamn secret. There is nothing about her that at least five random people donât fucking know about!! The only secrets she has are secrets she knows about other people and even then she is!! literally the worst!! She spills her guts left and right and yet she wants to be a mysterious bitch SO BAD like BABE I love you, youâre precious, but you are a dumbass attention seeking validation chasing adhd CLOWN girl!! Stop telling random people about your hermaphroditism or your dairy allergy or your dead dad or that time you fell asleep in a barrel like that is literally your uber driver Jessica honey come ooooon. Iâm skipping this section mom holy fuck.
Three Fears:
    What if she does wrong by everyone who trusts her? As stated at the end of the ADHD essay, sheâs terrified of failing those she leads. Where it as simple as personal failure, sheâd be fine. Ever if her entire world came crashing down on top of her sheâd either die or start back from square one. Death is a fact of life and her adaptability means she can just dust herself off and move on, so neither her death nor her failures really scare her... But it isnât just her life and happiness at stake, is it? Not anymore, right? What started as a leader of a small gang of rebels became a full crew, then a crew became a slew of allies, then those allies built a town and now... now sheâs the governor of the Crimson Isle and there are nearly twenty five HUNDRED lives at her mercy.  HER mercy. One really, really bad mistake could ruin their livelihoods or spark disorder and disloyalty. And if she died? Would whoever it is that will take her place be as good to them as she is? Is she good enough to begin with in the first place? Every day the paperwork gets a little bit thicker, every year thereâs a new baby or two. And the isle has fertile soil sure but will it last? Are they prepared for a raid or a hurricane? And if Jessica trusts the wrong people, where her people right to trust her? ...can I protect them? Can I protect them?! CAN I PROTECT THEM?!
    Who am I if Iâm not interesting? This is, literally, an entirely subconscious fear. Sheâs not at all aware it exists and therefor this entry is short. But between her short time with her very unimpressed mother, her own ADHD, she is constantly hungry for attention without even realizing it. She must be interesting and intriguing and engaging, and I did mention she wants to also be mysterious. She wants not so much your input or even your validation - but rather if shes not perceived then.... is she really there? Remember, she is unaware of any of this. And fortunately sheâd never been starved for attention to act out over it in the first place, even when her disinterested mother was alive. Look at her; sheâs radiant, sheâs beautiful, and sheâs 6âČ4 / 195 cm shredded and covered in cool scars. Without even opening her mouth, without even her colorful clothes, sheâs kind of automatically interesting. So sheâs never been so desperate for attention that she acts out because sheâs never been without it for very long. But itâs there. Hungry, aching, silent. Those years after the M branding were horrible and she could never really explain why. She still throws parties, organizes festivals, and talks to damn near anyone who will listen. Look at my art! Look at my library! Listen to how much I know! Let me tell you how lovely you are! Look at my scares! Look at my hair! Look at me haha, please, please look at me.Â
    GHOSTS. NOPE. No. NO. Fuck ALL of that noise. Stay dead, go to hell, eat a dick. Red Jessica is a scientist and superstitious atheist. As an academic and somewhat bi-cultural woman she simply thinks there are far too many religions with far too much history for any of them to be considered The One True Thing You Must Believe Or ElseTM and she tends to not truly believe anything until she finds some kind of proof. Shes not afraid of the unknown, shes thrilled by it. Sheâs not afraid of death or the afterlife, thatâs beyond her control. Sheâs only superstitious because she does believe in and value luck, and also its a bit of a cultural habit. BUT IF SOME SHIT STARTS MOVING ON ITS OWN OR IF SHE SEES SOME BULLSHIT IN THE CORNER OF HER EYE THEN SHE IS OUT OF THERE. OUTIE 5000. She has heard the tales of lost souls from purgatory or the eternally ravenous Pret or dangerous Phi Tai Hong or the tragic and startling Banshees or the creepy Santa Compana and she wouldnât believe a word of it where it not for one thing.     SHE FUCKING SAW ONE. Sheâll never forget it, it was the first and last time she EVER attempted to plunder a tomb all Skyrim style and at first she thought it was one of the crewmean being creepy as shit until she got a good look and he was SEE THROUGH AS SHIT AND SKINNY AS FCUK AND SHE GOT LITERALLY CHASED THE FUCK OUT OF THAT JOINT. She does not CARE that some ghosts are just apparitions she does not CARE that some are friendly and trying to warn her of something if you are MOVING and DEAD at the SAME time get FUCKED. If any of yâall cringe try-hards bring a Ouija board to the party you are getting SENT HOME and BLOCKED. NO CAP.
Three Goals:
  She really only has one left. Listen its... almost 1am and ive been typing since like 5pm i think i covered goals somewhere in here but ive gotta throw in the towel but even then Iâm kinda being serious. Her only remaining goal is to find a suitable heir of some kind. She wants what sheâs built to fall into worthey hands but she could never seem to find a good parter and even when she did she couldnât sustain a pregnancy ( youâd think that would be a huge deal but it hardly mattered to her oddly ). So at 50 the option of having kids is out but thereâs still plenty of hope for either adoption or a protege. But then again, sheâs so busy these days that she hardly prioritizes it like she wants to. Â
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Kokichi is dying (V3 chatfic, no particular ship)
TW: Infers abuse, talks about ableism, neglect, panic attack pretty much, depression, self loathing. never being good enough
i am so sorry but vr au's need to be sad, love yall :)
(Background info: This is set in a vr au, they are not with their fake memory parents (Ie; kaito's kind grandparents) but rather why they really have)
(Also i have no fucking clue what ship i was going for???? pretty sure they are all on the table, and kokichi talks like an idiot in this and i love it. Gonta's writing is based off of his Japanese talking style, so no more caveman talking).
USERNAMES:
(Space monkey: Kaito, Detective pikachu: shuichi, Elton john: kaede, Antman: gonta, Mr. Gonstealyoman: korekiyo, Atua's bitch: angie, emoboi: ryoma, be-boop: kiibo, bread roll: Maki, cum dumpster: miu, mommy: kirumi, Gremlin: Kokichi)
TLDR: Chaos ensues, slight angst
Gremlin:Â omfg im fucking sicK im gonna fucking die i bet this was kaitos bitch ass fault for coughing on me with his tuberculosis headass gROSSSSS I HATE EVERYTHINGGG
Space Monkey:Â i-
Space monkey:Â I didn't get you sick dumbass,,,, my tb is fugckin cured bi-
Bread roll:Â he's dramatic and gross dont believe him
Gremlin:Â yall mean for what?
Gremlin:Â i have a life taking disease and yall laughing i-Â
Gremlin:Â see you at my funeral bitch
Detective pikachu:Â What are you sick with then
Gremlin:Â anythong bitch, im the universe
Antman:Â He sounds delusional, thats not good
Detective pikachu:Â He's always delusional, he's Kokichi
Mr. gonstealyoman:Â I guess this name is better than my old one
Mr. gonstealyoman:Â thank you kokichi :) I am glad we have come to an understanding
Gremlin: kay sexy
Gremlin:Â IGNRE WHAT I JUST SENT
Gremlin:Â IGNORE IT IGNORE IT IGNORE ITTTTT
Antman:Â who was that for???
Gremlin:Â NO ONE,,,Â
Gremlin:Â Okay,,, maybe sexy tall men in general lowkey
Gremlin:Â okay,,,, maybe anyone over 6 feetÂ
Detective pikachu:Â i feel excluded
Detective pikachu:Â good, i don't like you kokichi, your an ass
Gremlin:Â u sound jelly shumaiiiiii
be-boop:Â perhaps he is telling the truth, you know,
be-boop:Â according to my data, in chapter four Shuichi stated that you will never have friends, and no one will ever like you
Gremlin:Â SHUT THE FUCK UP STOP MAKING ME FEEL BADBSKVKHDVKDSKJV
Antman:Â do you need me to come over? I can make you tea?
mommy:Â Do you know how to do that, Gonta? I can teach you?
Antman:Â Gonta does know, thank you very much.Â
Antman:Â Gonta is not a child, Tojo-chan, please don't regard me as one
Antman:Â Gonta can cook, can clean, can be gentle, and has his own mind
Space monkey:Â but we're just making sure man, cuz, you know,,,, chapter 4
Antman:Â I am capable of things just like you!!!!!
Antman:Â Gonta doesn't know why you guys treat me like a child :(
Gremlin:Â yeah, hot stuff over there is basically a prodigy homies
Antman:Â Gonta is dumb though, don't say that.
Antman:Â Gonta is no prodigy, in fact, he is below average in everything
Gremlin:Â Whats ur test scores bitch
Antman:Â Gonta got a 98 on my english test,, but i wanted a 100, which would make Gonta actually smart :(Â
Antman:Â Gonta is not good enough to be friends with you all
Antman:Â I can do basic stuff like tojo said...
Antman:Â maybe i do need help?
Antman:Â im not sure anymore:((((
Gremlin:Â THEY ARE ABLEIST GONTA,,, THEY FEEL SUPERIOR FOR TREATING UUUUU LIKE A CHILD
Detective pikachu:Â You sound really delusional Kokichi, maybe you should get sleep
Gremlin:Â S T F U, IM SPITTING ST8 FACTS BITCH
Detective pikachu:Â Sure you are. Now get some rest.Â
Gremlin:Â GRRRR WHY WONT YOU LISTEN TO ME YOU IDIOTS??
Bread roll:Â Cause your stupid and aggressive
Gremlin:Â your personality, basically?
Bread roll:Â shut up at least i have a boyfriend
Gremlin:Â Technically, you just stole my frienemyÂ
Gremlin:Â Yall do be avoiding each other doe
Space Monkey:Â WE ARE NOT
Gremlin:Â Yeah yeah
Gremlin: yesterday i saw you to enter the same cafe by accident, duck your heads, then sit across the cafe from each other, all while  avoiding eye contact
Gremlin:Â Soooo,,, things not going well in paradise?
Detective pikachu:Â you're nosy
Gremlin:Â says the literal detectiveÂ
Space monkey:Â everythings fine your just a dickkkk
Gremlin:Â "oooo! Im momo-chan, i say bad word and go brrrrr"
Space monkey:Â im going to fucking stab himÂ
Gremlin:Â You cant, ive already enslaved you with my chaotic, yet cute hijinks, havent i~
Space monkey:Â STOP STOP NO NOT THE SQUIGLY
Gremlin:Â is it the sex? WHY DONT YOU MAKE EYE CNOTACT WITH UR LADY NO MOREÂ
Space monkey:Â ITS NOT THE SEX I HATE YOU
Gremlin:Â im free by the way at 8 ;)
Bread roll:Â STOP trying to steal my boyfriend kokichi, ive told you this before
Bread roll:Â NO
Bread roll:Â BODY
Antman:Â Gonta interrupts to say, Gonta loves you kokichi, and we should get flowers together, than maybe we can prank some people :DÂ
Bread roll:Â Ive never wanted to stab you more, gonta
Gremlin:Â I'd enjoy that very much, fine fellow ;)
Gremlin:Â but idk,,,, can you like take care of me first, cuz IM SICK BECAUSE OF KAITO TUBERCULOSIS ASS
Space monkey:Â I DONT HAVE TB ANYMORE
Gremlin:Â SURE YOU DONTÂ
Space monkey:Â I DONT
Gremlin:Â Â BUT GUESS WHAT
Gremlin:Â YOU STILL SMOKE DUMBASS AND THATS NOT GOOD FOR U OR YOUR TUBERCULOSIS
Detective pikachu:Â He smokes?
Atua's bitch:Â he does, i walked in on him in the bathroom lmao
Atua's bitch:Â he was scared shitless and threw it out the window, needless to say atua does nt approve
Gremlin:Â DO YOU EVEN HAVE THE VACCINE????
Space monkey:Â Uh,,, i was taught vaccines were bad, so no i don't have the vaccine
Gremlin:Â I HATE OLD PEOPLE
Gremlin:Â ABOLISH OLD PEOPLEEEE
Gremlin:Â THEY SPREAD MISINFORMATION AND IT PHISCALLY HURTS ME TO SEEEEEE
Space monkey:Â your dramatic, it cant be that bad
Gremlin:Â say that when you catch it again
Gremlin:Â i swear you coughed on me like,,,, 5 weeks ago tho
Antman:Â OOOO! Fun fact: Tuberculosis can lay dormant from 3 months to a few years!Â
Space monkey:Â u guys are just trying to scare me
Bread roll:Â Just checked the chat after using the br and,,m YOUDONT HAVE YOU VACCINES???
Detective pikachu:Â Im sorry, but kaito, please,,,,, for the love of god get vaccines
Space monkey:Â alright alright, ill do it cuz you guys are all on my case and i don't like being the villain :(
Gremlin:Â Im so happy i have gonta with me rn, he is making me tea while yall rot in your distant ass relationship (THIS IS FOR YOU KAITO)
Space monkey: Im going to destroy your bloodline in about three seconds if you dont stfu right fucking now
Gremlin:Â Hhehe i have an inaprwopwiate joke uwu
emoboi:Â STOP PLEASE DEAR GOD
cum dumpster:Â wHAt Is iT YOU WHORE
Gremlin:Â i was gonna say wouldn't he need to like,,,, have sex with my family to weed out my bloodline or something??
cum dumpster:Â i-
cum dumpster:Â Why am i acting surprised, ive watched porn with more extravagant plots than this
cum dumpster:Â ie; are you guys FUCKING? RIGHT INFRONT OF MY SALAD??? is one i will cherish with my soul
emoboi:Â hehe why did she point out the salad
Space monkey:Â I hate u kokichi, i truly do
Gremlin:Â I bet if you got the chance u would kiss me space boy :P
Bread roll has left the chat
Space monkey:Â o god is she ddoing one of those bf loyalty tests or smthing???
Space monkey:Â now im nervous lmao
Gremlin:Â why you so nervous stupid~~~~
Gremlin: It not like ur cheating on her homie
Space monkey:Â It's just a placebo effect
Gremlin:Â My brain feels fried Momo-chan,, i don't understand big boy words right now
Space monkey:Â Basically, if you take a pill that doesn't do anything but you don't know that and believe it does, you will scientifically start to feel better
Gremlin:Â first and only time saying this, but thank youÂ
Space monkey:Â HEHEHEB YOU SAID THANK YOUÂ YOU SAID THANK YOUYOU SAID THANK YOUYOU SAID THANK YOUYOU SAID THANK YOU
Gremlin:Â Kaito,,, imma need you to do me a favor and look up on your ceiling
Space monkey:Â i hate you, idk what it is, but i hte you
Gremlin:Â good <3
Space monkey:Â HE REPLACED ALL MY THE STARS ON MY CELING WITH FUCKIBG DICKSSS
Space monkey:Â THIS IS THE LST FUCKING STRAW IM GONNA LOSE IT
Space monkey:Â IF MY GRANDPARENTS SEE THIS BULLSHIT THEY ARE GOING TO KILL ME, SLAP ME, MAYBE BREAK MY NECK AND DESTROY MEE
Space monkey:Â Im GENUINLEY panicing HOW TF am i gona get this off my wal???? They are going to bbat me senselpess help me shUichi
Detective pikachu: o god, i can sense the sheer pain and scaredness in that tet,Â
Detective pikachu:Â are you for real gong to get hurt or are you pulling a kokichi?
Space monkey:Â FUCKING HELP ME IM NOT FUCKING JOKINGKABKCB HELP THEY ARE NOT HOME RN THEY ARE LIKEE,,,, 40 MINUTES AWAY PLEASEEÂ
Gremlin:Â okay,,, maybe this wasn't the best prank.,,, i guess i'll help clean up cuz im not that much of a sociopath
Gremlin:Â tbh my parents can go shove it too lowkey terrible 0/10Â
Space monkey:Â AHHHH IM SO SCARED PLS PSL GET HERE FAST
be-boop:Â Of course, i will come, i will survey the outside of the house
Antman: Gonta is coming too! We will get this done in under 40 minutes!
Space monkey:Â OKAY
Gremlin:Â Lowkey, if i cough on you ignore it bitch your the one who made me like this
Space monkey:Â W HA TDONT COUGH ON ME IM NOT SICK ANYMORE
Gremlin:Â I will give you TB again just cuz your making me suffer
Space monkey:Â Suffer what??? putting dicks on my FUCKING WALL???
Gremlin:Â Guilt, idiot, im feeling guilty.Â
cum dumpster:Â oof thats new
emoboi:Â yeah i wasn't expecting it
Mr.gonstealyoman:Â Me neither. It is rather peculiar seeing it being texted by him because he is always feels not guilty of his bad actions.
be-boop:Â I do believe he means it, though...
emoboi:Â impossible.
cum dumpster:Â i agree, literally impossible.
Gremlin:Â I HAVE A FUCKIBG SOUL YOU CRazY CONSPIRACISTS
Antman:Â Quick question, shuichi can i stay with you again? It'll be dark when i get home and gonta can't do that so,,, please help
Detective pikachu:Â my parents are like blank slates, who eat slowly, watch tv slowly, and never look at me. Im sure they wouldn't mind :P
Antman:Â ALRIGHT! :D LETS GET MISSION: MR. MOMOTA ROOM REPAIR DONE!
Gremlin:Â ooo! I like the name! IM INNNN!Â
Detective pikachu:Â On it!
be-boop:Â Ready for look out!
Space monkey:Â I love you guys :)
AN: Im lowkey sorry i ended this chaotic mess with angst,,,, but like fr i love it i love angst,, i hate reading it but love writing it
#kokichiouma#oumota#Ougoku#chat fic#kaito momota#kiibo#miu iruma#gonta gokuhara#ryoma#angie#shuichi saihara#vr au#kirumi#maki harukawa#korekiyo#danganronpav3#danganronpa#grossness
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endgame rant
SPOILERS AHEAD PLEASE AVOID IF YOU HAVENT SEEN IT YET
yeah i know i said i wouldnât post spoiler shit but listen i gotta get this off my chest ok
i have some REAL BIG FUCKING ISSUES with the way the russos handled a lot of plotlines. donât get me wrong, this movie was amazing and epic and fucking award worthy, but as a fan iâve taken offense to a Lot of things.
clint
nothing about his ronin story makes a lick of fucking sense in the mcu. his family is dusted so heâŠâŠ goes on a mass murdering spree??? decides that he should get a haircut and spend the next five years getting an edgy tattoo sleeve??? um. okay then. destroy the past like 10 years of his character having one of the best moral compasses of the entire team. why did he take up using a fucking SWORD in present day? do you know how long it takes to master swordsmanship at the level he was? with at least half of the worldâs teachers gone? more than five fucking years thats for damn sure. and between him and natasha dying for the soul stone? it should have been him. i know he had a family and all but listen. nat went through physical and psychological torture. her body was modified against her will. she was brainwashed and used. and finally, FINALLY she gets free of it all, finds a family in the avengers, and continues to try and better herself to make up for things that werenât even her fault to begin with. and clint? what did he suffer? oh thats right. nothing. heâs just damn good at his job and loves his family. the fact he has a family sucks for sacrifice, but they are well taken care of and every single one of his kids are old enough to understand AND nat would have stepped in immediately as a parental figure to help laura. they fucking fridged nat for clint and i will never forgive that.
thor
here we go. thorâs character legit made me uncomfortable. they went way overboard with the new thor personality. but⊠fatshaming and making fun of his very real depression and ptsd?? wtf russos. like, haha he let himself go so funny but its NOT. he wasnât even likeâŠ. fat, for one. just a normal dadbod and beer belly. which by the way seems a lot more realistic according to most norse myths of the gods. they were warriors, yeah, but they drank a fucking lot and feasted a fucking lot so. anyway. thor has lost his entire family. not only that but he watched them all die. he saw his mother bleed out. he watched his father disperse into nothingness. he watched the brother he has loved and cherished no matter the amount of times of betrayal and misdeeds get his neck snapped and his lifeless body thrown to the ground. and then the sister he never knew he had killing almost all of your people and then being forced to find a way to kill her. can you imagine trying to cope with that??? and when you put his age into our perspective, heâs only in his 20s. so imagine seeing your whole family die before youâre even 25, then taking on the responsibility of ruling your people. said surviving people are then massacred in front of you with only a few dozen escaping. THEN living with the guilt of blowing your chance to kill the man responsible for that and unable to stop him from decimating half the universe. (and even when he does get revenge on him, itâs too late) tell me you wouldnât have an atomic level meltdown. thor is suffering so much and all they can do is make fun of him for it and shame him for it. he deserved better.
steve
yall know i donât like steve. i donât hate him and iâm not anti-steve, iâve just never enjoyed his rather inconsistent character and self-righteousness. it felt like we were FINALLY getting a steve i could get behind in this. a steve that swears like he should. a steve who still puts on a brave face for the public but behind closed doors with friends heâs miserable and broken like the rest of them and SHOWS it to them. a steve who realizes he is stuck in the past and just canât seem to move forward. a steve who i can finally see the culmination of EVERYTHING heâs been through resting on his shoulders and eating him alive inside. finally we were getting a properly layered steve rogers. and then tony came back and that all fell apart. we didnât get the apology steve owed him (and tbh tony owed him one too but weâll get to that), we didnât get a remorseful steve. he didnât even address the goddamn issue. he went straight back to his bullshit. admittedly he was a better listener this time around and a far better team player overall. it wasnât a total loss. but. BUT. his ending? no. hell fucking no. iâm happy he and peggy got their life, but it still shouldnât have happened. how fucking selfish. how fucking backwards of his character. i get he didnât have a choice in being brought back into the present and that is unfair and sucks for him, but what fucking right did he have to mess with a timeline like that? what right did he have to just decide without telling anyone he was done and giving up? why did he get the fucking happy ending???? steve rogers who looked tony in the eyes and said he wasnât the kind of man to lay on the wire for someone copped out. steve rogers who knows of all the social progress weâve made decides to go back to a time where he would be forced to accept segregation and extreme gender inequality and rampant, blatant, gross racism of all sorts oh and more war and alkjdalksdhkas NO plus they broke their own time travel rules so like whatever i guess right?? itâs okay if steeb gets his stupid happy ending right? god is it SO MUCH TO ASK FOR JUST ONCE TO HAVE A GOOD CHARACTERIZATION OFCAP???? itâs not your fault cevans honey youâre doing amazing your directors just have no fucking ideaÂ
tony
frankly this has been amongst rdjâs best performances of tony. iâm still partial to a lot of his acting in the iron man movies BUT this was FANTASTIC. him finally being allowed to absolutely go off on steve was fucking delicious and everything i was waiting for. let it all out tony baby. buuuuut we should have also had something more. i know my fellow tony stans typically donât believe it but tony was wrong in civil war too. surprise they both fucking were. ANYWAY. i was waiting for an honest apology between them both. after everything they just went through, NONE of the petty bullshit they went through before matters at all. and yet the closest thing we get is tony just being like âturns out i donât like to hold grudgesâ or what the fuck ever. why is it so hard just to make one of them say iâm sorry, the other say iâm sorry, admit it was a bunch of BULLSHIT hug it out and then go forward???? ugh. their choice to make tony suddenly care about his dad and be happy to see him???? disgusting. they made it canon that howard was an abuser, neglectful, cold, and hateful. itâs been a BIG DEAL how tony has struggled with the relationship to his dad because of how shitty the man was to him. and then they do tHAT? fuuuuCK that!!!! iâm not saying tony isnât allowed to forgive howard. thats fine and expected tbh. but they pushed it way too far. the tony stark weâve known for the last decade would never get all giddy and happy to see him and hug him and fucking thank him??? what the fuckk?? god that was gross. you know what we should have gotten? what tony deserved more than howard fucking stark? MARIA STARK!! and then, of course, my main issue. they fucking killed him. which only tells us, the audience and fans that no matter what you suffer and sacrifice that your only way to redemption is death. jesus fucking christ i am SO angry over this. they killed the two who suffered the fucking most. the two who every single goddamn day worked on being a better person. nat and tony both deserved so much better than waht they got. how the fuck did it make sense to kill tony who now has a fucking CHILD, who still has a future, who FINALLY FOR ONCE IN HIS FUCKING LIFE FOUND A SHRED OF PEACE????? and then let steve just go selfishly galavant through time as he pleases to have the cute happy ending? FUCK that ending. fuck it right up the ass with a huge unlubed cock. steve should have been the one to use the gauntlet. period. he should have been the one to die like that. i would have still fucking cried but you know what?? that would be the most cap thing ever. i wanted a mirror of pre-serum steve jumping on that grenade, but this time grabbing the gauntlet and not hesitating for a split second to snap. but no. they killed tony who left behind a wife who DESERVED MORE THAN HAVING THE MAN SHES LOVED AND SUPPORTED AND MARRIED AND HAS A CHILD WITH RIPPED AWAY FROM HER!!! tony who left behind a daughter too young to really comprehend yet why her daddy isnât going to be coming back. fuck you russos. the injustice of it is astounding. iâm never going to get over it. you know how they could have killed tony? if they really felt like they needed to? have him grow old and die naturally of old age with pepper in their cute little lakeside house after watching morgan grow into such a strong and brilliant person. but oh. they gave that to steve. right.
stephen
iâll never complain about having more stephen content but uhhhh iâm gonna complain that we didnât get more than what we got cause after sitting in the soulworld for five fucking years you canNOT tell me he didnât get even stronger with time to practice and meditate and work through every iota of information of mystical shit in his head. and yet they sidelined him??? after weâve SEEN what heâs capable of in IW? just gonna put him on flood control???? something that any of those goddamn sorcerers could have done while he helps wipe the floor with thanos or any of the thousands of enemies? fuuuuuuuuuck that. can you fucking imagine how quickly thanos would have been taken out if it were wanda, carol, and stephen all three against him? jesus. heâs literally amongst the most powerful people but nah, just have him stand over there.
the gay russo
FUCK you for that. i am LIVID about it. yall canât fucking make valkyrie bi???? or carol????? yall canât GET AN ACTUAL GAY ACTOR? â We felt it was important that one of us play him, to ensure the integrity and show it is so important to the filmmakers that one of us is representing that. â WHAT????????? are you fucking telling me a WOC WHO IS OUT AS BISEXUAL AND WANTS HER CHARACTER TO BE BISEXUAL COULDNT ENSURE THE INTEGRITY OF AN LGBT CHARACTER???????????????? â It is a perfect time, because one of the things that is compelling about the Marvel Universe moving forward is its focus on diversity.â SEE PREVIOUS COMMENT????? oh my god fuck them forever.
lets make rules for our time travel then break them immediately
idek whats going on in the timeline anymore. they utterly fucked up and BROKE the timeline of 2012 avengers after letting loki get away with the tesseract. which should have cascaded into their future but, well, it didnât. so i GUESS now weâre just pretending that made a new timeline which makes no goddamn sense but whatever i guess. steve going back to completely fuck with his timeline, or a timeline at least, and having no consequences in the future besides being old. okay. sure??? we can do all that but we canât fucking get natasha back. right. cool. okay.
anyway iâm sure theres more bugging me but these are the things bothering me most.
and frankly i donât care if anyone disagrees iâm not arguing or debating any of this.Â
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Lost & Found Batch #18
The newest batch was long overdue ^^;; As always, if you happen to know the fic the ask is looking for, reply to this post or send us an ask with the request number and title/author. If you happen to know any fics from Past Batches, those are more than welcome as well. Thank you!! ~ Admin P
1) Hi! I think my ask got lost TT I was wondering if you guys know of a vmin fic on ao3 where theyâre roommates and jimin likes tae and decided to seduce him by asking him to take nude pics of him, and tae ended up not reacting and then they admitted that they both liked each other? Or something along those lines. PLEASE HELP IT WAS SO AWESOME AND I LOVED IT :( thank you!!!
you're only brave in the moonlight by ameliabedelias
2) Hi!! so a while back i was reading a yoonseok fic on ao3, it was smut, and i wanted to read it again but i cant find it, i was wondering if you could help??? it was yoonseok and yoongi was a "beta" but soon found out he was an omega he called himself a "late bloomer"?? and hoseok walks in, they have sex, and i specifically remember yoongi feeling hoseoks dick in his stomach and "rubbing" it. i know its wierd but can you please help me find it???
A Test in What, Exactly, Is "Too Much" by Yooniefucks
3) Hello, I'm trying to find a fic that has taekook in it. I don't actually remember what the fic is about, but I remember that jungkook is a guard/knight and somewhere along the story, the Prince (?) finds out that jungkook is a werewolf since he was bitten as a child and he imprinted on taehyung, who's human if I'm not mistaken. The king took him in, and he used to be chained to a cage/cave (?) during full moon. It will be great if you can help me :) thank you! đ
4) Hi, I'm trying to find this yoonjin fic were yoongi is walking home from an underground gig and it's late at night. He smells fresh baked goods and it leads him to a building he passes by all the time but never noticed before. He goes inside and jin fixes him a drink and gives him a muffin/cupcake. At the end jin reveals that he's magic and he cast a spell to find love. Thank you for your help!!
5) I'm looking for a yoongi/jimin fic where jimin is abused by his boyfriend (I think the author used a random idol) and yoongi catches on and tries to help but jimin is really damaged. The rest of the group lowkey knows jimin abused but don't know how to help. Sorry I can't remember lots of details but it was really angsty and good
6) hello, im looking for some kind of royalty fan fic where jimin was visiting yoongiâs palace/home? I canât remember why but they werenât close in the beginning. All I can remember was a scene where a bunch of boys were in a room smoking and playing poker (half naked?) and a young servant/slave who was able to play any piano piece after just listening to it once and in the end he left with a Russian man who made music.... thank youu
7) Ugh I seriously need help! Iâve been looking for this fic I lost for 3 days now, I really want to read it again! Iâm going to be upset if it was deleted :( anyway, it was a fic where the boys were on their way to something and they got in a car crash but it was only Jin, Hoseok, Yoongi, Tae and Kook. Then Jin and Hoseok were kidnapped by a guy named Sung I think, and the fic focused on Yoongi and Tae and Kook traveling through the woods they crashed in looking for Jin and Hobi and then (pt.1) Jimin and Joon were at a hotel with their manager and they were convinced something was wrong and they wanted to go look for them. In the end they got rescued and they killed the Sung guy and Yoongi was shot and I just really want to find it again cause there was an unfinished sequel. Iâm so upset. I hope this was enough to help you help me lookfor it!
8) YOOO what's poppin sis'. Can yall help me. I've been looking for this fic where the rap line is an underground rap line and like they perform cypher pt 3? Idfr the name but the main pairings were namjin and yoonmin. Thanks đ€Șđ€Șđ§Ą
9) Hi there! I was hoping you guys could help me find this fic - it's on AO3. It was multi-chaptered, completed, and was a collection of namjoon centric oneshots/drabbles. one of the chapters was inspired by the "princess princess" anime and featured joon wearing panties, bent over jin's lap, before yoongi came to rescue him from a bunch of onlookers. please help!!
10) Hi! Iâm looking for a Yoongi/Jungkook fic. Iâve been searching nonstop for a few weeks and I think the author may have deleted it. The plot line is basically this: Jungkook is a medical student who falls in love with Yoongi and eventually loses his drive in the field. I know it has sexual content so itâs either M rated or E. One of the tags was âslow burnâ and âJungkook cries a lotâ. Thanks in advance!
11) Hello! In the lost chuchu batch 16, #13 is "I Can't Even" by handintheshot in Ao3. But I can't find a link of it. Also, I'd like to ask whether you know about the fic where jimin suddenly has a vagenay and then proceeds to have a hot threesome with jk and tae? If possible, can you please recommend me more like those? Thank you so much đ
12) Hello! Do u guys know of a vmin pwp oneshot where taehyung has ADHD? They sit in a chair for most of it, and the premise has a slight focus on how Jimin makes it easier for Tae to sit still. It was really sweet, and I can't find it :c
13) I am looking for a 6+1 fic where Namjoon is homeless and in each iteration a different member takes him into their home and life. A recurring element is a cake decorating book that Namjoon borrows from the library - a page falls out detailing how to make a flower with icing, and he keeps it in his pocket. I have used my search-fu but I cannot find it. It was on AO3. I hope you can help, even if it's just with a possible name I can run via the Wayback machine! Thanks!
14) Hello! I would like to ask your help into searching for a story that I can't, for the life of me, find. It's a Yoonmin story but what I remember the most is that Jungkook works as a janitor in an office and he quits because his boss is horrible. However, Taehyung, whom his boss is interested in working with, will only sign the proposal if they rehire Jungkook, so the boss sends Jimin to do it, since Jimin is friends with the both of them. In the end, they all end up working at the same place. TY
15) Hello. I'm looking for a fic where the group had six members but Suga time travels/dimension travels and becomes part of the group as a secret member. I remember that Jin is doing a vlive and is squirted with a water gun but everyone thinks it's Jimin. And when it's reveled to be Suga he's in his dorm room and pulls a big super soaker from under his blankets. I hope that's enough. It's super specific but I can't seem to find it. I hope you can help me :)
16) hey i was looking for this soul reaper or angel?? au where jungkook dies and is taken to the shinigami/reaper realm by the reaper (i think it was yoongi) and i cant find it anywhere :(( i think he dies bc of his new friends and the fic opens with a scene where the reaper sends one of his murderers souls to hell? The reader finds out later i guess. Id really appreciate it if u could find that :(( thank you!
An anon believes itâs Naught Readings For Naughty Readers by supermans_crib, however that has been on AO3
17) Hi! I had recently lost one of the greatest ffs ever, it was a jikook au where they were in the military (?) and jimin had went into a stage sort of like heat and jungkook had to fuck him, he got hekka scared afterwords but they ended up liking eachother
as if it's your last by fatal (cumrich)
18) Hi! I'm trying to find a NamJin fic. I searched the fics here and my bookmarks on AO3 (since I swear I bookmarked it) but I can't seem to find it. It starts out where Yoongi is accusing Namjoon of not moving on. We find out that Namjoon and Seokjin are friends and Namjoon confessed to Seokjin and was rejected. Things get complicated when Seokjin keeps coming around and even interfering with someone Namjoon starts dating. Memorable scene, Seokjin chasing Namjoon in the dark screeching his name.
everything moves on by fruitily
19) Hello. I am looking for a namgi fic where yoongi works in an old bookshop and likes wearing feminine clothing , and namjoon works at a cafe but visits the bookshop often. Namjoon likes art and philosophy but is scared of his parent's reactions so yoongi tells him to fuck society and to "wake up from your sad life and figure out who you are", they eventually kiss as well. I read it on AO3. Your help would be greatly appreciated. Thanks.
20) Hi! I was wondering if yâall could help out with a fic I remember reading? jimin pining for yoongi and for some weird reason I remember a specific scene where jimin (whose brought food for yoongi) waits for yoongi outside of (a studio?) falls asleep waiting and wakes up when yoongi and someone else walk out. Jimin had wanted to eat with him I think but yoongi either says that heâs already ate or is headed to eat with the person. Itâs unrequited feelings for a bit of the story.
21) There was a fix where yoongi was a prince and he went out and on the way met all the members who were disney princesses, it was a parody kind of, min yoonji was sleeping beauty and she went back to sleep again and from her castle members got a cat and kittens, can you please find it
22) Hello! I read this fiction a loonnggggg time ago where vminkook were in high school detention I think and kook could read minds and read tae's mind once and hes thinking about potatoes so he calls him potato boy but then the next time tae's thinking about fucking jimin and like yeah LOL I think they all end up in a threesome at the end but yeah I dont remember the title or author ))):
23) whatâs that fanfic when itâs an au one of them is overweight and they join their school gym or something? and fall in love with the person who trains them. and thereâs this beach scene and a car wash scene near the end. been looking for it for a while, hope you can help!
24) hi! iâm looking for a fic i read a while back, i think it was vmin and one of them had been hurt so the other got them off and they ended up in a relationship i think? pretty sure it was cannon compliant too! thanks!
25) so tae is a student and jk is a professor. jk is engaged to this woman (mina?). basically they are both straight but end up falling for each other so before jk gets married he plans to break up with the girl but she blackmails him with pics of him and his student and turns crazy. i donât rlly remember what happens after that but later they eventually end up together. i think itâs ab 10 chapters. iâm pretty sure i read it on ao3!
26) Hello! I was reading this taekook fic on ao3 but I forgot what it was called âčïž basically jungkook travels back in time and kidnaps his last self to tell him how in the future Tae kills himself, so jungkook tries to get his past self to be nicer to Tae and stop him. Past jungkook thinks that Tae cheated on him but he was actually forced to have sex with his âbossâ but jungkook doesnât give him a chance to explain and starts cheating on Tae and is being really nasty to him. Ah help plz if you can
27) Iâm searching for a fic and i really canât find it ... i remember itâs jikook (but not really) and itâs about jungkook (who thinks heâs straight) who downloads a porn (by mistake i think) of minjoon and like he ends up liking it, itâs so vague iâm sorry kfhskcj
care to stay for the ride? by voseok
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NCT- A Strange Surprise || Gang AU- part 3
Group: NCT- all members
Theme: Gang AU
Type: series- fluff + angst
*Warning- this series will cover some dark themes such as abuse, drugs, and crude language so please read at your own discretion, if these themes make you uncomfortable at all, please do not read thisÂ
Plot: You see Renjun all bruised up and he keeps denying who hurt him. After school, a family emergency pops up so you run to Renjun to stay with him. When he takes you to stay at a friendâs house, you have an unexpected guest.
Previous parts: 1, 2Â
âRenjun, what happened to your face?â you ask as you run your fingers over his bruises softly. âJunnie, who did this? Is that Mark kid, I swear imma give a piece of my mind when I see him.â
âHaha, Y/N youâre cute when you worry about me but Imma ask for you not to worry just this once. I just uh... fell,â he lies with a cheeky grin.
âOh and you really expect me to believe that? Why canât you just tell me the truth Junnie? I understand that you couldnât blurt everything about what happened to Jaemin but Iâve known you since we were 2, sure we havenât really talked for like what, 3 years? But that shouldnât change the bond and trust we shared for all those years. Look I donât know what kinda friends you have now or the shit they do but guess what? Iâm back and you can confine in me because shit I know you, I know when I have to worry about something. And your cute ass can bet that Iâm gunna worry about you when you show up with a fuckin bruise on your face. So tell me whatâs really going on here?â you say, holding his hands and looking at him, never wavering your eye contact.
His expression hardens, âIâm sorry, Iâm afraid I canât do that and besides class is gunna start so...â
âWhatever, I will have you tell me one day because I canât continue to be your friend if youâre not being honest with me so...â
_____Â Â
âToday Iâll be assigning a group essay, youâll be free to choose your topic from one of the given options however Iâll be choosing your groups. In the first group over here, we have Jeno, Haechan, Jaemin, Y/N, and Renjun. You guys can go ahead and move now. Ok the next group, we have-â your English teacher drones on.
You pack up your stuff hastily and move into the area your teacher directed you to go.
âUgh I don't wanna work with him/her, he/sheâs hella annoying Jeno. Why do you even like him/her so much?â you hear Haechan muttering to Jeno.
âShut up, you complain too much, just go with it and besides youâre not the only one whoâs gunna have trouble getting along with the group. We got grouped up with those two, if Y/N wasnât here I donât know what we wouldâve done honestly.â
âYea true, but what can we do now?â
âUm, hey guys. I think we should just go join the other two,â you say hesitantly as you sling your arm around Haechan, who had a very disapproving look on his face. As you three sit down, you can immediately feel the tension between your two separate friend groups. The intense stare-off were starting to get to you so you decide to be one to speak up. âAhem so uh, does anyone have any preference on the essay topic or-â
âYou can just choose whatever, it really doesnât matter, theyâre all boring,â Haechan speaks out boredly as he looks at his nails.
âUm actually Iâm interested in the one about solar power, what do you think?â Jaemin squeaks softly.
âYea, I actually like that one too,â Jeno agrees, nodding as he glances at Jaemin.
âYea, that one is alright,â Renjun adds in.
âOk cool, that went smoothly. Um letâs brainstorm now, I donât know what weâre supposed to be doing after that,â you nervously ramble.
âYo, what happened to yo guysâ face? Your boy/girlfriends don't like you or somethin?â Hae asks abruptly.
âHae! Donât say that!â you exclaim.
âHe just asked a simple question Y/N, you donât need to get upset,â Jeno states quickly.
âYou donât-â you start.
âY/N,â Renjun says softly as he places a hand on your shoulder. âItâs ok, haha we love to play rough so thatâs why we look like this.â
âBut-â you go off again but Renjun silences you by giving you a sharp glare.
âHaha yup, Renjun has always been like this,â you lie with a smile as you lightly punch Renjun.
âWell then,â Haechan says simply.
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As usual, you make your way to meet Renjun after school but this time you were alert and ready to see who would come calling his name today.
So far everything looked alright so you greet your close friend with a comforting hug before sitting down. âSo I was thinking, itâs a Friday night and itâs been a long week so do you-â you get cut off by your phone going off. âOh I gotta take this Iâll be right back,â you say as you walk away to answer your call.
As you find a quiet place to carry your conversation, Jeno suddenly finds Renjun sitting under the shade and he decides to go over to join him.
âHey Renjun! I want you to drop Y/N.â Jeno boldly challenges as he swiftly walks towards to him. âWe both know damn well that he/she can only be with one gang, yours or mine. So I want to you leave him/her because unlike you, I can introduce her to all my friends. Oh wait. I already did that, and we all agree that we want him/her to continue to be our friend so drop him/her.â
Renjun scoffs, âAre you really that dumb to think Iâd give up my close friend that Iâve known since we were barely learning to talk just because I canât introduce him/her to my gang? Wow, nice try buddy, it ainât happening.â
âWhy don't we just ask Y/N him/herself since he/she is coming back,â Jeno asks as he points to you. You come running towards Renjun and crash into his arms so you sob into his chest.
âWhoa what happened,â Renjun asks promptly as he rubs your back reassuringly.
âMy.... arrested,â you sniffle.
âWhat did you say Y/N?â Jeno asks this time as he comes closer to turn you around to face him gently. You sob into your hands as you explain again, âMy.. dad got...arrested.â
Both, Jeno and Renjunâs eyes go wide with shock and Jeno pulls you into a tight hug and smooths down your hair and you begin to cry harder. âShh, weâll figure something out Y/N. Do you know what happened?â Jeno asks.
You shake your head frantically and you pull yourself away from Jenoâs warm embrace to talk to Renjun. âCan I stay with you tonight? I canât sleep at home all alone and you are the only one I know and trust.â
âOf course, my parents and I will take good care of you,â Renjun reassures.
You sniffle as you manage a weak smile, âThank you Junnie.â You face Jeno to give a hug as you say, âBye Jeno, Iâll see you Monday hopefully. Iâm sorry you had to see me like this, I just met you and-â
âHey donât worry about it, this came up unexpectedly. Go, Renjun will treat you well. Iâm sorry about what happened to your dad, hopefully youâll be able to find out what happened to him. Bye Y/N.â Jeno consoles.
You smile frailly again as you wave lightly to Jeno as you and Renjun head home.
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âHey is it ok to stop by a friendâs house, you can rest there for however long you need and I know they wonât mind,â Renjun suggests.
You just nod feebly as you follow Renjun towards a small two-story house. Even from outside you could hear the utter chaos from within but it was nothing like the âgoodâ chaos you experienced yesterday. When Renjun opens the door and you step foot inside, everything suddenly goes deathly quiet as everyoneâs eyes were on you, silently judging you.
A tall, lanky guy lurks in the corner with a can of Redbull in hand as he asks dauntingly, âSo your daddy got arrested huh?â
You furrow your eyebrows as you look at Renjun then back at the giant, âHow... how do you know?â
âItâs simple, no one comes here unless their mommy or daddy gets arrested and I know you only got your dad so you put two and two together. Anyways its finally-â Johnny goes on but you cut him off to talk to Renjun.
âJunnie, did... one of your parents.. get.. arrested?â You ask quietly, afraid to hear the answer.
âOh he didnât tell you? Both of his folks got locked up and it was pretty romantic the way they did it too huh âJunnieâ? Anyways, like I was tryna to say before you cut me off, itâs nice to finally meet you. Oh wait, before I show you around, thereâs one thing I want you to keep in your pretty little head, no one cuts me off. You only get this freebie but after that youâll regret it. Ok now thatâs done, I suppose youâre gunna be staying here now arenât you?â the figure asks tauntingly.
âUhh-â you begin as you hear and see a slim guy with purple-sliverish hair make his way to the living room, where you guys were.
âJohnny, why are you over here acting like a leader? If you wanted to be one so badly then you should done that when Yuta left!â The purple-silver guy spat.
Just then you hear a thunderous knock on the door. Another tall, lean guy with porcelain skin, dark black hair, and large doll-like eyes answers the door and his deep voice calls out with a chuckle, âDoyoung, looks like your best friend is here.â
âThank you Hansol hyung, but I can clearly see that. Well then, it's been a while Taeyong.â Doyoung smiles malevolently.
Part 4
*wait can we just take a moment to adore and admire this wonderful human that is Ji Hansol like he could ch with his sharp ass dance moves oml have yall SEENNNN the way dances its like he doesnât have any bones tff, ok thnx for letting me have a moment lol
*shit I'm so sorry this is soo short and soo late but I saw a good cliffhanger and I went with it haha (ny anon this one is a legit baby one bc at least u know whos at the door ya know)
*I promise part 4 is gunna be out tomorrow bc what even is that schedule I made literally just last week and itâll be much longer and interesting, just think of this as a set up and make sure to bring popcorn and snacks for tomorrow *wink wink* and youâll probably meet all the reaming members soon (if you ever get confused whoâs in which group then you can check out Teaser 1 and the chart should be helpful I'm sry its so blurry :( )
#nct#nct u#nct 127#nct dream#moon taeil#ji hansol#seo johnny#taeyong#yuta#kun#doyoung#ten#jaehyun#winwin#mark#renjun#jeno#haechan#jaemin#chenle#jisung#nct series#nct scenarios#nct gang au pt3
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Chapter 128
Trey
I roll over into something in my bed. I open my eyes. It's Lane in my face. I turn over the other looking for Cammie. I had forgot all about my beautiful woman being in my bed. I kiss her cheek.
"Why are you up?" I ask.
"I slept for a while but heartburn woke me up."
I kiss her again. "This is our life, Jay. You down for it?"
She sucks her teeth. "Not if you taking drugs. I don't think we can be like this. You know the most speculated death among rich people is drugs. Do you know the stuff you are putting in your body?"
"Hold up, back up. You saying I'm on drugs?"
"I'm saying you have drugs that are prescribed to you."
I don't know where this shit coming from. "I've been keeping my fucking blood clean. I don't know what the fuck you talking about."
"These." she says reaching to the end table.
"You remember us fucking in this room?"
She looks around. "Did we?"
"Yeah."
"No, Tremaine. These drugs."
I look at what she had in her hand. "Ibuprofen?"
"This is not... Are you stupid? This is not... How about I take one right now." she says picking one out of her hand.
I slap them up in the air. "What the hell are they?"
She looks down at the pills. "Bitch, your fucking son cause find one of those."
"They are ibuprofen."
"Okay, Tremaine. You feel better or worse after taking them?"
I pick up the pills and study them. "I don't know who I got this from."
"Throw them in the fucking sink. For the benefit of my sanity and this baby's health I will believe that."
"I swear." I say throwing them in the toilet.
"I have some ibuprofen in my bag from my dancing days that seem so long ago. Look in the small front pocket."
I do as told. For the life of me I can't remember where those pills came from. I know I took one for a headache. The headache did come back later 10 times worse than before. What the fuck? I read the two bottles that Cammie had in her bag. One was her prenatal vitamins. The other was ibuprofen. I look the lid studying them. They were very different from these fucking shits. I toss them in my bag.
"You mad?" Cammie snaps.
"What if that was something to kill me?"
"Somebody close gave it to you. If not then you need to work on security."
"Most of these niggas on some type of drug."
"What are you on?"
I walk to her side before answering. "This fucking high you got me on."
"You must be physically tired."
"I'm friends with athletes. They do more physical shit than I do. I swear to you that you make me better. Never had a tour like this. I'm more angry but I'm good."
She turns her face up. "What advice did you get?"
"Sleep, eat healthy, relax, be to myself, and... That's it. Stay clean."
"But you haven't been clean."
I kiss on her without saying anything. She burps really loud. I make a face at her. She rolls her eyes then starts laughing.
"You nasty."
"I don't give a damn. I'm not trying to be cute for you, I'm trying to get some sleep."
I kiss her stomach. When I start singing she hits my head.
"Don't you dare wake the baby up. I said I wanted to go to sleep. You are going to be up with me until you leave out in the morning. Lane left April because he wanted to sleep with you. He woke up telling April about all the people that was watching him. He said he was Trey Songz."
"How does a 2 year old talk so much? He had a dream that he was Trey Songz?"
"I believe that's what he was trying to tell April. Sevyn texted me talking about how drunk Chris is."
I shake my head. "I told that motherfucker. This is why I'm not missing Europe money finishing this tour."
"Chris has a bit more work to do before he is appreciated for all the talent he has. He should have gotten his ass tore up as a child."
"You know he..."
"I'm not talking about abuse. I'm saying later in life. Chris gets away with being Chris. Why risk all this by drinking?"
"Yeah."
She blows. "Chris is amazingly talented for a dumbass."
"Sound like you don't like him."
"I'm pissed off with Chris, yes."
I kiss her lips. "I can tell. What did he do?"
She rolls her eyes. "Don't know what to say out of that dick sucker of his."
"Stop talking about him, Jay." I say kissing her. "I wish I was going home with you. What if I'm in Europe when the baby is born?"
"I'll FaceTime you so you can see my vagina open up to the size of King Kong's dick."
"You..." I couldn't stop laughing.
She blows. "I don't know why I keep doing this. It's fucking hell."
"Stop playing. What if I really miss the birth?"
"Tremaine, I swear you don't want to be there. I won't think hard of you."
"I don't believe that."
She raises her eyebrows. "There's a reason why the men stayed outside back in the days. I swear I wouldn't care if you were on your way or outside of the door. It's not cute."
"I feel like you don't want me there."
"Bae." she says grabbing my face. "You gonna be there. I'm not having the baby while you in Europe."
"Promise me."
"I will not." she hits my nose. "Move out my face looking like Lane in my face."
I lay down beside Lane. I play with his nose until he wakes up. He stares at me the he starts crying. Cammie hits my shoulder. Lane moves really fast climbing on me. He hugs me really tight telling me to stop. I hug him. He goes straight back to sleep. Cammie makes a sexy ass noise like she getting dicked down. I look at her. She has her eyes closed. I reach to wake her up then I let my hand drop to the bed. She might kill me for waking her up when it took so long for her to go to sleep. I lay there happy to be with them. Tomorrow is going to be bad.
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 "Trey!" Cammie yells. "Hand it to me."
"You got somewhere to be?"
She giggles. "No, not really. You are the one that's going to miss your flight."
"I don't think I'll miss it. I see planes all the time."
"Tremaine. Lane!"
A few seconds later he comes around the corner dragging a toy snake by its head. "Yes, Mommy."
"Baby, bring me my towel."
The towel was bigger than him. He puts the snake down to pick up the towel. He makes faces while bringing it to her. This is the worst part of everything. Leaving my family. But it's something that I want to do. Lane goes back to his snake then walks out of the bathroom.
"Lane?"
"Huh, Mommy?" he says coming back.
"What are you doing?"
Lane points. "Watch TV."
"Okay." she says getting out of the shower.
"You couldn't get out without a towel?"
"I hate walking around wet. Plus I don't want to risk falling."
I wrap my arms around her. "Did you fall while you were pregnant?"
"No, but people fall."
"No shit."
She kisses me. "I love you, Tremaine."
My soul smiles. "I don't fucking love you."
"Mommy, get SpongeBob back."
"Come here let me put your clothes on."
Lane starts pouting. "I don't want clothes."
Cammie snaps her finger at him. "Now."
"Mommy, I good?"
"Come get your clothes on."
"Mommy, get SpongeBob."
She grabs his arm pulling him to her. He knows better than to fall out when she has him near her. He plays with his snake asking her about bringing SpongeBob back.
"I love you, Lane."
"Love you, too." he says turning away from Cammie on purpose.
She pushes his butt away from her. He had on a tank top and some blue jeans that were too big. He heads out of the room holding his pants up with one hand. Cammie calls him back putting on his belt. He starts eating her with the snake while she fixed his clothes on him. He still walked away with only a tank top and jeans.
"Lane." I say.
"I go watch TV." he says then looks at me.
I chuckle. "I'm about to go. You going to come with me."
"No." Cammie says.
"I watch TV." he says walking away. "Mommy, get SpongeBob on TV. No, Lion Guard."
"What is he talking about?"
Cammie blows standing up halfway. I watch her stand there then I go to her. She touches her back then move slow to stand straight up.
"What's wrong?"
"I got up. That's all that's wrong. This is like an 80 year old man trying to get up from being on bedrest. It's just not supposed to happen that fast."
I chuckle. She wobbles across the room rubbing her stomach. She looks funny. Like a fucking seahorse with her belly out there. I follow behind her. She stops walking as she notice me following her. I get an evil look.
"Tremaine, get that stuff up."
"You get it up." I laugh.
She doesn't like my humor. "You think I would be asking you to do stuff all morning if I could?"
"Jay."
"Shut up." She snaps.
Someone walks into the bathroom. I look around the wall. It's MiMi with the baby. She hugs Cammie and asks her what's wrong. What did she do that for? Cammie gets all emotional. Women are crazy. MiMi comes up to me.
"Morning." she says nicely. "Hold your daughter. I'm leaving this rotten thing at yall's house."
"It's fine with me." I say taking her.
MiMi starts cleaning up Cammie's stuff. "Bae, why did you unpack all of this stuff?"
"April did that."
"Hey, Trey." JJ says waving. "Lane, you ready to go home?"
Lane jumps like JJ scared him. "No."
JJ smiles. "You going to Chris concert?"
"No."
"Lane, stop saying no all the time." JJ says mad.
Lane turns to the TV. "JJ, get SpongeBob back."
"I can't do that." JJ says.
I get the remote and turn the channel. Lane jumps up staring at the TV. SpongeBob was going off. He sucks his teeth.
"Tremaine?" Ma says coming into the room. "They are waiting on you."
"I'm not going."
Ma rolls her eyes. "That's completely your choice."
"He is going." Cammie says taking the baby. "I will see you in a week, Maine. One week."
"A week for 2 days."
"I'm tired of hearing the same thing. Money not a problem until you not working sitting at home while you lose money. Stop talking."
I chuckle. "I swear you want me gone."
She is really pissed. "Lane, say bye to Tremaine."
"That Daddy." Lane corrects her.
"Say bye. He is about to leave."
Lane comes home me. "Bye, Daddy. Come back home."
I pick him up hugging him. He talking about come back home like I usually don't be home. He does have a point. I don't be home. I stand him up on the ground. He hugs my leg then he goes back to watching TV. I stand in front of Cammie.
"Trey." Buggiz says. "We are running late."
"You in trouble when Buggiz comes to get you." Cammie giggles.
I kiss her nose. "You going from mad to happy every few minutes."
"I'm wishing you stop making your goodbyes so long. It annoys me cause I hate saying bye."
"Ma, Cammie said she doesn't want me in the delivery room. I'm lowkey pissed about that."
Cammie sucks her teeth. "I didn't say that. If you miss the ugliest part of being pregnant then oh well. I wouldn't care if you were outside the door or on your way. Ma, you blame me for saying that?"
April chuckles. "Let him see it if he wants to get out of shape about it."
"Trey." Buggiz says.
"I love you." Cammie yells.
I kiss her. "I'm not saying bye."
She puts Minnie to my cheek. I kiss her soft skin. I'm ready for my baby. I'm ready to go now. The minute I step out of the hotel things are going to start moving fast. Next time I look up it will be time to come home. Then again on the long blur then these faces again. I kiss Cammie. Minnie was trying to put her mouth on Cammie's shirt. When Cammie tells everybody they laugh. I don't get the joke.
"Lane is still coming to Europe?"
"Yes." Cammie smiles.
I kiss her one last time. "I'm going to put a tattoo of your lips on my hand so I can always have them right there."
"To kiss your hand?"
"I reckon." I laugh backing away from her. "Love you, Lane."
"Daddy?" Lane says turning from the TV. He stares at me. "You go to Nicki house?"
I smile. "No, I'm going to Chris' house."
"Love you, Daddy." Lane says waving.
"Stop growing okay Lane."
He nods. "Okay. I no eat no vegetables."
I laugh. "Eat your vegetables."
"I grow."
I laugh as I walk out of the door. April walks with me. She is going back with Cammie. Sevyn walks pass me as I'm going down the hall. She only waves because she's on the phone. I sigh and hug Ma as we walk. She hugs me back.
"She will be fine."
"She doing better."
Ma nods. "Because she loves you and you told her to. Should have forced all this on her months ago."
"I should have planned these tours at the beginning of her pregnancy. Now I know."
"You can't control everything."
I kiss her cheek. "Take care of my wife."
"Take care of yourself."
"Love you."
"Loved your ass first."
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