#the fuck ever

[ideologyofone]

Do you think we’re soulmates in another universe?

[vaindumbass]

love all the cute dungeon meshi pride art but chilchuck would not be caught dead wearing any sort of pride merch. you think that man is going to give out any personal information? for free?????

[lastoneout]

Ya know when people told me "when you're finally safe enough that you can leave survival mode and start to let go of and process your c-ptsd/trauma things are probably going to get really, really bad before they slowly start to get better" I thought that was reasonable. I did not understand that by "things are going to get bad" they meant "you're going to find yourself in the worst mental state of your entire life, but dw, that means it's working" and tbh I simply wish someone had been more clear.

Edit: If everyone could please take a minute and think about what it must feel like to be struggling and then have multiple strangers say to your face that they find the prospect of going through what you're going through so horrifying that they'd rather kill themselves and then stop leaving comments like that I would greatly appreciate it.

[marypsue]

Keep seeing that post where OP starts like 'Thinking about...grieving the undead' and then adds on about like. Real life situations where people have not died but have left your life and you would have reason to grieve them.

All respect, that's an important concept, but that is not what I am thinking about when I read 'grieving the undead'.

[motorclit]

I need to rant/vent a little...

I'm not sure if it's people in denial or what, but if you want a very basic, representative idea as to what the US is like when it comes to politics, the biggest one would be the show The Boys on Amazon Prime. (The name "Vought" that's featured in the show should be a gigantic giveaway for anyone keeping up with one of the orchestrators of Project 2025.) You know how a LOT of who works in Vought tends to be obsessed with doing all sorts of nasty sex stuff in the building? Look no further than two examples, with one that went viral of a sex tape that got leaked of two guys doing it in I believe the Senate Hearing Room (if I remember correctly), and the other being how Grindr went down in the local area where the RNC took place. Obviously, anyone who reads this will likely go, "Because they're always guilty of what they accuse others of." And like, yeah I know, but The Boys is so on the nose that there's an impact crater in the face, ya know?

Then you've got Game of Thrones (yep, waking those memories up in ya) and if you paid close attention to the politics, you'll notice some similarities there, but a glaring similarity I've noticed is (and I know this book series was written decades ago) between Joffrey and the big cheetoh, as well as Ramsey and DeSantis (which apparently the guy enjoyed torturing people when he worked at think at Guantanamo Bay, though correct me if I'm wrong if that wasn't where he worked at).

I'd throw in a lot of references from any X-Men storyline, but that's rather common knowledge that they're full of allegories regarding marginalized people and how they're treated.

But... The Boys and Game of Thrones... How has anyone watched them and not notice the glaring similarities? I know there are plenty who have, but there are some that remind me of right-wing Star Trek fans.. Like.. what? How? How. HOW.

I also wonder if some are in denial of how close the similarities are (this includes to what aligns with fascism) because that would mean they would have to acknowledge that just going out to vote really isn't enough. And there's a mix of people in that particular camp who either don't like it and thus ignore it, find it inconvenient to actually do anything, or don't know how to envision living under a different (and BETTER) system (or lack of a system altogether!) that would rather not take you seriously if you point all this out to them. Which means they're not too much better than the people in the other US political wing, but at least they have the decency to be upfront about it. Dems/libs would rather demonstrate that through actions (or inactions).

It pains me further to say that because of mine and my husband's situation in life, we really can't participate in much of anything ourselves, but that's because we are so rural that you have to drive to the nearest neighbor, but your neighbor doesn't like you at all because you're just different. And we can't afford to move. And I'm disabled and can't drive. I'm STUCK on my parents' farm. I've been largely isolated since moving back here in autumn of 2014 only to have it worsen with the pandemic. I can barely function in public when I do manage to go anywhere (which is sometimes to pick up groceries with my husband just to get out of the house). Granted, I'm trying to grow food, but it's hard when you hardly have any money to get started and suddenly your ONE rain barrel is clogged with algae because you couldn't get financial help to get a proper cover for it, you have to dump it to fix it, and LOOK AT THAT WE HAVE A GODDAMN DROUGHT. Then you get BITCHED AT when you ask for help as to where I can find more rain barrels even though you never asked mom to buy more for you, because you can afford it now if you save up because dad figured out the only way to get you to do chores is you pay you weekly for it but you never did it before because you can't stand hearing them talk about fucking politics all the fucking time or just dad watching faux news on full blast and you KNOW if you open your mouth you'll get into a scream-fest that goes nowhere so you're in literal PAIN staying silent and anytime you make a point when you're roped into one you get threatened with being kicked out and....

I wanna move back to Pittsburgh. I keep hearing some people from there asking others why anyone would wanna move there. I've lived there for 7 years and loved it. I felt like I was a part of the world. Here on the farm, I feel like I'm put away, out of sight. My parents ignored me most of my life unless they noticed I made mistakes due to a lack of their parenting and got my ass beat for it, or unless they were trying to mould me into a person that I'm not and getting mad when it doesn't work. They would only connect with me if it were on their terms with their interests. Not mine. My brother had better luck with them because he liked baseball like my mom and guns and some other stuff like my dad. But because I'm the daughter who loved nature and dinosaurs too much, they didn't wanna bother trying to connect with me. And they don't today. They can't tear their fucking eyes from the computer, TV, or in mom's case, the TV, tablet AND phone combined to listen to me when I talk about something that I like, but had the audacity to get mad that I spent so much time in my room on my computer in high school when they first got the farm. I've called them on this and they act as you'd expect: pissy, sometimes screaming, and trying to act like I could move out whenever I want.

But my husband and I can't afford to move, and even if he got a better job, which might be a trade, it still wouldn't be enough. We are stuck and I'm just trying to keep my mind out of dark places. And that alone is fucking exhausting.

I need therapy. But because I'm Autistic, I won't be getting therapy that helps me heal, whatever "healing" looks like or feels like. Because therapy in the US is a big scam. They help just enough so you can continue working. Because if too many people get true healing, they might realize that they (and the masses) deserve better than capitalism, that it is they who run the capitalist machine, not the wealthy elite. And they can't have that. So I'm left trying to figure out why my mind shouldn't go into dark places. I have to figure out what makes me happy, and before anyone tells me to find a hobby, I've exhausted most of my hobbies. All I've got left is gratuitous amounts of masturbating or sex with my husband, ordering some nice things for myself online (such as patches, books, CDs, movies, etc.), and saving up for getting a fuck ton of tattoos so I can at least feel more comfortable in my own skin.

If anyone has read this far, keep in mine that I'm ranting and venting. I'm not looking for advice. And don't you dare tell me to write to whatever representative. Anytime I've EVER sought help of any kind by going to specific people as I've been instructed to, I was met with a shrug of the shoulders, a "sorry, there's nothing I can do," a "what do you want me to do about it?," ridicule, shame, or just plain silence.

So unfortunately for me and my husband, we are on our own until we somehow move to Pittsburgh. Until then, we're mostly dead inside. Likely no help coming.

All I can do is maybe go to the library, focus on tattoo goals, and pray I can get more rain barrels so the droughts won't be so bad when I'm trying to grow food.

....by the way, we have an oil (fracking?) pad just over the goddamn hill from us. We're also on a former strip mine, hence all the goddamn cracks in this house's walls and foundation and why our well water is full of iron and coal dust that we haven't been able to filter properly just yet (got like, one half of that filtration system after TWO DECADES because my parents can't be fucked to take care of things, and they gotta get the other half like next week or some shit.... yeah, you want pictures? I can take plenty of what this water does...). So I got no clue how long me being able to grow food or us being able to use well water is gonna last.

Again: this is a rant/vent post. If anyone gets mad at me for "only complaining and not doing anything" after reading all this, shut the fuck up. I've been trying for fuckin' YEARS to do something, and my health makes it way more difficult than it already fucking is. Eat my shit.

...like.. FUCK, I so badly wanna just do some sort of photo-related tour to show you how shitty this farm is and what I gotta deal with, but I'm afraid of it getting too much internet attention that my parents might see it and then they'll get pissed at me for bringing shame to them or something (which it was their fucking fault for getting so easily duped but my mom just HAD to have her horses and she did not care for the quality of our living conditions).

Pittsburgh was better than this farm. I'm sorry. I wanna move back. I was able to at least be independent and go places and get the groceries myself and shit. What hurts is that when we finally do move back, I will need maybe a year or two to readjust because my sensory processing issues are gonna be overwhelming. Too overwhelming for me to confidently ride a bike. I can't ride any bikes here safely because there are WAY too many blind turns and a LOT of oil-pad worker trucks SPEEDING on these back roads. Everyone who lives on this back road has experienced being nearly run off the fucking road, unless a couple of them are on their tractors.

I'm so tired...

[passerkirbius]

So, there's a lot of USians around who are very clearly fucking fed up with their political choices this election cycle, and planning to sit it out.

And I get it! What's the point of voting if there's no one to vote for?

The thing is, I'm Australian. In Australia, voting is compulsory. We don't get to sit out our elections, and I'll be real honest with you - we don't exactly get better choices than you lot. So how do you vote if there's no one to vote for? You find someone to vote against. And there's always someone to vote against.

Now, we have the pleasure of preferential voting in Australia - We get to rank every candidate from 1 to X, and I'll tell you, there's something so cathartic about putting the biggest bastard of the lot at the very bottom of your preferences. I understand that USians don't get that option - you get to mark one person, and that's it.

That means that you get one shot, so aim it at the biggest bastard of the lot. The candidate you most utterly detest. Put your vote in the worst possible place for them. Don't even think about who that vote's going towards, that's not the point. Remember, every vote is a vote against someone. Make sure you fuck up that someone's election day!

[bacchuschucklefuck]

couldnt draw my thang for mid-autumn so treated myself to a calne redesign instead

[mwagneto]

aint no WAYYY THEY JUST TRIED TO SAY THAT. not even "the doctor's" but doctor who's in general 💀💀 so now that they have a disney contract every single gay thing (which they've had for fucking decades) is gonna be a huge big huge first gay thing ever!!1!1!1!! event??? like yeah there's a very specific significance to it i get it but what the fuck do you mean😭 jamie pull up the files

[proselles]

alex hirsch was really just so pissed that no one saw his epic old man yaoi that he went and wrote a whole new book and made a whole website specifically to show meticulous evidence that this weird old man fucked a triangle.

he really said what were ford and bill really doing in that pocket dimension they shared, hm? did you ever think of that? oh - you think it was just chess? hm. interesting. i dont.

the ultimate rare pair shipper. i have never seen a creator do this before. absolutely fascinating at every angle.

[carry-on-my-wayward-butt]

having a child has taught me that every toddler is completely justified in their frustrations and tantrums because learning how to do something you have literally never encountered or heard of before is insane. and being expected to be completely calm in the face of this constant barrage of overwhelming information is doubly insane.

i got charlie a sticker activity book and it occurred to me i have to TEACH someone how to unpeel stickers. it's SKILL that requires DEXTERITY and FINE MOTOR ABILITY. i thought it was obvious that you have to curl the page a little bit to create a break in the cut so the sticker comes up.

obviously a fucking BABY wouldn't know that because they have no background experience to inform their thought process. OBVIOUSLY. and OBVIOUSLY the LITERAL BABY wouldn't get it right the first few times. it would OBVIOUSLY take practice. lots of it.

i hate this feeling. it's so obvious. why are children treated so badly when they're learning everything for the first fucking time. why do people treat children so horribly and expect so much. they're brand new. why didn't i get the same grace i give to my child? why did no one have patience for me? why, when it's this easy?

it's so easy. it's so fucking easy.

[luxevamp]

Quick throwback bc sometimes I forget how cool my headphones are

[vvenuspng]

💥📣 BLITZO SUX

[everwalldigan]

Bruce: *waking up in a hospital that he drove himself to after having a heart attack and telling absolutely nobody* hey…

The entirety of the batclan looking over him with Dick in the centre, an absolute terrifying grin on his face:

Dick: hello Bruce, nice evening isn’t it? Got something to share with us?

Edit: the fic is now out on ao3! https://archiveofourown.org/works/57780508

[condensed-ink]

[slavhew]

dandadorks

[indigo6f00ff]

need to share an experience i had 30 minutes ago

(edit: thanks to @walks-the-ages for providing and reminding me to put alt text, sorry it slips my mind alot lol)