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doppleganger-rental · 1 year ago

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Words to live by.

#16mm film #16mm #the day won’t last forever #you get what you give

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gojoest · 2 months ago

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i will always like my mother’s side of the family more than i do my father’s side

#— ai rambles #dad ur fam sucks bro i am so sorry #the only decent person there was grandpa and he’s dead #i can’t believe my grandma (dads mom) once told me i was not part of the fam bc i am a woman and one day i won’t be part of the fam when #i get married and take my husbands last name #i will forever stay single just to spite her #a woman saying this to me is so insane

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bitethedevil · 1 month ago

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Ily please don't die

I’m very much alive 🧍🏻‍♀️But I truly appreciate the concern, anon 🫶

#I’m a bit quieter these days because I’ve got so much stuff going on #enjoy the quiet while it lasts. it won’t be forever

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neverbeforeandneversince · 4 months ago

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I need to vent

#they say anxiety won’t last forever #but when you’ve had chronic anxiety for nearly 3 decades #you aren’t skeptic you’re just realistic I think #I’ve been listening to really good educational podcasts #have tried so many therapists #and throughout all sessions and podcasts I’ve genuinely listened and tried to put principles into practice #but nothing is working #and the persistent anxiety has turned into hopelessness and not wanting to deal with this miserable feeling forever #I don’t want to live each day feeling absolutely horrible #and unable to enjoy life #so idk what to do #becca speaks

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kavehayati · 7 months ago

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Chappel Roan saying she’s sad she’s demisexual and then there’s me being aroace as a whole like don’t you think I’m even more sad 😭

#not saying she’s not allowed to feel sad at all #just makes me think about myself LOL #I hate being aroace it’s like everyone’s part of a secret club I will never be a part of #and that people don’t tend to understand and if they do they never uphold that fact #like I actually have thrown up before from the concept of being in a relationship because it’s horrifying #and disgusting to me in a practical sense #like I don’t want to throw up every time I start thinking about those things I just want to be normal #and not panic like a relationship sounds like even worse than a death sentence #ppl think aroace is cute and problem free but it’s literally so uncomfortable and inconvenient when you’re in a world which a) doesn’t #understand wth aroace is b) doesn’t respect it at all c) has shit povs on what friendship is and how it can be more fulfilling than somethin #and d) how badly it impacts some ;-; like ik it sounds easy but try telling yourself omg I want to have a forever bestie #but then said forever bestie will never end up truly putting you first because they’d have a partner who will be their number one #and as usual you won’t even be second place you will be last like always #because I’ve noticed that the moment ppl get a partner suddenly they become their forever bestie role and then I can’t have that cause it #freaks me out and disgusts me all at once so I’m literally just cursed with forever feeling lonely and not meaning anywhere near as much to #someone who you wish could even look your way the way you do to them …#honestly by the day these reminders make me feel more and more aplatonic but it’ll simultaneously always feel like a hole in my heart #because apparently being aroace is like being some weird person and some freak #and not in the 𝒻𝓇ℯ𝒶𝓀𝓎 type of connotation LMAO I mean just plain freak #and then that loneliness will always accumulate and accumulate and accumulate until I physically cannot handle it anymore or I take matters #into my own hands and just off with her head to myself LMAO #dora daily #and that is why despite aroace being cool to me it’s just not placed in an environement which makes it cool #as those assholes tend to say oh meh meh meh you never struggled girl … we’re in the 21st century every person in the lgbt community is #living the life dating who they want and being with who they want #but allegedly it is but a crime I can’t like anyone and that nobody fucking listens to me when I say I have an attraction deficit #and that they take it upon their hands to define what I’m attracted to or head canon me as whatever they are #I swear I’m not even fucking worth that shit just leave me alone 😭#I promise like if I was with somebody they will regret the day they were born by being with me LOL I am not all that in fact me being aroace #is saving them from torture ☠️ anyways ! rant over :3

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wavesoutbeingtossed · 3 months ago

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This morning is never ending and I haven’t made it to work yet

#I didn’t sleep last night so I should have taken a sick day #but I was like ‘Welp I’m awake anyway may as well go to the office and avoid my mother anyway’#three hours later I’m still not at my desk I feel like shit everything is taking forever I regret everything ugh #eta now my keyboard and mouse won’t pair I can’t find my work phone my neck is seizing up oh Lordy

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binders-and-beanies · 11 months ago

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Doin bad again folx

#might delete later I’m just wide awake and miserable #summer bill came out today and it’s $7100 not including housing which will be $2400 #literally dunno how im gonna pay for that and my dad is. adding to the emotional turmoil of it all #not able to get a loan at least not before the bill is due #able to get aid luckily but again who knows when or how much #my bday is tomorrow and for months I’ve been like please just let my bday be a good day i need one #i need some hope. not that I haven’t had good experiences lately bc I have. but nothing that lasts #nothing i get to feel good about for more than a day before a new problem drops #I need to enjoy my birthday without feeling this deep dark dread and fear and fucking guilt and hopelessness #I have fun plans for today And tomorrow and I’m grateful but honestly stressed about that too #bc it’s gonna be a lot + bc of all I need to do outside of that #+ I don’t get to spend my bday w friends the way I want like I have one friend Maybe coming w me #my bday is supposed to feel celebratory and instead it feels like absolutely forcing some illusion of choice or joy in my life #on top of it all. the most peaceful I usually ever feel is in bed w my partner and now my body won’t even let me hold or be held by them #currently laying next to them not touching them so I at least don’t keep them up w how physically miserable I am rn #I’m literally always physically miserable at this point and it feels like spring is never gonna come and provide any relief #but it’s like can I at least be cozy w them. nope instead I’m wide awake facing various horrors #despite being permanently exhausted and falling asleep in class after 40 ounces of coffee #Im just. so fucking unhappy in life rn dude I don’t want life to be like this forever with the constant threat of it getting much worse #fucking shred of joy in this godforsaken world: the sleep noises they r making rn #mine #txt #vent post #suicidal ideation tw #<- cry for help

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bentrollio · 1 year ago

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Appreciate the comment on my Squeak urn and condolences. She was my first cat from a kitten to old cat. She was with me in 3 houses and 3 relationships. She might have been the most closest family I have ever had.... I miss her tremendously and I get tear up every freaking time thinking of her.

Anyway It is not too late to make a piece for Benjamin. He might love to see you work on the art while thinking of him. It doesn't have to be an urn.

Anyway appreciate the condolences again. Peace.

Of course!! I think pets bring out the best in people, especially when it comes to art. I’m sure Squeak loves what you made, and knows how much she meant to you.

And you’re right, it’s never too late to make a piece. I think you’ve actually inspired me to make something for Benjamin. I got him as a kitten when I was 6, and he was my best friend all the way through college. I’m not much good with ceramics, but I weave and sew. Maybe I can make a tapestry for him :)

#pet loss is hard. it took me months before I was able to be okay with Benjamin’s loss #but eventually the grief gave way to fond memories #I still miss him dearly. but it hurts less. when I think of him I think of all the things we went through together #instead of thinking about the last few days when he got really sick #it takes a while. but the grief won’t last forever #I think happy memories are stronger than the sad ones. it’s what you remember most

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skhardwarevers1 · 10 months ago

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also disregard the fact that I accidentally openly spoke about something I’ve been staying reeeeeaaal quiet about for months no I didn’t ^_^

#/hj i did but idrc too much #Not enough to take it down #It was me explaining how Cyber and 313 are a metaphor for myself and lowkey accidentally said something that’s been in my head since all th #Way back when.When we were a good few months into things and like a twisted prophet I am started to think “this won’t last forever you know #And it didn’t…it changed into something new #But that’s okay..cuz I realized forcing myself to stick with something that at times would quite literally drive me into short episodes #Probably ISNT good for my mental health #Do I miss the thrills? The rush of adrenaline? Yes. Do I wish I could go back? Absolutely. Will I? Probably not anytime soon #Anyways yeah…..my cjrp days are long past gone #It also might just be the long imprinted sense of fear that remains because of my relationship with Eloise #That is also part of this #I just don’t like talking abt kt #S.K thinks

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lady-grace-pens · 11 months ago

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Hey writers

Has anyone else ever had this thing when they’ve been between projects for a while and haven’t been writing much, and they’re getting antsy for something new? And they have ideas they like, but they like. Literally just got them. Like a week ago. Or just yesterday.

And planning take a while. A lot of time and energy. You can’t really force it even though you try. So now you’re in this weird messed up grey area where you’re excited but absolutely terrified of starting something new. And you’re also being extra hard on yourself because you have to make it perfect, it has to click immediately, otherwise you feel useless simply resting and not being creative/productive. So you tend to obsess over planning to the point of anxiety, which only makes you stress out more and feeds this negative cycle. But you have passion for the ideas, you do, and you want to work on them. But you stress yourself out so easily because you’re so antsy and you haven’t had a project in a while.

Anyone else get that?

#kaitlyn talks for once #writeblr #writing #whoops didn’t intend for this to be this long #i can’t tell what to do #do I embrace the rest? embrace the slow nature of planning?#plannin usually takes a little while for me anyway. I’m that kinda person #how can I do that while taking care of the Antsy and The Pressure?#above all I just need to know that this won’t last forever like I’m scared it might #i mean. I’m glad this is a sign I’m a legit writer and creative person who cares about writing and the ideas she gets #I’m grateful for that. but it would be great to stop feeling useless and so stressed #ugh #writing is hard #In any case I should probably take a day to chill out. i think? maybe? idk #right now I should get dinner #haven’t eaten all day #bleh #friend of mine said I should focus on writing snippets for now #probably #i can’t with The Stress tho. maybe I just need to force myself. or should I calm down and like. take my time? both? idk #I haven’t been in this situation before #i don’t like it very much #does this make any sense to anyone? i Hope so

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lieutenant-amuel · 1 year ago

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I have such ambitious plans for the new year.

I want to write at least one more chapter of WBTL.

#Personal #Low stakes I know XD #But no you don’t understand 2023 was a nightmare to me especially the last 3-4 months #and right freaking now I’m still half dead #Хнык хнык I hate January #It drains all my energy and any hope for the positive outcomes #(yes this is because of exams I’m generic as heck I’m crying because of school (uni))#Oral exams my beloathed #As my teacher said she wants us to show our knowledge in stressing situations 🥰#Ajshndkfjnf PLEASE #I can barely speak in unstressful situations what are you even talking about #Anyway January won’t last forever I have a long-awaited break in February #And THEN I’m going to have fun #Not for long but still fun #Anyway back to WBTL #You know I actually miss those times when I updated every month x)#I wrote almost every day even if it was little #and now I just open my new doc every now and then add 1-2 paragraphs that don’t move anything forward and cry internally #What happened to me…#I make quite a lot of ‘off screen’ stuff now but really it doesn’t count #Buuuut I think I figured how to put all the upcoming events in order because when I tried to connect all of that in my head #I panicked that nothing of it made sense and started to rearrange the entire timeline thinking when every event would be more fitting :’D #Eventually I just wrote down my original idea read it and calmed down because yeah it actually was coherent #The last sentence of this plan is everything was good again #Yeah writing is my therapy #(Валерио пафосно снял свои перчатки)#Oh and I just have to say I’m going to introduce quite a lot of new characters in the next chapters #and I’m extremely excited to make another post with my characters picrews #Most of them are already made but I cannot share them :’D #Well a good motivation to keep writing

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moontxt · 1 year ago

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I feel so guilty for not being productive but it’s not bc I think I have to be productive every day, it’s just bc I worry that I will never feel productive again. like one or two days in bed means I’ll never want to get out of bed again. but that isn’t true! it just isn’t true!!!

#I am a functioning person I have desire and will to do things I am just tired or maybe sick #I’ve spent days in bed before and I’ve managed to get on #also I haven’t been just in bed! I’ve been doing school work and I took a walk in the park both days #so I’m not depressed and it won’t last forever my body just needs rest right now and that’s okay #I’m glad I’m able and willing to give myself this rest. and proud #t

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seilon · 1 year ago

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you know im realizing now. with the exception of a few resident psychiatrists, ive had like. no good experiences with mental health professionals

#most recent occurance is eating my brain alive right now because I feel just so. degraded and offended by how she chose to evaluate me #I won’t get into it because it will make me spiral even more and get angrier and more overwhelmed but tldr she didn’t acknowledge #anything I said about my symptoms both out loud and via written test. chose to ignore or dismiss anything that came from me #as if I couldn’t be trusted to recount my own experiences and feelings. also did not take into account that I am an adult and thus have Had #to learn to mask and shit so while she brushed off So Much Shit because i seemed (in the three hours she met/saw me)#functional Enough. that’s only becuaee I put in a Lot of effort every day to do so. and that effort does not last forever #and of course because. like I said I’m an adult. I’ve been yelled at I’ve been punished I’ve been put through courses and #through the ringer of Society in general to the point where I mimic Normal Person Behavior at least somewhat decently when im prepared to do #so. she treated me like a child and didn’t acknowledge most of my major issues. ignored me when I said I don’t avoid social situations out #of fear/anxiety I avoid them because it takes a lot of energy for me to mask and try and read people and act accordingly #and in her report suggested generalized anxiety. part of the reason I was there is because anxiety HASNT ever properly described my #avoidant behavior.#and just. yeah I said I wouldn’t get into it but here we are. this always happens #it’s just eating at me because I keep realizing more and more things she just fucking disregarded. literally wrote that I ‘listed many #relevant symptoms’ and kept it at that. did not actually give those symptoms any validity. basically just implied I was listing things #just. becuase?#some shit was just blatantly wrong like claiming that I have a variety of interests when I told her outright that I can only be interested #in one specific interest at a time- example being the entirety of last year being only interested in One (1) video game. and this is to such #an extent that it’s difficult to make and maintain friendships because I have no interest in anything else but that One Thing for however #long and won’t care about other things people try to get me into in order to have something in common with me or whatever or just. yeah.#issues.#she didn’t acknowledge the issues I have with low empathy or overstimulation. didn’t acknowledge my history of taking things literally to #such an extent that it has caused problems with people. didn’t acknowledge anything that was self-reported and not being displayed in that #moment right in front of her eyes. it’s just. really really disappointing and. yeah degrading honestly #especially because it took months upon MONTHS to get this fucking appointment #and to just be not listened to and dismissed.#anyway. yeah I’ve also just only ever had really shallow relationships with therapists (at best)#and have never felt helped by them or like they ever put in much effort to try to Get to me so to speak. only my psychiatrists have #been open minded and Listened to me. but they were always residents so they’d leave in a year or so. I don’t have one at this point.#kibumblabs

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decembermoonskz · 1 year ago

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#vent.txt #tired. but I feel like I don’t wanna complain too much #bc it isn’t me who went through stuff #but I’m still really tired #I wanna do my best and I think I’m trying #I know that they’d say I am but I’m just not sure #my heart hurts bc seeing them hurt hurts me #but I just feel like there’s only so much I can do and what if it’s not enough #I’m tired but I know they’re even more tired and so I just wish I could take all the tiredness away from us both #it’ll be fine soon but the days ahead feel super long #I know they won’t last forever but these are the moments I wish the sun would rise and fall a little faster #bc then we’d get to the point where it wouldn’t hurt so much and we wouldn’t be so tired #a few days or a week it all feels too long and far away and yet I know it’ll go by in a blink to some #this is super vague I know but just know it’s irl stuff

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harmonizewithechoes · 1 year ago

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Tomorrow we’re going to a child free wedding which means tonight I’m packing the kids’ bags to spend the night with their grandma. Or rather, I’m packing the bag for the girls now and I already packed my sons this morning because he needed two night with grandma instead of just one.

It’s the baby’s first sleepover 🥺 this will be my first time away from her for more than 3-4 hours since she was born 9 months ago. She’s going to be fine and it’s very much needed but I have so much anxiety still. I’m looking forward to this weekend for sure but I’m also already looking forward to the moment I get to hug my babies again.

#personal #i really need to go be a person for a little while instead of just being a mom #I need to practice having actual conversations with adults because I’m pretty rusty #I need to dress up in clothes that won’t be sticky with various foods and stuff by the end of the day #I’m even going to wear a bit of makeup for the first time in forever #it’s needed #I’m out of practice #and frankly I’m worried about any conversations that may last longer than 3-4 minutes #i tend to hide behind just talking about parenting stuff when I’m around other parents and I don’t really talk about myself at all #without discussing the issues we have with the fake blippi or Bluey fan theories what is there to talk about???

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binders-and-beanies · 1 year ago

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I caaan’t with the weather forecasts being like “yeah this day may be completely fine and it also may snow 8 inches” like can they just not put up any info before they know anything bc this shit physically gives me anxiety attacks a week in advance and there’s nothing I can do but wait and be scared

#i literally cannot feel ok until it’s certain that there won’t be any snow. like I need someone who knows shit abt fuck to tell me that #it took over a week for the roads to be safe last time. and I have to drive every day forever #obsessively checks every weather site and can’t do anything productive bc I’m too scared #mine #txt

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