#the curse of being me i suppose

[diabolimeservavit666]

I Usually Don't Post Stuff Like This But Here It Goes (Please Don't Judge

~SLIPS AWAY (WHAT COULD'VE BEEN)~

Did some bad things I shouldn't have

What was I supposed to have done?

Who would've blamed me if you weren't the one

I needed saving from?

Seems kinda pointless how I keep on dreaming

Kinda scared of how you might change me

I know of your Demons

You know of mine

This wasn't supposed to be one of a kind

I've been stuck here for quite some time

Wishing it was me you were holding at night

I know, I know, I know

I should've stayed away from you

You know, you know, you know

You should've stayed away from me

How we've made it through

But we both know it's far from the truth

I know, I know, I know

I should've told you it wasn't a miss call

But you know, you know, you know

You should've stayed away from her

What we could've been just slips away

Did some bad things I shouldn't have

What was I supposed to have done?

Who would've blamed me if you weren't the one

I needed saving from?

Seems kinda pointless how I keep on dreaming

Kinda scared of how you might change me

I know of your Demons

You know of mine

This wasn't supposed to be one of a kind

I've been stuck here for quite some time

Wishing it was me you were holding at night

They know, they know, they know

What you meant to me

They know, they know, they know

What I meant to you

She knew, she knew, she knew

That it's always been you

He knew, he knew, he knew

That I could never tell you the truth

Somehow we got careless beyond the youth

Two days, endless cycle of pain

Somehow it doesn't feel like enough was paid

What we could've been just slips away

Did some bad things I shouldn't have

What was I supposed to have done?

Who would've blamed me if you weren't the one

I needed saving from?

Seems kinda pointless how I keep on dreaming

Kinda scared of how you might change me

I know of your Demons

You know of mine

This wasn't supposed to be one of a kind

I've been stuck here for quite some time

Wishing it was me you were holding at night

Still, through the madness

I never felt more alive

Almost didn't care if we didn't come back this time

All that mattered was you and I

The idea of our sins laid to rest each night

The day never came, passed us by

What we could've been just slips away

Two days, endless cycle of pain

Still doesn't feel like enough was paid

What we could've been just slips away

Two days, endless cycle of pain

Still doesn't feel like enough was paid

What we could've been just slips away

Hold me now, away from the pain

What we could've been just slips away

What we could've been just slips away

Hold me now to ease the pain

As I feel myself slipping away

[sciencelings-speaks]

I love that even with all the lengths Stronghart went through to hide Kazuma's identity (using a mask to hide his eyes and a cloak to cover everything else, banning him from even speaking), the minute Ryunosuke saw him for the first time he suspected it. From his posture alone, they knew each other for about a year and were separated for like eight months and Ryunosuke could still identify his bbf from the way he stood like... Kazuma lost his memory, his identity, his... everything and Ryunosuke still clocked it, even though he literally thinks Kazuma is dead, that the prosecutor's masked apprentice is the whole reason he's even there at all.

Literally what else could Stronghart have done to hide Kazuma's presence from Ryunosuke, he did as much as he could but still Ryunosuke felt it immediately. This feels gayer than most of the yaoi I've come across, this is a major plot point in a romantic drama, this can't not be a trope in one of the kdramas my dad likes to watch on Netflix.

[royaltea000]

[jttw oc] cursed to be an obligate carnivore, ate his entire family one particularly bad winter

[firequeenofficial]

HEY GUESS WHO'S NEVER GONNA GET OVER THIS EPISODE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SPOILERS BELOW! LIKE SERIOUSLY!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Okay, forcing myself to be coherent here. Mumbo (miner curse) lives below Jimmy (Canary curse). Mumbo lives UNDERGROUND. The miner went down WITHOUT THE CANARY AND DIED. You guys I am LOSING MY MIND. If it weren't 10:22 pm rn I would be writing a quickfic so fast you don't get it. I'm going INSANE! Not only is the Canary curse FULLY BROKEN, it's broken BY THE MINER HIMSELF.

*pterodactyl screeching*

Also shoutout to Cherri Cherrifire for orchestrating my favourite session of a Life Series ever, what a legend, do you want my left kidney or my soul or like a giant cake or my firstborn child cause AHHHHHHHHHHH

[willyhoos]

a very self indulgent twipri au i made... vampire!zelda x vampire hunter!link..

in which a rancher from ordon is suddenly afflicted with lycanthropy, and hunts down the cursed hylian queen who is absolutely, DEFINITELY responsible for it...

(spoilers: he's Mega Wrong)

a bit more info about the au below the cut!

"Link, go assassinate the Hylian queen so we can go back to living normally." instructions unclear i have fallen in love with her

midna is somewhere probably maybe once i figure out what to do with her .

[kerfuffleddingus]

I am having thoughts about the canary curse.

So canaries. We’ve all seen the posts. There’s a few that stand out to me, one being that the canaries didn’t actually die (or weren’t supposed to) . The guy that devised the canary method ( John Haldane ) was concerned for the birds welfare, so they had a little machine to revive the bird once it fell over/ stoped singing.

This is what’s happening for the first few deaths in the life series. Everyone’s being revived at this point, no one’s actually dying, but…. No one’s leaving the fucking coal mine.

A key point in using a canary in the first place is that it warns you, tells you hey this place is dangerous stop going!

They keep going.

Jim’s death each season (sans secret life) is the turning point because he’s the first one to permadie.

He’s not the warning. He’s the result of ignoring it.

[sysig]

is this where u take the requests? if not, apologies lol still learning tumblr, I WAS WONDERING IF MY VARGAS RELATED REQUESTOBER REQUEST COULD BE JAKE/NNY? i feel like jake/nny is SO looked past like its actually so cute, they could be doing anything THANK U IF THIS WAS THE WRONG PLACE SORRY MWAH MWAH X

Day 12 - Once you had one hole in your skin, you've had 'em all

[vaguely-concerned]

gonna go out on a limb here and say that I am starting to distantly suspect that hossberg wasn't the greatest place in the world to live even before the freshest coating of blight. feels like some insult to injury stuff going on here. came out today to find my boat lifted out of the water all wrapped up in blight goo. can't have shit in the anderfels

[scribblekatz]

i havent posted in a hot minute so have a cream and cheese as an early easter thingie

[tisajest]

Guaranteed way to get me to enter a new fandom/check out a new series:

read a really good crossover fic

[dnangelic]

like it's just the way that outside of the BATB/POTO 'love what's ugly and ostracized' narrative itself cocteau was gay and everybody hated his gall about it, howard ashman was gay and had to conceal it and died of aids after finishing his work for disney's batb.... rather than have dark be homophobic and spitting in the face of his inspirational roots (the sole canon detail i can't stand) it's much much much more interesting for me to both read and write not someone who's meant to be a pervert (in humor) and an agape lover (in serious contextualization) only to turn and say 'no homo' to the crowd every single time but rather, instead of all that, someone who, simultaneously taking daisuke into account, is both extremely firm yet simultaneously insecure in the struggle to establish their identity not only in regards to themselves but also around others.

that applies to a lot, but i've been considering it especially in regards to dark's gender and daisuke's attractions. dark in my portrayal (while overall 500% nonbinary) is closer to someone bi-gender rather than agender; the feminine aspect to him isn't just theatrics, it's actively also part of his entirety to him, (compared to daisuke's passivity; the ten thousand canonical princess allusions,) and even if nobody ever recognizes it in a cognizant way, it is always, always there, the same way that erik blurs and obscures gender in leroux's novel (my second enormous inspiration, sugisaki's outright admitted primary) and sakurai occasionally discusses his relationship as both a performer and a person as well (my third enormous inspiration and sugisaki's secondary,) (see 1, 2.) simply put, the tragedy of (my!) dark does not ever derive from his being able to choose and sit comfortably and confidently with this sort of identity (in fact, it's one of the few things he can stubbornly, viciously decide for himself [alongside daisuke] as essentially a non-human, autonomous 'angel',) it's instead the way that his personality is so strong and 'anti-feminine' in the eyes of convention that said aspect of himself often gets disregarded for strictly masculine (and regardless, further self-contradictory and therefore isolating,) expectations.

dark himself alone does not care if others do not understand him; this is meant to be one of his far more admirable and impressive traits. he's staunchly independent: he knows who he is, what he's supposed to be, and he knows that if he actively presented himself more femininely (crossdressing to 'pass' essentially,) then people's behaviors WOULD be very likely to change around him, but he doesn't even do that because it goes against his overwhelming sense of pride. he never contorts, he never twists himself, what matters to him is that he and he alone understands himself and knows what he is, what he isn't. but he is, without proper support or acceptance, still alone. even bearing a strong character, the stifling loneliness and inherent, underlying self-sense of broken/wrongness of the 'other,' (god's luciferean problem child, the black sheep, the black-leather wearing punk,) is still inflicted on him. dark exists solely for himself, he exists solely for daisuke, which is simultaneously wherein the inversion and insecurities lie: if dark is canonically the live metaphor for all the aspects of daisuke's self that he attempts to and yet cannot possibly, conceivably repress, from his loves to his faults to his shames and his criminal sins as a thief, then the likes of daisuke's own personal confusions in regards to himself and his attempts at intimacy/socialization with others is the other, hidden side of dark's absolute self-confidence; it's every fear of perpetual isolation, misunderstanding, and abandonment for things outside of daisuke's own control.

queerness in relation to the self (transgender allegory) queerness in relation to others (non-hetero-romanticism) mental illness (depression, anxiety,) etc, etc, dark's thematic basis may at its most general simply be "a secret that feels wrong and that you feel you can't really tell anyone or else you'll get in trouble/won't be as liked as much" but it feels much better to give due respect to each of these primary roots.

[onethousand825days]

yeah maybe it's shallow and narcissistic but forgive me for wanting some kind of quantifiable and visible proof that there's something wrong with me so that people stop looking at me like I'm fucking crazy when I tell them that I am actually fucking crazy

[randomszzz]

"love has always been the world's best secret ingredient" -> "I'd rather just get rid of them" Joshua kiryu

"there's only one way to stay alive in this shibuya: Trust your partner" -> "in a way, he's been alone all his life" Joshua Kiryu

[fiddleabout]

didn't think it was possible to experience a more egregious level of Smart-Person Stupid than when dealing with doctors a work, but now. now. now, there are coders. god save me from smart people who couldn't find their ass without going around their elbow because i am about to kill a bitch.

[unexpectedbrickattack]

I was reading your tags and on the one with Vigi and Pep (always a delight to read those) "#and pep is just a very silly and affectionate drunk hes like" + "#hes throwing out ilu to anyone who will listen" and I just had the most vivid mental image that despite this when it comes to Noise he still throws out an insult, a little bit of drink doesn't override that rivalry.

Noise wanted to bait out a ilu from Pep to tease him with later but he's just buzzed like "ilu, ilu, ilu, shove a cactus up ur bum :), ilu, ilu" kind of thing. Probably still said in a silly friendly tone but, no, Noise, you can't sneak that by Pep, nice try you little gremlin. (Keep up the stellar work btw, I love seeing your stuff pop up)

Oh absolutely. Noise is like this is PRIME blackmail material fuckin watch this shit. And it never happens 😭 theres like a specific part of peppinos brain that is allocated to recognizing the noise in vivid detail like a needle in a haystack and it overrides literally anything that would otherwise hamper his ability to both recognize and suppress the urge to throw hands w this brat. So the very most the noise can get out of him is a very satisfied and contented hum, and a half hearted swipe in the noises general space.

His hand misses and slams against the bar counter and the entire thing shakes like a bull slammed into it and the noise is like u know what! Thats good enough for me!! Ill fucking take it!!

Bonus if it completely backfires bc peppino fucking grabs him and hes like oh my god hes fucking HUGGING ME get the fucking camera ill pay anything to get this shit RIGHT NOW GET A CAMERA but the ‘hug’ is peppino grabbing onto him like a ragdolled ferret and the noise very quickly is like ‘oh i cant breathe really’, and hes just stuck like that for an hour bc peppino does not fucking yield in the slightest. Hes just *gesturing in italian* w the noise in his hand being shaken around 😭

[rooolt]

I’ve been trying to think abt why the bad kids don’t read as teenagers to me that much and I really just think they’re not messy enough. Like this is part of the reason I think the seven is so good bc there’s so much subtle infighting and passive aggressiveness while they all continue to be friends that reads so thoroughly as teenage girls to me, and that’s not to say that no teenagers have healthy relationships with their friends and that they all have to secretly hate each other, but idk the bad kids are like too polished to me. They don’t really mess up or say the wrong thing TO EACH OTHER (which I feel like may be an intrepid heroes problem across the board) and there’s really not that much interesting complexity of teenage relationships in them. The way they talk to where a lot of the time they’re like “ah yes I’ve identified exactly the problems with my actions and now I’m going to explain it as if I’m in a therapy session” that kinda just feels stilted to me sometimes. Idk, I love the bad kids, but they really are just like mini adults