#this was really hard for me
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I Usually Don't Post Stuff Like This But Here It Goes (Please Don't Judge
~SLIPS AWAY (WHAT COULD'VE BEEN)~
Did some bad things I shouldn't have
What was I supposed to have done?
Who would've blamed me if you weren't the one
I needed saving from?
Seems kinda pointless how I keep on dreaming
Kinda scared of how you might change me
I know of your Demons
You know of mine
This wasn't supposed to be one of a kind
I've been stuck here for quite some time
Wishing it was me you were holding at night
I know, I know, I know
I should've stayed away from you
You know, you know, you know
You should've stayed away from me
How we've made it through
But we both know it's far from the truth
I know, I know, I know
I should've told you it wasn't a miss call
But you know, you know, you know
You should've stayed away from her
What we could've been just slips away
Did some bad things I shouldn't have
What was I supposed to have done?
Who would've blamed me if you weren't the one
I needed saving from?
Seems kinda pointless how I keep on dreaming
Kinda scared of how you might change me
I know of your Demons
You know of mine
This wasn't supposed to be one of a kind
I've been stuck here for quite some time
Wishing it was me you were holding at night
They know, they know, they know
What you meant to me
They know, they know, they know
What I meant to you
She knew, she knew, she knew
That it's always been you
He knew, he knew, he knew
That I could never tell you the truth
Somehow we got careless beyond the youth
Two days, endless cycle of pain
Somehow it doesn't feel like enough was paid
What we could've been just slips away
Did some bad things I shouldn't have
What was I supposed to have done?
Who would've blamed me if you weren't the one
I needed saving from?
Seems kinda pointless how I keep on dreaming
Kinda scared of how you might change me
I know of your Demons
You know of mine
This wasn't supposed to be one of a kind
I've been stuck here for quite some time
Wishing it was me you were holding at night
Still, through the madness
I never felt more alive
Almost didn't care if we didn't come back this time
All that mattered was you and I
The idea of our sins laid to rest each night
The day never came, passed us by
What we could've been just slips away
Two days, endless cycle of pain
Still doesn't feel like enough was paid
What we could've been just slips away
Two days, endless cycle of pain
Still doesn't feel like enough was paid
What we could've been just slips away
Hold me now, away from the pain
What we could've been just slips away
What we could've been just slips away
Hold me now to ease the pain
As I feel myself slipping away
#song lyrics#poem#mine#this was really hard for me#a lot of things here i normally dont talk about#i like never open up to anyone#the curse of being me i suppose#i dont know how to tag this one#anywho im gonna go die now#hehehe#fake laughter#i wanna scream
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my mom loves to lie and like she always swears she was NEVER homophobic or anything to me as a child “i even have a gay work friend” but a really funny memory resurfaced recently where i asked if i could use birthday money i had to buy a rainbow flag when i was like ??? 7?? because i LOVED rainbows. and she said no that means something Evil and god will hate you . so what did i do. but ask my grandmom for a rainbow sweater for christmas and proceed to only wear that sweater for three years when it got cold because i didnt like the idea that god hated colors and i wanted to challenge him
#id also stare really hard at the sky when i wore it because i wanted to see if he would#acrually strike me with lightning because i thought it would be a cool way to fie#die*** <- and no i didnt realize rainbow = gay for another SIX YEARS#that was AFTER years of g#‘google images girls kissing’#scratchpost#txt
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10 years later
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#yuji itadori#fushiguro megumi#nobara kugisaki#itafushi#itafushikugi#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#least heterosexual group photo ive ever drawn tbh#u have the kings of subtle pda and their judgy lesbian third wheel#this does remind me a lot of the kind of art i used to do jhgdjghdfj#specifically that one furuba main trio piece i did forever ago. same vibe better art#anyway......i tried my best........ i tried so hard#i do not know how old they look . the goal was 25/26 but atp i've gaslit myself into thinking they look the same#especially megumi im so . throws hands in the air in defeat#but idk what else i can do cries at least i like it??? i think???????#i don't know!!! if they look younger than 25 whatever!!!!!!!!#why is it so hard fr me to make chars look older im gna slam my head against the door#maybe its fine. idc <- (lie)#in other news itfs are married fight me abt it . yuuji rockin the right hand ring fr Lack Of Finger reasons#also i am Eating nobara's fit . she might also look a bit younger than intended the more i look at her gDI why cant i have nice things#new hairstyle carrying tbh. i think she would a. grow it out and b. switch the side she parts it on to make Seeing easier#god just take it all tht really matters 2 me is low pony nobara and Rings On Fingers itfs#i did my time in yoi i know how to make wedding bands Work
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LGBTQ+ folk what was your gender/sexuality pipeline?
#For me it was#Cis AroAce -> Cis Biromantic Ace -> Cis Bisexual -> Questioning Bisexual -> Genderfluid Bisexual#Technically still Aspec as I'm Placiosexual as well but people get too confused when I try to explain that#Idk in general my sexuality is really all over the place so its hard to completely set one label for it#also currently wondering if I might be Demiromantic#lgbtq community#lgbtqia#queer#transgender#transfem#transmasc#genderfluid#gender#genderqueer#nonbinary#bisexual#gay#lgbt#questioning#asexual#aroace#aspec#aromantic#demisexual#lesbian
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today I had the courage to wear shorts for the first time in a year!!
#tw: implied sh#tw: self harm#mental health#I did it guys!! I’m so proud of myself#This was really hard for me
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i feel like not enough ppl are factoring in the cultural clash between laios and shuro and the many micro agressions shuro faced while being in their group. literally the name 'shuro' in itself is one
his name is toshiro 😭 lets also not forget that he has his own communication issues, in the opposite way that laios does- thats literally a factor in their argument, that his envy for laios's ability to express himself sincerely manifested as part of his distaste for him.
ig all this to say like, was their fight heart wrenching, especially when reading laios as autistic? absolutely. anybody whos ever been in laios's position knows how much it hurts to realize someone you thought was your friend doesnt actually like having you around, especially when they didnt tell you and you had no way of knowing due to not understanding their cues. but im begging yall to step back and see the nuance of this situation cause im gonna be real a lot of you are kinda just brushing over it acting like everything is toshiros fault and that hes a terrible person when in reality hes an average guy who really, really clashed with laios and it led to a very long misunderstanding due to their supremely opposite methods of communication. even laios and toshiro, after letting everything out in their fight, were able to come to an understanding and start a foundation for an actual friendship built on better communication
ok yknow what Edit: i shouldve made it even more explicit at the end of this post, i hadnt thought i would need to since i started the post with this, but i think a few too many people are missing my point so i just wanna clarify. i shouldnt have said 'really clashed' and left it at that because yeah they did, but it wasnt just their opposite methods of communication, it is also very much that toshiro was experiencing microaggressions via laios. it may have been unintentional on laios's part, but it still happened and wore him down, made it harder for him to communicate on top of both the more subtle social cues that he was raised with and his own communication difficulties. i also want to say that the fandom reaction to toshiro and the complete ignorance of this point is also racist tbh or at the very least ignorant. i understand that the anime did not cover this panel, and neither did the manga, as this was an omake, but im gonna be real with you guys. there are enough context clues within the story to clue you into this. if you didnt pick up on it thats ok, but i think this is a good lesson in picking up subtext in the stories that youre watching and/or reading. kui shouldnt have to explicitly say 'by the way laios was racist to toshiro' for this point to be understood, and at the very least, when the author portrays a character in a sympathetic light (as kui clearly does) it should make you question Why they are doing so and what makes them sympathetic, rather than youre immediate and only reaction to be 'well i hated what this guy did/said so i hate them and they suck'. idk exactly how to finish this, just. idk. question your biases and gut reactions to things you see in media and stories, and think about whether or not theres subtext that youre missing.
#dunmeshi#dungeon meshi#shuro dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#toshiro nakamoto#dont get me wrong i understand relating to a character and hating whoever wrongs them cause youre protective or you relate really hard#but i think toshiros been getting the short end of the stick for a long time now 😭#even his love for falin is misunderstood#he literally states all the reasons he likes her#and none of them are superficial#but hes so closed off and has such difficulty expressing himself that instead of asking her out or smth he just#proposed to her out of the blue 😭#leading a lot of ppl to just assume that he went 'white woman spotted' and proposed#do Not misunderstand me i am#a HUGE farcille stan#obviously#but i dont think toshiros feelings are surface level and i think theyre absolutely crucial to understanding him and his motivations#as a character in this story
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so uh apparently no ones done this yet. behold the touden friends. smiling meshi. delicious in friends. etc.
#this was really fun to make lol#I would have sworn that someone mustve had this idea before me but i cant find anything like it so#lol#laios's hair is so hard to get right as it is let alone on charlies head#smiling friends#dunmeshi#dungeon meshi#touden party#delicious in dungeon#laios touden#senshi#marcille donato#chilchuck tims#izutsumi#my art#fav
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I'm very sorry to ask something like this, I've really been struggling with this question, and I wanted to ask the combined wisdom of the people on this site
I would like to know why you keep going, and what drives you to keep living. I know there are a lot of reasons to stay alive and enjoy life, I can think of a few that personally resonate with me, but I really want to know what your reasons are
You do not have to comment on this if that's too big of an ask, and I'm very sorry for asking something like this, I really need someone's help, I feel like I don't have much purpose
Also if I may ask, please don't post any suicidal ideation in the comments of this post, I really can't handle something like that right now
#I've been thinking about this a lot and it's been hard for me to deal with#I think I just want to be happy as many times as possible and I want to help other people feel happy as many times as possible#I'd really appreciate any help or advice that you have#Suicide mention#Tw//#Cw//
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Art School AU LOL 🦌🎨 based on true stories hahaha
#my professors have very interesting personalities#this honestly may be a way for me to unwind from school#strip comics every now and then#school is gonna be so hard!!#but I’m really excited I think I’m gonna grow A LOT#but it’s sad when you don’t have time for your favorite hobby sighhh#such is the way of a scholar#pfft#hazbin hotel#my doods#alastor#hazbin hotel fanart#niffty#angel dust#charlie morningstar#lucifer hazbin
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“He is part of me… The Man is the center of all things…”
-“Metamorphosis” s2 ep9
#spirk#tos spirk#star trek#star trek tos#spock#jim kirk#metamorphosis#s2 ep9 destroyed something deep in me like i actually cried really hard#i love you companion…#the parallel between the companion/zefram and spock/kirk was palpable#my art
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Alex Hirsch did this to every character but McGucket was his personal punching bag for real
#juddrawing#gravity falls#i know ice king also has a really tragic story but please lets take into consideration AT has like 382095 seasons and spin offs#my man alex hirsch had to speedrun mcgucket's backstory in 2 episodes and a few pages of the books#and yet he made me cry so hard...#alex hirsch#old man mcgucket#fiddleford mcgucket
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the wettest of cats
#mr. “I refuse to become another goddamn mystery” himself#i’ll cry if I think too hard about him#also for tmagp listeners how was episode 22? :)#also!! this is for a dtiys I’m organising over at instagram! take a peek if you’re interested !#honestly not really any rules or deadlines. tag me if you decide to draw him ! :]#allowed myself a one day break from commissions and animating to finish this boy#(i am this 🤏 close to burnout but alas i shall persist)#jonathan sims#jon sims#the magnus archives#tma#magpod#the magnus protocol#magprotocol#the archivist#tma fanart#fanart#illustration#digital painting#digital art#dtiys#my art
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These clown animatronics in FNAF wild as hell..
#myart#chloesimagination#comic#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#fnaf fanart#ennard#the mimic#jackie fnaf#fnaf sister location#secret of the mimic#michael afton#I really wanted to draw Jackie again#I love her design especially her silly extendo arms#some folks think Ennard and Jackie might be the same robot#like Ennard was gonna be a Funtime Jackie#which I think would be really neat to finally know what Ennard was supposed to be#Jackie hopeful gets along with the other clown animatronics#it’s funny to compare these two#CAUSE AS OF NOW Jackie has done much#we won’t know all her crimes till later#but I will say Ennard probably set the bar 💀#it’s hard to get more freaky than him but we’ll see if Jackie can do it#Jackie gives me very ‘cheesed to meet you’ vibes if that makes any sense
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sadie hawkman’s dance when?!
#deltarune#utdr#susie deltarune#noelle holiday#suselle#i should’ve uploaded this grainy version onto twitter but it’s ok#i am as reserved as i can be on here but trust me these two have me BOUNCING OFF THE WALLS#there is also a version where susie is smiling really hard and i had trouble finding which face i wanted to settle with#she is absolutely smitten in both though…#my art
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I'm rewatching Steven Universe and I will never forgive Fandom for what it did to her
#also watching it at age 19-20 as it was released and experiencing the resulting clusterfuck online fandom response was a wild trip#im finally rewatching it again at 25 and really really feel lucky to have seen it at the age i did#i have completely different perspective on it now that i have 3 young nephews and a neice where before i was in college#the music is still as incredible as it was back then#and the animation#i cant beleive people got honestly and truly upset and violently aggressive about characters being off model sometimes#early stevens voice though kills me after awhile...... the yelling .... but his characters growth and development also being reflected in#his voice changing as he grows up#they also go crazy hard on some scenes#who am i kidding the show was a masterpiece and ahead of its time
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