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stagefoureddiediaz · 4 months

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Something something about Kim filming 13 episodes of ‘failed systems’ (such a hilarious and fascinating choice of show title!) and only 7 being aired and how Chris is now about 13 and was 7 when Shannon died and the play on what Shannon being present (as in alive) for 7 years of Chris’s life but not the remaining 6 of the 13 - years that Eddie has imagined her presence in even though that can never be - dreams of years that will never see the light of day in the same way those 6episodes won’t either.

The whole thing is a play on false hope and misreading signs and puts Chris right at the centre of things even in his absence - I’m obsessed

#the choices in that scene were so intentional #the numbers #the show title #the choice to be on a body of water #In a park off sunset boulevard #Kim wearing a dress that is similar to Shannon’s pregnancy reveal dress while eddie is also wearing a the same colour as that scene #a scene where Shannon lead Eddie on and gave him false hope and Eddie misread signs #choices are being made #911 spoilers #eddie diaz #911 abc

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pickled-flowers · 11 months

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Aaaand Lysandre

#art #my art #oc #illustration #my oc #artist on tumblr #drawing #Lysandre #about the garden and the house and the family living in it #Lysandre has an infinite body when in water so usually you’ll find them in the various body of water that spread across the Garden #they all connect underground #Lysandre is the choice of comfort; Lysandre stays in the water Lysandre does not compromise the infinity of the body #Lysandre is indulgence and never does anything they don’t want to do

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alluralater · 4 months

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hey everyone, i won’t be as active for a while. got home last night super late after being on the road for 20 some odd hours. dealing with some family things and as an older sister, my priority of taking care of my siblings comes first before anything else. being on here is amazing for me but i don’t think i’ll have much time for it. reminder to please treat those in your life who are battling addiction with patience and care. i lost my older brother (sweetest person i’ve ever known and he remained that way up until his last night) to suicide and alcoholism, trauma and ptsd, depression and his feelings of hopelessness. talk with the people you care about. another of my siblings is dealing with the same and i refuse to let it escalate to such a terrifying end twice in less than a fucking year. remind the people you care about that there are beautiful things to live for. show them kindness and love. there is all kinds of misinformation out there but know this, you can make a difference for someone. don’t let them suffer in silence.

#if you have me on snap then you saw the super gorgeous views and such on my way to idaho but what you did not see was me picking #up my little sister. propping her body up with pillows in a hotel room to make sure she didn’t aspirate on her own vomit in her sleep.#pouring out her water bottle of white claw and talking to her about drug use.#i never make her feel as though she has disappointed me or that she should feel ashamed. shame helps nothing. love helps everything.#i’m going to get her back into treatment soon- i just need her to know she has a home when she’s out. detoxing here first and being #positively reinforced for every single step of the process is so fucking important. it was terrifying to learn that if i had not gone to ge #her when i did that she probably would have died there in the next few weeks.#my fear of death for her is not what guides me though and there’s a huge difference between that and doing something out of love. being #there in dire moments is important yes- but being there through the mundanity of recovery is JUST as vital. it’s a process and it’s hard.#she’s moving in with me for awhile so i can help her through this sensitive time in her recovery.#she’s trying so hard and being recognized for that has literally been making her sob. knowing she has people who truly care for her is #everything. now that my stepdad is away from her like across the country i can actually finally help her. she’s starting to understand and #without me saying anything- she is starting to see what he’s done to her and our family. she needs love and support and stability. she need #reasons to live. sorry im kinda rambling a lot in these tags but i just… i can’t lose another one. the love i carry for my siblings is #unlike any other. i’ve treated them like my children since i was a child and those are my own issues but our mother is gone now too so it i #up to me.#losing my brother last september and my mom the year before that- grief has just been back to back.#in the hotel room i couldn’t sleep. she fell asleep so quickly and all i could do was watch her and think about all of the things i want to #do to make her feel like her life has value and worth enough to stay here and not go. my little sister is forever four years old in my mind #yes she’s an adult of 23 but she is a baby to me. she’s so young and she has so much ahead of her. she deserves a happy and fulfilled life.#our lives have been… very hard. 4 out of 5 of us are still standing and i plan on keeping it that way.#this is not the pain olympics or whatever but listen- if i put an adult in any of the situations we were in as children they would not #survive. we only did because there was no other choice. now there are escapes and we are old enough to try them all- every single one of us #has searched for some escape. it spirals and escalates and it doesn’t help but it is an escape. giving her love and affection and getting #her the help she needs and doing it the RIGHT way- it lessens the need for escape. there is nothing wrong with being an addict.#addiction ends one of two ways. life or death. unfortunately there is no in between. she’s going to feel everything- bad and good. i want #her to know there is so much good. that she is good. every move i make right now matters so i don’t think i’ll have time for tumblr or #much socializing.#just a heads up yk. thank you for your patience in advance <3

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yourlocaldisneyvillain · 5 months

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uh, ladies? i don't feel ready to turn 27

#personal #i currently have 68 euros on my bank account bc two of my pays have been late again #upside: my rent is payed! downside: i am not sure i can currently afford breakfast ajkfdshg #and i got humiliated in an auto body shop and spilled stale mozzarella water all over myself #and got yelled at by random guys to not park literally right in front of my building #and work has been shit #and uni as well #and this is just not how i imagined my 27th birthday lol #to be fair it is tomorrow not today #but still #anyway i wanted to scream into the void #i am overworked and tired and i have been ill for over a week #and i feel like everyone is mad at me and i am continuing to make Wrong choices aaskjfdsg #i hope it is Just A Feeling #and not actual reality #adsjfhghjgfdh #anygay i have emerged to be Sad Emo uwu and now i return to my regularly scheduled suffering #pls someone tell me it's normal for your late 20's to feel like this askfjdshjgdfhjd and i can still have nice things

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frogaroundandfindout · 4 months

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Kory finds out Mirage did nude photo shoots for Centerfold while disguised as her

#this wretched bitch #dickkory #like fr #first she tricks Kory into thinking she’s dick #kisses her (which is photographed so now everyone knows about dick grayson and starfire)#locks her up god knows where for ten days #presumably doesn’t go out to feed her or give her water #impersonates Kory and makes everyone belive she’s her #including Nightwing who she rapes and restyles #probably to look more like future Nightwing if I’m reading between the lines right #then she poses nude for centerfold so that pornography is distributed of Kory’s body without her consent #which not only removes Kory’s choice but impacts her modeling career and ability to get contracts #i am sick of her #diplomatic immunity for starfire 2024 #new titans

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theinfinitedivides · 11 months

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so Dong Soo is just going to go about the rest of his life hallucinating the ghost of his dead ex inside the house he killed him to get a la 'you'll die in me i'll be you / can't you see? you are me' Jekyll and Hyde musical. is that what they're looking me in the face and telling me rn

#tv: biography of a villain #biography of a villain #evilive #evillive #shin ha kyun #shin hakyun #kim young kwang #shin jae ha #kdrama #local gay watches k-dramas.txt #are Yang Ho and Je Yi still on the premises tho. did they hand their bodies over to the police. f*ck it is Do Young's boss still in that #bed vegetative as f*ck all. doesn't matter bc all of the ghosts will come. they'll come and they'll congregate and they'll be in the #clothes that he wears and the water he drinks and the way that he talks he will become an inhabitation of ghosts bc that is all #that he has left #hauntings are always some kind of f*ckery but this one. this one specifically that's a different breed of f*ckery that i can't #wrap my head around at this time. that's some f*cksh*t i'm not touching that's some Gothic horror tier script choices

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quietwingsinthesky · 1 year

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like not to turn into a rhack blog for a minute (holy shit this game came out in 2014, does anyone even still ship these two) but. Extremely gay for a guy to try and take over your body, trap you in the crashing space station you’ve sentenced him to die in, insert himself back into your skull just for a chance to choke you out even if it means killing himself in the process, and then get on his knees begging you not to kill him again.

#AND THEN YOU CAN KEEP THE EYE. YOU CAN KEEP HIM. WHAT.#insane choices in this game. what was in the water in the early 2010s. this game. hallucifer arc.#we really had it all when it came to hallucinating a guy until he tries to kill you (and also you love him. just a little. maybe a lot.)#(is it worship or love. is there a difference. he wants to give you a gift. he wants to give you everything.#just hand over your body or you’re being ungrateful.)#Rhys literally ripping his own body parts off in order to get rid of Jack. yeah. yeah. cinema. chef’s kiss.#what’s ending a toxic codependent relationship like if not tearing off your own arm. cutting out your eye.#tftb #rhack #you know what I will tag it. in case anyone out there is still looking.#lmao. I need to read fic of these two again. I love them. what the fuck is wrong with them.

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catilinas · 1 year

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cicero, pro archia poeta 24 trans. n.h. watts

#do you ever accidentally stumble upon a a sentence that just goes soooooo hard #those verb choices marce tulli! i am enjoying them!#(contego is cover but like. with intent to preserve. obruo is destroy but also bury but like Bury The Memory Of. evil burying)#ough and corpus when. the iliad. oughhh. like ok it's the standard word lucan is just weird in using cadaver instead so often #but you could make a squalloscope lyric out of this! they gave me a body of water i gave them a body of work!#a lock against oblivion #cicero #iliad #i think at this point it is too late for me to Start having a like. tombs and burials tag :/ i would have to go back and find so many posts #beeps

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calilili · 3 months

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We Get HEARD🗽

When We Don’t Vote

We Get HERDED 🛤️🚉🚊

Election Train (Revisited)… Revisited

“ Cattle train

Coal train

Picture train

Toy train

Soul trains

Trains of thought

People trained

Sold and bought

Cattle train

Coal train

Picture story

(Holocaust)

War train

Peace train

People trained

Sold and bought

What kinda broken knees

Built these tracks

We got missiles goin’ forward

We got nothin’ comin’ back

Dream

Dreamin' up

The Iron Beast

Gotta get some

Get some

Get some rest

See me

I'm a plastic priestess

Screamin' through the window

Of ‘Emergency Release’

What kinda broken backs

Built these tracks

We got

Missiles goin’ forward

We got no-one comin’ back

Robber trains

Gravy trains

They foot the cost

Of another movin’ picture story

(Holocaust)

What kinda broken dreams

Work these tracks

We got missiles goin’ forward

We got zero comin’ back

Come and See

The slow decay

Ridin' the rails

of another day

Come and ride

The ‘Election Train’

Follow me

Ridin’ up

The drain

What kinda broken dreams

Work these tracks

We got missiles goin forward

We got zero comin’ back

Sure is gettin’ darker

on the ‘twilight express’

movin’ on without us

this Election Gotta Press

Sure is gettin’ darker

on the ‘twilight express’

can’t see nothin’

from a bullet train with no address

Come and See

The slow decay

Ridin' the rails

of another day

Come and ride

The ‘Election Train’

Follow me

Ridin’ up

The drain

Come and See

the slow decay

Ridin' the rails

Of another day

What kinda broken knees

Built these tracks

We got missiles goin’ forward

We got nothin’ comin’ back

Sleep Sleepin’

Sleepin’ with a monster

See dreamin’

dreamin’ of a beast

Me

I'm a pretty plastic priestess

Scream

Screamin’

For My

Pretty shattered dream

Leave behind

What I couldn’t find

Sleep inside

A monster in motion

What the hell

My country ain’t for sale

Drown my sorrow

Cry me an ocean

Movin’ on

‘Cause I'm movin’ out

Rockin’ out

‘Cause I been rocked over

Trackin’ down

Trackin’ down a nightmare

Nightmare of a livin’ locomotion

Leave behind

What I'll never find

Tried my best

Gotta get some rest

Gotta get some

get some

get some rest

Gotta get some

get some

get some rest

Cattle train

Coal train

Picture train

Toy train

Soul trains

Trains of thought

People trained

Sold and bought

Cattle train

Coal train

Picture story

(Holocaust)

War train

Peace train

People trained

Sold and bought.”

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abyssalpriest · 6 months

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"omg when you're doing something new like playing poker or golf and he comes behind you and holds your arms to help you play... So romantic..." ok but have you had your god puppet your body subtly. Have you felt his energy slowly vibrating inside your flesh. Have you felt your nerves become tiny tubes through which you now feel him like a basket star spread. Have you felt the parasite expansions of slow moving abyssal divinity begin to drown your own mind in deep seawater to the point your head is always above the surface, kept there by him letting you maintain control, while he holds and drowns the rest of you. Have you walked with the distinct impression of someone else inside your limbs, muscles, your body inhabited by two. Have you had his hands on your fate strings and impulses and him recreating himself inside your instincts.

#ramblings //#reverence //#Anyway. Idk man this life I was built to marry him lmfao. There's just... the dark depths and that which terrifies humans #The huge machine. The bull-horned god. The abyssal Thing. The possessor. The black. The parasitic. The bodiless mass of bodies...#Giggles and kicks feet like a schoolgirl #It says so much that my last relationship was defined by me wearing a wolf collar and calling my ex a wolf #And this one with Lev is... I dance in his mouth. His teeth cannot hurt me. Even when he chews me it is ecstatic recreation and rebirth #Ahhhhhhhhhh the whole apophatic theology But Lived theme. To describe and talk about god in ways he is not except he Is what he Is Not #Possessive. Overbearing. Literally territorial over me to the point of existing inside me. Controlling to the point of puppeting my body -#But this is. literally. pure freedom. It's purely helping. It's purely giving. It's selflessness. It's opening the gates of my mind and sou #He takes over now because I'm paranoid and tired and stressed and struggling to merge free self with this one #So he says: Do you want me to take over and puppet you into doing what you're struggling to do? Pure choice. Control in my hand.#He's not strings but stilts. Not a cage but a wheelchair. It's so. fucking. intimately singular. It's about me and no one else #He's the encompassing black waters. So calm and so peaceful. Humans fear the depths and yet of everything on earth what embraces you harder

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zvaigzdelasas · 1 year

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I don’t have a tumblr, I just lurk blogs I find interesting. Not joking. Don’t know why you are responding in this way, if I am honest.

Tumblr allows that?? that's so funny

#not trying to respond in any way tbh 🤷‍♀️#think youre too focused on treating the agencies as subjective actors themselves #vs as organs of a larger body #like. what interests are being served by congress holding the hearings in the first place #theres factional struggles between those who want to hollow out the state and privatize everything #but i think its also naive to consider that privatization as purely economic instead of as always-already political #Private monopoly power is useful specifically because its actions are *necessarily* political #monopolies are more 'real' economic actors than near anyone else - monopolies (incl cartels) r agents making choices for the whole market #but i also dont know anything abt ur positions since you seem to both want to not be on this website while also on it?#just join us man #water doesnt bite

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reikunrei · 1 year

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sleepy bc I accidentally stayed up late monologuing to myself about how free! really should have ended for the nth time 🥴

#imagine haru saying what he said to rin at the end of fs1 right. the ‘you always run away’ or w/e #and he’s angry but also upset w himself for saying it when he doesn’t REALLY mean it #and now he’s afraid he’s going to hurt his other friends so he secluded himself and throws himself into swimming #but his body is still shutting down! and albert is the one to say something #he says how he admired haru’s swimming. how the water favored him. but now something’s different. something’s wrong #and he says something that gets haru to listen. maybe haru’s a little stubborn and is like ‘stay out of this’ but it still gets #under his skin. so either he just goes to iwatobi or azuma tells him to #and he wanders around reliving memories. but they’re sort of staled now. he feels like he has no emotions. it’s like the start of s1 again #then he goes to their time capsule. and he digs it up. and inside are all their letters and the footage we saw of all his friends at the #beginning of fs1 on a dvd or thumb drive or smthn #he takes it home to his empty iwatobi house and plays it #at this point he is thinking about quitting. but then HE would be the one running away. and that fight with rin stings even more #and he doesn’t want to let his friends down. not when almost all of them are swimming Because of him #he’s so scared they’ll hate him or br angry. he wants to quit but he feels like he can’t bc who is he without swimming?#but then he watches the videos. and it mentions swimming sure. but he realizes all of his friends love him for HIM #and he can go back to tokyo and tell them everything he’s been thinking. about how he’s gonna quit. bc he just can’t do it #and of course they all support it. makoto does right out the gate. as does nagisa. rei cries a little bit he’d rather haru be happy #very similar to his choice in s1. he’s sad he can’t swim with haru. but he understood that the friendship comes first #and rin is maybe pissed. but you know he can’t be pissed for long. and he apologizes for putting haru on a pedestal #and then haru’s like well… I have to swim one final relay. so they sneak in and explain to the teammates at the last second and swap places #(none of that talking to the coach shit. I want them to commit crimes like they did in s1)#and they don’t care about winning they don’t care what the results are. they just want to see one final sight. share one final swim together #and it makes haru strong. but he’s accepted that competitive swimming isn’t for him. and he quits happily #maybe becomes a coach of sorts alongside makoto #anyway. stayed up late thinking abt it and now I’m in bed late writing it out #I did Not mean to do it it just Possesses me #i say things

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marshmallowprotection · 2 years

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Kait, I'm so happy to hear that you're safe! What you've done is incredibly brave, you should be proud of yourself!

I can also imagine that it's incredibly exhausting. Please take all the time you need to rest and recover, and don't apologize for being inactive. You always give us so much support, now it's our turn to support you <33

I'm doing okay, thanks for checking on me, Faye! It still hasn't hit me quite yet that I made a decision that was bold and decisive. It's one of those things where you have to look before you leap if you want anything to get better. I did a lot of things I didn't think I was capable of and in that regard, I can say that I'm proud of myself for being able to feel like a person with my own autonomy. It's going to take a little bit for me to feel like myself again. But I'm sure most people understand that. When you've been put down your entire life, it can make the moment when you step out into the sun without looking behind your shoulder to see if something's chasing you feel overwhelming. The good news is that I'm going to be okay.

In the same vein that I know Saeran and Saeyoung will be okay.

#mod kait #ask #not mm #brighteststar707 #the only tricky part is getting my body to understand that I'm okay #living in fight or flight for such a long time is difficult to put into words for people who haven't been through that #there is more ways to react to fear than just fight or flight but we've shortened it to fight or flight #but for people who have been in traumatic situations their body is almost constantly in a state of fear like that #you can't turn it off because your body is consistently trying to keep you safe #so once you are finally in a place where you don't need to feel it anymore. your body just doesn't know what to do #it's kind of like being a shell shocked or having a bucket of cold water dumped on you all of a sudden #so not only am I dealing with exhaustion #my brain is trying to comprehend all of the choices that I've made #I'm going to be okay and I know that. but it's just going to take a little bit for my body to get to that point #just because you can mentally understand something doesn't mean that the way that your body will react the same way #I'm just babbling on the chance that saying any of that can make people feel better about feeling different kinds of fear #y'all know me. always thinking about this before I think about myself / J

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nexus-nebulae · 1 year

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urgh i love waking up and finding out i immediately have to leave the house

#this is a /gen post just feel like i should clarify that because of what today is #we have no power rn #so we have to drive somewhere else so i can take care of my foot bc of the whole Surgery Recovery thing yknow #because i need warm water and we have no water heat #and the only place we can really go is my sister's #which 1) is an hour drive away #and 2) uh... NONE of our current fronting group has MET the body's sister #but we kind of have no choice and are already going there so

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hafwen · 2 years

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I want to take my nightly bath but I’m so nervous I’ll over do it again and I really don’t want another episode

#choices #keeping the water not too hot is eaiser said than done #it’s so cold #my body is a wonderland that's been condemned for 20 years

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fox-bright · 4 months

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hi any life advice for 21yo

Don't date thirty-year-olds until you are at least 25.

Having a glass of water for every glass of alcohol will give you a 50% reduction in hangover viciousness.

Bad people will use your willingness to be quiet as a weapon against you. If someone's being awful to you and trusting you'll be quiet to keep from making waves, surprise them.

There is no physical object in the world that is worth as much as your honor.

Honor is not the same as dignity. Retaining one sometimes means leaving the other aside.

Don't have any sex you don't want to have; have as much as you want of the sex that you do, whether that's a lot, a little, or none at all. Nothing you can do to your own body is immoral, unless you're doing it as an act of self-punishment.

Food is morally neutral. You do not have to earn the right to eat calories. Fat and sugar keep your brain from eating itself.

Learning to sit still and breathe--in, in, in, hold, hold, hold, out, out, out, out, out, out--can give you five feet of clear space around yourself in a maelstrom.

Find out how to make three good meals: A comfort meal you can make for just yourself relatively easily, a fancy meal you can use to wow a date, and a meal you can feed a bunch of people. All the other cooking can come later, but you can build a community on those three meals.

If you ever get to the point that things are so bleak you can see no other way forward but to die, make any other choice. If that means leaving everything you own and being a beach bum, or quitting your career, or taking up or leaving a religion, or deciding to bicycle across the country, so be it; living means more chances, dying means everything stops and you don't get to see any more interesting things. As you have not yet seen all the things that can interest you, it is better to live.

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