#the adhd gremlin in my brain probably

[a-lesbianshadowinthenight]

this is my sistine chapel

[keltaithecrafty]

I'm feeling knackered, and my ADHD brain is wailing that I am tired out and still got nothing done, so I shall post what I have been doing in the hope of shutting the little gremlin up.

Quilt top:

Today was spent adding a wide white strip to either side, total measurement about 80 x 76 inches. Not the biggest I've ever made, but probably one of them.

The coloured part is about 1 3/4 of two Robert Hoffman Bali Pop Batiks in Rainbow. I seem to remember the word Watercolour in the description too. I like the subtle tone on tone effect, just enough to keep the vivid colours from looking flat.

This was also my first time making a Bargello-style quilt- I find full Bargello a bit headache-inducing but splitting it up worked quite well.

[skiptomy]

Well Hey There, it's been a hot minute since I've been properly active on Tumblr, but the rest of the internet is rapidly crashing into more of a hellhole than this lovely hellsite. So I'm looking for more folks to follow, and hopefully to make some new buddies

Name: Lou (Luceferin, Skip, Skip To My, Art Gremlin) About Me: -I'm 31, turning 32 in September -I'm Agender + Asexual -AUDHD (autistic + adhd) -I have EDS, Fibromyalgia, Asthma, and I'm a tummy ache survivor -I'm an artist, and I'm gonna be posting a whole lot of work soon -I watch dogs and cats and will be posting very goodboys and gals Fandoms/Interests: -Dungeons and Dragons -Cowboys in general -LGBTQIA+ Studies/History -Games: Hades, Pyre, Bioshock, Fallout, Mass Effect, Legend of Zelda, Dragon Age, Red Dead Redemption, The Last of Us, Lethal Company -Shows/Movies: Leverage, Hilda, Ted Lasso, Golden Girls, X-Men '97, WWDITS, In the Flesh, Over the Garden Wall, Bob's Burgers, Pacific Rim, Annihilation, Knives Out, -Hellboy -Dropout TV -Podcasts: TMA, Wolf 359, Girl in Space, NADDPOD, MBMBAM, TAZ -Nature: Animals/Geology/Space -Spooky Shit -Body Positivity/Positivity in general -Probably so many more I have the brain RAM of a piece of wet cheese If you think we're a good match, reblog this with your info or send me a message!

[amphiptere-art]

Behold! The magnificent! The skilled!

The wonderful Saros Cog!

I don't care if I made him for my own entertainment. It's been a long time since I've even wanted to make another AU. I've been going back to old ones as of recent. But this one's nice and brand new. And it's got my ADHD brain in a chokehold.

Anyways. I've been talking about him off topic. But this is Saros Cog. His name is a bit random, and even his existence. Coming out of the bored scrambling of a pencil. I just had this vague illustration of this steampunk-esque Eclipse staring out with this evil eye.

Except that saros isn't evil. In fact he's quite the opposite. Is the main personality trait is untrusting. Put the more I think about the little guy, The more interesting traits he gets. One of these traits being his crazed personality. I have basically started to embody him as some lonely fool. Again matching that gremlin Moon, with crazed Sun. Untrusting to most people in strangers. Gaming that stereotypical hostile sun and moon. But otherwise he's a rambling, kind fella.

Imagine ADHD person rambling about their favorite topic, and yet gives you the glare if you dare say anything bad about it. I think it's a funny personality. And like many other characters of mine, fills a specific niche of me.

Sure he's a bit crazy because he's been left alone in an abandoned town for a long long time. A bit more crazy than his normal. Basically speaking and shouts and tad more sun physical, and Moon gremlin. His little mouse companion that he made when he was a bit more stable. Is the only one trying to rope him in. Also just keep him sane.

Which by the way. His little mouse buddy needs a name. Apparently his nickname in my brain is wire. And that's just because he's sort of based on ... Dear God I can't remember. Some sort of mouse YN/DCA story. But he specifically has like this wire tail ears for long range communication. Little liar has been sending out signals to anyone nearby to come over. Which often results in a chaotic meeting and said visitor running off fairly quickly.

Maybe I'll open and ask for him... Anyone want that?

Anyways. I love this character. And I love this small story I have made around him. Especially his love life with Roxy. Which will probably also need their own steampunk inspired name. But for now she shall go by bone jaw. Since she looks like this. With her robotic mount being decorated by Saros.

Anyways. I love the small love life I put between these characters. Basically despite saros being an untrusted person. Roxy was basically able to just not care enough. Intruding into a space, but figuring out he's a pretty good mechanic and good guy. Saros became her greatest companion. And over time they grew away silly love even if it wasn't official.

But when the entire community decided to move because resources were getting low. Saros being untrusting and also fairly fragile given that he's broken quite a bit. His smaller body means that his engine. (The box on his back.) Has to be external and really exposed. He was just not willing to take the danger with no promise of safety by the end. Until the two were separated just by that fact. As Roxanne wasn't quite sure if she was dedicated or not. Boy did she regret it when they did find a settlement.

Anyways. I should probably stop rambling. I love this character.

[is-your-blorbo-neurodivergent]

does she have adhd?

submit your own characters here to be featured!

reason: This girl's mouth doesn't seem to have an off button. In every game she's rambling incessantly while flittering about and telling Link about her latest hyper fixation - whether that be frogs he should eat or a painting she's obsessed with. She has no impulse control and seems to find it hilarious every time she pushes or throws her Hero off a cliff - as long as he's safe. In the games where she's not outwardly an ADHD gremlin she seems to have anxiety and depression which often develops from trying to mask ADHD. In other games she breaks into Link's house at 6am because she wants to drag him on an 'adventure' with her. Her interests change dramatically every game; this princess is a goddess, a knight, a ninja, a pirate, a ghost, a sentient suit of armour, a mad scientist, a teacher, a dragon, and most recently a gremlin with a copy-paste wand who is probably going to brain Ganon with a chair. She builds puzzle mazes for Link and rewards him with nuts, seeds, and cool/weird weapons she made for him millenia ago. She is the damsel in distress most games because in the moments where she's not captured she is such a wildcard that she needs to be out of Ganon's way before he can do anything - and a normal cage isn't enough, she has to be encased in stone or an enchanted crystal or cursed into a magic sleep. Also this girl is so obviously ADHD that my brain saw her and just said same.

[allthetropes]

Tagging People I'd Like To Know Better

Thank you @5up3r for the tag!!

Last Song: Too Sweet by Hozier (maybe im a basic bitch BUT he's from bray so at least i don't think the sun rises and sets with his approval cause... he's from bray)

Favourite Colour: Phthalo green! It is the best of the greens. If not Phthalo green, then yellow gold.

Currently Watching: my life crumble jk uh I guess I'm not watching anything atm, I'm always up for a Stargate SG1 rewatch though (yes I've seen it well over 30 times) (no I don't care) (yes I skip Heroes)

Spicy/Savoury/Sweet: oh do let's be serious, it's got to be sweet very swiftly followed by savoury, or savoury swiftly followed by sweet (no spicy because i am baby)

Relationship Status: Single and incredibly happy

Current Obsession: I wish I was good at having obsessions. Unfortunately the ADHD gremlins living in my brain can and will jump from one thing to another. I guess this weekend I am focusing on sewing some pyjamas?? And then, hm, after that, I guess I'll be getting a botox shot so botox?

Tagging @aalinaaaaaa , @honeyhatred, @drchenquill, @alinacapellabooks, @lillybaaaka and @yesflyrose (although lets be honest babes I could probably write yours for you)

[yeetmeoutthewindowdaddy]

Parts 4-7 of my "A deep dive into Zevlor's devotion" series

Idk if it's the ADHD or the chaos gremlin that lives in my brain, but for some reason I don't work on my series posts in sequential order. I hop around from one part to another, which is one of the reasons why it took me over a month to write parts 1-3.

Originally, I wasn't going to publish any of this series until all of it was completed (the other reason why parts 1-3 took me over a month to write). But I was getting burnt out, and needed positive feedback to fuel my writing. Also, 5.5e came out and I panicked because I thought that it would make all the work I'd already put into this series moot.

I currently have part 4 about ~10% done. Part 5 is like ~15%. Part 6 is around ~12% done. And part 7 is ~20% done.

So just a heads up, it's probably going to be another month before I post any more parts on my Zevlor series.

Good news is that they'll most likely be published on the same day or in the same week of eachother.

[kevinsbitch-panini]

fanfic friday: aftg edition

the bright star by adamparrishlover

Summary: “We could watch Glee,” Dan suggests. Neil pauses as Andrew comes to a sudden halt. tldr: the foxes watch glee. ship wars and chaos ensues.

Tags: Canon Compliant, Glee References, Self-Indulgent, Awkward Flirting, Bisexual Kevin Day, Kevin Day is a Mess, Kevin Day Needs Therapy, Sexuality Crisis, fuck nora sakavic, rain kiss, Edging, kidding, Andrew Minyard Loves Neil Josten, fuck aaron, Lesbians, Icarus references

Words: 10,386 Chapters: 3/3

i'm gonna be super honest: i have never watched glee. im sure i'll get around to it but the adhd gremlin in my brain has decided that right now isn't the time. however! this fic was really cute despite that (and would probably be cuter if i watched it) so y'all should read it! i personally am a jerejean supremacist after reading tsc but i will never deny jerevin (i think that's what it would be) a place in my heart. anyway this fic features (1) the foxes obsessing over glee, (2) kevin having a sexuality crisis, and (3) jeremy and kevin being english and history nerds (respectively)-- and also (4) andreil and renison being cute. wait i forgot (5) allison (and renee) making a shit ton of money in bets

the author may or may not be @adamparrishlover but i can't tell, so if anyone knows for sure pls lmk :)

[my-castles-crumbling]

I have been trying to decide how I want to phrase this for a while and I think I’ve figured it out. 🧐

Every evening, when my brain is turned off and the ADHD gremlin is in full effect, I open up this app for one reason: to read your one-shots. They are the perfect little snack-size bites of brilliant characterisation and clever prose. Thank you for feeding the fandom so well! 🫶

Microfics (aka short stories) are a particularly difficult form of writing to master and I am forever impressed with your ability to craft a story using minimal words, but still offer a satisfying, fulfilling conclusion. As you can probably tell, I am too wordy to write proper microfics. I can never convince myself to stop before it becomes a full one-shot in length, or a multi-part series. 🙄

All of that to say, you deserve all of the praises for your talent and I deeply appreciate the time and thought you put into your microfics. 👏👏👏

*I am quite proud of myself for keeping this ask under 500 words.*😹

omg I'm gonna cry! Thank you so much, I'm so glad you read and enjoy them!

[rippeanuts1950-2000]

OKAY SO, a while ago I had a very bizarre crossover idea while I was half asleep that seemed entertaining to me when i got more sleep. Anyway, the crossover is for Grojband and Murder Drones. Weird combo I know, but hear me out.

it would be a human au for md with Nori being Kin and Kon’s triplet. I feel like it works a little too well than it should.

She’d be super close to the band but wouldn’t be a part of it. She’s just hanging out, giving constructive criticism on their music, and helping them get the diary from Trina. I envision her as kinda like the band’s publicist and helps them stay out of too much trouble. However, my girl is a chill gremlin so she wouldn’t be above tormenting Trina.

Her relationship with each band member I like to believe would have some fun dynamics too. I think she would be great friends with Laney, constantly correcting the boys when they misgender her.(i.e Corey saying, “Boys and Nori” to get everyone’s attention and Nori responding with “Boys, Nori, and Laney.”) Nori would tell her, “The two brain cells gotta stick together.” She’d also hype Laney up when it comes to her crush on Corey and she’s definitely listened to Laney rant about Corey being oblivious.

Her dynamic with Corey would be chill gremlin and adhd gremlin. You cannot leave these two alone together because if you do Nori will hype up Corey into doing something stupid. She loses the brain cell when she hangs out Corey though, so she’ll also probably be doing something stupid. She would affectionately call Corey the blue haired idiot and he in turn would call her the purple haired nerd.

Her dynamic with Kin would be two geniuses who respect each other but also piss each other off repeatedly. She has to constantly tell him not to try and take over the world. He calls her a buzzkill for it. But the two do help each other a lot with projects. Kin would really care about his female triplet. He just would show it in weird ways, like giving her a cd of whale sounds and book to decode dream meanings after an argument. Nori would in turn go to the dump and get him the pieces he needs for his most recent project or just broken things people have thrown out that she thinks he would like to repair.

Kon is basically her best friend. The two are super close and Kon knows everything about her and she knows everything about him. She does find his obsession with cheese odd though while he finds her obsession with drones odder. Nori is totally against Kon’s crush on Trina but when he starts to like Konnie, she’s like “oh that makes sense.” More than once these two have pretended to be giants with the tiny soaps together.

Oh! And she would meet Khan at one of Grojband’s gigs! That would need to be another post though which I will probably do even if people don’t like this crossover. This is fun!

Hope this makes some sense and was slightly entertaining! You can send me asks about this, I’d be more than willing to explain more if you’re interested, I kinda want want to info dump about this crossover lol

[songsofsappho]

Fellow Sailors on the Sea of Life...

Howdy! I go by Mona.

28 y/o, East Canada, femme-leaning sapphic. Still finding my way, but to be described as a riot of colour is a goal of mine.

I write fanfiction, I play video games, I enamour service staff with my rabid love of coffee. Things my brain is incapable of being normal about: Warhammer, Wednesday (2022), women, ttrpgs, incense, and mythology.

I am taken and monogamous. Switch/verse (sub/bottom leaning). I'm not just a sickly sweet romantic, I'm Lauryn Marie's The Romantic. Also kind of a gremlin. I blame the ADHD.

I would love to chat with more sapphics! Asks open, DMs for mutuals. 23+ if you want to flirt, but I've only got eyes for one girl.

DNI: bigots (the -isms), minors, men, """MAPs""" / pedos, TERFs (duh), and zionists.

Claimed Anon: 🦋

(Continue for some boundaries and stuff...)

Terms: I haven't had a partner since Sappho found me, but I'm pretty sure good girl / kitten / sunshine / princess would make me melt or giggle and kick my feet. I prefer Miss and Maestra in dom head spaces. Lets get to know each other before talking about my bits maybe - unless you have trans questions? Then um. I mean just genitals maybe. We'll figure it out.

Pretty much all of my kinks go both ways due to all the switchy stuff.

Green Light: Marking / biting, impact play, scent, restraints, praise & degradation, brattiness / teasing, body writing, shibari, breeding, spit / drool, choking & handling, and worship.

Yellow Light: (Most of this is yellow due to lack of experience or the need to build trust with a person first). Somno, pet play, soft CNC, cum, overstimulation & edging, ownership / possessiveness / collaring, intox, primal play, voyerism (?) (doing sneaky things in public), strap / cockwarming, and subspace.

Red Light: detrans (I just fucking got here), feet, gore, scat / piss, gas-lighting / psych manipulation, feeder/feedee, age regression, and incest.

Tags: This is probably going to take some tweaking, but #MonaMumbles for original, non-spicy thoughts. #MonaMuses for when I inevitably get the writing bug. #MonaMorial for pics. #MonaMoans for spicy posts. #MonaMemos for replies to asks!

Wow, you read the whole thing! Thanks darling~✨

[itsphantasmagoria]

HELLO THERE FELLOW HUMAN

I'm Kriss, aka phantasmagoria! Just thought I'd do a lil post to pin on my blog.

KO-FI | ETSY SHOP | COMMISSIONS - Open! 2 slots available

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This is primarily a place for me to post my art, which as you can probably see is currently 99% Drarry, and is occasionally 18+ (so no minors, please). As a disclaimer, I do not support TERFs or anything-phobes, and that includes me not supporting JKR and whatever backwards-ass shit she says.

A lil about me:

I am an artist in my 30s, I am currently a SAHM (formerly a software dev) with 2 little gremlins and a big gremlin that I married and a dog that looks like stormcloud and has a marshmallow for a brain. I get asked sometimes if I went to school for art, and the answer is yes, I went to school for animation and have a BA, and spent lots of hours drawing naked people (seriously, so many hours). I live in the northeastern bit of the US. I am a chatterbox sometimes and often scatterbrained (hello untreated ADHD). I play D&D.

Final note: please ask my permission if you want to use my art for anything, I will happily chat with you about it, and likely say yes with proper credit given. DO NOT repost my art, especially without credit. Reblogs are amazing though!

[cocklessboy]

The problem with my ADHD medication is that it wears off every evening.

I had some success with Ritalin, but I had some really unpleasant side effects with it. Constant desperate thirst, no appetite, grogginess, occasional racing pulse, and, oddly, disruptively increased sex drive (to which my psychiatrist said, and I quote, “well that’s weird. that shouldn’t happen.” exactly what you want to hear your doctor say). I was panicking, because Ritalin was my last hope. There are no other ADHD meds in this country (we don’t even have Adderall here), just atomoxetine (which gave me psychotic side effects) and Ritalin.

Well, methylphenidate. That’s the chemical name. Ritalin, but also... Concerta. The same drug, but in a slow-release capsule. When you take Ritalin, it enters your blood stream quickly, then gradually fades and leaves your system within about 4 hours. Concerta is taken in the morning and very slowly releases the drug over the course of 8-12 hours. In my case, about 10 hours, pretty consistently.

On the Concerta, my side effects vanished. I have. ZERO SIDE EFFECTS. Just the benefits. It has been life-changing. I get done in a single day what used to take me a month. Easily. With minimal effort. And with no side effects.

That constant desperate itchy NEED for stimulation is... gone. I can just... do stuff. Focus on stuff. Remember stuff.

I didn’t get diagnosed until I was 37 years old. 37 years of coping mechanisms and just scraping by. 37 years of hating myself and assuming I was the lazy, useless loser everyone said I was. 37 years of finding clever ways to trick my brain into letting me do basic life tasks.

And now I have my medication. A medication that works, perfectly, and with no side effects at all.

Until it wears off.

I take my pills around 10 am, and by about 8 pm, the meds have worn off. But I’m a night owl. I’m up till 1 am at the earliest. And from 8 pm till bed time I am unmedicated.

And it’s strange. It doesn’t feel like how I used to feel. By 8 pm I’ve accomplished loads. I’ve done work for my job, cleaned my home, cooked and eaten several meals, sent a load of emails, exercised, worked on projects, done some errands... And now I’m tired. Really, genuinely tired. But the gremlins have wrested back control of my brain from the medication and they are ANGRY. They have been denied their day of constant stimulation seeking. They have been denied their frequent little dopamine hits from scrolling tumblr or playing some stupid no-effort video game. They want stimulation NOW.

But there’s none left to have. There are no tasks to be distracted by, or distracted from. No emails to agonize over replying to. No work tasks that I know I should really get done but haven’t managed to do yet. No new posts to read on tumblr. And yeah, I could probably find a no-effort video game to play but... I’m tired. I’ve been doing stuff all day. I don’t want to.

But I’m not sleepy. I have that delayed sleep cycle and I absolutely cannot sleep so early no matter how tired I am.

And so I find myself in a weird haze at the end of each day when my meds wear off. The itchy feeling of needing stimulation is back, but the usual cycle of distraction and dopamine hits has been more or less dismantled. I don’t have anything ready to keep my brain satisfied anymore. I don’t have the mental energy left to focus on anything that requires even the tiniest bit of brain power. I can’t focus both because the gremlins have taken the wheel and because I’ve been focusing really well all day and my brain just doesn’t have any fuel left.

It’s a strange sort of state to be in each evening, feeling that vague need to do something but not being able to come up with anything to do.

I’m profoundly lucky that I not only have found a medication that works for me, but live in a place where it is very affordable. I wouldn’t trade my new life for anything. In the few months since I started this medication I’ve literally turned my life around. I went from barely surviving to finally being able to do all the things I’ve always needed and wanted to do with time left over to relax. There are so, so many people who could be helped just as easily, but don’t have access to the proper medication, or maybe don’t even know they need it.

But there is still this weird state I enter each evening. The gremlins are waking up just as I’m trying to head towards bed. I’ve completed my tasks for the day and I can relax and watch a movie or read a book or play a game but... I’m tired. And the gremlins are bored. It sort of... itches. But differently to how it itched before.

And I guess I need to learn new coping mechanisms for this new situation, to replace the old ones which I no longer need.

[blacktabbygames]

So I know it's probably been asked a bajillion times but my pathetic ADHD gremlin brain keeps forgetting every time I start to Google so can I ask what Slay the Princess is about?

Sorry if it's a little annoying 😂 I just keep getting distracted when I try to find out

You're on a path in the woods, and a narrator (Jonny Sims) tells you there's a Princess (Nichole Goodnight) in a cabin who's going to end the world, unless *you* slay her.

But do you trust him? Do you trust her? Do you trust anyone?

The core gameplay loop is similar to the Stanley Parable, where you're given a relatively simple premise, but then a lot of freedom and flexibility when it comes to what actions you take as a player!

[danxiex0]

I think sometimes people forget that Daemon Targaryen, the Rogue Prince that he is, is still a loving father and at the end of the day he was the best at it because he had so much love to give to these itty bitty little gremlins and they loved him unconditionally so I my adhd brain came up with this stupid little tidbit(be well aware most of this is my personal headcannons and what I have seen from the series, I have not read the books)

My Son Too

After the events of blood and chease both the black and green factions called a ceasfire and it was impressed upon both sides by both sides that they needed to meet in a secure location on neutral ground.

Rhaynera Targeryan, daughter of Aemma Targaryen and Viserys Targaryen, had mounted her most loyal companion, Syrax, and flew to the island that was considered no mans land. It was too close to the Greens territory and the Blacks territorry for people to look at it and think, "I could probable live there."

Flanking the Queen was her heir, Jacaerys riding his dragon Vermax, and her Uncle-husband Daemon riding Caraxes.

Behind them flies two more riders, Moondancer with her rider Baela and her twin Rhaena and next to them fly's Meleys and ontop her poised and proud is Rhaenys Targaryen, the Queen who never was.

All of them wore the signature black and red of their house. A united front would be presented.

Corlys had sailed out a few days earlier to scout the island and get ready for their negotiations. In reality he was preparing for an attack from the greens faction.

"I wouldn't put it past the cunts!" He had bellowed when he made his plans known to them all.

The island came insight and just as they saw it they heard the roar of another dragon.

Aegon, mounted ontop of Sunfyre flanked by Aemond riding Vhagar, Daeron riding Tsiserion and behind them was Helaena riding Dreamfyre. There was a ship that did not have the Valeryon banner hoisted but instead a white tower with a flame atop it.

Otto Hightower had decided to show his face.

The dragons landed and each rider on the Blacks side had to ensure that none of their dragons treid ripping apart the Green factions.

Syrax and Caraxes looked ready to pounce on Vhagar, the old war dragon who took Arax from them.

If either of them had pounced the other dragons would follow in an attempt to avenge the youngest hatchling and his rider. Dragons were much smarter than most gave them credit for.

Sunfyre and Dreamfyre looked uncomfortable with the whole exchange and Vhagar was ready to throw hands if need be.

Ser Criston Cole, accompanied by sir Otto Hightower and his men crowded the Usurping Cunt, the One-eyed Kinslayer, and Rhaenyra's younger sister.

Alicent had positioned herself next to her daughter and had the girls hand in a death vice.

Corlys and his men, far more then the Hightowers brought, stood on the little hills and crowded around the rightfull Queen of the Seven Kingdoms.

They watched as a table was placed in the middle of the two parties with seven chairs on Rhaenyra's side and six chairs on the other.

"Let's discuss this like civil adults and try to come to terms that are agreable for both factions," Rhaenyra was the first to speak.

The air was still stiff but Helaena broke from her mothers grasp and moved forward to sit down.

Rhaenyra nodded at her, a silent apology if you will, but nothing could ever make the girl feel better, before her faction took their seats.

It took the Greens a few minutes to take their own before the discussions began.

"My father and yours has always upheld my claim to the Iron throne. Always stuck to his decision to make me Queen of the Seven Kingdoms. He declared me Heir when I was eight years old, and he had never changed his mind. Not when Aegon was born, not when I moved to Dragonstone and not even when he was dying so what is it that suddenly changed his mind? After years and years of never allowing someone to whisper to him that I as a woman should not be Queen suddenly the moment, he dies he declares Aegon King in the presence of the Queen and only the Queen," Rhaenyra started off.

Otto scowled at the girl.

"Your father," Alicent started off, "Told me that the prince that was promised was Aegon. In his last breath he told me that Aegon would be King," Alicent said.

"He only said the prince that was promised and not the next King so how can you be so sure? You took his words and twisted them to fit into your own narrative so that you and your cunt father could continue to stay in power," Daemon sneered.

Honestly the Rogue Prince could have said more and could have made his words harsher, but Rhaenyra had taken his hand and gave it a comforting squeeze.

"We did what we thought Viserys wanted. How were we supposed to interpret his last words as anything other than who rules after him," Otto said.

"Then why keep the news from us? Why only inform us after you had crowned Aegon? After you blocked off all exit from Kings Landing to ensure that no word reached me. How can any of that be justified or seen as anything but you doing what you knew to be wrong. You knew what my father meant and yet you still went ahead and usurped my throne as if it were your right," Rhaenyra said sternly.

Alicent looked away and Otto, the old cunt that he was continued to let his face sour like he had just eaten an entire bag of lemons.

It went quiet after that. Corlys's men were used to these things. They were all sailors and out on the sea they were equal to each other. The only one above them was their Captain. Driftmark ran as good as it did because Corlys never hid his words from them. More than half of his sailors were allowed into his council room whenever they pleased. They had opinions and Corlys let it be heard.

These knights from Kings Landing were uncomfortable because at the end of the day they were told what to do and they did so. They were never allowed into council meetings and had never witnessed these things. Ser Criston Cole was the only one who was privy to such things, and everyone knew it was only because he was fucking the Queen, but he was tight lipped about everything that was going on in there.

"You would have killed them," Alicent whispered.

"Who?"

"Aegon, Heleana, Aemond and Daeron. You would have killed them had you sat on the throne," Alicent said.

Rhaenyra looked at her like she had grown a second head.

"They are my brothers and my only sister, what makes you think I would kill my own family?" She asked the auburn-haired woman.

"Because you already did," Aegon mumbled out.

"Speak up, boy. So that we can all hear you," Daemon said.

"I said that you already did or was my son not part of your family?" Aegon asked.

Rhaenyra saw this coming she really did but she refused to stop it.

"Your son was not meant to die. Your brother was but no one here seems to focus their ire at him," Daemon said.

"You still would have killed family. How does that make your argument any better?" Aegon seethed.

"Because I would not be killing him for our blood ties, I would be killing him for killing my son."

"What son of yours did he kill Daemon?" Otto asked with a raised brow.

"Lucerys Valeryon. My son," Daemon said.

"Lucerys was not-"

"He was my son!" Daemon bellowed as he jumped to his feet and just like his rider Caraxes did the same.

It went quiet as soon as the Wyvern did so. Everyone waited with bated breath for Daemon to burn them all with dragon fire.

"I read him stories of old Valeria! I sang him lullabies! I taught him how to better handle Arrax! I taught him High Valerian when his Measter couldn't! I taught him how to hunt and how to be a gentleman! I held him after nightmares and lulled him to sleep every time he would wake up crying in fear that some monster was going to take him! He was my son! My son who was taken from me because someone eyed cunt was not satisfied with riding the biggest dragon which he stole while my wife's corpse was barely sunk into the ground!" Daemon seethed.

Aegon stood up and got into Deamon's face.

"What of my son?! He was just a boy, and your men snuck in and killed him! In front of his mother too!"

"That is the only thing I will apologize for but only to Heleana! Because at the end of the day she was their mother and you their King! She took care of them, and she loved them! You looked at your son and saw the heir who would carry on your legacy! I wanted Aemonds head on a pike for what he did to my son, but he wasn't there and the mercenaries I sent decided to kill her boy! I will not accept the ire you give me only your sister wife's because at the end of the day you lost and heir and she a son!" Daemon seethed into the boy's face.

"All of this because Lucerys was killed?" Alicent asked.

"Always! My son was sent as a messenger and your son chased him through the sky on his war dragon and didn't expect to see her react to it! Eight years ago, your son claimed the biggest dragon to ever exist, stole from my daughters the last memory of their mother and proceeded to gloat about it! When his ego was not stroked a fight broke out, insults where hurled and your son had my eldest on the ground ready to bash his head in with a rock! Lycerys protected his brother and took his uncle's eye! The same one who said that he had a dragon which was worth the eye! Eight years later he goes back on that and proceeds to kill my son! He was ripped from us and if you ask me what happened was more mercy than anyone else would have given you!"

"How is killing my son mercy?!" Aegon asked.

"Because at least you had a body to burry!"

It was like time itself stopped. Everything went silent and a cloud of darkness hung above everyone's shoulders.

Some of the men from Kings Landing couldn't help but have their jaws drop and their eyes widen.

The sailors sunk their heads in agreement. Lucerys was the little Lordling who would get greensick just thinking about sailing, but he tried every time. He learned all their names and committed them to memory and heart. He learned how to do everything on the ship, from tightening knots to steering it. He was sweet and kind and was always up to hear their old wives tales.

They had all seen him grow and flourish and the Rogue Prince was right, he had been snatched away from them without any of them being able to say goodbye.

"How do you know he is dead then?" Otto dared to ask.

"Because the pieced of Arrax we found and the only remaining piece of cloth that was his shirt had been ripped and bloodied. We had to bury only his clothes because we could find nothing else in the weeks after we found it. You lost an heir, and Heleana lost a son. I feel for you but we, we lost our boy. Rhaenyra lost her son. I lost my son. Jacaerys, Joffrey, Aegon, Viserys, Rheana, and Baela lost their brother. Corlys and Rhaenys lost their grandson. These men who surround us, who stand with us, lost the little boy they watched grow up. All because you started a war that could have been prevented had you just talked to us. Had you just listened to Viserys and not the snakes at the Keep," Daemon said and for the first time Helaena looked at her uncle and she could see it.

She could see the pain and the hurt in his eyes. The same pain she felt every time she had to walk through the red keep without her little boy by her side.

[chaoticdelinqueerwithglitter]

Masterlist (or something)

Yey, I finally decided to put a little bit of order here, good for me! 🎉

In case that you didn't notice it, Tokyo Revengers is my Roman Empire, so there is going to be a lot of that here.

Current head image it's an amazing comission of me and Sanzu, by the hand of @gojosoreos . It makes me so so so happy, planning some chaos with my favourite gremlin ever! 💜💜💜

Is not my head image anymore, but I still wanna leave this here because it'll always be hilarious! The product of a collaborative brain riot with @just-sp-in-inginthevoid , about Autistic!Kakucho vs. Adhd!Sanzu. They're soulmates archnemesis and it's so funny 🤣🙈 Link to the art here!

The icon is mine, happy silly Sanzu (he's probably high, okay?)

The previous one was Meowzu, the best member of the Haitanis Team Rocket! 🙈 (link to both "art" in this post)

Also: My ao3 account in case someone wants to read it there!

(I'm trying to post everything here too but some of the last fics are only in ao3 for now)

Real masterlist and how to do ask/requests after this!

MASTERLIST:

Fics:

Red Snow (Angst KakuIza with happy ending)

Bonten was born from pain (this is technically a drabble but with enough angst for being a long fic T.T)

Look at how my tears ricochet: (Sanzu vs. Kisaki Angst with some light MuSan on it)

Introduction.

Part 1

Part 2

Let me tell you now, you're the lucky one (really angsty Bonten HaruKaku)

Hits Different (drabble of a train wreck)

Chokehold (Sanzu/Takuya in bad Toman Takemichi timeline) + Check the art here! 🥹

No drug can give me clarity (I need you here). Past Musan drabble

I'll love you better when I'm dead (tragic MuSan drabble of chapter 206)

Soon you'll get better (because you have to) (Dead Dove Bonten HaruMai)

Reborn Again (and again and again) (Bonten HaruMai & Sanzu bday centric)

Time, mystical time (cutting me open then healing me fine) (Final tl HaruMai & Mikey bday centric!) (FLUFF uwu)

Whumptober with Sanzu Haruchiyo! (a bunch of angsty snipets about him in every timeline)

Drabbles:

Izana Kurokawa x gn!reader receiving a red rose

Izana Kurokawa being a little shit with surprises (hc+drabble x gn!reader)

Kakucho Unbirthday series:

Izana's servant needs a birthday. Period. (platonic KakuIza)

Kakucho used to loves his unbirthdays. Before everything changed. (Angst drabble of Bonten Kakucho)

Mitsuya used to admire the Haitani brothers. In past sentence. (drabble of the final timeline)

Snippet on 5th division Takemichi.

Fanart:(or something)

Haitani brothers + Sanzu as a Team Rocket

Ran Haitani with an energetic s/o (art)

Silly Sanzu on fire

Headcanons:

Ran Haitani with an energetic s/o

Izana Kurokawa being a little shit with surprises (hc+drabble x gn!reader)

Little hc of Izana with "his kids" in the final timeline

Kurokawa siblings in the OG!timeline

Shared hc of Manila Izana and Bonten Mikey being connected in dreams!

HaruTaku hcs my beloveds:

HaruTaku headcanons!(bad Toman tl) 💜

Final timeline childhood sweethearts HaruTaku!

Final tl adult them headcanons around drugs, ooopsie?

Bonten HaruTaku! 🔥

Shared HaruTaku rambling!

I'm gonna try to put my theories/rumbles/memes about TR here, but it's a little bit chaotic and I'm probably forgetting something 😅

Memes: (aka random stuff that I found funny)

I can fix it (or not) + extra Takemitchy

Shinichiro DON'T

Poor Mitchy xD

My TR matchup! (because it makes me so happy that I didn't want to lose it)

Random thoughts/theories:

Kurokawa siblings in the OG!timeline

TR is like a trauma onion (Sanzu and OG!timeline)

The meaning of Sanzu's name (all thanks to @just-sp-in-inginthevoid )

Random thoughts about Mikey and TR ending

Say My Name (or how the season 3 ending broke me):

Analysis of why this ending is just pure pain

Analysis Part 2

Say My Name is pure Bonten coded

Talking about the meaning of Kokonui kiss

Kakucho and Sanzu parallels (again, just adding and commenting to @just-sp-in-inginthevoid post, bc sharing hc is fun 💜)

Adhd Sanzu Propaganda (I'm not even sure if this is a hc or just brain riot)

SHINICHIRO STAY AWAY FROM THE KIDS! (with love, but please xD)

ASKS:

You can ask me anything, if you just want to talk about TR or any other fandom I'm in, I will be more than happy to do it!

(but please, I can talk/theorize about JJK, but don't ask me to write about it, I'm still coping 😭)

About requests:

You can ask for headcanons, specify if you also want a drabble!

I'm gonna try to answer all the request, but sometimes I can write a lot in one day and other times not being able to do it in weeks, so if you ask for a drabble, be patient please!

I don't write smut (mostly because I don't feel comfortable writing it even if I enjoy reading it, sorry >.<) But we can talk about "dead dove, do not eat" 😌

Angst (with ot without happy ending) and fluff are my happy places for writing. But tbh, I'm an angsty whore. Hurt/Comfort is my type of fluff 🙈

Also, ask for ships! Rare ships are more than welcome, I love to experiment with them!

Or a gen drabble. You are curious about that character in that specific time line? Hell yeah, give me brain riot! 🔥

I usually write gn!reader, but I can do any specific gender if you ask.

I will not tolerate transphobia, homphobia, racism, etc. So be respectful!

Besides that, I will be more than happy to do any request, since I feel this is helping me to write more again. So don't be shy, ask! 💜

Ps: English is not my first language, so be nice please!