#thats the reason why shes in a locket

[bad-kendi]

[aroacesetitoff]

OG Infinight Reference Sheet + Headcanons

Marcy Burns/Elleve the Amender

-4 feet tall

-its mentioned that she has "rainbow robes" and ive decided to interpret that as sunset colored

-pre mining accident Marcy has longer hair and has already lost her eye to unknown circumstances

-post mining accident Marcy cut her hair and it turned whiter, and she switched to more monochrome clothing-symbolizes her turning away from her faith and also grieving her husband

-still wears her wedding ring, and keeps Fred's on a chain with a locket of his picture

-we know literally nothing abt Fred but I think he was also a halfling and had a sick ass mustache

-the symbol on pre-accident Marcy's eyepatch + staff is supposed to be of the Diarians (followers of Dia). The circle is Faeza, the hands are Dia herself, and the six teardrop shapes are the Diagems. Also meant to resemble a flower as a reference to Gum Gum

-magic goblet-does it have a name? Anyways Paralyte stole it from the Sheerays so I gave it an aquatic wave/seaweed design (water = life)

-idk how to design tattoos, but other clerics of dia would probably have similar ones-i think hers are religious in nature

Ostin Tashe/Slique the Symphonius

-ya boiiii

-4'6-so just barely taller than Bart. Barely

-had the most satisfying color palette for me- i love green and so does he

-i rewatched the hobbit/lotr trilogies so Ostin is def inspired by that-gave him braided hair and armor

-idk how a tuning sword works. Like a bident maybe? Ive drawn the sword in his right hand (the one with missing fingers) but he might prefer to fight left-handed. Idk ive trained with longswords before but ive never lost any fingers so i cant say

-magic lute-gave it a greener/mossier color palette to show it was from the Elderpines. The strings are vines and the rosette has a tree design

-dont know where Ostin's scars came from either, maybe he really did fight a dragon maybe he didnt-doesnt stop him

-post-Wight Winter i gave Slique a grey streak to match with Spectril

-also gave him a cool colored eye highlight for the same reason

Leonard Lank/Spectril the Surreptitious

-i put his height around 5'7/5'8

-made the rogue armor sharp and dark-had to recolor it from the origianly palette bc it was too dark tho lmao. Fur collar to foreshadow his time in the Ethereal Plane

-post-Wight Winter i gave him simple, more homey clothes bc at that point he had a family and wasn't focused on fighting. The fur is not bear fur i swear

-already mentioned it before but his hair started turning white + he grew it out/braided it back.

-he's got normal rogue daggers, and then the Ethereal daggers. Not shown but yeah they fade in and out of the Material and Ethereal Plane

-"Walls Have Ears-Doors Have Eyes" by Clan D. Stine-the wiki i think mentioned him having books that let him turn invisible and walk through walls-this one's definitely a Leitner (ifykyk)

-boots-deceptively simple in design from the Elderpines

-piercings include several ear piercings, snake bites, and an eyebrow piercing

-warm colored eye highlight to match with Slique-your honor i have (accidentally) sun/moon coded then because they are gay

Luz Prattle/Paralyte

-6'0 tall and definitely uses it for intimidation

-i think she dresses kinda emo/alt

-the only infinight with a unique logo-instead of two crossed swords its a snake eating itself

-committing to the snake bit-i gave her scale armor

-the gloves have two talons on the pointer and middle finger, based very specifically off a homebrew item i saw where the hand kind of looks like a biting snake. It contains a venom that paralyzes enemies and came from the Sheerays

-put a snake on her sword. Cause why not. Thats why she teamed up with Brink they are both snake lovers

-not drawn, but she would have a snake tattoo somewhere on her body

-hands are turning dark at the fingertips as a side effect of using the gloves so often. Her veins are visibly green because shes pale as hell and also suffering from long term exposure to Sangrianite

-facial scar-man im sorry i dont know where this one came from either. Kyborg shot her once tho i do remember that

Bo Bender/Grislee the Groundbreaker

-height is about 6'6, very tall lady

-all i had to go off was red bandana so its like her thing

-her locs are made of rocks and also have veins of gold in them

-the stuff on her shoulders and hammer are lichen-she takes such long naps outside they've started growing on her. And also earth genasi

-when shes raging she has magma veins coming from her eyes and hands, and the inside of her body also glows

-when shes not raging it cools to golden veins-still very hot to the touch sometimes

-didnt have a lot if ideas for her second outfit but i gave her a bearskin bc she is "grizzly"

-hammer is the other item from the Sheerays and is pretty much just a trunk on a stick in terms of design. Combined with the lute tho, they are probably some of the most powerful items in Faeza

Man thats a lot of characters. Should i have made these before I made 3 painting and a comic page? Yeah. But i didnt lol. Enjoy✌️

edit: fixed the magic item origins

[calypsolemon]

for wyv au;

whos ur favorite character to include that isnt the Main Duo ?

are there any parallels/similarities to other au's of urs? (namely transgender au)

which seasons have the greatest impact on this au?

if ur willing to share, whats the best scene you have mapped out in your head? (doesnt have to be a major spoiler. it could be something like siren jay popping a balloon for shits and giggles)

whats ur favorite aspect of the toxic dependency that notjaya have for one another?

does siren jay smell like fish ? does nya smell like fish from all the fishing ? does that smell draw sirenjay to nya ?

why doesnt siren jay just consume nya, is he stupid ? (that last ones a joke, but i am curious on if the more emotional she is, the better she tastes or not.)

does siren jay ever develop any actual feelings for nya...

thats all chat !

favorite character to include that isnt the Main Duo?

That's hard because I really love all of them, and many I am still in the process of figuring out, so there may be dimensions to characters I add later that makes me like them more. Right now I think it's Lloyd because I think he is the shining beacon in the dark mist that is this au. And also because I have a Lloyd bias.

are there any parallels/similarities to other au's of urs? (namely transgender au)

I think characters having conflicting reactions to life problems and intense relationship drama brewing because of it is a common thread through many of my au's. I think it also has the most notable similarities to Splinter-Hearted back when that was an au, especially the idea of Kai and Nya's sibling relationship breaking down in reaction to loss.

You didn't ask, but I think the main difference this au has to my others is the subtlety with which I'm portraying the more magical/supernatural aspects of the story, and the tone, which is probably the most Adult I've ever approached a silly spinning ninjas au by.

which seasons have the greatest impact on this au?

guess it's kinda obvious, but Seabound and DR s2. Skybound as well as it's sort of foundational to why those other seasons even work. And obviously I'm sprinkling in a bit of Possession for flavor (don't expect Morro to make a miraculous return here tho, its just the vibes)

Fun fact is actually that Nya's locket is designed to look like a compass in the front, to mirror the compass which held Delara's photo in Skybound.

if ur willing to share, whats the best scene you have mapped out in your head?

There's a point in the story where everyone piles into a car for a drive. Everything goes very wrong from there <3

whats ur favorite aspect of the toxic dependency that notjaya have for one another?

I like how simultaneously very alien and very human it is. The thought patterns of the siren are impossible to comprehend for a human as the thought patterns of a creature from the ocean's abyss, and yet at its core, its drawn to Nya's side by a universal instinct - a gnawing hunger which screams to survive. I think the grief that drives Nya's actions is just as indiscernible, and just as primal.

does siren jay smell like fish ? does nya smell like fish from all the fishing ? does that smell draw sirenjay to nya ?

Imagine everything in this au smells like fish and seaweed and brine and rust all the time. Everyone in Stiix is pretty noseblind to it.

why doesnt siren jay just consume nya, is he stupid ? (that last ones a joke, but i am curious on if the more emotional she is, the better she tastes or not.)

It's not about emotionally fattening her up for the slaughter or anything like that. Sirens are not really stronger than humans physically, their only real weapons are their voices and appearance. It's just that they rarely encounter anyone as capable of resistance for no discernible reason as Nya is. The siren has no choice but to continue to play her little game until it can break down her defenses, or risk death if she ever leaves the city of Stiix.

does siren jay ever develop any actual feelings for nya...

He tells her he loves her, once. Interpret that as you will.

[beautouslysandy]

Laughing In The Rain

By-Sandy

Sodapop Curtis x GN!Reader

Warnings:Zero, just fluff with soda

Word Count: 1,031

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-You are a care-free sweet-hearted person, you have many people in your life but there is only one person you wanna spend it with and that is Sodapop Curtis. The boy next door, in simple terms. -You get butterflies just thinking about him. He is your dream and he just doesn’t know it. You haven’t seen him a lot since he dropped out of school. You miss seeing his smile when you’d was eachother in the halls. You miss seeing him everyday in History class. You miss him so much. -You guys have know each-other for 4 years, you aren’t the best of friends but your still pretty close. You know almost everything about him, not in the creepy way of course.

-Little do you know that he is missing you too.

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It was a murky and rainy evening, you were at your desk studying for upcoming exams. Your desk faced the window so you could look out onto the street. Great for people watching is what you and your dad always joke about. You tap your pencil on your desk repeatedly, your growing bored and frustrated with studying this material. You look out the window zoning out. You love the rain, you love the smell of the freshly wet grass, the feeling of it hitting your skin, and for some odd reason you lived for the stormy grey the sky and clouds turn during a rainstorm. You enjoyed the little things no one else did. You came back to the present time, you say two little girls in rain attire jumping in puddles, you laughed to yourself as you thought it was adorable. You eyes wander to see the Curtis’ house and some of their friends out on the porch. They were knocking on the door, all huddled together trying to get through the open door first. You have this idea to go out into the rain and just enjoy it. You chicken out at first cause you don’t wanna embarrass yourself, you then begin to wonder why would I be embrassed if I am enjoy something I like. ‘Screw it.’ You thought to yourself.

You get off the desk chair and leave your studying to another time. You were about to walk out the door when you hear your mom’s voice call to you. “Y/N L/N, please tell me you are not going in the rain wearing that?” She said peeking out of your parents study examining your outfit like it was a report card.

I look at my outfit, I had on dark blue flare jeans with white roughed up shoes and a white sweater with your sliver locket.

“What do you mean?” You asked confused with what was wrong with your outfit

“Put a jacket on, young lady. Then you can go play or what not in the rain.” She said sternly with a smile.

“Okay, ma” You say willingly as you grab your black rain jacket and put it on. You open the door and close it, you take a deep breath. And as you guessed it smelled like freshly wet grass. You are pretty sure you have candle of the smell somewhere in your disorganized room.

You walked out into the rain, you giggled as your hair got wet. You went to grab the hood of the chair to put it on then you found nothing and then it hit you that you had forgotten that this rain coats hood was murdered last year after your little brother had the smartest of ideas to use it to play tug a war with the neighbors dog. You sat down on the sidewalk and played with the grass just enjoying as the rain hit your skin. You smiled with your eyes closed and took a deep breath again. You picked a dandelion out of the grass surprised that it wasn’t ruined by the rain. You twirled the stem around with your fingers. You zoned out until you heard a familiar voice saying:

“Y/N? Why are you sitting on the sidewalk when it’s raining?” You looked up to see Sodapop, you were shocked for a second then turned pink.

“Uhm..I just like the rain thats all.” You said almost like it was a question.

‘Gosh Y/N do you have any social skills?’ You thought to yourself.

“Oh. Me too” He said with a smile.

You chuckled awkwardly, “That’s nice.” you said uncontrollably

“Uh yeah.” He said sounding a little sad

This conversation was going no where. Until you said:

“So how’s been?” You said confidently, you even added a smile. You felt your skin turning pinker by the minute. He smiled, glad to find a topic. “It’s been great! As you know I am working at the DX full time now and..” He began sitting down right next to you looking you in the eyes. He’s eyes were sparkly, he didn’t have a rain coat on or anything just a white t-shirt, his DX short sleeved button up and hat, and his shoes and oil stained jeans. You completely zoned out, you didn’t anything he said and you found him looking at you happily and waiting for a response.

“Oh I am sorry, I zoned out” You said awkwardly and a bit embarrassed.

He looked at you with same sparkle in his eyes and replied with “Thats okay! Happens to me all of the time! I will just repeat what I said…” and he did.

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You don’t know how long you guys have been out there but you didn’t care and he didn’t seem to either. Most of your conversation had been filled with laughs and giggles. It’s was still raining and y’all were soaked but it didn’t matter, you were happy. “So..” He said picking at the grass, picking out a strand of one from a patch of crab grass on your lawn. “Would you like to come over and hangout?” He asked looking at you with his perfect smile.

You didn’t say anything at first, you have never been invited to a boys place before. “I-I..uhm” You were speechless and you were so flustered.

He looked at you confused “We can just stay out here if you want, I was just getting a little cold that’s all.” He finished with his smile.

“No no no. I just went blank, sorry. I would love I mean like to hangout with you or I mean you and your friends. Uh sure.” You said quickly as you felt heat find your face, you had totally weirded him out you were thinking.

He laughed softly as he looked at the ground then he looked and you and said, “I was hoping you would say that.” He stood up and held out his hand which you quickly took.

He turned and gave you a kiss on the check before leading the way to his house. When I tell you almost squealed and turned 50 shades of red I mean it. Believe me.

Thank you for reading!

-Sandy

[cometrose]

let me try to get all of my hunger game feelings down as quickly as possible

first of all, what a series it was so much better than i remember and i don't like 10 year olds should've been allowed to read this but i think for the most part all of the traumatic shit went over their heads

peeta my son, he has been reduced to a soft spoken bread boy over the years and i did not remember or realize how charming he was in the book gosh he is my babygirl and so sweet

in the first book he was an absolute treasure like the way he flirts with katniss the way he moves a crowd im in awe like i fucking love the interview scene in the first book and the movies do it such a disservice because his crush confession is so shocking that everybody kind of gasps like he has stolen this crowd at the show (im kind of sad cause caesar and peeta duo was so iconic naturally stars)

god katniss my dear i don't know where to start with her

i had no idea she was such a shitty narrator like if i didn't already know the entire plot i might have believed her crazy ass. Especially in the first book the girl is insane. peeta is living his terrible life with a crush while katniss is having a one sided enemies to lovers moment all in her fucking head. It is not until the train home that its like oh he was serious ofc you fucking walnut.

katniss is the star but everyone with eyes knows that if you take peeta away from her she'll breakdown and thats the cruelest part. I think if I was Snow i would've left katpee alone idk why put the spark back in the spotlight ya know?

the second book peeta was another beam of light god the baby line is so iconic and he deserved it malewife manslaughter manipulate he has done it all and did it flawlessly

and he’s still so sweet like trying to get katniss to leave him or backing off when he thinks she's with gale he always so respectful of her space

the fucking locket and pearl are very special to me like he knows and SHE KNOWS there is nothing left for him in 12 but she doesn't listen

there is so much warmth in him from painting rue's portrait for the gamemakers or offering gifts to district 11 like he didnt know thresh and rue but he knew how much it meant to katniss and how awful it was for them to die. Even him talking the morphling as they died just gently describing his paintings and rainbows was so precious

And I think about katniss and peeta were labeled as rebels for simply showing acts of kindness I like how he gets mad and that gentleness disappears but there is always a reason behind it, and him taking care of haymitch is just the sweetest he has attitude but so much warmth

then in MJ goodness its a lot first the torture and then risking it all to warn the rebels and then later like yes he tried to kill katniss but she overlooked it and so will i and hes so mean and cruel when he's out of his mind but can you blame him its not like he's lying??

the moments where that gentleness comes out again are so precious to me when he bakes annie and finnick's wedding cake when he talks sweet to delly its the little moments and how like every single book before he still wants katniss to live and he's crying and begging for death and digging his arms into his wrists to hold himself together

in the end he still wont let katniss die and the first thing he fucking does after getting out of wherever the fuck they stored him was to plant primroses in front of her house and i love him so much

he's really smart its just that no one tells him the fucking plan ever even though they all agree he's a great fucking actor

He knows he hold katniss back and he wants her to let him go but she wont and he wont let her go either and he gives her space to sort out her feelings like yes he loves her he always has and he has never tried to push her and he's just a kind person and i really really really that

At the end of the day i will always treasure a character who is simply a good person

Katniss has her moments of frustration but I don't think I can ever get mad at her because like peeta she is a genuinely good person.

Don't listen to her shitty inner monologue she doesn't have a fucking clue she is so empathetic and compassionate and caring she might not be outwardly sweet but she shows it with her actions, with rue, prim, peeta, everyone and everybody her kindness knows no bounds and she does it because she desperately wants to protect the people she loves

I think so much is lost from katniss' character into shitty ya dystopias of the 10s is that compassionate. She did not become a symbol of rebellion because she really wanted to she did it to protect the people she loves every act of rebellion was a show of love and compassion whether it is burying a little girl and singing her to her death or risking it all to help as many people as she can

peeta says it the best that she has no idea the affect she has on people and her crappy elder sister inner monologue shows that she thinks so little of herself and her ability that she undermines her skills and talents and natural charisma.

So much of her is survival “I want to the people i love to survive” and when innocent people die because of her when her friends fall to save her it hurts and hurts and she is buried under the weight of it all, burying the burden of a rebellion is not something that should be thrust upon a young girl trying to live

she's moody she's feisty but damn does she love deeply and passionately it just looks different.

THG is a very gross book there is no other way to describe everything is far uglier then you remember. The wolf mutts that look like tributes the tears the blood and pain its all so awful. Reading through the pain and the suffering and it does this really odd thing of making you smile in between the moments of terror. I love katniss' flashbacks through the book and how they reveal more and more of the story.

Katniss could have abandoned peeta and left him like he told her too multiple times but she wanted him to live she wanted that boy who gave her bread to survive and she knew if he died she would never recover it may not be the love we are thinking about but it was everything.

I don't think i will forget how awful cato's death is and how my eyes watered reading rue die again. THG is so good and making us despair you come out of that silly book hating nobody there is no tribute that i can afford to hate. The first book has a very unique vibe to it and i like it's style.

CF, catching fire is probably my favorite cause its the least traumatizing. I blame katniss and peeta for that because they are the cutest fucking thing in that stupid book. I argue that it might be a mix of love and codependency thrown in there but the cutest shit.

I totally forgot about the gale katniss love stint at the beginning so that was a total surprise.

I love the cast of catching fire i love them all i love finnick and mags and johanna and beetee and wiress and morphling 6 ( i dont like calling her that) i love the stylists and cinna and effie and i like themmmm. i like them all i love how the city and nation cries for their tributes and you see all of their friends and allies come together before the end begins.

That fucking force field has me smiling every time because its the moment where everybody but katniss realizes how much peeta means to her. The stupid pearl and the stupid locket make my heart hurt because peeta loves her so much and wants her to live and she doesn't care because she'll do anything and everything to keep him alive.

Watching them hold each other in the train, cry over force fields, drag each other through fog and water, hold each other in their arms after terrible jabberjays, even before when she was watching him bring her bread and paint in her home and katniss would stare at his eyelashes. Like she says it would be easy to let peeta go but she will never do that and she can't. Calling out for each other before she blows up the damn force field like fuck you all even if they didn't fall in love i know damn well they should've stayed together.

MJ is such a hollow book you just come out of it with emptiness like im not sad i wont cry but i feel a bit empty because you look at all the things you had and then its all gone, what was katniss fighting for? her sister, her mother, gale? and its all gone in and instant nothing remains, her friends her home the companions she made along the way and it hurts and hurts. You close the book and take a deep sign and just feel whatever is left to feel. Madge's death kind of hurt me she was the symbol behind the symbol and she is just gone. everybody is gone

Like there is nowhere to begin its falling in love even more with finnick and watching him disappear its falling in love with katniss' little camera crew and watching them disappear

its prim the light that started this just disappear and whats left NOTHING

there are so many moments where katniss wants to rip her head off but she can't because she doesn't have time there is no space there is no room its not until she if shipped back to her home all alone that she truly breaks down because she can. there is no more rebellion she has to be strong for there is no prim or mother she has to lead and she is stuck with all the weight all alone.

MJ just left me hollow like maybe if i read this years ago after CF came out i would’ve hand the sticky stuffy feeling i get in chest when i read bittersweet stories but i don’t know if this is sweet enough and it’s not bitter? it’s nothing just nothing is left

i love the parallels the book has with modern society like this is a death game where children have to fight to the death and everyone only paid attention to the love triangle and romance like they did in the games of the fact nobody cared a 16 year old girl would die in senseless violence until they realized she was pregnant like the baby suddenly makes her life valuable

simple acts of kindness labeled as rebellious and innocent children are forced to shoulder the weight of the world when they have no one left. there are so many moments where death would be the kindest thing to any of these characters because they had no hope but hope enters so when they die their death hurts like nothing else.

it tells a story of war and survival that seems so far away but so close. Katniss just wanted to live and the people she loved to live she never asked to become the face of a war but she does it and she stands strong until she can’t anymore i love her and i think her love and empathy has been lost over the years

if i were to talk about the romance okay it’s been years i knew peeta was going to win but seeing him again was so refreshing cause he is so charming and sweet and it makes my heart flutter. if katniss didn’t want him i’ll take him

i don’t hate gale, like his anger and rage caused prim’s death and you can argue having Coin in his ear and having to raise his family all by himself traumatized him so he believes it’s okay to sacrifice innocent lives (children and doctors mind you) for the greater good.

Both boys are rebels and they are good people deep down but peeta is motivated by kindness he does these things because it is the kind thing to do gale does these things because he’s angry for all he has to suffer. Both sides are justified in their feelings but it’s about katniss at the end of the day

there are many moments where katniss is taken back my gale’s cruelness and flame. She doesn’t need him to appeal to her anger to the rebellious aspect of her being. Peeta however appeals to the softer side of her soul the one that nurtures little girls who sings people to sleep he opens up the sweet side of katniss that she is positive doesn’t exist. She can be painfully romantic and she can tell everyone she doesn’t see the beauty in the world but she does she sees it every time.

There is more to katniss that fighting and hunting and i don’t think gale knew that. At the end of the day the only option was Peeta because he complimented the side of her that was buried by the weight of the world and i think that adds more meaning to her life than anything else

there are so many characters to talk about j loved ever second with haymitch and how he acts like he doesn’t care but every single tribute that has come after him has left a hole in his heart. My district 12 tributes are disasters but they truly care about each other probably every only people left in the world who would risk it all

[ultra-raging-ghost]

Had a dream i went to japan with my aunt and these two boys (one a cute little farm boy and another a hardcore city boy) were like fighting over me and it was like a cute ghibli romance theyd give me things to try and win my heart but i didnt end up choosing i went back home with my aunt lol

then i woke up, thank you dogs

Had a little follow up dream that i was staying with my family in this high rise apartment, and it was like a superhero universe that included like teen titans and batman and superman for some reason. a girl flew up to my apartment and she was like starfire but she wasnt starfire, maybe like au version of her my brain cooked up but she was struggling to fight and couldnt keep up, so since she knew me she flew up here and me and my mom were helping her recover. Since she couldnt fight i wanted to help but wasnt sure if i could so i just started jumping and doing it over and over until i eventually stayed in the air, and while they were busy i wriggled my way out of an open window (nobody was happy about this, there usually isnt anybody happy about me flying in my dreams for some reason)

so im down there and im flying around trying to see whats what, and the way im flying is like... im tinkerbell, like when im in the air im a little spec of ever falling gold dust but from first person pov i feel normal i dont even realize its happened. I also have an inventory but thats not too important, that was just something that happens. And it looks like this giant bug looking machine is like chomping through the city side, like ladybug type bug looking not like ant looking, and it has big metal teeth and its headed towards a big building and theres a bunch of superheros down there and im like... i need to go find superman, WHERE IS HIS ASS!!!! bro stopped a boulder why isnt his ass down here!!!!

so i get down from the air and now im in the inner city, mostly some kind of mall and im just passing through and suddenly someone fucking SHOOTS ME with a GUN and i turn around and its this bald guy (kinda looks like my uncle but i say that about every overweight bald guy) and im like?? u can SEE me?? but it registers in my mind that this is the guy controlling the big bug machine and hes just down here casually shopping in a hallmark in a mall, thats fine. i proceed to get the fuck outta dodge, getting shot once more and getting shot at another time (he missed the second time) and at this point im like fuck superman, i need batman where is he!!!! alfred can fix this shit!!

so now im looking for batman, starting over at square 1 where is wayne towers but also i have just been shot twice and i can only identify my apartment building so i go over there, and theres like a ledge on the side of the apartment where this girl is sitting with not-starfire and theyre trying to plot on how to help me from home, with a computer in her lap and a bunch of laundry sitting next to her. So i decide to do the normal thing and just start fucking around with the laundry to make her laugh. Eventually i stop acting dumb and im like listen... i need to find batman and i need to find superman, can you help me?? and theyre like yeah!! Apparently this girl has a strong online presence and she is gonna post basically a reverse geoguesser where people send in sightings of batman and or superman and she can identify and send me that location.

In the meantime, im going down into the city as a normal person because i dont feel like getting shot again and my current bullet wounds are moreso aching than hurting, and i get stuck in a line which sucks but i cant just start flying down here!!! Anyway i try making polite conversation with the guy in front of me and hes a huge DICK and he calls over this guy and hes like "HEY SHE HAS CONTRABAND!!!!!" and im like WHAT THE FUCK DUDE???

so this guard comes over and he makes me show him the contraband i have which is a locket from the previous dream that the city boy gave me, it turns out this guard is japanese and hes like "awwww who gave this to you?? A cute boy???" and im like "Yes.." and we end up having a nice conversation about it, its similar to something he gave his own wife when he was young and now the guy in front of me is an even bigger dick and tries to snitch on me for having cheese which is bullshit, all i had was bread (which admittedly i did have to hand over)

there was a little bit after that but i dont remember, i woke up lol

[wlwkiryuu]

what do you think about juri x nanami?

i think i've answered this before, but i don't like it. juri is 16 and nanami is 13 which i think is self-explanatory as a reason why. even apart from that, i feel like the whole point with juri is she helps the other girl characters discover/question their sexuality (namely utena, but nanami gets close) because she's already confident in her own, but the irony of that is she's too wrapped up in feelings for shiori to even consider feelings for anyone else (ie, express that sexuality), at least until the end. and even then its more showing her moving past shiori than romantic feelings for anyone else (i dont see her saying shes putting utena in the locket as romantic, i think she's just using it to make utena think about her own feelings for anthy, but that's a whole other post) and i think thats a role that really works for juri in the narrative.

HOWEVER. i am ALL for nanami one-sidedly crushing on juri because she's explicitly talked about how she thinks juri is perfect and pretty and kind of intimidates her and has a whole musical number about her in canon. i dont think it's anything serious (i'd say her strongest feelings are toward utena), but it's cute to think about :)

[alltoolewis]

12 reasons why I love you- Lando Norris

I thought I would create a new mini season called '12 reasons why I love you' The series will be based from the eyes of the player/driver & will each contain 12 different scenarios of the reasons why they loves you! By the way I have no idea if this is already a trend.... hehe It just came to me while I was eating pasta.....

I will be accepting requests for this series but I thought who better to kick off the series than lando himself! Hope you all enjoy it 💫

(Warnings- contains alot of fluff!.)

1: 'The way your always by my side'

"Im here" you yell, running your way through the paddock, 15 minutes after the time you told him you would be there. "I'm so sorry" you sighed as you reached lando, helmet on already and ready to get in the cockpit!

"I was on my way I promise... and then I remembered I forgot to my locket on and I knew I couldn't be here without my locket on an-" worried words interrupted as lando pulled off his helmet, pulling your lips to his! "Its okay bubs" he mumbled against your lips " I knew you was gonna be here..... you always are"

2: 'The way you always find a new way to WOW me'

"(Y/n)! You ready to go! Were gonna be late" lando yelled up the stairs for what like the tenth time tonight. It was the anticipated norris family meal, and like everything with you two... you were running late!

"Im ready... I'm ready" you shout back, running to the top of the stairs to see a suited and booted lando waiting for you at the bottom... and you think it would be a romantic scene wouldn't you? Where the boy waits for his girl, with open arms as she steps down lookimg beautiful as ever..But nope....

Lando laughed as he seen you appear, with one heel on and the other in hand. Your hair brushed into a high ponytail, but as normal your wild baby hair stuck out from behind your ears.

"Shit" you squeel as you underestimate the ability to put on a heel, while walking down the stairs. Tripping down the final steps, straight into the arms of your saviour. Looking up to find your amused boyfriend with teads streaming down his face.

"Ready?" he giggled, as he stood you up, brushing your hair back behind your ears. Causing the blood to rush to your cheeks...

"Ready!"

3: 'when I'm sad... you always find away to make me laugh with a joke'

"Knock knock" you sing, throwing your self ontop of his angry frame, as he groaned in frustration. "What now!" He groaned, anger still raging in him after a frustrating qualifying. "Knock knock" you try again, this time gently knocking on top of his head pretending he's a door, causing a light smile to appear on his lips. "Whos there?" He sighed, gently placing his arms around your stubborn shoulders.

"Boo!"

"Boohoo?"

"Aww why are you crying?" You cooed, mockingly pulling him into your neck. Causing lando to let out a low chuckle.....

"Baby thats the worst joke I've ever heard" he giggled, tears gracing his eyes as he watched how much you enjoyed it! "But thank you!"

4: 'how you always look deep into my eyes'

"Can I come in?" You giggled while popping your head into his game room double checking that he wasn't streaming with the gang, which unfortunately for you.... he was.

"Of course you can sweetheart" He laughed at your shy response to his computer screen, which was now flooded with comments fans hyping you up to come join him "pop on" he said patting his knee for you to come and join him, which with a little bit of encouragement... you did.

"Do the are you in love trend...?" Lando muttered under his breathe, not even taking in what he was saying getting too distracted with you playing with the hem of his shirt. "Whats that?"

"Oooooooooo" you squeel, head popping up from his chest for the first time in the last hour "alright missus calm down" he chuckled at your eagerness "what is it hun?"

"Its where we have to stare in eachothers eyes for 30 seconds & we fall in love!" "But where already in love!" Lando protested, causing you to throw your head back at his protectiveness...

"I know bubs... but lets do it" you said caressing his cheek gently.. " just in case" The minute you pulled his gaze to yours, you got lost in his eyes. Seeing the love he has for you flood is eyes as he stares staright back... I mean your eyes where the first thing he noticed about you... your crystal blue eyes that could hold a conversation with anyone and act like they interested even if you werent... your eyes never deceive you.

With a smirk stretched on his face, lando breaks the trance he put you in, this time looking dead into the camera stream. "See it didn't work.... were already in love!"

5: 'how you could make his heart melt from a single kiss'

He swore you were some time of witch! Not understanding how one person as little as you could hold as much power and control in a single kiss. It's like his whole body is put on pause, his heart stopping still but also the feeling of warmth surronding him! Loving the way that even after a stressful day or a time you want to be alone you never made him feel like he was unwanted, always dropping some sort of kiss on his body just to show you that you still cared about him, you just needed a bit of space.

6: 'the way you hold my hand so tight'

"I dont know if I can do this!" Lando whispered, voice filled with fear and uncertainty as he glanced out of the car to find crowds of reporters and fans, cameras already at the ready to ask about yesterdays poor qualifying session and photographs, something that lando loved doing but couldnt think of anything worst at the moment.

"Hey look at me!" You whispered back, hently tilting his head to look at you. Your heart breaking as you see tears threatening to escape. "You are mr..... freaking lando norris" you told him, causing a smile to appear just for a second "do you know much you have achieved already baby! Your fucking 21 years old! How many 21 year olds can say they have done what you have! Not alotttt! & okay yesterday wasnt your day but guess what!? Todays a new day and you have got this!"

Looking back into his eyes you see a different kind of teary lando, this time his eyes full of love and admiration as he listened to you hype him up. Thanking his lucky stars that he has you by his side!

" i couldn't do it without you tho" he sighed, grabbing on to you hand squeezing tightly, just for you to squeeze it back just had hard..... "and you'll never have to.... because I'm never letting go!"

7: 'the times you make sure nothing will harm me'

You ears pricked up the minute you heard the high pitch squeal of your boyfriend. Running up the stairs to find him clinged to one of the stairs banister "what are you doing up there!?!" You giggled, apart of you wondering how he actual got up there...

" can you not see it!" He yelled pointing at the floor, as you glanced around the carpet.... not seeing anything. "Bubs theres noth-" you stopped as you seen a little spider, as big as 5p coin crawling closer to him, causin his screams to get lounder and your giggles to grow.

"Okay okay..... ive got it" throwing your head back you gently pick up the tiny insect placing him out the widow. Returning to find your goofball in the exact same position.... "you okay now!" You giggled as he opened his eyes to find the 'monster' gone. Jumping of the banister he lept in your arms, causing you both to fall to the ground, him landing softly ontop of you tucking his head into your neck. "My hero" he sighed, pecking your lips softly..... "my idiot!"

8: 'how you always watch out for me'

He's never met anyone as soft but fiesty as you. At home... you wouldn't hurt a fly, always wanting to be held, having him as close he possibly could & everyone adored you! Loving your goofy and weird self... however that didnt mean they shouldn't get on the wrong side of you. The minute somebody would talk shit about him you wouldnt hesitate to get your nails out, ready to pounce. & although he adores the fact you were always willing to fight for him he would prefer If he didnt have his personal bodyguard, knowing that it would only take them to poke you and you'll be passed out on the floor... but he couldn't admire your eagerness to protect him more!

9: 'the way you make sure I have everything I need'

"Have you got your toothbrush" you sighed, as lando shuffled around your shared bedroom, dropping the newly washed pile of clothes gently in front of you ready for them to folded up "yes baby"

"Have you got your lanyard?" You giggled, as he tripped over a pile of socks, causing him to ping one at you... "yes (y/n)! We've gone though everything.... ive gonna be okay!" He sighed crouching down to you, kissing your lips gently as he helped you pack. "I know i know...... but have you got your passport?" His eyes widening as he came to the realisation that he has forgotten the most important thing!

"Dont you dare say anything" he chuckled as you looked at him, pride fillling your face as you know him better than he knows himself! But deep down he is ao grateful for your checklists... knowing he'll probably be stranded at heathrow if it wasnt for you.

10: 'how you always know what to say when I'm mad at you"

"Have you changed your hair?" You giggled, tapping him on the cheek as he continued to give you the silent treatment. Clearly not finding your comments at dinner amusing. "Don't be mad at meeeeee!" You sang down his ears, kissing gently behind it an action that you knew he loved! However yet again he turned his face..... "right thats it!" You sigh getting up from of the couch, this time straddling his waist trapping his gaze to yours.

"Lets have sex" you said, voice full of seriousness, as you watched lando slowly break into a smirk trying his hardest not to crack as you pull of your shirt. Failing to ignore you for any longer as you stripped in front of him, he flipped you over this time trapping your body.

"You missus are gonna be the death of me"

11: 'when you buy me things out of the blue'

Alot of people would assume that he would be the gift buyer in the relationship but little did they know that it was all you. Always coming home with little random knickknacks you have found, that remained you of him... if that the colour orange or his favourite type of food. Theres never a time you would return home without a gift in your hand, loving to spoil your little superstar.

12: 'how I could never hate you'

No matter how mad you made him, he knew that the love he helf for you is way to strong for it to ever turn to hate! Don't get me wrong you could be a pain in the arse! You were one of the most stubborn people he knows.... however without out all your weaknesses you wouldn't be you. And he would prefer to put up with your stubbornness than live a single day without you.

[virtual-luvr]

Soulmate

pairing: Xiao x Reader

pronouns: he/him; male reader

content: fighting, archon quest spoilers, soulmates

description: you never expected to find out the reason why Xiao acted the way he did right after Osial was woken up

note: LONG AWAITED PART TWO FOR THREAD LMAODNAK I HOPE YALL ENJOY. @peter-the-pan I remember you asked abt a part two so here :DD

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¡ This is part two to my xiao fic "Thread" so you should read that one before you read this one !

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Your hair flowed to the front of your face as you looked up, Paimon and the traveller at your side.

Your body became tense as the wind and droplets from the sea hit you. Your hair now whipping your face harder.

The color encased you all around as you look around, hoping to find some sort of exit from this bad situation.

Osial had been woken up and none of you knew what to do.

The sound high heels clicking on the Jade Chamber floor made you aware of your surroundings again and as you look back you're met with the familiar site of none other then Ninguang.

She looks at the three of you sternly before opening her mouth.

But before she can say a word, a certain adepti appears.

"What are you doing here?" Xiao asks, he almost stumbled through his semtence once he sees you.

He walks up to you before grabbing onto your shoulder just like he had the first time that you guys met.

"You shouldnt be here"

His breath is almost shaking as he looks between you and Osial. Internally you question why he is so worried about you, you had only met once before.

And as he whispers that to you, you look at the small locket on your chest and smile up at him before squeezing his hand.

"Ill be fine, no need to worry about me Xiao"

The smile you gave him when you said that, even in such a bad moment, almost made his heart flutter out of his chest.

His grip on you weakens as he takes a step back, but still not completely leaving your side.

While this exhange happened between the two of you, Ninguang and the traveller had been starting conversation.

While you werent able to pick up on eberything they said, you were able to hear about the sacrifice Ninguang was about to make.

It made you incredibly sad but you had no time to mope before the Fatui started to attack.

You and the traveller looked at eachother before nodding and running in, a thing you usually did before a battle.

It symbolized you would see eachother again in the end.

Xiao ran behind you as you ran up to one of the many Fatui. You both fought side by side, and while neither of you knew each others attack patterns, you worked perfectly together.

Suddenly a man came up whine you before throwing you to the ground, the locket you had around your neck now broken into small little pieces and the thread carefully placed inside was blowing through the wind.

You heard Xiao yell before your ears started to ring, it was almost unbearable. Your vision got blurry and the pain on your back hurt badly. The Fatui had thrown you so hard you almost broke a bone, at least thats what you thought.

Just as the Fatui almost pierced his weapon through you, Xiao had thrown him back.

He payed no attention to the person before he dropped to his knees and tried to get you up.

As you struggled to stand up, another Fatui member decided to attack the both of you. But Xiao gave him no chance, effectively teleporting behind him before throwing him off the platform.

You extend your hand towards him before a loud cracking erupts and almost echoes throughout the non existant walls around you.

The panic on Xiaos face made your heart hurt so much.

Before you knew it, you were falling.

The platform had now broken and you were in no condition to be able to save yourself.

Unknown to you, Xiao had been able to teleport to one of the cracked pieces of the Guizhong Ballista and teleported closer and closer to you.

He was able to grab onto you before teleporting away and falling to the floor. You both took shaky and deep breaths as you try to regain your composure.

As you tried to stand up, Xiao just clutched onto you harder then ever.

It was still raining, your clothes were soaked and hair was a mess, but same could go for Xiao.

His hair was clinging to his face, but not only was their rain droplets smearing down his face, but tears as well.

He was crying, and you didnt know what to do.

"I could have lost you" he says before grabbing onto your clothes again.

You place his head on your shoulder as he starts shaking. The scene broke you, but you didn't understand why.

Why was he so scared of losing you, were you not just aquaintences?

As you comb your fingers through his hair, you let out a small sigh.

"Why...why do you care about me so much?"

The way you said it, you could barely hear it yourself, you almost worried about if he had even heard you.

But he defenetly did because soon enough he was glaring at you.

"You're such an idiot, why did a boy like you of all people have to be my soulmate"

What did he just say.

Did he just say soulmate?

Your thoughts ran wild as you look down at him, shock evident on your face.

He sniffles before grabbing your face.

"Did you really think I would just give you a piece of my clothing for fun?"

His voice is serious, but him saying that its a piece of his clothing almost made you laugh for some reason.

And that you did.

You let out a laugh as his hands cup your face, Xiao swore it sounded so heavenly.

"I just thought it was a thank you for the almond tofu! Archons I did find you very cute but I didn't think I was your soulmate or something. I never thought such a cute boy like you, would like a boy like me"

Xiao narrowed his eyes as he bites the inside of his cheek, gosh you were enfuriating to say the least.

But he couldn't stay mad at you for too long, humans had other ways of courting. He guessed you just didn't know what he meant by giving you that thread.

As he looks at you again, you meet his gaze.

While his gaze was certainly very serious, it held a soft warmth to it.

It made you all warm inside even thought the rain pouring around you was incredibly cold.

He looks down for a second before looking back up at you and shifting closer.

You grabbed onto the hands which held onto your face and leaned in.

Xiao took the memo and leaned in as well.

Your lips touched for just a second, but it felt amazing.

Xiao shyly kissed you back, he had no experience what so ever, but he felt like he was on cloud nine. Your lips brushed against his. And you kissed him once, twice, then a few soft pecks.

Once you pulled away, you notice how red Xiao had gotten and it makes you let out a chuckle before wrapping him in your arms and falling back on the water soaked floor.

You almost died while learning about Xiao being your soulmate, but thats fine !

[1273 words; april/5/21]

[bookaboutabook]

dancing with our hands tied// blackstairs

i just re read TDA and ofc i found a ton of new songs i associate with blackstairs... so today im sharing how DWOHT is literally a blackstairs song :D lets begin. 

I, I loved you in secret First sight, yeah, we love without reason Oh, twenty-five years old Oh, how were you to know, and

boom first line. who loves secrets more than the blackthorns? the answer is no one. that should be their real family motto. ANYWAYS. first sight we love without reason, i think refers to the fact that since they grew up together they’ve always loved each other and when they realized it was a deeper affection they weren’t able to stop it, even knowing that it was against the law and not going to end well for them. also we can go ahead and mentally swap the 25 yrs old with 17 years old for the sake of this. lastly, “how were you to know”, because this is never something they talked about and at the beginning of their relationship it was always unclear how the other felt. 

My, my love had been frozen Deep blue, but you painted me golden Oh, and you held me close Oh, how was I to know that

their love had been frozen in time because there was no way to make it go back-- it is essentially preserved at its most intense form. The golden imagery is a direct parallel to how he paints emma and how he said that he can never paint her without golden paint. LITERALLY she is painted golden. 

I could've spent forever with your hands in my pockets Picture of your face in an invisible locket You said there was nothing in the world that could stop it I had a bad feeling

there was that short period of time where they maybe thought they could have a secret relationship and keep their love to themselves, because it was something that neither of them could handle by themselves. the bad feeling is referring to emma discovering the true reason why parabatai being in love is forbidden.

And darling, you had turned my bed into a sacred oasis People started talking, putting us through our paces I knew there was no one in the world who could take it I had a bad feeling

here we have good old blackstairs 😈 I think the second line could be referring to how horace and zara found out about their love and were shaming them for it and calling it perverted, which although they SUCK, clearly thats not an encouraging thing to hear from anyone about a relationship that is already so precarious. 

But we were dancing Dancing with our hands tied, hands tied Yeah, we were dancing Like it was the first time, first time

this song as a whole is about a relationship that feels like its doomed from the start. no matter how much enjoyment or love they get from it there is something (parabatai bond) that is holding them back. They want their love to be enough but there is always a threat looming.

I, I loved you in spite of Deep fears that the world would divide us So, baby, can we dance Oh, through an avalanche?

The world = the clave. also just the fear that their family would find out and the fact that it is so taboo but something that neither of them can entirely let go of. 

And say, say that we got it I'm a mess, but I'm the mess that you wanted Oh, 'cause it's gravity Oh, keeping you with me

pretty self explanatory... they both are what each other wants even w all their flaws and even though its so dangerous to continue pursuing. 

I'd kiss you as the lights went out Swaying as the room burned down I'd hold you as the water rushes in If I could dance with you again

this part just reminds me of the parabatai curse and what they were able to do with their magic-- specifically the fire line. the water rushing in line reminds me of emma drowning in lady midnight and how julian came to her rescue <3 

okay that is all! lmk if you agree or have any other songs that you associate w them bc i love finding new ones!

[miss--river]

Jori Ott

so ive been wanting to write something for my OC Jori Ott for a long time. ive never written for any of my OCs before so i was kinda nervous.  dont think this is good at all (yeah i know you’re not supposed to say that because it deters people from wanting to read your work but i dont want be all super confident about it and have someone be like ‘oh she thinks this is good?)

if anyone decides to read this thank you for taking the time to read about my OC! if no one decides to read this then thats ok because i kinda did this for my sake since this is an idea ive been wanting to write anyway.  it turned to be way longer than i thought tbh. it originally was only supposed to be something short to give a little info on her but then i just kinda kept... going.

so as i said this is for my OC Jori Ott and she has a traumatic past that she cant remember and Trelawny raised her as if she was his own daughter. i dont think i write him accurately but honestly... oh well i guess lmao. i wanted him to be an affectionate father figure to her. there are also some specific things i left out simply because i just havent decided on them yet. also i edited this to the best of my ability but if there is anywhere where it says ‘you’ its because im not used to writing in third-person.

the word count is 2,113

Josiah Trelawny, known amongst their group as a conman and trickster, has been there as a father figure for Jori for most of her life.

When Jori was very young her parents were slaughtered and their home set a blaze for reasons unknown to her. Honestly, she can’t even remember anything about her childhood. All she knows is what Trelawny has told her. His expression would change and Jori couldn’t quite explain it. She could tell it hurt him to think about it, though. She had only ever seen him cry once and it was when she was still very little.

The front door to Trelawny’s tiny home was open, letting a cool breeze pass through as she slept on his bed. A shiver woke Jori from her slumber and she shifted under the blanket trying to find a more comfortable position. Before she could get comfortable enough to drift off back to sleep she heard a sniffle. She slowly opened her eyes and spotted Trelawny sitting on the chair he kept outside his door. His laid his lap and it looked like he was holding something. A necklace?

Trelawny let out another sniffle, making Jori more curious as to what was going on. She quietly say up and swing her legs over the side of the bed and tiptoed over to the doorway. When she got close enough she could see he was indeed holing a necklace, or, more accurately, a locket. However, she couldn’t see what was it and was more confused as to why Trelawny would be so upset.

After a third sniffle, Jori softly called his name, startling him. He quickly stuffed the locket in his best pocket and cleared his face of any evidence of tears. His eyes were puffy and red, however, and it broke Jori’s heart to see a normally cheerful Trelawny so miserable. But, despite the pain the was obviously in, he gave her a smile but his eyes still held pain. He may be a trickster but he couldn’t seem to hide anything from Jori. He had to admit, for an 8 year old she was very sharp.

“My dear, what are you doing awake?” His tone was soft.

She wasn’t sure how to answer him. She didn’t want to lie but she also didn’t want to let him know that she had heard him crying. Instead, she climbed into lap, his hat falling to the small, dusty wooden deck. He didn’t care though. Jori wrapped her arms around his neck and hugged him tight. “I love you, Josiah. You’re the best dad in the whole world.”

Fresh tears pooled in Trelawny’s eyes as he hugged her back. With some difficulty, he kept his voice from cracking as he replied, “I love you, too.”

Jori hugged him until she eventually fell asleep, slumped on his shoulder. Trelawny carefully carried her back to the and and laid her down without waking her. He pulled the blanket up to her shoulders and placed a light kiss to her top of head.

That was 19 years ago. Jori recalled the night as she got closer the Rhodes saloon. That area was usually empty and she saw it as a good place to finally sit and talk with Trelawny. She wanted to talk to about her childhood, hopefully get some answers about her real parents and why she couldn’t remember anything happened. Trelawny didn’t know that however. Jori was worried that if he knew the reason of the meeting he would refuse.

She walked her horse, Molly, to one of the hitching posts and tied her to it, giving her an affection pat on the neck before ascending the white staircase. There sat Trelawny at table in the corner, steaming cup of tea in front of him and second on the opposite side, waiting for her.

“Ah, Jori!” Trelawny greeted cheerfully and stood up, pulling her into a hug when she was close enough. “I haven’t seen you in weeks! How have you been?”

Jori happily hugged him back then sat in the chair opposite of him. “I’ve been keeping myself busy is all. Even made a few friends.” She picked up the tea Trelawny ordered for her a took sip. She’s never been big on tea but liked it when Trelawny made it.

“Is that so?” He raised a brow. “I hope they’ve been good influences.”

Jori giggled and roll her eyes. “Says the conman who raised me.”

Trelawny just laughed and shook his head. For a while the conversation changed from topic to topic until Jori thought it was finally time to ask about what this meeting was originally for. She could feel the nervousness rising inside her as she gripped the nearly empty tea cup and stared down at the dark liquid.

Trelawny noticed this change in her, his brows knitted together in concern. “Are you alright? Are you suddenly feeling sick?”

“No, no! I’m not feeling sick. It’s just…” Jori trailed off unsure of how to actually bring it up.

“It’s alright, you can tell me.” Trelawny sat up straight, giver her his full attention.

“I just…” Jori cleared her throat trying to find the right words. “I think it’s time that you tell me about my past.”

The atmosphere around them changed and Jori instantly regretted saying anything. She looked up from her cup to Trelawny. Any concern he had was replaced with a look of fear.

Why was he so scared?

Trelawny swallowed hard as a felt a lump in his throat forming. He knew she would ask eventually but he didn’t know if he’d ever be able to bring himself to talk about it. Her parents and him were very close friends. He knew them before they were together. Trelawny subtly clutched at the right pocket in his vest. He could feel Jori’s gaze on him, she was expecting an answer but what was he to say? What he saw that day was gruesome.

“Jori…” he began. His voice was soft as he held back any shakiness in his voice. “I knew your parents for a long time. I was the one who convinced your father to finally talk to your mother. He had been pinning after her for so long.” Despite the pain he was feeling, Trelawny let out a soft chuckle.

“Um,” Jori stopped him before he could go on. “Can you tell me their names?”

“Your father’s name was Henry and your mother’s name was Alice.”

Henry and Alice Ott. You imagined those names trying to see if you could find any memory of them. Unfortunately, you couldn’t even remember their faces.

“He was so taken with her.” Trelawny continued and smiled at the memory. “Unfortunately, she was already with another man.”

“That must have been hard on him. I think if it were me I would have given up, honestly.” Jori has always been a non-confrontational person. She has always preferred to stay out of drama.

“You’re the same as your father in that way.” He gave Jori’s hands a light squeeze as he gave another soft chuckle. Even though she can’t remember her father, hearing that made her feel a little closer to him.

“So, if my mother was already with someone else, how did she and my father get together?” Jori questioned.

“Like I said, it took me a bit of convincing. I don’t know what became of the man but, I do know he was very upset to learn that Alice was leaving him for Henry. He vowed revenge but none of us had seen him since then.”

Jori listened intently, taking in every detail she could.

“I think what drew your mother to your father was his soft nature. Your mother was not one to let people boss her around. She always stood her ground and put up a fight. They were opposites but they both completed each other.”

Trelawny laughed before he continued causing Jori to raise her brows in confusion. “What’s so funny?” She asked.

“I was just thinking… Henry was the kind of person to apologize to you of you spilled soup on his lap.”

Jori couldn’t help but laugh along with him. He was right about her sharing a personality with her father seeing as that was something that had actually happened to her.

“I was Henry’s best man at their wedding. He cried when he saw her in her wedding dress.” He sighed, remembering how hard it was for Henry to get through his vows through his crying. Alice kept her composure the entire time, giving Henry words of encouragement every time he stumbled over his words. “Two years later, Alice got pregnant and you were born. I remember how tiny you were.”

“You were there when I was born?” Jori asked, amazed.

“Well, I wasn’t there for your birth,” he explained. “But, of course I had to see my best friend’s and his wife’s new beautiful baby daughter!” He gave Jori’s hands another squeeze as she giggled.

“Um…” as much as Jori loved hearing about Trelawny’s happy memories with her parents, she really wanted to know about the day of their death. “How much do you about… the fire?”

The lump in Trelawny’s throat reformed and he sighed, mentally preparing himself. His breath was slightly shaky as he let it out slowly and began recounting that day.

“When I got there the house was up in flames. I could see the light from the fire and the smoke on the sky long before I even arrived. But, through the fire, I could hear voices.”

“My parents?” Jori asked, hopefully. She knows their dead but a small part of her was hoping to hear otherwise.

Trelawny shook his head solemnly. “It was a group of men. The leader was… the man your mother left for your father.”

Jori tensed up but didn’t say anything. She imagined how terrified Trelawny must have been arriving to a scene like that.

The images of Henry’s and Alice’s corpses were burned into his memory. The sight was too gruesome for him to even consider telling Jori. Tears stung at his eyes but he held them and continued. “He was going to kidnap you. I don’t want to imagine what he would have done if he had actually gotten away with you.”

This time it was Jori’s turn to give Trelawny’s hands a squeeze. He was usually very well composed but he was having a difficult time keeping it together. His shoulders shook as he fought to keep his tears back and kept swallowing as the lump in his throat just didn’t seem to want to go away. Jori’s heart was breaking seeing him like this.

“Do you remember his name?”

He shook his head. “I never knew his name.”

She sighed in looked down, unsure if even knowing his name would do any good. She’s not one for revenge or murder. Was he even still alive after all this time? Trelawny cleared his throat, pulling her from her thoughts. She watched as he was finally able to recompose himself.

“I’m sorry I never told you.” He said finally.

“It’s ok, I’m not upset.” She reassured him. “But why can’t I remember anything that happened?”

“You fell off his horse as I was stopping him from taking you and you hit your head. I took you to the doctor and he said you suffered a concussion.”

She nodded, soaking in the information. “Thank you, Josiah.”

Jori stood up from her chair, pushing it in. Trelawny followed suit and then walked with her back down the stairs to where her horse was. Suddenly, he remembered the object in his pocket and stopped her before she could climb up into the saddle.

“Oh!” he exclaimed. “This is rightfully yours.”

Jori turned to face him curiously and let out a gasp as he pulled what she recognized at the locket from years ago from the pocket in his vest. He opened it and set it in her hands.

“That’s your father,” he pointed a man with black hair and wearing a fancy black suit. “and your mother.” He pointed to the woman with ginger hair and a green dress. “You are her spitting image.” He smiled.

He was right, it felt like she was looking at herself from a different time. Jori put the locket around her neck and thanked Trelawny once again. She threw her arms around his neck, hugging him tightly. “I love you, Josiah. You’re the best dad in the whole world.”

Trelawny hugged her back just as tightly as he chuckled, remembering that night from 19 years ago. “I love you, too.”

[swtki]

You and Her

Part 1

Pairings: Cho Chang x Cedric Diggorry, George Weasley x Fem! Reader, Cedric Diggory x Fem! Reader.

Summary: Y/N feels irridemable when she has to accept the facts.

WARNINGS: MENTIONS OF SEX, MENTIONS OF ALCOHOL, ANGST, SAD.

A/N: Ok so this will be obv in Y/N pov, and I may (?) do a part 3 idk. Also in this TL George and Cedric are the same year

I never much thought about boys until I met you. I’d be lying if I said I had never noticed you prior to the great hall, I saw you everywhere that year. Everyone did, at the end of third year you were easily only tall enough to reach my shoulder and you were so skinny, child like in a weird way. But, you came back the next term 5’8, and you had filled out from practicing quiditch all summer. Your voice had dropped, but in its early stages as it was nasally. The girls in our year swooned over you, I did too - only I did it in my mind.

I remember the first time we locked eyes, and I also remember a feeling I couldn’t identify. You couldn’t say a single word, you were frozen before my eyes. But despite that, we were practically attached at the hip by September. I felt so comfortable with you, like I could truly be me. I realized that I loved you in November, but I would have rather died than told you that, and of course I knew you were always in love with me, since day one.

I was scared of ruining things, scared that my emotions would get in your way. So I kept my mouth shut, and I kept my hands in my lap. That worked throughout fourth and fifth year, sixth year it got harder. All I wanted to do was reach out for you, so badly did I want you for myself. But, I couldn’t.

I regret what happened between us, not because of some superficial reason, but for the fact that I had essentially led us into a grey zone. I didn’t want to lable it, but I could see in your eyes that you didn’t feel the same way.

“Y/N, what is this?” You asked, “Are we like friends with-“

“I don’t know. Sorry, I just...I don’t know right now can we please just go to sleep?”

You left it alone after the initial night, but I refused to let us fall apart. So, nothing changed, we still went on with our days, joking and studying as friends do. Until the next month, when I fell off track again and found myself alone in a staircase tower with you. I hated myself, I refused to let either of us get hurt so I knew things needed to change.

When George started talking to me, I felt special. I felt shy around him, like I always needed to be pretty and like I would embarass myself. It was a good, refressing feeling. I know many girls feel that way when they meet their boyfriends, so I just went with it.

He was more than the class clown, George valued my mind more than any other man ever had. Things with George felt like a perfect fit, I was detirmined to irradicate any option that involved you and me. But truthfully, I didn’t love him like I loved you, things always felt good with George, but you always made things feel remarkable.

It was my birthday, a few months after George and I had begun to see each other, he gave me a locket. The gesture was truly sweet, and the picture inside was my favorite of us. But, I wished that instead of George it was you in the photo. This is when I knew that I had truly broken your heart.

“Oh..yeah thats a lovely gift! Didn’t know George was the sentimental type.”

Your gift to me was the quill I had mentioned once in diagon alley, years ago. I couldn’t believe you remembered, and it made it that much harder to wear Georges gift.

I’ll never forget the day I realised I might have broken every spirit left in you. The sky was a clear blue, and the temprature was fair. Of course, all the seventh years took the oprotunity to lounge in the courtyard, myself included.

I often sat with Georges friends when I was with him, and though you were more than welcome to join us, you never did. I tried to balance my time between you two, but it was hard. One week George would get more of my attention, the next week you would. George understood though, he struggled with his brother similarly. 

The trees were casting a shadow above George and mines heads, he had his arm around me in a comfortable position. I was talking with him, but then I saw you.

I saw you and her talking in the hall, bright smiles painted all over your faces. Cho was beautiful, and smart. I knew she was no match for me and thats when I knew. I would never get you back.

I asked you about it a few weeks later, you told me you and her were together.

“Cedric, are you seeing Cho Chang?”

“Yes, I have been for a few days now- officially at least”

I had an ache in my throat from that moment on, but what could I do about it? Every time I saw you, someone I believed to be a forbidden soulmate, I wanted to cry and run away. I never wanted to feel those things. But, then I realized that you must have felt that way about me and George. That painful sting of seeing your person with another.

So I busied myself with my boyfriend, we partied a lot and thankfully it took my mind off of you. I hate to admit it, but everytime George and I had sex, I ended up imagining you.

I felt dirty, I felt like a terrible and wretched girl. I never wanted to be hurt, thats why I was unemotional from the begining. But now, I’m not sure I have the option to show my true feelings.

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#5

anyone else have this exact experience at least 12 times a playthrough

[image description: a picture of two hands shaking each other. one arm is captioned 'subnautica', and the other is 'below zero'. the hands are captioned as 'where is the last fragment i know it spawns here why can't i find the las- what was that'. /end id.]

111 notes • Posted 2021-05-17 17:00:54 GMT

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[/IMAGE ID: A gif of a red heart locket opening to reveal a picture of the Sea Emperor from Subnautica on the left side, and the text "sea emperor my beloved" on the right. /END ID.]

125 notes • Posted 2021-02-21 02:29:46 GMT

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133 notes • Posted 2021-01-18 19:30:44 GMT

#2

underrated canon subnautica lore i think about all the time:

-marguerit fist-fought like 4 stalkers and ripped their teeth out of their mouths. she did this to build bart a cool window. i feel like this should be talked about more because she ONLY did this to build bart a cool window. she fought a group of stalkers for several hours. to build a glorified window for someone she consistently claimed she didn't care about.

-every iteration of bart thinks marguerit is super badass, and even literally says she's badass in one of his original logs

-alterra has knowledge on paul torgal's possible half-children?? and they put this uncomfirmed drama in a missing persons report???

-captain hollister's nickname was hot dog hollister

-relationships have contracts at alterra and people are treated like products that you can choose. or at the very least this is a somewhat popular ideology??

-kharra symptoms include typical flu symptoms, and also aggression! maybe a reason why the degasi never quite worked out their differences?

-kharra has also has a confirmed death count of 143 BILLION. thats ONLY confirmed deaths. the number is undoubtedly higher.

198 notes • Posted 2021-08-24 17:01:31 GMT

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#someone pLEASE edit its a hard knock life over the trailer

SAY NO MORE!!

874 notes • Posted 2021-04-20 17:01:12 GMT

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trans! sirius and nonbinary! regulus because screw jkr:

☆ they definitely both have pins with their pronouns on them

☆ regulus didnt come out to their parents but sirius did

☆ "i mean, they already hate me, im not all too worried"

☆ reg helped sirius pick his name

☆ sirius tells people he's named after a star because he is one

☆ regulus constantly has to deal with professors telling them that they/them is plural and that its incorrect

☆ regulus often threatens people who deadname sirius

☆ sirius does the same, except...its not really threats...more actions.....

☆ "DID YOU JUST CALL MY LITTLE SIBLING A BOY? MY PRECIOUS NONBINARY SIBLING? JAMES, HELP ME HEX A LAD REAL QUICK"

☆ sirius has had his fair share of detentions for that reason

☆ regulus has hexed a couple kids, but doesnt really get caught

☆ james calls regulus "baby black" instead of his previous "baby bro black" after regulus came out

☆ james being an absolute simp for reg

☆ "good godric, if anymore drool comes out of your mouth while staring at reg, youll have an entire ocean on your desk"

☆ james asked them out in his 6th year

☆ sirius lost a fat bet to remus, banking on regulus working up the guts to fess up to james first

☆ regulus couldnt figure out for the life of them why sirius wasnt talking to them or remus, but would gladly talk to james

☆ sirius did help regulus win a bet though

☆ you see...the black's are all bottom bitch babies™

☆ so regulus bet james 20 galleons (yEs 20 whole galleons), that remus would ask out sirius first

☆ because the two were madly in love with each other, despite the things that made them a little different

☆ and you bet your biscuits that remus asked first

☆ james was so pissed, he didnt talk to sirius for a month and refused to kiss regulus for that same month

☆ sirius ran away after fifth year, leaving baby reg at home, which he hated

☆ "dear sirius, YOU ABSOLUTE BITCH, COME BACK, IF I HEAR THE WORD HE USED FOR ME ONE MORE TIME IM GOING TO ASK KREACHER TO BRING ME POISON"

☆ in regulus' fifth year (sirius' seventh), they spent every holiday, even the summer!, with the potters

☆ they could have cried

☆ "JAMES CAN WE GET MARRIED RIGHT NOW SO YOUR MOM CAN BE MY MOM AND CALL ME BY MY PRONOUNS ALL THE TIME AND I NEVER HAVE TO LEAVE"

☆ at one point, sirius asked regulus to actually not go home

☆ "you're so much happier here, please reg"

☆ regulus denied, knowing their parents would go bonkers

☆ BUT BOY, WAS THAT CHRISTMAS A BLAST

☆ regulus and sirius had both accidentally gotten each other the same gift, a sweater that said "gender? we dont know her"

☆ james almost peed himself when the two opened their gifts at the same time

☆ remus had to resist the urge to make them take a picture together

☆ james gave sirius a binder and he cried, and he gave regulus a locket that said "i am valid", they cried too

☆ remus gave sirius a leather jacket that had the words "trans and you can catch these hands painted on the back" to which sirius let out a high pitched squeal, and then gave regulus a pair of vans that was in the same colours of the nonbinary flag, reg started crying when they put them on

☆ james' parents got the four boys pride flags: james got a pan flag, sirius got a trans flag, regulus got a nonbinary flag, and remus got a bi flag

☆ NONE OF THEM CAN DENY THE TEARS ON THIS ONE

☆ and regulus and sirius were just some happy kids with boyfriends can you really be mad?

☆ oh, and professor mcgonagall was their #1 supporter, she gifted the brothers each with a custom 'coupon'; sirius had a get out of detention free card and regulus got a get out of being late to class because i was 'busy' free card

SORRY IF THIS WAS CHAOTIC BUT LIKE- I HAVENT SLEPT AND I THOUGHT IT WAS KINDA CUTE, OKAY THATS ALL BYE

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Inspired by the song "Flower of The Plateau" by Mothy, this story thats part of Ever Changing Fate (my story) doesn't have much of a connection to the main plot of ECF but I made it to flesh it out more and because why not.

You might have to zoom in on the picture to be able to read it- sorry oof.

Cast:

Oliver's full name is "Oliver Bortè".

"Chrysana" is not actually Chrysana's real name. Her real name is "Zaria Bortè". Her current full name is " Chrysana Orlov".

Marilla's full name as you would guess is "Marilla Orlov".

The Tsardom of Rinael is inspired by Russia. In case you didn't already know since I've mentioned Parie before, Parie is literally just a play on "Paris" and is insird by France. I'm pretty sure I've said that before but just mentioning for anyone else who read this.

Thus:

Chrysana is basically a French woman except France is in the southeast area of the planet and she abandoned her son and left him for dead before fleeing to Russia except it's in the northwestern area of the planet. She traveled very far away for a reason: it's so far out it would be impossible (so she thought) for anyone to find out who she really was.

Harlots (aka prostitutes for any who didn't know) are heavily discriminated against in Ever Changing Fate due to being seen as sinful even though most of them are only harlots because they need money, such as Chrysana. Chrysana ended up pregnant after being "without her consent used in a vulgar way", which is code for "being RP'd". She was heavily scarred and saw her son as a burning reminder of her experience. She never loved him but upon his birth she thought she could get used to him. But she soon realized that having a son was not very profitable because she couldn't afford to feed both herself and him, and the men she brought in didn't like having a kid around. Babies were too much work in her eyes at the time, and so she abandoned him and chose to completely erase her old identity as the harlot Zaria Bortè, and took on a new identity. In the years after she married the head of House Orlov in Rinael after fleeing there as a stowaway on a ship and had a daughter. But she nevr anticipated her son searching for her...

And so she had to maintain her new identity...

And that mean that anyone who knew of her past must be-

Since you read the text in the above picture, you kno what happened...

"The poor Oliver was found dead"

For your information Marilla was completely oblivious to Oliver being her older brother and her mother not being who she pretended to be, along with Duke Orlov who was also oblivious to everything.

Chrysana faked her entire personality as "Chrysana Orlov" when in reality her true self as "Zaria Bortè" was a cynical, scarred woman who hated the world, and was nearly unapproachable. Due to this in order to survive Chrysana knew she had to forge a new personality for herself which was joyful, social, happy, etc, and thus is why she became known as the "Joy of Rinael" due to the fact Rinael was constantly a gloomy land of snow, so someone who was optimistic and happy was sort of just foreign to them.

Other facts:

Chrysana was an orphan. She had been homeless her entire life until she fled to Rinael. She had found and decided to live in an abandoned house that she had fixed up herself and lit up with candles a few years before Oliver was born, when she was 14.

Yes, Chrysana had been a harlot even before she was of age; she became one when she was 12. "It was all to survive" is what she told herself even though she hated everything, her life, the men, the world...

Chrysana was 19 when she had Oliver.

Oliver is aproximately 6 years older than Marilla.

Marilla actually really wanted a sibling and would have loved having Oliver as her older brother. She got a baby sister a year after Oliver's death and a baby brother another two years after that.

Chrysana and Marilla's appearance is somewhat inspired by Hatsune Miku, mostly Marilla with her pigtails and hair color.

The rose on the headband that Chrysana is wearing is a black rose.

Chrysana's birth name and fake name are both flower names; Chrysana comes from Chrysanthemum and Zaria either is a flower or means flower in some other language, I forget. Marilla is another name for the flower Amaryllis.

Orlov was a noble family in the Russian Empire way back.

Vasily is a common Russian name, I believe.

Duke Vasily Orlov had strawberry blonde hair and purple eyes. He was younger than Chrysana by two years and had loved her nearly ever since she had moved to Rinael. Considering he was was 19 when she moved to Rinael, his teenage hormones were still all over the place and genuinely his crush on her was a childish one at first.

Chrysana despises intercourse nowadays but does it anyway to keep up her farce and to satisfy Vasily.

Chrysana genuinely loves Vasily but the relationship can be strained because of her trauma, fake identity, and fake personality.

Chrysana murdered several other men who happened to be people she slept with years earlier if she saw them whether she was in Rinael or visiting somehwere else because she wants to annihilate all record of her past.

By the time she died Chrysana had murdered about half of the men she slept with in the past.

Chrysana lived in the 1200s T.C., 350~ years before the Second Great Theda Civil War and main plot of Ever Changing Fate.

Chrysana's descendants (specifically Marilla's line) eventually married into the royal family of Rinael and several of the members of the royal family ended up bearing her hair color and or eye color due to it being very dominant throughout her bloodline.

If anyone found out she had been a harlot many years later there would be a bit of a scandal about it in the royal family, how big it would be would depend on how far down the line her descendants are at whenever it was discovered. However, her being a harlot was never found out by anyone.

One of the greatest rulers of Rinael bore both Chrysana's hair and eye color. He lived in the 1400s.

Chrysana became a writer later in her life (Around her mid 40s) and wrote a story that was actually based on her past identity. She wrote it in order to get out everything that she had pent up inside of her. She lied to everyone whenever asked that the entire story was fictitious and was based on many stories with several elements pulled from other stories to make it. It was called "The Tragedy of The Harlot Catria". Catria was the name of Chrysana's mother who was also a harlot according to the records Chrysana managed to find about her. She of course claimed that the records she looked at of Catria were just for her story- in reality Chrysana just desperately wished to know anything about her that she could because she never met her since her mother died in childbirth.

Chrysana knew her mother's name because of a locket that she had held onto since she could remember which had the inscription "Love from mama, Catria, to her lovely daughter, Zaria".

Chrysana's mother was a victim of RP just like Chrysana.

Chrysana's eye color is from her mother, her hair is from her father.

Chrysana met her father once and promptly beat him up for everything he did to her mother and never carung about her. However, he didn't know she was his daughter and she didn't kill him because he was a nobleman of Parie and it would have ended badly for Rinael because it could have caused rumors about him being killed by a Rinaelian nobleman/woman or she could have gotten found out.

Rinael and Parie don't like each other very much. :/

I personally like that you've been building on the character designs because it's really starting to come together in a really beautiful kind of way. The way that you're able to draw hair and the way that the environment affects it is just really telling of the characters in a lot more ways than you realize. It stands out more than just color theory in general.

Posture is one thing but you can see a lot just from the way that someone Styles themselves and just by looking at these characters you can tell that they have this specific energy to them. It's not standoffish. But it's definitely something in the realm of uneasy and uncertain.

I just want to say that these guys have been going through so much and their universe that it is kind of tedious. Can everyone in this room just get along for 5 minutes to have a group hug or something?

[startwithbrooklyn]

THE GREAT ND REWATCH OF 2021 / SEPTEMBER 30, 2019 // larkspur lane/the whisper box

this post is a double whammy cause they have 2 eps happen in the same day if u can believe it (thats how awful judging timelines in this show is!!)

-"hi josh..." LMAOOOOOOO

-BESS just breaking in lmaooo how many god damn times does bess just shit the bed in this show

-LOVE her frowny face at nancys closet ("my expectations are low" lmfaoooo but this would totally be me)

-"bet she meant it metaphorically" okayyy but then why did lucy say that at all? i feel like theres defo more to this story, combined with josh's cagey behavior (part of which is to get nancy to stop looking into shit d/t him and karen but still)

-"they dont accept visitors unless they're family" .....🙂

-ace "youre really good at that" to bess i fuckin love this friendship with all my heart (also love their talk at the claw mirroring nick & nancys talk in the last ep)

-also PINK AND ORANGE BESS ARE U BLIND (also 1) why tf would nancy own this and 2) where would she wear it??)

-okay wtf is vampire dip

-"boss??" see this is what i meant yesterday about nancy ruining everything for nick/george

-god DAMN she sucks at dealing with this news lmaooo that emotional competency babey + love george literally agrees to help bc she feels bad (AND nicks immediate look of "you just reprimanded me for helping her last ep and i know why youre doing this rn" lmaoooo)

-LOVE george noticing nick "shout out to jean valjean" lmaooo once again nancy would never have noticed/commented on something like that

-"get the hell out of here" was this foreshadowing for an epic dad joke for these two eps? "how do you make holy water? you boil the hell out of it" 😂😂😂😂

-so what i dont get about the whole haunting is the ball + kids' laughter but its all the emphasis on "mr roper" the adult? wtf like what kind of entity is this

-"how did you ever have a solo career??" 😂

-okay amaya's hair is gorgeous here (also "you feel like a snack" ....👀) *ahhh so the reason bess feels so off balance is bc its like a top vs a top scenario

-has anyone who's ever been to prison confirmed this is what it looks like?

-love how ace is the only employee there when they all leave so he had to fucking close the place when he goes

-why does she take the whole file? time constraints? it'd be smarter to take pics + replace it (better sleuthing) but this place is clearly not well run anyway 😂

-so this is a pretty decent cover she invents but theres no way she would get away with it so easily for a real guard

-love how ace recognizes ryan's car (+ is able to find it by driving around)

-"my father wouldnt do anything like that" LMFAOOOOOO SIS WHY ARE U DEFENDING HIM ironically, ace is actually the best person suited to engage w ryan here d/t the car accident + connection with laura being ryans SIL. its a unique set up

-i am fascinated by the concept of priests + holy water being so effective here combined with mcginnis' beliefs and basically nondenominational ghosts/seances etc after that. the show is very clearly big on diversity but definitely steers clear from too much WASP stuff yk? wonder if other stuff from christianity works against the ghosts/demons like taking refuge in a church "holy ground" or using silver etc

-"did this start after the night of sept 10?" *this is where you get the time line for the seance if you didnt know

-this is so fucking funny when u realize that patient sal talks to is actually a ghost so sal really is psycho i guess 😂

-bitchsplain/tall jar of mayonnaise 🙏🏻😌 2gether 4ever

-how did ace get this van? also heart attack when he yells at carson (but then grins at him like a goofball lmaooo)

-"for nancys sake and yours" damn she owes ace big time for all this shit

-"what do we do for 7 minutes?" ...ummm play 7 minutes in heaven lmaooo 👀🥵

-was not expecting ace to look this sexy holding an axe but okay (*ah, its his short sleeve shirt showing his arms. usually hes a sleeves guy)

-"desperate for attention" nancy (from gomber) vs "bc she's starved for attention" patrice --> lucy (and candace also...) we know nancys detective work makes her seem like an attention seeker, but what was lucy doing to make them all think that? she was trying to hide her relationship with ryan, not expose it. unless they just mean the rumors about her?

-so is patrice hiding lucy's "truth" talking about lucy being a whore or lucy being a ghost? what is lucy's secret? did patrice guess she was pregnant or did patrice's somehow garbled mind remember tiffany trying to show patrice the video with lucy on it?

-wonder what captain thom thinks of this stand off w ace lmaooo

-"like you do?" top v top shenanigans

-how awko for carson to talk to karen again like this

-"oh no" ACE 😂

-love how amaya says "be a human" like shes kind of admitting people in rich circles typically arent (^this is an interesting focus in s2 when bess's rich family rejects her, thus making her human again, but nancy embraces her rich fam and experiences subsequent moral struggle which is predicted with the wraith)

-wonder what ryan thinks he could get from the marvins (which he cant get now lmaooo)

-this damn whisper box. so many questions. who named it the whisper box? why are the ropers' old possessions still there? who decided to build a mental hospital on top of it? and patrice! she "hid lucy's secrets" hannah gruen thinks tiffany tried to show patrice video w lucy on it, which patrice then specifically says she hid in the thin mans book. so patrice knows of the thin man? can she see him? does she know he was a ghost/supernatural? she must have a supernatural sense to know about him (unless sal told or some shit) so then when tiffany shows up w/ lucy being supernatural in it patrice hides it to protect her? is this why she is "crazy" kinda like victoria? supernatural elements or ability to sense ghosts makes her unstable? this is why lucy being a ghost/nursery rhyme that she repeats makes patrice worse/"stroke"? how did patrice even get into the whisper box to put the key in the bible and get out without getting trapped? also, her dementia --> lucidity is really fucking off, some people mildly switch like that but usually with dementia they cant even register new shit anymore

-...so did bess take the ride? 👀

-interesting how celia says "your father will be disappointed" but nothing of her own opinion. wonder how much celia truly puts up with to keep everett calm and nonhomicidal

-like george asking nick follow up questions that nancy never really would have asked

🥞🥞🥞(ep13)🥞🥞🥞

-is this bitch just eating a plain pancake with her bare hand?

-"extra case load and excessive volunteering" ugh. nancy's family here are like, gross in how "good" of people they are // unrealistic, trying to paint carson in the best light/ no way ryan could ever compare (but the reality is theyre not that good of people for lying about nancy) **and shes arrogant to think shes better than everyone else ie the only one who truly lives virtuously, thinks she can do no wrong sometimes even tho using sex to cope, breaking and entering, etc is not morally "good" stuff she still thinks she is the only one who doesnt lie and plays fair (like in the pilot she lists everyone else as a suspect but herself- obviously we know she isnt guilty but no one else does. (i mean in theory we really dont, what if nancy was an unreliable narrator and was actually guilty, that would be a hella cool show)its reactions like that where she cant understand why others like the chief suspect her

-ooooh ironic that in the Good Place carson readily agrees to pay her for helping with cases as opposed to s2 in reality

-nick's house has "problems" so why does he need a lawyer? as opposed to an interior designer, plumber, or realtor?

-in the Good Place nick and george realize they are not going to work out after one date. does this failure in the Good Place predict failure in reality, or merely an easier way of figuring out the truth? does this mean that the "opposite" of the Good Place is reality, or only an opinion of what is better? (nancy says "you all like me" as her opinion of them liking her is skewed; does this then only reflect nancys version for what is the "perfect life"?)

-why is bess a hippie??? and love how george curls her hair and wears pink lipstick here

-if this dream is so realistic then why is the one thing it cant conjure smoke? like how random

-love the locket being a key realization bc with things like jewelry you dont notice the weight of them until theyre gone

-"you all like me" in her perfect life nancy means they "like" her objectively/regardless of circumstance even though liking her is still an objective choice (like they "like" her because of other reasons instead of her working at the claw? (like how you make friends with coworkers/people at school every day but after you leave the job/graduate you never speak to them again) and her "thanks for showing up!" as if theyre not doing exactly that in reality 😐like where is she getting this shit? she sort of acknowledges in earlier eps she is hard to like/that she puts mysteries before friends, but also pushing them away to avoid danger like the previous ep "why do u show up" etc

-is it just me or does the inside of nicks "house" look like the drews'?

-nick has a dick scar lmaooooo (or more likely was hit in the balls or smth)

-love how nick + george match their anger in confronting sal 100% on the same level

-so when did ace go back to work after having such a busy day earlier?? lmaooo

-damn father shane is a creep (casting defo hired him for his voice) and how tf did he just poof + escape? and what did he request???

-love bess's white hair bow here 😌+ her jacket, whole outfit on point as usual

-like how bess is right that nancy has to find her way out but thats kind of a nonstarter for a room full of panicked people wanting to help

-in the Good Place theres no bad blood between drews + hudsons bc nancy is really theirs

-"the only one who has the key is you" in the Good Place nancy has the key (smaller picture, to finding out what happened to lucy but bigger picture, post-reveal) but ryan has the clues nancy needs- following the Good Place's mirroring, this just means that in reality ryan will either be completely useless or an active hindrance (but you KNOW this is a dream bc in what universe would ryan remember clues like that 😂)

-so in a perfect universe ryan acknowledges his family's "criminal empire" as opposed to reality where he only makes under cover jabs about disengaging with being an "entitled corrupt legacy criminal" ie finding the bonny scot relics but does nothing about them, etc

-"strippers" 😂

-okay what is nancys obsession w her beanie?? bc her mom made it? "wear beanies do crimes?" idk

-making the call: nancy -unable to make up for lost time/both her mothers had to find out/suffer alone / in the Good Place nancy was able to be with kate while she called, and in reality she had carson; somethig about seeing the mother looking to the daughter for strength in the Good Place instead of the reverse (which is what reality sounded like, kate being strong for nancy through the illness despite the struggle)

-concept: nancy & nick "let's wait out the storm"

-"i believe that you believe it" nick in the Good Place + owen in reality both trust nancy when she says she's seen things (owen's is the teeth) but nick in reality (and not really knowing details) doesnt think much of their "moment" bc it wasnt real (so she had to leave the Good Place to save carson- but if she had known then he wasnt her real dad, would she have stayed to be w nick?)

-stranger - suede james 💙👌🏻

-"really anxious as a kid" v telling bc of her desire to know everything to remain in control of situations like she always does now

-"the medicine or the metaphysics?"/"you cannot beat supernatural with science"

-i love nancy playing with her pinky while saying goodbye 🥺

-"always seek out the truth even if it hurts" this is straight irony bc kate never told nancy anything. like does that include the truth about nancys parentage? they taught her to seek out the truth, but who taught her that the truth is the only thing to live by? ie things dont count anymore like carson and kate straight up raising her is tossed out bc she finds out its not "the truth" like all that work/stress to protect carson + she just drops him? with kate maybe shes just upset thst she spent all that time mourning for someone who lied. and would she do the same to ryan if needed? probably

-bess and ace head tilt 💙

-like how for all the time she spent there nancy only has a subconscious memory of blue curtains

-YESSSSS i LOVEthese beautiful overhead shots of hannah's hands. so out of character for the show lmao but so gorgeous

-i feel like future eps/grand future will be nancy going through the lock boxes to help people who asked hannah for help

-the video is officially dated Aug 22, 2019

-soooooo in the first ep nancy breaks into the hudsons house and finds tiffanys secret drawer w the nail polish and finds the amulet with a note that says "for your protection HG" yet on this video tiffany says she talked to a medium who gave her the amulet sooooo am i just confused? HG is hannah gruen obvi so is the address for the medium what hannah gave her? or was the address on the amulet which nancy dissolved in salt water to see? so how would tiffany know where to go? its chicken and the egg which came first hannah or the medium?

and lastly:

i close these two eps with a thought that everything in this show is sealed in death. all the lies, the imagery, the fake constructs people put up to get by all crumple the second someone dies- all the secrets come clean just like these doors have been unsealed.