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froggywritessometims · 11 months ago

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Pills

[pt: Pills]

tw, coercion, mental hospital

i had to take two pills every day in the hospital.

one was meant to stop my period, it made it go in forever. i couldn't get to see a doctor for help, i was stuck with cramps and blood the whole 14 days i was there.

the second was an antidepressant. an SSRI, they never told me what it was called. i didn't have depression, they just gave it to me. it made me sick. i haven't felt well since they made me take them.

in the "hold" they got tired of me acting up they told me i had to take a little white pill or they would take all my things. i was so angry with the stupid nurse i threw a juice box at her. she yelled at me for being immature i think, but isn't that a normal response to being coerced into taking a little white pill?

#i wish i knew what that pill was #it was a sedative #thats all they told me #ive tried to find it in my records but i onky have some of them #disability #nuero punk #autism #autipunk #mental disabilities #auti punk #nueropunk #mad punk #mad pride #tw mental hospital

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chatlote · 11 days ago

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Just because you don't love yourself it doesn't mean I will stop loving you.

#my art #goro akechi #persona 5 #shuake #p5r #ren amamiya #persona 5 royal #akeshu #for some reason i wrote a dif caption on all socmed #i like them all #u know me and my poetry and shuake i cant stop coming up w lines so oh well collect them all #twt tumblr and bsky #twt and tumblr are similar #oh right i have never told ppl i have either of those here #tumblr is my true home so i forget #anw enjoy my tablet pen is dying and replacement is 350 euros cause its a wacom display tablet from 2013-17 and yeah. fuck me :)#cant even say i will do comms to pay for a new one cause its maddening to draw on it rn #idk how i managed to draw this one - passion for shuake ig #ok thats too much rambling even for me oops #its been a bad week lots of expenses for someone who quit her job to do a post grad on my savings lol #im getting better though

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lucabyte · 7 months ago

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i feel like people are sleeping on the occam's razor situation of how buckwild it is to outright accuse a guy of being a clone of your friend even if you DO have a lot of circumstantial evidence. there's other options is what im saying. they could just be like. a guy. that's a sensible deduction. you should explore that deduction. ignore my shirt that reads I <3 RED HERRINGS.

i still think odile has the correct theory on lock but she's smart enough to know it needs like... a real smoking gun to be able to bring it up without sounding insane.

anyway. (mirabelle voice) i know its rude to speculate but has anyone else noticed the grieving? they seem to be grieving. does anyone have any thoughts on the grieving? i have some thoughts on the grieving.

#[isabeau voice] am i insane or does sometimes loop talk like they might have killed their whole family. is that just me? just checking.#nille design highly inspired by @kiwibrain's since its the one that imprinted in my mind. liberties taken since i didnt look @ reference #anyway i have a lot more thoughts on this? i guess ill hide them in the tags...? scroll down i suppose.#isat #in stars and time #isat spoilers #in stars and time spoilers #isat act 6 spoilers #isat loop #isat siffrin #isat bonnie #isat nille #isat fanart #in stars and time fanart #doodlebyte #----------------------------------------------------------------------#anyway the extra thoughts. are literally just my general thoughts on postcanon. (and thus are the context for all of my postcanon doodles!)#which is i think nille joins the party before loop reappears for a start (either from a period of nonexistence or just wandering around)#and that like. i think the party should be able to integrate loop as a completely new person. because they are! the secrecy isn't great but #They and Siffrin shuffle into different ecological niches in the party (eg. i think sif is more squeamish after it all but loop isnt)#and while it's not *exactly* what Loop wanted they get that beggars can't be choosers. and its pretty good #(i am glossing over how i think loop's reappearence drags both them and siffrin into a massive behavioural backslide and is likely a bit #distressing to watch go down. cycle of argument -> lovebombing -> normalcy -> repeat. etc etc. but since they are no longer literally #stewing in the worst pressure cooker of all time they do resolve it via productive conversation on their own time. its fine)#the party well-meaningly tries to deduce things from loop's vagueries and are able to pin down the DEAD FAMILY vibe pretty quickly.#but eventually the question of their prior identity falls by the wayside because well! they're just their friend loop! (also change belief)#as for how The Truth Come Out... this is what i mean by The Isabeau Torment Nexus(tm). which is that i think... isiloop should almost occur #BEFORE isabeau knows who loop is. he's just genuinely charmed by them eventually and tries to close the open end of the polycule #which FREAKS LOOP THE FUCK OUT because thats just too genuinely sick and wrong. and obviously w emotions high its not a great confrontation #ANYWAY told u i had more thoughts. if i were normal itd be a text post but.

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bunnieswithknives · 20 days ago

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Thanks.

#fop #fairly oddparents #fop a new wish #fairly oddparents a new wish #fop nature au #fop dev #fop dale #dev dimmadome #dale dimmadome #art #digital art #comic #The 'Thanks' after all of that makes me so insane Im not even sure I can fully articulate why #I mean. He got what he wanted. Honesty. Thats what you wanted right Dev?#what else do you say to that #He's spent his whole life being sure he knew the answer. That deep DEEP down dale did love him #Have you ever seen that post thats like“I was bawling my eyes out and somebody told me to shut up and I was so taken aback I stopped crying #I think he was so stunned that he just stopped crying.#or like when you get so upset that your feelings turn themselves off to protect you #is that a normal thing that happens to people Erm. anyway #Sorry lol as someone born to parents who.. should not have had me. Writing dale basically admitting as much is actually really cathartic #He shouldnt have had Dev. He doesnt love him. He cant. Dev cant do anything to change it. Its just a fact.#Hes not 1:1 with my parents they tried their best ig but like. their best was still pretty awful child neglect LOL

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kitamars · 2 months ago

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hi ive been going through it a little bit

#school is actively kicking my ass and ive never been so busy but they are single handedly keeping me sane help #if you told me like three months ago that id be ahving yet another superhero phase i would have curled into a ball and died #its very comfy here in hell though thats for sure #i adore them sm jesus fucking christ #spiderman has been a fav of mine since i was a kid and watching the ultimate spiderman show on tv #and deadpool has been coming up in the ranks as of recently lol #again #hilarious that i watched dp/wv and came out hardcore shipping spideypool lmfao #i dont know how that happened but idc this is awesome #i wanna do mire finished pieces but i have basically no time so yayayyyyyy doodle dump #hope you all are well!#spiderman #spider man #peter parker #I SHOULD POINT OUT NOT HIS MCU VERSION PLEASE NO #deadpool #wade wilson #spideypool #spiderpool #marvel #ok bye

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xxplastic-cubexx · 1 month ago

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chair + helmet for funsies

#xmen #xmen comics #xmen tas #xmen 92 #krakoa #charles xavier #professor x #snap sketches #need to practice drawing this helmets 3/4ths angle hi #gotta make this post quick cause i told my bro we'd carve pumpkins before i left for the week #BUUUUTTTT ANYWAY yeah while i was browsing my comic shop the first time i ran across this story and thought it was cute #it was the tas/92 adaption of krakoa but i only skimmed it #i thought of picking it up at some point but as for now it lives as a memory in my brain. i do wanna look at it closer tho #tbh at some point i think i wanna try to do a design for charles that features his actual krakoa design but with a chair/hover chair #i think itd be fun cause ngl i always like drawing his chair and not getting to with krakoa stuff makes me sad #if i get to that i dont think it'll be like. a staple with my krakoa art but just somethin to do for fun #ok i think thats all for now. i think im gonna do a movie charles doodle page later cause I Am Once Again Working Out His Face #so fingers crossed ith that plan !!!! for now its pumpkin time BYE

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ceabu · 1 month ago

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pap pap

#karkat vantas #gamzee makara #pale gamkar #gamkar #gamkat #gamzee x karkat #homestuck #the inspiration of this was cuz of work lmao #cuz i usually like............lmfao slap people around jokingly at work and stuff #but apparently its like real painful for them LMFAO a friend told me i have like............. shovel like hand =))))))))))))#it was funny and like she knows i dont do it on purpose but aasoifuoiasdbgsg ghhhh #and ya the same day i was with this other friend and told him how my hands are So Strong he should be careful #cuz i could rip his cheeks apart if i held his face and he was like ok :D and leaned in with his face all smiling n shit #and my brain was like BOOM BOOM POW THATS GAMKAR !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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buqbite · 3 months ago

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part 1 (on VA and being better than humans)

part 2 (on welt and being just a human)

#remember how in second eruption welt keeps getting covered in blood edgelord style whenever he fights??? yeah #wait first off #hi3 #honkai impact 3rd #welt yang #void archives #voidwelt #my doodles #okay anyways. VA isnt human but they haven't been in a “human” body for very long so i reckon there's a lot of new experiences to make #and. i dont think he gets to be dignified enough NOT to be whiny about it. cmon. itd be so funny #second of all sure welt is human but that dude's real used to not giving a shit abt how he's doing and acting like a robot instead of a per #cuz he's got more “important” shit to do #(that's so fucking real of him man ME TOO BESTIE)#also as i told kai: that last panel is not a look of surprise or horror. i tagged this as voidwelt for a reason #i think we all know what kinda look this is #edit: and why tf would they be fighting sky people? why can they bleed? dont ask me im here to draw gay people covered in blood #edit 2: oh my god i didnt add the blood in the first panel. THATS WHAT THE JOKE REVOLVES AROUND???

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0310foxy · 3 months ago

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Aftg hc of the month:

Andrew and Aaron playing video games together. Now I don't mean competitive games but the games that make you want to cry, scream and maybe jump off a cliff while you are at it. There are plenty of options they can play, but because they being they, choose cuphead. Andrew and Aaron at 3 am, burrowed comfortably into beanbags and running on spite and hot chocolate. Aaron who has tossed his controller 13 times across the room ; Andrew as calm as ever on outside but, internally planning a first degree arson if he has to look at one more flashing 'you died'. At like 5.30 Neil goes to leave for his run, finds the twins with identical scowls as they mechanically start yet another round that last for 40 sec and then die and restart again. It's almost painful to watch but the twins are so committed that it seems wrong to disturb them.

#twinyards #neil josten #aftg #headcanon #my friend told me about this hc she saw a month ago so i kept looking for it but didn't find it so i wrote it myself #all the credit goes to person who originally posted it so if you think you've ever read or seen it before probably thats why

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paper-mario-wiki · 10 months ago

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posted this picture as a followup tweet to a followup tweet (about how two videos i made were ripped off by two separate people independently, and those videos got brought up on the stream of someone who has been a big influence on me by sheer coincidence) as a way to verify what i look like post-transition, and i think that it's a good enough picture that it deserves its own separate post. so here it is.

#image #me #i decided not to post this once because its a big portrait of myself and i feel like thats pretty vain #but then i was scrolling and there was a post specifically saying 'if youre trans and you feel vain about your appearance post transition-#- and you feel guilty about it then dont feel guilty about it and post it anyway because something soemthing #doesnt matter the point it it told me to post it and that was all i needed #look at me boy

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moeblob · 5 months ago

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A lil guy !

#honkai star rail #dan heng #genuinely have a million things i wanna draw and then zero energy #so dan heng in a hoodie #now i gotta go get dinner sooooo maybe that will give energy and then i can draw more of what i actually wanna draw #but i kinda spent like ... hours ? talking to my mom earlier today #since shes been in the hospital for many many days #so i was catching her up on whats been goin on and showed her silly lil videos #and telling her how hyped i was for summer hrid and she (very patient with my fe talk)#was like you always tell me about banners being bad so it must have made you REALLY happy to say the whole banner is good #and im like yeah and i had multiple people on multiple sites like hey salmon/moeblob did ya see the banner #and she was like thats so cool that people acknowledge who you like and im like yeah it is p cool #and then i told her how mad i was at the absolutely criminal act of limiting how you can watch clue (1985 hit movie)#like i told her yeah sure i own it twice on dvd and once on itunes and that the only way to watch those #are either desktop or ps2 and how i dont have access to my itunes email #and i dont have it on my laptop so i sadly would have to rebuy the movie on itunes under a new acct #then i said how i loved that it was free to watch with ads on yt and id watched it twice that way #but then recently wanted to watch it on there but laptop and hoo boy you have to buy or rent it now #so i v angrily was like fine whatever ill do the thing and leave my room and go watch it on my moms tv #while she isnt around and use her amazon prime where it should be included except ! IT WASNT!#YOU HAVE TO HAVE PRIME TO BUY OR RENT IT NOW TOO!#HOW ARE THEY DOING THIS AND WHY ! who in the world is watching this movie so much that isnt me that they have to charge for it now #on all platforms unless you straight up pirate it #and hey why would i of all people be needing to pirate a movie i own physically two times and digitally once #this is literally a personalized attack to me #and my mom was like i understand how you feel cause yeah thats really weird to do to a 1985 movie #and im like yes exactly i have morals and principles that make me opposed to this and its v maddening #and she said she understood and its ok next time we are having power issues and i have to shut down #that if i really wanna watch it i can rent it on her amazon account and i looked at her and shes like oh you feel v strongly about this #and i do! I HAVE HAD IT GIFTED TO ME TWICE ! I BOUGHT IT ONCE! WHY DO I HAVE TO RENT IT FOR MORE MONEY!

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ashleys-doodle-corner · 3 months ago

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ED 14: Fire Exit Are you sure you still know where you're going?

#Elevator Hitch #Elevator Hitch Protag #Studio Investigrave #Sigverse #artists on tumblr #illustration #digital art #the creativity process #fan art #id in alt #HEY GIRL THIS PIECE TOOK WAY TOO FUCKING LONG BECAUSE OF THE PERSPECTIVE WHY DID I DO THIS TO MYSELF #anyway. obsessed with this game now. the soundtrack popped up in my recs after listening to the soundtrack for DP and MIR #and then i went through all the endings on the wiki and then played the game. a timeline if you Will #nobody told me it was a time loop game!!!! and i didn't go looking so honestly thats on me!!!! but this is in my brain now. mine.

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dykepaldi · 6 months ago

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y’all know about this?????????

#i only knew very vaguely cause one of my friends told me a few months ago #first of all insane that i didnt know before that and even more insane i didnt look it up on tardis wiki until now #THE THREE BECAME NOTABLE IN MYTHOLOGY!!!!!!!!!!#literally a coven of fucked up immortals who were definitely having lesbian sex. obsessed #WAIT NO I READ MORE THEY ARE LITERALLY *THE* FATES. THATS BADASS.#witchfinders novelisation next on my tbr i guess #dw #clara oswald #clara #clara 2.0

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hindahoney · 1 year ago

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Wild and revolutionary concept: maybe don't treat converts like trash just because they're converts? And also don't ask someone if they're a convert in a public setting?

#having lunch before shabbat and had to remind my friend not to do this to people #like i get it might be a hard concept for some born jews to understand but one thing jumblr has taught me #is that its a sensitive and private topic #you dont just.bring it up. especially not in front of people?#because i have seen other born jews get all Different when they find out someone is a convert #and its crazy disrespectful #side note you can disagree w a convert about their opinions on certain things #and still not go after them for being a convert #thats a dif topic though #anyway unless the convert is openly inviting that convo #dont fucking bring it up????#jumblr #judaism #jewish #jewish conversion #like it prob feels like how i do when someone treats me dif for being baal teshuva #its just a shitty thing to do in general #dont bring it up?#if you have to ask they prob havent told you for a reason #yes even if its from a movement you don't think is vaid #like what do you expect them to go back to their rabbi and be like 'is like to return this conversion and exchange it for orthodoxy'#thats not how it works they already converted to that movement what is the point of you trying to make them feel bad about it #like what do you change or affect by doing that #same w being baal teshuva #you want me to get in a time machine and tell my parents to move to a jewish community?#whats the point of saying anything just shut up

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deoidesign · 8 months ago

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I've been told my comic feels like it was written by AI.

I suppose I'm not trying to be groundbreaking. I'm not interested in pioneering genres. I'm not writing for the purpose of literary analysis.

But written by AI...?

I'm already someone who has my humanity questioned. My identity erased. My existence disrespected. It could be worse. Anything could be worse.

But AI?

I spend weeks writing single scenes, toiling over the implications of single lines. I have goals. My writing has intent.

If you cared to read deeper, perhaps you'd see the themes. Maybe then you'd see the value. If you tried to analyze it maybe you'd see something there.

Maybe you'd see me.

Someone told me my comic seemed like it was written by AI.

And my humanity was denied one step further in that my voice was not seen in the work I've poured years of my life into.

#this is a comment that has bothered me for... a long time.#it really sat with me.#its insulting of course...#but i get insults all the time #thats not what bothered me.#there was something more to it #something more to how this hurt my feelings and why it lingered so long in my mind #and i think its because of this.#it removes me. it removes my humanity.#in a world where i already feel so invisible and invalidated #where i express myself. my love. through my work #to be told it seems like something a literal robot coild make #a conglomeration of marketable ideas #god. jts so insulting on a completely other level.#its straight up dehumanizing #so. watch the things you say seem like ai #when its actually made by an artist #especially if you know that it was made bh someone #they have a heart an theyre trying to show it to you #i know its not that deep or whatever.#but isnt it?#isnt the point of our art to connect to others? to love them? to spend time with them??#im being dramatic #but i also care #and sometimes a little extra drama is what gets my ideas across.#i would know #im a writer

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canonkiller · 10 months ago

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do you consider your self made?

#my art #self portrait of sorts #been musing a lot on disability recently and how being relatively freshly unable to do Most Things has changed my perspective on things #for a long time growing up i was fixated on the idea of being An Impact On The World yknow? mainly the next Big Writer #(and that it would be sooo impressive that everyone would make my books bestsellers when i was only 12 because it was That Good)#and i mean. obviously that didnt work out as originally planned because i was 12 and learning. but I've felt a lot like #I've kind of built my sense of self on those big achievements. even if they were only big to me. and a lot of them #are now out of reach or very difficult to reach. and it's been a lot to. recontextualize #to take what ive been told my whole life and ignore it in favor of just being being enough.#things will happen as they happen. i havent earned anything by suffering but it hasnt ended the world either #im here doing what i Can do for as long as I'm able to do it. and thats all i need to be for now #just making sure that i Do do the things i can do rather than assume i can do them later #anyways. love you #cw:#top nudity #artistic nudity #the dreaded ambiguously presenting nipple #if you put any pro weight loss eating disorder shit on here ill kill you btw #my body is sexy because im in it and im still alive. not because its struggling to stay that way #lindwormposting

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