#that's why i threw her in there
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Note
oc ask: all prime numbers. get rekt
from this oc ask game!
Prime numbers........................................ I'll cut you a deal and go prime numbers up to 13 because otherwise I'll be here alllllll day. here we go
Also for this one, since it's a lot of them, I'll limit the ocs to just those that are part of what i consider "Cosmic Actors"/"The Elysian Wands". Just so that it doesn't get too confusing jumping around.
"Which ocs are the most touch-starved?"
....most of them?????????? Jokes aside I think there's Argent and Elysia off the top of my head that I'd consider the "most touch-starved"? The 14 y/o death archangel and the wand that is a melting pot of souls are very lonely and appreciate hugs a lot.
Some more fun facts! These two are also extremely unlikely to actually initiate hugs/cuddles, and have a tendency to use isolation as a 'punishment' for anything they believe they've done wrong! On their real bad days sometimes this includes uh,, existing...........
2. "Which ocs are most likely to be caught eating cheese at 3am?"
To be CAUGHT....hmm... I feel like Yatzy and Zatzy would go on a Great Cheese Heist as one of Yatzy's whims. They'd get caught early on in their execution of their scheme by Pria who's like "are you fucking kidding me. we do not have time for this." and grabs the two star imp kids and drags them back to bed.
3. "Which ocs can, and do, go days without sleeping?"
WELL. Elysia is a magic wand, so she doesn't need to sleep at all. But if she's in a place with a day/night cycle she'll try to sleep just to feel more human-like. Eventually, however, she will forget even how to sleep.
As Archangels Argent and Chrysus also technically don't need to sleep, but sleeping does provide them with Benefits such as helping them restore expended soul energy faster than if they stayed awake all the time.
The angels (Pria, Yatzy, Zatzy, and [REDACTED]) DO need to sleep, but don't need as much sleep as the average human. So going a couple of days without sleep won't fuck them up as much as it would a humanoid.
Alice and Peter on the other hand... are just humans with the very human need to sleep every night in order to function properly.
5. Which ocs sleep with the windows open vs. closed?
Assuming they're in a position to actually be able to care about that:
Argent: Open, he likes the cool night air it soothes him.
Chrysus: Closed, she hates bugs bothering her sleep.
Pria: Closed, she feels more secure that way.
Yatzy: Open, they feel more secure and less suffocated that way.
Zatzy: Closed, but the with the door open so they can see what's going on in the hallway. The open doorway is 100% trapped, enter unannounced at your own risk.
Alice: Closed, she feels it's quieter that way
Peter: Open, he finds nighttime sounds soothing
Elysia: Open, she likes the fresh air. Also it's hard not to feel cramped in rooms when you're 3 meters tall (especially if they're built for humans) so every little thing that can help with that counts.
7. Which ocs would feel super out of place at a formal event? Which ocs are fine with it?
(assuming that physical appearance is not something that would factor into being out of place at said formal event, so that elysia and the star imps aren't immediately out of place Just based on that)
Argent: Super duper out of place. His aura of death making strangers instinctively fear and avoid him would make formal events hard for him to bear.
Chrysus: Super duper out of place. Her aura of life making strangers instinctively drawn towards her would make formal events a pain in the ass for her.
Pria: She'd be fine. Carefully calculating the agendas of every single person who's attending could be considered a hobby of hers.
Yatzy: Super duper out of place. Their coping skill is to goof around and get up to Mischief to keep the trauma at bay, and any place where that's Frowned Upon is not a place they want to be.
Zatzy: Out of place. They just can't be bothered with caring about any kind of etiquette.
Alice: Technically she'd be fine, but she really really would rather Not Attend if she didn't have to.
Peter: He's in his element. He loves playing the game of socialization, he loves being around people, and he loves having attention, so he'd do swimmingly no matter what kind of event it is.
Elysia: She'd feel really out of place due to her self-consciousness and timid nature. She doesn't do well in social situations in general.
11. Which ocs have to be reminded to take breaks?
Argent, Chrysus, Pria, Peter, and Elysia. So most of the crew lol. Argent, Elysia, and Peter are desperate to be helpful, Chrysus, Pria and also Elysia get extremely fixated on their goals, and of these guys only Chrysus and Pria have any semblance of self-preservation.
13. Which ocs make the rules, which ocs follow them, and which ocs break them?
Make the rules: Chrysus and Pria
Follow them: Argent, Peter, and Elysia
Break them: Peter(lol), Yatzy, Zatzy
OKAY!!!!! Sorry it's not all the prime numbers but i'm sure you can find it in your heart to forgive me. Gimme them in separate chunks so I can digest them better and throw in different ocs.
#weeeeeeeeee#cosmic actors#the elysian wands#angels vs the sad hands#technically elysia and the angels' stories intertwine eventually#that's why i threw her in there#also i have a soft spot for her#my ocs
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
zane + nya parallels
#alek gifs#ninjago#zane julien#nya smith#that's enough main tags for me#i had to MURDERRR the quality on these sorry for ugliness#also for those confused on why i picked these :#gif 1 “what are they doing” followed by gif 2 which is wu's response.#gif 3 is the funeral and gif 4 is what people did to honor that sacrifice. zane statue and 'nya day'#a lot of these differences are because of the writers / animation studio#i am not power scaling their funerals based on attendance#which is. hilarious concept wise actually#braincellshipping#can be taken as such . wink#something about zane and nya and ice and water and how without one the other cannot function the same#zane going to the digiverse / rebuilding himself. nya going to the sea and having to rediscover who she really is#the way nya saw zane die. like legitimately she was on the rooftop (with pix and borg but yknow)#the way zane's ice was what held nya's form together in s15. oh guys im crazy#they have a lot of trust thats kinda. looked over. she did all of his repairs!! he was fine with her poking around his mind and body#which means a lot bc zane is a very closed off guy. 'i dont feel strong emotions but you can see my every thought nya c: '#also victims of the 'written as hating being seen as one thing... and thing ens up written as just that one thing' ninjago writers issue#zane w robotism. nya with being a girl / jay's girl. oh goodness im cuckoo#ignore how inconsistent the text sizes are i threw this together at 6 am and im NOT feeling it#i forgot how much gif making sucked#oops#rant over
72 notes
·
View notes
Text
Draxum hadn't accounted for the fact that when he gave four hatchling turtles the DNA of a human being in order to give them greater intelligence, he would effectively be making himself a surrogate father to actual children, with wildly different needs.
When he sent his gargoyles to obtain a sample of DNA from Big Mama's prized warrior, the intention was to create his own. They were to be the prototypes for an army of simple creatures with just enough heightened intelligence to learn combat and follow commands, that he might defend Yokai kind with.
Instead, he quickly discovered the integration of human DNA had been a little over successful in allowing his test subjects to learn and think and feel in a civilized manner, going so far as to override some of their natural instincts as turtles that would otherwise allow them to learn to care for themselves. He had to feed them, by hand, with bottles.
Like infants.
They were easily distraught by unfamiliar things, and quickly became dependent on Draxum in every sense of the word. They babbled, they cried, they explored things with their hands, their tails, their mouths.
It was an unplanned adjustment needed to be made, but no matter. If anything, learning to understand the new hybrid emotions of these turtles would allow Draxum greater advantages when they grew enough to safely learn combat. Preferences, likes and dislikes, needs, diet, and so on, all became more complex areas of study.
Even a couple years in, he found himself continually surprised. Brain scans had shown that the turtles were more intelligent, still, than anticipated. They, truly, seemed more human in mind and function than anything else, with only some base instincts and behaviors left to influence their personalities. They retained many reptilian traits, but overall had the bipedal anatomy and function of humans and some Yokai. It had been an infuriating discovery at first, but Draxum had to admit that over time he became fond of it.
Each turtle had developed his own personality. The eldest, for example, had a love of plush toys, and showed a fierce protective instinct over the others. The youngest, Draxum had learned, was contrastedly reckless and excitable, not nearly so reserved or gentle as the first. Additionally, he was, decidedly, to be kept away from any and every writing utensil unless under strict supervision (unfortunately, this was learned a little too late, as was evidenced by the clear markings left in several work benches). Then, of course, were the slider and the softshell, who had the most bizarre relationship. They were constantly fighting with each other, but utterly inseparable, and each showed an incredible and unique curiosity, constantly exploring and watching and studying, with concentration filling their eyes in ways Draxum had never seen in other children so young.
Embarrassingly, it took another couple years before Draxum realized he couldn't simply refer to them by their species' names. It certainly was effective, but they were not the mild, simple creatures he had once expected them to be, and he knew that they never would.
Now, they were vocal, playful, inquisitive... energetic. By the gods, were they energetic. They never stopped moving, never stopped talking, never stopped eating, never stopped wanting or needing.
...This is why Draxum never had children of his own. It took all the time and energy he had to spare, and then some. Although it would be a lie to say he wished they were any other way.
They had so much capacity to learn, and with their emotional propensity could one day come to understand exactly why Draxum was doing this, which he knew would be an edge in their combative styles.
As he introduced them, slowly, to more of the world's culture and knowledge, he felt, in a new way, that their very existences were revolutionary. A perfect, synergistic unity between two entirely different families of genetic material, with numerous enhanced abilities. And they were children. They maintained all the properties of regular children, but had so much more in store! Such grand destinies! They would be, inarguably, the greatest warriors of their time when they were grown. They would be the compassionate, skillful heroes of all Yokai, the first of a new generation of super mutants, and the key to overcoming the evils of the humans who had overtaken the surface and posed such threat to all who lived below.
It was with great reluctance that he allowed himself to accept, however, that not all of mankind was evil. There were many forms of art, beautiful in different ways, there were some rare people filled with kindness, inventions that utilized resources in ways Yokai kind had never thought to. Perhaps he had been a little stubborn in his ways, a bias cementing over time that blinded him to some of the beauty that did yet exist in such a species.
Make no mistake, humans were a threat. Innocent families lived in fear, in hiding, of the governments and ruthless sciences designed to invade, to blaspheme the name of knowledge, with no regard for the safety of this people.
Draxum could live with being an outlaw to the Yokai if his experiments would lead to their salvation. He may be their villain in today's papers, but in history books he would be a hero.
Still, he wished to amend some of his practices. Even if only to his turtles, he would be known for his ability to change and understand. He would be fair, and he would be truthful.
And so it was that he told the turtles the nature of their existence. Perhaps he muted some of the details, to protect their minds until they had more understanding, but he would not lie to them about their DNA. He told them of Lou Jitsu, and their human genetics, and he begrudgingly allowed them access to the culture of the humans. He would let them choose their interests unbiased.
In the process, he came to know of some of the revolutionaries of human history. Though he wasn't particularly inclined to believe there were no evils involved, he was intrigued by the strange moral code that the humans boasted from their different time periods. The turtles, as well, were fascinated by the stories of war heroes and generals, seamstresses and inventors, artists and royalty.
Initially, when it came time to redesignate his turtles, Draxum had been inclined toward the names of those whose legacies persisted in the humans' culture even today- perhaps a president for the slider, a scientist for the softshell, a great general for the snapper, and an artist for the young box turtle. It seemed, somehow, clandestinely right; carefully considered to exemplify each of their personalities.
And although he had begun to get used to the possibility of names like "Monroe" and "Edison", his indecision on the matter seemed to be working against him. He was taking too long, and the boys were growing smarter.
It was a day in August, later that year, that he found his two youngest arguing over a Renaissance book, oddly enough. The elder two took to a game of knocking "secret patterns" on each other's carapaces, which he dismissed before he could allow himself the confusion that came with wondering why a five year old would want to knock on a spiked shell for fun.
After breaking up the fight and confiscating the book (which, as it turned out, the youngest only wanted because it had pictures in it, much to the chagrin of the other, who insisted that reading it was much better than just looking at the pictures), Draxum found himself idly flipping through pages of rustic images and rudimentary ideas, developed by people with strange names.
Maybe he was simply too tired to consider it properly, but, feeling defeated in his endeavor, he chose four names at random and assigned them to the young turtles, deciding it had been long enough.
It took a while to get used to, but soon "Raphael", "Leonardo", "Donatello", and "Michaelangelo" truly fit.
Over time, the boys grew... ravenous. They devoured everything- food, information, technique. They were learning quickly everything Draxum taught them. They practiced with Huginn and Muninn, leapt up, around, over, and through everything in the lab, and took special interest in action-filled films.
And Draxum grew fonder. He wasn't entirely surprised, of course; it's natural to develop some sense of sentimentality when caring for anything this long. Even if they had been the simple minded turtles he expected, he knew this was inevitable, to a degree.
What startled him was the sudden sense of fear that came with watching them train. The alarm that made his heart beat harder when one of them fell from somewhere high or any time they ran simple drills with weapons not blunted and made from wood.
He subtly began to intensify their defensive strategies, taught them where they were most vulnerable so they could protect those spots, insisted on perfecting their abilities to parry, block, and dodge before anything else.
And, over time, he found himself training them less often than before, thinking, "I must preserve their innocence and prolong their childhood experiences". After all, it was an essential part of development, was it not? If it were tarnished too much, they might become unwise or unjust as warriors. And, really, Raphael was only 8 years old, and he was the eldest; they were much too young to be exposed to the harshness of what their combative training was really for.
He told himself that, time and time again. He told them that, making certain they understood that their training was not a game. It wasn't untrue, certainly.
Really, he just wasn't ready. He wasn't ready to admit to what extent he cared about them, because it was too much. It was more than he could ever have been prepared for. It was more than that passion to protect Yokai kind ever was, and if he ever realized that, he might become the compromise to his own purposes, to the very reason these turtles exist this way to begin with, and then what? What was he to tell them, why was he to train them, who did they exist for if not the inhabitants of the Hidden City?
No. He couldn't do that. He simply would not allow it, not when so much was at stake.
And yet...
More and more often he desired simply to watch them. He was growing weary with worry, and with that tight feeling that arose in his chest each time one of his boys so much as frowned.
Raphael loved to carry his brothers on his shoulders. And he prided himself on being the big brother, in every way. He liked repeating instructions Draxum gave to the others, and tended to play caretaker anytime someone was sad, or had a bruised knee. He often played the "bad guy" in their made up games so the younger ones could "win", he was the mediator in big decisions, like what book they should read before bed, and he seemed always ready with an armful of stuffed animals when he wanted to express affection. So strong, incredibly strong, but soft spoken and sweet.
Leonardo adored Raphael. Just as Raphael did Draxum, Leonardo liked to imitate and repeat instructions. He tended to take charge in many of their childish endeavors, and had a propensity for dramatics and heroism, often pretending to rescue his brothers. This seemed to irritate Donatello to no end, unless he was also playing the hero, and often times he was. The two were usually glued to the hip, though Leonardo liked to make a point to tell all his brothers about everything that went on, and would take a movie night with the three of them over a one on one outing with Draxum any day. He was exuberant and joyous, and very driven by the concept of justice.
Donatello, similarly, seemed to care very dearly about maintaining a bond with all three of his brothers, but he was peculiar, often more reserved and enjoying his alone time. That child read and read like he might never get a chance to again, and he absorbed what he read like a sponge. Quite a few times Draxum found him pulling apart whatever he could get his hands on, and though an effort was made, there was no hiding place the boy couldn't discover in his quest for Draxum's tools. In spite of his quizzical, sometimes stoic nature, Donatello was sensitive, and very thoughtful. He would spend hours talking about his books and his ideas- some of which were very clever- and he was expressive in secondary ways- sitting nearer his brothers even without interacting, crafting things out of paper as gifts. Even the little heart-shaped mark on the back of his soft shell seemed a fitting part of him- he wore his heart on his sleeve, so to speak, and didn't even realize it.
And Michaelangelo. There was an innocence and joy and goodness about the smallest turtle that had struck Draxum. Even when he was younger he always wore a smile and liked to see the good side of things. And he idolized his brothers. With him had grown his creative inclinations, filling every colouring book, drawing on every wall, and absolutely plastering the other turtles with stickers. They were a pain to wash off, but Draxum couldn't bring himself to mind it, especially given the elder three always loved their baths. Ironically, it seemed Michealangelo did not, enjoying it only under specific circumstances. Heat, bubble bath, and bath toys had quickly become a necessity. So too did bath crayons, the need to express himself coming through even when bathing. Everything about the ornate box turtle was bright and colourful.
Draxum... loved them. Dearly. Every facet of their personalities and growth. Every unique trait and behavior.
It was terrifying. He couldn't afford to love them. He couldn't afford to see any more goodness in the humanity they showed. He couldn't afford to change his goals right now.
So he continued disregarding the feeling, trying to reason that everything he did for them was to nurture their instincts as warriors, as science experiments, as specimen.
But a pained scream one day, different from any of the ones he heard when they were frightened as infants, when one of them tripped and fell, when a spat led to hitting, sent his heart into his throat and had him racing through doorways with more urgency than he had felt for anything before.
He had demanded an explanation, panic translating to perceived anger, and three of his boys looked up with teary eyes. Three, but Donatello remained curled up on the ground, wailing his little heart out without ever looking up, and it was one of the most heart wrenching, painful sounds Draxum'd ever heard.
Raphael sat not far from the smaller boy, looking over his shoulder seemingly at nothing, at Donatello, then up at Draxum and back again. Both Leonardo and Michaelangelo burst into frantic, panicked explanations, none of their words coherent enough to understand through their tears.
When Raphael stood, exposing red-tipped spikes on his shell and pointing frantically to Donatello's, it didn't take long to figure out well enough what had happened.
It became quickly a very long day. All four turtles were distraught, and though Draxum had more than enough first aid knowledge to address the situation, bile had threatened to rise the very moment he pulled out the suture kit.
The cuts were deep, and jagged. And poor Donatello cried the entire time, even after a numbing agent had been applied.
Draxum had never thought that in depth about Donatello's soft shell. Not like that. He chose a softshell for the experiment because it would provide greater flexibility, greater agility. It gave an advantage that the hard-shelled turtles did not have.
Now, here... The soft carapace, spongy and leathery and bloody...
It was an accident. Of course it was, Draxum never doubted that. He had to assure that none of his boys were in trouble, no one was in trouble, no one had done anything wrong.
But for the first time he had to be honest with himself. For the first time he couldn't deny how much he cared about the turtles. His turtles. His boys.
He wouldn't, either. If this was what it was, if this was something that could happen again because he insisted on making them into warriors, into fighters- if this could happen on purpose, if this could happen worse, if this could happen with malice and hatred in mind...
Draxum wasn't unused to physical affection, by now. All four boys adored hugs, although Donatello was usually more reserved about them. Now, Donatello clung like his life depended on it, sniffling and whimpering, having cried so long he had no more tears. Draxum clung back, idly smoothing over the edges of the bandages, holding the frightened, exhausted turtle to his chest, cradling.
He did so until well after Donatello fell asleep. He couldn't bring himself to put him down. He accompanied the others to bed, assuring them once more that things were alright, and then simply stood in the walkway, holding his boy tightly.
He couldn't do this. He couldn't go through with it. They were children, every bit as innocent and deserving as the Yokai he wished to avenge and protect. He could train them, prepare them to protect themselves, but he could never send them into battle, ask them to put their lives on the line, much less demand it.
How could he?
It took months of processing, of agonizing his way through the healing process with Donatello, of watching the other boys proving their humanity, their curiosity, and their innocence time and time and time again. His mind was constantly at war with itself, his heart constantly in turmoil and distress, worsened by the turtles' confusion at his sudden change in behavior.
What was even worse was that they would.
They would absolutely sacrifice everything they had for his approval, and for what they understood as "right". He could see them, easily, being willing to submit their very lives to a greater cause if he asked it.
But was he "right"? Even if this experiment had gone exactly as planned, was he right for ever considering putting these turtles into the station of a warrior? Even if they had remained turtles in mind, if they never expressed complex emotion, if they could not speak, if they did not have distinct and colourful personalities, would it have been right?
Was what he saw in them now what they would have been at heart, regardless of circumstance?
Or was it the humanity, that he stole from Lou Jitsu?
Perhaps... perhaps it was time to learn. To consider the root of his motivations.
He couldn't do this to them.
How could he?
#rottmnt#rise of the tmnt#rise donnie#rise leo#rise raph#rise mikey#baron draxum#rise draxum#rottmnt fanfiction#whump#blood mention#rise lou jitsu#lou jitsu#(only mentioned)#to be honest with you I wrote this on a whim and i don't even really know why I felt inclined to#but I really like it#maybe i just needed to get some thoughts and feelings out#and I think this'd make a REALLY cool AU idea#would anyone want to see more?#if there were interest I think this'd be a lot of fun#lou jitsu stayed with big mama in her Battle Nexus and never met Draxum face to face#Draxum kept the turtles and He's A Good Dad Actually By Accident#he slowly learns to love the turtles like a real father and even to appreciate a bit of humanity through them#and when he finally realizes that he starts questioning his beliefs and morivations#he decides not to make the turtles his warriors because they're his KIDS#and the idea moving forward is that he would find Lou Jitsu and learn about humanity#Lou in turn would have developed a hatred for yokai because of his Bad Times as an unwilling warrior#and we get a whole mess of changed roles and bizarre moral conflicts#threw in the Raph Accidentally Hurt Donnie's Soft Shell When They Were Kids trope#that's a good one hehe
109 notes
·
View notes
Text
The 3rd Sun of the 3rd Umbral Moon - or in other terms, June 3rd - marks the day a very special cat entered the world. Happy Birthday Arsay!
(Opening images in a new tab is recommended for best quality viewing, thank you!)
#ffxiv#ffxiv gpose#ffxiv comic#scions of the seventh dawn#ffxiv wol#Arsay Nun#G'raha tia#y'shtola rhul#wolgraha#wolshtola#alphinaud leveilleur#alisaie leveilleur#krile mayer baldesion#tataru taru#thancred waters#urianger augurelt#estinien varlineau#graharshtola#wolship#I suppose I should elaborate that I consider the bio info you set up in character creation to basically be the passport or guild applicatio#that your character has to hand in to the starting city#hence why a birthday would be on it!#anyways arsay is baby :(#so of course she would cry if the scions threw her a surprise party#shes really overwhelmed and the idea that everyone stopped what they were doing at such short noticed to celebrate her#makes her feel so warm and so so very guilty#and shes immediately trying to back peddle and downplay with a forced smile#shes so happy to know shes loved but she doesnt want people to go out of their way for her specifically#despite the fact shed readily go out of her way for them#thankfully shtola is well versed in arsay and knows how to stop her from spiralling
146 notes
·
View notes
Text
are you there, O 'lone? it's me, your most wretched daughter.
#ffxivsnaps#gposers#ffxiv oc#hyur#ffxiv gpose#i noticed too late the flowers clipping through hhhhhngngh#but anyway. :]#i edited in the sunbeam because why not#the vault is soooo red but i couldn't decide between the original or the psd version#posing inspired by john everett millais' painting of joan of arc#i threw in the halo because i thought it'd be neat#tauvane has a lot of religious baggage to unpack#sidenote: i made her voiceclaim malenia from elden ring and this outfit reminds me of her even more#mygposes.
171 notes
·
View notes
Text
ok idk who needs to hear this but pls stop making cass kill people in modern day media. for the love of god if i see a fic or art or video in anyway implying she would kill someone despite her being very against killing and highly respecting bruce’s no killing rule it’s over for me 🙏🙏 (also if you don’t know much about cass i highly recommend her Batgirl (2000) solo run it is probably one of the better comics dc has ever made)
#cassandra cain#batgirl#batman#cmon guys do better than this#pls#orphan#i hate that they made her orphan#i could make a whole essay on why it’s stupid that in N52 babs is batgirl#that’s like richard being robin again#they just threw out all of babs development#tom taylor when i catch you#<3#dc comics#dc#batfam
67 notes
·
View notes
Text
?
#OUGHHH. this was so hard#the background isn't even that good but I could not erase it all and start again a third time#so this i s what you get ‼️‼️‼️‼️#the loreeee for this IS THAT.#Emizel was running around slipped and fell SO LOUD that viv heard it threw her music and took out her airpods to look around for the noise#thats also why her hand is in that guy's mouth. to shut up his screaming so she can listen better#tw blood#jrwi the suckening#the suckening#jrwi viv#jrwi emizel#CLICK. on it for the quality to go up PLEASE. it looks so bad otherwise 😭😭😭#i think my canvas was to small or something#MyArt
127 notes
·
View notes
Text
Ready for sniffings
#dogblr#rory borealis#ive been doing a lot more scent work in the fields#hiding frozen birds in big areas and then having her find them#this was the biggest area yet#my usual field is about 2 acres#i throw my birds wherever (so she cant track my scent and i dont really know where they are to help her subconsciously)#and this time i used a river valley which was about 14 acres#and threw my birds wherever#some additional challenges included cattails elevation changes and weird wind patterns#it was so cool to watch#honestly there isnt much i love more than watching her in the field#she is so responsive and so in tune with her environment#i see why people get hooked
81 notes
·
View notes
Text
Me to Atom when he sat beside the trash can instead of getting in it
#my love mix up th#my love mix up thailand#this must be so confusing for people that didn't see the original#listen i love atom but i need the chaos energy of aoki back in my life#SPOILERS AHEAD IN THE TAGS FOR THE JAPANESE VERSION IF YOU HAVEN'T ALREADY WATCHED. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK#he does not need to stay in the trash#but saying he might as well get in the trash has less of an impact than actually physically crawling into the trash#we need mudmee's anger to match hashimoto's but it won't have the proper justification if atom is just...sad by the trash#aoki threw himself in the trash then told her he was going to the mountains and she had no idea what was going on#she only knew that her friend was in such distress that he physically made himself trash#and mudmee knows atom is sad and she doesn't want him to be but it is not the same#oh how i was so hoping they would properly handle this one moment but alas#they were close but they took out too much of the chaos. too much is gone#it's still cute and wholesome and wonderful#but atom is now a disaster bi and that's kind of the best part of aoki's whole character#and part of why ida fell in love in the first place
42 notes
·
View notes
Text
I know I’m late to the meme, but here’s my take on it!
#moth.art#honkai: star rail#h:sr#feixiao#moze#h:sr feixiao#h:sr moze#i know it's just his dagger (which was super fun to draw) but in my mind she was on a starskiff when he suddenly threw it at her face lol#i would've posted this like three weeks earlier if i wasn't dealing with a particularly awful ongoing ocd flare-up :( oh well#two versions because why not?
20 notes
·
View notes
Text
People be saying "minors dni" and then interact with stuff that was so painfully obviously written by a fourteen year old that came straight from wattpad smh
#i don't get it#hypocrites#like why you reblogging a post with y/n with icy blue orbs??#“she threw her hair into a messy bun and let out a sigh while biting her lip” do you think an adult wrote that#like i don't blame the teens for writing it they're just hormonal kids#but the adults shouldn't interact with smut written by minors ESPECIALLY if they themselves have a “minors dni” in their bio/pinned post#cod fic writers I'm looking at you#call of duty mw3#call of duty#simon ghost riley#smut#fanfic#minors dni#baldur's gate 3#resident evil#leon kennedy#astarion#ghost x reader#leon x reader#astarion x reader
130 notes
·
View notes
Text
mr. holmes. I feel like maybe you have not been giving miss stoner's story your undivided attention
#in fairness i think he's trying to get her to admit that she's physically afraid of her stepfather#because in a second he's going to point out the finger shaped bruises on her wrist#but like#he threw a blacksmith off a bridge. also a baboon lives in our house#are you seriously asking me why I lock my bedroom door#psir#books#sherlock holmes#this story is so spooky!!
36 notes
·
View notes
Text
perfect world where chaos theory season 2 has the camp fam stumble across a dino reserve in africa run by dave and roxie. and firecracker and angel and rebel are there. and mae and pierce too. and like every dino from mantah corp 🙏
#you cant tell me rescuing bumpy wasnt a major heist#date night: we rescue my adoptive dino daughter together (she still likes you better. plss stop carrying snacks near her)#or that the same kids who beat dan + kash + investors wouldnt risk life and limb again to protect all those dinos#'why didnt anyone call to say u were coming haha' 'SOMEONE threw my phone in a lake'#going back to bumpy heist again. i need ben + yasammy tri-parenting shenanigans rn#jwct#chaos theory#jurassic world#nublar six#chaos theory theory#lmao??#jwct theory#well. probably a crack theory
38 notes
·
View notes
Text
inimitable mage scholar Ulfsild CANONIZED. wizard hat to celebrate 🎉🎉🎉!!!!!
#Elder Scrolls#Ulfsild#they still didn't make her old. and the outfit looks so silly gkhsldfkj. BUT BETTER IN FOREST GREENS...#threw myself excitedly into this. FLUFFED HER SIDEBURNS FOR THE OCCASION EVEN#I like to think this is her 'all dressed up for the wizard convention' look. DIVORCED WIZARD FORMALWEAR#'Mouse why do you keep devolving into caps lock' BECAUSE I LOVE HER...
44 notes
·
View notes
Text
Both my parents actually suffer from HORRID emotional dysregulation and are prone to snapping and going into rages. My sister is the same way tbh. I am now realizing this is why they are constantly baffled by the question of whether or not I am mad at them.
I don't have external meltdowns.
I could. I don't let it happen.
I keep my rage on the inside and stay pretty quiet about it. It's just as strong as theirs [physically shaking nose bleed from high blood pressure kind of bad], but like as a kid I saw how terrifying it was to be around [dad breaking dishes, mom putting our lawn chairs into walls] and I just internalized that I wasn't going to wear that anger on the outside.
So my mother genuinely cannot tell if I am just being quiet or if I am silently hearing the dial-up noises of pure rage. This has lead her to both making strong and confident statements like "You are a pacifist who would never hurt a fly U.U" but also acting like I am secretly dangerous maybe... It's because she has never seen me snap.
She knows what her temper is like [throwing chairs through walls], she knows what my father's temper is like [pick up child and toss out door], and she can tell I am being tested, but she doesn't know what happens when I snap or where that breaking point is.
Her -perhaps unhinged- solution to this, my whole life, has been to do things that should obviously enrage me or shut me down completely, like ignoring important boundaries, repeatedly, punishing me for expressing emotions or needs at all, etc... And then to constantly ask me if I am angry with her when I get too quiet [right after near directly telling me to shut up].
It has occurred to me now, they have never once seen me lose my temper, so they literally just can't tell if I am angry at them. My sister is easy, my mother fights and screams with my sister constantly, my mother understands this. My mother doesn't have any grasp of feelings or boundaries that are not screamed at her [apparently, and I fear my sister is the same way]. Her and my sister are close despite constant fucking fighting because they understand each other.
They are trying to get me to engage the same way and it is not working. I realize now that this has been hard for them.
I was so successfully taught to suppress my emotions, by being punished for any outburst, that rage quiet looks the same as any other kind of quiet from the outside. To them anyway.
I did tell her. For the record. I used my words. I did tell her very calmly that my response to rage, in order to avoid doing the things that terrified me as a child, was to simply leave [the autistic urge to GTFO]. When a situation or person causes too much of the dial-up rage noise, I simply extract myself from that situation, up to and including never speaking to a person again. I explained this calmly. I explained it calmly 100 times and I explained that I explain myself calmly as my rage response 1-5 [also pretty much every other negative emotion tbh], and I told her that what came next was me simply opting out and fucking off. I told her this. I couldn't understand why she never took me seriously, or why she never fucking understood.
I couldn't understand what made her like this.
But it's the same problem I have with everyone else multiplied by a factor of 10.
If I am explaining myself calmly, they can't understand that it's actually serious or that I am actually upset. ESPECIALLY because they read me as "female" and women "aren't that rational" so if I am not screaming and crying about something, which I never do, people assume I can't be upset and it isn't serious.
And then after having my boundaries ignored too many times despite having calmly explained how and why it's a problem [shaking inside or not]... I leave. I leave and everyone gets upset like this is unexpected behaviour, even though I told them 50 times that is how I would respond if they kept doing *the thing.*
And for neurotypical people especially, they are expecting there to be a disconnect between what someone says they need or feel and what their actually boundaries and feelings are, and they expect the latter to be demonstrated with emotions. Telling them bluntly you do not function that way somehow never helps?
My mother isn't just looking for normal yelling or a few tears to know I am serious, whether or not I do those either [I don't], she's looking for an explosion to know there's a problem at all.
Fucked if I know how she proceeds through life this way in general or if this is just her expectation of her own kids???
And I couldn't get why my mother couldn't read my emotions and didn't seem to think I have any. It's because she's testing for the rage limit to see where my 'actual' limit is instead of taking my word for it. Never the fuck mind that she could simply *not* test at my boundaries instead of letting me have them. Separate issue.
I couldn't figure out what made her *like this*
She's expecting me to throw a giant meltdown violent tantrum at people when I have 'actually' had enough. Maybe she got away with those being like 5'4" in another time, but I am the size of the average man, I do not get to have giant screaming rages, whether or not people perceive me consciously as a woman, and least of all because a lot of people -at least unconsciously- read me as 'masculine' or at least always "they guy" of the situation compared to all other women and some men [bigger stronger and more rational, more able to just absorb the damage and let it go so the less rational screaming/crying one doesn't have to be dealt with]. Even if it was in me to be willing to terrify people [usually never], there are such limited instances where it wouldn't just blow back on me. Potentially very dangerously.
I am going to be the quiet calm one. You are going to have to let me use my words, bitch.
So she kept ignoring my boundaries until I had to cut her out of my life, and she probably doesn't understand and probably thinks it feels sudden -after 36 long years of bullshit- abrupt and unfair.
But I told her hundreds of times.
I probably should have just screamed at her.
#good stay out of our yard' and he didn't seem to know what to say to that#but other than that I don't think anyone in my adult life has ever seen me turn aggressive at all to the point where people 100% like to#play games of testing my patience and my boundaries because they think my tolerance is infinite#but like I have autistic rage tantrums on both sides of my family and they are just happening inside my head#And somehow it took me until now to realize that being that way was actually -expected- of me by my parents and especially my mother#and that by keeping myself outwardly level headed to be considerate I actually took away whatever signals she can understand#to have empathy for how I must be feeling#I mean it's still all on her#but it makes so much sense of why she's fucking *like this*#And why my sister thinks I hate her just because -she- stopped texting -me-#but that fucking guy#Every time I was like#In my adult life I have screamed at someone ONE whole time and it was 1000% deserved#And I threw heavy objects around one whole other time and in my defense I didn't do it in front of the guy he just felt the ground shaking#heard the thuds and came back to the logs blocking his path because that fucker wouldn't stop parking in our yard after being asked#and then TOLD not to about 10 times because he was acting entitled to just park in our yard and was crushing my plants???#seriously I don't know what his deal was but he wouldn't stop telling me how much the ground shaking scared him like it was supposed#to get my pity like I think this guy took one look at the logs I had just tossed down and was suddenly afraid of this “woman” he was#bullying in their own yard and so my ability to feel bad for scaring him had gone straight out the fucking window#I looked at him and said stop parking in our yard instead of your own you are killing my plants#he'd just fucking be like 'well the last people to live here let us D: :)“ and I'd be like ”good for them?“ ”stop“#and he'd just keep doing it#I was having a week of insomnia and was finally having the best dream#the kind of sex dream you have like twice in your life#and this fucker had just gotten some noisy ass little bike with a spoiler on it#and starts it up right under my window at 3am from IN OUR FUCKING YARD#so I had a nice long anger nap and just after he got home from work and was sleeping in his house#I picked up these chunks of deadwood tree from the back#there was like 3-4 logs that used to be a WHOLEASS fucking oak tree Like these logs were not as heavy as they -looked- but they were still#this fucker deleted half the tags I wrote and I am not retyping that fuck you tumblr so fucking hard
27 notes
·
View notes
Text
The way people are becoming anti-children nowadays is really sad. And I'm not talking about people not wanting to have kids of their own, that's fine and something that shouldn't be shamed nor up to someone else to debate. No, I'm talking about the people who adamantly hate these little humans for simply existing, wanting to ban them from spaces due to them having emotional reactions that they are still learning to understand (you know, the kind of lessons that everyone had to learn and figure out at one point). It's gotten to the point where I've even seen these types of people genuinely support children being harmed and deny their hurt under the consensus of "Well then maybe they shouldn't be there," in your average public space. Like, imagine thinking hating on children, people who need assistance and guidance, is something to be proud of.
#like ill never forget this lady talking about how she took her son to some ice cream or cookie place#and let him look at the display (which is normal) only to have to pull him away bc a man got way to close#and when she talked about how weird it was (which makes sense bc it was) people were blaming her for letting her child run free (which wasn'#t what happened people just threw that in there to justify their hate & dismissing of the potential harm a child could've experienced)#“i vote that dogs should be on plans more than children bc they aren't as annoying!” is gross and brain dead bc only one of those two can#use the bathroom while the other uses it on a mat something in which has potential to stink up a plane & annoy people as well#you just want to bring your dog on board without all the hoops so you act like hating children will solve it#and coming from an animal lover dogs and other pets have the ability to annoy you on flights just as much as children can let's think now#also ive seen people say that children are wrong for experiencing emotional outbursts and im like “while it can be frustrating having to#deal with acting like you weren't in their shoes once and trying to shame them for these emotions is such a jerk thing to do“#also like its guaranteed that kids are going to cry on planes how about instead of shaming them & their parents maybe idk buy soundproof hea#-dphones? like parents are going to bring their kids traveling (as is their right) and are educating them the best they can that's not going#to change so why not take simple steps to prepare instead of hating on little humans? just saying#again this is not for people who just don't want to have kids! people who don't are just as valid as people who do#don't let anyone tell you otherwise#miscellaneous#idk necessarily how to tag this tbh#rants#tw for mentions of children being harmed
17 notes
·
View notes