#that's spared me from adding too many more lol

[annwayne]

Ficwip's Year in Review 2024!

Just in time for 2025 haha. Answers under the cut cuz this is a long one.

How many fics have you worked on since January?

17

What’s something new that you tried in a fic this year?

So, I read a post on here that I'll butcher in trying to summarize, but here's my attempt. Don't write knowing words in your character's thoughts. Stuff like "knew" "wanted" and emotions too. Not just plainly written out like "Ann felt sad." This seems obvious, but the post went into better detail about how these kinda moments can slip into writing easily. And I thought, well, why not. And I tried it. And man, it sucks lol. But it's made my writing a lot better. I expand a lot more, give more information, and lean on description and information rather than having the character explain themselves.

What piece of media inspired you the most? (This can be the fandom you wrote the most for, the one that spawned the most ideas, the one you thought about the most, etc.)

Bridgerton, though it spawned ideas for an au rather than fics for the fandom itself...

How many fandoms did you write for this year?

10

What ships captured your heart?

Astur/Astarion from BG3, Alice/Todd from SGA, and Awyn/Eric from True Blood.

What characters captured your heart?

I mean, I think this was really the year of Eric Northman and Todd the Wraith lol. I think I did the most writing for their fics this year.

Did you write for any new fandoms or ships this year?

No, surprisingly, I didn't start any fics for new fandoms this year lol.

What fic meant the most to you to write?

Delayed Fate

What fic made you feel the happiest to work on?

Liquid Mercury and my SGA Bridgerton!au

What fic was the most satisfying to finish writing?

Probably my Mass Effect 2 drabble.

What fic was the most difficult to write?

Murder in a Bar. I'm dragging my feet over here, dying trying to get this fic in motion. Too much editing for so little words blah.

What fic was the easiest to write?

Honestly, the bridgerton!au flew outta me so fast. I'm amazed at how much I've written in only a handful of months.

What were your shortest and longest fics posted this year?

The Mass Effect 2 drabble is my shortest fic posted and my longest fic posted is Liquid Mercury.

What were your go-to writing songs?

I listen to lots of Debussy, various playlist videos on youtube, and the occasional very intense song in a language I don't know.

What was the hardest fic to title?

All of my fics are hard to title, so hard that most of them are saved as their ship name until it's time to publish ToT

What's your favorite title of the year?

Liquid Mercury. It sounds so good and fits perfectly.

Share your favorite opening line

From my Baldurs Gate 3 wip;

Astur Vuldal sat, ankles crossed beneath her, at a large oak desk stained red by the craftsman her family commissioned over a century ago.

Share your favorite ending line

From Liquid Mercury's first chapter;

“Mandy,” A breath interrupted me. “I think I should be dead.”

Share your favorite piece of dialogue

From one of my The Red Logs wips;

“Don’t try to move.” Asajj ordered. “You were stunned.”  “Several times.” Wrecker added.  “Is that why I feel like I’m made of sand?” I groaned. “Yep,” Wrecker explained. “You didn’t even flinch.” His head tilted a little and he brought a hand up to his chin. “If I hadn’t been so scared, I’d have been impressed.”

Share your funniest line(s)

From my Leverage wip;

“Trust me. Don’t try the Jell-O shots and don’t drink the green beer.” Eliot said to Amy.  Amy laughed, turning to Hardison. “You made green beer?” Then she turned back to Eliot. “Beer? Not a cocktail with lime juice or something?”  “Beer.” Eliot answered with a look of disapproval aimed at Hardison.  “Excuse me for trying to innovate a stagnant industry!”

What's something that surprised you while you were working on a fic? Did it change the story?

I made a big breakthrough on a plot hole, which totally changed a bunch of details of Liquid Mercury's story lol. For the better I think. Also, through the bridgerton!au, I found a lot more in Alice than I expected. To be honest, I'd thought all my sga fics would be more simple and fun. But uh, no this one did not escape the trauma treatment lol.

What writing programs did you use? Did you write by hand?

I use google docs to write.

If you had to choose one, what was THE most satisfying writing moment of your year?

Oh god. I think it's a chapter in my BG3 fic, I'll include just a snippet of it.

On her other side, Astarion waited patiently for Astur to settle down. Despite sharing the same bottles, somehow he seemed far more lucid than the wizard. “Alright,” He turned his head from the flames and looked directly at Astur. “If you’re so eager for honesty, you first.”  “Deal.” Astur held out her palm, but then realized too late that she was using that hand to hold her bottle. A short laugh left Astarion as he lifted his own bottle to clank against hers. Both parties nodded in agreement to the pseudo-handshake. “So what shall I be honest about, Astarion?”  Wyll snored lightly on Astur’s shoulder. Gale had passed out, laying in Lae’zel’s lap while she played with his dark brown hair absently. Though her attention was now on the two high-elves, she did not interrupt their discussion. Astur only felt a slight tug at the thought of being watched–but her clouded mind could not afford to divert any focus from the task at hand; of which was listening to Astarion’s answer.

Did you do anything special to celebrate finishing a fic?

Not really. I don't do anything other than tell my partner and friends.

How did you recharge between fics?

I play lots of videogames, watch movies and tv shows, and draw!

Did you create fanworks other than fic?

Yep! I did a few drawings throughout the year.

How many events did you take part in? (bangs, exchanges, ship weeks, zines, prompt memes, they all count!)

I think only one? I can't remember super well, but I'm pretty sure one. Or two? Eh. It was two, I checked lol.

If this were an awards show, who would you thank?

I'd thank @wolveria for listening to all my crazy ideas and obsessions as they come, @anonmadsci and @the-itzy-bitzy-spider for the brainstorming and hype they give any of the bits of fic I share, and my partner for putting up with my 8th rewatch of the first three seasons of True Blood 😅

What's left on your to-do list for after 2024?

More like what isn't? I still got 15 wips xD

What would you like to write this year?

I'd like to get significant progress done for Murder in a Bar, the bridgerton!au, and Liquid Mercury.

[lotusmi]

SUCCESS STORY!!🤎🧸

tw//mental problems, abusive family, bullying, suicide attempt, manifest/void obsession

first of all i want to thank lotus because it helped me even when i was thinking about suicide❤️‍🩹

it's been years since I learned loa and I was having problems with the manifest. althought I have known loa for 2-3 years, i constantly reacted to 3D and for such reasons I could not manifest anything for 2-3 years. and when i first learned loa i was obsessed with void. I was hurting myself to enter void. like if you don't enter void today I will kill you. i was crazy because of void. at the same time, I was staying in the family environment that dragged me to death, and I was bullied at school . i was hated by people even though i did nothing. i tried to commit suicide many times, my family wouldn't let me go to the therapist. also, no one said anything to the bullying I saw. thats why I bullied myself for years in the same way. if I told anyone I was being bullied and asked for help, they would say it was probably my problem to my face💀💀 and towards the end of 2022, i seriously couldn't stand it anymore. i was constantly reading blogs [i think there is no blog i haven't read, lmao] and the last time i couldn't stand it, i tried suicide again, but i failed. later i wrote to lotus and she gave me a lot of advice (baby ily😩❤️) and i cried more than i have ever cried that night. the problem is that while people were already ruining me, the real problem was that i was ruining myself too. after that day, in the first week, i had so many problems in my manifest journey. but until 2023, i said to myself, "i don't want to live like this anymore. i deserve the life I want.” i made a promise. and every time I felt like quitting, i remembered my promise to myself. and now i have revised my whole life, i live in dubai🤭. if you're going to ask how i did this, i started to listen to my inner voice, i almost stopped entering tumblr. i stopped affirming and wrote down the things that i was gonna revise one by one, and added them to the notes app on my phone. i made a note at the bottom that I already have these in my life. when “what if I can't manifest the life I want?” if such thoughts came to my mind, i told myself that the creation was already finished. in this process, i focused only on myself and was developing my self concept. before I went to bed at night, i was constantly imagining the life I wanted and I was staying in that state and saying I already had the life I wanted, I didn't affirm anything extra. and even those who made life difficult for me started to apologize to me. (i manifested their karma life lol) anyway I don't want to talk more about those bitches but I want to mention this. please take a break. relax. stay away from things like void, loa for a few days. I noticed that some of you are obsessed with void on this blog. but i must say void is just a method. if i manifested the life i wanted when i was only 12-13 years old, you can do it too. take a break and do what feels good to you. love yourself. loa blogs can help you up to a point. they can't spare all their days for you. start taking responsibility. find manifest methods that work well for you. love yourself. meditate. i’ve talked a lot but I would like to add that, if someone tells you that you are the cause of the circumstances you are experiencing right now, that you created the conditions in which you live, please tell them to shut their fucking mouths. no such thing. i was blaming myself again, thinking what a disgusting monster i am just because this “you create ur reality” thingy. but the truth is that creation is already over. good luck!

MY FAV SUCCESS STORY TO EXIST!!!! 😭

I literally cried when this girl texted me saying she is living her dream life, I was so pround, I am pround 💗

Backstory, she first texted me 12/15/2022

She told me everything about her circumstances, they were really bad ones, and she was 12 at time and this made my heart so broken (she revised her age) since her parents were really toxic and disgusting ( I am not going to say much about her old story).

So I told her all about the toxic home I lived and how I manifested it away too (my success, my failures).

So, time passed and 01/feb I got this text!

I literally cried because I was so happy for herrrr 💗😭😭

"How she did it?"

She focused in her inner Self being the only reality and ignored all circumstances!

"and i would love to you to add those youtubers and blogs" insta: - kriston jackson youtube: - lana blakely tumblr: - @becomingthatgirl111 — other sources abt loa: - joe dispenza, edward art"

I literally cried so much and I am so happy for you my angel, look how you did it! You were 12 and revised your whole life! 💗💗💗

And that are people out there who don't believe that it is possible to manifest things. Look at this girl 💓

You did it amazing love, I am so pround of you. You are deserving of all the best things in the world. I wish you all the fun in life. Thank you sm for sending me this, I feel so appreciated that I had helped you, but who did all of this was YOU! 💗💗💗

✉️You all, everything is possible!

[aihoshiino]

chapter 156 thoughts

Chapters Since The 143 Kiss Happened And Went Entirely Unacknowledged And Unaddressed Count: 13

Aqua Hoshigan Status: N/A

I'm gonna be real with you gamers I don't have a lot to say about this one LOL. Typically these Mem chapters come at the top or bottom of volumes as transitions between phases of the story so getting one slap bang in the middle of what will be volume 16 is a little jarring, as are the contents of it. Despite making up 1/3rd of the current B-Komachi, Mem is pretty underutilized across the whole manga so while it's nice to see her be given a proper arc capstone chapter all to herself, it feels underbaked. I almost suspect that the beats of this chapter may have been intended to serve as the bones of a Mem mini-arc at some point but with only so much time to spare before the manga ends it was crammed into this one chapter. Without any room to breathe, none of its beats hit.

Mem and Frill being friendly enough for solo hangouts is cute, though! One of the things I did like about the Movie Arc was the way it mushed the wider supporting cast together into a more closely knit social circle and I like seeing that reflected in moments like this. It helps add to the sense of them being people living their own lives who have things to do outside of dealing with Hoshino Family Drama.

The story swinging back to deal the elephant in the room that is Mem's real age is also potentially juicy but - say it with me, folks! - lacks the build up it needs to really be worth taking seriously. Prior to this, Mem's age has mostly been played for laughs when it has come up with no real indication that it's something the manga wants us to take seriously. In that way, the slightly blase framing of it here does better suit as a resolution than suddenly taking it deadly serious was but it does just end up feeling like something Akasaka added to the manga not because he felt it was an important part of the story but because it was next on his checklist of things to tie off before the manga ends.

This can really be felt in the way this chapter really fails to dig into why Mem even had to lie in the first place - there's the off-handed acknowledgement of Mem wanting to be an idol and her age potentially being a barrier in that regard but it doesn't actually dig into this premise of Mem's age being a problem. In a series whose proclivity for infodumping about the ills of the entertainment industry is practically a fandom joke at this point, it feels uncharacteristically restrained for it to not take this opportunity to talk about how this attitude is born from fetishizing, commodifying attitudes about youth and supposed 'purity' and the ageism and misogyny many adult women in the entertainment industry all over the globe have to deal with.

In general, OnK has been pretty toothless the last few arcs when it comes to the cast having to actually navigate the industry's toxicity. The way Ruby's struggles with idolhood are held up as comparable to Ai's is one major symptom of this that I'll probably go into at some other point, but we also see this in characters like Kaburagi and Shima-D too - despite being objectively pretty scummy individuals in terms of both their behaviour within the industry and their interpersonal relationships, the note the manga seems to have ended on for both of them is a sort of 'aw shucks he didn't mean none of it' wishy-washiness where it's unwilling to hold them accountable.

This toothlessness adds to making everyone's immediately acceptance of Mem's lie ring so deeply hollow. No scandal, no negativity, no nothing. An utterly frictionless resolution that feels as though it added nothing to the plot point it was tying off. Again, it would feel weird for this to become a big dramatic beat when the story has so consistently treated it like a joke but this half-baked conclusion leaves me feeling lukewarm at best.

To not end this on a sour note, I will say I really like the note this ends on of Mem deciding to shoot for university and I like Ruby finally giving Mem even a shred of props for the backbreaking amount of work she put into B-Komachi's growth. Appreciate Mem more, you little gremlin!!!

Speaking of Mem's JD dreams though, I've heard some speculation so far that Mem shooting for university is an indication that she's also going to be leaving B-Komachi but… eh, I disagree. Mem talks about how much the group means to her and her revealing the lie here feels like a step to try and protect her place in B-Komachi and ensure she can keep performing with them.

Break next week to no one's surprise… did y'all know the volume 15 release in Japan says volume 16 isn't dropping until December? Wild.

[best-non-english-word-torunament]

Word of the week rules and submissions!

What is this?

This is no longer a tournament as that takes too much time and admin. We have also already decided that многоꙮчитїй/ mnogoočitii from Old church slavonian is the best word, so no need to do that again. Instead, I will use this blog to highlight a word (or a couple of words) every week (or other time period if the queue runs out) from languages which aren't English. This will be based on reader submissions with me editing for clarity and adding a blurb about the language, much like in the tournament.

In short, tell me about your favourite words! Let's all learn something new! (My favourite phase of the tournament was definitely research/round one)

Who are you?

I'm a linguistics student and language nerd from Sweden who decided to run a tournament of non-English words because I wanted to highlight language diversity. My native language isn't English, so please be kind if my posts are worded weirdly sometimes (or my username is misspelled lol)

What makes a word good?

There are many ways that a word can be good, but here are some examples: it sounds good/feels good to say, the script looks nice, it denotes an interesting concept, it denotes a concept you like, it does something interesting grammarwise, usagewise or soundwise, it's funny, it's an interesting/fun compound, it has an interesting/fun etymology, it just has good vibes... The possibilities are endless

Rules:

No words in English, but loanwords from English are allowed with good motivation

No conlangs (I love them but the focus is on natural language)

Words from signed languages are allowed and encouraged as long as you can provide an explanatory picture or film for the sign

Words from pidgins are allowed

Words from extinct languages are allowed

Usage should be widespread within a language community (if it isn't/wasn't used in the language it doesn't belong, neither does words only your family/friend group uses, but slang words are allowed)

No words that have appeared in the tournament or previously on word of the week (search for the word on my blog, all words are tagged)

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The submission form is currently open. It will remain so until I have too many unposted submissions, then open again when those have been scheduled

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If more than 5-6 words in the same language are submitted, all of them might not be posted until some time has passed to avoid one language dominating

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Submissions will be fact-checked, edited for clarity and get a short text about the language. If I find something interesting while researching I might add a note about that as well

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Submit your word(s) through this form

[devilslamb]

I want to know if Dale decided to hire an assistant, besides Ruth, one who was actually on a payroll and would just help him make the dolls, what would their first day of working for him look like? I want to know how that man would welcome someone completely new to his Satan cave.

ouuu, this would be so interesting. hmmm,, id imagine him probably getting ruth to put in ads in the paper, waiting for someone to call the house number. waiting by the phone all day when he hasn't anything to do (and lets be honest, he doesn't do much other than make dolls now that ruth is his accomplice LOL)

i think it'd be pretty uneventful just because i think dale is dutiful, no shenanigans on the job type of guy, especially with such gruesome work.

their first day... slinking into a crowded house and down into the basement isnt at all what they expected when they called in for the ad. the stairs are steep, and the basement is so cluttered yet so.. organized? it's quite odd how the room is so put together yet so clunky with books and blankets and handmade quilts.

he makes his presence known by giving a high pitched "oh!" you know how. he's suddenly behind you with his hands politely crossed in front of him, fidgeting with his fingers. probably scaring the shit out of you. he doesnt really introduce himself. rather, he tells you to sit down at the bench so you can get started

most of the work is in making the dolls, so you'd be sharing the workload with him, if you're quick to learn

dale is a very hands-on teacher. not in that way, either. i dont think he's a man of many words, so trying to explain stuff would be so frustrating for him when he could just show you how to do it

you're seated at his work bench and he's so uncomfortably close behind you, shoulders practically caging you in between him and the bench. you can smell him, he's so close.

hes watching you carefully, raggedy breaths in your ear. it's so uncomfortable and tense for no reason. like something bad is about to happen. but nothing ever does.

all you hear is the occasional footsteps above you, eerie whispering, and his heavy breathing. no music or white noise to avoid any distractions. just him and the devil keeping you company.

he hands you the tools and gives you the name along with it. short little "brush" or "glue" in his sluggish voice. he doesn't say much else.

when you're making a mistake, he grabs your wrist in a sluggish motion but with a firm grip and redirects the tool in your hand. he's extremely picky but spares the patience for you.

though after a couple of hours of things not going right, he twitches, shoulders curled up like a threatened cat. he's huffing and puffing a bit, burning holes in the back of your head with his stare. hes grinding his teeth a bit too.

if you do something right, he gives your shoulder a gentle and reassuring squeeze (though it unnerves you) accompanied by a low, gravelly "mm good". he doesn't spare the praises either, making sure to let you know well you're doing.

once he's a little more confident in you doing each task right, he'd probably pop a record on. maybe one of his own, or maybe one he favors. something old and classic, maybe some alice cooper. just light listening to offer a much-needed buffer from the silence.

before you know it, you're there through some of the night, and it seems time has flown by when doing the devil's work, but he lets you know to come back tomorrow depending on how well you've done.

sorry this is a little boring, but i cant imagine him getting someone to help. hes such an insular person to me that hed rather do it himself to ensure it gets done right, but yk i dont think he'd be too terrible at training someone to help him. he'd probably very much appreciate it.

[vigilante-chase]

Summary: Rose and Adrian get a visit from someone close to Rose.

Pairing: Adrian Chase x Black!Rose Wilson

Word count: 2.7k

Warnings:

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6

Part 6: Under The Sin-fluence

After dropping Rose off at her hotel, Adrian texted her as soon as he got home. The adrenaline from the night still buzzed through him, but more than that, he couldn't stop thinking about her. Adrian hesitated for a moment, then decided to keep the conversation going. If he was going to get to know her better, now was as good a time as any. He decided to ask her if she had any siblings, and patiently waited for her response.

Adrian tilted his head at his phone. Could it be because of Slade's interference with her life or that she does too many missions to see her family?

Adrian: "Is it because of the missions or because of your dad? Like, does that make things complicated?"

There was a pause. Three dots danced on his screen for what felt like forever before her reply came through.

Rose: "Yeah, you could say that. But questions about him are off-limits. Sorry."

Adrian frowned but quickly typed back:

Adrian: "Got it. I don't talk about my dad much either. He left my mom for another guy, which is cool, but, y'know, stuff like that's hard."

Her response came slower this time, and when it did, it was short.

Rose: "Lol really?"

Adrian chuckled but felt a pang of disappointment when her next message followed quickly:

Rose: "I'm gonna get some sleep. You should too. Don't stay up all night thinking about me 😉."

He bit his lip, gripping his phone tighter than he realized.

Adrian: "Too late."

She didn't respond, and Adrian sighed, tossing his phone onto the bed. Sleep wasn't going to come easily—not when his brain was buzzing with more questions about her. Who was Rose Wilson, really? She seemed to come out of nowhere and shake up his little world of comfortability. 

Adrian grabbed his phone, holding it tightly again while biting his lip, went to his search engine. He typed "Rose Wilson." The results were frustratingly generic. Links to social media accounts that weren't hers, random bios, and pages for people who shared her name cluttered the screen. He tried again, adding "Ravager" to the search. This time, the results were... different.

Mugshots of Rose stared back at him, her eyepatch covering her left eye. Articles chronicled high-profile assassinations, and there were images of her standing beside another figure—her father. Deathstroke. Adrian tilted his head. Both of them had eyepatches, just on opposite eyes. He frowned. Did Deathstroke have some weird pirate fantasy he was acting out?

Adrian scrolled further, finding an anonymous forum. The posts were a mix of Deathstroke fanboys and incels salivating over Rose.

Posts like, "I wish Ravager would ravage me!!!" or "STEP ON ME MOMMY RAVAGER"

Adrian scowled, disgusted by the gross little freaks that thought Rose would even spare a glance at them. "Yeah, keep dreaming, losers. She wouldn't touch you with a ten-foot pole," he muttered to himself.

One post caught his eye: a grainy security video. Adrian clicked on it, the low-quality footage playing on his screen. There Rose stood firmly, in an older version of her suit, high ponytail and eyepatch on her face. She was surrounded by five security guards, wielding her sword with lethal precision, slicing and thrusting as they closed in. One guard managed to grab her from behind, locking her in a chokehold, but she twisted free, grabbing his gun and shooting him point-blank and taking the others out.

The camera zoomed in  on one of the guard tried crawling away. Rose watched as Deathstroke entered the frame, walking casually to the wounded man. He crouched beside the guard, said something Adrian couldn't make out, then stomped on the man's head with brutal finality.

Rose stood nearby, her expression unreadable. Deathstroke turned to her, said something else, and together, they looked directly into the security camera. A single shot rang out as Rose fired at the lens, ending the footage.

Adrian sat back, his stomach twisting. He was horrified — horrified at how insanely turned on he was.

He groaned, running a hand through his hair, and yanking off his glasses. "Guess it's time to let off some steam." He was just gonna have to patrol as Vigilante just to get over his horniness and get a nice dopamine release. Even as he suited up, his thoughts kept circling back to Rose.

The next day, Adrian tapped the steering wheel of the vigilante-mobile as he pulled up outside Peacemaker's trailer. His excitement was overt, causing him to tap the steering wheel—he had been waiting all night to tell Chris about what had gone down with Rose Wilson.

The car door opened, and Peacemaker stepped out with Eagly shuffling behind him. Chris gave Adrian a suspicious glance, squinting through the sun. "You look like you just won the lottery or something. What the fuck's going on with you?"

Adrian grinned under his mask, practically bouncing in his seat. "Dude, last night with Rose? Something amazing happened. It was awesome, fantastic, and did I mention it was... amazing."

Peacemaker's eyebrows shot up, a genuine smile creeping across his face. "No way. You finally fucked Rose? You didn't, like, do something super weird?"

Adrian laughed hysterically. "No! We didn't fuck yet. It was more of gratuitous grinding and dry humping, but it felt very much like fucking...well, for me it did."

Chris burst into laughter and slapped Adrian's dashboard hard enough to rattle the whole car. "Damn, that's funny as fuck, dude. At least you're closer to getting laid!" They exchanged a triumphant high-five with Adrian beaming with pride.

"And you know what they say," Chris added with a grin, "if it's good enough, she's legally obligated to call you Daddy at least once."

Adrian's eyes widened. "What? No, I—wait, seriously?"

Chris just laughed harder. "I'm kidding, dumbass!" Eagly screeched as if in agreement, flapping his wings.

Adrian shifted the car into drive, and they sped off toward HQ, still riding high from the conversation.

At Hennenlotter, the team gathered around the room, where Governor Robinson sat handcuffed in a desk. His face masked with defiance despite his restraints.

Economos rubbed the back of his neck nervously. "Governor Robinson isn't talking. Won't give us anything about who supplied him with Bane's venom."

Chris crossed his arms, narrowing his eyes. "Told you, we should just beat the shit outta him. Easy."

Rose Wilson leaned against the wall, irritation and annoyance radiating from her body. "Give me five minutes with him, and he'll spill everything."

Harcourt shot her a glance. "We're not trying to kill him. Yet."

Robinson sneered from the chair, "You dumb little pussies think you're in control, don't you?" His voice dripped with venom from withdrawals from his drugs. "You have no idea what's coming. Especially you..." He pointed to Rose, "There are big plans for you, Rose Wilson."

Rose's eyes darkened. Before anyone could stop her, she stepped forward and delivered a brutal punch to the governor's jaw, sending him slumping unconscious in his chair.

Chris and Adrian simultaneously murmured, "Damn."

"Okay, that was badass," Adrian added, awestruck.

Peacemaker gave Rose an approving nod. "That's how you shut a guy up. High five?"

Rose ignored him, leaving him hanging, and shaking out her knuckles.

Harcourt sighed deeply. "Shit! He was supposed to be awake so we could question him."

"He'll wake up eventually," Rose muttered with a shrug.

Meanwhile, Adebayo sat behind her laptop, her fingers flying across the keys. "Got something," she said. "There's some event happening in Seattle—something that's connected to the governor's disappearance. Could be the lead we need."

Harcourt nodded to Economos, "They may have traces of the drugs at this event, let's suit up and pack up."

Chris grinned. "Seattle road trip? Hell yeah."

On the way to the event, Adrian sat in the van, blissfully watching Rose as she whispered and giggled with Adebayo.

"Would you two stop acting like a pair of teenagers," Harcourt muttered, side-eying them from the passenger seat.

"Um, This is very important girl stuff," Adebayo shot back with a grin. "Okay, now what happened next?"

Rose leaned closer to whisper to her. "We were basically kissing and grinding, Adrian was...hot. Like, he's cute as fuck in a dorky way, but that body though." She emphasized her point by biting her finger and exhaling.

Adebayo giggled. "Oh my god, stop! He's gonna hear us." They snuck a peak at him to see him staring longingly at Rose and ignoring Peacemaker.

Adrian could barely contain his giddy smile as he sighed dreamily staring at Rose. He had no idea what she and Adebayo were whispering about, but he had some hope it was about last night. Though they texted for a while after he dropped her off, he wanted to be in her presence again. Chris, sitting next to him, rolled his eyes. "Dude, did you hear what I said? You're making that weird fucking face again."

Adrian looked over, grinning. "What face?"

"The 'I'd like to fuck the girl who could probably kill me in my sleep' face." Chris muttered with a laugh.

"Not a bad way to go, actually," Adrian replied, completely sincere.

Chris turned to Economos. "Are we seriously watching him stare at them like a creepy perv that wants to jack off right now?"

Economos and Harcourt exchanged a glance. "This is... unsettling," Harcourt muttered. "Chase, keep it in your pants."

Once at the venue, the team split into pairs.

"Stay sharp," Harcourt warned as they entered. "Stick to the plan. We meet back up after the event ends."

Chris and Harcourt headed towards the security post while Adebayo and Economos scouted the outer perimeter and disabled the cameras.

Rose and Adrian crept silently through the dim corridors of the abandoned facility, their steps muffled against the cracked concrete floor. The intel had pointed them here—a supposed cache of Bane's venom stockpiled by corrupt officials. Rose's grip tightened on her sword, her instincts on high alert, while Adrian clutched his pistol in one hand and another in the other hand, 'just in case.'

"Okay, so... this is, like, totally the kind of place where bad guys keep their venom, right?" Adrian whispered, his voice brimming with misplaced confidence. "Dark, creepy, and it smells like ass. Classic villain vibes."

Rose shot him a look, her single eye narrowing. "Shh! Focus on getting the venom, not making commentary."

"Right, right. Totally focused," Adrian said, nodding fervently. Then, under his breath, he added, "Still smells like ass, though."

They entered a back room filled with towering crates stacked haphazardly. Adrian's face lit up. "Jackpot, babe!"

But as Rose pried open the nearest crate, her expression darkened. It was empty.

Adrian frowned, leaning over her shoulder. "Uh... this feels... bad. Harcourt's gonna be pissed."

Before Rose could reply, the air shifted, growing cold and heavy with an oppressive weight. Slow, deliberate footsteps echoed from the hall, drawing closer. Adrian and Rose snapped into defensive stances, weapons drawn, tension thick enough to cut with a blade.

Then, a voice—familiar and chilling—pierced the silence.

"Hello, Rose."

Her breath caught, heart racing as recognition struck her. She'd know that voice anywhere, even after years of trying to forget it.

Slade Wilson stepped into the room, his imposing figure illuminated by the flickering overhead light. He moved with deliberate purpose, pulling his mask off and  tucking it under one arm, revealing the hardened lines of his face and the cruel smirk curling his lips.

Rose's sword trembled slightly in her grasp, but she steadied herself. "No..." she muttered, her voice laced with a mix of fear and defiance.

He stalked towards her like the predator that he was, "Missed me, dear?"

Adrian's reaction was immediate—and entirely Adrian. "Hey, mother fucker! Don't look at her!" He raised his pistol and started firing without hesitation.

Slade moved like a shadow, weaving through the hail of bullets with effortless precision. Before Adrian could reload, Slade closed the distance, knocking the gun from his hand with a calculated strike and choke-slamming him into a crate. Adrian crumpled to the floor, groaning.

Rose lunged, her sword meeting Slade's in a clash of steel. Sparks flew as their blades connected, her strikes fierce but met with equal force. "How the fuck did you find me?" She growled, pushing hard against him.

Smiling at her strength, it just wasn't enough. He pushed her back, slamming her against the wall. "I thought I taught you better than this," Slade taunted, sweeping her legs out from under her and knocking her to the ground. He loomed over her, pulling a syringe from his belt.

"NO!" Rose screamed, thrashing as he grabbed her by the hair. She punched and elbowed him, but his grip was ironclad. Slade only laughed a deep rumble from his chest, and gripped her hair tighter.

"Aww..." he mocked, "Don't wanna be daddy's little girl anymore? You used to beg for my attention, and now..."

Adrian struggled to his feet, his face paled with panic. "Get your hands off her!" Unsheathing his own sword, he lunged, finding an exact gap in Slade's armor and piercing him in the side, only to be met with a brutal kick that sent him sprawling again.

Slade sneered at the pain in his side, his gaze fixed on Rose, and grabbing her again. "You've finally got what you wanted and you'd do what, exactly? Be here in Bumfuck, Washington with this imbecile?"

He jammed the syringe into her neck. Rose cried out as the venom coursed through her veins, her body seizing with pain. Slade tossed her to the ground like a discarded toy, and Adrian was at her side in an instant, cradling her trembling form.

"Rose? Come on, you gotta help me kick this fucker's ass," Adrian pleaded, his voice breaking. Grabbing his sword, he looked up to strike Slade, but like a ghost - Slade was gone.

Rose writhed on the floor, her screams cutting through Adrian like knives. Her fists slammed into the concrete, her breaths coming in ragged gasps.

"Okay, yeah, this isn't normal," Adrian muttered, his tone veering into panicked humor. "Like, on a scale from one to demon possession—whoa!"

Rose shot to her feet, her movements unnaturally smooth, her eye cold and devoid of emotion.

"Rose?" Adrian asked cautiously, backing away. "You good?"

But the woman before him wasn't Rose anymore. She was Ravager—cold, calculating, and lethal. Without a word, she lunged at him, her sword a blur of motion.

Adrian dodged, barely avoiding a slash that would have taken his head off. "Okay, yep. Definitely not good!" He rolled across the floor, grabbing his sword. Ravager didn't hesitate, her strikes were relentless. Adrian blocked and parried, but her attacks were too precise, too fast.

"Hey guys, little problem here!" Adrian shouted into his coms. "Rose is, uh... not acting like Rose anymore. Any chance of backup? No rush, just, you know, before she kills me!"

Harcourt's voice crackled in his ear. "What happened?"

"Slade injected her with something!" Adrian ducked another swing. "Now she's gone full Terminator!"

"We're on our way," Harcourt replied grimly.

Ravager kicked Adrian's legs out from under him, pinning him with her blade pressed to his throat. He saw nothing in her eyes as she pressed harder, he gripped the sword and pushed back, much like she and father did before.

"Rosie, come on," Adrian whispered, his voice trembling. Looking up at her, he was hoping something in her remembered who she really was. For a moment, something flickered in her eye—a glimmer of recognition. Or maybe that was just a blink. But he almost got to her. 

Harcourt and Peacemaker burst into the room, guns drawn. "Stand down, Ravager!" Harcourt commanded.

Ravager turned toward them, her expression unreadable. Peacemaker tackled her, slamming her into the ground. She fought viciously, slamming punches to his helmet. But he delivered a calculated strike to her temple, rendering her unconscious.

Adrian scrambled to his feet, his chest heaving. "Jesus, did you have to hit her that hard?" He walked over to Peacemaker and Harcourt, who was checking Rose's pulse.

"I was helping you!" Peacemaker shouted with a shrug, lifting Rose over his shoulder.

Harcourt finished assessing the situation, nodding to Adrian "For now, let's get her into the van, Adebayo will patch you guys up. We'll worry about Slade later." Adrian's jaw tightened as he stared at Rose's unconscious form. 

[yynumaki]

hey, im new to tumblr and i didn't that there was a request section on a persons profile so i commented a request, sorry about that lol. but maybe aidan gallagher x reader where they have anxiety and really dont like loud rooms/too many people and one day the two are on a date and she asks to go outside bc its to loud and they go outside where she starts crying and apologizing for always being so antisocial? really just fluff and socially anxious reader? you dont have to if you dont want to, thanks! :)

A/N:Thanks for the req, sorry if I cant meet your expectations, I'm pretty busy lately but hope you enjoy. Also welcome to tumblr 🥳

Everything was supposed to be perfect.

Aidan asked you out on a date on the new restaurant that just opened up a few weeks ago; Apparently its already getting hundreds of amazing reviews by the second, so he decided to get a table reserved there for the both of you to celebrate your 3rd year anniversary.

You've picked out the perfect dress, the perfect shoes, and you woke up with glowing skin which just added the cheery on top.

Though the only problem was, you didn't think there'd be this much people here.

You felt like everyone was staring at you, that everyone was judging you, but in reality they were all just minding their own business.

You were punching yourself because you were feeling it all over again, the sweatiness, the shaking, the heavy breathing. You felt spiralled.

“Hey..” Aidan asked calmly, “Are you feeling ok love?”

“Yeah—” you said in a hush tone.

Before he could even say another word you felt the room and everyone's eyes closing in on you.

“Sorry” you whispered before rushing out

Aidan spared no second thought and rushed out to catch you. When he exited the restaurant, he saw you walking away quickly while holding your arms shakily as you cried, he caught up to you fairly fast.

“Y/n” he yelled, loud enough for you to hear but not so loud that he'd get the attention of others.

You faced him, lips shaking, your cheeks soaked with tears, and your mascara smudged.

He gently held your arms as his eyes was filled with worry.

“What happened?” he asked,

“Im sorry—” you said as tears were starting to brim your eyes once more, “Im so sorry, I'm so sorry....” you continued as he hugged you.

“It was all supposed to be perfect” you held him tighter, gripping his waist to hold him closer.

“Its not tour fault sweetheart ” he hushed, lightly pulling away from your hug to wipe your stained cheeks, “Your anxiety just got the best of you, but its not your fault, I should've booked a restaurant that had kore privacy ” he sighed.

“No Aidan” you responded, “You were so thoughtful for what you did, its just that I wish I didn't have this mental stuff” you sniffed, “It keeps ruining things”

“Dont blame yourself” he quickly responded in a serious yet calm manner, “Never blame yourself, you hear me?”

You nodded as he kissed your forehead and walked you to your car.

The same night, you went back home to your shared apartment.

While Aidan was dressing out of his suit, you thought that you could atleast make it up to him by having a dinner date at home, so while he was in the shower, you decided to bake his favourite meal and dessert.

He always showered for atleast an hour so that gave you enough time to finish mid way through so he couldn't just ask you to stop and go to bed with him.

When he went downstairs, he was greeted with a stench that made his stomach grumble.

“Whats all this?” he smiled as he walked to hug you from behind.

“Dinner" you responded sweetly, “Im going to make it up to you you know” you said declaratively.

“You dont need to make up for anything sweetheart” he kissed your cheek, “Having you is all that I need”

“So you want me to stop cooking?”

“Now I didn't say that” he laughed,

“Your so cheesy Mr.Gallagher” you joked,

“Only for you Mrs.Gallagher”

“Were not married love”

"Not yet"

[forfluxsake]

a personal slash solitary blog where i publish my doodles, have hobbies, and do anything typical of the average person

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about me

if you’re wondering who i am, hi

i’m flux.

i am a male and i use he/him/she/her pronouns. that’s all you need to know to respect my existence. if you have any questions direct them to the asks feature i just enabled

what do i like doing? doodling, writing, listening to some funky tunes; learning… i’m not picky about creative activities, but i do tend to procrastinate. my hyperfixations are seasonal and i suffer from being unable to let go of past phases. the list of my interests is infinite. if you care, i enjoy a variety of indie rpgs, object shows, args slash creepypastas, webcomics, and television shows.

cartoon series pique my interest the most.

boundaries

(be my friend)

i’m a minor. this much information is self explanatory as to how you should approach me. obviously don’t interact with me if you are a nsfw age-restricted page, but also don’t attempt to send me weird asks

i don’t talk about politics.

i think being friends with me requires a lot of patience. sure, you may friend me on my discord, o5fo, but understand that i’m terrible at one on one conversation. if you don’t get straight to the point, i will most likely not respond.

preferably keep contact with me through our shared communities or mutual servers and not direct messages.

if i’ve crossed a line, i encourage people to express their discomfort. nothing is gained from radio silence. (it’s not like i’m not anxious as well LOL don’t be shy to contact me [on dis] if it’s important)

what to expect

this blog is sfw, though it’s prone to having violent and dangerous content, mostly because i’ve drawn a fair amount of works with blood or upsetting themes. be wary of who you follow, always, and take steps to protect yourself online. take advantage of the filter tool to block tags that trigger you.

i will occasionally open art requests. but i won’t do too many at a time.

i might touch on some uncomfortable topics while i’m maintaining this nostalgia-seeking blog, especially about past controversies in the communities i was in since i was a child. and depending on the post, i will treat the flaws in said communities seriously or jokingly. please do not take it the wrong way if i redraw those memories.

assume everything i say is light-hearted for the sake of everybody; spare yourself the trouble of thinking i’m trying to invalidate people’s experiences. i never want to come off that way

fanart. expect a handful of art in general. uncolored/whiteboard doodles are abundant. i have ocs- but i’m anything but organized.

that’s a wrap

i wasn’t prepared to end this post

[ravenekrops]

Happy Storyteller Saturday - what pictures of your characters do you currently have? Which characters have art, and which ones don't have art yet?

*whips out my art folder like a proud parent opens their wallet to show you pictures of their children*

to answer your question, most of them have! although not all of them are up-to-date with the design changes i've been doing to them in my head

also limiting myself with max 2 pics per character bc otherwise i'd be here forever lmaoo

okay ready? 3, 2, 1... GO!

Agnes: the refsheet is THREE years old but still holds up pretty well! main physical traits: big squarish nose, very long hair (usually tied up) and round glasses. too many drawings and doodles of her to count

Ryan: oh man, his hair. his hair. it's given me trouble from the very beginning of his conception. i'll spare you all the phases it went through lmao. main physical traits: broken nose, wide face and that little bit of chin stubble. a few drawings

Lisabel: one of my most recent OCs, so she only has these two official drawings. she uh, likes to squint a lot appearently. main physical traits: short hair, sharp nose and glasses. since i don't have a proper ref for her, i'm thinking of changing the glasses and make them a different shape to differentiate her more from her sister

Eric: i need to draw him more ;;;W;;; main physical traits: big, bald, graying beard. unsure about the scar

Léan: only this image of them exists, sorry 😔. main physical traits: short hair, braces (not depicted) and freckles (also not depicted)

Rask'r: you might recognise that werewolf form! :³ main physical traits: feathers sticking out of places where they shouldn't, red eyeshadow (natural skin color) and filed-down facial horns. another one of my go-to OCs to doodle

Raz: okay yes i like to draw men with long hair, sue me. these drawings are the very first ones i did and i haven't drawn him ever since. the fact that he looks too much like Ryan bugs me, so i may rethink his design from scratch some time in the future. main physical traits: unkempt spiky sideburns, hairy body and raggedy clothes

Donovan: another man with long hair, and another character i've only drawn once. planning on adding more undeadness to his looks. main physical traits: straight thin black hair, slightly translucent skin and clouded black eyes

Lee: oh my son! my child! my baby! my dearest boy! main physical traits: uncanny longness, very thin body, thick forelimbs, round head, hands on both arms and legs, no nose, big eyes and teeth. another of my go-to OCs to doodle :3

Vreytus: oh man. i have sooo much unfinished stuff of him. he's got these patterns on his fur that i'm never happy with, regardless of how many times i try designing them. frustrating. main physical traits: two pairs of wood-like horns, long proportions, the aforementioned patterns and a tail that's longer than his own body, ending in a tuft

Human form Vreytus: haven't drawn him yet so here goes a quick description: a tall black man with long black braids. haven't figured out his clothing but imagine something flowy with green earthy tones

Bug: another design in the oven. it's supposed to be a mix-n-match of different arthropods but i have trouble with busy designs. main physical traits: uhhh pretty much everything

Human form Bug: haven't drawn them yet, but i do have a general idea of their appearence. an androgynous short young white person with a buzzcut (not human hair, it's actually bristles lol) and black irises. dresses up very simply/poorly

Voirdity: mischievous thing. may or may not be related to unspeakable horrors. who knows! main physical traits: short, B&W palette, hidable arms, skull helmet, leathery robe, head with no eyes (ignore that one doodle), bristle mullet, zygodactil feet

Voirds (species): Voirdity's eyes. can take any avian shape. main physical traits: void-like black body with wisp/flowy elements, white legs, wings and tail feathers, skull-like head with black empty eyes

Chad: bastard. main physical traits: kept sideburns, balding, buff except for his badly scarred left arm (not pictured)

Lewis: softest man you'll ever meet. main physical traits: light-brown hair (usually on a ponytail), blue eyes, fat, unshaved stubble, frog mouth

tempted to do a lightning round of random OC art or characters that didn't make the list but i think it's been more than an hour since i started writing this post and i need a mental break hgjfdkghjfdkghd

Storyteller Saturday is on!

[feuqueerfire]

September - December 2024 Wrap-Up

A little monthly (spoilery!) wrap-up of all the shows, movies, and shorts I’ve watched or am watching in September 2024, general thoughts, and ranking of them all.

Recommendation of the month(s): TODO

Ranking

We're Both Grooms (rewatch)

How To Make Millions Before Grandma Dies

Sleep With Me (2022) = 4 Minutes

Love for Love's Sake (rewatch)

Dropped: Perfect 10 Liners

Average Rating: TODO/10

MDL Updates - Added to Watchlist: TODO from Considering

A section because I’m curious about how many shows I decide to add to my Watch List a month and also the ratio of watching them:adding them.

Title MDL (year) - (date added to Considering or finalized to Watchlist): initial reaction

Takara no Vidro - 240912: I'm a bit cautious to add a jBL series but people seemed to quite enjoy this one. Also, one of the guys (Takara?) is so, so gorgeous omg.

The Time of Fever - 240912: The ULS spin-off that people had been anticipating for so long. I didn't watch ULS but the clips I've seen of this on Twitter make me wanna watch. Seems so full of tension.

How to Make Millions Before Grandma Dies - 240912: I want to watch this in the theatres since it's showing around me! I hope it runs longer than just this week though hmm. It'd sure be something if I ended up watching this before ITSAY lol I can't believe I'd had that on my to-watch/curious list since like 2019 or whenever it came out and I heard some small buzz about it even though I wasn't in the show/movie sphere at all. The trailer was on my to-watch along with 3 Will Be Free lol.

Spare Me Your Mercy - 241208: Added it as I started watching it on-air as it's one of my most anticipated shows.

Perfect 10 Liners - 241214: Randomly started this hmm

Affair - 241221: Was into it kinda when watching the Change 2651 pilot trailers, heard good stuff about the actual show

Peaceful Property - 241221: a TayNew bromance show with ghosts and humour, I'm into it. Good reviews as well

Jack & Joker: U Steal My Heart! - 241221: One of my most highly-anticipated of the year and I am cautiously optimistic. Have heard mixed things about the actual storyline but idkk I hope I love it

Let Free the Curse of Taekwondo - 241221: Highly anticipated as it's Hwang Daseul's new BL. Hope it's good.

Love in the Big City - 241221: It's probably the biggest KBL of the year, even though it's not necessarily a BL, more like a queer drama. I wasn't planning on watching at first because it's supposed to be sad I think? But everybody seems to love it and also the main character is played by the actor who played Oh Ji Hoon in Beyond Evil!

Doku Koi: Doku mo Sugireba Koi to Naru/Love Is Like a Poison - 241221: A lawyer/con artist BL! Seems fun.

To Watch List At Start Of Month: 62

To Watch List At End Of Month: TODO

Removed from To Watch List:

Title (Year) - (date removed): reason

Rookie (2023) - 240815: The reviews aren't very good, oof

The Boyfriend (2024) - 240829: Okay, actually, I don't think I'll actually end up watching a dating show program.

End-of-the-year cleanout: Since I kinda stopped being into shows for a few months and had waning interest before then too, I think I'm gonna remove a bunch of shows that I don't seem to have interest in.

If I'm into something again, I can just add it back or watch it.

Boys Be Brave! - 241221: Heard it's disappointing

Circle (2017): not actually that into sci-fi aliens

GAP (2022): idk i keep going back and forth on this one

I Feel You Linger in the Air (2023): same as above

Lonely Girls (2024): low ass rating oh no

Merry Queer (2022): don't think I'll actually get around to this

More than Words (2022): same as above

Takara no Vidro (2024): what even is this about

The Blue Hour (2015): don't think I'll actually get around to this

The Boy Foretold by the Stars (2020): Heard it's disappointing

The Crowned Clown (2019): What is this even though and don't think I like historicals much

To The X Who Hated Me: E Jae X Woo Ri (2024): don't actually know anything about this, low rating

Currently Watching

Completely Watched

Rewatch: Boku mo Aitsu mo Shinrodesu - We’re Both Grooms

Country: Japan

Release Dates: Mar 14, 2022

Watch Via: GagaOolala (free)

Watch Status: ✅ Watched

Watch Dates: Jun 19 - 20, 2022 (#16)

Rating: 7.5/10 (Sept 1, 2024 Update: +0.5 increase from 7 after rewatch)

Overall Impression: I indeed rewatched and liked it even more. I  was even more touched this time around because of things going on in my real life. It continues to be in my jBL-movies-that-stay-with-me-with-closeted-characters, along with His (2020) and No Touching At All (2014).

tags: we’re both grooms

Also Appears In: Boku mo Aitsu mo Shinrodesu - We’re Both Grooms Live Blogging, June 2022 Wrap-Up

Sleep with Me (2022)

Country: Thailand

Release Dates: Jul 19, 2022 - Aug 15, 2022

Watch Via: GagaOolala

Watch Dates: Sept 3 - 4, 2024

Rating: 6.5/10

Overall: A great introduction to Filipino media for me! It's short (like 2 hours total probably) but didn't feel cramped, the girls were fleshed out individual characters and I enjoyed seeing them come together. I also liked their relationships with other people like Luna's fun friendship with Wendy + Harry's dynamic with her brother. They were both disabled in different ways and we saw how it affected their lives both with the outside world but also with each other. Very cute and endearing, felt very natural.

tags: sleep with me

Also Appears In: Sleep With Me Live Blogging

Rewatch: Love for Love's Sake

Country: Thailand

Release Dates: Jan 24, 2024 - Feb 1, 2024

Watch Via: ;>

Watch Dates: Sept 7 - 10, 2024

Rating: 6/10

Overall: It's alright. I think I enjoyed the middle bit a bit more this time around but I'm still not super attached to the characters and this time, I got really bored by the last quarter even though it's supposed to be really quite emotional. The rating stays the same.

tags: love for love's sake

Also Appears In: Love for Love's Sake Live Blogging

4Minutes 

Country: Thailand

Release Dates: Jul 26, 2024 - Sep 13, 2024

Watch Via: iQiyi

Watch Dates: Aug 11 - Sep 13, 2024

Rating: 6.5/10

Overall: It's a shame that the last episode was not very good and it didn't tie up things well or do anything meaningful with the 7 episodes that came before it because I quite enjoyed 7/8 eps of the show and enjoyed both the Great nad the Tonkla portions of the story. I enjoyed the characters (and how terrible they were) and what I thought was going on. It was a good Friday watch + I liked it even more when I binge rewatched eps 1 - 6 and was anticipating the show more. And yet, it feels like they didn't explore the themes and potential of the storylines enough, especially the whole 4 minutes thing. It's fine, I don't hate the show and really liked most of the show but it feels like the last ep took the wind out of it.

tags: 4 minutes

Also Appears In: 4 Minutes Ep 1 - 4, Ep 5 - Ep 6, (Ep 1 - 6 rewatch) + Ep 7, Ep 8 Live Blogging

Stopped watching shows really because I got into binging Dan and Phil new videos since Sept 10 lol So probably won't be watching that much until I get tired of catching up on the last few years of dnp content.

How to Make Millions Before Grandma Dies

Country: Thailand

Release Dates: Apr 4, 2024

Watch Via: in real-life theatre, woah

Watch Dates: Sep 21, 2024

Rating: 7/10

Overall: A Thai movie in theatres near me + includes Billikin & Tu who I know despite not having watched either of their shows + heart-wrenching family stuff, of course I was into watching it. It was great, the quality is incredible compared to most of the Thai shows I watch. The characters felt so real, the acting was great, even the set design was incredible like the houses and everything felt so lived in - I noticed dust on the sill of the cupboard and stuff, it was crafted so well. I shed a tear as it was nearing the end and I thought that would be it but for the last 10 minutes of so, tears just kept falling. Very good.

tag: how to make millions before grandma dies

Didn't watch any BL/series stuff for a long while because I'm preoccupied with Dan and Phil lol

Nov 26: Gmmtv 2025 Trailers

Me and Who: Pilot Trailer - Dec 5

omgggg i’m soooo into this, the body switch + arranged marriage + mind-reading. the hijinks they getup to are appealing. i was giggling and kicking my feet while watching loll

also haven’t watched big/park before but their chemistry is good in this trailer. i’m excited, hope the final product turns out well oof

Spare Me Your Mercy 

Country: Thailand

Release Dates: Nov 28, 2024 - Dec 25, 2024

Watch Via: ;>

Watch Dates: Dec 8 - 25, 2024

Rating: 6.5/10

Overall: Interesting plot, great acting, the writing could have been better. The romance was like... I liked it, I'm into it but I don't think they went about it in the right way. I never quite bought the depth of their emotions and toward the beginning I couldn't even properly tell when Dr. Kan went from insincere flirting to get Wasan off his tail to real emotions. I don't even know how I feel. The suspense was fun, the eagerness to find out who did what, etc. but I don't know... didn't feel complete at the end.

tags: spare me your mercy

Also Appears In: Spare Me Your Mercy Live Blogging 1 - 5, 6 - 8

Perfect 10 Liners 

Country: Thailand

Release Dates: Oct 27, 2024 - Apr 6, 2025

Watch Via: Youtube

Watch Dates: Dec 14 - 16, 2024

Rating: 5.5/10 for the first 8 eps

Overall: Suddenly felt like watching something cute and fluffy and saw a few tiktoks about this, so I decided on it even though I previously had no interest in it. It was alright lol Cute enough but forgettable but it kinda makes me more fond of ForceBook than I used to be and my ick of Force lessened. So that's good. Don't think I'll be watching the next 16 episodes tbh

tags: perfect 10 line

Also Appears In: Perfect 10 Liners Ep 1 - 8 Live Blogging

I Told Sunset about You (2020)

Country: Thailand

Release Dates: Oct 22, 2020 - Nov 19, 2020

Watch Via: Youtube

Watch Dates: Dec 23 - 25, 2024

Rating: 7/10

Overall: One of the shows that has been on my watchlist the longest, since before I was even into shows or BLs. It was beautiful to watch and you could feel the effort and thought in the storyline and characterization and plot progression and the writing. Really well done, I thought they used their runtime very well. Emotional but I don't think that I'll actually think about this show or characters much. I didn't latch onto the characters or relationship as much as I hoped or other people seemed to but it's still well-crafted regardless.

tags: itsay

Also Appears In: I Told Sunset About You Live Blogging

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GMMTV 2025 Showcase

I haven't been watching many shows recently and don't know how much I'll watch next few months either, but we'll see.

[cleighwrites]

Drabble ask...

In honour of being back after a break how about some fluff with one Sam Winchester, seeing each other after a long time apart, platonic or romantic, dealers choice.

Thank you so much!! I'm glad to be in a headspace that allows me to write for these guys again! And what a great prompt! I'm a little rusty writing short things, and maybe fluff as well, so excuse the length (944 words) and the not-quite-tooth-rotting fluff! lol

Drabble beneath the cut for tl cleanliness!

Sam walked into the diner, palms sweaty and heart racing. He did his cursory scan of the room, identifying potential threats and points of entry/exit. It took him a moment to see you, sitting in the back corner booth facing the door. 

Your hair was longer than he remembered. It suited you. As soon as your eyes met, he couldn’t help his smile. He hadn’t meant for it to be so long since you’d seen each other, but the job was the job and it kept them away for longer and longer each time he left. 

Of course, it didn’t have to. He could tell Dean about you; he’d make it a point to drive through town more often. For some reason, he was obsessed with him getting some. It had been close with Sarah in New York, but still, she wasn’t you. 

“Hey,” Sam said as he approached the booth, a wary smile on his lips. 

“Hey yourself,” you said in return, eyeing him; likely noticing that his hair had gotten longer too. 

“I hope I didn’t keep you waiting.”

You nod, eyes sliding from him to your cup of coffee. Sam was sure you were lying to spare him but said nothing. 

“Have you ordered yet?” 

You bit your bottom lip, a lip he knew well and couldn’t wait to get another taste of; if that was even in the cards anymore. He’d likely blown it this time, eight months was a long time. 

Just in time to save from any lingering awkwardness, the server arrived. 

“I’ll take water and a cobb salad, and…” he paused looking at you. “A BLT?” he asked, unsure if that was still your go-to brunch order.

“Yeah,” you said to the server. “Extra bacon, with fries,” you added.

 After the server walked away he took a deep, settling breath and smiled at you again. He couldn’t help it, seeing you again was a relief. He felt as if he’d been holding his breath for eight months, only to be able to breathe again knowing you were safe and at least willing to see him again. 

“So how’ve—” you both started at the same time. You both laugh. 

“You first,” he said, motioning for you to continue.

“I was just going to ask how you’ve been. How’s Dean, and the… job?” you add low, so no one overhears you. 

“Dean is Dean,” he said with a shrug. “And work is…exhausting.” Sam let out a long sigh. He could always tell you the truth. “I’ve been alright. You know, it was never something I wanted to get back into, but… he needs me.” Sam could feel the expression on his face morph into what Dean called his kicked-puppy-look.

You reached forward and grabbed Sam’s hand, surprising him slightly. Your tiny hand wrapped around his fingers and squeezed them tightly. 

“You’re a good man, Sam,” you told him. “Not many people would go back to a life they left, especially not after what happened with…” your voice trails off. 

“Yeah,” Sam answered, clearing his throat. He took another breath and rubbed his thumb along the back of your smooth knuckles. You had always been so soft, he couldn’t get enough of it. 

You sat staring into each other’s eyes for a long moment, then the server came back with your order. Breaking eye contact with you was a physical effort for him. He was elated that you could still share words you’d never be able to speak aloud with a single look. 

While you ate, you told him about a new job you’d started since he’d last come through town. It was more in line with what you’d studied in school, so you were happy with it. And he was happy that you’d found something that you loved to do. 

He wondered briefly what it would have been like for the two of you if he’d finished school. What sort of law he would have gone into, what level he’d be at in a firm by this point. Would y’all have a house yet, or would you be renting in the city? Would he have proposed yet? Losing Jess had been traumatic for the both of you, but you’d helped get him through it. Emailing for months while he was off hunting the yellow-eyed demon responsible for her death. 

You cleared your throat, pulling him from his thoughts. “You back with me?” you asked. 

Sam smiled again, muttered a small, “Sorry,” and then took another bite of his salad. 

Once you’d finished eating, you sat for a little longer, waiting for change from the server, just taking each other in. He couldn’t help notice how light and happy you were. He hoped it was because of him, but he was too chicken shit to ask if you were seeing anyone else. A small part of his hoped that you were; that you were taken care of and not waiting around for him to breeze through town again. 

You reach across the table again and he reaches back, taking your hand in his. “You wanna get outta here?” 

“That’d be great.” 

Once you’re outside, you walk down the street a little ways, away from the diner windows. At the corner of the sidewalk, you pull him in close and look up at him expectantly. He smiled down at you, then leaned down, meeting you halfway in a chaste kiss. 

Having your lips pressed to his once more was just what he needed. You kissed him back greedily, begging for him to deepen the kiss. Sam happily responded with vigor, pleased that you still wanted him after all this time.

[ngmn2002]

Ch 107: Random Thoughts part 1

Okaaaay, here we go! Staaaaarting with...!!!

'TAP' Hehe, my sweet boy. This first page gave me too much fluffy feelings alone. "Hmm" Tsukasa? Oh... yes! adding it to my collection later

This:

We added a new one to the collection. Yay!

Hmm... I feel bad for him. He feels like he is a bit annoyed by all the searching and only finding: bird nests & gears. Hang in there, Tsu. Much more hardships are coming your way really soon. ♡

Hmm!! My kitty boy!!! I feel sorry for my boy. He can't focus at all! Trying to get where the 'ticking' is coming from & hearing Nene's cries all together... he is already tired of searching in vain, and now ticking and a crying girl are added on top of his chest too... ahhh... Tsuuu... ♡

pffffttt... I said it, didn't I? Nene-chan is going to give you a hard time. it kinda feels like they are taking turns, last chapter he had her over the edge, now it's her turn to get back at him. how fun now I really want to see how little Tsukasa used to throw a fit as little Amane described it I wonder how little Amane used to go: my sweet lil bro ♥ recalling Tsu's fits. That's the power of love for you. XD he still got angry at him that one time when he was sick when Tsukasa went all: "let's go! let's go! let's go!" Show me that researcher T inside of you! Come on, Tsu! I know you can do it! Win Nene-chan over and have lots of fun together as I said you would!

As much as I wanted to see him carrying her like that, a piggyback don't hurt. It's close so I will take it.

Really though... his face... he looks so done. "why are you being so fussy". Indeed. This is the boy who gets annoyed once someone distracts him with what he is doing. But, ooh... Nene-chan is different. He must treat her nicely.~ "no more upside-down." "ok, here" such a good boy!!! He is trying his best to make Nene-chan calm down and 'have fun'.

^^

An upgrade! he looks done with everything there. like.. please... give me some peace I'm begging you. spare me. please be quiet. She got him twice, lol! Go Nene-chan! I'm so happy to see Tsukasa making new different faces!! I'm so here for it!! Bring it out of him!!! AHAHA I never! NEVER expected to see Tsukasa making any kind of a 'I'm done face'!!!! I realllllly wished to see him this way but my hopes weren't so high because this guy is always all 'energetic', smiley and relaxed!!! Thank you, Nene-chan!! I will forever be grateful to you!!! Researcher T wasn't this way, lol. maybe being an experienced researcher helps.

Wow... too many things in here... ok.. let's get to work...

(1) Though, I'm still grateful Tsukasa doesn't seem to take her words to heart. Because if he took that 'I hate you' literally like that time he thought Amane hates him... ehhh.... glad that doesn't seem to be the case. I'm glad he is so done to focus on any of that. He is jsut a really sensitive and emotional boy.

(2) well, that's cute. both call him that. they gave him a sharped nickname.

....

Well, can't say no to that. You have a record Tsu... just make sure to...

... just ask her to go with you normally and nicely next time.

(3)

And, (4)...

Ehh.. it's 'your' turn. Though, hehe, should I take it as the 'opposite'? ~

From this thing you can tell how much 'annoyed' he really is. lol Also, trying the same methods my boy? Not sure Nene-chan will let you have your way with her, just stay put and have it this time. Careful. Hmm. I like it how he is trying to gently put her to sleep as a way of making her 'quiet down'. He is gentle with girls after all, especially if said girl is Nene-chan~ Such a NICE guy. ♡ Ok, so now... your little game is to make Nene-chan stop crying and put her to sleep? I'm sure you can do it, Tsu! one way or another.~ he can handle it just fine when Mit 2.0 or Amane cry... hmm...

See? Told you. ♡ Though I really wonder, was Tsu playing with her or going really too easy on her? I mean... he is so fast... I don't think a little girl, even if it was Nene-chan, is a match for all his unmatched speed. ......

Anyway,

She got back at him for the hell of mirrors thingy She hit Tsukasa!!! AHAHA. Uhhh... how does it feel, Tsu? You're the one tasting that.~ from Nene-chan no less. Don't think Mit 2.0 will ever have the courage to do such thing. He will always go: yes, sir/ Tsukasa- kun scares me/ and.. eh.. as said in this chapter later. 'an obedient yes'... the after school chapter he said he got into a fight with Tsu... wonder how exactly that thing is...

Hmm... how are you doing after that punch, Tsu?

Oh, you're still so done, huh? haha I'm enjoying Tsukasa's faces this chapter way too much. ♡

Hmm... don't think older Nene would do that. At least not for now, as she sees him 'scary', or maybe it changed after this chapter? and.. ok.. Tsu's record with Nene-chan has a punch to the face, a few kicks and fists and a tea splashed into him. I see, I see.

Uhh... little Nene-chan is really cool and fearless. Shouting at Tsukasa and hitting him. Demanding what she wants. Going all out. Hmm... I love it. All of it.

How are you gonna deal with things now, Tsu?

My... she kinda talks like little Tsu... with this 'cuz'. Glad to see her recalling the information. Having Tsukasa not too bothered with what she said is eye-catching. He gets she knows this fact, from him (ch 105), and? previously his assistant, and seems to have a backup plan at mind, not too bad for my boy. He knows lots of stuff we don't. The inside of his head.~ Anddd...

He is like... 'please just stop. let's take a break'. Thinking about Nene... if she was her older self she might enjoy this grip. Now, trying this on her again, Tsu...

AHAHA. Wow... really... a lesson to never piss off little Nene-chan or make her angry. ♡

Nene-chan calling him a big bully... hmm... you don't mean that... He is nowhere near that. He is so nice. You'll see how nice he is in a few moments.~

mit 2.0... haha. how funny Never expected to see Tsu going "sheeh". lol don't think T would go like that, again Also, see? Nene-chan? He did nothing a bully would do. He is just trying to understand how to deal with you and then do things nicely. "What can I do for you to make you feel better, little one?"

exactly like in here. ♡

Uhhh!! One of the things I really enjoyed in this the chapter was to see Tsukasa talking with Kokujoudai and trying to handle stuff together!!! They seem to have asked him to babysit her! babysitting your assistant is surely a fun thing to do. what a nice master we have there ~ being a dad is pretty hard And... Tsu.. you sure? don't you babysit Mit 2.0, even now? "Do what your mom used to do". I really like Red koku this chapter. Hmm... Tsu doesn't seem to remember much from a long time ago. Though, I'm afraid I will be coming back to this... after Tsu's backstory to start crying... especially with how she might have treated him after he was 4...

After that, seems an idea came to your mind, Tsu? ♡

Not too sure about that, but it works perfectly well with you and Nene-chan. So, all is good. What a glorious page. ♡♡ Did he tie up the owl's beak? lol He is treating it like a 'horse' in there. How cool of him. Riding a big flying owl just to make a little girl happy and have fun. Such a good boy!!! See, Nene-chan? He is so nice! ♡

See, Nene-chan? See where he is ready to go to insure you're having fun? told you you'll have loooooots of fun with Tsu, after all... he has a natural talent in making things so muuuuch fun. Never a dull moment with him around! Lucky you! ♡

love how he is holding her!! "I see"... that gentle, pleased face!!! TSUUU!!! MY GOOD BOOOY!!! loooove his face!! He is so pleased to see her having fun and laughing!!! ♡

Them laughing and having fun together next!! oooh!!!!!!

the owl... it's fully tied up now and Tsu is sitting on it. lol Love their different reactions. Energetic Tsu is really so done. Seeing energetic Tsu out of energy is so funny. Love how he is sitting!!! oooh!!!

She is overjoyed Tsu!! She is so very happy!! You made her sooooo happyyyyyy!!!!!!! ♡

I'm surprised to see Tsu going like that and his "what are you, an alarm?/ how sassy (ironic)" ... I mean...

She is just like you. ♡ but you're being so done with things... sooo...

LOL. He said it!!! "I'm done" AHAHA "take over for me, Kokujoudai" aaaaaah!!! their reaction!!! I want to know from where did Red koku get that thing lol.. and blue koku... it's for a good cause. you're so good! reminds me of Teru grabbing Red koku and getting his hand burned. it's up to them who they want to be grabbed by. hehe

It seems we owe Tsu an apology. For calling him so chaotic and all... ehhh… Nene took the medal. She got him feeling so done. Though maybe, I think if the setting was different, and things were just normal, they would be going all out. Both of them.

I'm a bit confused here, so was he siniging to help her calm down or was he singing to cool off or was he singing this in particular because Nene's class was playing 'wizard of oz' and he got some nostalgic memories, or does he sing it from time to time casually or all these things together?

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Due to pic limits. Part (2)

[shamebats]

Reddit thread on topping as a gay trans guy.

Full text [NSFW] below:

It’s a great time to be a trans top

Edited to add recommendations at the end of the post!

I'm a trans dude, and 100% top, older than most of you guys, and my experience as a top in the gay male community spans 10+ years. I used to encounter a lot of idiots in Grindr who'd ask me stupid shit like "errrrr how can u be a top?" And id have to school them on the fact that YES, not only do I have a dick- I have multiple ones aside from the one hormones blessed me with. This was largely due to lack of awareness and education, which has really changed. There's still many tops that seek out trans men, but now there's a lot of bottoms that seek us out as well, and I haven't encountered that question in a long time.

I've been told by a lot of men that they prefer trans tops or switches because:

1. A prosthetic dick doesn't go soft no matter how many times we cum. Cis dick is famously finicky, but with me they don't have to worry boner killing 2. Sex with trans tops is a lot less dick-centric, meaning there's way more freaky stuff we do rather than the formulaic 5min in and out 3. Different size and shape dicks! I've had a lot of cis and trans partners that felt they could finally try anal with me bc we could start small. The size queens can get what they want too.. nobody is stuck with something that doesn't work for them. 4. Much much less risk than bottoming for cis men 5. For my trans male partners, not having to worry about birth control and chronic UTIs. 6. I've also been told by more than one guy they feel more free to explore kink and other stuff bc the trans men they've been with are generally more open-minded and less judgmental

Ill spare you guys the details here lol but there's many other things. Esp compared to last year when there was much less trans awareness in general, my DMs are popping with dudes who are bottoms or curious about bottoming and feel like their first time will be much more enjoyable and safer with a trans top. Lastly, as far as getting off - I do every time, and to be totally honest I've been so happy w my sex life the way it is, that I'm not very motivated to re-visit or explore bottoming again (and all the stuff that it comes with).

In the past I was always frustrated by how dicks are designed to be totally flat in the back with no room for my own boner! Thankfully sex toy companies are catching up and taking into account the difference between a trans male and a cis woman's anatomy. My favorite are grinders/cushions. Since these are attachments you can put on the base of most dicks, it's a great way to explore what works for you without breaking the bank and buying a whole new dick, not to mention my partners can keep getting railed by their favorite dick. The trick with the cushions is to practice by yourself, they have nice suction so u can use them as jack off sleeves and train your dick to cum in them. Some of them even vibrate. Links added at the end.

Dysphoria is a sneaky b💀tch yall, and it's always gonna be filling our heads with fears that will prevent us from so many amazing gender affirming experiences. Being a good top whether you're cis or trans takes practice, emotional intelligence, empathy, and confidence. Some of those things we as trans men have by design bc of our life experience. A cis dick doesn't mean you have those things. Anybody can have a dick, but as many of yall know, very few dudes know how to use it.

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Since I started T vibrators stopped working be of they're too small and localized but this thing vibrates your hole dick and feels really good to the receiver as well. The part where the vibe goes is dick size so it doubles as a jack off sleeve.

Here's one of my all time fave dicks (loved by everyone who I've topped) it's posable which it's great for prostate and G spot stimulation, and most importantly you can pack with it! I have the 7" version. I've def had some adventures at the leatherdaddy bar with this guy... 👀. I like it more than my $300 peecock and it's a third of the price:

Feel free to DM me, I'm an open book.

[bebx]

Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love❤

This is so lovely. Thank you! Let’s see what we have (I put the links that will direct you to each of the fics here, they are in italics and are in red);

I leave the arrow in my throbbing heart

Henry had no idea his reality of reshaping the world, after escaping the lab with Eleven, would be less of actually reshaping the world, and more of 'being Eleven's protective big brother, as well as her guardian' instead.

true love won’t desert you

"He is the monster, Henry. Not you."

Henry was standing right in front of her now, and even though he knew he was smarter than this, than to fall into Eleven's trap: she was only saying what she thought he'd want to hear, to save her friend's life. There was a part of him — a naive part — that still saw her as that nine-year-old kid who he once considered a friend. Even after she betrayed him, and turned him into this, Henry once... cared for her (and that was a mistake.)

But the way Eleven was looking at him held more than an indication of a desperate attempt to stall Max's death. She looked at him with what looked like sincerity in her eyes, the way a nine-year-old Eleven used to look at her favorite Friendly Orderly, before things reached the point of no return between them.

"You're not a monster, Henry." Eleven said, a tear rolled down her cheek. "Not to me."

like a dagger to the throat

A Papa and his wayward son. One mistake. Maybe, just maybe, they're not too far gone.

Doctor Brenner makes one last attempt to save Henry. He prays to God there's still a soul left to be saved.

blood so red on your fingers

Henry escaped the Lab with Eleven, and is living with her at Hopper's place. This doesn't mean all the problems are gone.

What Doctor Brenner leaves in his wake is the trauma Henry cannot quite escape from.

when a wolf lost its teeth

For old times' sake, Eleven decided to spare Henry's (Vecna's) life after she defeated him.

Henry was hurt, with his many wounds, and he had no place to come home to. But he still had Eleven, or so he hoped.

I.e. Eleven unexpectedly found Henry huddling in the corner of her room, looking painfully helpless.

Vecna’s Curse

Henry decided to swallow down his pride and come to Will for help. Will found Henry's request to be, understandably, messed up.

To sum it up, both Henry and Will faced their worst fear; their own issues, feelings and pain.

I know I was supposed to put 5 works here, but I kind of cheated and added an extra one here. I mean… I couldn’t help it because I feel like all of these works are my babies so yeah lol. Anyway, I’m aware they are all Henry Creel fanfics. I swear I’m so normal about this man (I’m not).

[lemonynesser]

this is a recount of my reactions throughout the following video:

“Oh! A negative Undertale review? And it was made around the time people were getting tired of it? I know a lot of popular things go through that stage where everyone hates on it for some reason, but I’m sure it has to contain a few valid points, at least.”

“Oh, the… comments are disabled. Ok, maybe he had em off by default, or he was just swarmed by rabid fans! I know the fans were a bit crazy in the early days. I’ll just look in the description, there’s usually an explanation there.”

Comments disabled because I'm very, very tired of the same old crap being said over and over, plus it's apparently against the law for a creator to comment on their own video after a certain amount of time.

“Ok, guess that settles it. [scrolls down a bit more, for curiosity’s sake]”

UPDATE: I can't say I've missed the comment section for this video one bit. Having zero interaction with Undertale fanatics, their zoomer style morals and their speaking habits has been utterly wonderful.

“…well, I’d be lying if I said this wasn’t a bit of a red flag, but I still believe you can make a good video!”

“Ok, the intro was good, and I’m glad he said he didn’t have anything against fans!”

“Good basic plot synopsis… Ah, he doesn’t like Earthbound, that explains some things.”

“Wait, he didn’t like Earthbound for its boring combat? That’s one of the things that Undertale improved on though!”

“That’s fair, gameplay is incredibly important to a game. (it’s called gameplay for a reason lol)”

“What do you mean there isn’t any depth to Undertale compared to “the average JRPG”? Aren’t most of the more traditional jrpgs just your move, enemy move, your move, enemy move ad nauseam? Honestly, I think Undertale has more depth involved, because even with your normal attack, there’s a little minigame you have to do for more damage, which changes with each weapon you equip!”

“Ok, fine, that’s one point I don’t think was that good. But hey, maybe he just plays a ton of mechanically in-depth jrpgs, and i’m uneducated, I’m willing to admit I’ve not played many jrpgs myself. Plus, I’m only a couple of minutes in, the points can only get better from here, surely!”

“Ok, that is fair, the game is pretty easy (at least on the non-geno routes), and both sparing and killing normal enemies is pretty easy too.”

“While the bosses have some of the most interesting patterns in the game, I’d say that another interesting thing in this game is when more than one enemy is in the same encounter together, so their patterns are added together. Makes for a more engaging fight, imo.”

“Firstly, Toriel is literally the first boss in the game, of course she’d be less deadly than the rest. Second, the only real mechanical differences between Papyrus capturing you, and actually killing you is you respawn somewhere else, your items don’t come back, and he remembers you lost to him. Otherwise, it’s functionally the exact same as dying. Lastly, being unable to die in the Adriel fight is meant to be an engaging ad powerful moment, but once again, it doesn’t really matter, as the fight uses a somewhat sparse checkpoint system, restarting you at the last checkpoint you hit. Which functions, once again, pretty similarly to actually dying. Only difference being you restart from in the battle itself, rather than at your save point.”

“I assume he’s talking about the sans boss fight being the only fight being somewhat challenging. But he did say it was “on the route to” the worst ending, and not at the end of it, so maybe he just misgendered Undyne? Regardless, I’d still say there are 2-3 actually challenging bosses in the game (sans, Undying, and Asgore) (also to some extent Omega Flowey but the game rigs the fight so much in your favor it’s almost funny).”

“Simple puzzles? tell that to the core spaceship puzzles lol”

“Something tougher or more inventive? Doesn’t the game come up with me puzzles and overworld things every section?”

“Glad to hear he isn’t against story. Also yeah the AA games are great.”

“That’s an interesting way of judging a game, asking yourself ‘Would I like this game if it was a person?’”

“aaand he’s just bashing on tumblr users and “sjw”s now. i will give him one thing though, he’s right, if Undertale was a person, it would use tumblr.”

“I feel like saying the games’ characters are just caricatures is a bit “missing the forest for the trees” so to speak.”

“Except some of Papyrus’s traps do work? And him being a lovable dim-witted goofball makes him a really likable character imo.”

“Surprisingly, I didn’t get a vibe of “internet savvy” from a lot of the game, except for like, Alphys and her anime stuff.”

“Oh, right, the Temmies do talk like that, which is sorta indicative of the internet I guess.”

“w

what

are you telling me,

that you don’t like sans

because he says the word

“welp”??

not only that, but you imply that the word welp is some “new fangled slang” instead of a word that’s been in use for as long as i can remember??? i feel like i just got slapped into an alternant timeline by a whole roll of salami. did i miss when “welp” was young person/internet slang or is this guy just unhinged?”

“bro… why are u comparing alphys with francis from super paper mario bro, the game is 10 ears older than ut bro. bro why are you making it about gender when they’re just different characters bro. also alphys was originally a guy iirc bro. stop making this weird bro”

“yea ur right, a lot of ppl don’t like alphys because she’s annoying (fair but still)”

“that’s the thing. if you don’t find the characters interesting or engaging on even a surface level, you are not the target audience. period.”

“actually there’s technically a few neutral endings where it’s heavily implied she kills herself, so yeah you can (technically) kill alphys …why am j even talking about this”

“the only time the game really hammers home how much of a piece of shit you are for killing monsters, is in the genò route and i’m sorry, you can call that route many things, but “self defense” is not one of them. all sans does in the neutral route is tell you the true meaning of EXP and LOVE, and asks you to reflect, before dipping and saying he’s rooting for you, (unless you killed his brother but, you litterally can’t kill papyrus before he spares you, so that kill wasn’t in self-defense either). also, you can spare enemies when you attack them enough, so attacking “in self-defense” is actually rewarded with a spare! and if the enemy is straight up allowing you to spare them, basically telling you they don’t wanna fight no more, killing them then is not in self-defense anymore. this is such a shallow point, it feels more like a gut reaction than an actual criticism”

“you make fun of people saying welp, then out of nowhere drop the word “mawkish”, that’s kinda funny. but seriously, of course the endings not gonna effect you, you fuckin moron! you aren’t attached to any of the characters! which is litterally what the story rides on!”

“the fuck do you mean ‘tries too hard’”

“boiling undertales story down to “friendship is magic” is almost as bad a take as boiling it down to “killing is bad”. plus, what? do you want games about bringing our fellow man down instead of lifting them up?”

“damn, i guess i was almost right on the money huh?”

“once again. the lesson of undertale is not just “killing is bad”, nor is it just “rpg leveling systems are bad”, good god what are you smoking, and can you tell me what it is so i can stay as far away from it as possible? thanks! the game never said you shouldn’t enjoy this type of gameplay, nor is it saying you should feel bad if you do. all it’s trying to do is answer the questions “what if i could solve these battles peacefully” and “how would rpg characters, and their world, react to you grinding them?” nothing less,”

“no. not every part of every video game is designed to be fun. sometimes it’s designed to make a point (a la ut geno route), sometimes it’s to make the player deliberately feel uncomfortable and question their actions (a la spec ops the line), sometimes it’s to exploit players into spending money on microtransactions (a la almost every mobile game ever). in short, it’s not always about the fun, whoisthisgit… it’s about the mETS BABY LOBE THE METS ALRIGHT BABY GET A HOME RU”

“wow, it’s over…”

“…”

“…damn i really hate that guy.”

i hope you enjoyed this decent into madness, i sure didn’t

if you’re ok with giving this guy like $0.0002 in ad revenue, i’d recommend watching the video while reading my comments, theyle make a lot more sense then

welp, buy

[good-beanswrites]

I DM'd you a passage from the tarot cards fic. Director's commentary, please? ^_^

Ahh this was so fun, thank you so much!! Overexplaining details in a scene my beloved >:3

I wrote all my headcanons and assumptions as if they're facts to save myself from adding "I like to think" to the beginning of every sentence, but just know that I'm aware they don't have canon backing lol. Also my commentary mentions Fuuta and Mikoto's relationship, but the whole fic is pretty vague with it. I love keeping things at the stage of comfortable kindness, where it's easy for the reader to take things both platonically and romantically depending on what headcanons they're bringing to it. It's not necessarily catering to readers since I enjoy both interpretations -- I wrote it with both in mind, and I'll reread it differently depending on the day.

(From What's that Yugioh quote about cards)

“I'm doing this to show you how these readings are just crap. Now. First card.” [Fuuta] flipped it without any of the theatrics Mikoto had enjoyed. “Hm.” He squinted at the strange picture and read the title. “We’ve got a Four of Cups.” 

Fuuta kind of did want to cheer Mikoto up, but doesn’t like how sentimental it sounds to think of it like that. Even if he did admit to himself that’s what he was doing, he wouldn’t know how to comfort him in a nice way, so he’s just picking a distracting activity and hoping it works. Also this spread was actually drawn by me irl! I had to modify one card in Fuuta’s (not telling which one though, hehe). I did consider having Mikoto draw the Hanged Man as his last card, but that felt too forced and cheesy lol

“Reversed Four of Cups,” Mikoto said before turning his gaze to the ceiling. 

“Reversed? It’s right side up to you.”

“You’re doing a reading for me?”

“Duh?” 

It might seem obvious that Fuuta was doing a reading for him given the setup/dialogue, but from Mikoto’s pov, no one’s ever done that before. In all the years he’s been doing tarot, people really just focus on their own future and how to learn tarot for their own activities. No one’s thought to do a reading for him. He’s more surprised than touched right now, though, because of how tired he is. It’ll really hit him later that night, when he realizes that this was the first time someone did that for him. 

Mikoto bit back a comment that he should have gotten to touch the cards, if that were the case. He didn’t feel like getting into it with Fuuta right now, no matter how playful a matter it may be.

Mikoto (and Yuno) are the type who don’t take Fuuta's attitude personally. They can enjoy the back-and-forth of bickering for hours without it exhausting them. Even though Mikoto didn’t experience much during the interrogation, he’d be emotionally tired out in general. Plus, I picture the process of extracting videos to be physically taxing. Something that invades and activates your neurons would definitely leave you pretty wiped afterwards. (<- girl who has too many thoughts about how the mv machine works but will spare you the explanation)

“So… it looks like in the past… you had a lot of cups… and got a weird one from the sky. Are you religious?”

“Huh? Not really.”

“Not God then. I don’t fucking know where it came from. Maybe it’s a ‘life gives you lemons’ thing. You got too much on your plate?”

Mikoto stayed silent.

I messed myself up in this upcoming section because I was too excited about figuring out the card meanings in relation to Mikoto. I should have just looked at them as they were and guessed the meanings the way that Fuuta might. It was difficult having just read this card’s specific meaning and then trying to put myself in the shoes as someone who didn’t know it😂 I left and came back to this section a lot, I wrote the fic over a few months in between other things. It helped dull my memory on the actual meaning and get into Fuuta's character more.

Also I’m adding “life gives you lemons” to the list of phrases I use in my fics knowing it’s an English phrase/idiom they definitely wouldn't use, but I liked its exact connotation so I kept it in. It's cliche and informal and someone like Fuuta would be sick of hearing it from adults. He'd know Mikoto feels the same. I debated on giving Fuuta more lines about religion here – I do think he’s starting to consider it more at this point in time – but decided it brought the fic too off-course from where I wanted it.

“Whatever. Next card… the present. This one’s upside down to you. A knight – hey, I got a knight, too, remember?”

Fuuta actually does know that the specific term is “reversed,” Mikoto just said it, but doesn’t want to seem like he cares so he doesn't use the term. Still, he doesn’t really know how being reversed changes the meaning, so he interprets the picture normally. 

Mikoto blinked. He did remember – he was shocked that Fuuta did. That reading had ended on such a sour note all those months ago. He didn’t think the other had given it another moment of thought. There came the tiniest surge of pride that Fuuta had committed it to memory.

I wanted to play around more with memory here but could never get it to work!!! Fuuta doesn’t really have any themes around memory so it wasn’t that notable that he remembered. Mikoto’s memory has holes specifically around stressful events, so it’s not impressive he remembered, either. So… despite having the perfect opportunity to talk about cool insights/emotions, it simply wasn’t a big deal -_- It still works to reveal that they both care a lot about each other, which is why I left it as is. It was a brief moment months ago, but both held onto the memory all this time.

“Damn, another cup. Well, if it does mean life keeps throwing stupid shit at you, then yeah, this prison has been the stupidest shit of them all.”

Fuuta picked up the final card. He let out a laugh. It was something mocking, but it tickled Mikoto. “Heh, you sure are a fool. That’s some outfit. Still better than yours right now.” He flicked the card at Mikoto’s chest, where it bounced off his mangled uniform. 

As someone who is completely endeared by Fuuta’s awful laugh, I think Mikoto wouldn’t mind either if it sounded teasing/cruel. Especially after all the pain Fuuta’s been through T2, Mikoto probably didn’t hear him laugh in a very long time, and the sound can be contagious. I always wonder about Mikoto's uniform... was like that from his fight with Kotoko, or just from John wrecking his room? Is it like that all of T2, or does Es gives him a replacement? I felt like he would be cleaned up by the time his interrogation rolled around, but his album art is just as much of a mess, so I guess ratty uniform it is...

Mikoto retrieved the card. He sat up as he returned it to the spread. He studied them. 

Mikoto was enjoying Fuuta’s version of the cards, but didn’t have the energy to read them along with him. This is the first time he taps into his own knowledge of the tarot meanings and realizes what a good spread it actually is. I wanted to linger here in this moment more, but everything I wrote became too “telling.” As the fic was from Mikoto’s pov, I felt like I’d need to take the reader through what he was thinking about in the silence. That ended up defeating the purpose of the peaceful moment lol

He allowed himself a small smile. “So,” he asked, “what’s it all mean?”

Fuuta scowled. “I just told you what it meant.”

“No, now you look at the big picture.” Mikoto shook his head. “You left before I could finish your reading, but you’re supposed to look at everything together and make a plan for the future. I… I still remember yours. I was going to tell you to mind your emotions, and prepare for a big change coming quickly. But uh…” he rubbed the back of his neck. “Guess it’s a little late for that, huh?”

“A little.”

Once again wishing I could do more with memory given that Mikoto still remembers Fuuta’s exact reading after so many months, and once again leaving it as a testament to his relationship with Fuuta. I can only hope it speaks for itself when looking at the fic normally ;--; I still haven’t decided if that last line from Fuuta should be read as an angry snap or a disappointed whisper. He’s still very bitter about his situation, and the fact that Mikoto is telling him to ‘mind his emotions’ and reminding him of his pain are enough to make him lash out. At the same time, maybe bringing it all up makes him recognize that his hot temper did caused him harm, several times. He can hear how genuinely Mikoto speaks, and feels guilty for treating him so harshly then. I go back and forth depending on my own mood…

“So, to finish off my reading, what advice do you give me based on these?” 

Fuuta made a show of rolling his eyes and huffing, as if this hadn’t been his idea to begin with.

My favorite way to write Fuuta is having him do something nice, and then immediately get mad at the other person because suddenly he’s embarrassed about it.

 “This is so lame. My advice…?” He jabbed a finger at The Fool. “Don’t do anything fucking stupid in the future.”

I originally wrote out a bit of a longer speech of advice, with Fuuta mentioning how he knows school/work can be overwhelming, and this prison is overwhelming, and not to do anything in the future because there are people relying on him. Fuuta was relying on him. It was a bit vulnerable and finally explicitly mentioned his feelings towards Mikoto. I read it back, heaved a sigh, said “he wouldn’t fucking say that,” and cut it down to just this line 👍I'm not too disappointed, though, since Mikoto can see right through Fuuta (both with his people skills and the fact that Fuuta is very obvious about his emotions). Anything he would have confessed, Mikoto already knows.  

Mikoto looked from him to the cards, then back again.

“...That’s it?”

“What more do you want?” Fuuta raised his voice, and Mikoto found it in him to laugh. 

Mikoto also hasn’t laughed (genuinely) all of T2 :( This one starts off kind of forced – he had to “find it in him” to play along with the way a conversation is supposed to go. But it feels natural once he does, and the next time I mention his attitude he feels “back to his old self.” In this moment he’s considering antagonizing Fuuta by teasing his advice, asking for more, or just poking at his temper. He chooses not to. Instead of avoiding their bickering because he’s tired, he cuts Fuuta a break because he’s really grateful for the kind gesture.

“Alright, alright, I’ll take it.”