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16 classmates means 256 potential dynamics to explore if we only consider 1 on 1 interactions (which i will! ...until this sentence ends) and that means 256 drawings. considering that group interactions exist and it can be any combo that is... a way larger number.
i have 2 hands, 0 time and too much ambition!!
haha! oh no.
#i would like to live my life and also fundematally tear apart my hpfxtn from the inside out and roll in its guts#that's not really possible unfortunately#because TIME#bitches love to hate on me for “quality over quantity uwu” which is valid as FUCK babe you do you#i need to do me and me wants to be engulfed in the concept of interaction. yes specifically through ship art.#that means gotta go fast.#as in. i get told a lot i should not try to improve my drawing speed because i draw fast enough. they fail to consider that i want to!!!!#my brain is an enigma to me too im a barely functioning human if me having social competence comes in the form of free art then#my therapist is gonna make so much fun of me i guess#/lh#mind you. this here talking to myself? this is all silly bullshit ego. i know very well whatever i WANT to do ill end up drawing koquichechi#“ok me we made a plan to practice drawing subtle understated emotions with charact-” “what if we drew koquichechi slapstick instead”#“but the PLAN??” “look at that. it's koquichechi.”#and then i babysit myself into FORCING myself to draw shit i want to draw and would enjoy drawing but it takes SO LONG#an doing things that take time *takes time*. outrageous. how dare you. i hate it. (bla bla bla time is an illusion i KNOW)#and im still figuring out subtle. groooooaaaaaaannnnnnnnn!!!!!!!#eh whatevs!#whether i make ANY of my bullshit projects real or not what matters is having fun with it before i die /lh#its gonna be okay#*yearning* i just think itd be cool!!#shut up maiora#rambling#i get threatened with violence constantly by art friends. they're so completely right.#anyway tell me all about your rare-pairs if you want!! i might scribble em in my free time :>#(use the ask box)#(yes platonic too!)#(i think itd be fun 👉👈)#(i wanna hear people's thoughts!!)#(might be done in pencil ^^')#(im getting distracted HAVE A NICE DAY BUHBYE)
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i think what saves me from a lot of discourse is that i'm simply Not Reading All That
#sometimes that means i miss really good posts unfortunately#until every now & then i get an extra neurotypical braincell for like 10 min and i read a good post#jk i'm still in denial about possibly having adhd
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now that I can think semi-coherently again...whooooo's ready for Friday WEEHOO
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#stage in playful land#stage in playfulland#i've only had gidel for a day and a half et cetera you know the rest#guidel? gider? ah yes. what's that romanization. my favorite game#i'm gonna go with fellow and gidel until something official comes out i guess#anyway HEY it's spooky carnival time where everybody wears hats and then probably turns into puppets or something! i'm excited!#yuu and grim are probably going to be there also which means it doesn't canonically take place during glorious masquerade#which is unfortunate because that really is the most hilarious possibility#ace and deuce in unison: ugh you won't BELIEVE what happened while you were gone#these boys cannot just have one nice day without someone trying to take over the school or destroy all magic forever or something#such is life in twisted wonderland
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("Always. Continuously. With increasing apprehension, and decreasing hope. I will love you if I never see you again, and I will love you if I see you every Tuesday. I will love you as a corpse loves the beak of the vulture. I will love you no matter what happens to you, and no matter how I discover what happens to you, and no matter what happens to me as I discover this." -- paraphrased from The Beatrice Letters, Lemony Snicket)
#svsss#bingqiu#luo binghe#shen qingqiu#lbh#sqq#i've been working through the series of unfortunate events and somehow that series has paired really nicely with svsss#the themes of cycling violence and what's justified and what isn't and what can possibly be done differently#and how trying to bring love and honour into the midst of it really changes nothing but also changes everything#it's just *chef's kiss*#i don't know how i can quite do my thoughts justice but i've spent the past few weeks quietly going between the two series (and mdzs and tg#as well if we're being honest they all hit similar questions and themes) and just reveling in the pain and ambiguity of it#everything is interconnected and it means you can never know what trauma and pain and necessity has shaped a person#each story goes too far back to ever ever EVER possibly see the full extent of it#at that level even communication itself is nearly impossible.#and because of that it's almost impossible to change anything. beat yourself apart and the outcome is the same#and yet ATTEMPTING to change things ATTEMPTING to do the kind thing the honourable thing is absolutely critical#because while you can change nothing you also have the capacity to change EVERYTHING#aaaaaaah i don't even know what i'm saying#but i read the beatrice letters today and the love letter just. killed me.#(obviously i cherrypicked some lines because it's three pages long but those ones felt right)#''i love you like a corpse loves a vulture's beak'' i just. can't get over that line.#to be completely changed. altered. destroyed. redeemed. purified. desecrated. reduced to nothing yet entirely necessary for another's life.#what a FUCKING line#anyway i was either going to blow up from thinking about it or else i had to exorcise it via art from an entirely different series#i've already done svsss and discworld why not throw a series of unfortunate events into the mix#i'll be honest folks i did not expect svsss to be the mxtx series that would fuck me up the most about the main ship#bingqiu is something else. i don't even know how to begin to approach my feelings on it. impossibility and necessity all at once#bizarre#my art
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Gaslight, Gatekeep, Girl found dead in a hidden room.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#lan xichen#jin guangyao#jiang cheng#wei wuxian#qin su#EDIT: Tumblr published an earlier draft with only half the notes I wrote so: late entry on my JGY thoughts.#Unlike the mystic powers of the stockmarket (what the OG meme is referring to) I think this situation calls for more active investigation.#qin su is such a deeply tragic character to me and I really wish we got a bit more from her.#Love everyone who sent me messages about her after the last time she appeared.#I think she needs a spin off of her being a transmigrator SO badly.#MDZS has so many interesting characters - but it sometimes fails to give them the proper room to really develop past a role in the plot.#That's just the consequence of writing a story like MDZS. Not every character in a book *needs* to have a rich inner life and backstory!#To do so would bog down the story and obliterate any notion of pacing. It's just not possible.#Jin Guangyao (nee Meng Yao) is unfortunately not free from this leeway rule. He is the culprit of this murder mystery plot#and thus NEEDS to encapsulate the themes of the book. And personally he's a 7 out of 10 at best on this front (in the AD).#MDZS is about rumours twisting reality and working towards truth. And about how people & situations are rarely ever black & white#JGY has his motivations. He's well written in regards to his actions making sense for his character.#What started as good traits (drive to succeed & improve his image) became twisted over time (do anything to maintain his image)#and it's a good parallel to WWX! He has the same arc (with different traits)! Bonus points for IGY in that regard.#but man....by the time we confront this guy for murder there's not a lot of grey morality. He's just...deep in the hole *he* dug.#There's a beautiful tragedy to it! More on JGY in later comics - this is getting pretty long already!
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BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER 7x01 | “Lessons”
#btvsedit#btvs#buffythevampireslayeredit#buffy the vampire slayer#creations#buffyseries#buffysource#dailybtvs#slayerdaily#dawn summers#buffy summers#as we head into the home stretch i am going to preface that i am an s7 hater. outside of the spuffy content mama this season is garbage#HOWEVER. COMMA BUT.#rewatching this episode i thought this was way better than i remembered#like for a season opener it's still low- but i'd rank is similarly to welcome to the hellmouth or when she was bad#so it's a decent buffy episode.#i thought the reopening of SD high works better in this episode than for the rest of the entire season#and after the events of 'grave' this episode gives me exactly what i wanted in terms of the dawn/buffy dynamic#it's very unfortunate that the rest of the season doesn't really carry on buffy's promise to show dawn the world#but this premiere really captures that essence#rewatching this episode did lure me into a false thought that i had possibly misjudged s7. then i watched beneath you right after and went.#no. still bad.
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I’m pretty sure Mike and El are the only couple in the show that don’t have shared interests.
Lucas and Max: Arcade games
Dustin and Suzie: Science/Technology
Jonathan and Nancy: Documenting life (Through Photography/Journalism)
Joyce and Hopper: Investigation (Hop was a cop, Joyce is Joyce) +caring for their kids
Mike and El are never given any interest that they both have and do together. Their relationship isn’t even given much volume beyond their trauma bonding. They actually went out of their way to have El dismissing Mike’s interests and only have El gain her own when she’s away from Mike.
With every other couple we have scenes of their shared interests adding to their relationship. Scenes that prove that their dynamic is rooted in a real, not-purely-physical connection.
There is one other couple who didn’t have shared interests… (*cough* Steve and Nancy *cough* who are broken up *cough*).
Mike and Will by default have a lot of shared interests. They’d be the only best friends to lovers in the show (which is actually crazy in a show with so many couples and friendships). DnD, despite being the root of the party itself, is specifically tied to these two in an interesting way. They’ve used dnd a few times as text above a more romantic subtext, which I feel like deserves its own post.
(I feel like it’s worth noting that technically they have Art (writing and painting), but Mike’s interest in writing has never been specifically confirmed in the show, so I’m not counting that.)
I’d be really interested in seeing canon byler having an isolated interest in season 5 that goes beyond subtext. Even if it’s still dnd, just isolated.
#byler#byler endgame#anti mileven#i may be one of the few people who never shipped milkvan#its always felt like it was trying so hard to be romantic that it just felt shallow#just to be clear im not hating on anyone who has ever or still does ship them#to each their own#all the possibilities for the byler shared interests though#theyre so cute stop#they could make comics together#i feel like st is really pushing how important it is to be friends with your partner#(and how harmful forced conformity is)#unfortunately i couldnt include robin and vickie cause theyre not canon yet#i actually cant wait to see their dynamic fleshed out in s5
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Ok this is something I noticed before but the implications didn't really fully click until my... third watch? Plus 2nd manga read. Geez. But anyways
[ID: A screenshot from the 2011 Hunter x Hunter anime. Three Greed Island cards are shown over a blue background; the middle card being slightly bigger in the lineup. From left to right, they are Patch of Shore, Paladin's Necklace, and Blue Planet. End ID.]
At the end of Greed Island, the trio decide to take one card for each of them out of the game. Bisky takes Blue Planet, as was her original goal, but Gon and Killua's cards are the Paladin's Necklace and a transformed Accompany, respectively.
Reflecting their bond, their cards require the presence of the other to be truly useful. The Accompany cannot be taken as is. The Paladin's Necklace does nothing on its own. All of this is so that Gon can meet Ging, which Killua puts his card towards instead of something specifically for him alone (prioritizing Gon as usual), but it's also an Accompany, which is the only means in which they can stay together - their mutual want.
But it goes deeper than that. I wondered about the Accompany being transformed specifically into Patch of Shore before when it could've been any restricted slot card, but there is so much else going on at the end of the arc that my thoughts basically stopped at "well it's an odd card with no clear use" and "it's a card the protagonists spent a good deal of time working towards getting, so it's a recognizable callback to the audience" but oh man.
Gon probably would've been the one to transform that card. His card is the Paladin's Necklace, and that makes Killua's the Accompany. Disguising it as Patch of Shore, where Killua injured his hands, where Gon said that it has to be him, not only makes that card unequivocally Killua's, but also makes me think that this is some quiet way of Gon to show his appreciation for him.
The Accompany is his idea, after all, which says "I want you with me". Transforming it into Patch of Shore though, says "I don’t want to/I can’t do this without you."
#it's late so it's entirely possible i'm reading into it too much#but my mom (who just watched it) agreed with me so maybe i really am on to something#hunter x hunter#hxh#gon freecss#killua zoldyck#bisky krueger#at the same time this is unfortunately unwitting encouragement of killua putting gon over himself again and again.#gon obviously does not know this but. yeah.#storyrambles#killugon
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Kingdom Hearts 2 - The World That Never Was
#kingdom hearts 2#kh2#the world that never was#my gif#scenery#<- new tag :] check it out to view all of my gifs that showcase kh worlds#OKAY finally done giffing every world in this game#these take a lot of time and effort but it's worth it i think! they're fun to browse through#this world was really difficult because even though it has an amazing aesthetic a lot of these rooms are basically just hallways#BUT#the sheer scope of these rooms is VERY impressive#what i mean is if you're able to pull the camera out or take a moment to look out the windows you'll see just how much of#the castle and surrounding environment you can see. seriously it's huge and there's a lot you might have never known was there#unfortunately though it was not possible for me to capture a whole lot of that because the in game first person camera can only do so much
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got any tips/advice for the way you draw characters? i really, really like the way you draw their proportions and anatomy in that cute cartoony style, and i myself can never figure out a consistent way to do the same :')
unfortunately i am the op of This post
#the monarch’s court#unfortunately it’s just a lot of fucking around and finding out!! sometimes it takes years#if it helps i don’t really feel like my art is consistent either :( but that’s bc I Am the one drawing it !#you usually get In Your Own Head when you do art ! onlookers will just think ‘art pretty’ You will think ‘well that looks wonky’#possibly bc you’ve been looking at it for a while !
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IT CAME TO ME IN A VISION
#born to draw from memory but forced to use references this ( 1 ) time#also used my normal colouring style for once ..i usually try to imitate the webcomic artstyle when drawing hs#ft sickly victorian child kk#my art#homestuck#homestuck fanart#karkat vantas#tavros nitram#tavkat#tavkar#WHAT DO YOU CALL THIS .regardless i think its really cute#i was just liiike idk .i blinked#ok but like seriously . i think they would work but in the weirdest way possible#unfortunately i am Allergic to explaining anything ever
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"you never bother to find out what it does to someone, being stuffed in a stone box for weeks, or months, or even years?"
i seriously hope that this wasn't just a throw-away line they put in the show except it probably was, that they make the decision to touch upon what happened to her, and that we can see her heal from it
#arcane#vi#egg gifs#her trauma and inner demons are likely equally as unique and haunting as jinx's#and i don't think her experience should be understated#i wanna see more of vi's please#the one thing that i find really unfortunate about this show (and shows in general) is how short they are#i would have killed to see moments that we didn't see on screen#like what happened between caitlyn and vi on the boat from stillwater#i really want to see what jinx was doing or possibly saying while preparing for the tea party#just stuff like that i dunno#filler episodes come back i need you </3
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My instructor for my German class copied me on a communication with my academic advisor about my attendance issues and I get it, I get that I've missed a lot of class and that instructors are frustrated by that, but I genuinely don't know what I'm supposed to do when the problem is that I've been physically unable to wake up most mornings for the last several weeks.
Like I've had similar issues before, but it's so much worse this semester (my class isn't until 10:10am, and I live a 30-40 minute train ride from campus, but that's still not that early). I specifically took this class--at this time too--because I thought it was late enough that it wouldn't be an issue, and now I'm probably going to have to end up in a meeting with her and my advisor where I bawl my eyes out about how I really am trying, and that I know it sounds like the worst excuse ever but I swear I'm not just being lazy or skipping class on purpose.
And it makes me terrified for the future, where I might have jobs where I can't set my own schedule, and especially because when your partner ended up suddenly and mysteriously sick with tired-all-the-time-to-the-point-of-being-mostly-bedbound disease, having your own fatigue issues is incredibly scary and traumatizing. We're already in such a precarious situation, we cannot afford my health going south, too.
I don't know. I'm scared and stressed about this specific scenario, but also about, like, life in general, and feeling pretty miserable.
#i genuinely don't know what's wrong with me. like it's probably in part POTS-related but#that's unfortunately also the least helpful explanation ever because there isn't really a ton that i can do about it#and i need a real solution that makes it possible for me to actually go to school and work#because otherwise i am in so much trouble#i don't know. i really am getting worried that i'm going to hit a breaking point soon. this semester has been. not great#and i haven't even started in earnest on my grad school applications that need to be done in like. a month#but like. i am barely staying afloat. when am i going to have time#anyway. suspect i will be crying a lot this week
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Something I've been thinking a lot about lately is how everyone thought Egon had gone insane. What Happened that made them think that. They've fought a gigantic Stay Puft Marshmellow Man TWICE (counting the 2009 video game because iirc it's canon? Correct me if I'm wrong), fought an interdimensional god, fought a blood thirsty ruler that killed thousands and was hated by all that was trapped in a painting (and managed to get in to beat him by making THE STATUE OF LIBERTY start walking down the street with slime that reacted purely based on vibes), found an underground abandoned transit system full of the moodslime, had a bathtub try to eat Dana and her baby, fought a giant murderous black widow lady, fought the fisherman ghost who turned an entire hotel floor into the bottom of a ocean, and that's not even mentioning them getting trapped on an island that randomly raised up from underwater that had been abandoned for decades created by Ivor Shandor who worshipped Gozer. So what did he do or say that made everyone else think he'd gone insane?? All I can think is maybe he was acting strange / eratic before, but he's always been like that to some degree.
I don't know. It's something that I've been thinking about. The correct answer is 'it's not that deep and they needed a reason that the others weren't together anymore and weren't aware of Egons death or know what was going on,' but also. What Was He Saying that prompted everyone, including Ray, to think he lost his mind when he'd been right almost every time before that.
I'm genuinely so curious as to what he was up to before this. What was he doing. What insane idea was working on prior to this or was he even working on anything at all??
Also want to clarify this post isn't negative 😭 I really love the newer movies and their lore / the newer storyline / characters, I just like thinking about small stupid things like this. Gives me something to think about / speculate about / figure out an answer to.
#ghostbusters#egon spengler#nikolas posts#I have so many thoughts on it because I've just been rewatching the two movies on loop for the past few days.#All we got was Ray saying that he'd started talking about the end of the world (IIRC) and that he went insane and took everything#when he eventually left to deal with it on his own#which for the record it's extremely impressive that he would've stopped Gozer from returning BY HIMSELF. The only reason it hadn't worked#was because of the electricity issue#Hiding all the traps and setting up the proton packs to fire at the hell pit?? Insanity. He's just on a complete different level of existin#Like they were aware of Ivor Shandor and his plans long before??? They found his ISLAND DEDICATED TO GOZER who had full intention of#BRINGING THEM BACK#it's really Really REALLY not this deep but I have thoughts and I wanted to share them. Maybe someone else might have an idea I#couldn't think of or might have something to add.#I guess it could be a 'they beat Gozer once and assumed they were gone' but that wasn't the first time Gozer 'died' so??#if I missed something Please tell me. I haven't watched the newer movies as much as the older ones (I grew up watching them / playing#the game so I'm more familiar with the older lore and haven't had the chance to rewatch the newer ones 1000 times over unfortunately)#so it's entirely possible I missed something#I'd think maybe it was just because they were older but I really don't think thats the case. I have reasoning for it but I need to do#the math to make sure I'm getting the ages right by the time AfterLife happens.#really need to make a chart / timeline of all the events that happened and what year / month / day they happened. That's a project#for tomorrow perhaps.#anyways if anyones reading this sorry for the insane rambling and congrats for making it to the end#also this post isn't negative I adore the newer movies so much. I love them a lot and I genuinely don't really care about this at all#just a thing to think / ponder / speculate about if that makes sense#I enjoy thinking about stupid irrelevant stuff like this#so so so many thoughts
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#riv rambles#I need to know#I am 😔 unfortunately in the second category 😔#a fic could be beautifully written and very talent filled work but#idk I have a distinct vision of a character that I simply can’t find myself deviating from#and ofc everyone is allowed their own interpretations but#I simply have a hard time enjoying things that aren’t how I envision them#it’s a curse really#😔#so anyway I just wanted to know if I’m mentally ill or if this is a more common thing#I could just be completely irrational in my fic reading habits tbh#that’s very possible
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help
#i stg being that cute has got to be illegal somewhere#i didn't think it would be possible to make her look even better but here we are#interestingly enough#now that i've played some more actual game instead of just photo modeing my way through ikrie's quest#they didn't change all that much about her animations#quite possibly because they were already at the higher end of what the original game had to offer since TFW was already an improvement#and as much as it pains me to say this#in the end it's really just a minor side quest out in the middle of nowhere a lot of people will probably never play#(you should tho! absolutely worth it. go to keener's rock and enjoy)#so compared to what they did with the dialogue in the main game#this remains pretty much the same#however.#i think it might be due to the updated face models so animations translate a little differently#there seems to be a little more nuance to some expressions#...unfortunately somewhat at the cost of That iconic smirk#oh well. can't have everything#i LOVE how she looks now though this is pretty much what i had in my head the entire time#ikrie#horizon zero dawn#hzd remaster
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