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#didn't have a big party for my 30th for reasons that were partly distance and partly insecurities/depression#this year being back closer to where my people are decided to do a big party instead this weekend#my first since my 21st (which was... a struggle for also distance related reasons and may have reinforced said insecurities)#i am having to remind myself. i am doing my best none of us get to practice this life#interrupting this to say i just mindlessly slapped at a tickle on my arm only to discover it was HUGE#not the sandflies we've been getting all day but a moth or something at least a cm big! (i grabbed it and threw it away without looking)#anyway. what was i saying. having a little moment where my insecurities are coming back in the middle of the night#and i wonder if i have - again - asked for less than i truly want because i didn't feel like anyone would give the full thing to me#but the point is: i asked for something i wanted and that's something that takes practice. and the point is: i get to try again next year a#d next year and next year. and the point is: we only live this life once but it is not a short life and there will be more chances#to celebrate with the people i love. to ask for what i want. to learn to listen to what i actually want before i make myself smaller out#of habit#but i DID ask for a party and i DID ask for someone who isn't me to host it (a thing i haven't asked for since probably my 21st tbh) and#that's already growth#and it will be fun! i'm a bit sad that no one from my most recent chapter of life can be there but it's no secret that social was hard ther#so i only have 3 friends i wanted to invite anyway and all of them live several hours away#(and one of them i knew couldn't come already when i planned it - she's at a hens party - but we talked about it and decided to go ahead)#idk. really it's ok. but part of why i'm doing this is as a challenge to my own insecurities (as well as because it will be fun!) and i#really pray this year will see some of those insecurities dwindling. that i will be able to really believe that i am lovable and loved.#that's my prayer.
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re: that fucking staff post. obviously death to algorithms, but i also wanna interrogate the wider underlying assumptions of their logic there cuz. is 'success' having lots of followers & lots of popular posts??? why is that the end goal of using this website. i don't open tumblr to get attention from strangers, i open tumblr to read funny jokes and interesting commentary and to see cool art. encouraging clout-chasing will only increase user engagement if you successfully get people literally addicted to the associated dopamine hit. what if we didn't have to do that!!! what if a website could be a place you went to on purpose because you had fun there!!!!
#yelling at clouds#you cannot be tiktok. we already have tiktok.#there is a limited number of people on this earth with smart phones and the free time to rot their brains online#your goal cannot be Endless Growth you stupid fucking capitalists#like sure the site is confusing at first. because you have to learn how to use it.#be better at explaining it do not fundamentally change it there is no such thing as universally intuitive design
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I know some people think that Emily's desire to play another character instead of Fig was the reason why she was so all over the place and lost, especially in the first half of JY.
But I honestly feel like her arc was actually incredibly needed and necessary to close her character evolution in a satisfying way. (While still leaving open doors for possible future plots with the Dawn and Sandra Lynn stuff)
Fig has been struggling to find herself since the first moment. She has had to come to terms with being a completely different race than what she thought before and deal with all the consequences of that. She had to grow out of the toxic habits that were born out of her deeply rooted insecurities that finding out about her identity and lineage caused. She had to learn to be kinder to herself. I love sophomore year, it's my favorite season for so many reasons, but I feel like Fig's arc in JY was actually her best one.
Fig being so lonely at the start of the show and her innate devotion made her becoming so focused on holding others' needs over her own an inevitability. She was always aimlessly moving through life, so talented and gifted in many ways but with no real purpose outside of being the protector.
The way JY explored her struggles with introspection and her need to devote herself to others to such an extent that she ignored a curse on herself for far too long was beautiful.
Finding Ankarna, becoming a paladin of dawn and justice and coming to a point where she could let herself choose what felt right instead of what her friends needed was incredible to watch.
I feel like Junior Year gets a lot of criticism because the overall vibe from the IH was lighter and they were having a lot of fun throughout, but the story of the season was actually beautiful to me and the overall character work was so interesting.
#when it comes to characters' arc i feel like fig gorgug and kristen took the cake in jy and they did the work wonderfully#i have already talked abt how much i get kristen and how i get her journe even tho it is frustrating to witness#fig and kristen both needed wake up calls to understand where they wanted to go with their life#and i love how they found growth while walking on a somewhat parallel track with their married goddesses#i could talk about the IH characters and campaigns forever#d20#dimension 20#fantasy high#fhjy#fig faeth#fantasy high junior year#yapping time
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hello please click images for better quality oh my god tumblr whyy
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maria shows shadow how to play dress-up (she's always wanted to do it with someone else)
thank u @fly-sky-high-09 for the request, i had a lot of fun with this hehe
#monotoneart#sonic the hedgehog#sonic#shadow the hedgehog#maria robotnik#ark siblings#this is supposed to take place not long after shadow was released from. whatever growth pod thingy he was in#hence the lack of inhibitor rings#there's actually a /lot/ more i wanted to add to this but i decided that i should. probably calm down a little.#this was already getting to be pretty long aha#there's other stuff i gotta draw but. hand twitches closer to the comic canvas. NO.#anyway i think about their dynamic a lot and i love them very much and im going to die#maria taught shadow how to be a person. shadow taught maria how to be a kid.#do you understand me. shaking you by the shoulders. do you see my vision.#i should make a post just talking about that or my head is going to explode
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I don't wanna further hijack that poor poll, but the thing about Harrow's schizophrenia is that it's canon. The author has confirmed it, and shared that it's based on her own experience.
It's a pretty obscure bit of canon, so of course there's no shame in not already knowing, but that's why I'm so obnoxiously persistent about letting people know.
Whatever else is up with Harrow, autism or cptsd or any number of likely headcanons, she is also schizophrenic. I feel like that's too important to be handwaved away as a difference of opinion.
#like of course not everyone knows I'm not the kind of asshole who gets mad about someone not having heard about an unrecorded con panel#not knowing is one thing#erasing or ignoring that aspect of her is something completely different#like yeah she's incredibly relateable in that way#and I know how comforting it can be to project your own dx onto someone and go 'wow shes just like me fr'#but I really feel like doing that re: Harrow's schizophrenia is a huge lost opportunity for growth#and I hate that the takeaway for so many people is 'Harrow is autistic'#and not 'oh cool didn't know autism and schizophrenia had so much overlap in experience'#relate to psychotic people without flinching challenge#anyway. tl;dr:#if you didn't already know then I have the coolest new fun fact about Harrow to share with you!!#if you do already know but have elicted to ignore it then a little bit fuck you actually#but I will ALWAYS assume someone didn't know before assuming they're being a dick#the locked tomb#harrow nonagesimus#harrowhark nonagesimus#harrow the ninth
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Futamono Flower Meaning
So you're telling me that the very night after Will whore Graham sent someone to murder Hannibal simp Lecter, the man created this?!
#will graham#hannibal#hannibal lecter#murder husbands#hannigram#nbc hannibal#hannibal is a simp#SUCH a simp#“oh? you sent someone to slit my wrists at a swimming pool?”#*instant heart eyes*#also#can we just#talk about these flower meanings for a sec?!#cause like#everlasting love and passion and affection and all that#we already knew#but resilience?!#caution?!#forgiveness?!#hope?!#graTITUDE?!?!#this man straight up almost died#and here's out here#planting a garden#to celebrate his future lover's attempted murder#because “growth” is making him think Will is finally accepting his darker side#and “desire” is him lusting after it#and “everlasting love?!” not just love but everlASTING#this man has it SO bad#it's embarassing
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And it’s because of you that I realized this all-kill means more than just keeping MARS alive. It’s about saving ourselves from this world. MARS will conquer the world that tells us to rush, that tells us to abandon each other to be number one. But we will prove that we are the group that will walk together, supporting each other from behind, being a safe zone when we need comfort, a cushion to support us when we fail and rise again, just like what you’ve done for me. And because of you, MARS is rebuilt with that meaning.
ThamePo Heart That Skips a Beat | Ep.12
#thamepo heart that skips a beat#thamepo series#thamepo#thame po#thamepoedit#*gifs#april.gif#tw: bright light#MARS#LYKN#mars x po#william jakrapatr#nut thanat#hong pichetpong#lego rapeepong#tui chayatorn#est supha#my favorite moment number 3 of ep12#i might just be making excuses to gif these scenes and put that very segment of thame's letter as the caption#because mars really got my heart here. they're an important part of thamepo's story and growth and also vive versa.#and i love their bonding so much (did you get bored already that i said this every other post/reblog)#not sure if this is a good time to post something. since it's noon at my place but maybe late night to very early morning elsewhere. well..
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It seems like Williams was meant to be his home all along 🥹🥹
#ofc carlos is holding the snake's tail and alex the head 🤣🤣#i wish all the growth and success to williams they deserve it all#alex deserves to stand on podium soon#i absolutely love this team already#the vibes are just so positive#the way carlos looks so much younger than he did in ferrari says it all#carlos sainz jr#carlos sainz#alex albon#carbono#carbon#carlex#bonsai#williams racing#f1#formula 1
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Old habits die hard







#jrwi riptide#just roll with it#just roll with it riptide#gillion tidestrider#gillion jrwi#jrwi spoilers#jrwi riptide spoilers#this is so messy forgive me#I would say I’ll clean it up but#no I won’t#ooooooo I want an undersea arc so baddddddd#whether or not there’s a whole war or a takeover has already happened#I wanna go under da watah#I wanna see the elders BURNNNN#I know that the dunjon arc happened but I feel like some personal hellscape growth would be challenged by seeing them face to face#anyway#catch me crying in the club over gill#at all times always#tv’s art
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One of my first digital pieces (2010) versus one of my recent ones (2024)
We all start somewhere!
#picked these cause they're in a similar pose lol. i mean not at all. but sort of... more than my other art at least...#oh fuck im so tired im saving this to drafts and coming back later#my anxiety meds wipe me the fuck out so im trying not to take them in the day#and they're like legit borderline a sleeping med for me. i take one and in 30 mins im OUT.#so I'm. i mean i was already only taking 1-2 in the day and then 2-3 at night#anyways it makes me sad when people say they dont have an artistic bone in their body#and especially when they say they could never draw like me :(#dont put yourself down to lift me up! i don't want my art to be used for you to be mean to yourself!!!#lots of experiences of people comparing themselves to me and being mean to themself...#feels bad. it's okay if you're slow it's okay to be learning it's okay!!!#I'm me and you're you and we're here to learn from each other. i just wanna hang out..#y'know what I'm just gonna post without saying anything i WILL forget I made a draft#i have so many things i intend to post and then forget#it's a wonder I post anything#i only do it when i get bored. and run out of stuff to scroll through#like whelp. guess if i want a post I have to make one myself.#also the second one is really good idc that it's a study i still drew it#art growth#this was in 2010 btw#i started highschool in 2011#I've grown a lot and you can too.#also I've never really been one to dislike my old art. like idk I was trying... if it's bad I just won't look at it whatever#like i wouldn't be mean to someone else who made that so i don't get a free pass to be mean just cause it's to me#man my thoughts are bungled. okay sleep time#if my phone made typos you didn't see it
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when i'm in a Character Development Fumbling Competition and my opponent is whatever fucking writers handled earthspark starscream after season one
#already saw spoilers for whatever the fuck happens to starscream and. man???????//#s3 is better in so many ways than s2 & tbf he got stuck in a really weird position to work at the end of last batch#but like. it feels like with Starscream Specifically it just got Worse.#like. okay maybe you couldn't have gone back from the way s2 pissed on s1 scream's growth#but... after the whole thing about no soldier left behind??????????// except for when it's starscream apparently#mine#earthspark spoilers#earthspark#starscream#transformers earthspark
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living
#utpyrt#undertale#ut au#flowey#frisk#toriel#papyrus#alphys#premaposting#redrew the flowey holding frisk like a cat one bc i didnt like the og#i rlly need to muster the motivation to like#draw multiple characters to get her#hehe together is just to get her#hahaha heheheh hahahahahahahaha heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee#at first touch adverse flowey becomes touchy because#now i know why i keep having to check on the flowey age design chart bc BIG growth. he becomes HUGE within like 4 years i set it#no wonder why i keep tripping up without a reference#but yeah bro becomes community child . definitely not instantly but at this point in the au everyone now knows that flowey is also asriel#so its like. very very very complicating#on one hand the king and queens son has been found again or recognized. thats huge. im sure other monsters would celebrate too#on the other end he has done messed up extra big time. it will give everyone a sort of dissonance. some would permanently go ew#but a lot of friends to the dreemur family and frisk would kinda begin to warm up to him. some a bit easier than others. some still uneasy.#ofc frisk and papyrus are already his close friends. theyll probably be apart of the process of others accepting flowey too.#idk why i aaid and frisk as if frisk isnt a dreemur now#lolllllllll
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#growth#ok but real talk i kill 9/10ths of the plants i try to cultivate#my skills lie in other areas#im on my second lemon tree and ive already nearly killedit#pray for my lemon tree
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MAYA BISHOP IN EVERY EPISODE OF STATION 19 SEVEN SEASONS (2018-2024) 104/105 EPISODES
#station 19#station19edit#maya bishop#mine#this started as a 100 episodes of maya bishop gif set#and then i painfully remembered while doing it that she wasn't in 4x13 at all#kinda crazy that's the only episode she didn't appear in#but glad i was able to turn it into this since it was only 5 more episodes after 100 anyways#best character arc/journey/growth on the show hands down#so grateful to danielle for everything she added to maya as a character#i miss her so much already ❤️
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Aftermath | Jedi Survivor
#Survivor does a great job handling consequences#spaces and people are permanently changed throughout the game#healing and growth can still happen!#but it won't undo what's already been done#star wars jedi survivor#jedi survivor#cal kestis#star wars#photomode
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ya i mean if we're looking at the campaigns as a narrative existing in a vacuum then i would personally have a hard time arguing that vax's return makes for a better story than if he died forever. and as someone who consumes critical role as a narrative completely separate from myself, i do v much wish he didn't come back, and i think keyleth's story would have been richer for it. but it's a dnd game and no narrative exists in a vacuum and every story is influenced to some degree by the desires and indulgences of the creators, and in this case maybe the creators said "hey we kinda want a warm and fuzzy and hopeful and full-circle happy ending that, on a meta level, connects the end of our first and our third campaigns." and that's also fine! because sometimes you just want your beloved characters to be indulged, even if it might detract from the poetic meaning of the story. sometimes you just want them to be happy, because you love them.
#i think marisha and liam and matt saw this girl and her unrelenting loneliness and said we can give this back to her#because we love her. and it doesn't have to make sense.#and it doesn't have to feel poetic or justified and it doesn't have to encourage character growth or serve some function#we love her and wouldn't it be nice if we gave her this gift? doesn't she deserve something like this after everything she's been through?#exactly like how i felt at the end of ffx-2. i was like damn he shoulda stayed dead this is super lame and doesn't make any sense#but i was so happy for her. and i'm so happy for keyleth. even if i'm not happy at all for keyleth's narrative#and i'm certainly not happy about how this will skew the way people talk about vaxleth even more than it's already been skewed#but it's gonna happen how it happens! and i will just stay here holding onto my own understanding of this girl. whatever!!#text#nova shh#critical role#cr3#cr spoilers#vax'ildan cr#keyleth cr#ship: vaxleth#cr meta#*meta
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