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every time I remember that the most popular version of the haunting of hill house is the version that makes theo and eleanor sisters I'm just like
#considering the entire point of the book was that eleanor was trying to force these people into a quasi-sexual found family#that they had no intention of joining#and her realizing that she would never be able to recreate the sexual/familial connections she'd lost out on as an adolescent#or ever fully explore her repressed queerness with theo#was the thing that drove her mad in the end#making them all family members is... missing the point to a truly impressive extent...
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you dislike Luke Castellan because he disagreed with an oppressive government system and actually took action to change the abusive ways him and his peers have been forced to follow for millennia.
I dislike Luke Castellan because in the Titans Curse he manipulated Annabeth, who he raised as his little sister, into holding up the sky, the FUCKING sky, for over 20 hours and had the audacity to walk away as though he was completely apathetic towards it while she begged and pleaded with him to help her.
we are not the same.
#I agree with Luke’s beliefs 100%#I don’t agree with his actions#but I specifically remember Luke seeming real fucking unaffected while leaving Annabeth to endure being literally crushed to death#the rest of the halfbloods that joined the titans army had good intentions but Luke… oh boy#I’m sorry I can’t help but disagree with his actions#percy jackon and the olympians#luke castellan#annabeth chase#percy jackson#percy series#camp half blood#pjo hoo toa#some ppl in the comments pointed out shit I forgot ty guys#like the way he manipulated Silena and Annabeth because he knew they loved him is literally pedophillia 🤢🤮#I was cautious with my tags at first because I thought Luke apologists were gonna come at me with knives if I said more than necessary#but now I’m brave enough to admit I hate that man and no one can convince me otherwise
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When Damian first joins the family, he is unaware of the bargain.
All parties must be in agreement to expand the list of members, and at first, Jason and Tim were concerned about whether Damian was trustworthy. Dick thought it would be a good show of trust, but had been outvoted.
When Damian found out about it, the circumstances were dire. On of the goons had a heart condition, and even non-lethal force had been enough. In the report, he had died of complications and pre existing conditions. Damian had no way of knowing that, but Bruce would not see it that way.
It was Dick who approached him.
“Trust me. It’ll be okay. It’s just a conversation, you’ll see.”
He’d taken them both to a cafe in Metropolis.
“Clark owes me a few favors. Keeping Batman from listening, and not listening himself, are relatively easy ways to fulfill them.”
Jason and Tim were waiting for them. Damian bristled, not expecting the two of them and their attempts at civil appearances.
“What is this?”
Jason and Tim didn’t look amused and waited for them to sit down. Dick sighed, realizing they would be no help.
“First off. This is a neutral space. No information from this conversation will be shared to any party not immediately present, used as a means of threatening another party present, or discussed in locations that are susceptible to the information being discovered by another party. Damian, before we continue, you must agree to those rules. Jason, Tim and myself have abided by them for several years. There are more stringent rules around the information we will discuss, but this general basis must be agreed to before we continue. You may opt out if you wish and we can head back to the manor.”
Damian wrestled with his decision but little of it showed on his face aside from his usual scowl.
On the one hand, information was being kept from him that he could find useful. One the other hand, he would have to enter into an agreement with three dangerous individuals that would know if he went back on his word with any of the information. If Batman was not already privy to this information, there is a reason he does not know it. Damian would be unable to determine how to share the information without knowing how it’s protected.
“… Fine.”
“I need more than that, Damian.”
“I agree to your terms. The information will not be discussed, shared, discoverable, or used as a threat.”
A look passed between the three older vigilantes before Dick blinked and nodded.
“The three of us have a shared agreement regarding information that gets shared with Bruce. Things that would get us in trouble if he found out. There are a couple of rules and stipulations about the types of information, but basically, it boils down the a mutual non-aggression pact.”
Tim cut in quickly.
“In the course of our night jobs, you will make mistakes. Things you couldn’t possible have known about. And rather than allowing Bruce to fixate on things that aren’t preventable and out of our control, we regulate what he knows of those situations.”
Jason sighed and leaned back in his chair.
“When we fuck up and don’t want to get bitched out, we keep secrets from the old man. Early in knowing boy blunder here, we didn’t trust each other. To avoid involving B, we agreed not to rat on each other.”
Damian paused, considering.
“Then you all know what happened to one of the men from patrol a few weeks ago.” There wasn’t a question in Damian’s words, but Dick nodded anyways.
“Yeah, we know about his complications. That’s why we wanted to talk to you. We’ve been debating letting you into the pact since you came to live with B, but we weren’t sure how you’d take it.”
Damian tsk’d.
“You did not believe me trustworthy of such information.”
Tim tilted his head at him and said, “No, we didn’t.”
Damian nodded and thought about his options. If they were to be trusted, presumably they would keep information from Father. However, he would also become complicit in keeping information from Father, information he would not know the nature of until he agreed.
“What is the benefit of such an agreement?”
Jason chuckled and Dick started talking over him.
“We have all agreed to keep this information from Bruce. Meaning, if it looks like he’s getting too close to anything, we step in and help each other prevent that. It also means if we have a situation that arises and we need B to be kept out of it, we contact each other and it’s dealt with in real time.”
Tim nodded, adding “When I was going over files and alerts related to the case from last week I saw the coroner’s report of your guy. I could have altered the records right then and covered up the trail from the beginning. We have our own protocols for dealing with B and shared resources.”
“What is it that prevents this information from being shared?”
“Mutually assured destruction,” Jason said coolly.
“What Jason means,” Dick interjected, glaring, “is that the severity of the information is enough. As much as Tim or Jason doesn’t want B to know something, neither do I. If all of us work together, we’re good enough to keep it from him. The threat of any of us failing is enough of a deterrent because it would mean our own secrets coming to light. All information shared is of equal severity.”
Damian blinked, momentarily stunned.
“There is no punishment to ensure compliance?”
“Nothing aside from whatever B’s reaction to the information will be. And perhaps his reaction to finding out we kept it from him, if he figures that part out.”
All things considered, it was a fair deal. Not as secure as Damian would like, but better than nothing.
“I will require time to think about this proposal. But my original agreement stands. Will this be enough to ensure that the coroner’s report will remain in its current form or must I provide additional proof?”
“No, that’s alright. We’ll meet back up two weeks from now, we’ll need your answer by then.”
#batman#jason todd#bruce wayne#tim drake#dick grayson#redhood#damian wayne#nightwing#batfamily#batfam#i love the idea of keeping things from bruce and also the very real likelihood someone has died at their hands from complications#unmentioned here is oracle’s role in everything because even before jason was in the picture dick and babs had kept patrol secrets#i think damian would have the easiest time agreeing to the concept of mutual blackmail because he understands#not trusting people without leverage or securities especially in the beginning of him living at the manor#steph cass and duke will also eventually make it into the pact although there is concern over cass’s no kill rule#tim joining the pact wasn’t intentional bc it happened when jason was dead - when he came back realized dick had included him in their deal#calling it a mutual non-aggression pact made me laugh#love the idea of superman owing nightwing favors and it’s just don’t tell batman#(i hate dialogue tags if you couldn’t tell)
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Lowkey feel like Will was jealous (and also extremely pissed) of Octavian in BoO.
‘I’m helping the Greeks and the Romans,’ Nico said. Octavian laughed. ‘Don’t try to con me. What have they offered you – a place in their camp? They won’t honour their agreement.’ ‘I don’t want a place in their camp,’ Nico snarled. ‘Or in yours. When this war is over, I’m leaving both camps for good.’ Will Solace made a sound like he’d been punched. ‘Why would you do that?’ Nico scowled. ‘It’s none of your business, but I don’t belong. That’s obvious. No one wants me. I’m a child of –’
‘Oh, please.’ Will sounded unusually angry. ‘Nobody at Camp Half-Blood ever pushed you away. You have friends – or at least people who would like to be your friend. You pushed yourself away. If you’d get your head out of that brooding cloud of yours for once –’ ‘Enough!’ Octavian snapped. ‘Di Angelo, I can beat any offer the Greeks could make. I always thought you wouldmake a powerful ally. I see the ruthlessness in you, and I appreciate that. I can assure you a place in New Rome. All you have to do is step aside and allow the Romans to win. The god Apollo has shown me the future –’
‘No!’ Will Solace shoved Nico out of the way and got in Octavian’s face. ‘I am a son of Apollo, you anaemic loser. My father hasn’t shown anyone the future, because the power of prophecy isn’t working. But this –’ He waved loosely at the assembled legion, the hordes of monstrous armies spread across the hillside. ‘This is not what Apollo would want!’
This is from pages 439-440 of XLVII Nico's PoV.
While Will was rightfully angry at Octavian because he pulled all of that shit,trying to justify himself with "Apollo wanted this" and Will was not having any of it,he also started rebelling against his words only after Octavian tried to make Nico join him.
Bro was both angry that a fake tried to kill them all,but also jealous because that same bitch was trying to stole the guy he probably already liked at time. Take this from Will prospective: the guy you likes or wants to be friend with for months is finally talking to you,you are having conversations even tho you are bickering in the middle of a mission,and the same guy that started all the problems and is acting like he has a close connection to your dad (Octavian is a distant descendant and probably doesn't even have the gift of prophecy as has been said),tries to take him away?? Will was not having it. He was so ready to fight Octavian on the spot and Nico would have let him.
They were fighting for him for a split second there,for different reasons since Will wanted to be his friend (if he already didn't had a crush on him) while Octavian wanted to use him for his powers of course,but still fighting for him. And Nico was so clueless of Will's feeling for him and thought he would be disgusted by him after Octavian's death.
Bro,what are you thinking about? Will probably wanted him more gone that you ever wanted. The fact he was so natural about his death was even more funny. Stop overthinking Nico,Will was already plotting how to end him himself,otherwise he wouldn't have called you knowing you were ready to jump at him.
#percy jackon and the olympians#heroes of olympus#percy jackson and the heroes of olympus#blood of olympus#nico di angelo#will solace#octavian pjo#solangelo#Will was lowkey jealous when Octavian tried to make Nico join him#he was not having it#he probably would have punch him in the face#and Nico would have let him because he had been planning that since Day 1#They are soulmate for real#Will and Octavian were fighting for Nico for a second here#and Will was also pissed because Octavian was being a bitch and using his father's name to justify it#he was a man on a mission#Octavian is only a descendant with barely any connection to Apollo#and he still claim his best intentions??? He just asked for Will to cook him there then
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something bad did indeed happen to that man. spent abt 25 minutes trying to find a better picture of that one (1) offical piece with his eyes open that wasnt compressed or tiny
#library of ruina#yan library of ruina#getting comfortable doodling some objects and mannequin shapes for very obvious reasons. i read the keypage story and now it has a grip on#my brain. wanting to go ahead and plan it out and then draw the mangled memory and nightmare that replays behind the eyelids in the darknes#it was cool to see the reason confirmed from my speculation. twas indeed another reason of blocking out present pain with closing of eyes#considering they made angela have a plot important reason for doing so it would only make sense for another to have a reason for it as well#well. after having a prominent part inside the thumb/index story line. its just going to be yapping about yan now i think#let me add a spoiler tag i suppose? vauge but just incase i dont want to be an asshole. even if most already have played rhe game#library of ruina spoilers#lor spoilers#i really liked the typewritter effect over the voice after distortion. especially so when the effect finishes before the actual garbled voi#does. it makes it feel as if it were being read out after it being written down rather than of own words or volition. along with the text#upon the screen during the fight being just prescripts rather than anything relating to the man himself like the other instances with such#text had been. paired w the name of distorted yan being untranslated to keep the intent of the name being unreadable or not understandable#more into the idea of stripping away of the self or any sense of a self. not personal and not even him anymore. the following of a goal for#the goal for it is given and there isnt any hope of having the ability to not do such a thing. people yearn for a reason and something to d#and for it to be given to them to not hold responsibility nor have to do their own choices anymore. once a crushing weight weighs down#inside the face of an absolute cruelty that is perpetuated and that crushed the dreams or even desires having them be but nothing how can#one move on? it was really nice to see at the end of the fight. its easier to just say such things than to actually do them. even if the ac#ions dont even feel as if they are ones own or that there isnt any say in the matter having to endure all the pain for seemingly nothing it#still is pain. that feeling inside is still real. it still happened. regardless of the circumstances that brought them about#the thumb/index or just fingers seem to be an exaggerated to the extreme showcase of how the colletivist mindset in an unhealthy manner#could be exhibited. the thumb with its hierarchy and absoluteness and the demand for respect along with its strict layers of showing who is#below and who is above. the ability to have power over those underneath . the participation inside of it and the already brought up yearnin#to be apart of a group and to have a title and position inside of a group and of power and even a desire like from pete to join one iirc#the index being of the cruel perpetuating cycle of pain people inflict upon one another a behavior beaten and upkept by the systems as they#drift and desire to live. which causes them to partcipate in that cycle out of necessity. cruel acts upon another in order to live and seei#a need to go ahead and do such things for if they dont they die and another will just do the same to them. social sciences talk and rolands#talks abt how the city opperates reinforce that fact. the index and prescripts are really just a show inside that extreme manner and in a#more literal sense of that. it was really cool to read it..
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okay, it is kind of pissing me off when people insist Vi went with the Enforcers because she wanted to join them and side with Piltover and move up in society, and not because it was the only vehicle available for her to go after Jinx and solve the problem she created
(also, Vi does not want to kill her sister: she is driven by guilt. Vi feels she has a duty to stop further destruction and death from the monster she thinks she created. Jinx told Vi that her sister is gone and only Jinx, the monster, remains, and Vi believed her. After s2ep3, I don't think either of them believe that anymore)



Vi still detests the Enforcers. You can plainly see on her face (and through her words!) that she does not want to be there. She just wants to get this over with.
if anything, Vi was trying to support Caitlyn, who is one of the only familiar things she has in her life at this moment. Her family is dead, she thinks her sister is gone, and the Undercity is barely recognizable to her - but Caitlyn was there. So, Vi took a gamble on sticking with Caitlyn, the seemingly sweet girl from Piltover who has sympathy for the Undercity, sees Vi's good heart, and helped Vi when she didn't need to.


Vi resigned herself to join Cait's enforcers, compromising her morals, hoping to be a positive influence. But the second she made a decision for herself, the second she stopped Cait from shooting a child, Caitlyn discarded her
she's lost, trying to find her footing wherever she can. Vi has been scrambling to attach herself to any scrap of familiarity since escaping Stillwater, and now she's left alone, in the dark, again



#cl thoughts#it's hard to balance character & systemic analysis#I hope I'm addressing this adequately#vi joining the enforcers is a betrayal and she knows it#but she's not happy about it#arcane spoilers#arcane season 2#arcane season 2 spoilers#vi arcane#vi arcane analysis#caitlyn kiramman#caitvi#it's not defensible but it's frustrating to see people insist Vi had super selfish malicious intent when she clearly did not#it's certainly somewhat self-serving but not in the way proposed#girly doesn't give a fuck about climbing the ranks she just wants somewhere to be#jinx arcane#vi and jinx
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Law and Order Criminal Intent - text posts 10/?
#carver wanted to join in on the fun#i stumbled on this law related text post and had to do it#text posts: loci#my stuff#law and order criminal intent#bobby goren#alex eames#ron carver
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This is honestly one of the most insightful things anyone's yet to say about Solas in-game, and not entirely for the reason they seem to be implying. "Sentimental" I guess works, but it more demonstrates how Solas struggles to see others as actual people he should care about. When Varric said people were dying as a result of his ritual Solas' rebuttal was that dying is what people do. It's inevitable and not his problem. What's the lives of others in comparison to his personal ideals of what the world should be?
#max plays datv#datv spoilers#Solas has the potential to be very interesting but it's hampered by Bioware wanting everyone to sympathize with him and#believe he's a good guy deep down#His actions prior to destroying the veil and his grief over people's deaths honestly means less than his intent and what he did after#in terms of what kind of person he is as a whole and in particular right now#Because right now he's a man so tied to his idea for what the world should be and so unwilling to consider he might be wrong that#he killed his dearest friend who remained with him for thousands of years because Felassan had the audacity to prioritize#the lives and freedom of oppressed people above Solas' fantasy#even though saving oppressed people was the whole reason they joined forces against the Evanuris!#solas
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Hi y'all, I just wanted to talk a little about the behind the scenes of what I've been up to, to give y'all a little transparency and to open myself up for any tips or input! 🙏 Thank you for your continued support and for taking the time to look at my art 🫶
First and foremost I wanted to give some transparency about my art capacity.
As og followers may remember, I started this blog when I was doing art full time. Eventually my living expenses grew and I had to go back to work. I find myself in a cycle of "I'll make more art soon, once I get a job!" And "I'll make more art soon, once I am done with this job!" I lost my most recent job suddenly, having had an extension waved over my head until the last day(October 7th). Now I'm excited to have more time for art, but I am also feeling a rush to get a new job ASAP as I've been living paycheck to paycheck. I dream of doing this work full time, I'm just scared it's not quite there yet and I worry that I come off as scammy or dishonest when I anticipate more stability around the corner.
Second, I've been struggling with the Patreon. It's taken me a while to come to terms with this, but from what I've seen Patreon is not intuitive at all from the creator end. It doesn't do a good job of organizing addresses, emails, showing who or who isn't subscribed to me, or organizing and displaying the work I put on there. I've been really shocked by this experience, since lots of big names use Patreon. It's been a great way to streamline support, but it's been unhelpful in every other regard. I would like to continue using it, but I will most likely post more wips or process videos there in the future.
Which brings me to my third point, zines. I love making zines so much, it feels personal and fulfilling and fun! However the Patreon issues make it harder to keep information in order about where to send zines, or even where to message folks about them. In addition to this, the post office has been a big barrier to me, oftentimes only being open at the same time as my dayjob. Making zines can take days, then sending them out is a whole other monster.
This work is so important to me. Drawing peoples fantasies, representing body types, creating work around sexuality and the human experience feels like what I'm meant to do. I've made comics since I was a kid. This is the dream to me. The friends I've been able to make through this work are so important to me, and the conversations have been invaluable. Not to mention fun! I wanna doodle, I wanna draw hot stuff, I wanna thirst over these dudes! I want to play!
But I also just want to be transparent about the barriers I'm working around to share that experience. I'm completely self taught, both in art AND in running shops, building websites, running 8 accounts, etc. I take a lot of time to learn the logistics of these things, and try to make them make sense for my relationship with y'all (I do not want to paywall my art!! I don't want to!!!). This year my desktop broke down (the main one I use for all paintings and digital art). I've paused my Etsy shops and my Patreon to try to catch up with things. Trying to learn to paint in a completely different program. Then lost my job with no savings.
At the end of the day I don't want anything to come between me sharing my art with you. I wish I could doodle a thing, take a picture, and post it here. No third party site, no shop, no subscription. Just sharing my art with you. I promise I'm trying to figure out how to stay as close to that as possible, and I want to thank y'all for sticking with me as I untangle all of that.
So, what can you expect in the near future?
I'm working on a couple of painting commissions right now, which you should be able to see in the next couple of days! I want to catch up on kinktober and get those posted as well. There's a comic commission in progress which I'm very eager to work on, and which I think y'all will be excited for! To ease the weight of the Patreon I think I may do less zines/polls there and more wips and process videos! If possible, I want to do more full colored work too.
Thank you again for enjoying my work, and if you have any input or tips my inbox is always open 🙏🫶💕
#long post#info#marco lore#i wish i had time to edit this and make it nice#i just wanted to be open with yall about how much work this takes and that im trying to make it more doable#i don't want to overpromise stuff with patreon or shops and if im late sending stuff i never ever want it to come off as intentional or mali#malicious or as a scam#im just trying very hard to like ...survive. financially. and then trying to make all the logistics of thos big machine work. and then keep#up with commissions and shops and printing and mailing#god i wish i had employees but jts just me#i hand draw everything and then post it here to the word press to the ig and crop and caption and tag#then to the Patreon if it makes sense to or to the tiktok back in the day#and the formatting is all different#and i get messages across all of these platforms and I'm trying to learn a new way of painting on the fly#on top of that im supposed to be running my two Etsy shops too which im not right now because..broadly gestures#my nervous system can only take losing a job so often. the rug was really pulled feom under me in this one. i thought id have more time#i don't want to sound like I'm whining and i don't want to give up on all of this#i want to be very very very clear that art is what i love and who i am and what i want to do#i want to be posting on the daily again#i just need to evaluate what that looks like everytime life changes#I'm seriously so grateful for those of y'all that have joined the Patreon or bought stuff from the shop i really don't mean to drop the ball#so many times#y'all have literally been the difference between me making rent or not and I'm so worried that i don't make enough art to give back to that#relationship#im trying my best#okay anyways im posting this
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Canarydrop and their two adopted kits, Ospreykit and Palekit
Canarydrop: Any pronouns, 73 moons, genderfluid
Ospreykit: he/him, 1 moon, cis tom
Palekit: he/him, 1 moon, cis tom
#Canarydrop#Ospreykit#Palekit#Warrior#kit#vixenclan#warrior cats oc#kiri’s clangen#clangen#Canary was previously a loner and was on his way to join the clans when he found a loner mother kitting who didn't make it.#she decided to take the loner's kits as their own and named them Ospreykit and Palekit.#Osprey's “accessory” is dried herbs and it's because he's constantly got something stuck on him#Pale's accessory however is very intentional and fashionable (he's an infant but he's got style)#he's the only cat I've got with a holly accessory and he's so cute#obsessed with his stupid grumpy face#Also canary's design is something I completely made from scratch using the catmaker! I just didn't like the sprite he originally had and-#-she's from the save/saves that I'm remaking from the browser version of the game into the actual app so I figured I'd give them a look I-#-liked more#thus he's the only “masked tabby” I've got- I made these saves before the update with that pattern came out and I've been waiting to keep-#-playing until I've got all the designs drawn!
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i realize i started this day (12am) determined to spread trans joy but when given an opportunity to make myself mad about something meaningless that no one was arguing about, i will always take it. are you or are you not convinced luke kunin could eat pussy like it was the last meal on earth. get real
#there was a version of the world where i was going home tomorrow and got to see cuda games but i DONT#I HAVE TO WAIT A WEEK#AND I DONT GET TO SEE ANY CUDA GAMES#sorry to everyone (sahil) who had to experience the sharks with me. there will be an international incident i'm sure#i am going to explode to death#i'm so glad i'm sober now man. it's the only thing i got going for me. i would be/was so much worse#like that tiktokker who is like i'm alcoholic so what do i do on weekends? save money? no i go to chipotle#i was abusing alcohol so now what do i do on weekends? pay for espn+ and mlbtv and experience the heat death of the universe#um and go to church. less sexy. but keeps me sane. sane for definitions of sane. well i like it anyway. it makes me happy#the pussy kunin is eating belongs to tydell by the way#do we think barclay goodrow has the same swag. NO. OR I DONT KNOW. HE DRINKS PHILZ. CAN MEN WHO DRINK PHILZ HANG????#hey man i saw you in the penalty box and i decided to join you because i really like your vibe?#fighting bc he's hot and i want him on me < fighting bc he's in the penalty box and i want two minutes in heaven#fresno oilers.txt#when people open show tags on my posts do they sometimes regret it i wonder#my dog is staring at me intently bc i am not in bed. i was waffling about having to get him listed as an emotional comfort animal#for renting purposes#but it is true that he is the reason i get up in the morning eat at least one meal and go to bed. so
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Needing a Sua perspective from the ALNST auditions to Round 1. I never put much thought into what happens to the cast post-Anakt Garden graduation (do they immediately go to the auditions? Is there a period of time where they dont see each other until they recognize each other at the audition? Theres a considerable amount of time between the auditions and their Alien Stage season, did they see each other often between then or...? etc.), but regardless, imagine being her and having to choose between sabotaging your own audition so you dont have to go the the Sing, Win, or Die Show or putting your in your all in hopes of winning and spending just a bit more time with this girl you love because you know itll likely be the last time you see her. Imagine...
#dee p thoughts#alien stage#alnst#vivinos#like. not as if life wouldve been sunshine and rainbows if sua failed the audition and never went on alien stage hashtag Im a Pet to Aliens#but like. sua was definitely more in the know. Im not the type to believe mizi was completely naive but I think mizi may have bought into#the idea that dying Wasnt That Bad due to what she was taught and her trust in her owners...until round 1- maybe mizi was confident she'd#truly win and/or her owners praised and made her feel so. sua: ''My dream is Mizi's dream. (paraphrased)'' etc etc#maybe it was the dream of mizi's owners that mizi wanted to fulfill or mizi just wanted to impress her owners in return for their care...#but sua knew. she knew it would either be she never sees mizi again whether she dies or achieve such fame that sua could never reach her...#or sua can spend a little time with her. whatever they have left. whether it was her or mizi the likelihood of them ever seeing each other#again... because mizi is intent on this. she is going to join alien stage. she is going to pass the auditions because she is so dazzling.#...I need to be with her.#I think considering the ivan and sua comic anakt garden may be a pipeline to alien stage? its functionally a music school iirc so I think i#at least gives them a leg up and humans are put into anakt garden with at least some intention of having them try out for alien stage-#but nonetheless I imagine there was a liminal space where none of the cast really knew where their lives were going post-anakt garden.#not that they have much choice in the matter but still dalkjdalkbn- that liminal space mustve been a dark time for majority of them#because well. their owners. and they couldnt meet each other and may never meet again...#regarding the time between the auditions and their alien stage season I imagine its funnily a lot of. training. pr vocals visuals...#they have autographs despite them all potentially dying quickly they had them draft and practice and perfect autographs guys adjlkbnadlfkjf#the look mizi and sua shared in sweet dream when they both passed the auditions together...AUGH.....
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Working on my Rook backstory again and I’m very open to accepting the canon backstory for Mercar but mine is going to address how strange it is that this human soldier from Tevinter saw a random elf baby in Ventus, near the Arlathan forest which is 🤨, and decided ‘my baby now’. Sir, don’t you think the baby bird probably belongs to the bird nest it’s right beside?? You can’t just adopt that bc the nest is empty right now
#like surely this must have affected her brain too bc people thought she was the family servant anytime they went places? 😭#she probably didn’t have friends!!#I think my potential idea that Mae or Dorian mentored her truly was the first time she felt like she had ‘friends’#then joining the Shadow Dragons let her properly socialize with others#outside what was probably just her and her father who seems well-intentioned but super in the wrong#bc ain’t no way that elf baby had a normal upbringing even if the adopted father was Soporati#anyways I’m gonna write his reasoning for it and hopefully it makes sense#at least to a well-meaning human from Tevinter#prawn posts
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Amnesia!Dabi: "So, did I get on okay with my dad?" / Everyone else: *sweats nervously* "UHHHHHH-"
YEAH ABOUT THAT
#honestly the wild shifting on things of like#toya pre-death very much loved his dad and wanted to be like him and wanted to earn his affection#so it's not as bad as current canon where it's pure hatred and murderous intent#especially because that shift had multiple factors to it#yes there was the fact that Toya realized *oh hey this dynamic is fucked and dad's an Asshole™ and I shouldn't have to fight to be loved*#which is entirely valid#but in /canon/ we had two other factors#one was that the league as a whole but def AfO was enabling that realization and manipulating it from *cut my losses and move on* to#*become a villain and commit some murders*#the other factor is Toya feeling like his death meant nothing to the family because they were exactly the same when he tried to go home#and I think that even with him still getting the first *this shit's fucked* realization#that the other two factors won't make him as furious and able to be manipulated#like he still might join the lov due to a lack of options but he's not quite as in the cause#actually swinging to CC for a moment:#toya finding out how devestated the whole family was /including/ his father is probably something that really helps pull him back#amnesia!dabi
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I don't even know what to say
#i don't keep up with most of them anymore#and I didn't like liam at all over the past few years#but it just feels so uncomfortable#because i don't think that 18 year old who joined the band had bad intentions#he was genuinely happy to be there#can't believe it ended like this
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#today a good friend of mine told me they want to stop seeing me because they were interested in a romantic relationship and i'm not#we met on a dating app but i thought we had more of a platonic relationship#at least that's what it felt like. i honestly didn't think they were interested in me like that#i can't really imagine anyone having romantic feelings for me. hell i can barely wrap my head around people liking me platonically#i definitely should've communicated my intentions better but at the same time i was kind of confused about what i even wanted#i'm 24 and i've never been in a relationship. i've never fallen in love. i've had crushes but they've all been on a more superficial level#and none of them led anywhere#i think i just joined the dating app because i felt like it was expected of me. because other people my age are in relationships#and i'm falling behind just like in everything else#i think i might be aromantic but i also don't want to be. i want to fall in love and find someone to spend my life with.#but i don't seem to have the capacity for it. and i can't help but feel like i'm broken. like i've failed at being human#and to top it all off i lost a good friend. actually the only friend i had in this city#i have two other close friends but one lives in a different city and the other lives on a different continent#i also have a cold and my period started yesterday so. uhhh. not a good day overall lmao#will probably delete this later but i just needed to scream into the void#looks like i've got something to discuss with my therapist on wednesday
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