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a-dumbass-jester · 20 days ago

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Kurumada and Anzu’s relationship hits different when you find the kurumada to your Anzu💔

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swan2swan · 2 months ago

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Jurassic World: Camp Cretaceous

Running Gag: "What Are You Doing?"

#jurassic world: camp cretaceous #jwcc #yasmina fadoula #do you understand my hyperfixation level #do you know what it was like when I reflected on the last one at work #and pieced it together with three and four?#do you know what happened when I remembered that she asks that to Sammy?#do you know how upright I sat as I watched Ben and Yaz's conversations the next time around???#I finally gave up #and then I realized the truth:#she was SUPPOSED to ask him what he was doing with the hand sanitizer but they decided it worked better without the question #thus you can see her development: quietly judging and being confused to having to handle the small ones to just chatting casually #all five of them #and you can't tell me this wasn't deliberate #...I may have to sound out the others too #other things I'm picking up are that Kenji may have a verbal tic #Sammy corrects people #already compiling Ben's Toro obsession #but this one hit me and I seriously feel like this was a fun game the writers had #again I'll have to see if I can pull it off with the others #I know Darius yells it at Ben #but also I feel like Yaz isn't impulsive enough to be yelled at by the group #so I think it's just her #ben pincus #sammy gutierrez #darius bowman #brooklynn #kenji kon

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halffizzbin · 4 months ago

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I've been watching old Project Runway episodes and my take is: whatever they were paying the fat models to participate in the "real woman" challenges just so the contestants could throw dramatic fits over how much they despise fat bodies? It was not enough.

#actually maybe worse than the dramatic fits were when it was more subtle #like the one that really upset me which was the bridesmaid dress challenge in season 8?#where they decided to be EXTRA cruel and lined up the bridesmaids and let the DESIGNERS pick one by one #and they all picked the few size-2 women first and then it went in perfect ascending weight order after the model-shaped ones were taken #(except for the thin woman they picked right before they hit the two 14+ women who was COINCIDENTALLY I AM SURE the darkest-skinned)#(whole other conversation on that front)#and Heidi acted performatively clueless about why the two bigger women were the last ones left #the contestants were all lying snakes about it too imo #'oh i just didn't want the worst...dress. She had the worst dress' LIAR. COWARD #AT LEAST BE UPFRONT ABOUT IT YOU UNCREATIVE DICK

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eydi-andrius · 2 months ago

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#Someone is defending infold for absolutely doing a shitty job in making love and deepspace sustainable?#I don't even need to continue the conversation because they're so pointless might as well talk to myself #if you don't know i have been playing otome games since highschool and mind you i beta test some of yall favorite games #i have patience to wait and i have seen that whatever infold is doing like a hit and run #I'm one of the few who started when obey me was announced waited years for content and still love that game for absolutely being amazing #I've waited for TWST knowing it will take a while before they can produce anything #i have seen many otome games being discontinued because they hide everything behind a pay wall #believe me love and deepspace will not last unless they do some thinking and change their strategy #love and deepspace #infold games #sylus #zayne #xavier #rafayel

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sieglinde-freud · 3 months ago

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thinking about them and banging my head against the wall again whats new. they are making me so emo. god. what the fuck

#ann plays fates #theyre like all i can think about rn #its that time of the year #i mean i think about them both constantly separately but its always when september comes #do i get hit with the laslow/nyx rarepair brainrot i think #that just lasts through fall and winter #not that im complaining. i think eventually i will have posted the entire fucking conversation #i cant help it. each part gives me a segment of dialogue to be ill about #i have ‘but with burdens so heavy dont you think we can lean on eachother a bit?’ on my wall #ROMANCE. TO ME (girl who is aroace)#also underrated thing about them i like how nyx flirts back #its more prevalent in their A support but shes so fun with him even beyond the bonding over traumatic pasts #i think with laslow he does a lot of flirting right bc hes laslow but a lot of the time its like #no ones matching his energy #i was gonna say match his freak but i dont think he has any freak if im so real with u #if he does its buried beneath five metric tons of shame and embarrassment #and i like how his… laslow-ness kinda gives nyx space to let loose if that makes sense #like he can match her maturity because he. you know. all of that #but hes still young and so she can find a little bit of reprieve from it all in his attitude and blah blah blah #if that makes sense #they r just so perfect. TO ME #ive only ever written and posted one thing for them but i have like five million (like six) things in my drafts i need to get back #into writing. rarepair hell gotta feed myself #also that was like two years ago it kinda sucks a bit but thats fine its called growth #i just miss them. i dont really have the brainpower to play fates but i have enough to think about them #i mean i played a little but ive mostly just been doing dumb shit with the class system and not rly playing the game #we’ll get to it #im supposed to be sleeping

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zoppzoop · 26 days ago

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oh also someone who is a good friend but we don't really talk too much, clocked me as someone who would be into choking. it was fucking funny as hell

#they were right #which is the funniest part becuase HOW AND WHY DO YOU KNOW THAT #same person who was MAYBE hitting on me #like this person and another friend were talking about rings and they gave their ring to the friend to try out and they were #admiring their and hand stuff and said to him that 'someone could choke you with this' and he told them #'tell that to lish she'll say she'd be into it' and i wasnt paying attention to this conversation right and they #laughed and came up to me to say that and i literally replied with a smirk like 'i'd be into it'#and both of them laughed and told me what the previous conversation was #and like SJFBSK #ueah #also we had like two cakes on the table. tiramisu and chocolate and we did this thing last time we hung out at a bakery and got cakes where #we took like half a spoon of the cheesecake and half of a brownie and had it together and it was good #so this person did the same things with todays cakes and when i asked them how it was they said it was good and i should try it #and while he was preparing a bite for me with both cakes he just went #did you know that both tiramisu and chocolate are aphrodisiacs #and i was mentally just like JSBFKSBDK???? KDBSK kinda fucking flustered as shit #and i said woah really? and then i took the spoon they prepared.#and yeag #earlier they also like shifted to sit closer to me but then that might be because of the food #and they also asked me whether ive been with anyone in uni but that conversation got cut short becuase of soemthing else #happening at the table #but yeah.#i THINK they might be flirting with me but i might also be reading this all wrong #they dropped me back off to the apartment tho but then again thats becuase we live in the same building #yeag #fun night fr actually #suggestive #cw suggestive

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bonestrouslingbones · 4 months ago

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suddenly realizing that if i do end up actually following through on majoring/minoring in computer science / graphic design respectively i can never ever tell anyone what got me into it. "oh i made an arg by frankensteining a bunch of custom blog themes together on tumblr dot com for an undertale au roleplay event and realized the html was more fun than the roleplay" just shoot me dead like genuinely

#“just say you made an arg and had fun” AS IF PEOPLE WOULDN'T ASK QUESTIONS ABOUT THE ARG .....#LOOK i try SO HARD not to care about being cringe but the truth is that no matter what being cringe to strangers makes me want to Explode #every conversation i have ever had about my AUs with my irl roommate has been anywhere between 12am-4am otherwise i Can't Fucking Do It #i will give the lame answer and i will say The Paycheck. even though that will likely not exist anymore by the time i graduate #OH and btw that last part isn't to say i haven't had fun writing ebony!!! its been awesome and amazing and great dopamine fuel #however i fear i have definitely hit a wall where i simply do not want to be working on it anymore and im kinda in hell about it #but for the sake of a Good Ending i will persist . slowly #desperately dangling a carrot in front of my own face labeled “you can do a director's commentary when you're done”#“you can point out all the details you really like and show people what they might have missed”#“you can talk about all the shit you made up on the spot or cut out. you can do this with the Entire Blog even”#it is a small carrot. but it is there nonetheless

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celestialmancer · 7 months ago

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Tarot card of the day was Death

& at the bottom of the deck for overall vibe: 5 of pentacles

#stuff for today's morning draw that really. hit. the mark. hard today.#...hard conversations after difficult emotions last night.#reading calling my ass out on things too. confirmed things i know im moving towards/am called towards but also that too.#& then the evening meltdown & spiral i had amidst other things but also led to conversations that. were. necessary. i think.#...this time of year is really. trying me.#last night was the worst of it but so was this evening ig too. & i ended up causing unnecessary worry too & its. augh.#& ik that im probs gonna have to have another difficult (for myself( conversation tomorrow or before externship starts w some ppl too.#which is also. dread.#i cant stress enough how terrifyign this time of year is when things like this happen bc of past incidents & past losses that alwys happen #& then me having delusions bc of fear of trust & vulnerability? im so. on edge & just been a disaster today. but try again later ig.#we're almost through this time of year though. almost.#ishtar rambles ;

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munch-mumbles · 8 months ago

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ive been a little upset about it all night so i need to write out all the things that happened at work today and are bugging me so i can TRY to get it out of my head and actually RELAX bc i just keep pacing in circles around it instead of just accepting it and moving on

#for context i was working frying chicken today. ok so i arrive and literally all the chicken out expires within ten minutes of each other #meanwhile to remake everything takes about an hour 20 #tried my best to get everything out and replaced and make sure i have enough of everything and then take my break bc with chicken there are #few narrow windows to take your break in you have very little control over when it is #get back and while im getting ready for my next fry one of the assistant leaders comes back and passive aggressively asks 'everything ok?'#and when i say yeah shes starts saying how shes 'just checking' because apparently i didnt have enough chicken out for her liking and went #on about how we're in a chicken drive (I KNOW. I WORK CHICKEN SHE NEVER HAS.)#etc etc. i just say ok and she leaves #like 20 minutes later she comes fucking back to rag on me again about how i need to choose my break times better and i need to have more #chicken out there as back up (extremely difficult bc there is literally only so much room in the fryers. the batches i usually make already #nearly completely fill them up) blah blah and then when i try to explain how i WAS making pretty big batches people are just snatching them #up fast she keeps trying to walk out the door right away and keeps stopping and looking over her shoulder to just stare at me while i try t #finish my sentence #and she just. doesnt say anything in response when i do finish she just leaves #so clearly she didnt want a conversation she just wanted to rag on me #then later for cleanup the timing of everything just kept lining up inconveniently so i kept having to get in and out of raw cleaning gear #and slowing myself down and i end up having to stay almost 15 minutes late to finish cleaning #during cleaning i have to go grab a key to the back door to take out my trash and this one coworker i have was standing in the way of the #door. i say excuse me and she just stares at me and goes huh?#and i say i need a key and she barely moves out of the way without responding and she has a look like im bothering her #why are you acting like im being douchey. i just need a key. thats something she does a lot she acts like im inconveniencing her by asking #basic favors . ive stopped asking her to help me open the back door (sometimes needed if i also have raw garbage to take out and therefore #cant touch the key myself) for some reason she takes it upon herself to almost completely close the door after i walk out so when i come #back i have to awkwardly use my foot to reach around and pull the door open #ive asked her before not to do it and she just ignored me #GRAH GRAH. and then like i said in my last rb i realized while i was drivign home i forgot to wash a damn pan #im mostly worried about it because ive forgotten a couple times in the past too . in my defense its a pan i personally dont use but it just #gets left behind from first shift sometimes and then second shifters end up having to make sure its clean #im just irritateddd and im mad im worried about it all. its all little things piling up on each other #LOL I WROTE A LOT MORE BUT THE REST GOT CUT OUT IG I HIT A TAG LIMIT. tumblr voice ok dude quit your bitching !!

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seariii · 8 months ago

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Huh... /pos

#i think that was intp me... because it was very analyzing the situation and giving an answer...#not much through feelings but more about how everything works and how I've seen him act before...#... and then that fact that i got reminded of at the end that helped me close with broche de oro #his reaction through out the conversation seemed uneasy but that last fact seemed to make everything click for him #infp almost poped out when i started talking about our experience... but managed to continue with it as a story and example #still couldn't see their faces for most of that but by his body language and the moments i saw his face it did hit him too #... sigh... well... its on stuff like this that im reminded that intp me does work nicely... and she is very needed...#maybe she isnt as warm as infp me but she cares and is worried too... and to some she still feels warm....#mom isnt good with words and she is very bad at knowing how to tackle the problems... she is too logical and doesnt have much empathy #intp me seems to still have empathy... she just fails misserably a lot of time... then again the last week was hell JAJAJAJJAJAJA #i was emptionally in shambles and couldnt take no more so i probably just tried to turn that off and went full intp #instead of the healthy balance that is needed... especially when helping people.... in any case we are slowly getting back on track #i am slowly regaining energy now that im back home...#seari talks

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peapod20001 · 2 years ago

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In my...✨ depression bed ✨ phase <3

#vent #oho five hours babeeee hungry AND hot AND depressed?? what is this?? my birthday?#hahaha yeaap. it’s cool it’s cool I’m chillin #just vibin. head feels. weird. but I don’t entirely know what up with that it could be a few things if I’m being honest lol #hmmgf when was the last time I just. laid here this often?#laid? layd? layed?? whatever lol #hmm I found a fuckin uhh. vent diagram thing that showed BPD ASHD and Autism and their specific traits and overlaps #is uh. uhm. too close!! like sir!! who gave you!! permission!!!!#oofy anyways uhmmmmmm. realized that I!! don’t interact with people!! as much as I did when I was younger!!#like I had my classmates. my friends. my family. the ppl on tumblr and stuff. yknow #I was talking to someone and shit like!! every day!! for multiple hours!! a day!!!!#now it’s like. wow boy howdy. what are the chances I y’all for more than an hour with LITERALLY ANYONE today :)#uhhghgh gross ew ew nasty. I totally. don’t care that I’m not getting my enrichment #I’ll jus read tags on my art and look through old messages in place of actually. talking to anyone #mmm. conversations hard. hate talking about myself. don’t know anything besides myself. hate certain topics (but won’t say anything bout it)#anndd yeaa!! I don’t understand ppl and their motives and why they like me specifically. I put on my best personality for youu #I’m playing off of you and mirroring how you act so you’ll be ok with me <3 but that’s ok I suppose. I don’t think anyone here is out for my #guys so I’m doing good at least somewhat lol. ahmm. you ever not care about being something special to someone else. and then they kindaa.#squash that idea? and in theory you shouldn’t care since you didn’t want it in the first place but. them saying it hits? different? like oou #oh and question I don’t expect anyone to answer. you ever cried cus. someone aid you were their friend? best friend specifically? idk man #2 ppl have said I’m their best friend an I had to literally force myself not to get emotional at the first one and then I legitimately cried #with the second one LMAO like. how ridiculous is that yea? yeah #it’s. yeah. I’ve called ppl my bffs or whatever before but. it’s different when someone says it to you first ig. before I think they only #gave me the label out of convenience. not that we weren’t actually friends (at least I hope we were DHHDV) but. idk!! I literally yearned #for like!! basic shiittt!! I got put in time out like beginning of kindergarten cus I cried over my 1st best friend partnering with a new #girl instead of me!!! 😭 woof. that was the ONLY time I ever cried in public EVER. didn’t matter how many time I got hurt physically or #emotionally or how stressed I got or how confused or embarrassed and humiliated I was!! I’m NEVER letting people look at me like I’m stupid #for caring EVER. AGAIN. woof ok getting off the rails here I was like at least sort of ok when I started writing this but now I’m very much #NOT lololol so uhhhhhhhhhhh. anyways. let you get back to scrolling or swiping or whatever. I’ll be finnee totally. just. here

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nerdie-faerie · 2 years ago

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It seems to really be hitting my mum just how young she was when she had me in light of her upcoming birthday

#+Extra #like on the one hand she feels old cus its a big birthday coming up but on the other hand it seems to only just be hitting her just #how young she is to have a 22 year old daughter which is frankly old news at this point she was always too young just in denial #we had a very odd conversation last night in which she started off by saying that my soon go be 18 yr old brother and the 19 yr old #definitely arent responsible enough to watch the kids for a couple of hours while she gets her hair but then that its ridiculous that an #under 18 yr old (her phrasing) cannot open a bank account without a parent because she was entrusted with an entire human being at that #age and so he should be able to open a bank account by himself and i was listening like no thats the wrong conclusion its the opposite the #adults in your life shouldve been more concerned about you also what a revisionist recount saying that no one was concerned about you #having a baby at the age and it was probably because my dad was an adult so they felt they had no need to be concerned when i know all of #your family tried to express concerns that you wouldnt hear which led to years of animosity during my childhood staff at your college also #expressed concern as did your friends you just dont wanna admit that now. also how can they not be trusted with the kids for a couple of #hours when youre 15 minutes down the road as basically adults when 1 is going off to uni in September supposedly and the other has #basically moved out already and i was left entirely alone with the kids at younger than 15?#the sexism and gender stereotyping continues to perplex me #anyway hoping no one got to the end of this rant to add that im once again reminded that my birthday is actually just a day for my mum to #mourn the youth she missed out on by having a baby stupid young

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somelazyassartist · 2 years ago

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Sometimes you just don't sleep for 3 days because you're too busy weeping over the fact that a 111 year old mail ship at the bottom of the Atlantic will probably completely erode within your lifetime. for fun

#I've been trying to dig out my books and documentaries and memorabilia since i want to start reading up on it again #this ship was such a huge part of my life for such a long time #(to the point where when meeting new people sometimes my parents had to actively tell me not to bring it up in conversation lol)#because for like 5-6 years of my kid-to-preteen life it was the Big Thing my autistic ass brain latched onto #i managed to find 7 of my books‚ 2 cds‚ a vhs‚ a dvd‚ and two of my postcards to display with my new titanic coal hourglass my mom got me #but I'm sad i haven't managed to find the rest of my collection yet‚ i know i have more books and documentaries and posters and stuff #i know for a fact i didn't get rid of at least most of my collection #but I'll keep an eye out for em #they're bound to be somewhere in my garage‚ i just need to figure out what box they'd be in #but um. yes I'm very emotional about this particular boat and its occupants at the moment #but also i should probably take a nap I've spent the last 3 days pretty much just digging out and reading through my books #i haven't really slept much and i have stuff to do today lmao #I've just been so violently hit with this hyperfixation resurfacing that it's hard to think of much else at the moment lmao

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maburp · 8 days ago

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I’m in my early 20s so sometimes I forget I don’t live in a vacuum. If I fail here, if I pause here, there is so shame or rush, there are people around me that can help break my fall and I’m so lucky for that. My only job is to explore and figure out what will leave me with a fulfilling life and how my friends and family fit into that.

#I’m a neuroscience major and I have no idea what I want to do with it anymore.#in highschool and early university years it was always medical school #but first year and second year of university really broke me down #I have been considering what career I want since second year and have panicked and panicked and panicked #I don’t want to mess up the career I choose but. I have to understand that it’s ok if I do.#there’s probably no career that will be truly satisfactory #i’m rambling #I wish I had a clear cut goal #something that is driving me or something big and lofty I want to accomplish #I’m just going to list things I want in a career rn bc I’m ranting anyways #I don’t want to climb a hierarchy or rather I don’t care for it. I’m not the best at conversations and I’m terribly awkward #but I do get an energy boost when I talk to people #but my focus is best when I work on my own bc I tend to make more mistakes when working with others #when I do research for an assignment I can focus for hours at a time without getting up #all of these make me think that research might be smth to pursue rather than healthcare #but I’m scared about work life balance and general job stability #also imposter syndrome is going to hit hard #I have to do my best to get smth research positiony this summer so atleast I have experience before my last year of undergrad #and that way I’ll KNOW if it’s smth I want.#if all else fails I might go into medical lab tech bc it’s lab work forever and that sounds fun #or rad tech bc it’s a bit repetitive but also I’m scared that bc I would be working with ppl I’d make more mistakes #I just do NOT want to work in business #I’m so privelaged being able to choose a career like this when my parents couldn’t and had to grab at whatever they could #I think that’s part of the guilt of potentially failing. like I CANNOT fail my parents who worked so hard to be here and let me choose #GOD do I want stability most? do I want to learn something new regularly? id love to learn something new everyday #I think I might end up compromise and go into rad tech bc then I’ll be able to maybe do research with the brain and have a stable backup?#talks maburp #THERES TOO MANY CHOICES TOO MANY OPPORTUNITIES TOO MANY THINGS TO CONSIDER #I’m so lucky to be able to consider all these things #YAllah give me strength to make decisions and not get stuck like I keep doing this year. Yallah let opportunities drop on my lap

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nomairuins · 3 months ago

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thank GODDD the doctor is taking time to work on himself maybe now he can stop ruining womens lives .

#mildly joke but im so excited those specials were so fun...#we watched all the 14th dr specials bc Major donna fan ohh my god they were fun i liked them....#i worry im like. being unfair somehow. but i loved like..some of the things with 13 i just likee. the writing it was..off to me... sigh. i #rly wish her seasons had better writers i suppose. BUT. im excited bc my mom told me 15s run is super good so far #i cant believe im almost caught up wndr who. a crazy world i live in. i suppose next me and my mom will have to huddle around an old timey #radio like max n ruby to listen to the audio dramas #and then wencan read bedtime stories to eachother or something #Or of course i could just track down the old series. KDNFJFN. but the computer always its a commodity...#but ya. those were funn i rly liked the like. 2 of them had a bit of body horror like. mild babys first body horror. but i liked it. and #they were funnyyy god i missed donna so bad the show is SO funny with her there. the chemistry w her and 10nis just chefs kiss. loves it #i feel bad bc i liked the like. Suggested personalities of the last companions but they felt kind of lackluster in practice ? like..it felt #like we were told how they were but in practice they kind of just. were there. and then would react to the dr. and then were judt there #idk... i wish they had been more like. fleshed out one supposes #it rly to me feels like they spent 13s seasons kind of just farting around and then covid hit and they were like Fuck now we have to like.#avtually write a plot #flux was like. i think you can do a storyline w like. a bunch of different plotlines that all ties up but it was confusing #😭😭 it ws like. ig rhe most engaged i was w/ 13 but thats just bc stuff was being thrown at me constantly...#but ya. its rly nice to see donna again after having a bunch of companions who just didnt feel like they got their time to shine. in my eyes #bc donna feels so well written and real and like. believable to me. like it feels like shes an active member instead of like. just standing #around and then having her alloted 4 minute emotional conversation before jumping back into action. yk #also i literally said as soon as the bigeneration happens Oh rhis is good 14 can judt go be a weird uncle. ajd then he literally did #so funny tho that rose and donna get their own tennant doctors and then my best friend martha is just chopped liver ig.#good for her tho. that man needs to stay away from her (joke)#but ya. YAY. intrigued by nailpolish woman its also fun bc weve gotten to the point where my mom has only watched the episodes once #so she knows less and its more fresh for her #which is rly fun. im a little worried about umm. when were fully caught up #bc i believe my mom and dad watch the eps together #and like. yk. much love to my dad but like. idk me and my mom have a specific sort of banter when we watch and like. he sits in sometimes #and i tend to just go silent 😭😭😭#its like. not a conscious thing i just. yk. i have trouble being Relaxed when theyre in the same room together

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schizowitchic · 5 months ago

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i keep forgetting that theres a work party next week and im actually going for once because its actually at a convenient time for me. why did i think this was a good idea (im sure it has nothing to do with the guy who is occasionally on my mind being there.... which is a stupid reason bc people who he is friends with will be there so it's not like he's even going to speak to me.... although the machines at work are getting in the way of me speaking to him because they made conversation - that he started, might i point out - between us nigh on impossible) . ......................... anyways it's bring ur own drinks and i can't honestly be bothered to pour any more money into this (its already costing me a fiver and what little sanity i have left) .... and also it's on a beach and they have organised activities such as team sports so i might actually kms im not capable of that BUT i have to go bc im not wasting the money & i do have friends (well. sort of.) who are going

#nyxie be quiet challenge #why is the bar on the fucking floor with me though like this guy is nice to me at work ON OCCASION #and im like “i need to have conversations with you rn”#he gave me his jacket once when i was on the drive thru and it was cold #and he offered to switch which drinks we were making when i was severely struggling with the bit i was doing once #OH and when we were at a party and he happened to be there . me & my friends were dancing to queen of the waves from barbie outside #he decided to join in?? which was. random.#and he holds the honour of having said the funniest thing a man has ever said to me which is “(name) baby hit that vape”#yes he was probably drunk but idc. iconic #and the other week he was asking me about uni and exams and stuff and immmmm being sooooo normal about this #dont be greyromantic. crushes will come and bite u in the ass even if u are romance repulsed #and he can drive what more could i want in a man #and he plays rugby #last week he also said i was going to be fired for being fifteen minutes late and i was like “oh no....”#i'll shut up now this is embarrassing #oh well i have fourteen followers this isnt exactly going to become a tumblr-wide hit

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