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maburp · 1 month ago

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I’m in my early 20s so sometimes I forget I don’t live in a vacuum. If I fail here, if I pause here, there is so shame or rush, there are people around me that can help break my fall and I’m so lucky for that. My only job is to explore and figure out what will leave me with a fulfilling life and how my friends and family fit into that.

#I’m a neuroscience major and I have no idea what I want to do with it anymore.#in highschool and early university years it was always medical school #but first year and second year of university really broke me down #I have been considering what career I want since second year and have panicked and panicked and panicked #I don’t want to mess up the career I choose but. I have to understand that it’s ok if I do.#there’s probably no career that will be truly satisfactory #i’m rambling #I wish I had a clear cut goal #something that is driving me or something big and lofty I want to accomplish #I’m just going to list things I want in a career rn bc I’m ranting anyways #I don’t want to climb a hierarchy or rather I don’t care for it. I’m not the best at conversations and I’m terribly awkward #but I do get an energy boost when I talk to people #but my focus is best when I work on my own bc I tend to make more mistakes when working with others #when I do research for an assignment I can focus for hours at a time without getting up #all of these make me think that research might be smth to pursue rather than healthcare #but I’m scared about work life balance and general job stability #also imposter syndrome is going to hit hard #I have to do my best to get smth research positiony this summer so atleast I have experience before my last year of undergrad #and that way I’ll KNOW if it’s smth I want.#if all else fails I might go into medical lab tech bc it’s lab work forever and that sounds fun #or rad tech bc it’s a bit repetitive but also I’m scared that bc I would be working with ppl I’d make more mistakes #I just do NOT want to work in business #I’m so privelaged being able to choose a career like this when my parents couldn’t and had to grab at whatever they could #I think that’s part of the guilt of potentially failing. like I CANNOT fail my parents who worked so hard to be here and let me choose #GOD do I want stability most? do I want to learn something new regularly? id love to learn something new everyday #I think I might end up compromise and go into rad tech bc then I’ll be able to maybe do research with the brain and have a stable backup?#talks maburp #THERES TOO MANY CHOICES TOO MANY OPPORTUNITIES TOO MANY THINGS TO CONSIDER #I’m so lucky to be able to consider all these things #YAllah give me strength to make decisions and not get stuck like I keep doing this year. Yallah let opportunities drop on my lap

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