#that goes for you other three too

[feketeribizli]

[on the cheating rumours regarding his involvement with the seperation between sally carrera and teammate montgomery "monty" mcqueen after their two years of engagement]

[declamationark]

Would it be funny if the summoning ritual for the ghost king (danny) just cycles through the three dannys cuz they're all technically danny and the magic is going through a bit of a ??? error coding before defaulting to a randomized setting? Like, who do you think you'll get when you summon? Is it the actual ghost king Danny (14, sleep-deprived, sassy, ect), is it Dani/Ellie (technically toddler age, chaos-incarnate, ect) or is it Dan (huge, can throw you into space as a reversed shooting star, destroyed the entire world in a timeline, ect)? Who knows, not even the three do and they keep a board at home with scrawled tally marks and sidenotes where they roast each other

[pantherxdrawz]

*crashes from the ceiling*

hyperfixations back. “Huh” *pulls out the AAI collection (and the fact I have the game on Switch and the Demo on Xbox)* Hyperfixation’s back.

Now comes with Alt. Text! (I might also go back and add Alt text to the previous installments but no promises it might just be a going forward thing)

Actually the hyperfixations been back for a while I’m just now posting and I wanted to be funny

Previous Posts in this series if you’d like to check those out: 1 2 3

[kindaorangey]

so accidentally-on-purpose starting a cult with your best friend in your teens on a mystical and infinite train isn't exactly the most relatable experience in the world, so i always think it's interesting to look at what real-world parallels grace and simon's relationship fallout has to the real world. one that i've spoken about a lot before is how it feels to realise that your guy best friend only wanted you for your body (which is barely even a parallel with grace and simon, really, as it's an implicit part of simon's perception of grace), but i think another major and very current one is political radicalisation

because yes, the paramaters of simon's radicalisation are fantastical, because they're based around the train and denizens and such, but the mechanics of his radicalisation - and how grace responds to it - are the same as they would be in real life. as the season progresses, simon's justification for his treatment of hazel, his resentment of grace, his perception of amelia, all become wild and borderline incomprehensible. yet he asserts them as if they are the truth, rather than something that he's made up, or something that feels true to him. it's reminiscent of reconnecting with a friend or relative you haven't seen in a while and their conversation diverting hard out of the blue to talk about right-wing conspiracy.

and, like you might to this friend in real life, grace tries to extend a hand to simon - explaining her own behaviour, apologising, assuring him she understands that she hurt him - she even tries to meet him where he is (think: when she tries to include hazel in the apex after it's revealed to everyone that hazel is a denizen). she does everything she can think of to bring him back down to reality and to empathise with him, but it falls on deaf ears.

and, then, the optics of it all - simon being a white man, while grace is a black woman (i also think it matters that tuba, amelia, and hazel are all women as well). if you apply this lens to simon and grace, there's certainly a racist and sexist dimension to his refusal to see her as a person the further he is radicalised.

tl;dr i'm not trying to say the writers had this in mind when writing book 3, but simon and grace's arc pretty much follows the real-world experience of watching your friend go down the alt-right pipeline

[dan-whoell]

tell me more about love being more important than reality please

(this isn't going to be coherent at all and for that I am so sorry. let's blame it on it being 1 am almost 2 am and not on me generally being incoherent)

the thing is, right, they never technically 'hard launched'. even though they've confirmed and flaunted their relationship a thousand times in a thousand different ways, and every video feels more and more like we're intruding on a private moment, they've never outright said it without some semblance of plausible deniability/ a joke ("husbands, business partners, [...] soul mates, just mates, who the fuck knows") Like that is reality. It's why we have the joke about their ability to toe the line so closely but somehow never actually cross it.

But then you have "Six months of being an uncle" and "You must be be so proud" and it's like... sure the reality is they never confirmed their relationship (and one could argue those captions are the Hard Launch) but that's not as important as showing Dan the love they have for him, publicly supporting him and claiming him as part of their family. Like 'who cares what you have or haven't said about your attachment to him, what matters is WE love you and it's even more important that you KNOW we love you like a brother.'

and of course this is just approaching it from a familial kind of love coming from the Lesters, a romantic perspective from Phil himself is another ballpark entirely. But that boils down to 'logistically there are easier ways to live but the love we have is more important so we will stubbornly continue this way until it all works out the way we want it to' (and then it did. against all odds, it did.)

[moeblob]

Keaton and Ida (Famine and Pestilence)

Keaton really likes mobile gacha games and gets heavily invested in leaderboards and will sacrifice Quality Time with the group to stare at his phone (while in person with the group bc participation trophy). Ida likes food and if she wants to meet up with the other horsemen, she needs it somewhere with food. It also helps her be polite if she has food in her mouth so she can't say everything she's thinking.

Basically both of them are like "if I have to be around Delm, I need a comfort" and that comfort is either gacha games or eating/drinking.

[weidli]

cameras are flashing while we're dirty dancing

[loversveil]

ur therapist: straight hair max cant hurt you he isnt real

straight hair max

[tinypaperstar]

offers u alnst oc stats

[joeku-xiv]

one big misconception of majima in the fandom is that he constantly molds himself into what the people wants him to be, but it’s quite the opposite. no one pretends or even asks him to do it, he does all of it alone. majima alone decides to mold himself in what he thinks the other need, without ever confronting the other side, not the other way around

majima isn’t passively accepting what other people want to do with him, he’s actively doing this to himself. he’s not some sort of victim in this, it’s all his doing

[everyone-calm-down]

See most people are thinking about the new Trolls movie as the silly-fun-boy-band movie that it is. However, I am incapable of being normal about anything and if there’s ONE thing that I’ll always be able to rant about it’s child endangerment.

Okay, so we’re led to believe that Floyd did his due diligence for Branch by ensuring that he’s in the care of Grandma Rosiepuff before he dips out. HOWEVER, upon maybe 5 seconds of thought about those logistics, I don’t think he DID do his due diligence.

The first movie sets up two distinct chunks of time, when the trolls are living in Troll Tree and when they’re living in the forest. It’s mostly implied, but the tree is characterized as being a prison AKA near impossible to escape from. This is why they need to secretly dig escape tunnels. And in this timeline, Rosiepuff died WHILE the trolls were still trapped in the tree.

The tree being implied to be inescapable and the timing of Rosie’s death paint a confusing picture for me. With these two facts, Brozone would have had to break up WHILE they were still living in the tree since Floyd left the care of Branch to Rosie. But what did the brothers do after the breakup? They would have either had to have found a way (or four separate ways) to escape the tree or they were avoiding each other in the tree until the day of the escape. And in BOTH of these scenarios, they did not make sure they did right by Branch before they left.

In scenario 1, where they actually leave the tree and scatter to the winds, what the fuck would be the reason to leave not only Branch, but Rosie and every other troll in the tree? Trolls are getting ritualistically sacrificed every year. Why are we leaving a TODDLER in that situation if there’s a way to escape? Why are we leaving ANYONE in that situation if there’s a way to escape? I can understand the necessity of having small groups to remain hidden during an escape, but you can’t tell me that it’s preferable to leave a small child and an elderly person in a dire situation if you’ve found a feasible way to get to safety.

Scenario 2 is even worse. If the brothers weren’t able to leave the tree and were just doing their best to be no-contact with each other up until the escape, then they really dropped the ball by not ensuring that Branch had another guardian after Rosie died. And to be fair, this is murky waters because we don’t actually know what the rest of Branch’s time in the tree was like after her death. He COULD have had a guardian. But they really imply that he remained alone and if that’s true AND the brothers were still in the tree, then I’d argue that it was their responsibility to make sure Branch was being cared for before they dipped. Which they didn’t, since Branch says that he hasn’t seen or heard from them since they initially left.

Anyway, my point is that the movie tries to placate us by showing the scene of Floyd leaving Branch with their Grandma but upon even a touch of thought, that was not a reasonable situation to leave their kid brother in and they needlessly endangered him which resulted in spending nearly his entire childhood and all of his teenage years gray.

[unproduciblesmackdown]

revisited some parts of deh i hadn't in a while via obc boots, mostly kicked off by audio of an aus tour show, & it's like now hang on lol reevaluating the whole of heidi's material / that arc like i have been too generous what in the....kind of worked backwards from good for you b/c for that song i've Been like sympathetic re: alana & jared's sections while like Shrug at heidi like i'm on evan's side there really. but the whole thing is like, sympathy for heidi's feelings aside, i'm on evan's side b/c like yeah heidi has feelings & insecurities too but it's not the same peer to peer like fellow unpopular couple of students as parent to child & i'm looking at it all like The Whole Thread is heidi's insecurities as A Mother & the demand is on evan all the time to not just Not cause her insecurity but also assuage ones that have nothing to do with him, e.g. what's he supposed to say about digs at his dad's wife

& like really going over that First Scene i.e. opening scene post evan's soliloquy i.e. anybody have a map it's like. sure only increasingly like Oh Boy when evan not being able to order pizza despite the online option is met with the "you Need to be able to order dinner for yourself" ft. that he should be "too old for this" (disability....grow up) (not a direct quote but rather yknow the "you're a senior in high school, evan" intro) & nothing about like, support or alternatives, certainly nothing about it being Okay that he couldn't. just that he Has to do this thing this way (why. or else what.) & also just the simple fact that evan has been honest about "something wrong with him" / something he did that he figures she wouldn't like & gotten this wholly negative response about that just being Unacceptable to hear, regardless of the "positive" pivot like you can do it re: school, just must not be Trying enough, just must be evan's own attitude or something else about him, the letters had better help....& all this revisiting inspired by beau woodbridge evan's delivery after heidi says the line about Her Not Wanting To Hear (framed about Her Feelings if evan were to Tell her about this) about evan having no friends, & like the delivery of "neither do i??" like a sort of nonplussed indignation that is a kind of "how do you think *i* feel about it??" like no yeah what about evan's feelings about him dealing with his problems here, the one not having dinner, not having friends, not Not having anxiety, etc. like obviously heidi like every person ever has feelings & problems too but it's that the parent's problems are supposed to be Made Up For by the child somehow, while evan's problems are framed as Being A Problem for his mom, how she feels about Knowing about it, try harder please okay evan....but cue, yknow, how she resents evan feeling any responsibility for Her Problems in gfy yknow not insofar as she's been embarrassed to tell him like "yeah money is a problem" when it's been about pushing him to get scholarships but rather when the murphys know (maybe just via evan implying they're Not Rich to zoe after zoe is like ah, to be poor....) that heidi will need Financial Support for college for evan & then heidi like i'm not That poor & to take money would be wrong (always the reminder heidi does not know everything re: evan & connor isn't true either)

which, that last part of her dinner at the murphys pre gfy was really this time hitting like ://// whew okay. all of it always grating lmao but like, "i don't want evan to get the idea etc" like ma'am he's sitting right here? he's seventeen? can't just Declare the ideas evan will or won't absorb even though like yeah also clearly it's about her pride as A Good Mom being wounded & just putting it on evan by expressing it that way like no i have to be A Good Mom via my example, is why i must decline....& like i'm sure it can all be softened depending on how heidi is played but still like, this is about her Full Story / Material, & just what is written lol like even if she was more [pensive emoji single tear] in delivery or something, vs watching the obc like full anger & contempt by this point & i'm like yeah this Shouldn't be familiar if the excuse of like "well heidi is messing up in this Special Occasion, an outlier" really went that far. or was actually out of line w/how she acts other times. or how this all resolves. but heidi storming out While lashing out at evan / blaming him like my god lmfaooo & like. speaking of "do you think the murphy parents did read between the lines & think evan & connor are secret gay high school lovers" like gee evan having no problem moving in to the murphy household, keeping secrets from his mom like his ostensible epic friendship w/connor, not talking aobut her or really trying on his own to involve her, being fairly alarmed when Surprise Dinner With Your Mom, heidi acting like That??? like "do you think the murphy parents read between the lines to think evan is abused by his parent" i mean like lol lmfaooo on both points like heternormativity? the normativity of abuse & parents Owning their child as well? in the murphy household? but you know. of course no deh is not supposed to be about that but i'm like, uh oh, whole time i was like "well my own perspective based on what i learned from personal experience & then learned About such experiences isn't that relevant at least to heidi b/c it's supposed to be that she's Not Like That at the end of the day" but i'm like is it in effect though lol, is it really that different In Essence if not also like "yep the way heidi acts is just directly familiar sometimes. maybe often. or always" difference in degree like. plus just that how often is whatever particular lens/perspective like Useless to apply

anyway & that fight in the leadup to gfy is wild & just like further illuminating re: how the whole time, from the first scene, it's like okay to heidi what's most important in her motivations is Her Insecurity about how anything about evan supposedly reflects on her being a mom, like. again that heidi has no idea everything about evan & connor isn't true & she's just going sicko mode at evan b/c the murphys Aren't His Family, yknow, She is, & that entitlement that's supposed to come with it, evan can't have these other adults acting Parently towards him re: money & housing & dinners & feeling fond of him or anything, all circumventing her status as His Mother....the whole "sorry i can't give you more than that, shit" "well it's not my fault other people can" like yeah sorry about your feelings heidi, yeah it's not "nice" of evan to say that but i'm not like yes evan must never even think things that aren't nice(tm) much less say them, that again like even if we sympathize w/heidi there b/c obviously yeah she'd be hurt & feel insecure. even if we suppose that was mean of evan. i'm like well yeah he's right. just setting aside the apparent universal desire for a life as closely approximating the brady bunch as possible, it's like hey yeah look evan's been getting dinners this way, re: him not ordering a pizza at the start of a show. turning out to be less important like "well at least you've been eating, good" than evan not doing so through the Proper efforts to Become Normal(tm) & of course that like. coming from another mom staying home making him food is unacceptable b/c she imagines this is supplanting her / making her the Bad Mom vs this Good Mom & then taking it out on evan to make her feel Good Enough(tm) like truly just the usual fallback refrain of "ohh sorry i'm not perfect / have feelings / have problems" which is true for everyone ever but yknow evan is the one having to Defend his feelings & problems & imperfections against the fallout of "failing" to be "responsible" for mitigating or fulfilling heidi's & she's the one who can break out "i'm your mother" whereas evan's less overtly declared "i'm your son" about her potentially failing Him is what gets met with more contempt & "ohh sorry i'm not perfect & have feelings & problems" & her starting off Good For You. great

& like the way All That illustrates, like the way evan getting dinner now through a different now available avenue is, to heidi, more about her own feelings than about [evan gets dinner now], like just that expanded to how it's not Okay that evan's problems seem to be getting better / he's getting more support / he's doing better or anything as soon as heidi becomes insecure about her not having the role she wants in it. the entire thread about her being bothered about evan not telling her things, lying about things, hiding things, like yeah evident that she Is worried about him but same as she's evidently worried about him in the first scene, when, again, we Did see him share something honestly with her & she was like "UGH evan jeez i Hate that you told me this" & then her input is to tell him to Get Good, yknow, must be his own failures, get on that. gosh why would he keep anything from her. & then yknow we have that line later on, evan like you don't know me & heidi like "i thought i did" (contempt again) & like the main issue of this not being like "oh no if i Don't know him or about his problems then i'm not supporting him like i thought i was / he's not getting the support Overall i thought he was" but rather like i can't believe evan is doing this to me / her insecurities & evan's "responsibility" for them, again, rather than yknow. evan's wellbeing regardless of her personal feelings? & we're ready for resolution after heidi inadvertently reads his diary to realize he was that sad & it's like. even if he wasn't That Sad like none of that response was okay. at any point lol like it's still the issue of her dynamic with him where evan is In Charge Of how heidi feels & that obviously she can act on this in the ways she can & what can evan do about anything but avoid her / not share things / idk indeed move in with this other family lol, sorry about the pretenses (also obviously like. murphy parents not doing that much better. certainly larry like, are you kidding? never changes his mind that all connor's problems were connor's fault & Failings & now his reaction to it is about facing any insecurity & Rejecting It as no i'm always right & just have to hold out forever. vs that zoe is also bearing the brunt of being Trapped In The Family(tm) but cynthia dares to be like "no, i feel like i failed my dead son" & "no, i don't feel someone 'has to be the bad guy' who tramples boundaries")

like speaking of boundaries. ppl having always pointed out "uh oh, heidi's not good with those" or the point like "in gfy heidi's also mad about the rejection by her ex-husband & just putting that over her fight w/evan" like not beating the [parent making their child the one in charge of them & their feelings & actions] allegations.......

& you know, the resolution like "ohh you were sadder than i knew" like okay Now that matters instead of heidi Just being insecure that he wasn't sharing this with her already, thus the important part being how that makes her feel like a bad mom vs like, how evan is actually doing & her actual role in this beyond what makes her feel best, personally? or that like oh i'm Not going to not be here, physically, in this house....like okay. but what about the actual dynamic you have while around him & you will always be around him, b/c like, has that changed from the start. how is heidi going to offer support re: evan Feeling Like This that's different from "you Need to order pizza and Need to get your cast signed, Just Do It" or that b/c she doesn't want to hear otherwise like well then of course evan won't tell her, or maybe a therapist if that's not confidential, or other people if it'll get back to his mom, or the internet if that'll get back to his mom which i guess it will. is evan gonna be not in charge of her feelings anymore. i'm just like yeah evan find yourself in college sure get outta there idk if you're even rude along the way. & obv shoot larry into the sun

[luck-of-the-drawings]

when i was in highschool one o my biggest coping mechanisms was drawing all the kids i hated getting killed and eaten and killed. and well. time is a slowly ascending spiral. you will find patterns.(i work as a blackjack dealer. gamblers are FASCINATING

[eyrieofsynapses]

me @ my professor: why tf did you have to put an exam the day after election day. wtf. we're already stressed out and bouncing off the walls. cruel

me, today: ...fine. maybe frantically studying is a distraction. whatever

[beekissies]

i reset my chats so i could get the arthur confession one i wanted but hes not in my backroom anymore........ im so sad

[voiceshearingyouloud]

Finally properly sobbing after not being able to cry all day is such a great feeling