#i remember feeling like the Resident Idiot. sweet but so so fucking dumb. it took me 7 years of strife n stress before i finally graduated

[luck-of-the-drawings]

when i was in highschool one o my biggest coping mechanisms was drawing all the kids i hated getting killed and eaten and killed. and well. time is a slowly ascending spiral. you will find patterns.(i work as a blackjack dealer. gamblers are FASCINATING

[dia-sana]

I will seek Spring if Winter intends to last

Pairing: Saeran/Unknown/Ray x MC Genre: Romance. Disclaimer: None. A/N: Are you my savior, dear Anon? I saw your request when I was on the 8th night (Fate!!!), I was so depressed because I cannot stand seeing Saeran in pain but you gave me an opportunity to write a happy ending and I feel slightly better ｡ﾟ(TヮT)ﾟ｡ ♥

For some reason, he was back in her room. There was no point to it. It was useless and only made him depressed. Lazily, he dropped his body on the side of her bed. He was fully aware of what Ray used to do every time he came here, since she left. Laying in there, inhaling only what remained of her presence, drowning their memories in intractable tears as he tried to find out where everything went wrong, what he did that was worth corrosive agony… And Unknown was somehow curious. What was it like to scent her? He only knew what she was like thanks to his feeble mind mate and wondered how he would feel himself. He was pretty well aware of his beating heart longing for her and his mind going places he never went before. But was he that weak for her too? Hesitantly, he laid on her sheets and took her pillow closer. To his own surprise, the process revealed to be intoxicating, pleasant beyond state. This girl was something drastically special. His heart beating faster, he clenched on the submerged agitation he choked with. If she was able to make him feel this helpless without even being here, it would definitely be even more tremendous if he got to her. Therefore, now more than ever, he wanted to get her. Worship her so he could feel all those intense sensations with a much more stirring potency. She drove him crazier than he already was and how amusing this was for him to finally find something beautifully rousing in this world. Without much daze, he chuckled at her sudden phone call. Even if she may not have had any intention on coming back, she sure was addicted to him.

“I want to have you… No matter what. Didn’t Ray also say that?”

Getting the coordinates of their positions proved to be quite easy. The redhead was good but not as much as him or Ray. Hence, he only needed to distract Luciel with a weird coding pattern and stole his informations while he was busy looking away. Half an hour later, he was in his car, not giving any thought about Mint Eye or his savior. Ray may have been the most loyal person on this planet, Unknown knew what was important now. They both were perfectly conscious that they were used by Rika but the difference between them resided on the fact that Ray could not stand alone. Thinking about that, could Unknown really do it? Probably. He had that ache pinned to his chest but his mindset and projects were enough to drive him far even by himself. If it were for him, every damn problem Mint Eye had would have been resolved since long ago. At least, that was what he thought.

The clock indicated that it was past two in the morning and he pressed on the accelerator. He had to get to her before the redhead became suspicious or this dumbass would take annoying measures in order to keep her in his little impenetrable tower. His right hand tensed around the steering wheel while his left hand was hovering outside of his opened window, to feel the cold wind in a vain attempt at calming the everlasting irked storm in him. He recalled how much Mint Eye meant to him. How his savior saved his miserable life and gave him an opportunity to avenge for his injustice. But may it be him or Ray, something became slightly more important than this to them. Or more precisely, someone. They both saw how the savior grew attached to their precious tester. Who would not? The issue was that they knew she would keep her to herself if she could. Ray may have dumbly complied because of his puppy nature but Unknown could not let such thing happen. She was his. His favorite little toy had no other place than by his side. Thus, he wondered. It may have been possible that the only outcome available for them was to do what she asked to Ray on the phone some time ago. “Can we not run away together?”. That marshmallow should have agreed. What a fucking idiot. Nonetheless, it gave the opportunity to Unknown to be the one to shine in his doll’s eyes. If he was the one to rescue her and to satisfy her plead, she would desperately fall for him. More than for Ray. That pink gummy may be all sweet, but he was such a pain in the ass. Unknown was way more fun to be with.

It was past three when his car stationed in front of the cabin where the two traitors and her were. How delicate she was to be innocent enough to fall for their trap; he would have to keep an eye on her if he did not want to see her hurt in the future. Anyhow, he had already decided on detaining her in his line of sight. Problem solved. Stepping out of the driver seat, he approached the place slowly. They heard the engine for sure. In that sense, there was no need to be stealthy nor make a fuss. Would that redhead remembered him when he would see his face? Would he be tormented? He was not here for him now but he still hoped to see some pain taint his dumb face. He was not even close to the door when this one opened, his princess running towards him at full speed. Was it relief that he witnessed on her face just before she crashed against him for a hug? His hands hesitantly made their way to her back and hair, arms wrapping around her as he exhaled in solace. She was there. Right in front of him. Right in his arms. She was there.

- Ray, you came. I missed you so much.

He sneered before placing two fingers on her chin. Temptation was delicious as he noticed how the stars gave a soft tint to her lips. Still, he fairly jumped as she unexpectedly pressed them against his, leaving him like a breathless mess. He felt drowsy for a second but soon got grip of the situation and tightened his embrace before responding to her kiss with a feverish desire. Far in his head, he could hear Ray almost fainting partly of happiness, partly of jealousy. But, overall, they were both euphoric and Unknown, for once, could not care any less about what Ray was doing. When they broke the buss, he laughed once more with his devilish octaves, pretending his cheek were not invaded by a wide mist of pink as ha gave her an amused stare.

- You know that I am not Ray, right, little doll?

Again, she surprised him as she only smiled and kissed him a second time with much more tenderness. Only a peck that left him frustrated but aroused anyway.

- I figured what was your link with Ray already.

She stated her sentence with such cute pride, he could only melt on the inside. Which kind of disgusted him because Ray was doing the same and just nope. Leisurely, he took her wrists so he could free his neck and shoulders from her hug but kept her hands in his as he was afraid she would vanish again. He understood why Ray was such an emotional wreck every time they were together; this girl was something beyond this world. Lucky her for not being able to read all the things that crossed his mind as he thought about what they would do as soon as they would find shelter away from here. For a brief second, he looked away from her just to monitor their surroundings and that is when he saw Luciel. All the cheesy sparkling delight he felt disappeared instantly as they were hunted down by anger and turmoil. His arch enemy was at the doorway, grim devastation carved in every trait of his visage. Was Saeran really satisfied with that? He wished he could have proclaimed how happy this made him but something was odd, like an old memory he could not recall properly. In this instant, he could have reach out to him, ask for his help so he could flee with his love and hide or suggest that they stayed together, the three of them. Yet, that was not what he did nor what he believe he wanted. Eight years of convincing had made his beliefs harder than carbon and there was no coming back for now.

- Saeran… What are you doing here?

Finally, he spoke. His voice was merely a whisper in the night, a sound carried by the breeze of the early hours of the new day. But it still sounded oh-so painful and Saeran was confused at how much it  seemed genuine. This was not the time for chatter and he frowned in aggravated resentment as his lips curved in his most menacing smirk.

- I am not here for you tonight, Luciel.

Saeran eyes softened to an astounding extend as he gazed back to his princess before whispering in her ear to go seat in his car. His command was muttered with tenderness but she could not miss the hazardous undertone hinting that she had no choice there. She did as she was told and Unknown watched closely until she was secured. There was no doubt that Luciel would intend on getting her back. However, that redhead was out of words, speechless. There was nothing he could do here as he was a prisoner of the situation they were in. Should he stop her or Saeran? He knew he could not encounter his brother but he had to protect his friend. What should he do? By the time he was anxiously trying to find a solution, Unknown was climbing back in his driver seat. His engine back to life, he drove to the front of the cabin, turning to the side and leaned closer to his girlfriend so Luciel could perfectly see both of them through her opened window. A laugh cracked the silence. She barely had the courage to look at the devastated Luciel while Unknown was having hysterical stomach cramps. Once he behaved out of his mania, he placed his arm around her shoulders and pulled her closer while glancing at his enemy with jovial provocation.

- Do not worry Saeyoung, I will come back especially for you. For now, I have to take care of our princess.

He sniggered once more and drove out of the place as fast as possible, feeling his anxiety kicking where Ray was locked. After a few minutes, he glanced at his love and smiled. Ray was right, she was such a pretty girl. A porcelain doll he wanted to play with as soon as possible.

- Is Saeran your real name?

He tensed his fingers around the steering wheel as he heard the doomed syllables. No matter how much he hated that combination of sounds, he had to admit that he kind of liked them coming out of her delicate mouth. He only nodded and she seemed to think for a moment before looking back at him.

- Can I call you like that? At least when we are alone if this is a secret.

She was such a smart girl. He agreed and took her hand so he could kiss her knuckles before biting them playfully. Should they stop for a while? They were on a road in the middle of the woods and the sun had still some time before rising. Ray suggested that they needed to gain some distance but Unknown only wanted to make her his now. He needed to feel all his torturing thoughts being shut and replaced only by her exalting existence. He wanted to melt in her as soon as possible. Maybe she had noticed the unidentified impatience on his face because she caressed the back of hair before playing with a lock of pink hair and spoke with a calming voice.

- Let us create our own happiness, Saeran.

Happiness…? Yes, that had been the purpose of his new life for so long but he could not reach it so far. However, Saeran had the confidence that, now that she was here, they could truly make it real. Unknown chuckled and hastily pressed on the gas pedal. They needed distance, he was okay with that, but he could not wait any longer and was only pushing his patience beyond limits.

- You are such a good girl. Let me drive just a little bit further and I will give you a reward.

The sun finally rose in the horizon as Ray woke up from the best sleep he ever had. It took him a little while to comprehend why he was laying at the back of his car and to realize that his lover was resting on him. Great new habit of his, he almost blacked out from the huge amount of blood rushing to his face and choked with it, accidently waking her up in the process. She placed sleepy eyes on his redness and simply smiled as she greeted him with a loving kiss on the tip of his nose.

- Looks like Ray is back… Did you sleep well, Saeran?

Damn it, was he dreaming again? Was it one of his bothering dreams he had way too often? He made a weird panicked expression as he spluttered in embarrassment. Even worse, he almost released a high-pitched whimper as she chuckled and kissed his lips. She sat up straight on his hips, letting his jacket fall off her shoulders as she started putting her clothes back on and Ray scrambled to hide his eyes from the heady view he had. What a perv Unknown was! Damn it!

[dukeofriven]

VOLTRON: LIVEBLOG DEFENDER

So it’s been 195 days since I last watched Voltron, stopping unceremoniously in the middle of Season 2 Episode 3 but people are talking about VOLTRON again because something big just went down, and even though @heir-of-puns​ likes to reblog memes reminding me that the show never really gets deep I... I kind of want to watch more Voltron. Well, what I really want is to re-watch Gravity Falls. And it’s a full two weeks before Steven universe comes back. And Bee and Puppycat doesn’t come back until next year. So, y’know. for the moment... Voltron: Legendary Defender, and not Legacy Defender like I thought for the entire first season. Here’s the problem, though: 195 days is a long time. So here’s what I remember about the show:

Voltron: Longitude Defender is a reboot of the 1980s show Voltron about giant robots that form a big robot defending the universe not like Power Rangers. The art is done either by the people who did ATLA/Korra or is so similar as to be unnerving. It has characters! Sorta!

Shiro: Shiro is the leader of the Voltron team, a group of kids from... some sort of Earth Academy (IT WAS NEVER MADE CLEAR) who were essentially abducted into space to drive robot lions and a big lion. Only Shiro is a grown-up who wasn’t at the academy, but I think he used to be? (IT’S REALLY NOT CLEAR). He has some sort of important destiny, which is that he is fated to have all the personality of soggy cereal. He’s super boring and looks like this:

His colour is black, his lion has dumb wings and the power of LEADERSHIP, his lucky number is 18 and he is a Scorpio. 

Lance: Lance is the guy who wants to be The Guy, thinks he’s The Guy, but is actually just kind of sad. He trained to be a pilot at the Academy of Vague Purpose, which is kind of pathetic given literally everyone they meet is a highly competent pilot - it doesn’t seem to be that special of a skill. He likes to fuck mermaids and looks like this:

His colour is blue, his lion has the power of... nothing?... his lucky number is 3 and he is a Pisces. Hulk?: Hulk? (Maybe Hunk? Hank?) is the round one, a guy who trained to be an engineer at the academy, but isn’t as good with tech stuff as Pidge is, making him - like Lance - kind of surplus to requirements. He’s very sweet though, and like to eat. He’s a sweetheart and looks like if Korra and Bolin had a baby like they should have:

His colour is yellow, and his lion has the power of being one buff SOB. His lucky number is 95 and he is an Aries. The One Whose Name I Don’t Remember: The One Whose Name I Don’t Remember is an academy drop-out (I GUESS? IT’S NOT CLEAR) who has a rivalry with Lance over... something. He’s the resident badboy as evidenced by his unbrushed hair and frequent stupid, stupid, stupid ideas. He’s an asshole and looks like this:

His colour is red, and his lion has the power of speed and RECKLESSNESS. His lucky number is 43 and he is also an Aries. PIDGE

Pidge is the best and at times only character in the series.  Pidge has this bizarre, not-satisfactory backstory of being a girl who disguised herself as her own brother to get into Vague Academy for... reasons?... and then doesn’t return to her old identity after being found out. If the show had any guts Pidge would be openly identified as trans or non-binary or even just have a scene where someone goes ‘hey Pidge why do you still call yourself Pidge when we all know the secret’ and Pidge goes ‘cuz I like being Pidge fuck off’ - and before anyone goes ‘hey jerk, maybe Pidge is so comfortable in themselves that the show doesn’t feel the need to address it’ I’m afraid the show seems to have all the progressive chops of a Trollope novel. Pidge’s gender identity feels like its ambiguous not because the show is trying to make a statement or be an ally but because the show doesn’t seem to remember its own plot points and wouldn’t know what to do with them if it did. Regardless, Pidge is my non-binary wunderkind - they’re smart, funny, caring, and don’t give no fucks about what anyone thinks. They are the only reason I finished the first season and the only reason to watch the show. They’re the best and look like this:

Their colour is green, and the lion has the power of smol and stealth. Their lucky number is 1 and they are a Libra. Aurora: Aurora is a princess who flies a spaceship castle. She and her valet are the only survivors of a civilization that was killed by an evil dude thousands of years ago. This should make her interesting, but while hints of personality peek out here her character thus far has been dictated more by the demands of the episode rather than any internal consistency. She had a dad who was a hologram but is now just dead - since he was a king she ought to be Queen Aurora, but since cartoons never understand monarchy she’s just stuck as a princess, which is generic and bad. She’s unremarkable and looks like this: 

Her colour is pink and her lion is a castle with the power of shields and trans-warp functionality. Her lucky number is 101050 and her star sign is Adrian Brody on his Best Day Ever. Coran: Coran is Aurora’s bodyguard-cum-valet. His defining trait is that he is terrible at his job, and so openly a comic relief idiot that the show’s credibility is constantly jeopardized because it’s really hard to take the universe seriously when the King chose this dipshit to protect his daughter during the apocalypse. I hate Coran - he is the worst and looks like this:

He doesn’t get a colour or a lion, and he was born on a starless night ignorant of numbers. Thanos: The God-Emperor Villain of the piece. It’s not his name, but it is who he is. He looks and acts exactly like Thanos, if Thanos had no charm or personality and also used to drive a Lion for work. He looks like this:

And there is nothing else to say about him because he’s so generic I can’t even make a funnier joke than a Thanos reference. ... man, it took me over an hour to write this, and now that I have I’m having a hard time remember why the heck I watched Voltron. VOLTRON: Laparoscopy Defender - it’s a show that exists! Woof.