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Finally got around to watching Puss and Boots: The Last Wish… my head is incredibly full of (extremely positive) thoughts that I just have to unleash on the internet. **INCOMING SPOLIERS**
The premise of the movie already held plenty of promise- a hero down to his last limbs, the classic humbling of an egotist. In this case, a cat on his last life. It´s a set-up that´s honestly quite easy for writers to embrace with a straightforward theme: don’t take life for granted. So Dreamworks could’ve settled for the basic and still produced something pretty good but they did. Not. Settle.
Rather than a slow decline towards a humbling, Puss becomes vulnerable within the first 15 minutes when he encounters Death. From there, his identity-burial and trip to retirement set up the story for not just a lesson on appreciating what you have, but also what you can have if you’re willing to change for the better. It´s sweet, and it gets better with the introduction of Perrito.
Ngl, I was a bit skeptical about El Perrito when the movie began. I’m not a fan of perfect gag characters who simply exist for forcing life lessons upon the main characters and a quick laugh. El Perrito could’ve been one of those guys, but he absolutely wasn’t thanks to the way the writers walked the fine line between taking him seriously and as a joke with excellent balance. The scene where he comforted Puss through his anxiety attack was such a fantastic way of not only acknowledging the tangible effects of mental health issues but also the value of mental health care. (Go therapy dogs! <3) Also the humor drawn out of his backstory was absolutely foul in the best way. I probably busted a lung when he started cussing out the Bears.
Speaking of comedy, Big Jack was an unexpectedly hilarious villain. He really reminded me of how refreshing it can be to have a bad guy without a complex backstory, just some grade A asshole who’s never going to be satisfied even if he’s lived the most privileged life. We’ve got plenty of those assholes out here in the real world so its plenty of fun watching their downfall. Loved him and Jiminy´s interactions.
I already knew from the trailer and plenty of tweets that the animation was going to be impressive, but man, there’s nothing like seeing it in person. The fight sequencing was extremely creative and fun from the start. (Puss vs the Sleeping Giant absolutely had to have been inspired by Attack on Titan and we love to see it.) The detailing form Puss´ goosebumps to Goldí´s necklaces made the whole viewing super immersive. And man. The aesthetic choices (like holy cow that one red and black scene were Puss was running from Death in the Cave of lost souls??) were basically perfect. Pretty, intense, the whole package.
The romance between Puss and Kitty was just zesty enough to not be cringe. Tension, pining, sweet interactions… I’m sold. A solid found family with Perrito, but we can’t forget the most lovable and heart wrenching family: Goldi and the Three Bears. The sibling dynamic was both very real and hilarious to watch. But more importantly, Goldi’s gradual realization was a super engaging side plot that added a great parallel to puss. 10/10.
As for Death… goosebumps man. That wolf whistle was chilling- you can’t help but get the same raised hairs as Puss. A damn good take on the Grim Reaper archetype. Everything about him from his design to his lines had me running mental laps in the theater.
Overall, it’s such a relief to see Dreamworks genuinely valuing creative animation and powerful storytelling- they´ve been changing the game ever since Spiderverse came out. They didn’t really have to put their heart and soul into this movie seeing as it´s already part of one of the most cherished franchises ever made, but they did! And the fact that the movie was rooted in earnest passion really shows!
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can someone plz cry with me
#txt#so overwhelmed#and dreading work#I am so nervous about my future#I don’t see a point in working towards a career that isn’t based on passion#and I’m so tired of the advice I get being “do something you can tolerate that pays well so you can focus on hobbies outside of work#bcuz like where? how? I can’t do anything without a degree. and degrees are expensive. and even if I had a degree. I’ll need to have years#of experience#I don’t want to do something boring even if it gets me by#and there probably aren’t that many jobs available any#so I’m in this limbo where I can quit work yet cuz I don’t fucking know what I should have lined up#and I wanna go back to school but the only in person classes I can take are 2 hours from me#and I can do it online but I won’t get the same connections#so I just have to exist in this state of unhappiness and know in the back of my mind that no job will ever satisfy me#bCUZ WORK FUCKING SUCKS UNLESS ITS SLEMTHING YOU LOVE AND TJAHS HARD TTO COME BY#thank you this is my rant. if you don’t like it jump off a cliff. it’s my blog and I’m blogging dumb a as
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wishing certain qsmp fans a very Stop Being Fucking Misogynists
#im not wading into twitter but from what ive heard from my friends: very big fuck you to#anyone shitting on bagz yet praising etoiles (or antoine or aypierre) for their statements#in no fucking way did she condemn quack she quite literally says she has full confidence in him#‘thank you etoiles for being a true friend’ etoiles would tear you apart and mock you out of his tchat live on stream if you sent that#just because he is friendly and is a fan favourite of many (aka: your favourite disposable guy who exists only to hype up your precious fave#does not mean he would tolerate ur fucking asses for a second get out#nor would he tolerate any messages like that in his tchat get fucking real#jay rants#boiling with rage#baghera has been so fucking dedicated since the goddamn second she stepped foot on this server and it is making my blood curl with how#deeply sexist these people have been and continue to be#discourse
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hey guys who wants another round of tmi
#ive been#this entire day has been a lot and i have no idea how to feel about it#i've never cried this much in an entire day and i can't stop myself from tearing up but it's not because of something sad or traumatic i'm#not used to being loved. or appreciated. or meant to feel like i belong anywhere. i've struggled with being excluded and ostracized and it#has been an uphill battle for a long time and deep down despite my many attempts to heal and get better i've always felt like something was#fundamentally wrong with me. it has been wrong with me from the start and whatever evidence to the contrary ive gotten was rationalised awa#by fluke or maybe people like me because of what i can provide and what i can do for them and not because of who i am and who i am will#always be tolerated or ignored at best and i genuinely was not expecting anyone but a few close friends to care about this and just. andjus#i think something in me is healing and it's still hard to accept but i can conceptualize it and any negative thought in my brain is being#countered by “hey why would you think that when people care about you” and i know it is obvious right. its something i should know but it#has always been so hard to believe that anyone would and the fact that it's hitting right now? i cant fucking stop crying#its almost fucking embarrassing im like this. im a grown ass adult. why the fuck am i still crying like this. i fucking hate trauma man#keeps making me feel like im that kid who was never loved in the ways that mattered. sorry im just#thankful. grateful. i feel like some parts of that gaping wound is stitching itself together and i cant stop crying and for once im not#crying because i'm being hurt. i'm just grateful to be here. genuinely fucking grateful that i'm alive#funny isnt it. how much love can save you if you let it#tmi#rant#embarrassed myself enough i think#sorry about that we'll go to our regularly scheduled ghoap program soon enough#i'll be okay
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my goat keizukogumisuko found another mttpoly shipper on twitter and like a little sheep following the shepard i immediately followed them. another one collected 😈😈😈😈
also they drew objectively correct mtt eepy time so i already know theyre goated
second photo so real i wish it existed too
#unfortunately theyre a multishipper so i have to deal with OTHER mtt ships on my timeline 😒😒😒😒#smh the sacrifices i make to see trio content#bro they JUST joined this month and my goat already scouted them out. what a legend#google translate photo feature always comes in clutch every time i open twitter#if nobody got me (AO3 NO MTT CONTENT) i know keizukogumisuko got me ‼️‼️‼️#i dont like having to see overly sweet and wholesome and nice horror while dust and killer are fairly tolerable#but whatever sacrifices must be made. occ horror it is#tricule rant#geeking out over mtt as i chew on my jollibee#worlds best coincidence is putting a jollibee near where i live thank GOD 🙏🙏🙏
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Shiro + ♦️
♦ - quirks/hobbies headcanon
Along with his heavily implied (canonical) recurrent insomnia, and carrying so much tension that he unconsciously clenches his jaw, gritting his teeth to the point of discomfort, Shiro's mouth tends to fall open when he is sleeping, because he's unable to get enough air through his nasal passages. The bridge of his nose healed improperly from the injury he sustained during his time in captivity that left him with his prominent facial scar. This improperly healed breakage also causes him to occasionally snore, which startles him out of his sleep, and, to his eternal mortification, drool, thanks to his open mouth. All of which combine with his hypervigilance and fear of being seen as weak and incentivize him to ensure that he's never sleeping where someone else can see him.
When his insomnia is at its worst, and his brain and body are their most restless, he opts for exercise and/or reading (he'll do both simultaneously when he can), charting the stars, and general maintenance check-ins with the Atlas. He refuses to remain idle when he can be useful.
His hobbies consist of listening to classical music (Gustav Holst's The Planets Suite and the selection, Jupiter, the Bringer of Jollity, from it, being particular favorites), indulging in Sci-Fi films (with a soft spot for B-movies) and anime, sharpening his skills in all of his personal areas of study (fitness, combat, conflict resolution, Astronomy, Astrophysics, alien languages, intergalactic cultural disparities, obligatory intergalactic cultural and species sensitivity training, Philosophy, meditation, and Altean quintessence alchemy-- something that plays a much larger role in his day to day life than he ever anticipated, since it saved his life, powers his ship and his right arm, and slightly altered his genetic makeup. Plus, learning about it gives him all the more opportunity to spend time with one of his best and dearest friends), and building his own custom hoverbike from scratch.
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Thank you very much for asking! ❤
#Correspondence.#maya-matlin#Takashi Shirogane#Shiro#Character Headcanons.#Voltron: Legendary Defender#Thank you so much Ashton!#*You're* a champion for tolerating my interminable rants about this beautiful character and awful awful show.
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kicking my feet and giggling (<- just got apologised to)
#guys i have worth??? im actually a human being deserving of basic respect and SHOULD be apologised to if i am not given that??? holy shit#ok but like i actually was pretty mad and i just wasn't going to talk to them when the weekend ended but to think they'd actually apologise#guys i am a friend worth apologising to omg this is so nice#(<- was fuming over how i was a “friend” not even worthy of her basic decency and respect an hour ago)#LIKE IM STILL MAD#okay i actually cant vaguepost to save my life but basically this girl whos a friend i recently got close to and formed a friendgroup with#shes really fucking whiny and ive been tolerating it for so long but on friday she was extremely whiny and rude whenever i just asked a#simple question#and it's really draining and humiliating to be spoken to like poop on the sidewalk in front of other people#but anyway other than that i was really upset because during pe i wanted to show her my hip injury cuz i thought it was funny#(it wasn't diagnosed yet i just felt my joints moving weirdly)#and like that involves her putting her hand on my hip#so i asked her to do that then she started whining about how she doesn't want to touch me and that i'm weird for asking ppl to touch me#then she started telling like the 3 other ppl around us i was weird and wanted ppl to touch me#then this other cool girl overheard and looked at us funny i guess cuz then the friend said 'haha now [cool girls name] is also laughing'#i was so fucking embarrassed and humiliated i still want to tear up thinking about it#like are you actually my friend wtf i don't even need enemies w a friend like you#i wanted to cry so bad then#ugh i hate it#like you couldve just said no thanks bro what is ur problem#this just made me realise how much i hate how she talks to me sometimes#and i know i need to stop surrounding myself with negative vibes in order to feel happy#but its still so frustrating#we were doing so well the other day and google meeting everyday#then this happened and then she got mad and started ignoring me on the way home#bro idk i hate ts i should just stop making friends#rant
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when you’re changing medication for one part of your nervous system that’s fucked up (migraines) but going off of it triggers the other part of your fucked up nervous system (food intolerances) that you thought you had under control because you originally tested said tolerances while taking said medication. hopefully the new medication can fix both parts of the fucked up nervous system because this fucking hurts and semester starts next week
#chronic migraine plus chronic pain from food intolerances is the worst#i thought i knew what my histamine tolerance was but stopping a med that is an antihistamine fucks that all up#it hurts and i hate it#though really i’m probably due for a flare up#but hopefully the new medication that is both an antihistamine and blocks other chemicals to prevent migrain pain fixes this shit to#thank you internet for the rant#.
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Bee and Argie, Billy and Argyle
Arturo Guillermo Franco Valdes.
Arturo Guillermo, and a friend that calls him Guille, Artie, Argie.
A red faced Billy that pronounces Guillermo as ‘Gah-ee-ler-moh’ before learning that ‘ll’ makes a ‘yuh’ sound in Spanish.
Artie calling him Bee-yee, and later Bee, as a joke because of it.
Billy tosses out nicknames like the affection he’s never been sure how to express. But he loves the way his friend's name rolls off his tongue, the syllables strange and clunky and a challenge that Billy readily takes up. Soon, it falls full and melodic from his lips, prettier than any song he's ever heard on the old radio his mom left him with.
Mi amigo, Arturo.
Argie tells him not to sweat it, but Billy doesn’t understand why nobody else seems to want to make the effort. Like it’s too difficult, or like Argie isn’t worth the effort. Most of the other Mexican kids at school already know how to pronounce the names that give their white teachers pause, but outside of that demographic there’s a pathetic lack of effort that incites Billy sometimes.
“Don’t sweat it, bro. Not everyone can roll their Rs as good as you.”
“What, like it’s hard? Fuckin’ idiots.”
(Years later, when they find each other again, Billy will know why his old friend Argie goes by Argyle, because Argyle will nudge him with a serene little smile of his and say, “Long time no see, Bee. Your ol’ pal Artie Gyle-ermo missed you, amigo.”)
Once, early in their friendship, Billy asks Argie why he has so many damn names. Why does he need like half a dozen of them? And Argie says,
“Well, I dunno. I think it makes me pretty damn special, though. How many ‘Arturo Guillermo Franco Valdes’ do you know?”
“Just you, obviously. But that doesn’t mean much, I don’t know any other ‘William Hargrove’s either.”
“Maybe not. But it’s prolly a lot easier for some random Hargrove to be named Billy than for someone to line up a buncha random names to smash together and create a Franco Valdes named Arturo Guillermo.”
“That ‘random Hargrove’ is me, jackass!”
“Exactly!”
“At least my name’s not a fuckin’ mouthful!”
“Oh, so I’m a mouthful, am I?”
“Fuck you!”
A few months later, well into Billy's friendship with Argyle, the kid invites him over to his place to check out his new bike or something, Billy doesn't remember.
What he does remember is meeting Argyle's dad and paternal grandma, Nana Hermelinda.
It's getting colder, for California at least, and Nana insists on making the kids chocolate abuelita while Argyle's dad is at work. A much richer hot chocolate than Billy is used to, the smell is spicy sweet and warm in the air as it foams up in the pot Nana is using, instead of the mild chemical sweetness of the mugs Billy puts in the microwave when he can sneak a packet of Swiss Miss in the winter. Her worn, wrinkled hands make quick work of it, expertly spinning between them a wooden stick with rotating round bits at the end that goes into the frothy mix. Nana calls it a molinillo when she sees him looking at it, and rather than freeze up over being caught staring, as he normally would, Billy instead finds himself trying to pronounce the new word for the remaining five minutes the chocolate takes to finish. The air feels almost soft around him, pleasantly warm and sweet like cinnamon as Nana lets the mixture cool while she searches for mugs in the cabinet above them. When she offers him his own, a brown mug with a rounded bottom and pretty dotted flower designs on its shiny finish, Billy is shy and hesitant to take it. But the warmth as he wraps his chilly fingers around it is welcoming and its smells so good. The first sip is cautious, slow like he's still unsure about whether he's allowed something so warm and comforting.
It's incredible.
Billy's pretty blue eyes light up like Argyle has never seen before. He can feel his heart thump awkwardly in his chest as those baby blues shine bright in the soft yellow light of the kitchen.
Then Billy lowers the mug, and a little mustache of foamed milk and chocolate lines his upper lip. Argyle quickly forgets the brief stutter of his heartbeat and cackles at the sight.
Billy is too busy having a religious experience over his mug of hot chocolate to bother with telling him to shut up like he normally would, but he doesn't truly mind- he likes the sound of Argie's loud bouncing laughter.
Nana looks fondly at them over her own mug, sitting comfortably on a stool by the kitchen counter as Billy politely thanks her for the drink with what little clumsy Spanish he's learned from Argyle so far. She coos at him, putting down her mug as she answers in a kind, lilting Spanish that Argyle will later tell him roughly means, "Of course, love. Come here whenever you like. I will make you a mug anytime, son." Billy inhales the warm steam wafting up from the mug he holds tight as Nana places a gentle hand on his cheek and calls him mijo.
Years later, Billy still remembers it as one of the last times he'd felt so held and cared for.
#my mutuals were posting about billy's spice tolerance from his california years and i started having feelings about billy and argyle okay#here's an edited excerpt from my billy time loop fic bc of it#billy hargrove#argilly#billy stranger things#sketchy fics#many thanks to @ thediktatortot and @ stranger-rants for fueling my brainrot every fukin day lol#argyle#argyle stranger things#fuc k it tagging argyle bc i have SO many headcanon and idea about his family for the billy haters to come at me about it#its okay i have a permit:#'i'm mexican and i can do what i want'#like cmon you cant name a character argyle have him be mexican and then not explain how tf that came about#die hard had not come out yet so in world that cannot be the explaination#gotta do everything myself around here#also the bit about billy's eyes going big and bright after his first sip of mexican hot chocolate is based on a friend of my sister's#except it was her trying horchata for the first time#but i stg that little girl's eyes grew twice their size at the first sip lol she had like 4 cups of the stuff that night during the party
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So this week in unforgivable fuckery...
#ruii.txt#long rant#im this close to having another 4 month semi-hiatus bc i hate twitter and everything it stands for#you can't even lurk there anymore unless you make an account like wtf#i already have one and im this close of eviscerating that one too#also instagram can kiss my ass too#also boost for reddit died thanks to that good for nothing asshat spez#it was the only app on reddit that i liked#now that it dead im using reddit less now on phone#now i ain't the only one got hit by the rate limit on twitter so i say fuck it#im just gonna dump art there and dip#if its a hit then fine#if not it's whatever im done having to be a microinfluencer when i just wanna draw and relax#sadly i can't leave completely bc i gotta keep tabs with my friends see how they doin#when is bluesky gonna release so i can bolt on over there lmao#right now tumblr inkblot and artfol are all i can tolerate on bc there's rarely any drama my way so yeah lol#end rant#more art coming soon c:#might delete later idk
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my willpower lasted for a grand total of 2 days… _(:3 」∠)_
#the thing that pushed me over the edge was just. that intern at work#things happened today and so i now need a place to vent about said intern just to get it off my chest because aaaaausuxuxjejxbjdjsnsnsnsns#…and so (repetitive) i now have this side blog… thing… over at ‘semii-sugarisms’ which is gonna be real salty despite its handle#and so all my traumadumps and daily rants will be redirected to that thing from now on so don’t miss them too much okay~?#(jk i know they’re oversharing af and a pain to read ☆〜(ゝ。∂)but thanks for tolerating my rants up till this point!!)#inedible blubbering
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About my girls 💚
I think my best friends are the most beautiful girls in the world. All their "imperfections" sit perfectly on them. When they sing, I try to drown out the music to listen to them. When they join in the laughter I hold my breath to look at how wide they're smiling. When we're walking side by side, I purposefully bump into their arms to see the bounce in their step when they turn to look at me and ask what I wanted to say. I say I didn't have anything to say and that it was an accident and then look at the flow of their hairs when they turn back to the conversation they we're holding with the friend on the other side. When they talk to me, I find myself studying their faces, the movement of their eyes and eyebrows. Sometimes I have to ask them to repeat themselves because of that.
And after school, each four of us having gone out separate ways, one of them probably playing thumb war with her brother on the backseat of the car, another one waiting for the train and the other in the frontseat of her mother's car singing along to White Lies, me at my workdesk (I always get home before them) staring at the limits worksheet on my computer, I think about them. I open Google docs and make them the fearless one woman army with a sword on fire, the bounty hunter that rides a lilac dragon and the fairy princess that holds all music inside her wings, all of them protagonists of a fantasy. I make them the sensible, the sceptical and the compassionate goddesses and queens of a hundred civillizations I imagine. To be by their side, I make myself the witch with a thousand spell and alchemy books, the charming muse of the smaller temple, the travelling Oracle that reads their dreams and brings then their good fortune.
Even when only one of them trusts me to know the timing to cross the street just as the light turns red and the other two stay behind shaking their heads. Even when only one of them wants to go to the playground for kids half out age and do stupid stuff that makes the other two joke about not even knowing us. Even when only one of them sings along to the funny songs by kids' artists that I put on when it's all to silent and the other two ask us to lowers the volume. Even in those moments when they frown and roll their eyes and look exasperated, even then, I love them to the marrow.
So, to you, sensible warrior, thank you for following to the lunch table on that first day of school. And to you, sceptical hunter and compassionate fairy, thank you for letting us sit next to you at that lunch table.
#best friends#i love my friends#thank you for tolerating all my rants#you're seriously the best you girls#you dont even have tumblr you wont see this#thats probably why i wrote it#you wont get to see the extent of my obsession for you girls#you seriously light up my days#whatever#the internet deserves to know how incredible you three are
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sometimes i think about how whatever my brain does makes me unable/unwilling to return to old media that used to affect me because of the likelihood of it affecting me again
#(sorry theres a lot stuff in the tags)#this is about the thing i call the 'audience' that i dont really talk about much#in which i feel the presence / feel like im being observed by characters#i have to avoid like almost all content of shad/ow and bo/ne because a certain group became part of my 'audience'#and it made me very uncomfortable and honestly i was pissed#dont get me wrong i loved the show and i loved those characters but i need them to stay out of my head y'know?#i want to rewatch fai/ry ta/il because it was a HUGE part of my teenage years but i dont what it to affect my 'audience'#cuz its possible#because i was VERY attached to several of the characters#like theres a chance i can enjoy it passively like most shows i watch now but its really long so the risk is still there#its just that nowadays the feeling's stronger and i think about it more because im alone more and talk to myself more#and i like having some semblance of control over it to preserve my comfort#i can tolerate that one jester entering my audience every now and then as long as he leaves just as quickly (which he does thankfully)#but other characters? no thank you#you are not permitted entry#this used to happen with EVERY movie i watched as a kid#i remember it was quite consistent#it would be almost routine that the characters of a movie i watched with my family would tag along with me for a few days#back then i was confident and whatnot cuz i was a kid so i'd 'show off' or something#like 'ha i did that thing very well i bet they're all in awe right now'#but now im riddled with anxiety. so you can imagine how feeling watched constantly would affect me.#its to the point where i have to have a blanket over me for privacy to do things like write or draw heavily indulgent things#especially if that thing has to do with someone in the audience (you know EXACTLY who this applies to)#thats why i dont do that very often cuz its. inconvenient. and i dont like my devices overheating. under a blanket.#anyways i just wanted to rant about it even if it wont make sense to most of you#bean's random thoughts#all this to say i've gotten very used to only one character (the most special <3) being in my audience and any change throws me for a loop
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madonna 2, 5, 9, 10, 12, 15, 16 !!!
GET TO KNOW THE OC ASKS
YAYY Madonna time!
Sorry it took me a bit to get to this. I've been busy but here we go. Madonna lore just for you. You know the drill, this is gonna get long.
2. Is your OC a loner or a social butterfly? Are they satisfied with how they come across to other people?
Madonna is like if an extrovert and an introvert had a baby (unfunny joke but it explains sort of). Due to her past job as a pharmacist and having been part of a corporate environment, being a social butterfly was more or less a requisite, which means through the years she's built up a "social stamina" strong enough to withstand social events that last well over 3 hours. This carries over as Kindred, however, her unlife also warrants a very much welcomed sense of tranquility since she decides when she wants to be social, usually in the context of feeding from willing blood dolls she meets in clubs or with fellow vampires she has an alliance with.
I think you could categorize Madonna as an extroverted introvert, since she definitely treasures her time alone and enjoys distancing herself from socializing for the sake of her own interests.
5. Does your OC have a signature weapon and/or attack? How long did they train to master it?
As Tremere, Madonna has a vast array of Thaumaturgy skills that can aid her in battle - her favorite spell to use is Blood Theft as it is extremely convenient in situations where a lot of spells need to be cast. That said, she tends to make sure she uses as less Thaumaturgy as possible in context where the supernatural isn't involved - and thus relies on her marksmanship skills, which are fairly impressive.
She didn't know a lick of fighting before becoming kindred, so go figure - she has always been a fast learner, so it no doubt helped her in this case.
9. Is your OC laid back or do they thrive on drama? What role do they play in their group of friends/associates?
Madonna is 35 years old in body and spirit and to be fair, she is a woman with a job, even if undead, so she really does not care about drama at all. She's got other shit to do!
Even before the embrace she kept the same kind of attitude whenever it came to her associates at work and outside; people generally regarded her as the aloof cool girl that wouldn't be phased by anything... when, truthfully, Madonna just prefers minding her own business rather than gossip... Like, unless the gossip is necessary for her to complete an important task, she tends to skip it entirely.
10. Is your OC sentimental or pragmatic? Do they keep mementos or only what they need to survive? Have they always been this way or did something happen to make them change?
Before the embrace, Madonna used to be extremely pragmatic. Not entirely to the point of lacking any whatsoever sentimentality but a corporate job will do that to you - it was sucking away at any energy she could dedicate to her feelings, and it really showed in how she behaved whenever something factually exciting or mortifying happened (not necessarily to her, but something like maybe one of her co-workers having a baby, or one of them losing a family member... she used to react very matter-of-factly, not out of malice but because she didn't really have it in her to commit to her full emotions). Her job tended to come first and it was also something of a problem in her familial life, as before becoming a corporate pharmacist she used to be very family-oriented, that with having 3 siblings and elderly parents.
Becoming Kindred turned her way more sentimental. Free of the shackles of her old job, Madonna regained the range of emotions she'd closed herself away from for about the last decade or so... which makes for some fun situations where she reacts immaturely for her age, but makes complete sense when you consider that for her this is like a second adolescence!
Unfortunately, though, even though she truly desires it, she feels like she cannot go back to connect with her family as Kindred. She fears of putting their lives at risk, and especially of compromising the Masquerade since some of the changes that come with being Tremere wouldn't go unnoticed by her family; not to say that they are fairly religious people at heart, and she doesn't wish to destroy the image they have of her as a darling hard-working angel who can do no wrong. This makes her sad, but this is where her pragmatism comes in clutch and reassures her there is simply no way to go around this. Which isn't wrong... though there could be ways, if she put her mind to it!
12. Is your OC cynical or optimistic? Who or what shaped their outlook on life?
I would say she's right inbetween, with a healthy sway towards optimistic. You would think studying medicine would've made her more cynical, which it did at the time, but as a vampire she found things much less grim than she thought they were before.
In general she's always been taught by her family not to look at things with rose-tinted glasses, and it is something she stood by for most of her human life. While they didn't outright encourage her to look at things negatively, they tried to remind her to be objective when it came to most things, especially as she studied medicine. Desmond somewhat reminds her of them in that way, with her special interests revolving around algorithms, mathematics and chess; and while Madonna doesn't think this belief system is wrong, she's found now that being a little more optimistic and carefree never hurts as long as you don't slip into excessive naiveté.
15. What places hold significant meaning or memories for your OC? Do they have a positive or negative association with those places?
So I haven't gone in exact detail in my exploration of Madonna's past yet, though I know she's based in LA originally (as she was made for the VTMB setting), and I would say that besides obvious important places she's likely been with with her family, a specific place that holds significant importance to her as Kindred is probably Confession, the club, because that is where she started seeing Desmond and becoming acquainted with her. They may have differing opinions on some stuff but, well, they kind of still have somewhat of a 'whirlind' kind of romance-not-romance going on, so it's definitely a positive association... LOL
16. How does your OC make money? Do they have a respectible profession or work a series of odd jobs? Are they a criminal? Or do they get creative in the pursuit of coin?
I wouldn't say Madonna is a criminal but the legality of some of her operations as an underground pharmacist can be dubious at best. She sells black market pharmaceutical drugs and also substances that aren't for the usual... public use. She also sells concoctions she came up with for other Kindred, as a way to make use of her Thaumaturgy in a similar context to her old pharmaceutical job. So it's... kind of... shady but not straight-up illegal most of the time?
Desmond 100% helps her keep a front so she doesn't have to deal with most legalities even though her chantry likely prohibited her from interacting with Madonna too much (this is Desmond we're talking about though... she has many of her fingers in various different pies).
#oc rambles#asks#soooorry for the wait + length#hopefully you like this madonna fueled rant#if some words are strange or incorrect i apologize im slightly buzzed thanks to strong alcohol lmfao#(im ok i just have low tolerance and 1 shot of something makes me instantly all fuzzy)#vtmb au
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I was watchin one of those pick a card videos and lmao it was like: oh someone has a crush on u, oh im not sure i should say this, kinda seems like they might have a shrine and
1 shen wei???? U saying shen wei likes moi? Cause id take the weird shrine, he can cook and pity mean tummies
2 love the idea someone has a crush on me Wish someone did. I would love to feel ToT
#rant#dudjjd totally unrelated but how on earth must my typing come off to u guys#i know yall have told me before u can see my tags and instantly know it was my ass that typed em#so i assume that means i say stuff a certain way ans ur like: oh. oh yep thats def mejo again#anyway thank u for tolerating my many typos. it will continue to happen forever#i am not spell checking oj my phone. i turned it off the underlines stressed me out#also u know. the faster u type the more typos#and i type fast n never shut the fuck up#i do actually. spell check on like official stuff and writing so mercy for that
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to find an apartment that works out well for me, only to find the nearly $2,000 unit doesnt even include utilities at ALL or any of the additional fees.
to find the same place has a smaller unit that i can make do with, only for that apartment to go off the market within 5 hours.
to find a similar unit that will cost slightly more but i can still kind of afford if i just live paycheck to paycheck with 0 wiggle room for anything that isnt food/utilities. giving up on every craft or hobby that costs extra money. only to find they want $4,000 upfront to move in with.
#rem rants#hey buddy. just kill me. just like. actually slaughter me actually. actually just kill me thank you.#why does everything have to be so hard. why cant i just win. fucking once can i win.#im tired of fighting. can i just fucking get a break. like one lucky break. just one. a single one. just fucking one. one. can i have one.#'it needs to be 1/3rd of your income' brother i make LESS than the median income for the us. you are charging me nearly HALF for a fucking#studio. a STUDIO and you are charging me fucking 1700 for a studio and you want a third. youre not even including utilities.#14 y/o me was right. i should have fucking killed myself before i graduated like the plan was. but noooooo i fucking believed life was wort#living. well here i am. in the same bedroom. making decent money and still cant fucking leave. working a salaried job and still cant fuckin#leave. stuck in the same pit i have always been. same as it ever was. same as it ever will be.#no matter how hard i work. no matter what i do. it doesnt get better. it never gets better.#it just gets more tolerable. and god i am tired of tolerating...
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