#tbh i know if i say anything about this offline i would be treated like some rabid dog

[sick-as-a-dog]

probably half the system (mainly the alters who have been here the longest) have attacked/tried to kill my stepfather (including a literal toddler apparently stabbing him????)

[hyukalyptus]

i feel like younger fandom writers on tumblr are starting to feel like they have to be sort of ""influencers"" and respond to every single bit of feedback and get as many reblogs as possible but that's never been what tumblr has been about and it's sad because i've seen this idea people give themselves drive writers off the website in newer, younger fandoms. if i'm in your inbox, even if it's some big idea i'm putting down, you can just reply like a conversation. i'm not expecting a piece of writing, i really just want to tell someone and have them respond "OH MY GOD I'M FOAMING AT THE MOUTH" and maybe even "thats so hot and he'd do this too" but i feel like writers are putting a lot of pressure on themselves lately, or maybe it's just this fandom idk, to write a fic for every single idea that comes into their mailbox because they feel like "that's what writers do" or something and it's like??? you don't have to be a Public Figure here. it's just a fuckign social media website and the weirdest most fucked up one. i'm sure you get asks like "hey why didn't you write such and such" but like. you're just here to converse and share the things you make this isn't your fucking job so ignore that shit and do what feels comfortable to you. idk if this sounds harsh or not but really the point is just do whatever the fuck you want

hello!

idk if this is a rant specifically toward me or if it’s supposed to be a suggestion for others..but i feel like i have a pretty clear boundary and that is stated clearly in my guidelines. i do understand that this is something silly and meant to be fun and i treat it that way.

i’ve never felt pressured to do something i didn’t want to do. i know i posted a “i have a full time job and i go to school!” post yesterday but that’s because i have drawn that boundary and i do understand that this is a low priority and it’s for fun. if i don’t like an ask, i delete it! which i do so often tbh. i don’t rly advertise that bc i want ppl to feel like they can inbox me.

and again, i’m not sure if this is directed at me fully, but i have never said anything along the lines of “because that’s what writers do.” as i’ve said in my guidelines, i understand i am not here for you or any other reader. and i am fully comfortable deleting any ask and blocking whoever tf i want.

perhaps this in response to saying something like “this didn’t get a whole lotta notes :(“ or something? and if it’s that, that’s not meant to be taken too seriously! it’s more of a “omg why doesn’t anyone else wanna giggle about kai with me rn?” just like irl if i’m w a group of ppl and i’m sharing something i rly like and that i created and i get very little response i’ll be slightly :/ but i’m not taking it personally. i’m sorry if it came across as pressuring others to provide feedback.

perhaps this is in response to my poll i have up rn. i’m doing this because many readers have suggested us writers interact back with them. and they’ve requested that from multiple writers. which i see as a fair request to be completely honest. however, i don’t feel pressured into doing that. i want to show appreciation to my readers that leave feedback and idk maybe it’s because i’m autistic, maybe it’s because i’m old and don’t do social media well, but it can be very difficult for me to talk to people in any form (online or offline) so i wanted to know what form would be best received.

but at the end of the day- i definitely do not see myself as an “influencer”—that is actually my worst nightmare. i have never felt pressured to write a response to anything, i’ve never felt pressured to respond within a certain time frame, a certain length, or anything. i still haven’t posted half my kinktober shit! i’ve never prioritized this over work or school. i do write whatever the fuck i want or i wouldn’t write about “unpopular” things like kai smut (bc let’s face it, they’re always super unpopular), chubby!reader, or other kinks. and i make that clear in my guidelines!

and yep, i see this as something silly that i do as a hobby but that isn’t my place to dictate how other writers should feel about their blog. if they want to take it seriously bc they view as their art, that’s fine with me. if they wanna write for validation or for as many notes as possible, that’s fine w me because they’re doing whatever the fuck they want.

writers: i do encourage you to not feel pressured to write to things you don’t want to, but i don’t feel like many of you do that anyway. this is meant to be something fun and if you’re not having fun, don’t do it! but i’m still having fun with this so i’m gonna do it. and i’m sure y’all are having fun too. i ofc hope my moots stick around, but i would of course understand if you decided to never log back in again someday.

[minnieeeworld]

gonna make this an actual post so @merddynaladar im treating this like its an ask lol ... thank you for the encouragement! i have some oc rambles under the cut, about these ocs i posted the other day :) my quinn ocs that i love so so so much, ariel alan and maya!!

cw for nsfw and general adult themes !?!? tho im not really going into depth about my story at least Yet....

so, this is ariel!! she is 22, she, 157 cm, and her whole story is about the differences between her online/offline self. she streams online and is a camgirl, and shes very cutesy and pandering there, but irl shes very tough and aggressive, will not hesitate to confront and fight a bitch. shes also a prostitute <3 she was actually the first oc i made for fun one day that started my whole oc universe! so i love her a lot shes my fave oc :) shes very >:3c embodiment, loves chaos, loves fashion, going to bars/clubs, lazing around with the other 2 charas that are her besties! i gave her a carrd, a tumblr, and here is her pinterest board :3

this is alan! he is 23, he, 190 cm. he's went through a LOT of personality changes and its really funny to see what he has become because i originally made him to be a whumper for an old hyperfixation chara...!? but anyway... he's a drug dealer and has a ton of issues. he's very down and gloomy and genuinely depressed as fuck. but he and ariel have been friends ever since they were teens and have grown to adapt around each other if that makes sense? they're very similar in a lot of ways. he loves chaos and shit as well and also would fight a bitch, except he would actually hesitate, unlike ariel. he's not online at all that's just ariel's thing, he doesn't really know how to dress himself, he kinda just fights for his life everyday tbh. he and ariel are VERY GOOD FRIENDS !! they are at the secret third thing stage of their relationship. wlw mlm solidarity. you would not want to be friends with them.

and finally, maya!! she is 17, she, 163 cm. she is very sweet and lovely, deeply traumatized girl (they all are tbh). shes a big factor in my "main" story like, ariel and alan help her deal with something Really Bad, and they fall in love with her, not romantically, just in the I need to protect you and have you live safely and comfortably forever type of way. don't rlly feel like going into main story details tho aghusidfsdf. maya watched ariel and alan from afar in the past, daydreaming of a life where she knew them and she had all these fantasies and thoughts abt them bc she was just so curious abt them. she had a rlly bad home life and they often saw her wandering the streets n stuff but there wasn't rlly anything they could do besides help her out w little things every now n then. she becomes someone whos very silly and sweet with a bit of a dark side bc like shes got ariel and alan as company IHUSDIFHSD. its a whole thing.

little divider hehehe. just wanted to add some context that i made a whole world for my ocs like i mentioned, and this specific city they all live in is called quinn. its a very shady and dangerous town, which is why some charas are the way they are, ariel in particular. shes just had to grow up knowing how to fight for herself. but yeahhh idk what else to say !! im still working on alan and maya's toyhouses shuisdfhd

[traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors]

hi, it's net anon again.

not sure abt the tw's, but i'm looking for advice and some opinions following my previous ask.

i ended up telling my friend how i felt about revealing my face to him by saying a few things, part of which included the following

"it is not as if ive completely gatekept myself from you, ive tried to give you as much insight into my life w pictures other than my face, & it is not as if im only doing this w you, it stands for anyone i know on the net

ive kept it from years w other so even if it's not your intention which im sure, i dont want to feel pressured into breaking it"

to which he replied i just told him how unspecial our friendship was to me and he was "also" stepping away from me. i was literally taken aback. i told him it wasn't true & listed the few reasons including how he knew more of my life than anyone else & how I'd changed many behaviours thinking of him, taken out time of my own schedule to talk and spend time w him, etc. He replied that i was telling him that i treated him like any other friend and the term "best" friend meant very little to me.

now, his reasons & feelings are all very valid. he feels that it's fucked up to call someone he doesn't even know how he looks a best friend and he's been more of family 2 me than my own. I can't refute that. And i trust him enough to know he won't do anything with my face or photos, but i regardless cannot feel safe. now I've been feeling ive not done anything worthy to call myself his best friend but also that i was wrong in keeping such a "boundary" of not showing myself w someone ive known for so long. I don't think I'm a good person to him. I told him that i would get back to him to "fix" me being too guarded & he just replied with "it's wtv/whatever" I saw that coming tbh. I don't know how to reply to that.

To be really honest, i wish he would have just blocked me when he said he was walking away so i wouldn't have to deal with this. I wish he doesn't give me a second chance because i don't want to share my face. His standard of best friends is simple, sending each other basic silly photos of our lives & i can't even put enough effort for that. It sounds fucking cowardly & stupid.

On one hand, I genuinely want to continue our friendship but on the other it just feels like i don't. I don't know why i'm feeling fine w throwing away such a close friendship, it makes me wonder if it was a close one at all from my side. Could the reason I push away close friends until they're tired of it be linked to my trauma? Is it normal to just closet the feelings when such close friendships come to abrupt ends like this? Is it just because I don't want to step out of ky comfort zone? I have no idea. Please be as honest with me as possible & there is no need to sugarcoat anything if I'm in the wrong here. Thanks.

Hi net,

Please know that asserting boundaries is a crucial aspect of any healthy relationship, whether it's online or offline. Your decision to keep your face private is completely valid, and you have every right to protect your privacy and personal information. Trust and friendship should not be dependent on sharing pictures of your face, and a true friend would understand and respect your boundaries.

It's understandable that you value the friendship and don't want to lose it, but it's also essential to remember that a genuine friend would not push you to do something that makes you uncomfortable. Demanding to see your face despite your discomfort is not a sign of a healthy friendship. Everyone has their unique boundaries and comfort levels and you don't have to conform to someone else's definition of friendship, especially if it compromises your well-being.

Feeling fine with letting go of this friendship may indicate that deep down, you recognize the need to prioritize your well-being and protect yourself from any emotional discomfort or pressure. It's essential to be honest with yourself about your feelings and needs, even if they seem conflicting.

It's possible that trauma may influence your approach to forming and maintaining close friendships. If you can access or afford it, a mental health professional such as a therapist may be able to help you explore how your past experiences might be influencing your current feelings and behaviors in relationships.

Ultimately, it's essential to find friendships that respect and honor your boundaries. True friends will accept you for who you are and won't demand that you compromise your comfort or privacy. It's okay to take some time to reflect on what you want from this friendship and whether it aligns with your values.

I hope I could help and please let us know if you need anything.

-Bun

[420pogpills]

I woke up and saw sapnap's alt twitch as well, but decided not to watch. and now that I hear that they just dogged on george for no reason, I'm especially glad I didn't

like making fun of him while he's there is fine since they're at least doing it to his face, but even that is getting old

sometimes when they make fun of him too hard, even if he's fine with it, it makes me so uncomfortable. I don't think I'm babying him tbh, I think it's just a natural reaction to seeing someone attacked like that

idk maybe I'm just looking into it too much, but it's a tad annoying how they think its soooo funny just to make fun of george all the time

especially like when sapnap kept playing copywrited music and wouldn't stop on george's stream and everyone was egging him on and the second george does the same to karl, karl flips tf out

i’m guessing this one is also you?: hi I'm so sorry I sent an ask and after realized you said you didn't want to talk about how they treat george so feel free to ignore it

don’t worry you don’t have to apologise at all, and i like the points you’re making! i guess i’ll talk about it a little bit, because i wanna get it off my chest but i don’t want to overanalyse haha, and i will make my opinion hidden under here so no one has to read if you don’t want to see anything regarding this :)

before i say anything i do want to kind of put a disclaimer that this is purely my own opinion, this is not me trying to speak for them, this is not me trying to speak for george, this is not me saying that this is how george or anyone else feels - this is purely just my opinion based on what i see and what i would feel if i was in that situation. so it’s all pointless rambling and is in no way to slander anyone or baby anyone! i know they love each other and i know they are best friends and i know they are grown men who can talk to each other. again this is just all my opinion that has absolutely no factual evidence behind it, just based on how my sensitive brain works.

the guys making fun of george is getting oLD. to me, it’s gotten beyond old. it’s not that it’s hurtful because you know they don’t hold any actual hostility in their words, and they make fun of each other all the time but george definitely gets it the most, and the most often too. it used to be funny, but i no longer find it to be so if i’m honest :’) 

because george has a rep for being so unbothered, i think the guys kind of drive into that a bit too hard sometimes. it’s like the more unbothered he is, the more they try to get a reaction out of him. 

joking about his age and his sleeping habits is fine it’s whatever, but it was really irritating to watch him trying to stream and them constantly talking over him, trying to start offline hype trains in their own streams WHEN GEORGE WAS STREAMING, and trying to play music that would get george into trouble?? 

sometimes i genuinely struggle to pin point if george is truly bothered by things because of how often they disregard him no matter what tone of voice he uses or what he says? to me it kind of seemed like he was actually getting upset at them playing the music, but they still kept on with it for a while. sapnap literally only stopped when karl said to stop. it’s almost like sapnap is so used to ignoring what george is asking of him that it took another person to snap him out of it??

idk it just bothers me!! it started with karl, quackity and george, they kind of formed their own trio, and then sapnap joined them, and now dream joined them, and now it feels like they’re pushing george out (which i know is not the case at all) but that’s the vibe i get when i watch these streams now :’) like why did everyone try to start offline hype trains in their own chats during george’s stream, but started hyping up the chat and got 5k subs for karl’s stream??

i know they love george, but there’s something so immature about these interactions that just makes me cringe a bit :’) 

anyway yeah sorry for the negativity, i’m just such a george simp, and i always can’t help but be protective over the people i support lmaoooo

[survey--s]

359.

How many people have you liked this year? Just one. How many pills do you take a day? None, for the most part, but when I’m on my period it can be 10-12 pills a day. Do you have any celebrity crushes? Bradley Jaden. If you could have one superpower, what would it be? The ability to always have the amount of money I want/need in my bank account. Do you put ketchup on top of your French fries or on the side? On the side, for sure.

Where did you last sleep other than your house? The hospital. Where did you get your last bruise from? Copper jumping up at me and accidentally hurting my leg. He was so timid a week ago and now he’s all over me wanting fuss lol. Is it okay to kiss people when you’re single? Of course - why on earth wouldn’t it be? Ever worn something of the opposite sex's clothing? Sure, I practically lived in Mike’s t-shirts and hoodies when we first started dating lol. Do you have a secret that no one knows but you? I suppose, but they’re not really a secret, more I just haven’t felt the need to tell anyone about certain things. Last CD you blasted through your car stereo? I haven’t ever played a CD in my car, I just connect my iPod. How many email accounts do you have? Just two that are in use, but I’m sure there are loads of old ones out there. Who is the best cook in your family? My aunt, for sure, but my mum is pretty good too. Which baby animal is your favorite? ALL the baby animals lol. Have you ever carved a pumpkin? Nope. My parents were very anti-Halloween so I never did stuff like carving pumpkins or trick or treating. When is the last time you went to a carnival? Uh, it would have been when I was at university, I think. Do you have a favorite glass, cup, or mug? My multi-coloured polka dot mug. What branch of science interests you the most? I’m not hugely interested in any kind of science, but maybe forensics or astronomy if I had to pick. Have you ever written anything longer than 10 pages? Sure, loads of times for university. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with via text? Uhh, I have no idea. I don’t tend to have deep conversations by text. Twitter or Tumblr? Tumblr. Twitter is just a cesspit. Have you ever been given a lapdance by an actual stripper? No. Favorite YouTuber? I don’t really get the appeal of watching random people on YouTube. Have you ever had a controlling boyfriend/girlfriend? Yes. Have you ever written a love letter to someone as a joke? Nope. Do you have any gay family members? Yeah, my dad’s sister is gay. Was your first kiss romantic? It was sweet, but I wouldn’t say any kiss between two 11yo’s can be romantic. What are you most likely to go to jail for? Hurting someone who hurt my dog. Who was the last person to sleep over at your house? Nobody has ever slept over at this house, lol. What would you think if you found out your ex was gay? One of ex’s has been in a relationship with another man for about three years now lol. I’m not entirely surprised tbh. How many people has your best friend had sex with? I don’t have a best friend. When was the last time you had a conversation with an ex? A few months ago. Are you currently “appearing offline” to anybody? Ha, I miss those days sometimes. What were you for Halloween last year? Nothing. Do you believe that karma can come back and slap you in the face? I don’t believe it’s karma necessarily, but your decisions can definitely come back and bite you, that’s for sure. Have you ever been to Texas? No, and I have absolutely no desire to go there either. Do your siblings text you? I don’t have any siblings but I occasionally text my sister-in-law.  Have you ever searched for your own house on Google Earth? Haha, of course. I think I’ve searched all my old houses on Google Earth. Did your last kiss end up with you and the person doing anything sexual? Nope. Who is your ex dating/talking to? As far as I know, he’s single.  Who did you last pinky promise with? Probably Amber, lol. Did you ever have to share a room with one of your siblings? No siblings. What happened at the last party you went to? I honestly couldn’t tell you the last time I went to a party, lol. Have you ever completely misunderstood what somebody was saying? All the fucking time, lol. When was the last time you felt ill? What was wrong? This morning but I think it was just being tired and being out in the rain lol. I feel fine now so I’m going to assume it was nothing major. Who was your first best friend? Do you still speak to that person? Her name was Lucy, and no, we’ve not spoken since primary school. Are you wearing anything that was given to you as a gift? My wedding and engagement rings. What is your least favourite song, by your favourite artist? I don’t really know. What color is your jewelry box? Brown. Are you attracted to the last person you Facebook messaged? That’s my mother, lol. What is your brother/sister’s favorite food? ... Do you have any ice cream in your freezer? What flavour is it? We do. Clotted cream and I think some Ben & Jerry’s but I don’t know what flavours they are. In your life, who is the person that seems to understand you the most? Probably my husband. Are you afraid of losing the person you like right now? I mean, I don’t actively worry about it, but I’d be devastated if he died. Does anyone know your Facebook password? No.  Would you ever consider getting a piercing in your septum? The idea makes me wince, lol. I’m not really a big fan of septum piercings. Do you enjoy being outdoors? As long as the weather is good, yes. Gay marriage: love is love or a horrible stand against God? Love is love. I don’t really understand any other way of thinking. How many times have you been to a zoo? Load, I used to go all the time as a kid as our local zoo was only about half an hour away. What’re some unspeakable subjects for you? None of them are unspeakable, but there are some I avoid in company as it inevitably just leads to an argument.

[comradegeorgemoved]

i think the offline chat thing has only ever happened during george's streams. it annoys me too. especially this time, because literally right after in karl's stream, everyone was encouraging people to sub to karl to the point that he got +5000 new subs. not saying they're obligated to do that sort of thing for anyone, of course, and it was nice of them to do, but just... the contrast, you know?

and this is just a personal pet peeve of mine, but i hate when people say things like "chill, theyre friends and *insert name* probably doesn't care" because like. empathy normally involves putting yourself in someone else's shoes, right? and whenever i have a problem with the way someone is treated, it's because i put myself in their shoes and didn't like what i saw.

idk, i just know that it would have bothered me if i was in george's place. i also know for a fact that i would have acted like it didn't bother me even though it did, so i'm not going to dismiss that it maybe bothered george too. idc if that's me white knighting or whatever. if calling out shitty behavior when i see it and having empathy for the person that behavior is directed at is me white knighting, then so be it.

sorry for ranting in your inbox lol. this has been bothering me since it happened and i guess i just wanted to get it out

i think sapnap realizes, actually, when george goes quiet/looks sad and tells them to stop because he "doesn't have that much time" that maybe... he shouldn't be doing it? because right after thanking a sub he goes "okay i'm done, i'm done", and then george tries to proceed with the stream only for karl to go YO I GOT A HYPE TRAINNNN and cause the three of them to launch back into the bit.

you're right re: your pet peeve. you're right and i didn't really think about that before. i don't have george's patience, and i'd be pretty hurt if my friends did that. if you look at it through the lens of any other job, it would be the same. it's shitty and unprofessional, even if the one it's directed at is supposedly "fine" with it. just... why even do it? because george didn't say anything the first time it happened?

i guess fans are also very defensive of their friendship because it's a big part of their (especially dteam's) brand, so all criticism about their streaming etiquette is expected to fall apart when you combat it with "they're friends and they don't care." i do feel like we're borderline white knighting a 24 year old man who can speak for himself, but idc either honestly. i'm sure we don't see even 10% of their friendship, but feeling uncomfortable with things that transpire on stream is more than fair.

and don't apologize for ranting! i love it when people rant in my inbox tbh, and your insights are very interesting, thank you for sharing them ^-^

[bisluthq]

I've been drowning in uni work for the past days so I've been offline until now and daaaaaaaamnnnnnnn. This totally deserves to be questioned and criticized. We can't treat famous rich people like they can only be gods or devils because there's a lot of ground in between and no one is perfect, but especially it's wrong to blindly defend these people when their actions usually have a strong impact on the cultural trends that arise in societies. This objectively looks like white rich people riding off their privilege. Lots of extremely talented people work hard for years to even get a record label contract and then work even more to even score a Grammy nomination, let alone an AOTY win. So even if you're a talented instrumentalist and songwriter/lyricist, it's just not fair to go from "doesn't have any producing/songwriting credit history, unknown in the music industry, and has never worked on a record" to "AOTY Grammy winner". There's so many levels between those two stages and people actually work very hard to expand their musical/writing abilities and the cultural impact of their work in order to get recognition from the Recording Academy, which is the highest most valuable form of recognition a musical artist can get. People are supposed to earn this type of honor through hard work and talent, not because they live with a very succesful and recognized artist and therefore have easy access to jump all the levels and contribute to their record.

Like don't get me wrong. Joe obviously has musical formation and is skilled as an instrumentalist, that's just a fact. They were in quarantine in the same house and there were instruments (we know he plays music for fun), one day he sat at the piano and came up with a fun chorus for a song, Taylor was there and got inspired to write a song based on what she heard. Does he deserve credit for this creative contribution? Yes fair enough, he came up with the lyrics and the music. Then one other day he came up with a cool low melody on the piano, Taylor was there, got inspired to write lyrics over that and so Exile came to be. Does he deserve credit for that too? Yeah fair enough he came up with the melody. I believe her completely on this because unlike some "fans" I refuse to think she would lie about someone writing in a song, even if it's just one line.

Did he contribute significantly to the production of the album? That's definitely a possibility, he's artistic, he was there, and he even wrote on these songs. I'm not saying that didn't happen. But formally being credited for this several months after the album came out and after said album won a Grammy? And being credited only on enough to be elligible for a trophy, after it is known that said album won? Not fair or cool.

Maybe he really did contribute that much to the album (that's what the Academy's website is saying 🤷🏻‍♀️), but they both knew everyone would question this if they made it public bc there's no way it doesn't look nepotistic and that would negatively affect their campaign to win awards bc ppl would only focus on that. WB was credited on just 2 songs and ppl made it all about that🙄They didn't want this body of music and art to be overdshadowed by Taylor Swift's boyfriend being a part of it, which I kinda get bc ppl love to hate on her and discredit her and I do think her and Aaron wanted this to be about the art. And if they didn't win anything, they would've suffered that dragging (which tbh would've been a fucking NIGHTMARE) for nothing. So they "hid" his credit to avoid this being an isssue and decided he would only get the credit after the Grammys were over, so as to not draw attention to it. Well, hiding information is still dishonest and low-key unethical Taylor. I would love an explanation and even if it's the one I gave above, I would would like producer Joe to elaborate on his contributions. Unless the fucking Grammy trophy was actually a gift to him like some of you are suggesting, which would reduce this whole situation to absolutely pathetic and embarrasing. Her doing this sneaky shit for him just bc she loves him is the most dissapointing possible scenario to me. So I really hope he produced on this album as much as they're claiming he did.

What shocks me the most is how tf did the Recording Academy agree with this?!?!?! Like did she make some sort of deal with them where they knew Joe was submitted as a producer but they didn't show this information? Did she give them solid proof that he really did so much for this album and they agreed to give him the credit after the Grammys? Maybe these rich people eventually drown so deeply in their privileges that morality fades to the background. I don't speak their language, maybe this type of nepotism is normalized and aceptable to them. Dissapointing but unsurprising I guess. Maybe Taylor is a much shittier person than I thought and after this I do think it's possible that she's been consciously queer baiting to profit from a marginalized community. I really hope I'm wrong tho and I really hope Joe really worked his ass off on this album coz ewww otherwise.

~🇨🇷OG CR Anon

Good thoughts here.

[fizzingwizard]

Alright, so, Digimon Adventure 2020 Episode 12: Castle in the Sky Laputa!

I mean, I, Guardromon...

... Bicentennialmon?

well, any of the three works :P

Right off the bat, I’ll say this ep gets a ‘meh’ from me, BUT I did love its aesthetic. I’m a big fan of robot stories, especially the Asimov variety. Scrap heap robots are my absolute favs. And I did like the Ghibli vibe going on too. The episode was pretty, and the robot characters were cool... it just wasn’t very fun. At the very least, I was expecting team Taichi/Koushirou/Mimi to be a bit more fun than Yamato/Sora/Jou, but I guess this ain’t 1999 anymore ;)

^The most amusing bit was finding out Koushirou’s laptop can fold like this... which, okay, shouldn’t surprise me, it just looks frigging weird...

me: DO YOU KNOW HOW TO USE A KEYBOARD???

koushirou: hush old lady, your first laptop was grayscale only and had Windows 3.1 installed.

Actual content relevant to the episode below...!

We had a promising start when last week’s episode ended on a cliffhanger... or a cliffdropper, I guess, because Mimi’s not hanging onto anything. She’s fallen down and landed on Palmon. Digimon can sure take a beating.

Palmon reaches to see if she can hoist them back up, but...

... it’s too high! Oh well, no choice but to travel on foot. Good thing Mimi landed on Palmon!

Meanwhile, above, Taichi and Koushirou turn to his computer for help. Unfortunately they have some technical difficulties.

Koushirou: Noooo, not the swirling of doom!! My immortal nemesis...

Even Taichi understands that buffering spells death. He’s a 21st century kid, so he’s a little more savvy about computers than 99 Taichi, whose trusty recourse in these situations was "treat the machine like a Bop-It.”

Mimi discovers they are in a Digimon scrap heap. ;_; Good heavens. Apparently robot Digimon are unlike organic (??) Digimon same as robots are different from humans, so the way they die is not quite the same either.

Mimi feels sorry for these trashed creatures. She’s no cold-hearted corporate goon who looks at these guys and just sees dollars. She notices the heart!

She also just wiped that rusty Guardromon’s helmet with her bare hand...

Mimi: Where’s Sora-san when I need a towel!!

Andromon makes his 2020 debut! And he’s just as much the pawn of evil as ever!

Boxing Cactus Go-go-go!!

Togemon gets her prickly hiney owned, but the Guardromon suddenly reanimates and protects her instead. His big strategy is “drop something heavy on Andromon and run away.” It’s super effective.

Who wants to translate the digicode, because I’m not gonna. Ten bucks says it’s something like “target human child exterminate” yadda yadda

When Koushirou’s computer fails, we must rely on our physical skills. Their big plan is “climb down the bottomless pit after Mimi.” There are a few things wrong with this picture:

1) Even if they know how deep the hole is, IT’S STILL QUITE A FALL. Make one wrong move and you’ll be useless to Mimi T_T And these idiots make plenty of wrong moves.

2) If there were handholds like these, why couldn’t Palmon have just grabbed them with her vines and carried Mimi up? Instead she was like, “Nah, can’t reach the top, let’s walk in a random direction and hope things work out!”

3) The Guardromon is taking Mimi to an elevator. Meaning there is a working elevator, meaning there is a way down that would significantly decrease their chances of DYING on the way. Koushirou’s computer can’t figure that out? Also I was expecting some hijinks there... like, they finally make it down only for Mimi to say “Why didn’t you just take the elevator like I did? Boys are weird.”

In his defense, Koushirou’s method of descent is worlds better than Taichi’s.

Hate to say I told you so...

Guardromon takes Mimi to some suspicious water which she uses to nurse Palmon... with a towel

Guardromon presents Sheeta Mimi with a flower to convey that he likes killing pretty delicate things :) run Mimi

The Laputa vibe... it is vibing.

We cut away to Yamato/Sora/Jou for thirty seconds just to point how much Better they’re doing than Taichi’s group. They’ve even realized how that basket was, who needs to put in all that work when we can all fit comfortably on a log! Sora and Yamato flirt. Jou’s going to be sick.

Taichi and Koushirou encounter some broken Solarmon who are being controlled by Soundbirdmon, so I guess it’s official now that we can’t believe any Digimon is truly evil if Soundbirdmon is around. Koushirou goes to help Mimi while Taichi stays behind to fend off these gears. Uh, is it just me or does this team seem very quick to split up.

I like the way Guardrmon cradles Mimi so all we can see is her shocked expression.

Guardromon tries his tried and true method of shooting down something heavy to crush Andromon...

... but Andromon’s like “hah! Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me!” and knocks it away. Not very effective...

Guardromon’s guarded his last mon... he starts to go... offline I guess...

In sweeps Kabuterimon to the rescue. In 99 Adventure, he’d have something witty to say, or at least a pun. 2020 Kabuterimon mostly likes to make weird noises. I understand why Agumon and Gabumon’s VA’s were calling him a “weirder uncle than ever” at Digifes...

Obligatory Best Boy cap

Hell Approacheth

Wow!!! Taichi finally got knocked off Greymon! He must have forgot to put on his suction cup shoes today!

So this entire episode, I was wondering what was to stop MetalGreymon from happening and stealing the show from Lillymon. I expected “Agumon just evolved recently and doesn’t have the juice to do it again so soon!” or some such. Nothing more than that. But, nah, we don’t even get that... MetalGreymon happens and he just... can’t... beat Andromon? For some reason? I’m going with “Because he’s Andromon.” Afterward, this very heavy structure falls down and MetalGreymon has lift it a la Atlas to keep Taichi from getting squished, so he can’t continue to beat on Andromon.

... Of course, Togemon gets stuck holding this thing up too... so there’s that...

The reason, of course, is so Guardromon can make one last action surge, grabbing Andromon’s leg, which works, randomly. At least for a moment.

Mimi spends most of this episode being Shocked.

Guardromon takes one final, grainy look at Mimi as he prepares for sweet death. The digicode says “Sheeta.” (kidding like I’d bother to translate it lol)

Andromon RUDELY stomps on his head. Like HELLO Andromon can you not see the dude is having a moment here? Show some respect!

Mimi sheds a Single Emo Tear

Which causes “Your sorrow made me evolve!” Lillymon. She immediately flies out to attack Andromon, leaving MetalGreymon alone holding the heavy metal structure, which promptly crushes him and our heroes. Game Over!

just kidding, the structure just vanishes I guess :/ It’s not very clear...

High kick attack!

It’s not very effective...

Lillymon does seem to have an ability that MetalGreymon doesn’t which cinches her victory over Andromon... her rain of petals interfere with his ability to lock on to a target. Too much organic matter everywhere I guess.

Lillymon covers Andromon in plants rendering him immobile...

... *cough*

Poor Mimi’s had a hard day of watching robots die.

Her affinity for marking graves returns as she leaves the flower Guardromon gave her on his corpse(?).

Taichi looks only sadly as Koushirou explains that Andromon and Guardromon were totes besties, until Soundbirdmon started mindcontrolling everyone. Gee that seems like something that could have been an interesting plot point had it been mentioned y’know earlier.

In sum... yeah, this ep just isn’t fun. There’s no friend moments, no getting to know each other, everything takes a backseat to this robot-protect-girl storyline. I really did like Guardromon, but the episode takes itself way too seriously in my opinion.

That aside... I was happy that Mimi’s episode didn’t involve stinky ugly Digimon falling in love and stalking her so she can passionately reject them. I can live without both of those things.

Mimi having the ability to project feelings onto supposedly nonfeeling things is a very Mimi-like character trait for her and one that I really truly love. It’ll definitely come in handy in the digital world where all is never how it seems. On the other hand, though, it’s not like it’s a trait we didn’t have already... it just belonged mainly to Hikari :P So... yeah.

Next week we’re going to get Garudamon, in a way that looks like it will pale compared to our first meeting with Garudamon in 99 Adventure, BUT that’s okay... because we’ve got plenty of time for the Big Important things to happen, both on a plot level and on a character development level. I am a little wtf??? about everyone getting not one but two evolutions within the same adventure - assuming the kids are going to go home at some point and finally put Tokyo out of its misery. I’d expected this show would be more like 02 with the kids jumping in and out, but tbh I’m not gonna be sad if they just stay in the digital world indefinitely. Also, it’s not like Taichi didn’t get both an evolution and a jogress the first time he came to the digital plane, so obviously things are just working differently in this show!

But as it’ll be a Sora episode, I just hope it’s an improvement on the last Sora episode. There’s plenty of potential following the mini tiff between her and Yamato last week, so i hope we see some follow up to that. Maybe a couple Sorato moments. We didn’t get anything for Taishiro this week :( But since it looks like probably next week the groups are still separated, perhaps the week after we’ll get MegaKabuterimon and see more interaction between Taichi and Koushirou then. *shrug* A girl can dream!

Anyway this ep gets 5.5/10 from me!

[raayllum]

Adding some fuel to the Ja/naya fire, there was a blog I used to follow that was a big Jan/aya stan (even made the ship name their url) and I put up with their less good takes for the tdp content until they started guilting people who use Tumblr as an escape for not devoting 90% of their blog to the depressing/genuinely upsetting issues of the world. Tbh I’ve been unfollowing a lot of people because of how common these kinds of takes have become... it really sucks.

damn, really wasn’t expecting anyone else to have shit to get off their chest but go for it. on topic of the actual ask though - because i do know that this is something that exists in a lot of different corners of the internet - 

as someone who has a multifandom main blog and then like, six sideblogs (this included, but i also have a “prince of egypt” sideblog so you can imagine how niche it gets sometimes) i made a decision a long time ago that my sideblogs would purposefully be separate from not only each other but all the stuff on my main. not only is that the point for better organization, but people are following me for certain things. that doesn’t mean my any of my blogs are void of “political” opinions - in some ways they’re full of them, because all my personal beliefs of being supporting things like blm or being pro choice are moral decisions for me and i like to think i live out my values here, in my writing, and of course offline in the courses i take, the books i read, and the relationships i have. 

but i made the choice a long time ago that most of that first hand reflection would go on my main blog so that if people want an escape from upsetting material (like, there’s always a level of removal when it comes to statistics related to Black people, because that will never be me because i’m not Black, but even my discomfort and guilt is the most positive feeling because for other people who are Black, that’s genuine fear and possibility) they can have it. no one can be exposed to signs of their own trauma or the world’s trauma constantly. 

i’m someone who has very little patience for bad takes on anything. like i unfollow for very small reasons and will just check general tags for the content i wanna see. curating your online experience is really important and like, i think the route of the issue you’re having is that people making those posts are operating under assumptions (which may or may not be true)

it’s assuming that Black people aren’t reading those posts and i’m pretty sure none of them need any more reminders about what they’re living day-to-day with their whole lives. it’s the assumption that compassion fatigue and burnout aren’t real for everyone. it’s the assumption that somehow, most people in certain predominantly liberal spaces (like tumblr) aren’t aware that we’re simultaneously living through a largely unprecedented pandemic with a rising death toll, trumpy in office, trans and queer rights being revoked, concentration camps in denmark, russia, and china, and along the usa-mexico border, indigenous and black people facing police brutality in canada, the uapa in india, yemen being the largest humanitarian crisis in the world with its population currently on the brink of extinction because of that same pandemic, and political corruption and protests against terrorism in the philippines. and climate change, and world hunger, and all the usual shit.  

and maybe you didn’t know all of those things until right now. maybe you’ve donated or gone to protests in support of all of them. maybe you’ve signed some petitions. 

but like. the world is a goddamn shit hole sometimes and i say that as someone who actually does have a very hopeful outlook on the world and a lot of faith in humanity as a species. and all of those are very important issues to educate yourself on and be aware of and we do need to put support towards them and uplift voices and the whole nine yards, do not get me wrong. 

but treating activism like capitalist profit where it has to be dominating your entire life because you Always Have To Be Productive + even more moral guilt tripping for taking a two hour break or just trying to cope with whatever is going on in your own life and stepping away from a constant stream of shit news? i’m not a fan. treating like what people do online in terms of retweeting all the right things all the right time is the peak of activism? 

social media is important. activism is extremely important. but you cannot help take care of other people or even contribute to movements if you’re going to destroy yourself in the process. you will actively be able to do less and we will lose you. we cannot preach self care and simultaneously shit on people for doing some of it. that’s counter productive and harmful to everyone involved. 

it’s the assumption that if you’re not constantly choosing to be angry or suffering or in pain than you’re doing something wrong. even though what activism is trying to stop, at its core, is the suffering of people who did not choose to be. sharing a load is one thing. actively feeling guilty for enjoying yourself because humans were not built to be miserable 24/7 is another. it also might be hard to imagine, but some people are having really good things happen to them right now, too. some people are getting engaged, or having a baby, or getting a job, or a book deal, or or or - and that doesn’t erase the shittiness. that doesn’t mean these good things aren’t individualistic. but goddamn let them have good life changing stuff sometimes, god knows there’s enough bad life changing stuff all the time too

i was watching a video earlier today, where a white women (hi my own demographic whom i hate) was harassing two hispanic women for speaking in spanish. another white woman stepped in and used her privilege and told her to gtfo. and seeing people actually use their white privilege is good and a sign of something going right. but then came the feeling of “i wish i could do that” and guilt that i wasn’t. and yeah, maybe i could, if i saw a similar case happen in front of me (thus far, i have not, but i am a very introverted person who doesn’t go out too often to begin with), but i’m also not going outside to stores right now because we’re in the middle of a pandemic and i do live with some elderly family members and i’m also helping people by staying home. 

so i have talks with my white family members about combatting white fragility and do my best to educate myself. i check my blind spots and look at things mainstream american media also isn’t talking about, like two indigenous people in my country who recently went missing. i check in on my friends and see how they’re coping with their own lives and covid. i sign any and all petitions i come across. (luckily the protests where i live have so far been peaceful and police haven’t escalated the violence.) i do my best to stay updated and to take care of myself.

i’m a human being. looking for bright spots in the darkness is what we do. that’s why we named stars. 

- Bertolt Brecht

and i will not apologize or be shamed for it

[gho2ty]

multiples of 5!!

ok this ones long so lets slide it under a readmore yay i talk a lot

5. On an average day, what can be found in your character’s pockets?

his phone, some tissues, chapstick, possibly medication if hes leaving the house for much time, maybe some mint gum, floss probably. general stuff!

10. Does your character feel more comfortable with more clothing, or with less clothing? 

more clothing definitely. hes a never nude. its a joke but its also........ kinda not. catch him fully clothed pretty much always, he doesnt walk around without a shirt no matter how hot it may be. he has shorts but he doesnt often wear them. he would be happy in a shirt, hoodie, and jeans at all times. possibly with a blanket or two wrapped around him as well. not even always because hes cold but its just a comfort thing.

15. Is your character preoccupied with money or material possession? Why or why not? 

not really, hes always been incredibly frugal and doesnt like to waste money on anything. he feels he must always be prepared for anything that may happen (its the doom) so he has always made sure to keep his spending low and feel ready for disaster to strike at any time that needs whatever savings he has.

and now hes rich but, other than the house- which he didnt buy himself anyways, still doesnt seem like it with spending or ego.

20. answered here

25. How quick is your character to suspect someone else? Does this change if they are close with that person?

pretty fast, but like, usually correctly. his intuition even though its fueled by paranoia and anxiety is pretty top notch. possibly and probably BECAUSE its fueled by paranoia and anxiety.

if hes close to someone he tries to give them the benefit of the doubt and “maybe not..” but hes still very observant and if theres reason to be suspicious hes probably going to catch it even if youre his best friend or quadmate. he just will be much less likely to call you out on it, because he wants to see what youre up to LMAO

30. What does your character find repulsive or disgusting? 

gives his on and off sex repulsion as the easy and fast answer here. its not always repulsive and hes working on it but its still a thing.

otherwise, theres a LOT of stuff that makes him feel sick to his stomach tbh. a lot of mindsets that he finds utterly abhorrent. a lot of jokes he cant stand. even just types of ppl he refuses to entertain.

unless its something terrible and/or being said by a close friend or quad, he tries to just ignore it and go offline for a while, because a lot of them arent things that are THAT BAD all things considered and are just a thing he personally has a problem with. and thats just on him, and he realizes this.

35. How does your character behave around people they like?

he wants to spend all the time with them. every second means tons to him and he WILL text them 10 times in a row just rambling about whatever comes to mind because he wants to keep talking to them. its a little overbearing and he tries to hold back but if they tell him its fine then its free real estate.

40. How does your character treat people in service jobs? 

pretty well! hes sometimes neutral, but much of his life hed been so socially isolated that the only people hed interact with in person were service workers and they meant kinda a lot to him. catch a cashier saying something nice to him and g2 going “what are we?” (but only internally.)

he tries to be a easy customer and as patient and considerate as possible. yes he tips well, & if he ever couldnt at the time then he wouldnt order something or go somewhere where hes being serviced.

45. What does your character believe will happen to them after they die? Does this belief scare them? 

he knows hed just end up in the dreambubbles again and that doesnt scare him but hed definitely feel like it was in some way losing. he doesnt, at his current state, want to return to being dead. and he wants to stay in this state because it took a lot to get here.

[misdre]

tagged by @bobgoesw00t ! thank you bob!!!

1. What do you prefer to be called name wise? misi is what all friends call me

2. When is you birthday? august 3

3. Where do you live? (You don’t have to give city, you can give the state if your USA or country if you are overseas) finland. i don't mind saying it's turku because i like turku. i’m on täl pual jokke

4. Three things you are doing right now? making coffee.. typing answers to this meme.. about to watch a document about wine while drinking coffee

5. Four Fandoms that have your peak interest right now? four is a bit much to ask from me. well beyblade is a staple, and right now i'm reading the 7th chapter of higurashi no naku koro ni. ummm eurovision and... can i call it a fandom that i've been listening to audio books of the best mystery novels from last year a lot, basically one book per week. mystery novel fandom??

6. How has this pandemic been treating you? not very well. i'm pretty sure i would have got a job without this. i've been sitting inside alone all my life so that part hasn't really changed but like i just really fucking want a job and i think the pandemic really crushed all my chances to get one because every business is in trouble now so nobody's hiring.

7. A song you can’t stop listening to right now? i’ll be honest.... i don’t really listen to music these days..... and when i do it’s playlists instead of anything on repeat

8. Recommend a movie. it's almost the season to watch midsommar, just saying

9. How old are you? turning 30 soon. let's not talk about it

10. School, University, Occupation, Other? a bum with a university degree

11. Do you prefer heat or cold? cold

12. Name one fact about you that others may find unusual. i've never been to a doctor (other than the dentist), and i'm hardly ever sick either. i get the common cold maybe once in four years

13. Are you shy? yea

14. Do you have preferred pronouns? nah. finnish has only one pronoun anyway

15. Biggest pet peeve? people who don't take others in consideration in public spaces

16. What is your fave ‘dere’ type? probably deredere tbh i’ve kinda grown out of these character types

17. Rate your life 1-10, 1 being really crappy and 10 being best it could ever be. 5. it sucks but at least i'm not homeless or anything?

18. What is your main blog? this one

19. List your side blogs and what they are used for. the only one i use these days is @luukeitto which is my aesthetic and inspiration blog. then i have the beyblade zine blog that's obviously now inactive. the rest i haven't used in years

20. Is there anything you think people need to know about you before becoming friends with you? online-wise, i kinda burned myself out years ago so i don't really make friends through social media anymore. i'd say the newer online friends i've made have happened because we're in the beyblade discord. offline-wise...... that i'm quiet because of anxiety and not because i don't like people lol.

[pantsusnifferr]

2019, healed up and ready to work towards a better 2020

As per the tradition I started last year, (haha can barely be called a tradition with it only being a year old.) am gonna be writing down my thoughts and reflections about the previous year, before penning down my thoughts and goals for the year looking forward.

Even though I had a lot of goals last year (maybe some more optimistic than others) some which I ultimately didn’t accomplish, I still managed to hit some those goals and accomplish a lot more!

These are the goals I had last year:

1. BE SERIOUS WITH ART

2. BE HEALTHIER (SUCCESS)

3. MAINTAIN RELATIONSHIPS WITH FRIENDS (SUCCESS AND MORE!)

4. LEARN HOW TO DRIVE (LOL)

5. LEARN NIP SPEAK

6. LEARN HOW TO PLAY THE BASS

7. RESTART YOUTUBE/TWITCH

8. TAKE STEPS TO IMPROVE BUSINESS (Succ)

Maybe I’m casting my net too wide, maybe I wasn’t exactly serious about those goals in the first place...who knows?

But the fact that I came into 2019 as an unhealthy, Lonely wreck with a crazily unstable business, and emerged from it with double the sales of last year, drastically improved health (still fat though haha) and people whom i care about (and i hope they care about me too), is a really comfy feeling altogether.

2019 is really a roller coaster with its fair share of ups and downs but I’d like to think that the past year alone has presented me with a lot of opportunities that i have thankfully taken. (As opposed to the me a couple of years before who’d stupidly let these opportunities pass as i would be too lazy or couldn’t be arsed.) Watching a friend of mine do the things she wanted without fear of the unknown just made me want to try more and live more!

Health ♥

I started the year badly when my endocrinologist told me that i might develop diabetes over the next couple of years if i didn’t take care of my health properly. I was already a doomer about my health at that point, thinking that everything would be too hard to do and it was probably too late for me to do anything about it....in hindsight perhaps it was because i probably needed that kick in the balls to get my arse off to do something about it.

It was only until a couple of months down the road i had a skin cancer + kidney failure health scare that got me wanting to better my health. Now THAT was the perfect kick in the nuts i needed. At the moment, health issues wasn’t the only thing that was coursing through my mind. I WANTED TO LIVE.

Perhaps it was the realisation that i haven’t really lived at all, perhaps it was the realisation that my life was in a mess and i wasn’t satisfied. Maybe its the realisation that i lack control in my life all these times.

I don’t really know to be honest, all i know is it made me want to try. To try to live more to try to be healthier...afterall there’s nothing wrong with trying right?

So i started with my diet, and i found out that counting calories and eating healthy food actually isn’t that bad at all! In fact a lot of my favourite meals are actually pretty healthy! Just gotta cut out the garbage...

And Running! Oh my god...it isn’t like how PE classes were like back in Primary or secondary school! Couch to 5k is really fun to do and I’m so Glad my friends whom offered to teach me how to gym back then are open to the idea of me joining them again. Also went hiking with other friends and hit the gym together with them too!

All in all I’ve lost about 17kg in total and I’m on the track to lose even more in this coming year. Also i ended the year with my lab reports where my blood pressure, blood sugar, cholesterol and kidneys is healthy and fine!!

School 🏫

So 2019 is also the year which I’ve started school for the first time in 4 years...(haha 8 years if you don’t count NYP and their ‘school’ stuff. I felt surprisingly at ease during my lessons and studying for the exams, (granted i missed a couple of assignments if not i would’ve gotten an A for my marketing module grrr)

Still, i should study a little harder and not rely on the power of last min cramming aaa..

That being said, things will be looking forward as Long as i could keep my grades up!

3.6 GPA though, 73% reee

ART 🎨

Haha i drew Peni Parker this year...Didn’t sell any though, but it still remains one of my proudest pieces as of yet. Also i did a reprint of the Sayori keychain and I sold out for another year! Yay!

I’m Glad i got to meet new friends and some other anons who’re in the pursuit of doing art. A little disappointed that i didn’t go further into it last year but here’s to a better art year in 2020 yeah?

FRIENDS AND RELATIONSHIPS 🐝

Managed to be a better person overall and fixed my personal insecurities, made new friends and found closer friends with those who’re important to me. I tried to be more outgoing and open minded with the people i meet and to the people around me. Hanging out with friends, trying new things and working with each other to grow as people is something I’d want to do even more in the coming year.

I am so Glad i found people who’re as like minded as me. Online and offline, in the beginning of this year, a friend from Finland came over to visit Singapore and i hung out with her together with new and old friends. Made me feel like a normie for the first time in my life. 10/10 will do again.

Although its a shame that i wasn’t able to do the same for my extended family, mainly my cousins and childhood friends. I Guess over the years we’ve just become different people with different lives. I even managed to miss one of their 21st birthday parties oof...

I’m going to double my efforts to try and reconnect with them again! They’re important to me and i should treat them as such!

COMPANY 📈

Nothing much to say here, even though business in the individual months were pretty garbage, we’ve still managed to emerge from the year with 100k more in sales than the previous year! Bringing that total to almost $250k in sales!

Still not a huge fan of plants and stuff tbh, but i really cannot deny that this business provides me with financial stability (at least for the time being) that allows me to pursue my other interests and hobbies.

Also by some miracle we’ve managed to keep a 5.0 rating for the entire year lmao. Also did our first corporate and wedding gifts!

OTHER HIGHLIGHTS OF THE YEAR

Got a Nintendo switch!

Found more gaming and weeb friends!

Made contact with old classmates and friends!

Got a new camera!

So what’s next for 2020?

I want to have less regrets! Become a nicer and kinder person, yet be firm in my principals. LIVE MORE! EXPERIENCE MORE! DON’T BE AFRAID, DON’T BE LAZY

HARD WORK AND GUTS!

Rekindle ties with those whom i deem important to me.

Start my YouTube channel as a Vtuber and myself

Start YouTube channel for company

Join the weeb club to find more gamer weeb friends!

Study hard!

Learn weebspeak maybe?

Continue to work hard for health and company!

Learn 2 songs on either the bass on ukulele

Draw at least ONCE A MONTH (shouldn’t be too hard do it lazyass!)

Be more confident and social!

Here’s to an awesome 2020!

[dangan-meme-palace]

Yandere DRV3 Girls

I shoulda posted this like a month ago I’m so sorry

Boys can be found right here

(Trigger warnings for the following: Kidnapping, Stalking, Non-con elements/mentions, Non-con drug use, Implied Torture, Physical/Emotional Abuse, Manipulation, Gas Lighting, and Implied Murder)

Kirumi Tojo

I love her don't make me do this

Fell for you when you made an effort to lighten her load 

Definitely one of the more controlling yanderes

You thought you'd have someone you could order around? Foolish.

She wants what's best for you and so she just kinda takes care of everything for you

Which sounds great!

Until you realise she thinks she knows you better than you do

Which isn’t even wrong because she has stalked you intensely

Stalking aside she's gonna try and make your life better whether you like or not

This includes forcing you to eat healthier, exercise, etc. etc. 

Probably uses the Mom Voice™

She won't take no for an answer

Tsumugi Shirogane

Oh boy. Look away children.

Okay so there's 2 ways she’ll become obsessed with you 

1: You are really optimistic and hopeful

2: You are emotionally susceptible to abuse

Yeah this is gonna get really fucked up really quick

Sorry Tsumugi fans

If Option #1 is true for you get ready to be kidnapped

She's Despair so she's obviously gonna wanna kill your hope with no remorse

Just saying, killing your hope might include making you put on humiliating cosplays and posting pictures online of you in them

She also might use those pictures as blackmail

Depends on her mood tbh

If Option #2 sounds more like you then prepare for the stereotypical controlling yandere

She'll slowly get more and more controlling with you until you start to think there's no way out

Which is true

There is no way out

She won't let you leave

But… do you really want to leave her? 

She's all you have now.

She keeps you as a pet :’)

Tenko Chabashira

Fell for you when you showed fierce enthusiasm for something you love

She finds it cute as hell and she can't help but fall for you

She's more of an obsessive than an aggressive yandere surprisingly 

How could she hurt her one true love?!?!?

Gushes about you to all her friends

Takes pictures of you doing cute things like sleeping, showering, and eating

IT'S NOT CREEPY IT'S CUTE!!!!

Will defend your honor without any hesitation 

If anyone even makes it seem like they don't want you around or don't appreciate you enough she is going off

She'll talk about every little thing that you do in a reverent tone of voice

It's like she worships you or something

Halfway through her 50th “I love them how dare you!” speech you notice something

She's talking about stuff you've never done around her, stuff you do alone

How would she know about any of that??

If you leave it alone you'll be fine but if you don't….

She won't hurt you but you're definitely not going outside anytime soon :)

Which is fine by her!

More time to spend with you! As an added bonus you're living with her now!

However, all good things must come to an end

A certain detective was determined to solve your case

And his leads all pointed to her

*thinking emoji*

She knew he was onto her

So she just… solved the problem

Permanently.

Rip Shuichi

Himiko Yumeno

She's like 8 you lolicons

Would totally lure you in with her magical loli powers

A well placed “Nyehhhh I can't reach this, can you grab it for me?” and a tired yawn here and there

Yeah, she's got manipulation down to a science

Anything to spend time with you

But it's not enough

She can't get enough of you

She wants more 

So whenever you leave her she'll follow you in secret

She hates that you have to leave in the first place

So, she uh,

Casts a spell on your lunch

Translation: she crushed up some sleeping pills and mixed the powder into your food

Luckily, she didn't give you too much

Unluckily, you're living with her now

And you're not leaving

It's all thanks to ~Maaaaaaggggiiiicc~

Angie Yonaga

“Oh my god, it's god?!?”

Nah, but she thinks Atua sent you to her as a gift

She saw you and it was like the stars fell from the heavens and became you

At least in her eyes

Immediately tries to get to know you and talk to you

She also makes a wax statue of you to put in her room

Might make a body pillow of you ngl 

Talks as if you're already together

It honestly surprises everyone when you say you're not

She's super confused

How could you not be hers?? Atua sent you to her?? You're hers??

Decides that you just don't know that you were sent to her

Silly s/o~

Definitely a kidnapper

She'll frequently ask you questions and if you answer wrong she disciplines (read: tortures) you

Conditions you to love her

God dammit Angie why must you be so fucked up

Kaede Akamatsu

Don't make me do this to her please..

Sigh

She most likely fell for you when she realized how passionate you were

Especially if it's anything to do with music

Partial to singing but it doesn't really matter as long as you put your feelings into it

She falls ass over elbows for you when she accidentally heard you practicing

She's so shy around you it's kind of painful to watch

She's normally so confident but as soon as you're around she's quiet and flustered

The thing is she doesn't really mind that feeling

In fact she wants to feel it more

So she starts hanging around you more and more and spending all of her free time with you and just staying close to you in general 

Absolutely idolizes you

Thinks everything you do is cute and adorable and oh god she loves you so much

She starts getting nasty with everyone else though; she kinda acts like her pregame self

Why would she want to spend time with them when she could spend time with someone as amazing as you??

Everything seems more irritating and boring without you around

She comes to a sudden realization one night when she was thinking about her feelings

She wants a songbird

You can't let birds out of their cages or they'll fly away from you forever

She won't lose you.

She can't.

So she steals you away in the middle of the night

She treats you like a princess as soon as you wake up

Might ask you to sing for her from time to time but won't push you

She understands that you're going to have to adjust to being her songbird

That's fine!

Or so she thought

But she's just so sick of seeing you inch away from her in fear

She's Kaedone with your shit

How dare you be so ungrateful!!

She gives you everything and you still treat her like a criminal!!

There's nothing wrong with wanting to keep you!!

Demands affection from you

Not afraid to punish you

She hates it though

She just wants you to love her so why do you keep making her hurt you?!

She doesn't want to!! She promises!!

So please!! Just love her already!!

She hates how you fake your smiles

She hates how you flinch before you wrap your arms around her

She hates that you don't love her

But she hates the thought of you leaving so much more

So every day

She keeps trying to get you to love her

And every day 

You don't

:’)

Maki Harukawa

She might be a little too good at this yandere thing….

So, she's The Ultimate Assassin, meaning she kills people all stealthy-like

So I'd say she's pretty good at stalking her prey

Not to say that you're her prey but… that's exactly what I'm saying

You can't go anywhere without feeling eyes on you

She's way too nervous to talk to you

So she tries to make up for it with kind gestures 

Like stabbing people who walk too slow in the halls

They're all scum anyways

No one could ever be as kind and caring as you

So who cares if they die

They're nothing compared to you

<3

Have you seen her in-game?? literally she's borderline yandere already

She’s super suspicious of you leaving her though

She knows that her job isn’t the most well-liked career and is terrified that you’ll find out and never want to go near her

And that just isn’t allowed

So she keeps it a secret for as long as she can

Until you eventually find out where exactly all of your friends have gone

If you’re okay with it (read: too terrified to move) you’ll most likely live through that encounter

If not… well...

She always thought you were cuter than any doll anyways <3

She even picks out a cute outfit for your corpse :’D

Miu Iruma

I live for this bitch

She's another yandere too shy to talk to you

She tries! She really does! Its It's just you make her so nervous

Y’all know how she gives Shuichi food with her hair in it? Imagine that x100

A good yandere to compare her to is actually Anna from Shimoneta

Just watch this tbh

https://youtu.be/nM6fcg6VunM

She, like Anna, has made food with little bits of her in it

Gross.

Just buy some damn chocolates you absolute madwoman

She also tries to impress you with things she invents

You’re her latest muse so it’s only fair that you get to try out her inventions firsthand

If you don’t want them she is crushed

She tries so hard, the poor thing

I imagine that if she went off the deep end it would go one of two ways

She either A: Becomes obsessed with trying to impress you. Losing sleep just so she could try and make the best possible present. This leads to her stalking you on and offline because she needs to find out your likes and dislikes. It’s normal to try and find out what someone would like as a present right? So it’s no big deal. She would also bug your house and clothes just to listen to you.

Or B: Straight up kidnaps you and locks you in her lab. Now you have no choice but to try out her inventions. Don’t worry though! She only picks out the best ones for you! She eventually is able to trick herself into thinking that you enjoy all of this and were just playing really hard to get. It’s like she can’t even hear you anymore...

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Kpop ship for K anon

Hi everyone! It’s nearly been a week since I’ve posted and I apologize, between work and family, things get crazy! I have a ship for an anon who goes by ‘K’, so K, I hope you’re reading, and let’s get into it!

Based off of your request, I gathered these things about you: 

You’re 5′6

You’re Asian American 

You have long and wavy brown hair that has an ombre effect

Your fashion style is soft grunge 

Virgo and ISFJ personality

You can be introverted and sensitive at first, but you can be talkative and loyal when you’re comfortable

You like: nature, traveling, learning other cultures, going to concerts, watching Netflix in bed, and eating 

And in your request, you asked to be shipped with BTS, EXO, NCT, and Seventeen! This is gonna be long so please, sit back, grab a drink, and let’s get shipping!  P.S- I kinda started using the nicknames I gave the idols, can’t help it lol 

BTS: Jin 

I wanna start by saying that I love this ship because it is so sweet. You two would take good care of each other, having each other backs 24/7 and you’re always there for each other. Not to mention that you two would have so much admiration for each other, and it’s one of the sweetest things ever. At first, you two would be equally as shy to each other but as time would go by, you would become more comfortable with each other. I can also see that you two would bring out the best in one another. You two would push each other to be your best, and you’d live your best life. I like to think you two would be like ying and yang. Then I’d also like to think that you two would be a cute balance of black and white. I’m merely saying this from your differing clothing styles, but it’s still a cute thought. You would be Jin’s little grunge babe. He would appreciate that you wouldn’t want to go with the flow of normal trends and you’d always looks cute no matter what you wore tbh. Jin would also be that boyfriend that would LOVE to talk about you to everyone he’s around. There isn’t a part of Jin that he wouldn’t admire about you. From the way you would ramble about something or express your excitement, Jin would think it would be the cutest thing ever and he would always tell his friends, the members, or his family about how cute and precious you are, and how you have amazing ideas and how creative you can be. Moving on to talking about date night, your date nights would always revolve around food. Whether it be ordering in or actually going out to a restaurant, date night is always about food and you two having a good time. And listen, let’s say Jin is an idol in this scenario. When he would do an episode of “Eat Jin” your date nights would be a live stream for “Eat Jin”. Now, you wouldn’t do this every date night because you wouldn’t want every date night to be out to the public, but it would a fun thing to do every once in a while and answer fans questions! Also, I can see you and Jin being one of those couples that enjoy to stay inside and spend time together. You two would have the cutest little city apartment with a balcony where you’d have a little fire pit, and you’d hang out there all the time. You and Jin would appreciate you time, as life can be so busy and there’s nothing better than spending time with your S/o. I also think that Jin would straight up prefer to have you to himself and neither one of you would mind that. You’re wrapped around each others pinkies- and that’s totally okay!

EXO: Yixing

Again, this is another sweet ship that I am living for! I think that you and Yixing would really hit it off due to the similarities in your personalities and your interests. You two would be that it couple that everyone dreams to be. Talking about some things in your relationship, dancing and concerts would be your thing. Imagine you two making a simple choreo together and not only did you two work amazingly together, but you two actually give feeling and life to the dance. Like if you two were to post the dance on YouTube or Instagram, EVERYONE would be able to see the love that you two would have in your eyes and by the moves of your bodies. It would be like one like no other. Now, moving on to concerts, concert tickets would always be a surprise thing because you’re young and only live once. With your favorite flowers in one hand and the tickets in the other, Xing would love to surprise you with tickets. He’s the type of boyfriend that will get you the tickets for you and him, or even for you and a friend. The tickets can range from your fav groups, to his favorite groups. Hell, there would even be a new artist that you two would discover together and seeing that artist would be a perfect experience for you both. Going to a concert is a perfect way to spend a weekend or part of a week, so I can see you and Xing coming up with different ways that you could make a mini trip out of it. Traveling around your area and going to new places is always a wonderful idea, and you two would make so many memories together, it would never get old. With the amount of attention that you two would have going towards your relationship, I would say Xing would prefer to have your relationship stay a secret and offline. Of course you wouldn’t stay completely isolated from the public and there would be the occasional Instagram picture every now and then, but you two would prefer to have your relationship a secret, and there’s nothing wrong with that. Moving on, I think this is an interesting observation on Yixing’s part. I think that Yixing is a very curious person and he is willing to try anything once. So, do not be surprised if Yixing starts taking an interest in soft grungy style. He would high-key love to help pick out clothes for you and dress you, and he would totally want you to help dress him. He’d think it would be awesome to try and couple-style. I also wanna hit on date night super quick. Yixing has connections everywhere, so you best believe that you and Xing are going to have a great date night. Be prepared for a lot of great food, and also be prepared for a wonderful night with an angel, because he’s going to treat you like a queen. 

NCT: Mark

Moving right along, we’re going to move onto some more wild child, what I like to call all around type of relationships. Mr. Lee here is your all around type of guy, and it’s really hard not to love him. By the way, you will have to protect him. I think that you two would go great together because I think you two would give positive energy to each other and you would always strive to get into each others interest. It wouldn’t be hard to be comfortable around Mark tbh, and since Mark is a literal puppy, he would know when to dial down just enough so you wouldn’t get too overwhelmed. You two are like two peas in a pod, so cute! You two could equally be a wild and mild couple. Both you and him would have a lot going on at times and you would have your life together and then you would have your lives separated. As much as you two would enjoy going your own thing, there are those weeks where you really want to focus on your relationship and staying in the dorm away from people and watching Netflix or listening to music can help you two out tremendously. You two would be that type of couple that would snuggle up together and watch a show together. Then when one of you would be busy and you’d be alone, you’d watch an episode..or four without the other and get caught. The silly betrayal would be precious to me, I don’t know why. And then, as a past time, I think it would be super cute if you and Mark would start studying a language together, and you’d also study the country that went along with your language. The process of learning the language together would be a fun project to work on together, and you two would always keep yourselves motivated to study and get better, and you two would also practice with each other, so you’re really killing two birds with one stone. #innovation am I right? lol. I wanna go back for 2.5 to when you two would meet my notes are a mess, sorry. I can see Mark being a little nervous bean when he would want to approach you for the first time. He would be worried that you would have the “don’t f*ck with me” type of attitude, but when you would show your true colors to him, this bean would melt like putty from your attention and he would easily become a love sick puppy for you. By the way, you two would stand up for each other so amazingly. I’ll just say that if anyone were to come for Mark and slander him on the internet, you would shut that shit down so fast and you’d have the best clap back ever. Your protective and defensive nature would send Mark in heart eyes mode, and he would admire the loyalty that you would give him.

Seventeen: Seungcheol 

Okay, last but not least, this may be one of my favorite ships so far. I was a little unsure about which member to ship you with, but Coups hit me in the face like “PICK ME PICK ME” and here we are. You two have so much balance and you are his princess or prince if you happen to be a boy/different pronoun. Coups would be the bEST boyfriend ever when would come to surprises. I know I used the surprise card with Yixing earlier, but listen, his surprises go further than concert tickets. Coups would really want to keep the element of surprise alive in your relationship- it’s always a great idea to keep you on your toes. Coups would always surprise you with the best date nights(if it wasn’t your turn to plan date night) from dinner dates to a simple night alone in the dorm. Bringing you roses and your favorite flower would be his specialty, as he would always when know to surprise you if you would be having a rough week. Also, good morning and good night texts are always a MUSt with this man, so you never have to worry about him not showing love. He is a wonderful person without being in a relationship, so just imagine him in a relationship. Which I also want to add this because I think it’s precious. Coups would love to hear about the dreams and ideas you would have for trips and date nights. He wouldn’t take all the ideas, just so he doesn’t hog the relationship, but he would love to take the ideas you would have and transform them into reality. Coups would always pull strings and set up amazing dates for you. There is one particular date I would like to talk about for an example. You would have this idea of visiting a national forest of sorts to see what all nature has to bring, and Cheol would make a weekend date out of it. Going to the local wildlife zoo, going on hikes and walks, and even going as far as camping, would be on your agenda for the weekend. Being together and out in nature, and most importantly- making you happy would be the main goals for the weekend. Having some Healing time(HAH, get it?) would also be on that agenda, and you two would get to learn so much about each other, and you would bond and fall even more in love with each other. Very lastly, I want to touch on PDA. Out of all the boys I have shipped you with, I think that Coups would have the most PDA with you. Coups would be in love with you and he is not afraid to show it. Coups would always want to post cute little pictures of you together on Instagram. Then forehead kisses and back hugs are also his thing. And most importantly, he would always have his hand connected to yours. 

~STA

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