#survivor networks

[ryuchiyongrohisanabuser]

Are there any blogs dedicated to exposing/warning people about abusive and dangerous people on tumblr? Or blogs who share a lot of community/abuser warning posts that I could potentially connect with?

[spitefulsatanfics]

Having a crisis...

Hello all my lovely readers out there, some of you might know me and some of you may not but I've been writing on this page for a very long time... I have found family and friends through writing and through Tumblr for longer than I can remember.

I am currently facing homelessness in a country I am not from with no family to lean on, no real friends since I have spent most of my time here in an physically and emotionally abusive and unstable relationship (someone whom I left my entire life behind for and moved across the world, trusting him id be safe here... turns out that was a lie.)

I hate asking for help in any situations, even the most minor and silly things, that's possibly a huge part of why I've ended up in this situation now. I didn't know where else to turn so I've come here in hope to find some kindness.

I understand this is a lot to ask complete strangers really, but I've found myself in a position now that I have finally managed to leave my abuser- (taking my housing and all the friends I thought I had once along with it) -that I have no other choice but to hope there are people out there that wouldn't mind helping me out with basic things like a meal and a way to get transport to work so I'm able to find a new place to live. I am currently waiting for a bed in a shelter nearby me to open up a bed.

if anyone out there has ANYTHING (even its one cent) to spare I'd appreciate it more than you can ever know.

I will attach my paypal below -

if you can't help, that's totally understandable but reblogs help so so much.

[ethanpageallego]

NEXT WEEK!!!!!!!! Ethan competes for a qualifying match to be in the Iron Survivor at NXT Deadline!

[tiny-kitties]

mao mao stimboard because I kin mao mao <3 also a irl moot told me I should make one.

[sentient-rift]

It's been a while since he was captured by this strange people, he even couldn't move him own limbs every time trying to move ends with horrible pains what that person done to him. Upon hearing the battle near he could only say with a low wick voice. "H...Help me ... it hurts." (For Gunvolt)

After Elise freed Roy from Asimov's grasp, she and the others tried their best to help him.

"His body is still trying to adjust to his new Adept powers..."

"How long must he be in pain like this?!"

"The time varies depending on the individual. Some of the people who were experimented on didn't even service the procedure..."

"Are you telling me Roy is going to die...?!"

"No, he should be fine. The fact that he held up for this long is a good sign that he's going to make it. All that's left is for his body to adjust to being an Adept..."

"Oh... Well, I'm glad he's going to make it, but I don't want to watch him suffer like this..."

"I'll try healing him to reduce the pain. Roll, Meddy, Atoli, may I have your assistance, please?"

"Yes, of course."

"Please, feel better, Roy. LaPha Repth!"

"I hope this helps, Roy. Recovery 300!"

"Don't leave us out. I know we're new here, but we can lend a hand. ToadMan, give Roy a Healing Song."

"You got it, Ribbita. Ribbit, ribbit."

"Roy...Once you've adjusted to being an Adept, let me train you. I'll help you control your new powers..."

"Normally, I'd object since training Roy is my job... But since you're an artificial Adept yourself, you're the best option to help him with this, Gunvolt."

"Um... I'd like to help, too... I may not be an artificial Adept like you, Gunvolt, but I'm still an Adept."

"I'd appreciate the help, Elise. Thank you."

"You're welcome... Um... This is all alright with you, right Luna?"

"Like I'd object to you helping someone! Go ahead, Elise. Do everything you can to help the Edgelord's apprentice."

"...Thanks."

"What was that? Did you just 'thank' me, Edgelord? Can I hear that again?"

"Don't push it, Drill Hair!"

"I was joking... But in all seriousness, Solo... We'll do everything we can to help Roy. I promise."

"...I'll hold you and everyone else to it, then. Take good care of him."

Solo walked off after that. The medics continued the healing afterwards.

"How're you feeling, Roy? Any better?"

[rozzywell]

Sorry for the ugly ass screenshot but I'm SOOO obsessed with the difference in views between Knightmares and all the other internet archive uploads. As it should be.

[ofmaddogs]

Need to bring back my "ufo cult meets an actual alien" oc

[sysmedsaresexist]

So

Here's the deal.

I have officially resigned from SN.

Here's my message.

@Moderator I am giving SN my resignation.

You've got until the weekend to figure out a public reply before I go ham.

This isn't about me, it's about my frustration over defending all of you.

I actually haven't been directly named yet. I could literally walk away unscathed, but my heart hurts so much and I am filled with so many emotions that I feel like I'm going to burst. I am internally imploding.

Keeping quiet has made me physically ill, I have lost twenty pounds, I have ongoing shingles from stress (the stress being unable to deal with strong emotions with no outlet), I am feeling ashamed of myself, who I am, how I handle things. I am full of guilt and self hatred over my feelings. Why can't I just be like you guys? Why can't I just let it wash over me and move on and ignore it?

I question everything I post and say now.

I am once again a child being told that everything I feel is wrong, that I'm wrong.

I'm not blaming any of you for that, but my mental health is falling apart.

Part of my healing was embracing my anger and not being ashamed of my feelings, and venting them honestly and openly.

I'm fifty feet back in my journey, and back to hiding and killing my thoughts and emotions.

I haven't switched since April because I'm so scared to let anyone else out that I can't control.

I'm not like you guys, I can't let this continue.

I love you all, so much.

Everything works out in the end, even if it's not how you expected.

Good luck, see you all on the other side.

Bois

I can't wait to make these people look like the fools they are

I can't wait to point out everything about all of this drama

I can't wait to show Sophie how fucking off the mark she is about all these accusations

I can't wait to drop screenshots of the two members that are complaining (yes, because there's only two, out of OVER 300 members) acting like absolute CHILDREN

I can't wait to state the real stances of mods on some of these topics so we can clear the air

To the members:

I am so happy to have met all of you, the community YOU all created is amazing, and I'm grateful and so honoured to have been a part of it. I have never met a group of kinder, more understanding people in my life, and I hope each and every one of you achieves your goals ❤️

I know a lot of you are going to ask why, wondering what I'm doing, but what are we supposed to do? What do they want from us? What's going to make it stop? None of you deserve this, and someone needs to point that out.

Let's cover the big ones

Was SN involved in the banning of Sophie? No. The server only opened that same day.

Was SN involved in the second banning of Sophie? No. That was only two days later, we still weren't fully open.

The few members in the server show complete confusion over her banning, and rules were added that first day that those involved in harassment or false reporting would be banned.

Was SN involved in the banning of eeveecraft? This one is actually hilarious because you'll see that no one knew who the hell eeveecraft was. It's genuinely hilarious the number of, "who?" Like, wow, you're really not that important.

The Sophie bot: it was a handful of uwus and a joke about balloon popping, THAT'S IT, I am LITERALLY looking at the members being upset over one of Sophie's posts at the time, members venting hurt and fear and upset, extreme frustration, struggling with feelings of powerlessness, and someone made a joke, and I'm looking at apologies and rule updates FROM BEFORE SOPHIE EVEN KNEW ABOUT IT

One user made a post and mistakenly or accidently implied it was still happening, but they weren't even in the server at the time it happened. It was not months of rping and harassment. I am still pissed about that post.

It was one person, one night, get over yourself

While watching the SN mods live rent free in Sophie's head was funny, it's just annoying now. Sorry one of the members did something dumb. Can we have apologies for all the baseless accusations you've slung our way, and the ACTUAL months of harassment?

SN harbouring a pedo?! Mods were very open and honest with members during the event. Multiple announcements were made as we investigated. We spoke with members about their comfort. In the end, the accusations were unfounded, confirmed to be false by the alleged victims themselves. We did our due diligence and we supported our members. There are zero safety concerns.

Their real name?! It wasn't their deadname, HOW THE FUCK WERE WE SUPPOSED TO KNOW, WHAT WERE YOU SERIOUSLY THINKING WHEN YOU LEGALLY CHANGED YOUR NAME TO THAT, WHY

Also, see a therapist, your obsession with that person is TERRIFYING and you genuinely need to talk to someone

My past relationships: thank you for dragging that into this, low move, it's not like I had just gotten the situation to calm down and I was finally able to relax, but you're known to react before hearing both sides. Trust me, the damage was mutual, and I can't talk about it because I'm being blackmailed. That person has my name and address. To them, go ahead, post it, let the community decide if it was one-sided and if I blew off my apology.

[sexologii]

omg people are saying we’re gonna lose feeds or even lose the show and no no like however many skippy’s need to be fired just do it, they sucked this season anyway

[ethanpageallego]

Ethan Page on Commentary

WWE NXT • December 3, 2024

[sophieinwonderland]

Back to the "Sophie is dangerous" doc: Return to the Survivor's Network

In episode 1, we established that I'm a block evader for interacting with people who *checks notes* don't have me blocked...

In episode 2, we learned how, according to the doc's author, all Tibetan Buddhists are apparently monks?

What nonsense are they going to spit out next?

Let's find out as we return the doc!!!

First, I do want to preface this by talking about the Survivor's Network Discord Server and how I handled it.

Because I truly do regret it.

At the time, a former member of the server (Squid) posted about how members of the server were regularly mocking me, and were even using a Discord bot to roleplay as me to do so.

A current member at the time (KipAndKandi) made a post that seemingly confirmed for me that this was ongoing, which suggested to me that, based on the timeline, this had been going on for months by that point.

And as these accusations were flying, the Survivor's Network's members largely remained silent about it, which felt like an admission of guilt. If they were being misrepresented, then surely the SN members would come out to correct the record, I reasoned.

Eventually, members finally did come out to say that the roleplaying only happened a couple times. And the active member who seemingly confirmed it suggested they misspoke or were misunderstood. (I believe they said they had meant they saw the immaturity and the attacks on me, but not the roleplaying.)

All in all, I handled the situation in a very destructive way, and I wish I had tried reaching out to people in the server instead before going into war mode.

Having said that, I do have to address some just... utterly ridiculous takes on this controversy in the document.

WHY would this "interesting"?

This is, perhaps, the single most brain-dead critique the author of this document could have given.

In case you didn't realize, Squid hated me too! Practically all the sources I used could be described as "anti-Sophie." Both the current members at the time and the ones who left it. There were no "pro-Sophie" sources in that.

Believe it or not though, I don't base someone's credibility solely on how much they like me personally.

Honestly, it's bizarre that you think I would.

Is this how you think? "Well, this person dislikes me so their opinion isn't valid."

Frankly, I considered KipAndKandi's testimony way more valuable BECAUSE they didn't like me.

Here's the start of that post for context, where they stated they saw what Squid was talking about.

The fact that they were both supporting the SN and didn't like me at the time meant if anything, they would be biased in favor of the SN, and would have no reason to lie and make stuff up that would damage the SN's reputation, unlike a disgruntled former member like Squid who had a grudge against them.

More than that, the fact that they were new suggested it was an ongoing problem because Squid had been out of the server for months

Squid was disgruntled and had motive to lie or at least represent the SN in a negative light. Similarly, if I had followers or people who did like me in that server, they would be biased in my favor and also be less reliable sources.

I can't stress enough how utterly absurd it is that you think I should have dismissed their testimony simply because they didn't like me.

DissociativeDiscourse's Misgendering Post.

Now here we get to the other issue with the Survivor's Network which had to do with its admin, who posted the following, responding to an ask I answered.

Their screenshot of my post in response to a misgendering ask that echoed transphobic talking points:

Their reply:

And YES, it's fucking misgendering.

Why would this even be up for debate???

The fact that it's in response to a post I made and is using male pronouns is misgendering. Regardless of whether the misgendering is based on transphobia or pluralphobia. It's still misgendering.

In fact, it's very, very intentionally and maliciously misgendering with the "dude. bro. brother." line.

It crosses the threshold from "I'm going to ignore your gender and don't care if it hurts you" to "I'm intentionally going to repeatedly misgender you because I want to hurt you."

I legitimately debated whether this was technically transphobic or not, but the fact that it IS misgendering seems pretty cut and dry to me.

To be clear, I didn't believe in a grand conspiracy.

My thoughts on the SN is that you have a close group of friends in an echo chamber of sorts regularly attacking someone, cherry-picking their posts, and constructing a totem of what that person is. They each feed each other's anger and hate, building up this strawman.

And then this boils over into attacks outside the server.

I didn't think dissociativediscourse was leading everything directly, but I did have reason to believe that the other members of SN saw it and chose to not speak out about it because it was someone in their clique.

I don't necessarily believe that anymore. It certainly could have slipped under the radar, and just because a person is the admin doesn't mean they're all following that person's tumblr or watching their posts. But it's what I felt at the time.

Also, while not a conspiracy per se, there is a degree of coordination in their posts.

I thought the reports from Squid, seemingly backed up by KipAndKandi, were sufficient.

I thought, if there was another side of the story, it would come out once the accusations went public.

In hindsight, I could have approached other members of the SN privately, and should have. But... the idea of DMing a group of people who pretty much universally can't stand me was scary. And I wasn't sure if I could even trust them. If they lied to me in DM, I would have no way to verify if anything they said was true. If they had to defend themselves publicly, someone in their server, or who had been in the server in the past, could call them out on any lies. But in a DM, there would be no possible way to know unless I tried infiltrating their server myself.

Again, I handled this the wrong way and I regret the damage this caused to members in the server. But I want to explain my rationale at the time.

More on Vetting...

There's one more thing I need to say, on the subject of vetting, the author says that there's no way to verify that the screenshots of DissociativeDiscourse were real.

This is because within 1-3 days of making my first post about it, DissociativeDiscourse went back and deleted the post.

So it's true that it's no longer there.

Because it was deleted.

There is no possible way to verify that it was real.

There's nothing that can prove it ever existed.

The only ones who know it existed are me, DissociativeDiscourse...

And OH YEAH! The entirety of the SN who read DissociativeDiscourse's apology to the server, which was then put into Circ's document addressing the accusations.

When the post resurfaced this year, the admin had this to say in the Survivor’s Network: i am going to be fully transparent. i am the one who made that post, on November 28th of 2022.

You can see the full "apology" post and my response to it from the time here:

Putting "apology" in quotes because it was a private apology to the server that feels more like it's apologizing for the optics and doesn't seem to grasp how the post was bad.

In fairness, they did try to explain why they didn't try to apologize to me directly, including this line...

She has a tendency to twist words in posts, or assume bad faith when there is none, and it was felt the apology would not be accepted in good faith.

And... I can see how they would get this impression. I think they're wrong. I think I would have accepted a sincere apology and would have dropped it. But I understand why they would feel this way.

There is probably a lesson to be learned here about the importance of communication. Because I think both myself and the members of the Survivor's Network were scared of trying to address the other in a healthy way for similar reasons.

And even here, I've felt guilty for how things went down for a while but didn't know how to address it or apologize. So from that angle, I can understand it. I think the reasons they chose to not apologize to me weren't too different from the reasons I avoided really apologizing for how my actions hurt the people in SN.

Because doing so can be hard and scary. Especially in these types of situation. I get why they chose the route they did.

Back to the matter at hand though...

Vetting...

To the author of the document... if you weren't part of that drama, I can forgive you for not knowing about this very public document with the confession that literally everyone knew about at the time.

After all, you're not omniscient. You can't know everything.

Even if, again, everybody else did.

It does seem like you should have asked DissociativeDiscourse about the document though before implying I may have made it up. Especially when, as you point out, one of my failures in that drama was not properly vetting claims.

But maybe you couldn't reach DissociativeDiscourse.

I mean, they haven't posted in months, right?

So... in your wisdom, you decided without contacting them to dredge up past drama including a post they made that they were so ashamed of that they deleted it within days of being called out.

But wait... You claimed you contacted and got permission from everyone in the document, right? So... did you manage to reach DissociativeDiscourse to ask if you could include them, and then just chose not to ask if they made the post because it wouldn't support your narrative if they admitted it to you.

I'm almost certain DissociativeDiscourse wouldn't have denied it after making a post after admitting to it and apologizing for it to so many people. And if they did deny it, I'm even more certain that you would have happily put that into your document to try to prove I made the whole thing up.

So what is it? Were you lying about getting permission from everyone? Or did you contact DissociativeDiscourse to ask permission but then just chose to imply it could have been made up without even bothering to ask them directly if it was real, when you easily could have checked with them?

Or, I don't know, maybe something worse: you asked, they did admit to making the post, but you decided to go the "can't verify" route anyway because it suited your purposes better?

Which is it?

Because none of it looks very good for you.

Anyway, that's it for this episode of the document drama. Stay tuned for episode 4 where we get to talk about even more bad takes on gender in the document that thinks misgendering plurals isn't actually misgendering. Yay!

[davisexplainableart]

September 25, 2015 (TDCN premiere):

Tara: Look, all I'm saying is that I could totally roast a marshmallow better than you, okay?

Tommy: And I'm saying that you're bluffing.

Tara: Really?

Tommy: Obviously! I could totally do better!

Tara: Prove it!

Tommy: Alright, I will!

Eddy: Do you guys always have to be so competitive?

Tommy: Yes!

(TRANSITION)

Bloo: Now it's time for more of tonight's world premiere of Total Drama Cartoon Network season 2! Featuring, me, the real star of the show!

Davis *off-screen*: You're not that important.

Bloo: Shut up! I am too!!!

================================================

If it wasn't obvious, Total Drama Cartoon Network was a competition show in the style of the Total Drama series, which in itself was a series in the style of the Survivor franchise.

16 contestants from different Cartoon Network shows complete for a boat load of cold, hard cash.

The hosts rotated from episode to episode, since Chris (the usual Total Drama host) was busy. The rotation would include Chris, a green and red speaker box (in the style of BFDI), and me (even though I was only 11 at the time).

Why is it season 2, though? Technically season 1 referred to the collection of CN shorts parodying Survivor known as "Staylongers".

In fact, to celebrate the premiere, every Staylongers short played throughout the night. Plus, some of the contestants were invited.

I won't go into who was eliminated this week, but if/when I reveal the contestant list, you'll probably be able to guess who got the boot...

Actually, screw it...

Rigby from Regular Show was the 1st one voted out for...

Having the lowest score on his team.

Attempting to convince the rest of his team (ironically named Team Rigby by the raccoon himself) to cheat, which no one else agreed with.

[donteventhinkaboutitdeadblog]

It's time to rip the bandaid off

Allegations and Controversies around SN (Google doc)

- (former) ADMIN dude

Edit to this post: Please be aware that due to the very online nature of these claims, this document is subject to changes as any may occur. The mods, former and current, maintain a united front on the details of this document.

We are extremely saddened by all that has happened and that we are unable to share the stories and thoughts of all moderators, but the support and growth of Survivor's Network will always be encouraged. To our users: we love you so much. We're happy to finally be able to share this information and clear the name of a space we feel is so important to so many people.

[sentient-rift]

(Suddenly, Thanos snaps his fingers and wipes out half the universe.)

"Oh, not again..."

"Seriously?! We're doing this again?!"

"Curse you, Thanos!!"

"Not on my watch! The Infinity Stones won't work here!"

(RiFT snaps his own fingers and reverses the effect.)

"WAAAAAAH!! THANK YOU, RiFT!!! I REALLY HATE THAT MEME!!!"

"Of course. No meme is going to take my friends away from me."

[niccage]

Ugh like 3 weeks ago my husband and i were trying to find some dumb reality show to watch while we were both sick in bed and Deal or No Deal Island seemed like our dumbest option so naturally we went with it, but turns out there were only 3 episodes out AND it has Boston Rob from survivor which means we’re now stuck watching this stupid show weekly. Anyways new episode tonight and I hope Boston Rob goes home so i can stop watching it

[circular-bircular]

Why the FUCK did you support LITERAL TRANSPHOBIA AND FAKECLAIMING? I fucking trusted you but no matter what someone posts you shouldn’t support that. Going through fucking months of posts just to explain away someone’s transphobia is disgusting and I hope you experience far worse.

…. Sigh.

I don’t typically publish these. But I’m so goddamn tired of this.

Remember how I stood up for Sophie’s pronouns and gender identity when she said a slur? Remember how I owned up to my own (completely accidental mistake) fakeclaiming of her? Remember how the space I helped cultivate for months and months and months, the space people have cited as being “so much more pro-endo with me there,” the place that started allowing more and more diversity of systemhood because I fought for it, got harassed for months on end due to multiple users posting intense amounts of misinformation about us, including people who weren’t ever in the server to begin with?

Remember how that document I wrote while triggered, while losing a huge chunk of friends at the time in SN due to how stressed we all were, while so dissociated that I forgot months, said that the transphobia of the admin was absolutely fucking inexcusable? Remember how I condemned admin for this? Remember how admin fucking got rid of the post when he even realized it was there, because he hadn’t even known it was words he’d said, because he has a goddamn disorder that causes that???

Remember how I wrote, in the same goddamn document that is STILL being used to somehow attack me today, that none of this excuses the behavior? Remember how I was trying to explain just the posts that had contributed to triggering the admin? Remember how I explained that this was to explain WHY the behavior happened, not to excuse it, because the document was ONLY a detailing of every single accusation and source of accusation that had, at the time, been levied against my home?

Remember how I wrote an entire response at the bottom about how I lost my safe spaces because of this?

Remember how I wrote about how disgusted I was with the sheer amount of people who blindly believed the word of someone else, rather than coming to me to fucking ask?

Remember how I’m not even in SN anymore?

I don’t support transphobia. I don’t support fakeclaiming. I never have, and never will. There are times I slip up, because my language usage is off and even if I try my best to be clear, I muddle things because I guess I’m just stupid sometimes. It happens. I’m human.

But at least I tried to put an end to the drama, rather than prolonging a string of hatred for months on end about a CDD recovery server that had around 120 members. At least I offer a place to recover for those willing to change their minds and be better.

I’ve done my part. Anon — do yours.

I haven’t blocked you. Go ahead. Tell me to kms or how I’m a stupid moron who is clearly an anti endo TERF cause they’re the same thing and that I deserve all the harassment I get.

I’m kinda fucking used to it.