#sure hope it wasnt anything important LOL

[zerotwoooo]

Alright Kine... spill the beans (preferably not in the water, they'd go to waste!) What the hell happened, where were you and can you tell us more about what happened to kirby?

"Welll... on Kirby... I'm not too sure..."

"But I do remember Dedede telling us something... when something fell from the sky"

"Then the eye fell too.. and everyone panicked..."

"Pitch went up to the grass land, and I think Chuchu was with him too..."

[cleromancy]

while from the doylist perspective the stories are specifically propping tim up compared to jason by doing this... i am obviously still very interested in, and compelled by, jason canonically having a pretty high opinion of tim going all the way back to their first meeting.

(for the record, absolutely nothing in-universe justifies jason having this opinion of tim up until tim springs him from prison imo. he beat the snot out of tim in tt29 and it wasn't even hard and yet for some fucking reason he still walks away thinking tim is a Better Robin than he was? like... ok. sure. more thoughts on this later in the post tho)

so the new earth (post-crisis pre-reboot) continuity tim-jason interactions we have, in order, are batman 617-618 (from batman: hush, this ones a retcon and barely counts, its just jason holding tim hostage with a batarang to his throat; and you might also get a glimpse of jay doing this in batman annual 25 lol but its in the other room so im not checking), tt29 (published in the middle of uth coming out, lol), tt47 (countdown tie-in), robin 177 and 182-183 (post-countdown, immediately after jason dumps his red robin costume and one of tims rogues fishes it out of the dumpster to wear, correctly intuiting *for some reason* that this will get to tim), and......... sigh. stupid battle for the stupid cowl.

(and, since were talking about jasons perspective, theres also the picture wall in lost days. i dont know what issue it is because to me lost days is not "made up" of "issues", it is one book i simply open to devour whole whilst weeping.)

i think tt 29 is the interaction i find the most frustrating because... we have an idea what tt29 would have been like if it were good. bc we have ga01 69-72. and granted Tim is such a cocky little shit (affectionate) that jason simply. Would probably not have been able to scare him no matter what, lol... but imagine if this fucking issue had been good.

ok cutting 4 length

the problem with johns. .......the FIRST problem with johns. is that he regularly has interesting ideas and his execution of them completely falls flat. the second problem with johns is that he can't write dialogue. the third problem with johns is that it was really really important to him that you understood what a Talented And Special Boy tim is but instead of showing you that he just forced other characters to. tell you. over and over. jason is not johns' only victim in this quest. (and johns was also not the only perpetrator, as we will see when i get to fuckin fabnic.)

but like i said i *am* actually interested in the potential here, because i do think there is potential.

and i also think that--at least when you read into it as deeply as i do--jason is sympathetic in this issue. (don't give me "hes beating up a child" crap here btw. jason's only 2-3 years older, tims a peer to him, they could easily have gone to high school together if jason hadnt fuckin died.) johns deliberately shows us Jason hoping raven gets a reprieve from the nightmares, and he certainly was *trying* to show us how much it would fucking suck to be remembered as the Bad Robin, forgotten except to be a cautionary tale, what kind of things that would do to a person emotionally. AND he makes a point of highlighting Jason's loneliness and isolation as robin, and. tbh i dont think the issue itself rly blames Jason for that. (you most certainly do not gotta hand it to him though. under no circumstances do you gotta hand it to johns for anything.)

and while jason tearing off his clothes to reveal his party city knockoff robin costume--the better to beat you with, my dear--was, erm. falling mostly on the wrong side of the line btwn camp and cringe... i do think jason writing his own name in blood on the wall was right on the money, *especially* because it was obviously not tims blood. like, tim wasnt bleeding anywhere near enough for that. it was either fake blood or jason prepped his own beforehand for them to DNA test--but also if they saw it before they saw tim, to make them fear for tims life, as a reminder of the risks theyre dealing with here.

oh but i was planning on talking specifically about like. what Jason might actually have seen in tim that left him with a positive impression. as-written? kinda nothing. lmao. or well the one thing imo is this

just kidding i couldn't find the panelz somehow despite posting them literally like yesterday and i ran into this lol:

>:| got distracted again. by this.

anyway i give up ill add the pics later. but its the exchange where jason has *decisively* won the fight, tims crumpled on the floor concussed and winded, and jason demands if tim *really* thinks he was good enough to tail bruce unnoticed for weeks.

and tim says "yes." hes beat up enough he can barely talk but there's still no hesitation whatsoever. and jason is *really* down on himself in this issue--he calls himself a failure, he feels like no one cared about his death, he feels unremembered. and jasons stated intentions here were to get the measure of tim but i also stand by the interpretation that he wanted to warn tim off of the sidekick gig, to remind him you uh. you have to be dick fucking grayson to survive it. (i dont believe either of them mentions him by name, but hey, dicks shadow is big enough for the both of them.)

i think what jason finds worthy of respect here--and, on top of that, intriguing enough that in robin 177 he entreats tim to join him--is the confidence, and also? at absolutely no point does tim believe jason is there to kill him. not a fuckin high bar, i know, but like i said i do think jason had *planned* to try and scare tim off (just also mega derailed himself by accident bc he got too in his feelings about the statue room 🥺), and... its not a bar he would have expected Tim to clear, is all im saying. particularly because while it is *possible* this took place in the middle of uth (tt 29 was released in november 05, between batman 646 and 647, which is the part where slade shows up bc black mask hired him to take jason out, so tt29 couldnt have happened in the middle of those two specific issues, but there are several other points at which jason could have taken a break in menacing gotham to fly to san Francisco), with Jason talking so negatively about himself i have to assume this is after the end of uth.

(you might be able to place this in the in-universe chronology by if/when teen titans mentions chemo dropping on bludhaven, which happens immediately before the bruce-jason-joker final showdown. however i dont feel like poking around for that or any other details to anchor tt29 to the other events happening at the time rn.)

i just also think so much of what jasons doing in this issue is like--he doesn't know *what* hes there to do. he had a plan and hes kinda fumbling it, not because tim is being especially resourceful but because jasons still licking his emotional wounds from uth, and titans tower is bringing up ones i dont think he ever realized hadnt healed. hes feeling everything at once. hes angry and hurt and full of self loathing but i think by the time tim simply says "yes," jason hits the stage of just being... burnt out. done lashing out, fucking tired, just wants to go home, if he can ever find it.

but i do think that "yes" would stick in his craw for a long time afterwards.

tt47: tim kicks jason in the nuts and pretty much declares them even for tt29 lolol. you may have seen my post about how jason only *sometimes* wears armor in countdown--hes drawn in the armored turtleneck and tac pants in tt47, but there are times in countdown hes out there fighting aliens and metas and shit in his jacket, a *t-shirt,* and *jeans.* just a squishy regular degular baseline human doing this and no one ever brings it up. but anyway. do i think tim would have seen jason wearing the equivalent of civvies plus a domino mask, narrow in on that, and immediately decide to kick him in the balls? i sure do. do i also think that this would make him rise in jasons estimation?

yeah. yeah, i really do. lol

anyway after this! after this is jasons briefish world-hopping stint as red robin saving the universe being a big damn hero and getting paid dust by everyone around him, in countdown; i think i mentioned before in this post that at the end he abandons the red robin suit in a dumpster, where it gets picked up by one of tims rogues. this storyline sucks and fabnic is a hack unfortunately. the rogue did it bc he wants tims attention or whatever. not important except for how irritating it is that fabnic fumbled a concept this juicy (tim inheriting and eventually purposely adopting The Bad Robin Mantle) which is also further fumbled by stupid battle for the stupid cowl, and the people who it falls to to salvage it are. johns again, in adventure comics 3, and yost, who is a better writer than johns or fabnic but not by like a huge margin.

and while i do think tim having a bad opinion of jason at this point was inevitable i find it so frustrating the way it was executed... like so often with Bad Tim Writing and also fuckin DC Editorial's Jason Slander Agenda shit it wasn't because in-universe thats how the characters would feel, the writer was using tim as a mouthpiece, and jasons competence and things he cares about arent taken seriously... BUT WHATEVER the point is that when Tim goes to stop Jason from his villainous scheme to reduce crime or whatevr jason has such a high opinion of him that he asks tim to join him:

and jasons loneliness, his desperation to be heard, is such a theme for him in the new earth/post crisis era and i wish it had been. Handled better lol are you noticig a theme here its that Jason has been written badly. (tim too, tbh.) and when tim says no jasons dejected but unsurprised acceptance breaks my heart. but to me the most interesting part of jasons appearance at the end of tims robin series is in 182, when tim--for absolutely no good reason--gives jason the means to break out of prison.

he says something about how its what Bruce would have wanted, but for. reasons i wont get too deeply into rn, that absolutely does not hold water.

anyway i just think there's no way jason doesn't start crushing on tim at least a little at this point. shrug.

bftc sucks and i dont want to look at it rn. but its also got examples of jasons high opinion of tim. and also im mad at it bc both countdown AND his appearances in robin feel like they could have been taking jason to a like. more of an antihero type of role and then we get bftc and morrison and its kind of. fucking hard to get jason anywhere near back on track after that for those of us who still like playibg in the post-crisis pre-reboot sandbox. and i wouldnt be mad about that if bftc had been good bc Jason absolutely does make an incredibly interesting and effective and tragic antagonist when handled well but well. he wasnt. and i have no idea what bftc would.have even been like if it was good bc it was so off the wall and dumb and assassinated actually *everyones* characters. so.

anyway

im just going to roll back to robin 183 now

jasons referring to the damage tim got when he got a little bit exploded in 180, this pretty nasty burn on the back of his head, which was actually why he wore jasons RR cowl for the first time (he was still robin). but what you do see here--aside from Tims narration which puts him *firmly* on the side of obnoxiously arrogant and judgmental instead of charmingly cocky in this issue, to my estimation, thanks for nothing fabnic--is the two of them on firmly cordial terms. jason still thinks more highly than tim does of him, but theyre asking each other about their injuries... tim caring about the wellbeing of people he doesn't even like is par for the course with him, ofc, but once again Jason doesn't really get that a whole lot. constantly haunted by this panel from countdown btw:

does he though!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

here is another jaytim preboot canon interactions post from a few months ago with some more thoughts, some repeated lol.

anyway. incoherent rambling complete for now. however. jaytim time is all the time 👍 i will revisit this.

[my-castles-crumbling]

Hi! I'm a huge fan of yours honestly you're like a celebrity to me and I'm really nervous asking about this because Ive asked everyone else and they've all given me the same answer but you're really nice and I hope you can give me the honest truth.

I'm feeling really really guilty because I cheated on an exam earlier. I usually don't do that but I panicked and I literally can't fail because I'd be so disappointed with myself and I'm starting to suspect some sort of anxiety but I don't self diagnose lmao. It wasnt a huge exam, it was more like a test like a knowledge recall and it doesn't do anything to my final grade but I'm so stressed and I can't think about anything else.

I don't know what to do 😭

Don't worry if you can't reply I'll just get over it if lolololol.

Thanks! - MJ 🫀

Hi MJ! No need to be nervous I’m literally the opposite of scary lol.

Okay so..I mean yeah, in an ideal world, you should probably tell your teacher, right? Certainly, if you think there’s any way they could find out, it’s much better to be mature and own up to it than to have them come to you. I would say that the majority of teachers would respect you for being responsible enough to recognize your mistake.

But..I also worry about those teachers who might turn this into A Thing unnecessarily. Especially since it’s really NOT a huge thing.

Honestly, if it was me? It’s not a big test. You recognize your mistake. You feel guilty and it seems like that’s consequence enough. Make sure to learn the content you didn’t know, promise yourself you’re not going to do it again. Part of still being in school is being able to make mistakes without life-changing consequences. Remember that making this mistake doesn’t make you a bad person, and you’re literally in school to learn- in all ways! Learn from this, and you’ll be okay ❤️. You seem like a genuinely good person with a great sense of right and wrong. This one decision doesn’t change that- you’re still a good person ❤️

P.s. for everyone else reading- obviously…you shouldn’t cheat. But like….being being gentle with yourself and recognizing the entire situation is also important in my opinion 😅

[waarmsalad]

Not really quick note: so ive never actually 'finished' any fics so i wasnt sure how to, this is also the first one ive posted on here, id love to have any tips even from people who dont really write, constructive critisism is always welcome. I think i stuck to the theme but im not sure lol. Ive edited most of it but some parts i only skimmed through after writing them so mistakes are probably present, anyways thanks for reading and i hope that this is enjoyable and not too goofy😭

(I love your work so much @mustainegf, thank you for the opportunity!<3)

Words: 2k

Warnings: my writing, fwb but no smut, mostly fluff, making out and a mention of smoking. I dont really think theres anything else

You noticed as you looked out the vehicle's window, intricate patters of frost decorating the glass. It was the middle of winter, and by the looks of it neither you or cliff would be trying to get anywhere else after you arrived at his place.

The changes in recent weather had been drastic. It had rained the night before, but now even the air was frozen forcing previous puddles to be formed into patches of slippery ice.

You two figured that after hitting up the grocery store, which had been before the heavy snowfall, you would hang out, watch a movie, share a smoke or get into some other suggestive activity.

You were quite content in that moment but the thought that you'd spent nights awake about itched at your mind again.

A while back Cliff had suggested to add a twist to your benevolence. "I was just thinkin' cause you're always complaining that you're not getting laid-" he  pauses to smirk. "And I'd also like to have a little fun now and then." He had previously explained that if uou were up to it, a freinds with benefits situation wouldnt be so bad.

Before you answered he made sure that you knew that he only wanted to if you were up for it, and that you could call it off at any point. "Its completely up to you, just think about it." He told you.

And you did. Of course you wanted it, or rather him, but you knew most of these sort of relationships excluded feelings. Cliff hadnt thrown in the rules yet so you asked him about them, clarifying that you were still only pondering the option.

Cliff said to you that he just wanted to discuss where boundaries lied, as well as any thoughts about the arrangement. He mentioned a few other things like being honest, which was important, but he never said anything regarding avoiding any romanticism. So you agreed.

There was this little sliver of hope deep in your heart hoping that maybe he didnt forbid those kind of feelings because he reciprocated them. However you countered with yourself that he would have just asked you out if he did, since he wasnt one to play with a person's emotions.

You opened your mouth to bring up the topic in the car, but stopped yourself. The different ways you believed he would respond forced you to change your mind.

You noticed after the first few weeks of the arrangement that cliff had been acting a little bit different. A change like that had been expected in some way by you, but he just wasn't the same. And though you knew that you should talk to him about it, the tension was currently a little weighted. You didnt feel like adding to it by asking anything that you deemed momentarily 'unnecessary.'

After a couple of minutes he pulled into the driveway, parking the car on the frozen cement with caution. The heater had previously been blasting hot air into the cab of Cliff's car. That being so, once  you opened the door and stepped into the fresh air, a harsh chill immediately encased your entire body.

Cliff quickly grabbed some of the grocery bags from the back, giving you a head start getting to the front door. Once you were inside, cliff swung the door shut, placing the bags down before beginning to shed his basic winter layers.

While you took off your own jacket, he decided to tease you, he grabbed your sides, icy fingers clawing at your covered flesh. His actions caused you to shriek. He snickered at your reaction, which drew out a scoff from your lips. "Meanie" you commented quietly. Cliff only chuckled and shook his head, smiling.

Once the two of you discarded all of your snow-packed apparel, he informed you that he was gonna grab a shit ton of blankets and haul them into the living room after he put the groceries away. "We can do whatever afterward, I just wanna get you warmed up." He winked, nudging you before dissapearing into the hallway.

You smiled, even without any cozy blankets you could feel a little bit of warmth in your heart already.�� Although he was only a freind, he took care of you, which you could do by yourself easily but you needed to feel loved, as your life had been all sorts of messed up.

Suddenly remembering that he was nothing more than that; a freind, you started spiraling again. You knew you needed to finally talk to him about his difference in mood toward you, except you were intimidated by all of the possible outcomes.

As soon as you started to feel a farmiliar burn in your face from holding your tears from the confusion and longing, he staggered into the living room before you. A massive pile of blankets and quilts were stacked high in his arms. He struggled to avoid dropping any, but some dispersed onto the hardwood floor.

Luckily that made you smile before you could cry. You tried to stiffle a giggle, however failing miserably. Once he stubbed his toe on the coffee table next to the couch, you knew that was the breaking point. You bursted out laughing while he hissed in pain.

Cliff pouted, dropping all the fabric onto the loveseat. He turned around and huffed. "You're kind of mean yourself there, sweetheart." He claimed, chuckling. You only beamed at him, posing as innocent.

Feeling quite generous afterwards, you assisted in gathering the blankets and stacking them on the  couch neatly. During your time spent on making the couch look nice, your mind nagged at you once again to ask him, but you ignored your own persistence.

Cliff soon heads to the kitchen to grab the snacks and junk you had picked out for the movie, insisting that you pick what to watch while he left you in the den.

Once you finished, you sat down in front of the coffee table and looked under the tv, finding his vhs tape collection. After you sifted through the different movies for a bit, Cliff brought in a large bowl of popcorn and another small bowl of candy, a couple of drinks inside since his hands were mostly full.

"So what did you pick?" He wondered out loud. You grinned and held up the shining. He groans, placing down the bowls. "How many times have we watched that in this room alone??" He teased you.

"I just really love it, theres Shelley Duvall too" you quipped back, ignoring his faux annoyance. "And to be fair, you almost begged me to pick the movie." Cliff nodded, snickering softly. You slid the tape into the vhs player, sitting back onto the couch as soon as the beginning ads start playing.

You were sitting a little ways away from cliff on the couch. He noticed and pulled you toward him, now sitting sideways. Your legs rested over the arm of the loveseat as you flipped some of the blankets onto yourself.

About half an hour into the movie you could feel a new tension build. It had started modestly, but soon it seemed to be intolerable. You turned your neck a little ways to look at cliff, whose eyes were glued onto the screen. Regardless, you could sense that he wss struggling to pay attention to the film.

You looked back, and were on the verge of speaking up when cliff opened his mouth. "I think we should call it off." He said. He couldnt see the the sudden shock that took over your face because he was still staring straight at the TV. There was no real emotion present in his voice when he told you that, which threw you off.

You knew that he was talking about the arramgement  but you wanted to be clear. Shifting in your spot, you asked him, your tone almost more bewildered than you were. "What do you mean call it off?"

"I mean I cant do this anymore." He claimed, finally looking toward you. He winced at your slight scowl. "Thats not a reason Cliff, you said that we had to be honest." He groaned at your reminder and huffed, putting a hand over his face.

He mumbled something, but you couldnt hear him cause he spoke so quietly. "What?" You asked. This time he spoke louder. "I didnt mean for it to happen!" He stated, which confused you.

"For what to happen?" you were confused, the movie continued to play in the background as you scoffed at him again.

He sighed "Im sorry" he said quietly. "What happened Cliff?" You huffed, getting a little tired of going back and a little concerned. "What did you do?"

"I love you." He says bluntly, he was unable to look you in the eye as he scrunched his face and stood up.

You sat on the couch, no words could explain how many emotions were trying to unscramble themselves in your brain, but the gears started turning so you tried. "Cliff I-" you sputtered. "Why were you apologising before?"

He raised an eyebrow and dropped his hands to his side, your sudden calmness unnerved him. "I thought that it was a basic kind of 'rule' in these kinds of...relationships" He raised an eyebrow.

"Well you never mentioned it." You told him. He thought back to when he suggested it and nodded. "I guess I didnt but I thought that you'd-" he began ro ramble again before you cut him off.

"I love you too, cliff." God, was that a great way to shut him up at first his expression was flat. Eventually he just stood and smiled like a little kid. He did nothing until you rolled your eyes and patted the couch. "Just come here, you dumbass," you chuckled and shook your head. He obliged, pulling you even closer once he sat down.

For a moment you two just looked at eachother admiringly. You had thought Cliff was at an absolute loss of words but he proved you wrong. "Can I kiss you?" He wondered out loud. You smiled and reached your hands to hold both sides of his face, bringing him forward and allowing him to reach your lips in a soft kiss.

You had kissed Cliff before, but this time it felt different. It didnt feel rushed or cloddish. It was sensual, and a little strange. You felt as if every weight had been lifted off of your shoulders. Butterflies started stirring in your stomach, which  made you feel giggly and lovesick.

Slowly, the kisses moved on to small touches, and though it had almost been a routine as well, this too felt different for you and cliff. It felt strange, but amazing both at once.

You broke away and tucked your head into the crook if his neck, littering small kisses and nips on his skin. Cliff groaned and made little sounds every once in a while, he smiled widely, basking in the moment.

Your tounge darted out and you licked over where you had nipped, smoothing over some of the purple marks you had sucked as well.

You kissed back up his jawline to his face, planting a singular kiss on his cheek before pulling away to gaze at him again. His eyes flutter open, his grin staying as it was as he sinks into the back cushions.

He holds you by the small of your back with both hands as you straddle him. Leaning forward, you hug him. "Can we just stay like this?" You asked, feeling no urgency for anything at the moment. Cliff agreed, smiling and kissing your cheek before rubbing your back, the light pressure making you sigh happily.

He held you close. It felt good, to finally be like that with him. The tension was long dissipated and he made it clear that he was only acting strange as to not scare you away with his confession.

The only occurence that disturbed your peaceful atmosphere being a playful popcorn fight, which started because of a small tiff about the movie neither of you remembered by the time it was over.

AGHHHHH idk how anybody writes anything so fast ive been working and procrastinating on working on this for probably four or five days😭

I really hope this was okay, thank youu<3

[hibiscussoupbowl]

Yk what ive already made all my statements abt the teen wolf movie on instagram but imma say it here

As much as i love and breath teen wolf, its not the perfect show which is fine bc recognizing that is what makes its good. The thing is the movie? Godawful. The one thing i can appreciate is that the movie had an opening and the graohic design was cool

My problems with it?

-the plotline being abt allison. I think alisson (is it allison or alisson?) Is a fine character especially in s3, however, you killed her off. That whole s3 ending was abt her dying and isaac leaves BECAUSE of allison dying. Now ur gonna reopen that plotline that was TIED OFF? Ur not even gonna get stiles or isaac back into play even tho theyre arguably the most important for that season. And ur not gonna tell us how s6 ended??? Even with a flashforward of 2 years??

-the fbombs. Im sorry, what? U make a show that doesnt use f bombs at all and u make it creepy and horror but when u make the movie thats r rated meaning u can go even harder... u use it on fbombs? Might i add in the worst way possible. "Darkness motherfucker" wow. It just sounds so cringey. Either use it once meaningfully or dont drop one at all. U managed to make s3 be creepy without it do it again

-why the absolute fuck was liam in japan. By the hour and a half mark that question wasnt explained and it never was. Him and this girl hikari (whos gr8 actually) are just in japan and i guess own a bar??? I dont even know what they are to eachother let alone how they ended up there. I only knew that they love eachother bc they say that in jpn but like still??? Is it a sibling ily or a were dating and ily?

-the actors. Im sorry but if ur gonna get all these actors like masons and parrish and malia and whoever but u give them like what one line? Mason had legit like 2 lines in that movie. And u dont even know how he beacme a police officer! He just is! And they dont even say anything abt corey??? U could easily get his actor i know he aint doin anything rn. Liam and hikari? Also have like 3 lines in the movie

-personal thing lol but not everyone looks good with a beard and a shaved head

-lydia and stiles. Just bc u coudnt get dylan obrien cuz hes like the most succesful does NOT mean u just break up the couple that u built for six. seasons. You couldve said literally anything you couldve said stiles was dealing with some fbi shit or another supernatural disaster. Lydia having the dream? Tragic but stiles wouldnt have cared bc he loves her and wouldve just wanted to be with her forever.

-how can u not tell us who elis mother is. We ALLLL wanna know who derek banged im sorry but he slept with the enemy like three times and with his history and family history everyone just wants to know who it was.

-dereks death. WHAT THE FUCK this man survived a *pipe* going thru his back for like 10 minutes and survived, got brutally slashed and survived and ur telling me he died by magical fire. Sure teen wolf sure.

-if ur gonna introduce a character like alec in the season finale, bring him into play somehow recast him idc but do smt. Even nolan! Someone !

-what was with the whole nogitsune temple thing?? It was so... not scary at all and it looked bad. Like idk it was just so kiddy. Like oh noooo we re trapped bc we re tied to a pole with rope -_-

-sorry but again why continue a plotline that has been tied off? And not continue with the one that was open ended when u cant even get the significant actors for the s3 plotline? Bring daniel sharman into play, medicis over he has the freetime.

-malia and scott breaking up is also stupid bc again they were "endgame" and they had no reason to break up other than the fact that allison was alive again and for plot reasons.

-harrison coming back was so stupid i was so glad they killed him off even tho i guess they never found his body. I was hoping

-are argent and melissa not dating anymore? Its been like 3 months since ive seen the movie so i dont rememeber that but if they arent, why are the writers/producers, whoever, so desperate to break up everything great they had goin at the end of the show.

The interesting parts of the movie were

-the intro

-elis backstory with his dad, except why would u hate derek its literally tyler hoechlin

-and scott having an animal clinic bc i think thats funny

[attckher]

Hiii Nic 💘 I just wanted to start by saying that your ability to capture such raw emotion in your art is absolutely incredible. There’s something so deeply moving about how you portray feelings

On another note, I’ve been seeing so much fanart of the two scientists (Jayce and Viktor I believe?) from Arcane, and I really want to watch it but, do I need to know anything about League of Legends to understand it? Or can I go into it without any prior knowledge of the game? Just want to make sure I’m not missing anything important. Hope you’re taking care of yourself, I love you and everything you create 🙂‍↕️

no physical contact destroys me bc a thank you means nothing here, i appreciate ur words so much

youre fine, i used to play LoL some time ago solely for the laughs. Arcane is something else entirely. back in 2021 i wasnt sure it was worth watching but once i gave it a chance, as dumb as it sounds + considering that is quite a tragic story, it made me want to live again. the characters are definitely worth discovering. needless to say, the animation is out of this world

[spacebeyonce]

Sorry for dumping in your inbox again haha, but anyways-- just rn I came across a post on my dash about how it's the reader's duty to check tags, and that you shouldn't attack fanfic authors for "writing stuff you don't like" (ie proship nonsense lol), and while I do agree that it's always important to check tags thoroughly; I kept thinking about how many times I came across disturbing content, that WASNT tagged, and it was making me think, "if this wasn't tagged, don't I have the right to be upset about it being included?"

For example, my special interest is specifically Kaeya, an Indian character from genshin impact. On the rare occasions that I read fanfic, it's usually one shots of them-- however SO many fanfics end up describing kaeya in the most racist or fetishy way imaginable, or have characters say or do racist things towards them! And look-- I can handle kaeya fics involving racism (hell, I even write some for my friends and I to discuss!!!), however those fics are usually exploring racism as a THEME, and how it impacts the character! Most fanfics though? Absolutely don't do that!! And the racism is literally NEVER tagged!! There's no warning of kaeya being called a fucking "caramel twink" or have their brother say racist shit to them! There's none of that! Idk...

TL;DR ppl don't understand that you can't trust authors to tag everything/not to be pieces of shit, and that it shouldn't be reader's fault for stumbling across untagged shit that upset them + genshin fans suck ass lol

oh don't apologize! I enjoy talking to new people!

but yes most fic writers are fucking atrocious when it comes to tagging, and oh how they bristle when you ask them to tag something more appropriately. it's why the 'creator chose not to warn' tag is so....pointless to me??? that shit is my enemy. like warning readers about a topic or theme that might trigger them is common courtesy imo. and if your story can't stand without you making the triggering content be a surprise then like...that's a skill issue I fear. it's always 'fic writers don't owe you anything' and all this attitude but then that attitude is gone when our hard work isn't recognized the way we want.

like I can understand being like 'fic writers don't owe you anything' when it's someone that's telling you the direction your story should go, or constantly demanding updates and not like....idfk interacting with this thing you're making as it comes. I get that! but this is kinda supposed to be a community, and communities build each other up and call us in when needed...so maybe we should be open to more than just blind uncritical praise. but what do I know!

but yes, they are never, ever going to tag for racism like that. when it's how you write it, in EXPLORATION AS A THEME then hell yeah it'll be tagged. but when it's racial fetishization, or an irrational bashing fic towards a character of color...no, no. that'll never get tagged. you can certainly bring up why it's hurtful to the author, but chances are high that won't go suuuper well. 'cause I mean...the last few weeks have really reminded me that when it comes to racism fandom is just stupid as hell about it so what else can we expect lmao.

but yeah I feel your pain so hard. every time I hear about the genshin fandom it's when they're doing something racist so. I'm sending a prayer up for your strength lmao. I hope you've got a good community of color around you there because man it sure helps you feel less fucking insane.

[antrunner]

RE: your tags about body type variation in comics:

100%, a lot of comic artists know how to draw mmmmaybe 4 body types and about 5 faces and anything outside that becomes borderline or actual caricature. Most can't even draw kids that look like kids, and drawing children comes up A LOT so that particular oversight doesn't even make sense.

A lot of the reason for it comes down to muscle memory and expedience--you draw faster if you're drawing the same thing you've drawn several thousand times before. (Personally? I try to make sure my characters all have unique faces at a minimum.) That's one of the reasons I was like 'godDAMNIT, GODSPEED!' when he killed off the other speedsters/made them not feel safe to have powers. We had a pretty diverse range of ages and body types going with the Central City Speed Crew there, and I was low key hoping we'd see them show up more.

YEAH EXACTLY! Which, all of that second paragraph leads me into an even bigger issue in comics that i've noticed: quantity over quality. It feels like with a lot of newer ones (rebirth ones......) a lot of things have been disregarded in favor of just. producing things. and it sucks because we lose a lot of good stuff like diversity, personality, pre-set character growth. on top of all of this i feel like it's... alarming. that most of the fat characters we see are villains. not heroes. but from what we DO see from heroes, their body types are quickly retconned to fit in with the norm of skinny muscled people.

two examples of this that really pisses me off is ted kord: who became just another skinny muscle guy (he should be CHUBBY IMO) and kyle rayner. at the start of his run kyle had a sort of soft body with a rounder face. of course he wasnt always drawn like this, but looking at him in rebirth its like looking at a completely different person altogether. (this is also why i personally hate the omega men comics too. that is NOT kyle.)

Here's him in GL: 3D (1998) and Ion: Guardian of the Universe (2006).

He has rounder features. Muscled but not INSANELY so. He has a soft body type and... while not FAT. I think its important to recognize changes like this. He's actually seen a lot in early comics trying to work out with people like Donna or the titans and genuinely struggling to keep up because he isn't in shape. which MAKES SENSE FOR HIM!!!!!!!

SERIOUSLY WHO IS THIS LOL. (dont come at me with "hes AGED" i do NOT care... theres a way to age up characters while still keeping their body types and features the same. come on his eyes are BROWN. not terrifying blue.)

im going a bit off topic here. but i agree that it can also be seen with speedsters. they should, at the very least, be lean rather than heavily muscled. too often people hear "superhero" and assume massive, defined muscles like wwe wrestlers. no...... no. i think that heroes' bodies should be reflective of their lifestyles and powers. speedsters run. lanterns fly. superman is naturally large and should look like an ACTUAL body builder. wonder woman should be huge and muscled too rather than rib-less and thin.

there just needs to be more fat heroes. im not a skinny person, and actually lean more towards the fat side of the bmi scale (which isnt real btw. its bullshit lies used to fuel the diet industry and the public school system xoxo) but i hate this weird idea in comics that every hero is SKINNY. because more often than not... origin stories are like "this is just some random dude who got powers". that shouldnt mean he was already fit as fuck with an 8 pack and shoulders the size of manhattan...

i think its a conversation that isnt had enough is all. and im happy to talk about this more. as someone who struggles with weight issues and always have, it's harmful to a lot of people to see this sort of thing go unnoticed. and i hope with the semi-recent surge of diversity recognition we can also get some recognition for different body types :)

[flockofdoves]

i think its important to retain compassion and make sure when i actually talk to her i am open to listening to whatever she has to say. obviously thats important even just on purely a level of wanting communication to go well and for her to be receptive to solutions. but also of course there needs to be space kept for me and my gf to vent our frustration on our own time bc just bc pretty much almost everyone can always have some sort of personal justification for why they did something within their constricted circumstances obviously that doesn't mean people hurt by that dont still have reasons to be upset or resent the situation. and i'm trying to be good and healthy in how i balance these two things. 

i'm not always the best at conversations i can be a bit conflict avoidant and i have given up on talking about any of this for a while after my last half assed attempts at communication about this stuff failed (even if i think to be fair to myself some of it very clearly goes beyond what i'd imagine the scope of any misalignment of expectations from past experiences in different living situations could cause. like sure ok maybe you've used other peoples dishes in the past but i cant imagine it takes communication (which i did w this actually!) to know that if you've then let those dishes mold for a month throwing out that persons dishes after they ask you to wash them after they see them outside is not an acceptable next step) but i’m really trying to expend the effort to be better at communicating

but every time i’ve tried she avoids it somehow. and i keep trying harder in more direct but still not aggressive ways and i’m sure theres still more i could do but its just so so frustrating having it continue on this way. 

i feel like theres no space for me to even healthily balance my frustration with not letting that boil into any actual opportunity to talk because its just like a constant situation of having to hope that she’ll actually not avoid things this time and i need to emotionally prep myself for conversation so that i won’t unproductively just come across as angry (or just like. so shaky i cant talk lol) and because i’m just like fucking constantly having to put myself in that state theres not even a healthy space to even be properly mad during me and my gfs time when shes not around

i’m just so so so sick of this i’m so constantly stressed and sad about all of this this is the worst roommate situation i’ve ever been in even when just like. in fun conversations before she was avoiding us and that i still overhear w her friends i really enjoy my roommate. like thats really saying something when i’ve had a homophobic passive aggressive roommate before and a roommate that always turned the thermostat up to 90 degrees!!! but this is still (even after her wayyyy lowballing the utility bills “at their worst” looking back lmao) like the cheapest place i’ve seen around here with this fucking housing crisis happening around my college and at this point itd literally be too late to find anything good for when this lease ends i don’t know what to fucking do i was panicking about housing this time last year and it felt like it might fall through at like any moment once we did secure this apartment last august and then like so soon after that everything started to gradually get more and more stressful as more things happened with our roommate so its been like a fucking year of housing stress about stuff but we didn’t even start early bc it cost so much to furnish this place so our room wasnt just so deeply stressful to live in with the amount of unpacked boxes for months that we only just finally had all the furniture and storage to actually put away that we kept being like well i’m sure if we just communicate better it can improve because we really want to keep living here and dont want to go through All That with apartment applications and moving again any time soon but also jesus christ what if it just doesnt fucking change im in fucking limbo

[actualtext]

Jan 30, 2023

Cailee Catastrophy

Background- I told Cailee I wanted to visit before making my choice to like check the vibe to see if I liked it. I asked her probably over a month in advance, to which she responded by letting me know she wouldnt know her work schedule until two weeks before. Deep down inside, I knew the plane tickets were going to be way higher in price, but I said "fuck it" and asked her to let me know when she got her schedule. I responded by letting her know that I wasn't able to find any cheap flights, at least not in my price range. I told her previously that I would need until February to let her know if I was or wasn't going to go for sure, but it was Jan 21st and I felt like the flights not working out was kind of a sign, and that I knew what my answer was. I went ahead and told her that I wasnt going to go after all and that I wanted to tell her sooner rather than making her wait till February. It didn't seem fair to keep that to myself until then. She didn't respond, so the next day I asked if she was okay. (You know this part) I'm just going to copy our texts here because what happened was weird. It's like nothing escalated to a huge thing and I blame the lack of tone in text. Anything in brackets [ ] is something that wasn't in the text, but that I added for better understanding or to make a statement.

Sat, Jan 22

ME: Cailee? You okay?

Cailee: Um I need a little bit I havent really been okay and haven't known what to say at all

ME: Okay, I understand, I'll be here. 💖 🥺

Fri, Jan 27

Cailee: Hey I still don't quite know what to say, like I've been really just upse about this while situation, not because you decided not to come, but because you made it seem like you were coming. And I just kept beling like no lol she's not coming but you kept being so so like adament about it and so sure and I wish you never put that idea into my head if you weren't sure, it's frustrating to be in the situation I am in and then someone like essentially gets your hopes up for months and then is like yeah no, I muean just like I thought, but towards the end you barely checked for flights like 2 weeks before you wouldn've came up here and I was like yearh she procrastinated on it casue it wasn't important to her. Originally I was just real mad abot having been through this whole situation and the measurments of the rooms I took and then moving stuff out of the room you wanted because it was important to you and I was trying to et myself to stop being so stubborn and trying to learn from how I was being.

Umm im not doing well at all and that doesn't have anything to do with you. I was pretty devastated when I got the news fom you and all I've wanted to do is hide from texting you or saying anything becasue like i'm just really upset and alone and isolated and depressed and confronting that realization that nobody is coming up here with me adds to that entire thing. Winter up here is extremely rough, you would not believe. And saying anything, especially trying to gather my thoughts enough to say something nice or comforting or accepting was too much, or I mean it still is too much. My mental health has been bad since the shit with clarissa [her old roommate] happened and I often think about suicide here and still when I was there [in Texas]

You don't have to say anything to like idk console this or make it better becasue it is exactly what it is and it happened exactly how the world wanted it to happen for the better or for worse

I just wish things were different and that I didnt' have to feel this every second of everyday

You coming was essentially becoming my little tiny glimmer of hope and it's gone now. And I'm not saying that to make you feel guilty or regret your decision, it's just exactl how I feel and how I've felt for a while now.

I hope Texas is the brightest ray of sun in your life because I sure miss it and everyone in it with all my heart

[high key, should have just left it, but I felt like she was accusing me of not being honest with her, and I wanted to clarify that but it ended up turning into so much more.]

Sat, Jan 28

ME: I was sure at first that I was going to move in wit you in indiana. I wouldn't have brought it up if I wasn't going to go. Initially, it seemed like a for sure thing. Until you started trying to dictate my choices. As time went on (our last conversation), I realized that our communication styles were completely different [should have prepared me for this], and you dropped news that I felt shoudl have been divulged before the decision to move. The bottom line is that I figured our that it wouldn't be the smartest idea to move to indiana. I even told you I needed time to think about it becasue things had changed, and that I no longer felt sure. So please don't tell me that after repeating "I've been planning on doing this all on my own anyways" when I told you I had to think about it, you were finally hopeful. Casue that would just be so silly. You even told me you had been preparing to do it all on your own since the get go, during our last conversation.

I checked for flights a whole month in advance. You were the one who said "I won't know my scheduel until two weeks before" which made me ahve to hold off on buying plane tickets. I was taking your schedule into consideration because you were the one who said you don't deal well with change. I didn't wanna just show up while you were busy. I was trying to be considerate. Something that you have hardly done in this situation, and apparently only did so after you thought there was a chance I would no longer be going. It was too late by then, Cailee.

You're not the only one not doing well, my dude. Please try to remember that. I genuinely hate that you're feeling like this but It wont get better until you go get some help.

I know I came off as stern in the beginning, but your first message was nothing but attacks.

As for being your glimmer, you were the one who told me that you didn't want to be responsible for me liking or disliking indiana or be responsible for my happiness. You should have put that on me, or at the very least, you shoud have been honest about how you were feeling beforehand so that I could have talked you don rather than being adamant. I was adamant because I was excited. As time went on, I becasme less excited. Imagine the prospect of moving to a whole new state thinking its gonna be cool af cause that's your friend [over there], and then your friends starts being bossy/dictating. It doesn't make you feel so welcome. Especially when your friend keeps repeasting how she can always do this without you. Do it without me then. I don'y want to be in Texas, but I dont want to be alone in indiana more than I don't wanna be here.

Cailee: U know what I see where ur coming from. ur right and I'm sorry, but we both need to see each others side, and what I said to you wasn't an attack but I was expressing my feelings about the situation nothing more

Me: "I wish you had never gotten my hopes up"

I didn't do that

That's an accusation

I was transparent thw whole time

I also didn't make you wait until February to tell you my decision

Cailee: Uh I mean you did get my hopes up like quite literally like the way you talked about it, that's not an accusation either it's like literally true, my hopes were in fact up by the way you talked about coming and how sure you were

Me: becasue I was

and once I wasn't

I let you know

Cailee: Ok so like that's true though. Whatever set ou off about my personality happened eventally right but maybe for about two months you were super sure you were coming, according to you

Me: Yeah cause I totally was

I told everyone including my family [to explain how serious I in fact was]

Cailee: It's like okay that I'm bummed out about that, like I'm allowed to feel what I feel, It doesn't have to be like who's fault it is type of deal. It's a shitty situation at the end

It's probably about 50/50 both sides my guy

Nobody has to like win or be right about it

Cause I told my family too like I did the same shit to prepare that you did except I was already here for months and I'd already done what u were about to do

Sun, Jan 28

Me: When I asked you for the measurements [refering to her first message during which I felt attacked], I was in ikea. So please stop thinking I wasn't serious cause I was literally ready to buy furniture that would fit in either room. I talked to my therapist about the situation and I got multiple opinions. Ultimately, I decided for myself that It wouldnt be good for my mental health to go to a place that I only had one form of support that was rocky in and of itssef.

I mentioned telling everyone about the move to show you how sure I was. You may have told your family but your family was already there. If I needed financial assistance [like cailee did in the beginning], would your mom have pitched in to help me? [like she did for cailee] No. She doesn't even know who I am because we never did that zoom call I asked you for dring the first month you arrived. Me moving there and you moving here are two very different things, so please don't compare them.

You told me you were prepared to do it alone, so your hopes shouldnt have been up. Remember, I told you "It's good that you're mentally preparing to do it alone because it's smart and it doesn't put pressure on me to go" this was around the time I said I wasn't for sure anymore. I did my part by letting you know, so your hopes shouldn't have been high after that becasue I had told you I wasn't so sure.

Aside from me doing my part by being fully transparent with you, I'm also not in charge of your feeling. I didn't get your hopes up. You did, by continuing to think that I'm[didnt mean to say I'm] everything was for sure even after I told you it wasn't. Aside from that someone who is really mentally prepared to do it alone wouldn't be feeling bummed or blaming me for their sour mood. Someone who is actually prepared to do it alone probably would have said something like "dang, I was really looking forward to it, but thanks for letting me know" and then moved on.

As you said, no one has to be right or wrong, but literally everything you said about me doing was in response to something you did/said. The way you went about things influenced me [to] not want to go anymore. And if you had been honest with me about how you were really feeling, letting me know that your hopes were high instead of playing it down like you were okay doing it solo, I could have helped and talked you down but it's too late for that.

You went for your mental health, I decided to stay for mine. Your feelings are valid, Cailee, but this is what it is. I'm not going. Feel what you need to feel but don't blame me. Not even 50/50.

I never once said "man, now I have to sta in Texas casue cailee turned out to not be the ideal roommate for me" never. Because I'm in charge of my feelings, and while your actions influenced my decision, I was the one who made it. I might have felt let down and sad that my moving plans fell through, because I did genuinly want to go, but I never blamed you for that.

I might not want to be here, but I don't want to be anywhere else I'd end up feeling alone anyways. At the very least, I have a wonderful support system.

I hope you feel better and find other flinmmers of hope becasue I know what it's like to feel let down and alone.

I'm still your friend, cailee, but I'm not taking the blame for somethinf that isn't my fault. It was a decision I made, that you made me believe you were okay with.

I'm sorry your hopes were high and that I let you down by not going. Please believe me when I said the exact same thing happened to me. Lets move past this. :/

Cailee: Ok just you send a thousand word message saying basically it's completely my fault is actually ridiculous after I literally apologized and was ready to drop it dude like stop carying on with this shit and if you're not gonna admit any of this was your fault and play thw whole "everything is much worse for me and my situatio is harder than yours" like no dude just drop it, it's already been over but u keep carrying on and on and "it's not my fault it's yours and you did this to yourself" You can be right if you want to and always get the last word in and let me know how much u think it's my fault again and again but I'm literally not interested in that because I apologized already and already admitted at the very least half was on me and you cant stop explaining that to me in 100000 word texts for some reason like please dude just stop it like why do you need to add "not even 50/50" just own up to your part this shits a two way street and that entire text you sent is completely not necessary dude.

Me: Cailee, that's not even what I'm saying. I specifically said I didnt blame you.

why does it upset you that I said you were in charge of your feelings?

And I simply asked you not to compare out situations, that mine was worse.

Not that*

You have help up there

I wouldn't

It's a fact

Cailee: Like I literally talked to a friend and she explained it to me and told me I was wrong and that it was half and half from her perspective and told me where I went wrong and was like oh shit ok thank you for that and then tried to apologize to you like minutes after

and then you just kept arguing after that

Me: I didn't want to respond right away because I was feeling emotional

I didn't want to like bark at you

Cailee: Like idk what to say anymore st this point this shit don't need to be a blame game dude

Me: Agian, I literally said I don't blame you lmao

So...?

Are you intentional misreading or what?

Cailee: I mean read all of the texts you sent ne about not doing this and falling through on that

Me: Intentional*

When did I say you fell through?

Cailee: *screenshot* (me:) If I needed financial assistance [like cailee did in the beginning], would your mom have pitched in to help me? [like she did for cailee] No. She doesn't even know who I am because we never did that zoom call I asked you for dring the first month you arrived.

Me: The zoom call?

If thats the one thing that [you] fell through on, it doesn't even matter. The point was that I didn't know your family who literally helped you financially, who probably wouldn't help me if I needed it cause they dont know me.

Caille: Cause I stopped saying you did this and this and this wrong after I apologized and literally was like you now what ur right about some things

Me: Those two first messages were about you understanding and not comparing like you did in the message before mine.

I don't need an apology though

Cause like it's not your fault?

I made a decision, and I wanted your [meant you] to understand why it wasn't my fault that you felt how you do

It breaks it down

It wasn't my fault that you feel the way you do regarding me***

Cailee: No dude u apologize when u make mistakes and own up to that shit entirely it's how I was raised and live my life cause I need people to understand that I am listening trying to actively learn from what happened and that I'm not too prideful to hold onto being right essentially Me: [cont. of what I was saying] Specifically cause we all have their [meant other] things going on.

[in response to her most recent text] S then why did you apologize? What mistake did your felt [meant friend [who said it was 50/50]] help you see that you made?

Your friend*

Cailee: What? Like the whole text thread she was like ok she's right about this here and she did tell u she wasn't sure and she's right u shoudn't have gotten ur hopes up and all that shit

Me: And what mistake did I make that you feel like I should apologize for?

I apologized for letting you down.

That's genuine.

Cailee: WTF am I gonna do "no it's not my fault" to you? That shit is so childish like own up dude it's a two way street

Me: Think about what I asked please

What mistake did I make tha tyou feel like I should apologize for?

Before the text today you felt that already

Explain to me what it was

Why did your friend think it was. 50/59?

50/50*

Cailee: Okay I'm not gonna continue this conversation there's nothing I can do for you at this point. When I apologized I didn't make you tell me why it was necessary to me, I read your texts over and over and then asked my friend for advice and input and then apologized. You can do the same or just not at all whatever but there's nothing else I can add to any of this. I am done with this argument

Me: [totally violating the fact that she was done] You could anwer my questions.... I'm just asking for clarification to help me understand where you're coming from because I clearly don't understand. But if you're unwilling to, there's nothing I can do either. Maybe you could ask your friend for advice [I was making a genuine suggestion, becasue cailee has specifically told me she needs advice on almost everything and I wanted to hear what her friend had to say, since cailee apparently didn't know what she wanted me to apologize to her for].

It's called emotional reasponsibility, by the way. If you're interested in knowing more, theres's articles on it if you do a Google search. We are in charge of our own emotions, even the shitty ones. [before this, I did a google search for "are we responsible for our own emotions" becase I wanted to provide proof and reading this after the occurrance, I see how it can sound sassy- which at the time I coudn't perceive because it wasnt the tone I had in my head while typing it]

Cailee: Jesus fuckin Christ dude lmfao I am so happy for you that you got the last word in and continue to have snappy comebacks even after I have stated over and over and over again that I'm done and literally tried to move past it. It's so incredibly rude that you just told me I can ask my friend for advice again because you still will not let go of the fact that maybe just maybe you played a part in this entire bullshit argument. Grow up Jesus Christ man you BEEN crossed a line with this hit do not belittle me deflect it to something being wrong with me and the way I porocess things and that I'm just crazy and emotionally unstable bro. Give it time and cognitively think about ur part in an argument or don't, which clearly u wont. Either way I'm done with this.

Me: *invisible ink* [Accidentally, this part wasnt supposed to be invisible] Dont respond or even read this if you dont want to

Fuck wrong one

*invisible ink* [correctly this time] [I sent it invisibly so that she could choose when to read it] (calmly)This totally sucks because I'm just trying to communicate through this issue and you're blowing up instead of trying to help me understand (the original part of this argument which has morphed into so much more). You have me put in this very negative light, and it's making you read my text tone as snappy which is upsetting you and making it harder for us to talk through this.

My texts aren't even meant to sound snappy, I promise. I've added feeling words to help cause text is hard to hear tone in. This is normal and happens to even me, I'm not trying to belittle you. I swear. I've never called or thoguht of you as crazy, by the way.

(calmly) It's not about me getting the last work. I promise, cailee. That's not something that important to me. What is important to me is communicating through issues to resolve them rather than acting emotionally (Which, no offence but, you are with your caps locks and calling me childish).

(calmly). I told you what I wanted which was for you to answer the question and to help me understand but you eep sayin everything and attacking me rather and [I meant than] ansering the question. I know you didn't ask that of me, but I'm asking it of you. I'm asking for you to let me know what mistake I made so that I can understand what I need to apologize for.

I brought up your friend cause she was the one who said it was 50/50 [our fault], so maybe she would be able to provide some insight. If anything [i] want to have this conversation with her too, to include her, not to be rude, none of this is meant to be rude, or belittling, cailee. You could bring your sister in too, and again, I'm not saying that to be rude

(softly) You keep telling me to grow up, but I'm just trying to communicate. I'm not trying to deflect anything, i'm trying to dig deeper and find a resolution.

I know that you done and I respect that [a little too late]. You don't have to respond. If you ever wanna help me understand or have this conversation with your sister/friend I'll be here.

There ignore that second one till your ready. But the first ones not upsetting, it shouldn't be

Typing this out made me realize a few things. I understand I'm also at a wrong becasue theres something (that I don't know yet) that I need to apologize for. I'm not appologizing for "getting her hopes up" though because I know for fact that I didn't do that. I feel like I should say sorry for not showing more empathy when responding to messages in which I felt attacked, or that I needed to explain. This is my friend and I totally let my emotions get the best of me and then tried to do damage control. I feel really bad for upsetting her, but it was you who told me I wasn't in charge of her emotions. I feel like I dodged a bullet by not going up there because if this was her response to my one decision, I wonder what living with her would have been like. This has been a long stressful drawn out experience that I'm glad is over, but still sad that it may or may not cost me a friendship. When she was texting me, I was shaking with so much emotion, even at the end. This was something that was really affecting me and I don't think I realized it till tonight.

[cheekygreenty]

Id love to request a Kaz Brekker x Reader! Maybe one where the reader has been acting extremely distant. She doesn’t even realize shes doing it- but to all the crows she seems to be avoiding conversation, and distancing herself from them. Just some fluff where Kaz confronts her! Maybe is worried as to why shes been avoiding him and shes just like “huh🤔” because she wasnt doing it intentionally lol. Tysm for reading❤️❤️

Don't be Ridiculous - Kaz Brekker x Reader

(I didn't know whether you meant the crows from the show or the book, so I did just the show. I hope that's ok!)

'What do you think Y/N? I personally think it would be great just imagine it'

You heard your name being called and looked up to Jesper looking directly at you.

'Hm wait-what?' You hadn't heard a single thing he said. Not that it was important anyway knowing Jesper.

'I said do you think-, you know what never mind, you're not listening anyway' he turned his attention to Inej instead who looked at you worriedly. Weird you thought.

You loved him, dearly, but saints he could be annoying sometimes when you weren't in the mood to deal with him. Like right now. The Crow Club was silent, the last of the drunkards had left not long ago, Kez needed to discuss some business in utmost privacy.

You stood up without a word and went to refill your drink, you had drunk it quicker than you expected you would. You sighed loudly and grabbed your drink of choice and started to pour, then changed your mind and drank out of the bottle instead, forgoing the glass completely.

'Will you pay for that?' It was hard to miss his voice behind you. You shrugged and set the bottle down then turned around. 'I hope your head was clear when I explained the job, I don't feel like repeating myself'

'I'll be fine.' You made your way back to your seat when you noticed Inej and Jesper were no longer sitting. Maybe I can go to sleep now.

'Y/N what's wrong with you?' You stopped in your tracks.

'Huh?' You were confused and spun around quickly 'What do you mean?'

'Jesper thinks you hate him, Inej is worried for you and quite frankly so am I. We haven't properly spoken in days' You backtrack your way over the last couple of days and think about your behavior, surely he's joking, you were acting perfectly normal.

'I have no problems with any of you, I feel like that's obvious isn't it?'

'It was obvious, but lately, you've been acting strange. Did something happen?' You don't miss the soft tone of his voice which surprised you a little bit.

'No, I swear I'm fine, just a little tired I guess.' Nothing had truly happened to you. You were just in a funk but you didn't think anyone would notice or care. But they all did, he did.

'Are you sure? if anything happened you can tell me, contrary to popular belief, I do care ' He cleared his throat 'It's important for the job'

'Mr. Kaz Brekker, are you saying you have a soft spot for me?' You teased.

'Don't be ridiculous. I only asked cause Inej and Jesper wouldn't stop pestering me'

'Mhm, sure Kaz. I'll pretend to believe that.' You had a huge smile on your face and that flustered him.

'Rest up Y/N, we have a job to do'

'Will do'

'Don't be ridiculous' my ass, he likes you and that's enough to make your weird mood suddenly lift.

[gb-patch]

Ask Answers: August 8th

Well, doing big posts all together worked for a while but lately I’ve been putting it off because it takes a long time to get them done. I think I’m gonna try switching back to answering asks whenever I can fit it in and posting them one at a time instead of waiting until I’ve filled out one of these major collections.

But for now, here’s more ask answers! Thank you for the questions and for all the kind words along with them ^^.

Hello!! I'm here to ask if its possible to get  the game and its dlcs on steam and play it on android?

I’m afraid not. Steam doesn’t have Android builds on their own site and Steam is not cool with keys for other sites being given out for Steam purchases, so you don’t get the Itch version from buying on Steam.

Hello! Sorry to bother you but, I had a question, if we buy the Game on itchio do we get steam keys or would we need to purchase it twice? 

You would have to buy it twice if you want it in both places, I’m sorry. To repeat myself a little, Steam doesn’t like the key trading thing. Itch may support giving keys for another site, but the reverse isn’t doable with Steam and Steam doesn’t even really want you to get a Steam key for buying somewhere else either. So we just don’t mess around with that.

hey, sorry if this is frequently asked, but is step 4 free dlc or paid for? some of your sources are contradicting each other. 

It’s free! There’s a paid wedding DLC, but Step 4 itself is entirely unpaid.

Hello! I just had a quick question, for the Baxter and Derek DLC's will we be able to confess our feelings to them or let them confess to MC? or will it only be one way? (they confess to MC)

Both type of options will be available!

Hey there! I wanted to ask whether or not the Derek DLC is still on track to be released in August since on the steam discussion board it says it will be released mid 2021. I totally understand if it isn't, I'm just really looking forward to it! If you answer then ty! And keep up the amazing work :D 

It’s not, aha. Unfortunately, 2021 wasn’t easier than 2020 as we hoped so things are still slower than planned. It’ll come out late 2021 or early 2022.

Hi! Firstly I just want to say that I LOVE Our Life. I have played a bit of similar games but this one instantly wins for the best one! Everything about it is amazing! I just wanted to ask if Derek would ever lose feelings for MC, like if they make the deal and then MC gets with Cove would he move on? and even if you don't, after "losing contact" would his feeling fade or would he still like MC? 

If you don’t really keep in touch with him and clearly move on with your life, Derek will too and he’ll be over it. But if you are still close as best as you can be, he’ll still think the MC is special. Though, he’ll always support your relationship with someone else if that’s what’ll make you happy.

Hello! Sorry if you've answered this before but: 'How's Lee related to us? Though which momma? And does she share our player-chosen last names? Also, do you know if Noelani took Pam's last name or did it happen the other way round? 

She’s related to Pamela and Pamela’s last name is the one they use, so the MC has the same last name as Lee.

Will we be able to choose which (they or he) we tend to call Qiu by more often, or will it randomly change depending on the moment? 

Qiu knows which pronoun they’re comfortable with at a time and you’ll call them what they’re happy with. And it doesn’t change between lines, it takes multiple scenes or even full Steps for it to switch. So for extended periods Qiu will be totally a guy or fully agender.

Will Step 4 of OL2 have moments?

It’ll be an epilogue like it is in OL1, so it won’t have a bunch of different Moments.

Hello! Just a quick question, is Sunset bird from OL1 based on a real location? If so what's it called? I wanna visit it +_+

ps i love your games so much <3

It isn’t based on one specific town you can go to, but there are a lot of little coastal towns in Cali that have a similar vibe!

Heyaaa ( I hope you're all well ), umm… it might seem kinda stupid to ask but did Patreon members can have a key for the dlc's ( all the steps-released dlc ) even if they became a member this month or later ? (me? saying this cuz it's my case? maybe ;-;), and once again thanks for absolutely all the amazing works on all the games ! u-u 

You wouldn’t get the DLCs for backing there. The Patreon is for extra bonus content/early access, rather than being a storefront to purchase the normal DLCs. Rarely we give them out as a side gift, but it hardly happens and if what you want is the DLCs it’s best to ignore the Patreon and  buy keys for those directly from Itch or Steam. I’m sorry for the confusion.

Hey y'all, love what youre doing w/Terry. Trans rep outside of player customization is so rare and important to see more of so thank you so much. I do have a question and its that does he have a canon sexuality? I know Miranda was said to be straight ace but I dont believe anything was stated for Terry probably because he wasnt revealed to be a guy which changes things. Im also curious if well get answers on how long hes liked Miranda since he may have liked her in step 3 before she liked him 

Terry likes women and Randy likes men! And he did like Miranda back in Step 3.

Will the Wedding Dlc release at the same time as Step 4? 

They’ll come out separately with Step 4 releasing first.

I really love Our Life so much! I've spent over 20hours playing it even though I only got it a week ago! I was wondering if I could make a fangame for Our Life with a different love interest but same plot. Next-door neighbors romance, multiple steps, etc? I'll probably make it on Google Slides though- 

Sure! I hope you have fun with it and I’m glad you love the game.

How does Cove feel about poly relationships? 

He’s got nothing against them for the people they work for, but he’s 100% monogamous and would only be comfortable with a partner who was willing to be monogamous with him.

Idk if this has been answered before but will Step 4 include the option to advance your feelings towards Cove? 

Yep, you’ll be able to determine your feelings and what your relationship is.

In step 4 will there be a chosen to say we live with Cove even as just friends? 

Yeah, you can choose to live with Cove and that can be done when you’re friends.

I just played the game with the MC and Cove being best friends and omg it’s still so damn cute like the wholesomeness of it all is too much for my heart I swear ^.^  Now with that all said I was wondering can we still marry Cove? if we only love him as a friend like let’s say we’ve made deal with him similar to the one we can make with Derek because let’s real no one could compete with what the MC and Cove have even if they aren’t in love. 

It’s great to hear you enjoyed the friendship story! You can live with Cove, but you can’t marry him platonically. Cove has familial affection for the MC if they’re best-est friends. He wouldn’t think to marry someone he loves like family and even grew up with as though they truly were siblings.

Are you still going to be making a DLC for XOBD? :] 

Yes! We’re slowing adding voiced lines and fixing errors.

It makes me laugh that Shiloh's last name is Fields because that's what I put as my last name! So in Our Life when he talked about "Ms. Fields" picking him up I was extremely confused, lol. That dude mimics personalities so much that he stole my surname!

Oh, wow, that’s a very funny coincidence, haha.

hi !! i cant seem to be able to get the scene where mc is able to propose to cove despite being at the 'love' stage and telling him i'd want to get married, are there any other details that im missing out on? the options just dont appear at the end... 

Maybe you missed telling Cove you were in love with him even if you mentioned wanting to get married or you might’ve accidentally said earlier in the game that you don’t want to progress your relationship further with Cove. We haven’t removed them, so you can get the scene again. It’s just kind of easy to miss since there’s multiple requirements. You can read a little guide in the FAQ.

wait what di you need to do to be able to propose to cove? I've been trying but haven't had much luck 

You can check out the FAQ linked above!

does cove only develop a crush on the mc if the mc is also at crush/in love with him? 

Technically, yes. We treat the non-romantic relationship options as truly non-romantic since we don’t want to bait and switch people. But there’s nothing wrong with headcanoning that Cove does have feelings developing for the MC even before the MC has.

Is there a way to make/allow Lee and Baxter to date?

No, they just don’t have enough time together.

We also got a group of asks related to Tamarack in OL2, but I’m afraid the way they talked about people with larger bodies made me not want to post their words, even if the person didn’t say they’re trying to be hurtful. I will separate out the core question and answer it though, so people can know that info.

Does Tamarack lose weight in later Steps?

No, she doesn’t. As for the other questions included, to be honest, I don’t have to explain/defend having romance options of different sizes. I’m sorry if you’re dealing with unhappiness that’s connected to body image, if that’s where the negative emotions are coming from, but even so I can’t meet you on that level and pretend it’s a problem that needs an answer. A girl who simply isn’t thin being a main love interest is just not an unreasonable concept. Also, Tamarack isn’t a lesbian. Yes, she can date a female MC, but that doesn’t undo her actual sexuality, so I’m not sure where that one part at the end was coming from.

I wonder... can we "fight" with Qiu over leader status? 👀

Not really, haha. No matter how cool your MC is, they’re never gonna replace Qiu for the other kids around. So you can either partner up with him, follow him too, or not be a part of all that group politics stuff.

So when I play the game, sometimes I mentally call Cove “Covie/Covey” and that made me wonder, how does Cove feel about being nicknamed? Not like Romeo/Space Cadet/etc. but like pet names relating to his actual name

It’d depend on his age, personality, and your relationship with him! When he’s younger he’d probably be embarrassed, when he was grown he’d probably be more casual or happy about it.

will you be able to date baxter in step 3 while at crush with cove (but not dating him ofc) sorry if this has been asked already. i really love baxters step 4 design btw!! 

Yeah, you can be crushing on Cove and date Baxter if you weren’t already dating Cove. You just can’t be truly in love with Cove and then switch to Baxter.

I just got my friend into our life, and they adore shiloh and derek sooo will there be more of them in the second game? 

I’m afraid not. But you can see plenty more of Shiloh in XOXO Droplets/XOXO Blood Droplets, haha.

I see you haven't gotten any xoxo droplets asks recently but I'm still obsessed with these boys!! I was just wondering if Nate would curse under any circumstance? 

Yeah, Nate does use certain swear words (damn, hell, bastard) on very rare occasions.

Hi there! I have a question about the wedding dlc. Will we be able to plan a honeymoon during the planning stages of it or would it be something that Cove and the mc would rather plan later on? Thank you! Absolutly love the game by the way, definitely one of my favorite games! 

The focus will be on the wedding day itself. The topic of the honeymoon might come up a bit, but there won’t be any choosing of the exact location and such.

Hi! I have two questions and it's completely understandable if you only answer one/neither and I'm sorry if you've already answered either before! First, is there a set year in which OL:B&A takes place (ex: Step 1 being set in 2010 & Step 2 being set in 2016, etc.) or is it simply up to interpretation? Second, have you guys thought about doing a coming-of-age game where the MC has a tough home life or upbringing? (like one of their parents is an addict, a parent being transphobic whilst the player has the option to be trans, or having friends that are influencing them to do drugs, etc.) That's all! Thanks for making beautiful games. <3 

There is a set timeline!

Step 1: 2006 Step 2: 2011 Step 3: 2016 Step 4: 2021 

And we don’t currently plan on making a game like that. The Our Life series exists to be a safer environment for people to play around in and if we did do a brand new series that was harsher edged it’d be something more fantastical and/or plot-driven instead of a different type of modern day slice-of-life growing up story. I’m sorry.

i don’t know if you’ve already answered this, but do you have a guess on when phase 4 will come out? as well as ol2? i’m so excited for both of them, the inclusivity in this game is amazing, you guys should be really proud of it! 

Step 4 will be coming out very soon! OL2 is gonna take until 2023 to be anywhere near completion. But we might episodically release the Steps one at a time as they get done instead of waiting for three to be finished before launch like we did with the first game.

Hello, I was curious if there was an official or unofficial discord server for the game? 

We do have a discord! You can join by clicking this link HERE.

how long do you plan to keep ol's patreon running? 

Hopefully for at least a few more years.

Are you considering ever making merch? 

Yeah, but I don’t know when it’ll happen or what exactly we’ll make, aha. It’s something we want do, just nothing is set.

hi! i just found out about your game a couple of days ago on tiktok (so sorry if you’ve already answered this question) and i was wondering if y’all are ever planning to release it on iOS? 

I have no idea. It’s hard for a small group to get Apple approval and I honestly can’t say if it’ll ever happen or not. Maybe someday, though!

Hi, I love the art style of Our life and I would like to know if the artist has a Twitter? Also, could it be possible to fund more CGs for the game from him/her? So many times, I wish there was one like when the cutscene of the sunshower. 

That’s nice of you to offer. He doesn’t have a Twitter, at least not one that’s public enough to be shared with me. And I’m afraid not. The issue is that the CGs take huge amounts of time rather than there not being a budget for it. He’s gotta make CGs for Step 4, the DLCs, and new character sprites, too. There isn’t space in the schedule for even more. Sorry for that.

Hi, how are you?!

Are you planning on accepting new writers or is it always the same people who write your stories??

Thanks!!

Our Life: Beginnings & Always won’t be getting new writers, but we will be hiring a new team of writers for Our Life: Now & Forever eventually!

perhaps this counts as nsfw and I'm sure it has been answered before but what does Cove prefer, chests/boobs or butts? or perhaps both :3c thank you for this wonderful game (and the patreon bonus moment, it was worth all the waiting and more ♥) 

He’s a “chests of all shapes and sizes” kind of guy, haha.

i was wondering- did any of the writers actually grow up by the beach? as someone who's lived in a beach town all their life it really did feel nostalgic to play through our life 1 

I was born and raised in Cali! Though, not right by the beach. We still had to make trips out, but the setting is based on my own childhood memories of small beach towns we went through.

In Derek’s upcoming DLC, will we be able to reference the pact we made as teens? (love olba and xod/xobd so much btw you’re literally amazing) 

Yep, you will be able to talk about that!

Oh, sorry about the Cole being secretly L ask, then!

If you wanted context: Death Note is about this one guy who finds a notebook that kills anyone who you write the name of in there. The guy eventually develops a God Complex and starts mass killing criminals and stuff. L is the one trying to find out who is killing all these people.

Me and my sister first joked about it because I couldn't remember how to translate a word about the way Cove was sitting, so I just did the pose, and it looked a lot like how L himself sits! Then we just snowballed from there, with more and more nonsense connections.

That’s okay! Thanks for explaining. I’m sorry I didn’t know what you meant.

[sultrybaby]

notes: to the anon who requested this, I hope this wasn't too bad + is smth close to what u wanted. Ik it wasnt much of a request, but obvi i have to take things too srsly <//3 enjoy lol

What about if in their childhood, the reader or the member the fic is for loses something really important to them and the other finds it but they stopped being friends for some reason and drifted apart cuz one of them had to move to another place, then when they grow up, one day they bump into each other and they remember to give the other the thing they lost and are together/friends again

Something was wrong.

6-year-old Jungwon! knew that for sure as 6-year-old reader! walked into the room without sparing a glance for the one who he knew to be your crush. He planned to ask you about it, but his hopes and little heart shatters as your trademark seat in the Grade 1 B classroom that was reserved for you, right beside his own, was skipped, and you made your way to the very end of the classroom, your feeble feet no longer frolicking, your pretty head hung low.

As you sat down, Jung won didn't waste a second before staring at you intently (for kids never seemed to find anything unnerving about the act). Your shoulder length hair that had been recently cut- which he well remembered, as you had put up quite a show saying you didn't want it cut- looked the same as always, cute and classy, but still very eye-catching as it was something he still hadn't gotten used to. Your face looked the same- pretty sparkling eyes, a strong nose, a gorgeous face- if one could excuse the frown that replaced the usual merry smile and ridiculous chatter. The thought ached Jungwon's heart, so he moved on. Your uniform looked the same at first glance- white shirt with blue ends, navy pants, black belt and blue socks with white stripes- until he paid a little attention to the collar.

Your ever favourite pendant from your late grandfather was gone.

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Three weeks had gone by since Jungwon's startling observation, during which he had confronted you (or, to be more precise, you had been forced into his face by your mother) and the two of you had soon made up and went back to being friends the way you did, although it didn't escape Jungwon how you kept raising your nimble fingers to your collar, only to be met with disappointment. In his heart, Jungwon had made a pact with himself that he will try and recover the pendant (and at that age, such things were done as if one's life depended on it).

And that is exactly what he did.

The day was an ideal summer dream. As Mesembria rose in all her glory, the laughter of two rang through the backyard of your house. Hide and Seek was such a pleasure at an age where discoveries bring more pleasure than anything else. Jungwon burst through the house he knew better than his own and darted to your room. He wasted not a second to open your side cabinet and squeeze himself into a crevice (in which he fit surprisingly well- he could even move his arms around a bit).

His restless fingers entangle themselves in a metallic string.

"8,7..."

Curiosity and basic human instinct made Jungwon turn around to look at this item that was now in his hands. It took some (noisy) twitching and turning to free his hand from the corner he had stuck it into.

"5,4..."

He forced his hand out with- what seemed to be a deafening thud. Slight panic rose in his heart as he remembered the game...but as he felt no suspicion on your part, he got back to examining the object in his hand.

As you might have guessed from my incessant suspense, it was nothing but your lost pendant.

His hands enclosed the precious object, it felt so strong but looked so delicate. The string went through a silver handle, which extended to slender claw-like icicles that enclosed the maroon gem. Its shape was indescribable- so abstract, yet so geometric. Jungwon didn't know what overcame him, but he found himself shoving the gem into his pocket. He was selfish, but then, he couldn't care less. He knew deep inside that when you found him hiding, he would be the only thing you found.

"2,1...I'm coming to find you!"

But only if you knew something had already been found- something that would run much deeper than one might expect.

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Nine years had gone by, and the selfish pain had only grown since the day you had left for the states. Jungwon missed you, as much as he refused to admit, and the now turned bracelet with the all too familiar gem that he hadn't taken off since the day you left now gleamed red in the sunlight. Your family had never visited him for as long as he could remember, and as much as he knew it was unfair, it is nothing but human nature to blame others. One thing he knew for sure, was that he couldn't hate you. He has longed for so long, and maybe it came with the age, but the desire seemed strong and everlasting. It was as if you lived in his heart, and both of you wished that you could break out of it and come out, but neither of you could bring yourself to do it. He wondered if you even remembered him.

Kilometres away in your shabby room, silent tears found their way down every inch of your face that you wished Jungwon were here to caress. Drops fell on the photo album that held a photograph of what seemed like the last time either of you had felt so happy and content. A memory so strong- it was right in front of you- yet you couldn't hold onto it, it felt so unattainable. You would've given so much to be there again. With him. You missed the days you spent laughing at the most random things- everything was funny when you're ten and you think you know it all. You missed the days both of you collectively talked about how disgusting boys were. You missed Jungwon. You wondered if you could ever forget him.

That night two hearts cried themselves to sleep in pained harmony.

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Looking back, it seemed quite an achievement that you hadn't tripped at least five times as you sped down the alley you thrived in as a child.

It had been years since you last saw this place, and as your jacket almost threatened to fall off, you found yourself at the door of the place you longed to come back to the most. You had always preferred Jungwon's house anyway.

Maybe the universe was on your side, as the doorbell was answered by the one person you had come all this way for (not that you would ever admit it). You had underestimated how much he would've grown by the time he was seventeen. He was taller than you expected, his eyes more desperate than you remembered, his neck and jaw so tense, so strong- he was beautiful. You found him angelic, and you were so caught up you didn't realize you were staring. But then again so was he.

The last couple of years were nothing but a faint memory for Jungwon. He doesn't remember anything he did, anything he said. He heard people say he studied fine, danced well, looked good, ate well- but he never processed any of it. He was just breezing through life- not with content, but with a hole in his heart that he never thought would've mended. Until he opened the door.

He didn't know what he was doing. He didn't know what brought him to do it. But his heart did- it had been broken for so long, it yearned to be fixed. He found himself reaching out for your hand.

Something in Jungwon's expression was so empty, but so hurt. When he reached out his hand, you knew you had to give it to him. And as he gently held your hand, you saw him tie something around your wrist. His sleeve blocked your view, it all felt cold and ticklish and...familiar?

You pulled out and looked at Jungwon. On your wrist, you saw the necklace six-year-old you lost. And in his eyes, you saw home. You knew you were where you needed to be.

People say that when you meet the one you love, you will feel restless. Butterflies explode inside, you freak out, giggle- make a mess. But you believed otherwise. For you, when you looked at Jungwon, you felt calm. When he held your hand, you felt peace. It felt right.

Something was right now. Jungwon was sure of this as you smiled at him, and he smiled back for the first time in years.

[pnjrnk]

spoilers for streaming wars pt 2:

god fucking dammit im 100% sure matt and trey were making fun of the ppl who complained that tegridy ruined randys character

NOT FUCKING FUNNY FOR A MINUTE I FR THOUGHT RANDY WAS BOUTTA HAVE A REDEMPTION ARC guess that was p stupid on my part considering status quo and whatnot lol. but still the way they acknowledged that randy was boring and bad and not fun to watch gave me hope, preeeeetty sure that everythings gonna go right back to normal tho lmao.

hoping that maybe in the future randy and karen can learn to coexist so we get the best of both worlds?

severe lack of kyle and kenny, very disappointed on that front, my k2 loving heart aches

cartman was fine idk, i wasnt rlly invested in his thing and it was more annoying than anything because it wasnt over the top malicious or playfully nefarious cartman, it was just. him thinking that tolkien fucked his mom? also i fuckin knew that his tits would solve some sort of big important problem

butters was great as always, loved his random bits of insight on the streaming industry

i like the focus on tolkiens family :) him and his dad reuniting was so sweet

piss joke got old quick

gotta love a good villain/liar revealed moment, when karen broke into the water park and confronted pipi i was impatiently waiting for him to finish being a stereotypical karen so he could actually expose pipi lol

climate change has a wife and chid :) makes me wonder what his wife is classified as tho, like if he is climate change and the baby is future climate change then wtf is up with the wife, what does she do, how does she exist

deck sounds like dick haha (i do think the guy in the crowd yelling WHIP IT OUT was funny tho)

randy acknowledging his mistakes and becoming a better person my beloved

i dont think i will ever get enough of the police sgt even if hes an asshole most of the time

fuck crypto

lack of stolkien :(

over all 7/10, i laughed, good times

[tenyacore]

Oooooh requests are open 👁👄👁

Can I get one with bakugo where reader is very soft and makes him things (food or little art works whatever you want lol) and he starts being soft for her and they kith tehe

(Also lemme know if I can send in another one, plus I'm sorry i just followed you i was cleaning out my following and didnt wanna lose your account ❤)

falling for their soft classmate

-> bakugo katsuki x reader, todoroki shoto x reader

i turned this into a medium length hc type thing, but if you'd like a longer version of just bakugo feel free to req it again! also ofc ofc you can send in as many requests as you want <333 i wasnt sure whether you wanted a full fic or hcs so i just did this aaaaaa

word count: 382 (bakugo) and 373 (todoroki).

alternative title: bakugo and his soft gf he’s soft for is a dynamic i love

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BAKUGO

♡ when he first met you he really didn't care much for you. you were nice and sweet so he didn't find any reason to be unnecessarily aggressive to you so he typically left you alone. 

♡ he noticed that he started to feel odd around you after you began making him things, food, little gifts, etc. so for a bit he definitely tried pushing you away, which didn't work.

♡ you didn’t seem all too bothered by it and continued doing it. after midoriya explained his feelings for another classmate, he thought it was stupid,

♡ and then he realized he felt the same for you, and he felt very conflicted.

♡ part of him was slightly enraged, because he should be focusing on making himself stronger, working on getting better so he can become the number 1 hero

♡ another part of him was flustered that you had gotten to him like this

♡ and another part of him was screaming at himself to not be a coward and tell you how he feels. 

♡ a while after he had calmed down and decided to stay in his room, he heard a faint knock on the door.

“hey, you okay?” you asked with a smile, a plate of snacks in hand, “hope i didn’t interrupt anything, just noticed you left the common area.” you nudged the plate towards him slightly, and as he set it down he sighed. “i have something to tell you, so come in.” making your way towards him you sat on the foot of his bed, looking around “what do you have to tell me?” 

he looked a bit tense before turning around to look at you “i like you, alright? you can stop with the gifts and food.” you blush and giggle softly at the way his voice was much softer, yet still tense, masking his fear of rejection with slight aggression. “i like you too, that's why i do those things.” the way his shoulders relaxed a bit wasn't the most noticeable but you knew he felt relieved. “come here,” he motioned for you to move towards him, before placing a hesitant kiss on your lips “just cause we’re-” he pauses, unsure “a thing, doesn’t mean i'm gonna be any more nicer to you” “you already are though baku-” “yeah whatever!”

TODOROKI

♡ at first glance it seemed that todoroki was unfazed by your addition to the class, not bothering to offer up much of a welcome. 

♡ but when he got to know you he knew you’d get along well with his friend group and perhaps would grow to become a close friend to him. 

♡ it took a bit for him to warm up to you, show you any more emotion than he does anyone else, but the acts of kindness made him feel much more comfortable with you.

♡ he didn’t get much affection or attention from others, most either not liking him enough to actively give him things or thinking that he wouldn’t care for things like that

♡ but they really warmed his heart in ways even he didn't have the words to explain

♡ he knew that in some shape or form he had feelings for you but he was worried about what that could mean, how you’d react if you knew or how your relationship might change or fall apart

♡ he just knew he wanted to keep you close even if that meant pushing his feelings aside

♡ but after visiting his mother, seeking her advice, he knew what he should do

“welcome back, todoroki!” you turned to face him, having just finished preparing snacks for a study session with your friends (deku & co.) “y/n, can i speak with you for a second, it's kind of important.” he stopped at the entrance of the building. nodding, you set down everything and you walk with him outside, sitting down on the porch of the dorms. “the gifts, all the stuff you do for me, does it… mean anything?” 

you prepare yourself for what might be a rejection and answer with a meek “yes, i…” but your voice trails off, attempting to find the right words. “I like you, y/n” you braced for a but, closing your eyes only to be met with silence. “but….?” “there’s no but, y/n, i like you.” feeling the heat rise to your face, you cover it, before he moved your hands away and gives you a soft kiss “please don't ever stop being so sweet to me, you make me feel better.” “of course i won't stop todoroki”

[wenightmareyou]

hey!! i saw that you went to another mcr show before, i was just curious if you had any advice for someone going for the first time? im going to the show on the 17th and im kind of nervous about it lol

hey!! i definitely think this post sums up the most important parts (esp all the parts about the pit!! i can’t speak to that bc i didn’t have pit at my last show/won’t at my next show but they sum it up really well in that post!!) but i also wanna add that for the LA shows i would definitely take traffic into account when deciding when to leave. if you have seats its not as important to be there before doors open but if you get there when doors open it gives you enough time to get merch without missing any of the openers.

idk why but i thought before the oakland show that it would be hard to get the merch i wanted before it sold out but i ended up not having any issues with that so i’m hoping thats just true in general for the shows this tour. ngl idk anything about the mystery shirts so i don’t have any advice there lol

also ive never been to the forum so idk what to expect in terms of how easy it is to see the band no matter where you’re sitting but tbh i had nosebleed seats at my show and i still had the time of my life :’) and if you have nosebleed seats its still okay to stand up and dance!!! some people in my section stayed seated the whole time/part of the time but its really just about preference/comfort level

also idk what the crowd will be like at the LA shows but my experience was that generally ppl were really friendly!! also if you wanna go all out with how you dress go for it, i decided to tone down my look for my show bc i wasnt sure what the vibe was gonna be but there were so many people in costumes/v extra outfits that its literally fine! 

and ik these are mentioned in the post i linked but just to reiterate: stay hydrated!!! make sure you eat beforehand! esp if you’re in the pit but even if you’re not, if you plan on standing/dancing its def better to stay hydrated! also earplugs are really helpful esp during the opening acts

also have fun!!!! im going to the show on the 17th too and im so excited!!!!