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[flockofdoves]

thinking about tara working at a build a bear in juxtaposition with all the literal and metaphorical stuff in the movie connecting understanding of the self to ones insides/owens line about how trying to think about sexuality makes him feel like someone dug his insides out with a shovel and theres nothing there/the cutting open scene

they literally put hearts in those bears

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i saw 3 pink footed geese together in massachusetts last fall :)

it's kind of disappointing that vagrant birds never come in pairs. like, if i were a little five-striped sparrow & i wanted to go party in completely the wrong habitat for a season, i think it'd be very romantic to bring a cutie along with me. we'd have matching outfits and everything for when the paparazzi show up. instead it's always just one lone chripy boi who's absofuckinglutely awful at reading a map

[flockofdoves]

people twisting the language of intuitive eating into an intentional weight loss diet thing makes me so fucking angry. how do you not see the contradiction in saying stuff like 'i'm doing intermittent fasting with intuitive eating to lose weight.' like oh okay you're ignoring your body's intuition for 2/3s the day and then banking on reduced hunger cues from chronic restriction to give you a calorie deficit enough to lose weight in the remaining part of the day...

like sure i guess thats a step up from you restricting for the entire day but lets not fucking fool ourselves about what it is you're doing. that's still an eating disorder

[flockofdoves]

my god. it is the bane of my fucking existence how often i see peoples interpretations of early sunsets over monroeville that assume either that:

the couple featured are the demolition lovers

one of them got turned into a vampire

they are both white

they are a straight couple

its crazy how like. this song is directly engaging with peter and rogers storyline in dawn of the dead but instead people are constantly parroting a much more boring and frankly just entirely unsubstantiated interpretation instead

[flockofdoves]

hoooly shit...

[flockofdoves]

i can't stop thinking about my cis straight high school best friend telling me yesterday how recently she was at a party and started talking to the only other person there wearing a mask and they ended up talking about disability justice and then in the middle of the conversation the other person was like 'well of course you as a fellow queer person[...]"

and she was stuck on what to say if anything bc as the ultimate ally she doesn't care if people think shes lgbt but also doesn't want to mislead people looking to connect with fellow lgbt people lol

[flockofdoves]

i'm almost done with 0079 and i really want to get back to iron blooded orphans but also more immediately i really just want to understand more universal century stuff so im kinda like. ok after this i will watch zeta gundam and then zz and then chars counterattack and then maybe like war in the pocket and hathaway and the origin manga and whatever else i've heard various people mention enjoying. and Then i will get back to ibo and also be ready for gquuuuuux...

[flockofdoves]

ED stuff is always so weird because i know i've been in similar places to a lot of the shit i see and i empathize and want people to get better and know that probably requires some level of patience but also being a mostly recovered fat person kind of just makes that so intolerable of a position to put myself in most of the time. so freaky to try to gently nudge people in my life away from disordered eating or even just very basic easily provable facts they have misconceptions around wrt nutrition or body weight thanks to diet culture or just lightly talk about my own experience with an eating disorder and see the mask slip of how on some level they see me as some repulsive fat freak they want to avoid being like who's clearly fooled myself into thinking my gluttonous personal choices were some form of recovery

so i mostly just don't become friends with people if there's a single whiff of diet culture on them but it just really sucks when i have preexisting friendships and people suddenly spring this stuff on me with some new extreme weight loss diet or whatever. kind of blindsiding when i've been candid in the past about my own experiences like i guess literally nothing i've ever said about this has meant anything to you. i know the connection isn't always clear to people but i'd like to hope for some awareness. like what do you expect me to fucking say. congratulations you're not fat like me and have an eating disorder.

after a few times of gently challenging i've started just literally not responding..

but online on forums and stuff while i try not to waste my time ranting, when i do give people responses i end up just being mildly aggressive about it. idk. not always the method but i guess that did genuinely help me snap out of it when i was at my worst, and i just can't stand for fat people being an acceptable target in the name of being gentle with people entrenched in this shit anymore

[flockofdoves]

a bit sloppy with the angles and framing but i do like these pictures i took tonight, i wanna post more random phone pictures for myself i think

[flockofdoves]

jesus fucking christ. just went grocery shopping and because of a combo of

i already have vegetables and protein at home for my meals this week

im leaving on a two week trip in a couple days

this is a different store than i usually go to so i was curious about a few snacks i never see

i got mostly pantry items and snacks and frozen stuff for meals im planning to make things easy and tide me over right after i get back from my trip

but right when i was finishing paying and saying thank you the cashier turned to the bagger and said “si este es todo lo que come, no me sorprende que sea tan grosa’

fucking. whatever

[flockofdoves]

long story of how i even got here but this post has been haunting me since i first saw it yesterday

the obsession with shipping sakura with the gayest boy around apparently extends so far that it doesnt even stop at characters in her own story…

[flockofdoves]

i think my biggest take that i know doesnt hold up to any scrutiny but i still cant help but get so annoyed about is that i think everyone (especially when written from the perspective of an english speaker) needs to stop doing awful attempts at spelling out word pronunciations and just needs to fucking learn IPA.

or at least learn a little bit about other dialects [of english] and stop centering whatever regionally dominant dialect they speak as the fucking center of the world and some neutral standard that everyone can understand a pronunciation reference to

[flockofdoves]

i really do want to become a guy who wears button ups again, aesthetically a lot of when i feel most at home with my fashion sense is when wearing button ups, and even if graphic tees are fun i wear too many proportionally for my tastes, but also until i get top surgery that means sports bras or binders for most to fit comfortably, which just kinda sucks as a fat person with a stupid chest size and a skin disorder worsened by wearing those things

[flockofdoves]

literally no room for me to complain about inane shit when i've made a series of decisions leading to me being an adult who is semiregularly delving into fanfiction spaces again but i am such a hater..

i hate soulmate aus i hate hanahaki disease shit i hate that character being a florist or this character being a tattoo artist. no don't put them in a coffee shop. if they're in a work of historical fiction you had better fucking stick to its canonical era and you can't be sloppy with your research. if you really really must you need to make your alternate modern day setting extremely sociopolitically analogous and come at it with an understanding of historical materialism, but even then i probably won't read it unless someone i trust really sways me. if the characters are canonically playing a sport no fucking chickening out and making them not play that sport unless you get really nerdily into another sport that you can make direct analogies with (and again, even then i probably won't read it unless its making it baseball or wrestling). fuck you those characters didn't meet in college they met in this specific other situation. yes those characters are in love but no they are not ever going to kiss each other or say anything about that you can't write a missing scene where they kiss you're only allowed to write things exploring what's not happening or you have to work out an alternate solution to what could possibly ever change to make it so that could even happen, but i'm probably not going to be convinced. #nofunallowed #fuckyou

[flockofdoves]

these are the type of wonky little sketches id never post online years ago but i just havent really drawn in so long that looking at this page is still making me happy :)

its fun drawing rude teenagers lol