#suppressive thoughts

[penguinreadcom]

All the little things.

“The researchers found that suppressing our unwanted thoughts could help us to reduce it happening from the point it was formed.”- scientists may have figured out how to control intrusive thoughts, science focus, 2022 Keep telling myself: I feel cooler, cooler 🧘‍♀️. Yah, 35 outside is nearly all year around. 🤪

[snowdrop-yoongi]

my favorite thing about baek hyun-woo's portrayal is that he isn't even a loser. he's an incredibly cool and competent lawyer who also happens to act like a loser

[faeriefully]

girls really do be raging a war in their own head whilst sitting silent in their living room

[valtsv]

just experienced a new heart attack inducing tumblr glitch where it showed a deactivated blog getting cooked for being a dick on someone else's post with my url. i would not fucking say that.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

i wanna know more about svsss menopause

They synced their periods together too well. Now they are synced through their perimenopause years.

[dekusleftsock]

I think that there’s a fundamental misunderstanding of what exactly is…happening with Izuku’s character. Specifically in regards to chapter 425.

I’m glad that a lot more people generally recognize that Izuku is not a character that can be read at a surface level, given that he’s both a repressed person with built up emotion of basically everything and also a very glaringly HUGELY unreliable narrator, but that doesn’t necessarily mean I agree with the ways I’ve seen this most recent chapter spoken about.

I see posts, comments, etc with ideas like “Izuku don’t suppress your emotions! Open up with people! It’ll be okay I promise!” When that’s fundamentally not what is happening here.

There’s always always ALWAYS been a distinct difference in character throughout horikoshi’s writing when he is showing that a character is:

A—Avoiding emotions, thoughts, ideas less than ideal for them. Not opening up when they probably should about their problems given that they’ve been handed the space to do so. Just genuinely not acknowledging, feeling, or expressing emotions that they don’t want.

B—Reflecting on the ways they feel about the world, themselves, or other people given their new perspective on a situation. Not outright reaching out to others to talk about these problems/feelings, but instead waiting until the moment they feel they have the most confidence to do so with their new outlook on their own life.

And genuinely, guys, to grab your BkDk attention rn, this is the exact reason why Ochako’s reflection on her feelings for Izuku and thereafter decision to pull away from them WAS NEVER GOING TO END IN OCHAKO EXPLODING WITH HER LOVE FOR HIM.

This was another common interpretation I saw of Ochako and Izuocha for a long time. That because she pushed these feelings away, they were somehow going to explode in this unbelievable way and she would “get the boy” because of it. That her arc would surround accepting her romantic feelings and that she can’t just push away how she feels for a career.

But yk. That didn’t happen. At all. Nowhere close even.

The same kind of goes for Katsuki, allmight, etc. They all had moments in their arc where it was spent genuinely reflecting, and the only reason we as the audience never connected it in the same ways we do ochako or Izuku was ALWAYS BECAUSE the narrative showed their inner thoughts while doing so (mostly because Allmight’s arc after losing OFA and Katsuki’s arc on what it means to be a hero were so intrinsically tied, both starting at the same time and ending at the same time during the final war. And because they were so tied this caused their own reflections, development, and thought process to be broadcasted to us frequently throughout their arcs… to each other. They also somewhat shared aspects with Izuku, but these were cherry picked more often than not, like dvk2 for example).

To us Katsuki never seemed to be.. idk, suppressing his anger in any way because we were always told what he was doing and why (side note: this is why I’ve always thought arguments against Katsuki were so weird, bc unlike characters like endeavor or Ochako he wasn’t like… hiding who he was and how he was changing. Ever. Like the audience knows at all times past basically season 3 what Katsuki is thinking and doing. Like how do you watch this happen, stare me dead in the eye, and tell me how much of a terrible and awful teenage boy he is. Like damn I didn’t think we were this dumb. This is also my theory as to why he’s most popular, his arc is very… in your face if that makes sense). Katsuki’s entire mini arc on reflecting his mistakes and his childhood and his future is spent TELLING YOU that it’s what he’s doing. (I’m referring mostly to the endeavor internship arc, the provisional license exam makeup, and basically everything in the war arc related to him leading up to bakugou Katsuki rising here)

And see, Horikoshi will stare you dead in the eye, tell you “this girl has taken into consideration that she doesn’t want to waste her time training her career focusing on a boy because he kinda caught her fancy”, and y’all will still say that this will explode in her face.

Y’all this is a series about learning how to manage emotions, maturity in relationship to one’s emotions, how to feel an emotion, but in a way that is helpful. Horikoshi isn’t telling you “go buck wild, feel everything all the time and always express it”, in fact he explores why you DONT do that! Through Toga or Shigaraki, they show how grief and anger can genuinely consume you. But he also shows why you shouldn’t just put everything in a box to never look at or acknowledge, or why you shouldn’t just let your grief destroy the world around you, or pretending that some emotions simply don’t exist.

I can’t say this enough, so let me say it now, mha is about the extremes of your psyche. That you should control something, but not too much. Everything can be harmful. Everything can be good.

Izuku is not controlling too much, he’s expressing just enough.

I LOVE shaming this dickhead at all times in all my posts. I love saying he’s an ignorant dipshit with a weird amount of distaste for a girl who just confessed to him. I’ve joked that chapter 348 is basically an entire chapter spent on Izuku calling Himiko a mean dyke. And yet I also believe he’s doing nothing WRONG here.

In fact, I’ll even say that this moment right here?

ISNT EVEN IZUKU DOING THE SOCIALLY APPROPRIATE THING ABOUT IT! But he’s still TRYING to reach out to someone he thinks MIGHT be able to understand. (And frankly, this moment is far deeper than what it’s being made out to be, to me it reads more like an unrequited friendship that Izuku both desires and has thought of them to have, while simultaneously showing the distance Ochako has successfully wedged between them for her own sake. Maybe it was always there though, maybe in weird, miscommunicated Horikoshi fashion, this is a representation of how Ochako always read all those “fun friend hangouts” as a little more than that, and without those feelings the friendship never really held any substance to her in the first place. Where Izuku saw his first real friend at UA, she saw little more than acquaintance)

Simultaneously, Izuku is genuinely reflecting on what it means for the world to change, to be a hero, to live after loss—and trying and failing to gain the connection he desires from individuals who can not and will not afford him that.

Izuku is ready for the world to change, a few select characters are also ready for the world to change (mirio, for example), but not nearly enough are. So maybe I’ll have to take this back if I’m proven wrong and I accidentally looked into this far past what everyone else did for no reason, but I genuinely believe with moments like this

And this

Aand this

That Izuku has come forward with that aspect of his character development. He’s reflecting on his new beliefs, not repressing his emotions for them.

[eggtargaryenii]

re: jace jerking off to the thought of you in that dress. I must admit I lost control and started writing smut about it in the context of him reminiscing about it several years later after the two of you get hitched . here u go

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You were so lovely before him in this dress. Beautiful. It made Jacaerys feel terrible of the thoughts he was having of you.

Even when you first wore it to that banquet so many years ago, back when you were both young and green for the Dance of Dragons had not yet happened, Jace had been rendered speechless by the sight of you in it. He did not know where to look, for it bared so much of your arms, your thighs, the swell of your breasts. And gods—even where the dress covered you, it did a poor job of it. The silks were so sheer; whenever the light hit it a particular way, it revealed too much of the soft contours of your body.

It was the silhouette of your thighs that made him feel particularly mad. The silk clung to you so snugly, and he could see the shadow of your thighs, the apex of them—but nothing else. All he could think at that banquet, agonised by how tight his breeches were, was whether or not you were wearing smallclothes. Whether you were laughing and drinking and dancing in that hall, body pressed against his—all while you were bare and exposed beneath that dress.

And Seven Hells, did he hate himself for it—but the thought plagued him the whole time. Plagued him all night once he'd returned to his quarters, plagued him until finally he gave into his base urges and took himself into his hand. His cock throbbed hotly in his grip as he sullied you with his sordid fantasies—as he thought about pressing against you so tightly against himself as he danced until you could not help but feel him against your ass. As he thought about your body’s reactions to his, your silks clinging to your thighs as they grew sticky with your need. As he thought about reaching under the slit travelling up your thigh, your cunt bare and wet and sweet for him as he touched you.

It was—filthy. He was loath to disgrace you with these thoughts. All his life, he'd only ever wanted to treat you honourably, to be a respectful friend and later a proper husband. But Jacaerys had not been able to stop himself from thinking of taking you to his chambers, had not been able to stop himself from imagining himself bending you over and mounting you like some kind of beast. He wanted to press his throbbing cock against that dress, feel the wetness of your core through its silk. He wanted to rut against your cunt through the sheer cloth, and then he wanted to tear it aside so that he could press the head of his cock against your bare cunt. As he spilled himself all over his hand, he wished that he was instead spilling into you, pumping your womb full of his seed.

And now that you were before him in this dress again—his lovely, beautiful wife—it was all Jace could think of once more.

[dabislittlemouse]

Dabi lied about his tear ducts being burned- or maybe he didn’t. Maybe he really thought at some point they were burned, but the case could be that since a teenager he tried hard to not let emotions get in the way anymore (specifically crying since it was something he disliked most about himself when he got emotional, and those very same tears got him burned to death back in Sekoto) and that turned into him actually not being able to cry no matter what happened. My man locked tf in and shooed his vulnerability away, focusing only on the anger and revenge. And it resulted into him physically unable to cry, after a long time trying to hide those feelings, to hold back tears, he succeeded, and it wasn’t because of the burns, not really. He trained himself well through the years, and at some point he really thought his tear ducts weren’t functional anymore. He couldn’t cry when Twice died, even though he was clearly raging over his death. Couldn’t really cry when he first encountered his dad in Hosu city, he held himself back (which resulted into blood coming out of his scars instead). Couldn’t cry when having his monologue lying on the couch and reminiscing about his past (which again resulted into blood). When he’s overwhelmed with emotions he burns everything, laughs, goes crazy, does anything but cry.

He’s never talked about his past with anyone either, all the trauma, the abandonment, the hurt, keeping it all inside of him since he was a child.

After years of holding back he finally shed real tears in the end of the war, he was vulnerable, when his dad apologised to him, when Shoto talked to him. Maybe deep down he was shocked too, that he actually can cry. I could see him squeezing his eyes shut while his family was talking to him in the last chapters, probably trying his best not to cry in front of them, because he knows that his facade has been shattered long ago, and he can’t put it back no more, his feelings being all over the place, vulnerable both physically and emotionally.

[feralboo-the-weirdo]

Being the youngest sucks.

Being the youngest is always being lonely

It's always being too young

Always the odd one out, the late one.

The last to leave, the last to graduate

The child the parents give up parenting on because they're tired

It's feeling guilty you're the youngest even though you couldn't chose your birth order.

It's the guilt that you were treated "better"

You got "more."

It's being the baby of the family and feeling suffocated in the wants your parents have for you. It's feeling like you can never leave your parents.

It's growing up too fast because you don't want to be left behind

It's hiding away your emotions because you realize no one really cares

It's trying to be the sunshine child

it's trying to be the child the parents have to do the least for.

it's watching your siblings get punished and wondering when you're next

it's feeling immensely terrified of confrontation because you're never allowed to win.

It's being left with your siblings because your parents gave up on you and being raised by them.

It's listening to your siblings emotions and feeling terrible because you can't do anything to help them.

it's feeling to young

it's feeling like you deserve to be punished for existing.

It's feeling like you're the last straw that broke your parents. That if they just hadn't had you they'd still have money.

It's feeling like you have to be there for your parents because all the rest of your siblings leave. It's feeling like a third parent.

it's watching everyone around you grow old but you're still young.

it's feeling so old but you're still young.

it's being told you're selfish when you're literally a child.

it's being told to grow up when you're a child.

It's feeling like you can't have mental illnesses because you watch the strain it puts on your parents with your siblings. It's watching your family suffer but not knowing how to help and not being able to.

It's constantly eavesdropping on accident out of habit because no one explains what's going on.

It's trying to monitor the situation so no one gets hurt.

it's feeling incredibly uncomfortable talking about emotions because you weren't allowed to as a child because they weren't "important" enough because your oldest siblings just told you "at least you're not an adult" or "it's so much easier at that age."

It's feeling like an only child after everyone moves out.

It's feeling disconnected from your older siblings, like you never had a relationship with them.

it's feeling like a burden on your parents because you're the last one.

You carry so many secrets. You know so many secrets. You don't know what to do with those secrets.

Being the youngest is not carefree. In a way, the youngest caries almost as much as the oldest.

I don't know the experience of many other youngest siblings but mine was not the carefree experience my older siblings tried to make it out to be. But I'm starting to realize my childhood wasn't exactly normal so that probably doesn't help. I don't know that most youngest siblings aren't supposed to feel like a third parent to most of their siblings at like fifteen.

Please don't hate on this post, I'm not trying to hate on eldest and middle siblings, I just want to caution you to remember that your younger sibling is going to grow up and remember the things you said to them. It's not their fault they're the youngest.

Feel free to add to this post.

[magicicephoenix]

I have another question if you don't mind! And if it's too spoilery than thats I understand if you don't wish to respond!

How would you describe everyone's dynamic with eachother? So like- we know Sun & Moon's dynamic will be.. well not good xd And Im guessing Moon's dynamic with YN will be good? But what about Sun's dynamic with Y/N?

Moon and Sun are old friends. :)

Moon and Y/N have the expected "showing you the world" + "keeping you sane" dynamic. Y/N is generally more snappish than average but tolerates Moon's shenanigans and knows when to shut up. they are the type to ask questions for as long as they feel safe doing so because they need to know. they respect boundaries dw! it's a good relationship that improves over time.

Sun and Y/N... well. imagine you're away for some time and return to find your former best friend trouncing around with some rando. that's a very very VERY oversimplified version of what it's like.

[ryvern]

I haven't drawn in years- since about 2018. This was a nice little thing for me.

[chasingrainbowsforever]

~ Aqua and Orange ~

[fatedroses]

Many things were used to describe the mad hermit of Amaurot: a drunkard, degenerate, cynical, and even monstrous by those who stirred trouble for the newly appointed Azem. But nothing could prepare Emet-Selch for what he would see for himself, when offered a chance to meet the Sun's Shadow.

[someprettyname]

[ warning : absolutely unfiltered simping under the cut. It's a side of me you haven't seen and something which no one shall be seeing either 🙏🏻 you know those "no lube, no protection" posts? Yeah this worse. Any minors interacting with my blog, please dont read this one sweethearts. You deserve better. Thank you. Have a nice day. And najma, I don't think you'd realised what you were getting yourself into but you bought it upon yourself. Sorry. 🙏🏻]

EX-FUCKING-CUSE ME? YEAH KAISER I EXCUSE YOU FOR NOT FUCKING ME ALREADY. ALL BECAUSE YOU'RE PRETTY. OKAY? I SWEAR I'VE NEVER BEEN MORE SHALLOW WITH MY SIMPING BUT ITS OKAY, YOU CAN FUCK ME TILL I AM EMPTY. YOU CAN DO ANYTHING THAT YOU'D LIKE, MEINE LIEBE. MEINE FUCKING LEIBE. ISN'T THAT WHAT YOU ALWAYS SAY? HUH? THE WORDS WHICH ALWAYS MAKES ME WANT TO KISS YOU SENSELESS BREATHLESS WORDLESS. BUT DONT WORRY. DON'T WORRY AT ALL BECAUSE I'D TAKE REAL GOOD CARE OF YOU SWEETHEART, YEAH? AND IF I MAKE YOU UPSET, HONEY, YOU CAN CHOKE ME ALL YOU WANT. I"D THANK YOU FOR IT ANYWAYS. IN FACT I'D LET YOU DO ANYTHING YOU WANT. ALL THE FORBIDDEN, UNTOLD, NOT TALKED ABOUT THINGS. YOU CAN HAVE IT. RED FLAGS? I DON'T THINK THAT WOULD BE FIRST OF MY THOUGHTS WHEN YOU'RE SO DEEP IN MY THROAT I CAN'T FUCKING BREATHE. CRUSH ME WITH THOSE THIGHS AND I'D STILL BEG YOU TO THROW ME AGAINST A DAMN WALL. PIN ME THERE. AND I HOPE YOU FUCKING KNOW BETTER THAN TO STOP EVEN THOUGH I'M BEGGING YOU OTHERWISE BECAUSE WHY THE HELL WOULD I NOT WANT YOUR HANDS ALL OVER ME? EXACTLY. NO FUCKING REASON. SO KEEP GOING BECAUSE DAMN WELL EVERY TOUCH OF YOURS IS A BLESSING TO MY SKIN. FOREARMS, BICEPS, BACK, WAIST, ABS, THIGHS, I'D RIDE THEM ALL SWEETHEART. GIVE ME ONE CHANCE AND IDC ABOUT MY PLEASURE, I'D WORSHIP YOU ALL NIGHT BECAUSE DAMN WELL NO MATTER HOW SHITTY YOU ARE, THAT BODY DESERVES TO BE WORSHIPPED. You think I'm being too much? No no. This is just the first of the thoughts that I have when I look at him. This is already one of the thirstiest posts I've seen about him. I think I should spare you (i really can keep going tho. I'm not shy in the slightest dawg. I can yap about his stupidly good character design all day. This is for YOUR sanity.) with the graphic details of what I want to do with his hairs, tattoos, his fucking back oh my god. Have you seen his fucking back profile? Guhhh. If he dares smirk, he's done for. THE ABSOLUTE THINGS I"D DO TO FUCKING WIPE THAT SMIRK OFF HIS FACE, YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND. AND HE BETTER NOT OPEN HIS DAMN MOUTH TO SPEAK IF HE DOES NOT WISH TO BE FACED WITH AN INSATIABLE WRATH. URGGHHHHHHH. JESUS FUCKING CHRIST. I KNOW SEX IS NOT A SIN IN ITSELF BUT THE THINGS I'D BE DOING TO HIM WOULD DAMN WELL BE.

Huh.

[cent-scratchnsniff]

it was just going to be a few warmup doodles but then she infected the rest of the page like the ever eternal and spreading spores. hod!!! hod. hod :)

[lesiasmadness]

THIS GAME IS GOING TO KILL ME DEAD