#supper clean

[ryanseslow]

"The Last Drawing of the Last Supper that was Ever Drawn"

✍️✍️✍️ 2023

#drawing

#handstyle

#adobefresco

#thelastsupper

[ahopefulbromantic]

Mark 10, 35-40

Then James and John, the sons of Zebedee, came to him. “Teacher,” they said, “we want you to do for us whatever we ask.” “What do you want me to do for you?” he asked. They replied, “Let one of us sit at your right and the other at your left in your glory.” “You don’t know what you are asking,” Jesus said. “Can you drink the cup I drink or be baptized with the baptism I am baptized with?” “We can,” they answered. Jesus said to them, “You will drink the cup I drink and be baptized with the baptism I am baptized with, but to sit at my right or left is not for me to grant. These places belong to those for whom they have been prepared.”

So it's so obvious to me that the reason Jesus denies them is because in His ears what they are asking for is to be crucified alongside Him. Of course they don't know, they can't know what they're saying, but He does. And it's so telling, too, that these verses come just after Jesus talking about Himself being mocked, spat on, flogged, killed, and then risen from the dead.

Just thinking about how Jesus must've seen before His eyes a brief image of His beloved boys crucified, writhing in agony. How He probably immediately thought: "no, please, everything but that!" And when they told Him they could drink this cup, i wonder if He was touched because He knew they would, maybe deciding for a millionth time over that He wishes to die for them - or if He got angry, because how could they say that?! they don't know what they're talking about, He would never let them! - or maybe if He was too tired and fed up with everything to even argue with them cause they wouldn't get it anyway, they never did. I always thought it was the first one. That He looked at them fondly and said, "okay, you will drink the cup, how could I say no to you, I love you".

But see, here's what's been bugging me: Jesus tells both John and Big James that they will drink from His cup, but then according to tradition John is the only apostle NOT to get martyred? This plot hole leads some to believe that maybe our beloved son of thunder did in fact get killed but no one knows about it? Or there was something lost in translation? And it all didn't make sense to me until I realized something:

You know how we Catholics call Holy Mary the Queen of Martyrs even though She never shed a single drop of blood? That's because She was spiritually martyred when She watched Her Son die and this alone made Her suffering far greater than that of all the other martyrs. Which is honestly crazy, in the best way possible. And guess what? John was there, too, at the foot of the cross. And he, too, watched his beloved get tortured and die. In fact, he was the only apostle to do that.

He drank from the cup. He was martyred by watching his Jesus die. His heart died alongside Him, and if its flesh was not torn, did it really mean it was broken any less?

And i was also thinking, what if that was what was meant to happen to all the apostles, but they forfeited it by running away?

[girls-cafe]

[yoohyeon]

I have to go do the dishes, but I hated so much it always make me nauseous 😭

[iamchickenhearmesquawk]

If I never see discourse about food delivery and how people who use it are all lazy (same goes for pre prepared grocery store food/ingredients) I will finally know peace.

Like for fucks sake just let me do what I can to survive a higher pain day (or PMDD depression day before I had meds that manage it) and not use up all my spoons at once for a single meal.

[therpgconnoisseur]

I got reminded of what a fucking piss shit of a job wizards did with spelljammer and got legit mad about it again whilst talking to a friend about something else (naturally i derailed the entire conversation)

They didnt put ship to ship combat rules on the space ship setting

THEY DIDNT PUT SHIP TO SHIP COMBAT RULES IN THE ADD ON THAT SPECIFICALLY ABOUT GETTING ON A SHIP IN DND TO GO DO STUFF IN SPACE, LIKE TO SHOOT THINGS? WITH A CATAPULT OR A CANON? LIKE TO NAVIGATE? LIKE ARE YOU FOR FUCKING REAL?

Its almost like the time they made a horror setting for dnd and forgor to put the scary in it haha :)

[niteshade925]

😛

[rubiesintherough]

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[masgwi]

Wow I slept for almost 11 hours

[lakecoded]

everyone look away i am relearning how to be a human being for the 5th time this year

[1ncandescentrage]

I hate when my routine gets disrupted. I hate it I hate it I hate it

[excelsior9173]

why is realizing and admitting you’re chronically ill so hard?*

*(i know exactly why i struggle with it- every doctor i have ever seen my entire life was adamant that i would outgrow my asthma. even though i was so sick they tested me for cystic fibrosis as a kid. but i never did outgrow it, and then caught covid twice and it made my lungs worse. but being told it’s something to outgrow makes me feel like i can’t say i’m chronically ill even though it’s literally defined as a chronic illness)

[1796samuel-seabury1729]

owowowowow my legs my legs hurt so bad ow

[wisdomfish]

To humble oneself in service

Now before the Passover Feast, Jesus knew that His hour had come [and it was time] for Him to leave this world and return to the Father. Having [greatly] loved His own who were in the world, He loved them [and continuously loves them with His perfect love] to the end (eternally). It was during supper, when the devil had already put [the thought of] betraying Jesus into the heart of Judas Iscariot, Simon’s son, that Jesus, knowing that the Father had put everything into His hands, and that He had come from God and was [now] returning to God, got up from supper, took off His [outer] robe, and taking a [servant’s] towel, He tied it around His waist.

Then He poured water into the basin and began washing the disciples’ feet and wiping them with the towel which was tied around His waist. When He came to Simon Peter, he said to Him, “Lord, are You going to wash my feet?” Jesus replied to him, “You do not realize now what I am doing, but you will [fully] understand it later.” Peter said to Him, “You will never wash my feet!” Jesus answered, “Unless I wash you, you have no part with Me [we can have nothing to do with each other].” Simon Peter said to Him, “Lord, [in that case, wash] not only my feet, but also my hands and my head!” Jesus said to him, “Anyone who has bathed needs only to wash his feet, and is completely clean. And you [My disciples] are clean, but not all of you.” For He knew who was going to betray Him; for that reason He said, “Not all of you are clean.” [John 13:1-11]

[questioningdragons]

When I'm tired and hungry my executive functions take a hit. Unfortunately, if requires executive function to acquire, prepare, and clean up after food, and to get to bed on time. (Kind of struggling with the whole work full time and live alone thing. Especially considering I went and chose a job that's more than full time to do it well.)

[kindlyfunkn]

i told my sister she should not cough so much when trying to throw up bc it can increase chances of aspiration, for more success she could start heaving from the stomach

"yeah well i dont know how to do that🙄"

what? heave? yse your abdominal muscles? are you fucking stupid?