#suicidal ideation talk

[thisqueernerd]

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[thelaurenshippen]

911 really is such a good reminder of the particularly kind of joy that is weekly, seasons-long shows with many episodes per season. every character gets a moment to shine even in a truncated season. the satisfaction of seeing characters grapple with stuff that happened YEARS ago. having multi-episode arcs and one-off arcs that are equally enjoyable. beach episodes (metaphorical). I know we're all saying this all the time but why can't more tv be like this

[moodyvoid]

Hawks would perch at the top of the tallest building in the city, watching the sunset. He’d stretch out his wings before stepping off the edge and soaring through the night sky. He wonders what it might feel like to keep falling.

After the war, Hawks stands at the top of the tallest building. Ignoring the sunset and staring at the streets below him. The emptiness on his back feels so heavy, like it’s weighing him down, pushing him forward. He wonders what it might feel like to fly for one final time.

[birdsribcage]

If I learned anything from classic literature is that suicide is always an option

[conceptofjoy]

i know you've talked about broquerelsprite (crazy thing to type out) before so i'm wondering... what are your thoughts on a sprite fusion between him and davesprite. or just bro and ds in general

hm. for them to fuse, theyd have to be a ^2 sprite making them an ultimate, but thats an insane concept so i will be moving that thought to the side unless asked for lol.

he would be like. so fucked up.

im half convinced he would sprite-splode himself out of self loathing and grief. the insane amount of passive aggressive jealousy he would be lobbing dave’s way is inconceivable, but in the same breath he’d like die for dave with zero hesitation AND in the most traumatizing way. dude is gonna be SO stuck living in the past, i take back my sprite-sploding comment, hes not like actively suicidal for ds’s sake, but he’s looking for an excuse.

yeahhh, turns out if you put two people with generational trauma and insane daddy issues in a sprite, it doesnt turn out so good o_o’

[swimminginyokohamasrivers]

GUYS HEAR ME OUT.

gun!!

to my temple!!1

[anonpolls]

TW: Suicide / Suicidal Ideation

Thanks, Anon!

-submit your poll!-

[lovealwayssay]

If my best friend of 12 years who I’ve been in love with for who knows how long told me that he thought he could never have me but he was so happy just loving me from afar and telling me how loved I was that it didn’t matter that he couldn’t have me, and then the fact that he told me he loved me saved my life but killed him, I would simply kill myself too because how do you come back from that.

[star-dust-shark]

Mmh~ ah~ uh- unhhh- a-ah! Su-suicidal th-thoughts~! S-stop~ mhm~

[remedyturtles]

Rem are u based in the US? 🫠🫂

i am not.

to my sweet friends who are, i am holding you gently by the shoulders and looking you quite seriously in the eyes.

please live.

[sulfurrrr]

tbh I find Caitlyn's use of the Gray really interesting not only as a form of chemical warfare, but of psychological warfare too. The way she deliberately designed the strike force uniforms to work in tandem with the Gray in order to mimic the appearance of a monster from Zaunite stories with very recent presence in Zaun's recent memory (it was only during Cassandra's lifetime that the Gray was "locked away") to evoke fear in ordinary Zaunites is so so crazy to me.

And Jinx REALIZED that!! that's (maybe.) WHY that showdown took place in front of a carving of Janna– she's using those stories (which likely evolved alongside one another) to frame her reaction to Caitlyn's crimes as a sort of divine retribution!

Caitlyn thinks Jinx is this terrifying monster of a girl, and while it's true Jinx has done some awful things, ever since the beginning of this season (arguably since after the timeskip, even) Jinx has been working in direct response to Caitlyn and Caitlyn's actions, whether or not either of them are truly aware of it.

[curse-this-silent-voice]

Doing school work while being passively suicidal is so weird. It's all like

"Why am I doing this shit when I'm probably going to be gone by 30... oh wait, I might not be, so might as well do it"

"God, I can't figure out how to make this sentence make sense. Gotta take a break because this is making me wanna die even more rn"

"If I just... keeled over right now, I wouldn't have to go in there and write. Omg please"

"Not gonna lie, I'm only doing this for my therapist, my parents and my teacher"

*minor inconvenience like laptop not starting* "oh, is this a sign to give up and end it all??"

[sleepywww]

[follows-the-bees]

The pipeline from:

"I should have let the English kill you. This—whatever it is that you've become, is a fate worse than death."

To:

"I had a dream about you last night...I dreamt that you killed me...it was good for me. It was just what the doctor ordered."

Izzy tells Ed he should be dead. Ed puts up his defenses to become Blackbeard, puts the leathers as a shield back up and does everything he can to keep going. But he has seen what life could be, what his life can be when he's free, when he's loved by someone for Ed and not just the caricature of Blackbeard.

The Kraken music doesn't play at all during these first two episodes as Ed shuffles on the persona. Because unlike the beginning of season one, he is not actually Blackbeard, he is performing that caricature Izzy held up and yelled about.

(Sidenote: I talk about the three times from three different perspectives(Ed, Izzy, and Stede) of the reaction to the Blackbeard drawings here.)

Ed has reached the precipitate of his playacting of Blackbeard. He shoots Izzy's leg for disobedience. And now he's coming to Izzy, saying you once said that I was better off dead than a caricature of myself, that you should have let me die. So here's your chance, your chance to kill me.

He hands Izzy the gun but just like with the English, Izzy can't kill him. I don't know how much at this point Izzy's realized what is actually going on. Particularly, just how far Ed wants to die "it was good for me, just what the doctor ordered."

This scene is fascinating and a switch in the dynamics between them. Izzy always used power and (I don't think he realizes exactly why it works, that it is triggering Ed's deep seeded parental trauma) on Ed in the past. But now Ed is switching the tables, and handing Izzy the means to kill him, he is taking power back from Izzy. Even though that power would be his death.

[coffeeisfortheresponsible]

me when mk’s arc in lmk season 5 parallels suicide and callum’s arc in tdp season 6 parallels self harm

[jesncin]

i had a nightmare that i was watching season 2 of maws and it was revealed that supergirl was part robot and as she was transforming, I said out loud: "this is horrible, I hate this, I'm gonna kill myself"