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Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".
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Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"
And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".
Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.
At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.
So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!
Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!
Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!
Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.
Plain-text version:
Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".
Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"
And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".
Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.
At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.
So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!
P.S. Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!
Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!
Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.
#hlep#original#mental health#my sympathies and empathies to anyone who has to rely on this kind of hlep to get what they need.#the people in my life who most need to see this post are my family but even if they did I sincerely doubt they would internalize it#i've tried to break thru to them so many times it makes my head hurt. so i am focusing on boundaries and on finding other forms of support#and this thing i learned today helps me validate those boundaries. the example with the milk was from my therapist.#the example with the towing company was a real thing that happened with my parents a few months ago while I was age 28. 28!#a full adult age! it is so infantilizing as a disabled adult to seek assistance and support from ableist parents.#they were real mad i was mad tho. and the spoons i spent trying to explain it were only the latest in a long line of#huge family-related spoon expenditures. distance and the ability to enforce boundaries helps. haven't talked to sisters for literally the#longest period of my whole life. people really believe that if they love you and try to help you they can do no wrong.#and those people are NOT great allies to the chronically sick folks in their lives.#you can adore someone and still fuck up and hurt them so bad. will your pride refuse to accept what you've done and lash out instead?#or will you have courage and be kind? will you learn and grow? all of us have prejudices and practices we are not yet aware of.#no one is pure. but will you be kind? will you be a good friend? will you grow? i hope i grow. i hope i always make the choice to grow.#i hope with every year i age i get better and better at making people feel the opposite of how my family's ableism has made me feel#i will see them seen and hear them heard and smile at their smiles. make them feel smart and held and strong.#just like i do now but even better! i am always learning better ways to be kind so i don't see why i would stop
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I love Tumblr because nothing matters here truly. There are no influencers. Having followers doesn’t mean anything. It’s just a site where people post their sporadic thoughts and rb pretty pictures. Anyone who thinks any of this matters is woefully missing the point
#I joined tumblr for the aesthetics and now I’m here bc it’s the most low pressure social media to be on#Instagram is ppl’s highlight reel but Tumblr is where u see their pure thoughts unobstructed and I adore that#It’s very nice to have people to relate to and is def the main appeal to me but I don’t think there’s much more to it than that genuinely#Monetization on tumblr isn’t a thing and probably won’t be so it feels stupid to put more stake than necessary in it. Like you’re in the#Trenches over tumblr of all things. Embarrassing#I know chronically online people exist bc I have seen them in my or somebody else’s inbox but imagine waking up at 70 one day and the#Realization hitting u like a freight time that u wasted all ur time thinking tumblr. TUMBLR. This dying website. Has enough weight for u to#be sending anon hate or reviewing ppl’s blogs like they’re some kind of product. Brother this is licherally tumblr#I choose to laugh at this behavior than take it seriously bc absolutely no one is driving me crazy on my OWN blog. On tumblr dot com.#I refuse#I will do whatever I want forever etc
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W1 design is done finally!!
W1 is both of the V models having combined themselves into one machine! Here are some notes on it! There's a lot to this fucker I think, but I'll do my best to cover what's most important.
Design notes:
More fragile areas are usually using V2's standard tougher plating. Main examples are the base of it's limbs, as the less of it's arm it potentially loses the better, it's head (which has 2 brains inside!), kneecaps and it's shooter arms, which are less powerful but made to handle guns and weaponry with more finesse.
Note! The knuckleblaster largely is off-colored, because it is a creation of V2's before their merge (she was not made with it). She made it before they combined. Has modified only it's hand after their merge (blue).
Big surface areas or places where blood often ends up use V1's plating. So like it's chest, forearms, punching fists and so on!
Their eye looks like that, because it's cool. and. 2 brains.
Their wings are a combination, because of limited resources. If it could use all of V2's it would as they are better protected.
Character/lore notes:
The V's do NOT fight for the body. Actually any disagreement on actions it must perform are VERY dangerous and scary they prioritize reaching a solution as FAST as possible.
Not functioning correctly can mean death. That being said differing opinions specifically are okay as long as they reach the same final conclusion on what to do. Nobody is panicking if they disagree on what their fave color is.
The two brains send requests incredibly fast between each other to operate the body. Both have full control over the body and must operate it together. This is a VERY processing heavy task and an inefficient one so it requires a lot of blood. It is a VERY hungry machine.
W1 combines before the events of the game! W1 would go through the events of the game in place of just V1.
#ultrakill#ultrakill art#ultrakill fanart#v1 ultrakill#v2 ultrakill#v1#v2#ultrakill w1#w1#my art#digital art#kiki rambles#< because i am this is a lot of text#OH ANOTHER MINOR NOTES#the flowers in that pond are narcissus flowers :)#one of its heels are blue to reference achilles' heel#it is not actually going to die if you stab it there it is purely there for the reference#knuckleblaster is arm 2 because its funny that v2s beloved baby doesnt get first privileges. just like how shes only second rate in canon#aaand thats it#behold i adore my thing so much
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one interesting aspect of percy and rachel's relationship that isn't often highlighted is how empathetic percy must have been toward rachel about seeing through the mist as a small child. because percy was the kid who saw a man with one eye stalking him at the local playground. the kid who saw a horse with wings resting atop the roof of a nearby building. the kid who was nearly killed by a fury disguised as his algebra teacher. and the kid who understood what if felt like to distrust the world around him, to be reprimanded for falling victim to the fear that accompanied it. if it was anything that percy offered rachel. it was the grace of understanding a uniquely mortal experience.
#i hold their friendship so near to my heart#it was such a pure and honorable and necessary connection between two scared teenagers#and what a shame it is that now is categorized soley as an obstacle to percabeth#i would seriously love to see these two have a healthy and productive interaction#something that feels reminiscent of their past but mature in light of their present#these two definately deserve it#percy jackon and the olympians#pjo text post#pjo#pjo headcanon#percy jackson#rachel elizabeth dare#these two were adorable#it may not have been romantic#but maybe it didn't need to be#maybe all it had to be was good
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hi i was raised in a home daycare for over 20 years and studied child development and psychology in school for 3 and would like to gush about why i love how bonnie was written and how they're one of the few kids in games i've played that Actually Feel Like a Kid:
firstly: bonnie's diction
bonnie cursing like a sailor is honestly pretty accurate for a kid aged like 9-14 and i distinctly remember having a huge cursing phase of my own at that age too so LMAO
they ask a lot of questions adjacent to a kids' understanding/confusion of things, social norms, situations, feelings, etc. (the conversation about the actors kissing in that play they saw and how they MUST have had an invisible paper between their lips because nobody would REALLY kiss on stage in front of everybody!)
they can be incredibly blunt but often not with the intention to hurt feelings rather than genuinely acquire information (sometimes with some sass b/c of previous conditioning.) ex. "Our teacher always tells us we have to speak up more... You're an adult so why don't you speak up more?" (Precedent/Conditioning; "Adult in position of power and authority has ingrained it is important to use my voice." -> "Why don't you, an adult who should know better, use yours more then?")
they have a tendency to confidently and casually use words and phrases they don't fully understand or know ("Air-no-no-nomic" -> this especially being something picked up by a fellow kid and just trusted that) (struggling to say, "pomegranate" (very cute watching odile help them with it :,) ) (struggling to say onigiri -> purposely messing this up to get a playful reaction out of dile, a party member they're especially close to, was also very sweet)
it's hard to discuss feelings. they're more likely to use a vessel as a means of connecting to someone else before being able to assign words to everything (offering a peach to siffrin in the classroom because they recognize he's upset without fully understanding why, then waiting for him to address the situation)
secondly: how bonnie handles feelings towards the others and about their Scenario
tendency to hold onto hard, serious, difficult-to-breach subjects and then explode and scream when addressed (ex. Rotten Adults quest)
slightly more partial to physical touch than verbal affirmation (hugs, hugs, hugs! including the little half-hugs they do where they just run into siffrin's side...)
jabbing siffrin in the stomach as a show of example for touching them LMAO???
recounting stories and information that interests them without regard for how socially appropriate it is or why others may react poorly (ex. talking to the party about how nille ran away with them and why she did)
unspoken guilt and trauma causing disconnection from people they love (siffrin's eye situation)
just a few examples and thoughts i liked
#im not an education major but i would be if i didnt love art#all of my psychology and child development studies are purely elective/voluntary#kids are too wonderful man#too funny#too adorable#isat spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#isat#in stars and time#bonnie#bonnie isat#isat bonnie
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one of my favorite things about zedaph is that on a server full of people that find strange and oft-overlooked minecraft mechanics or rare events and then see just how far they can push them in the name of spectacle or efficiency or world-breaking, zed is over here finding these mechanics in order to do the weirdest things he can think of in as entertaining a manner as possible
like i 100% have faith in zedaph's theoretical ability to be just as efficient or spectacular or world-breaking. if he wanted to do that stuff, i trust that he absolutely could. but thats so far from being his priority. instead, hes going to spend around a week of irl time focused entirely on eventually having the good luck to spawn in something insanely rare so that he can convert it into something even rarer, the result of which being something that 99% of the server reacts with complete and utter shock that it even exists in the first place, just because its zany and funny and he wanted to. and i love that
#zedaph#hermitcraft#genuinely i adore the clucky few project im not even done watching the episode and i had to pause and make this post#i saw impulses video first and went ''that HAS to be some sort of datapack or something-''#only to immediately go ''no. no it cant be. because this is zed#and its practically a trademark of his to push the limits of the game as far as possible in the direction least expected#not for the purpose of efficiency or spectacle or intimidation or whatever like some players who push limits#but purely for the purpose of making something so funny you cant help but laugh at whats going on#and maybe being a bit impressed that he ever thought of it in the first place''#at which point i went ''holy shit. since its zed doing this. somehow he ACTUALLY got a villager on a chicken. with no cheats. thats INSANE'#i was relieved when i checked my subscriptions to see what the next video i had to watch was and saw he would be next in line#bc if i had to sit through 19 other hermits videos before i could watch his and find out what the fuck he was doing i would have been so sa#sidenote but i feel like a zed video where he interacts with this many other people all in the same video is so rare#idk i didnt watch season 9 and i know he started collabing a lot more w/ other hermits then#so maybe its not nearly as rare these days#but like the last one that *i* saw where he interacted with this many people at once was towards the end of season 8#when all the people he experimented on earlier in the season came back to experiment on him#and like i would like zeds videos with or without the collabs. but its a lot of fun to see him interact with people#so its very cool to me when he does it with a lot of people all in the same video
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#if this app destroys quality of this set i swear...#Force is adorable that's all i could think about here#he is really good the emotions were there and the almost cried eyes....#i am having so much fun watching this series it is pure comedy and its good comedy i am laughing so much#perfect 10 liners#perfect 10 liners the series#p10l#arcarm#arc x arm#forcebook#force jiratchapong#book kasidet#forcebookedit
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kit connor being so nervous for his big scene with olivia colman and then she ends up forgetting her lines bc she was so overwhelmed by him crying is the cutest thing ever
#i love them they’re adorable#both of them are so pure#kit connor#olivia colman#nick nelson#sarah nelson#heartstopper#heartstopper tv#heartstopper season 1
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kmag: these penalties aren’t fair. i get punished for “safety hazards” that are really just minor infringements, meanwhile ricciardo was let off easy after nearly sending nico into the barrier at 300 kph.
stewards: yeah, about that… we should probably point out that nico’s contact with yuki was not only nico’s own fault but way more dangerous tha–
kmag: sorry, maybe you didn’t hear me correctly. i said THE NEXT PERSON WHO LAYS HANDS ON MY HUSBAND–––
#kmag#kevin magnussen#nico hulkenberg#nh27#km20#haasbands#hulknussen#kmag/hulk#haas#haas f1 team#gay dads energy#guard dog kmag#he will do ANYTHING for his husband#watch out the next time he’s allowed to race#0 penalty points?#we’re gonna have an 18-car pile up#so hulk can get his first podium#rip danny ric#you don’t know what you’ve started#you mess with the hulk you get the viking#pure fucking danish menace#my favorite dane#i’m so ready for this#adorable#true love#f1#formula 1#f1 2024
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Devil x Angel
LOOK, IM A SUCKER FOR CLICHES!!! Did this on the MegOP server while on vc with the lovely people there <3
#megop#optimus prime#transformers#megatron#megatron x optimus prime#optimus x megatron#transformers animated#tfa megop#tfa optimus prime#tfa megatron#angel x demon#demon x angel#hehehe#cliche drawing#maybe#more people should draw cliche#i adore angel x devil too much#god I want infinite oneshots of this trope#someone should make an AU#pls#imagine the angst#or the pure comedy of Optimus being a Feisty angel#not taking any crap from Megatron#god pls#someone#I guess I'll make what I want to see in the world#eventually
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- Favorite Film Gems - "This world is an uncertain realm, filled with danger. Honor underminded by the pursuit of power, freedom sacrificed when the weak are oppressed by the strong. But there are those who oppose these powerful forces, who dedicate their lives to truth, honor, and freedom. These men are known as Musketeers." The Three Musketeers (1993) directed by Stephen Herek
#the three musketeers#the three musketeers 1993#d'artagnan#athos#porthos#aramis#rochefort#chirs o'donnell#kiefer sutherland#oliver platt#tim curry#michael wincott#my gifs#a subterranean gif#fuku's favorite film gems#dailyflicks#tvfilmsource#filmtvdaily#cinematv#moviegifs#i adore this one it's so cheezy and shlocky 90's fun#tim curry and michael wincott hamming it up to 1000% as villains is just pure joy lol#the soundtrack and the SONG too it was inescapable!!
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idk but saying tyler being a manipulative serial killer means he can’t be with wednesday is genuinely so funny to me like baby this is the addams family we’re talking about. being a manipulative serial killer should put him at the top of the viable choices for wednesday list.
#she literally calls him her type so idk where y’all are getting the whole ‘she never liked him’ thing from 💀#‘he’s too toxic for her’ she once said having attempted murder on her record would be terrible bc everyone would know she failed to get the#job done. like what do you MEAN. toxicity is like the one thing her family adores#you don’t have to ship them all i’m saying is ‘he’s toxic :(‘ is a terrible reason when we’re talking abt fuckin wednesday addams#babygirl has done terrible things like. this is the one family that values toxic serial killing people wym 😭#if you’re looking for happy fluffy healthy pure relationships this is not the family for you#not looking to argue so if u do i’m just gonna ignore it#wednesday addams#tyler galpin#wednesday x tyler#weyler#wednesday#wednesday tag#guys please stop replying or rb with different reasons why they can’t date we’re not talking abt them
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Local Natlan fruits
#genshin impact#mualani#xilonen#xilolani#alternatively titled me and the bad bitch I pulled by being autistic#NEW NATION NEW PAIRING I PULLED OUTTA MY ASS BASED PURELY ON VIBES#also one that will definitely just end up a rarepair like the rest of them#okay delusion time but this pairing has a chance of being blessed with screentime (it doesnt) and fandom adoration (at most maybe 7 fans)#look a broken clock is right twice a day so there's still hope for me (there isnt)
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Will Deborah Vance Make History? I think she will.
HACKS 1.06 "New Eyes" / 3.09 "Bulletproof"
#she still doesn't know what to do with it!!!!!!#all that pure adoration and belief#ava's tenderness is unbareable#hacks hbo#gifs#ava x deborah#ava daniels#deborah vance#hacksedit#tvgifs#tvfilmgifs#tvandfilm
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Click to see Joker and Akechi’s couples shirts :)
#persona#persona 5#p5#persona 5 royal#p5r#Akira kurusu#ren amamiya#futaba sakura#yusuke kitagawa#ann takamaki#akechi goro#lavenza#sojiro sakura#(I guess lol)#mine#Akechi being a Featherman fan as a child is so fkn adorable - one of my fave fanon ideas#those couples shirts made me shriek when I first saw them btw. the pure akeshu energy… it’s too strong!#Akeshu#shuake#forgive me some of these look p low quality… [shakes fist at tumblr]
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Film | Vhackerr
Vinnie can’t help but to film his pretty girlfriend while they spend a lazy day in bed
Letting out a loud laugh as Vinnie tickles me. “Vinnie, stop. I can’t breath!” I laugh. He smiles and finally stops. He looks up and his eyes drift to my dresser. He quickly jumps up as he wears nothing but boxers, showing off all his tattoos that I can’t seem to get over.
He grabs my camcorder and turns it on. He turns around and hold the camera up to his eye. “What are you doing?” I ask as I rest my head against my hand. “Filming the most beautiful girl in the world.” He walks closer to me. I chuckle. “I think someone would debate about that with you.” He snorts. “That’s a debate they would lose.” I laugh.
He sits on the bed as he continues to film. “Look at this angel that lays in this bed.” He speaks out loud. I shake my head. “Such a pretty mama.” He comes closer to me. “Yeah, yeah.” I turn on my stomach. “Oh my, she’s showing us some skin? Lord have mercy.” Vinnie speaks and I laugh. “Such a pretty body.” He mutters as he continue to film me.
“Vinnie, stop it. You don’t need to feed my ego.” I smile. He smiles back at me. “I’ll do whatever I please. I want the world to know that you are the prettiest person in existence.” He said. “Get my good side then.” I pose as I sit up. Wrapping the covers around me as I don’t have anything on but a pair of lanced underwear. He laughs before moving the camera away from me so he can wipe a piece of hair out of my face.
He brings the camera back and focuses it on me. “You know what you are?” He asked. “What am I?” I tilt my head. We stare at each other before laughing a bit. He turns his head with a shy smile on his face as he blushes before turning back at me. “You’re my girl.” I can’t help but feel heat rise onto my cheeks and I smile slowly. “Is that so?” I ask barely above a whisper. “Yeah.” He says slowly before turning the camera off and placing it down on the bed.
He moves closer to me and put his hands on each side of my face. His right thumb rubbing my cheek. He slowly pulls me in and gives me the sweetest kiss I could ask for. Jesus, I think I’m in love with this man.
#vinnie hacker x reader#vinnie hacker#bwwm couples#lovers#film#camcorder#oneshot#vincent hacker#pure adoration#vinnie imagines
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