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banana-can-do-art · 8 hours ago

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Guys I just finished the well it’s not the entirety of Riddle’s dream there’s still like an hour and a half that hasn’t been translated on Gasmask’s channel but I finished the part that they did translate and omg heeelp this is the best dream yet. This is so sad omg I have to ramble about it also all translations I’m using are from gas mask on YouTube.

First of all omg he’s so happy it’s making me sad. Also him saying that he would be tired of everything being the same all the time right after I made that post rambling about how his implied OCD causes him to always do everything in a “samey” manner I aaaaagghhhh. And he’s saying that he’s going to have a chaotic band because in his dream he isn’t upset when things aren’t in order and he can just let himself be happy. You can’t do this to meeee! But there’s more!

Look he’s happily breaking the rules and feeling no anxiety about it whatsoever. (OCD be gone). In his dream world he can do what he wants with no terrible parents or mental illness holding him back. Look at him he’s adorable. And then we have this though agghhh.

This is so sad! When Ace and everyone tells him about what he’s like in real life as though they are talking about another person, Riddle immediately hates the person they are describing. Because he doesn’t like who he is irl. In fact, Riddle even says here that he hates school and studying and that it makes people miss out on the fun things in life. It’s so sad because who he actually is irl is the complete opposite of what he wants to be. He’s so isolated and self loathing I can’t.

Also in the dream Riddle isn’t even a mage. Because he doesn’t even actually like doing magic because all of the joy was sapped out of that for him because he’s always expected to do it perfectly. He never just gets to do magic because he wants to or because it’s fun but rather only because others expect and pressure him too. It feels like the idea of a hobby losing its charm and fun when people have to make it into their jobs. (I hope that doesn’t happen to me heeeelp)

Also I felt so bad for Trey during this because he knows the most about Riddle’s reality and he is the entrenched in it himself. Riddle’s mom screamed at him for five hours as a child and he’s scarred from everything that happened with Riddle and his mom as a kid and yet now he’s supposed to just walk into Riddle’s house like nothing’s wrong. That must be so jarring and unsettling. Props to Trey for managing to do that honestly that’s freaking terrifying.

Also I can’t with all of those pictures on the wall. What do you mean he hates his real life so much that in his dreams his entire memory has become fabricated. His real life memories are completely different from his dream memories. And what do you mean that in his dream his parents are together and they love him and neither of them are mages and he just lives a happy and normal life?! What do you mean?!

Also, even though his parents love him in the dream, his mom has been so awful to him irl that even though everything is fake he can’t even actually picture her face saying nice things to him so it’s just the house talking to him. That’s so awful!

Also then we get this whole reference to the scene in Alice in wonderland where Alice has the big tears and people are drowning. Except it’s tea this time lol. Also Riddle crying that he wants to get out of the house is so sad even in his dreams he can’t escape agshdjdjdj. Omg Cater is so funny in the drowning scene though, he’s just like stop crying we’re gonna drown lmao. Also I know Chenya is fake but it is still so unbelievably funny how he is literally drowning in tea and yet he just has this huge smirk on his face the whole time lol. Chenya’s so silly.

Also the house became so creepy omg I saw someone saying it looks like an rpg maker horror game and like it really does! Specifically I think it really looks like Sunny’s house during the truth sequence of Omori.

Speaking of rpg maker horror games, Malleus was really channeling his inner rpg maker horror villain this update. Poor Idia lol. My condolences to Idia, he’s become the main character of an rpg maker horror game. I dunno Idia if we are going for Omori parallels then maybe you should open that door.

And then later when he gets pulled deeper the dream reflects false desires. To have control over the dorm while everyone bows down to him is was he thinks he wants but not his actual true desire. That’s why in the second layer of his dream even though he is in power, he still seems miserable because we know that he doesn’t even want to be a mage in the first place, much less have all of these rules.

And then Chenya pushes him over and he gets tangled in his cape lmao. That was so funny and then the screen is just Riddle with his feet in the air lmao. That outfit is not conducive to getting up from a fall.

But omg when the darkness is telling him that in the dream they respect him while irl he is isolated it’s so sad. Because he knows that irl his rules and strictness (and OCD) isolate him and that’s why it’s so difficult for him to make friends. He understands that he is lonely because he is a control freak like this, and yet it’s the only thing that he knows how to do because it’s all he’s been taught. (And also because he’s mentally ill you see).

This is all so sad I can’t. Twst! How could you do this to me?!

Anyway, in conclusion punk band Riddle is the most amazing thing to ever grace my eyeballs just look at him. We need a Riddle vocaloid band rhythm game spinoff immediately actually. Also his new fit is absolutely slaying look at him go!

Now I must wait in agony for the next hour and a half or so to be translated by the great and amazing fandom hero, gasmask.

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midnightsnaq · 8 days ago

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Wh.

#quiere llorar quiere llorar quiere llorar #i did cry 💔#such a silly thing to cry about honestly but #well im so upset that im so tired all the time i cant even write fics or rp #i love writing but i cant do it. i mean i can..sort of.. but my writing fucking sucks #and its so frustrating! i want to keep writing and keep being awesome at it but im so tired all the time now #im so busy its not fair i want the energy i want the time #im not upset that im taking classes and that i have to work earlier and eat healthy and lose weight and work out- im upset that im tired #i wanna write good #i wanna have energy #okay maybe i am a little upset that i have to wake up early and go to work earlier and meal prep and work out and draw and go to classes but #i have to. i want to. i need to invest in myself. i need to pursue my goals but it sucks that im tired #and i feel so guilty on top of it because i want to write well!! and give brilliant rp replies and write amazing fanfics #i wish i could do it all. i am trying. i have three unfinished fics and an active rp going on (plus two dormant ones) but my writing is shit #and i hate my writing i also hate my art!!! but i want to improve!! but i cant if im always tired #its not even burnout its just that my writing (and art) fucking suck and im mad cuz i want to be good at them and i dont want to disappoint #im disappointing ppl #shit #maybe im tired cuz somebody is trying to lose weight and eating less and not prioritizing sleep!!!#me im that somebody #i havent hanged out with my friends in a while either cuz im tired . disappointing everybody 💔#crashing out in tumblr tags #fuck ice btw

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whosthere54 · 4 months ago

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Chat did you know I love place of rebirth?

I shake that episode rarararah. Drinking stream the absolute beloved.

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sarumint · 1 year ago

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pop!

#hunter x hunter #kurapika kurta #leorio paladiknight #leopika #hxh fanart #art #i was a hardcore leopika fan back in 2020 and now I’m back in the pit #1999 had me screaming and crying #and the drama cds⁉️#even looking back at my leopika art from 3 years ago had me maniacally laughing in my room #I have so much old hxh art in my little shoe box it was mentally HEALING looking through them again #it was clear how much I loved hxh and honestly I’m so glad I got into it again #I was just 15 when I drew all those silly things but why does it feel like it was just yesterday #I started this acc when I was 16 so most of my oldest drawings on here was made when I was just 16 #and now I’m 18??this is so weird idk why I’m rambling about my age rn but life just flies too fast #I don’t like it #I just wanna be in my room drawing away my self indulgence #and daydream about stories I’ll write later #and decorate my silly room and dress myself up in the mirror #I am NOT built for society

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ame-to-ame · 10 days ago

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Oh on last rb's note my friend actually read love bullet per my recommendation hehe and she likes it and it makes me so so happy hehe

#kk rambles #when ppl actually look into the things that u rec or are interested in... wowie... hand in marriage (platonic) u.u #omg u actually were listening to me and remembered and looked into it... heart full of love crying tears of happiness...#that one image of the cat crying. that's me. that's me. planting a big metaphorical smooch on your forehead. i love you.#which ik it sounds silly but i get really moved by things like that ok!! my friend sends me alnst memes even tho she hasn't watched it #and it's like oh u were thinking abt me oh u sent this to me just bc i like it 🥺🥺🥺#I can't believe i exist in your mind even when im not there hehe icb u think about me im going to make pancakes for you in the morning.#we are getting a mansion together and living together forever.#everyone's love languages are a little different and mine are so weird lmao what do you mean i get so touched when ppl think of me #do you think you don't exist as a concept when you're not physically there do you think other ppl don't have object permanence lmao #oh wait #yeah it's the effect of dating someone who made u feel like u didn't exist unless u were initiating stuff n engaging w them /j #but my friends are so sweet to me rahhh #i love my friends #why are my standards so low when my friends are all so nice and treat me well 😭😭😭#so mad that my bsf is happily in a relationship (good for her honestly im v happy for her)#bc now I can't go like. if we're single at 30 let's get married. no homo. just that we've known e/o for so long it would be comfortable #it's crazy bc it's not like i want a romantic relationship but i hate feeling lonely but i also really like my own personal space and time #and I don't really like the small inevitable conflicts that arise from close relationships even though it's part of putting the work in #but i like a certain amount of stability and predictability (autism) so i think what i need. is a roommate.#a friend who lives together w me but in separate rooms but i can cook for them type cohabitation lmaoo #but that's kinda idealistic and kinda gay lmao #my friend called me a friend simp and my other friend joked that i should have a queer platonic cule.#like rahhh yeah i really do love my friends a lot i wanna see them forever they're great and amazing and i love them so much #it's nice to be loved!!! it's nice to be cared abt!!! my friends make me really happy!!!#ik from societal standards I'm a deviation and what i feel is more intense than what normal ppl consider friendships to be like but #I don't quite understand the categorization of human social interactions sometimes ig. why should i cap how much im allowed to love someone #if i love someone i want to see them happy and i want to do things for them and I'm not the type to half ass things.#but society is weird abt things and whatnot but it's fine as long as my friends understand and know i love them hehe #anyway love bullet arospec representation!!! let girls shoot people!!! /hj

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cursed-elo-images · 1 year ago

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TAG YOURSELF: ELO EDITION

Text in the description in case the text in the image is hard to read:

Fluff (Jeff)

-very shy and tries to be wholesome

-still tries to be the responsible leader

-gets irritated at society

-listens to the Beatles and wears floofy oversized sweaters

Chevrolet (Bev)

-has a planet fitness membership

-wears tank tops all the time

-obsessed with pickup trucks

-really tall, muscular, but not intimidating, acts like a parent and is sweet

Jelly (Kelly)

-obsessed with video game speedruns

-never gets tired

-does plushie and action figure hauls

-certified gamer

Randy (Richard)

-a genuinely great cook and loves food so much

-the quiet hippie one

-very nerdy and knows esoteric info on oddly specific things

-a peaceful eccentric

Milk (Mik)

-well behaved

-likes fart jokes

-has a Pinterest board of horses

-does nothing wrong

Hug (Hugh)

-wears the most flamboyant clothing in public without caring what others thinks because they’re oh so wild and edgy

-tries to act intimidating and scary towards people but cries easily

-huge animal lover and is kind and gentle to them

-weird and silly and goofs around during conversations

Smell (Melvyn)

-way too talkative

-loves hugs and is very nice

-is weird and just wants friends

-pretty and enjoys being dolled up

I’m Smell

#electric light orchestra #hugh mcdowell #jeff lynne #melvyn gale #bev bevan #mik kaminski #richard tandy #kelly groucutt #this would be a very odd friend group and i like that #i would love to hang out with the main person of the group and listen to the Beatles with them and complain about society hating us #id love to hang out with the fitness person in the gym and they can adopt me in the friend way (it was a trend in my friend group at school #id play video games with the gamer and have fun with them #id hang out with the hippie and have them cook food for us and id let them go on tangents of oddly detailed and obscure stuff like yes #with the jokester id make jokes with them and laugh until we cry and let them talk about horses even though im not really into them myself #with the scary edgy person id honestly hang out with them and go to them for advice on clothes because they’re pretty #the scary person being secretly soft hearted and cute is so beautiful asdfghjkl #I’d be kinda scared of them tho haha #and making a fool of myself and doing weird silly rebellious things with them would be so funny lol #and honestly? having the weird person want hugs all the time in order to live warms my heart #imagine one day i meet my friend group and i see them and they rant about how lonely they are and that they want more friends #and i feel so bad for them and they hug me and i approve of it and we become besties and they act weird and they talk to me all the time #i would also love discussing fashion with the weird one as well #ugh i just want that to happen please i need that in my life #that’s life in my opinion

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sysig · 10 months ago

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See you everywhere, now that you’re gone (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Damned #Helix #ZEX #Dexter Favin #Ft. Wally West and Xigbar again - they're good to him <3 #Hhhh ;; The sads :'0 #ZEX never got to fully show off his uniform ;;#I was so hoping for that! He deserves to show off and feel nice and be praised </3 #At least he'd surrounded himself with good people - the dynamics around which are also interesting #Wally lovely <3 He's so sweet honestly just wants to offer a shoulder if he's able any small bit of comfort #He's injured and he's still trying to hug ZEX weh ;; Any bit of solace ♥#Xigbar's way of cheering him up is his own kind of misplaced sweetness haha I love the care put into everyone's quirks <3 #Ugh the whole thing of Nobodies trying to (and failing to! To varying degrees) convince themselves that they don't have emotions #Clearly Xig is unbothered by this so it's better to just flirt and not worry about it! It's a shame but it happens to everyone #I see you Xigbar ♥ Really tho him being a bit flippant and silly and tactile with ZEX did seem to help haha #''Let me comfort you'' pfft - sad silliness hehe #And then Dexter showed up!! I was so unprepared for that!!#Honestly I only expected him to come visit The One Time so I was so not ready for him to be here after All This #He made ZEX cry last time and this time he came to it already crying ;;#Ughhughgh ZEX's unshakable trust for DAX - even just his voice - being the breaking point of his self control I jfdlksahfds #Someone he can be weak in front of since he doesn't want to be seen by anyone that way - only to DAX ;;;;#Offering any bit of familiarity as comfort weh I'm fine this is fine ;;#Poor ZEX :( Being so powerless and helpless in this situation is so sad!! At least when he was in the War he was in control to an extent #He only touched his cheek with his uniform later that night which I do honestly love the imagery of soft and tender <3 #I like drawing people holding things fully to their face more than I remembered haha #And then the fact that his roommate changed the same night and it was /Kirk/ of all people fjdslahfdsfd wehhhhh 😭#Kirk is genuinely the sweetest to him he is absolutely best boy but to have a Captain after all that ;;;;#It cuts so deeply ironic oww <3 <3

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thesorrowoflizards · 10 months ago

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listen the mastermind job has flaws but i kind of. love it?

#yes his ability to make people magically fall asleep--alphas theory aside--was ridiculous #but my god. there's both some really funny moments #and genuinely good emotional beats #the whole thing about sophie not being in the book #and honestly i just really like the character of the fake mastermind guy hes so funny. scrungly.#and the whole insight into nate being the only one to appreciate the accountants at IYS #and this guy being like 'he was so supportive! and kind!' and they'r elike #'NATE? NATE FORD? WHO TALKS TO YOU LIKE YOURE DUMB?'#'always there with a nice pep talk....'#'HIS PEP TALKS LITERALLY MAKE PEOPLE CRY YOU FUCKING LUNATIC!!!'#and how he's genuinely so earnestly like 'no let that guy go! threaten me all you like but don't hurt him!'#and everything about harry being kidnapped #getting the goons to fucking unionize basically lkgjfgkhjgh #and nate being so proud of them....#there's so much going on that is excellent #i get why it gets back flack for really being a highlight of a persistent problem in l:redemption (ie the sillier tone #/stretchier reality/more librarians-esque shenanigans versus more grounded og leverage) but like. i genuinely really like this episode lfkg #i love this silly little character i love the crews interactions etc #im only halfway through my rewatch so i may have forgotten something #grembospeak #leverage redemption #leverage #'i make lists. groceries mostly.' - harry the funniest lawyer alive

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silverselfshippingchaos · 3 months ago

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ugghhh wintertime sucks!! I'm sad and tired and sad all the time.. I need a nap.. and f/o cuddles.. and another nap..

#ash rambles 💚#negative #part of it is definitely the weather #it's so dark and dreary and i never wanna leave my bed #but also just. my mood akdjajs I'm kinda down in the dumps today #im recovering from being sick which always fucks me up #and i just cant shake this feeling of anxiety..? and i feel kinda a lot like my f/os wouldnt like me or would fall out of love or never see #me as more than a friend and other stuff like that #i.. actually got broken up with yesterday irl!#it wasnt messy. he said that this isnt what he wanted and it was fine and we're back to being pals. i wasnt sad at all in the moment and #i dont think i am now..? it's weird. we were laughing like always literal minutes after having the chat. when we got together we said that #if things domt work out we wanna keep being friends. and we're doing just that. honestly i saw it coming and idek if i LOVE him anymore #what even does love feel like..? regardless I'm not upset or sad at my breakup since i saw it coming and I'm honestly happy he just. Talked #to me about it. we communicated and then three minutes later went back to talking about x.enoblade LMAAOO it was fun!#but it is ridiculous for me to expect to feel NOTHING at no longer being in a relationship. i cant just feel nothing. i dont feel sad per s #just... in my thoughts i guess? I don't think the feeling of my f/os not liking me stems from me being dumped though. i think thats just me #being me sjdjaksj I'm very insecure a lot of the time. i dont think being dumped helpd very much though LMAAAOO #I'm doing okay i promise. and I'll be alright. theres just both a lot and nothing going on at the same time and i feel... idk what i feel.#i hope my f/os love me 😭 i hope that a lot #and honestly i know this community is ass and I'm more than happy in my own corner with my couple of followers but. ngl I've really felt as #though I'm not valued here and all that junk as of late. yeah just.. i think everything is happening at the same time and I'm tired and #i feel like I'm a confused kiddo who doesnt know anything anymore BAHAHAHA #holy shit it just sounds like i need a shower and a nap huh- I'll be alright I'm just. dealing with stuff akdjsks but i also hate to always #bring the mood down like this! i always try my best to be haha silly and all that shit. I'm just gonna try to daydream about f/o cuddles #(and try to convince myself they dont hate me ofc)#oh and. i know i mentioned this but. i hate the weather. so much. I'm sad all the time. November is actually my least favorite month too 😭#I've gotta study a lot today and I'll try to sneak in some k.urohyou and hopefully start watching monster too but yeah i apolgize if #I'm acting off these days ajdjajs I'm very stuck in my own mind these days. not exactly the most fun place to be 😭#delete later #i mean akdjajs i literally started crying the other day because my friend said that my husband (k.yohei) loves me ajdkahdb come on ash..

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timothyslucy · 2 years ago

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tim faking a back injury while play wrestling with lucy all so he can pop up and pin her back down to the ground and tickle her senseless, can you please imagine how cute that would be????

#*and this is icarly!#the rookie #tim bradford #lucy chen #chenford #otp: you know me so well #like...#imagine them laughing and squealing climbing rolling and hitting each other in a fit of giggles on the floor like toddlers #until tim decides to use his emergency spinal surgery to his advantage #to suddenly ✌️ pull a muscle in his back ✌️#groaning in agony again about how much it hurts #sending lucy into panic mode as she sits up and frantically scans the living room for her phone to call for help #and then while her guard is down... BAM!!! tim the sneaky lil bastard turns the tables on her and pins her down #she doesn't take him seriously about it at first but he puts on a real good show of being hurt and is like 'no i'm serious lucy'#and her face falls instantly like 'o-okay... hold on babe i'm gonna call for help' 🥺🥺#it's honestly just a one time thing he tries though since he felt super guilty about lucy's emotional reaction #and the fact that he made her tear up and cry a little bit with this silly little stunt #GODDDDD I AM SO IN MY FEELS FOR THEM TODAY I MISS THEM SO MUCH

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atlantablack · 5 months ago

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not that anybody asked but me and my 92 tabs are doing GREAT

#atlanta rambles #crying #i don't understand how this happened #and let's not even talk about the 61 baggenshield tabs i also have open #AND THE 124 OTHER FICS from various fandoms ships etc #am i well #spoiler: no #honestly a crime that i have to go to work in the morning #like pls i'm busy #do i look like i have time to do silly little things like work

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bataranqs · 7 months ago

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5 Happy Things

June 30, 2024

Sunday School today was so insanely good that we actually were still in the lesson when the sermon was ended, the kids were so great at listening and engaging in the material today I'm !!! They had SO many opinions and SO many thoughts on the material and were super eager to share all of it!!

Had a 12-year-old girl ask me where I bought my bag which I feel like is such a high compliment. Pre-teen girls know where it's at

In Joy of Life 2 how the Prime Minister doesn't have to leave Dabao behind with Fan Xian but he does out of care for Fan Xian. To protect his future son-in-law. Because he truly cares. Hnngh.

Also Joy of Life 2 because I can't help myself. How the eldest prince is asked why he likes Fan Xian and he says "because he values affection". And when asked to expand, he says "people in the capital value vanity". That he has only seen so little of Fan Xian but he understands. He knows Fan Xian's character is this kind, this loyal. HNNNGHHHHHH.

Started writing an X-Men fic and it's meant to be serious but I'm writing lines that are like "Scott is truly despicable." and I'm like okay but who can take this seriously. His name is SCOTT. It's such a comic book, American name. I don't know anyone named Scott. It's like saying "Garfield is truly despicable" like I can't stop laughing writing this out

#5 happy things #laying on the floor crying about jol2 #honestly it's just. there's a lot of uncertainty and anxiety but it's also just so chef's kiss #when wan'er says 'if he doesn't run away it means he truly loves me' with that lil giggle #and it's the shot of fan xian slowly walking back even though he could run away. even though it's just a silly lil scene #that they love each other so much!! that they know each other so well!! the care and affection and effort they give each other #though. tbh. i forgot about wan'er's older brother getting killed. haha. wow. what are we gonna do about that. that's crazy. TT

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thescreaminghat · 2 years ago

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