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kindacreepy-kindaugly · 7 months ago

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#one of His Songs™ lately #why is it that all our persecutors always end up listening to so much aesthetic perfection #stuck in our head all the time #it's. surprisingly self aware of him.#had a chuckle abt the integration bit considering his subsystem situation ngl #but mostly it's just #i thought it'd be easy to let you go #repeating on a loop #not sure if he thinks doll's left for good (he hasn't he's just tired) or....did he only now become aware just how much it affects him #he's briefly kinda sorta acknowledged it before but. not really. it was just abt whether he'd lash out should doll try to leave #not abt the way it'd affect him emotionally #n it's really strange cause he's...not angry. at least i can't feel any aggression at all. he's just umm #....not wanting me to blab abt his feelings. ok.#it feels like it could be a breakthrough but also i don't wanna get my hopes up #idk i just don't want him to hurt like this. i also don't want him to hurt me but...i'm used to it. i can take it.#he doesn't know how to cope w/ this shit #spdrvent

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lovesodeepandwideandwell · 3 months ago

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Is this a safe space to admit I've been avoiding watching Twisters because I'm scared of tornadoes

#like to be fair my last year has been bookended by two dramatic moments of trees falling #(one where a massive windstorm hit and our house was mercifully spared but one down the block was crushed #and then obv the car one)#and all the time in between has had the lowkey worry of what if a storm hits and the tree falls on our house #i saw the trailer for twisters and it seemed to hit the perfect spot of a little dumb/unrealistic where i get mad #and also a little honest/real about the fear and threat in a way that makes it too near #so i guess i believe in y'all's beliefs but i'm gonna sit this one out until a time when i have significantly less general stress in my life #ya feel #(i watched a micarah tewers video recently where she said that and it's stuck in my head)

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recurring-polynya · 6 months ago

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🌞🌺 Good Morning!🌻🌈

Did you know that Squad 4 has a huge room full of sleeping berths for handling mass casualty situations??

#you might think that sasakibe's badge is there to id him as a lieutenant so he gets the treatment he deserves even in These Trying Times*#*'These Trying Times' being that all the capt and lt's zanpakutous went apeshit and set our city on fire #but you know they just stuck him there and found his badge later and were like oh shit #probably too late to move him to one of the nice rooms now #i'll just...put this here...so people are...aware #i have accused the filler arcs of stealing beats from the main arcs for many years now #but. uh. sasakibe being grievously injured to kick of the zanpakutou rebellion arc kinda hits different now and not in a cool way :( :( :(#i bet he loved being in this sleeper compartment tho i bet he was making lil hercule poirot amvs in his head #(i don't care that he's belgian there is *no way* sasakibe doesn't love hercule poirot)

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outlying-hyppocrate · 6 months ago

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in line to the bathroom just to cry!!

#random thoughts #gender dysphoria.#felt it especially this morning when some lady from this organization that worked with our school called me christine.#CHRISTINE.#do i honestly look like a christine??#(not her fault but still.)#but she kept fucking misgendering me. i bet it was the shirt i was wearing.#normally i wear more layers so as to make my body less. shaped.#BUT I RAN OUT OF NICE ONES AND SO I HAD TO WEAR ANOTHER.#it used to be my favorite shirt but now it is not. i hate it.#either it is too small for me or i am too large for it. and either way i want to fucking stab myself because of it #augh. wanted to cry earlier. but didn't.#still sort of do when i think about it. i get misgendered often but. augh.#and the comment my mother made a while ago. about. how can i be a boy if all my friends are girls?#WELL SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU HAVE NOT MET HALF THE BOYS IN MY SCHOOL. FUCKING IDIOT DUMBASS. HAVE YOU NO COMMON SENSE #TO KNOW THAT TIMES ARE CHANGING AND WE ARE NOT STUCK IN YOUR WARPED PERCEPTION OF GENDER NORMS?? HELLO??#i hate my body so much unironically. if i could fix it somehow.#i have been trying to fix it so hard for so long but it hasn't fucking worked and it's gone in the OPPOSITE WAY. and i am RUINING MY BODY.#AND I FUCKING HATE IT.#sometimes it feels as if nothing is good. i want to shave my head again and be perpertually ugly.#i need new hair.#i need to fix everything.#please.#i have no motivation to do it but i need to do it.#i know i'm a boy. i just want to be a boy for everyone else.

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deepseawave · 4 months ago

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obsessed w the tags on ur last reblog

Omgg, thank you haha, it was a quality post so I just had to appreciate it in full force 😂❤️

Can‘t believe someone would actually enjoy my yapping :,D

#guys help is it time for a rebranding?? am I just gonna post about f1 now??#I still can’t believe this has all started because bestie and I were watching Ted Lasso (because I’ve been obsessed with that show for a #while now too) and I paused the episode to talk about how I really like the way Jamie interacts with kids (I’m sorry people being good with #and nice to kids is one of my weaknesses I work with kids now and have been invested in treating kids well forever)#so me saying that apparently reminded her of max and she showed me a video of him with p and yeah it was very effective in making me like #him and then we left the episode on pause and she told me a lot about f1 and max specifically cause I was interested now lmao (funny thing #is that she also got roped into it by our other friends I swear it’s speeding lmao #she also compared him to Jamie from Ted lasso (if you know you know) and showed me some heart wrenching Taylor swift edits (i haven’t #emotionally recovered yet) and yeah that’s how I started consuming way too much f1 content on YouTube and got into this whole mess lmao #oh yeah our friends also made me and another friend make a Tier list for all the drivers based on vibes alone (cause I only knew a bit about #max at that time and the other one knew nothing really) which was very funny too #especially looking back at it (we did some of them so dirty lmao 😂)#I’ve also come to the conclusion that tumblr is still one of the least annoying platforms to engage with other people (still)#YouTube is full of hate comments about drivers and stuff it’s so annoying actually #not to mention Twitter but I don’t go there and probably never will 😂#I personally don’t enjoy fics and scenarios and shipping of real people cause it makes me a bit uncomfy (not judging people who do #you do you as long as it doesn’t negatively affect anyone #but yeah I’d much rather just scroll by those here than have to look away from all the mindless hate and which driver is better discussions #everywhere else like I’m not one to engage with stuff like that but it does upset me to some #degree so yeah tumblr making memes and being rather positive about their drivers (most of what I’ve seen here of course there are gonna be #annoying people everywhere) is much more tolerable and a lot more enjoyable for me #whoops this post got away from me again oh dear #I’ve had the idea for a meme stuck in my head for days now: Max verstappen but make it if you don’t love me at my *swearing on team radio #giving spicy replies and attitude to the media maxplaining and complaining going for risky overtakes* you don’t deserve me at my *precious #interactions with p talking about his cats being a goofball with other drivers and especially danny defending other drivers driving #beautifully in the rain* it’s a package deal you can’t just pick and choose and personally I don’t even get why people complain about some #of the other stuff I appreciate someone who’s passionate and honest and genuinely kind where it matters 🤷🏻‍♀️#I think I’ve seen someone else say that but the more people complain about and criticize max the more I feel the need to defend him #god forbid women have hobbies for real (can’t believe I’ve yapped so much I can’t put more tags 💀)#also shoutout to Oscar Piastri and Danny Ric (I was so happy Oscar won even tho McLaren where being very silly in a not so funny way)

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twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat · 7 months ago

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Oh em gee :,( ari :,( thank you for yapping at me…………. My brain juices started flowing…….. I knew all I needed was some of your ideas…,,, and the little hamsters in my brain started running around again!!!!!!!!!!! Ik u said don’t feel bad for sending asks but…. I feel a little guilty sending another one….. but the brain hamsters started working and I can’t deprive them of spreading their little hamster ideas 😔😔 BUT ALSO??? I NEED TO TALK ABT HOW U REPLIED TO MY PREV ASK. THEM TALKING WHEN UR SLEEPING??? AND MAYBE?? YOU SECRETLY HEARING??? IM GOING INSANEEEEEEE IM LITERALLY DISINTEGRATING AS WE SPEAK :((( satoru wanting to confess bc he doesn’t want u sad over ur ex……… sugu convincing him they shouldn’t rush u…….. :( sobs… they r so special to me. imagine what would happen if u just sat up in the middle of them talking like “🤨🤨I heard all of that btw.” but like. What do you think they’d do if your ex did try getting back together with you? Either that or just trying to get back into contact ……. Just an idea :3 giggles…. N E WAYS I HOPE UR HAVING A WONDERFUL DAY SLASH NIGHT!!! MWUA MWUA TAKE CARE AND DRINK UR WATER !!!! ^_^ — stsg anon 💐 < with bouquet. For u!!! :3

STSG ANON !!!!!! i’m telling you our brains are synced…… every time ur brain juices flow mine do too……… i’m so happy your little brain hamsters r running around 🐹🐹🐹

okok first of all ….. NEVERRRRR feel guilty for sending me asks 🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫 never ever ever!!!! i love them so much!!!!! even if i’m slow at replying sometimes i promise i read them instantly and they always feed me so good!!!!!!! i should literally be paying you for these that’s how much i love them. if i catch u feeling guilty again there Will be consequences so watch out …. (ominous)…..

BUTTTT ok :3 YES . THE STSG IDEAS. i’m so happy you liked my little brainworms phdkdjj i just!!!! think it’s a tasty concept!!!!!! and PLSSS reader just sitting up and calling them out 😭😭 i KNOW they’d scream . even sugu does a little squeak bc he was so convinced you were asleep…… but goddd i think they’d actually be a little flustered <//3 our babies. once they recover satoru would be so smug tho. bc now you finally know!!! he doesn’t have to wait!!!!! and sugu is obv very happy too….

but… gahhh…… STSG ANON ………. if your ex tried getting back with you………….. ohhhh gosh. they’d be very offended . on your behalf . in a ”can you believe the audacity” way ….. but ofc they’d also be very furious and protective . like. maybe you tell them that your ex texted you wanting to meet up and they’re both INSTANTLY on guard…. ideally you’d block them ofc but if you insist on meeting them just for the sake of closure then they’re immediately convincing you to let them go with you!!!!! for scary dog priviliege . i’ll be honest i don’t think there’s much your ex could do 😭😭 bc stsg WILL be glaring at them. behind you. and if they even try to lovebomb you or blame you in any way they’re . Stopping Them . in one way or another. i think they get very very scary LMAO sugu stops smiling entirely and satoru smiles in a distinctly furious way 😭😭 ..

but ohhhh ……. if . you were the one who wanted to get back with them ….. then i think stsg would feel so helpless :’3 bc like . they can’t control you. they don’t want to. but i also think they’d rather die than have to watch you be with someone so undeserving…… so i feel like That’s when they’d confess. bc they’re so desperate . and let’s be honest who would choose a cheating ex over stsg????? no one <33333 problem solved. they’d be really terrified though…..

MWAHHHH one big kiss for you my lovely little stsg anon <33333 i’m putting the bouquet in a big beautiful vase <33333333 here r some handpicked flowers just for you :33 🌷🪻🌻🌷🪻🌻 i hope you’re taking good care of yourself too!!!! eating and drinking and sleeping lots . it’s what me and stsg want for you!!!!!! thank you as always for the food i hope u know how much i adore you <333

#protective stsg my beloveds #they both go full wolf mode i can’t lie #sugu is exploding your ex w his mind and satoru is. no thoughts head empty only scary smile :))))))#and ohhhh their desperate confession scene…… it’s stuck in my mind now stsg anon T_T it’s all your fault…. sniffle…….#it’d just be the most dramatic most tender thing ever……#reader who is so confused n frustrated…. hissing ”why do you care so much????” as they’re on their way to meet their ex :////#and stsg both just shout . ”because we love you!” at the exact same time phdodjdk I NEED THEMMMMM #also stsg anon not to feed our brain hamsters too much but… this train of thought has me thinking of . reader having trust issues…..#bc of their ex…..#and the way that spills into their relationship w stsg too :’3 bc they’re just!!! traumatized.#and stsg would be soooo understanding #sugu especially ….. toru would be a tiny bit offended i think . not at all in an assholey way he’s just sad that you’d think that of them #i think sugu is more likely to understand that it’s a direct consequence of your experiences + smth they shouldn’t take personally #satoru is very emotionally intelligent too obv i just feel like he’d feel hurt in the moment!!! bc trust is such a big deal to him :((((#anyway i’m stopping myself before i get too carried away LMAO #ily stsg anon <333 #ask tag ✩#stsg anon !! ✩

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keeps-ache · 13 days ago

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okay i'm out of evil mode. peace love and a little bit of still-tired on planet earth lol 🧃

#just me hi #slept ! ! ! was it good? hell nah kfshvg #but i slept :D #wasn't allowed to go to bed for a couple hours cuz parents wanted to play a movie. it was good but it put me in a weird headspace lmsfh #//ooou my ear's doing the Thing #you know the thing. the thing it does. loll #ever since that ant was in there that one time (dear lird) when i wake up from laying on it it'll feel like. a bit inflamed on the inside ?#and kinda itchy. not good things but it's likely not going to kill me so 💥💥#'it's likely not going to kill me' <- things i likely said while pretending i couldn't see anything for like 3-4 years #oh but yea i'm going to assume it's nothing bc i was also getting phantom feelings and sounds for some weeks that caused panic so i'm not #even going to put weight on it. it's just itchy no biggy Kfshvhf :)#//anyway i think i also had a dream but i do Not remember those well At All lol #i know the last one had oath in it though so that one was cool. don't remember much else but that was sick Lmfsh :3 #//Ohh it's rainingggg yippeeee :D <3 #don't get much snow but we'll get tons of rain... i miss you michigannnnn <//3 #//but anyway the dream thing just reminded me #so this detail may not be important but my oldest brother and i are joked to be twins. there's 2 years and at least a foot of height betwee #us (i am the short). people get our voices mixed up when we talk low and i think that's funny #we were also thick as thieves as kids. not a good thing for anybody else but Yeagh kfshvg #but there was this one time we'd both woken up and were talking abt both having had a dream the night before; giving details and such #and we had the same dream ? it's still kinda odd to this day but we had the Same Exact Dream on the same night. if not odd it's neat! :3 #anyway so somewhere in the past year my brother (apollo) got a lunar on his right index finger #i kept forgetting tho and asking if it was a blood bruise (that is my bad boss ✋) and eventually the info stuck in my head #anyway so somewhere in the past two months i also got a lunar on my right index finger. i didn't even notice it until i was tryna wash my #hands and it wouldn't come off lmaoo #now that's going on ig. the timeline-clone theory grows stronger every day Kfhsvhfgsfg #//forgot what else i was going to say i went to go look into the phrase 'thick as thieves' lol #i don't understand how someone heard 'thick' and thought 'yeah. that means close now' kfshd #anyway it's old as you've prolly guessed. the earliest spot it's popped up was a newspaper that printed a letter that was written in 1827 #but it mighta been used earlier than that. neat!

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deus-ex-mona · 9 months ago

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man. this song reminds me of physiology class

#throwback to physiology class [x] years ago when this clique sitting behind me drank a sip of water every time #our lecturer said the word ‘infarction’#they kept tricking her into saying the word which was pretty funny at the time #but that’s just what this song reminds me of with the frequency at which they say the phrase ‘white day kiss’#of all of the new album songs to get stuck in my head… it’s this and abs.#can’t stop thinking about meoto but white day kiss is looping in my mind aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #i. i think i need some sleep. but my album’s supposed to arrive within the next 2 hours and aufhhfjfjjfjrjdjdjdjdhs #5-7pm delivery is too cruel of a delivery slot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#g god i really shouldn’t have stayed up for meoto… maybe i’d have a little more sanity then…#i keep going back to my tl to look for typos and im just. wondering if this song is really real.#like. dammit. promises to stay by each other’s sides forever???? even through reincarnation too???#wh. what are the chances that we’ll get a meoto mv this week? (pls say more than 0)#i think we could all windows movie maker a 1-2 image white day kiss mv from the honeypre event illusts if we tried hard enough sooooooo #i sure hope that if any new song gets an mv this week it’ll be meoto!!!!!!!#pls lemme see them being in love all through the seasons ill c r y #ok i’ll shut up for now see you within 2 hours (maybe) when d to the h to the l finally gives me my album

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whimsycore · 1 month ago

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The way queer white people have always antagonized me and forced hostile interactions then become scared when I start meeting them with a blank face or show them I’m not going to be a doormat is crazy.

#like. at my job I’m the receptionist and I saw our custodian #I was going to log in and she was pretending to vacuum the floor #when I log in and leave she holds the door #instead of just asking me??#and her weird ass definitely was waiting for me to leave too #it’s like they force these interactions to test you #and then when I said ‘well hello to you too’ she said nothing #she then followed me into the main office and I asked for her name #and then she got shy and started looking down #so I stared at her head on the entire time she was in the room #when she eventually said her name she asked for mine and I told her ‘I’m sure you already know it but its’#like and then she kept looking up to see if I was watching her #like why are you scared now #all this because a white girl tried calling out the day an old man was stuck in an elevator #she repeatedly called the front desk and not her supervisor and she’s been lying nonstop about me being rude since #and it’s like these are nurses and janitors they don’t actually have to come and interact with me #but they force engagement and then get scared when you’re about that life #I violent hate white queers white women and black men #none of you have a backbone and are always trying to start some bullshit at your jobs

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leecherish · 1 year ago

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#so. the choir is over #the choir i was the member of since 2016 #the conductor wrote us a letter about the reasons why. and i have many complex feelings about it #most if not all of them are negative #rly the only positive thing is that if i get accepted into the uni choir (audition on the 3rd of october) i wont have to balance rehearshals #everything else is just. sadness. anger. betrayal #it really started hitting today that damn its all real like im grieving for it #a song from our repertoire got stuck in my head but i didn't remember how it went exactly so i got my folder filled with sheets out #and it just. hurt. it hurt to be turning the pages of my concert folder #it all hurts so much.#our would-be last concerts were all cancelled and we did not even know they would be the last one #i wish i could sing with them one last time #we probably will organize a meeting or smth. but right now its still very sudden and fresh and painful #sigh. if you somehow read this all: thank you #for sitting with me for a while.#txt #tbd

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lovesodeepandwideandwell · 2 months ago

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A month ago I had the passing thought that I didn't like Taylor Swift when I was younger because I was behind her eras and it was a really casual observation then but every day I find new ways it's true

#college i would say was like my speak now-fearless era. swooningly and a bit shallowly romantic and discovering my voice #reading the most into the least and building up relationships in my imagination and so on (in a good young way)#so 1989 was way too cynical for me and i didn't like her at all #but then literally age 22 i fell in love with a 30 year old who jerked me around emotionally and then abruptly cut me off #and i bobbed my hair and got very girl power dismissive of men #and then had an identity-shattering event and had to pick up the pieces and find the faithful love at the bottom #and then had a whole bit about reclaiming my femininity and happiness and letting go of anger #and then! evermore came out and i had no idea about the cultural impact i just had heard people raving about her new sound #so i listened to it on a road trip and we were on the EXACT SAME PAGE. mind opened.#legit though i did a (tame and Christian) speedrun of red-1989-reputation in like a year and 2 months. yikes #taylor swift #maybe also this is why folklore doesn't super resonate with me. just didn't match my journey #(ugh sorry i hate talking about my Journey but one of our interns says it all the time and it gets stuck in my head)

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poured-my-past-down-the-drain · 5 months ago

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She IS pretty cool from what I've heard and seen :D!!! She's very awesome, and I think that she's uhh swag :]]]

your parents are.. certainly interesting!!

WAIT YOU AREN'T INTRODUCING ME AND BOO TO YOUR MUM ARE YOU?? *nervous pacing around core*

– tubbo.

[ooc notes; tommy blogger.. I. I think you should yap in the tags more. Like NOW!!! /silly]

I MEAN I COULD 🤗🤗 do you want to meet my mum :)) do you want to meet my mum :)) do you want to meet my mum :))

It would have to be over altar unless she visits 🤔 but she isn’t a ‘give me your most sentimental possession’ type god, honest 🤗 just maybe a cup of tea or a plant :) mum likes plants.

#dsmp tommy #rp blog #I FUCKING LOVE YAPPING IN THE NOTES ‼️‼️ I yap so much down here it’s almost funny. always ooc but i love chatterboxing abt story things #going with the Parentzas being death + a haunting creature of shadows. do you know. how hilarious. it is that our Wil has no hybrid features #LIKE THATS SUCH AN UNLUCKY TICKET!!! BOY WHAT HAPPENED!!!#it’s fine Wilbur instead got the absolute dogshit mental health that comes from living with a creature that needs to remember to turn its #head and blink at the same time /j #i said Phil was LEARNING how to human not that he’s mastered it okay #logically he’s definitely been trying to be more human-y for absolute centuries prior. because people know him as angel of death/a reaper #but like. damn bro you’re STILL fucked up after all that time studying huh . no human-ify duolingo? just stuck in the uncanny valley? yiikes #i also like to imagine Kristin having piglin features (maybe from being a patron goddess piglins ask for mercy before hunts? so they don’t #die in the nether?) but that’s neither here nor there. just a way to explain techno’s pig aspects #Tom’s just outright fucked up and Odd though. boy got hit with shapeshifting and like. DREADFUL luck. literally been struck by lightning #mentions tubbo #mentions ranboo #mentions kristin #hmmmm fuck it. rest of sbi too since they’re in tags #chat’s extensions of Phil’s psyche that can pick what information to send him but that’s a separate can of worms #mentions techno #mentions wilbur #mentions phil

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phagodyke · 6 months ago

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ykw actually I am angry + disappointed w them. I've been pushing how I feel aside and trying to make it my own fault so it's all contained but I think theyve just been mean. and they really should know me better ik I try to pretend I don't expect more from them so I feel less hurt when they do things that upset me but we've been friends for years by this point. like come on.

#just got home and went to put my shit away but my flatmate was in the kitchen and i got suddenly so mad i had to walk back out #not going to do or say anything while im this upset. i need to be a lot calmer before i can even be in the same room as her #like okay. so originally it was just the two of them getting drinks and theyd rather it was just them bc i dont drink. thats cool #it wouldve been difficult for me to join them after work bc travel. and ik theyd done this before just the 2 of them and had fun #i can fully respect that its why i said no and stuck by that decision when she asked again #but to not mention she was taking the day off work and btw i just found out that BOTH of our other old flatmates joined in too #to not mention that they were travelling that entire distance and that it wasnt just drinks it was a whole day out together #thats just mean. why wouldnt you tell me that why did none of them say anything.#and the fact they did the exact same fucking thing last weekend too i didnt know about that at all #like i need to stop trying to justify it. im allowed to feel unwanted and excluded bc thats exactly what theyre doing.#im tired of feeling like other people dont want me around. i know i can be difficult and annoying sometimes. but im really not that bad #and we're meant to be friends!!!!!! like youre supposed to like your friends. and want to spend time with them. or at least i do #and yeah everyones annoying sometimes thats just part of being alive ur supposed to tolerate it if ur friends #im allowed to want to feel like im wanted. im allowed to want ppl to care abt me. that shouldnt be too much to ask for #but the overwhelming message im getting at the moment is they dont want me around. and when i am around them i feel like they dont listen #to me and that they dont really care how i feel unless it directly involves them or theyre responsible for it #i feel like they dont see me as a real person that exists. only a version they have in their heads and they base all their assumptions and #decisions off that version instead of directly communicating with me. and constantly avoid me under the guise of 'giving me space'#when im upset or having a difficult time and most need support from other people. i just feel really unseen #and ik that part of how i feel IS exacerbated by insecurity and depression. like they do care to some degree #but also a lot of it is evidenced in the way they act towards me. mainly my roommate bc shes the person i interact with most #and personally i find the most direct ways of showing u care abt someone are showing up for them. and making them feel seen #and maybe not everyone feels the same way. but thats how it works for me anyway #so to repeatedly exclude me and avoid acknowledging that ive been having a difficult time is the opposite of that to me #which is the point im trying to arrive at... sorry ik ive probably said similar things repeatedly the last few weeks but i feel like its #crystallising a bit like this is the core reason why im so sensitive and reactive atm and why i got so upset by it #idk. not tonight bc im still very emotionally raw but maybe tomorrow if im calmer i should explain that i was upset + why to her #i avoid doing that so often when im upset bc i dont think theres much point in having a conversation abt it unless u expect some kind of #resolution from it. or if you want an apology but idrc abt being apologised to the crucial thing is what theyre going to do different #and i love her but shes very resistant to changing her behaviour bc of other ppl being upset by it. and like i said before she has

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celestial-toys · 9 months ago

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been laying here listening to Lucky by Dermot Kennedy on loop for half an hour while thinking about Everything Stays and crying

#it’s good crying dw i am just. i have so many feelings about this story #Seven’s Celestial Commentary #Everything Stays #writing stuff #i may be stuck in bed struggling to type due to personal reasons but that will Not stop me from cooking up ideas for this fic #there is gonna be so much fucking angst and it’s gonna hurt soooooo good #the more i listen to it the more the possibilities expand #i can easily see Moon and Reader going back and forth between verses vulnerably arguing over Sun #but i can also see it being Sun and Moon getting real and discussingcougharguingover Reader #can’t decide which i like more #god i wish y’all could see this story the way it plays out in my head #next best thing would be to keep writing and sharing the story instead of vagueposting abt future plot points tho wouldn’t it lmao #and GOD don’t even get me fucking STARTED on Two Hearts…#Dermot Kennedy’s music is responsible for yet Another plot point for this story and i can’t even be mad about it. his fucking lyricsss dude #‘and so we jump to the THEATER??? in that SAME OLD TOWN???’ DO WE? FUCK I GUESS WE DO NOW!!!#picture me listening to that song and inspiration hitting me like a truck. diligently taking notes like the lyrics r instructions from God #‘she sees his face?? and HE sees HER as the LIGHTS GO DOWN???’ write that down write that down #‘the life that they should’ve had sat between them that night??’ FUCK Man yeah it sure did!!!#anyways it’s chill i’m chill. i’m very normal about my little stories and their musical inspirations!#and i’ve listened to these songs a very normal amount (translation: they will likely be in my top ten for the 2024 wrapped)#(cut to the scenes playing vividly in my head) ‘Well‚ at least I can always say that I /told/ her!’#‘I can’t relate to having a heart like that‚ Sun! With all of your wonder and your trust intact…’#like no i wouldn’t lift the lyrics directly for the song to use as dialogue but FUCk does it work well.. Lucky is such a good script for-#like- a heated conversation between my Relentlessly Positive Sun and my Apathetic Jaded Moon #‘How could our farewell mean as much as our time? Honey‚ I’ll be gone. It’s better if I’m something that you leave behind.’#‘I used to paint these trees‚ now I just scream at the sky. Honey I was wrong. Guess there’s certain things you never leave behind.’#*sobbing shaking throwing up clawing at the walls* I Am Normal About These Characters #anyways uh. on an unrelated note how many song lyrics do ya think i can cram into ES before it’s Too Many #gonna have to start getting creative with how i can incorporate more songs in a way that feels natural and not forced #even tho i am forcing it. i am forcing it very much bc i have songs with applicable lyrics and y’all Will read them one way or another

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rucow · 1 year ago

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pisces placements rly are the most "you'll never know how i really feel about you" sign.......... the image we show u depends entirely on *you*. on how you treat us, how trustworthy we feel that u are.... we mirror ur energy back at u. if ur superficial and don't have any sort of emotional depth, neither will we. if all u talk about are ur emotional troubles and how sad u are, we'll be there to empathise and relate to u. you wouldn't know that we actually don't even like u. water is a reflective surface after all

#u can slander geminis all u want but pisces placements are the True sneaky chameleons who dont show u whats below their surface 😭#im definitely guilty of this myself but its not rly a bad thing . its just how we are #we dont often show our true selves bc ppl cant grasp our real personality #we change too often. we're too dreamy. we aren't part of reality. and ppl don't know how to react to that #so we hide that self of ours and only show u want u want to see #we need a lot of alone time to just detach from the world. and some ppl dont like that #we can appear very detached! but it doesnt mean that we are #ppl expect too much from us when all we want is to sit quietly and be stuck in our heads all day #no we dont want to go out. we dont want to talk about politics. we dont want to know about your grades. we dont care about trivial things #tell us about ur dreams...tell us what ur favourite songs are...show us ur true artistic side (everyone has one)#if u come into my dms to ask me about school and jobs and whatnot im swimming away asap #those arent real things in my life 😭 i have no answer to give u...and i dont want to come up with lies just so you'll accept our answer #am i making any sense??? idk #ask us about our ideal world instead of the real world #we don't like the real world

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red1ight · 1 year ago

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i hate this stupid fucking job sm i want to scream but instead im just like 🙂👍🏼 no problem all good

#i feel so empty almost all of the time like i feel actually nothing and there's nothing going through my head #ive lost any sense of self or personality I might have had truly #i dont even feel like a person i just go to work do everything everyone says make my little office small talk go home that's it #and i cant fucking stand the isolation #though ik that's not just bc of the job #i literally do not give a shit about any of this i never have #i wanna quit so bad but there's literally nothing else i'm qualified to do im just stuck like this #and i hate leaving work and having it be dark out #whos idea was it to turn the clocks back during the coldest and darkest months of the year #and spend all of our daylight hours in a fucking office building i want to die

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