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angelcommunist · 3 months ago

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checking in to post that i am the best version of myself yet!!

#still on my bs sometimes #but no crazy bf #i eat well #i dont sleep around #i take care of me!!!#i blame the frontal lobe developing

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the-illustrative-interloper · 1 year ago

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Jonathan Harker’s Journal - May 28th

#ignore the bs shorthand #I wasn’t about to learn how to write in it just for one visual #a funny thing happened while I was working on this #page by page I could see my work getting faster while still staying consistent #the final page took about an hour and a half #while the first probably took like 3 hours #very encouraging for when I eventually start making more longform comics!#anyways I would apologize for how long this took except I’m proud of myself for not pushing myself into burnout like I sometimes do #I hope you enjoy the finished product #dracula daily #dracula daily art #re: dracula #jonathan harker #count dracula #comic #comic art #bonus points for anyone who can figure out which panel I went back and completely redrew before I was done

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mosstrades · 10 days ago

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im having an absolute unadulterated blast with the Ethersea prologue for many many reasons, it's beautiful and exceeds all my expectations.. but also. there's many moments here that genuinely make me go "oh god damn, these people are Americans." the Quiet Year system is a profoundly fascinating and revealing game - nothing tells you quite as much about how somebody sees the world than asking them to imagine a new one.

#customizable 'single family housing' the immediate adoption of a liberal economic system hierarchical gvt structures... and fish #especially when the whole set up is such a clear metaphor for climate change as the consequence of industrialization!#'single family housing' just rocked me so hard. that in the middle of an apocalypse we'd use resources towards that kind of individualism #and then they *do* kind of brush against that! with the idea of Community going down because of the inability to connect with neighbours!#the adventure zone #taz ethersea #mine #edit also not to understate that i do find the critique and allegory that is present to be really nice and genuinely exciting #the ending of prologue v goes SO HARD i was out of breath from the excited stimming #and i think my difficulty reading tone made me miss that the 'entrepeneur' thing was a joke? like theres still some #interesting biases at work here but maybe there's more insight than i gave it credit for. im curious about how ol' joshie's bs will develop #autistic anarchocommie netwon moments #also i wish theyd be less anxious about the brinear as a DID allegory i think it could be so interestinggg #we'll see. im really loving this show so far. taz has such a very special direct connection to my heart #i really like what theyre doing with this stuff even if sometimes i wish theyd do a lot more #the ending monologue of prologue v basically encapsulates most of the things about this that i find exciting and cool #i hope the transition to dnd will still allow them to bloom

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bunnihearted · 4 months ago

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regardless of the "learn how to be alone" dravel, being lonely actually is really bad for your mental health and can be very painful :p

#i've been doing so so bad #and i've had breakdowns frequently this past week #and i dont have friends or family or a partner or even a therapist lmao #so im alone and thus only feeling worse and worse #my mom has been in an unusual bad mood lately so i havent been able to talk to her at all #but today she asked me to go to her to the store bc she wanted me to buy smth #and on the way we watched the snails and she found them cute (she has never appreciated snails before)#and now i instantly feel a bit better and a bit more normal after only 15 min of hanging out with her #it's so easy for ppl who have family or friends or a partner to judge and criticize me #but like.... u have ppl close to u and u know nothing abt what it feels like to be in my position #it's so condescending and lacking of compassion #i dont understand your pov either but at least im not TELLING YOU directly how much i judge you #like ppl judge me so hard for feeling miserable in my loneliness... but it's easy for u to say those things #like u dont feel my despairing loneliness bc u have a fkn partner. u have fkn friends. or a fkn family. easy for u to judge me from up ther #anyway im much better at being alone than most ppl bc im still alive and im enduring the pain every day #other ppl have ppl around them 💀 only others who are all alone can understand how much it hurts #and it wont be fixed by loving yourself or loving to be alone or whatever other bs they use to criticize u ._.#being alone IS harmful to your health. there are studies on it and im not just making that shit up #i AM allowed to feel pain bc i dont have anyone #ugh esp ppl w partners who can receive physical and romantic attention.... when they judge me.....#stfu forever u have no idea how i feel 💀 and u could never know simply by having had a partner at all...#but yeah. it bothers me too bc i NEVER see someone on here and go #damn i hate this sm i gotta let them know by sending them anons or vague post abt them #like i dont get up in their faces and tell them all my judgemental or bitter or hateful thoughts abt them #even this post is only bc other ppl have taken the liberty to without my consent or having asked tell me directly how pathetic i am #how im not allowed to feel alone. how i have a victim mentality so on and so forth #i never tell other ppl things like that. even if i think them (which honestly i rarely do unless they're extremely toxic TO other ppl) i wo #say shit abt it to them.... ??? like why?#when i sometimes see like ppl have friends on here or talk abt their partners i can feel bitter and jealous #bc im surrounded by seeing things i so deeply crave but im not a humanbeing worth of those things

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shikai-the-storyteller · 2 months ago

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Finally watching the Tommy and Quackity video since I'm getting some food ready and can't look at the subtitles on Pac's stream while I'm doing that, and man :') It's nice hearing Quackity immediately say "Hey, I don't do that anymore" when Tommy tries to initiate an old sorta uncomfortable bit using "Mexican" accents (it's also nice hearing Tommy be like "yeah that felt vaguely offensive when I used to do that as a 16 year old")

#i talk #streamer talk #I don't really watch Tommy but it's nice to see that he's kinda grown up it seems #and for Quackity it's REAL nice seeing him shut that stuff down real quick #even in the past I felt bad seeing everyone joke about that #like sure Q initiated it (sometimes) and kinda made it seem like it was ok but I was always a bit :( about it #''Tommy it's been 4 years it's time to let go'' based #''I'm gonna remind you that it's been 4 years but I'm still a Mexican''#''so you wanna say sht about latinos? go ahead but I'm gonna get you in deep sht for it'' THATS MY BOYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY #NO MORE BS FROM THOSE OLD FANS!!! NO MORE ACCEPTANCE OF THOSE MICROAGGRESSIONS FROM THE OLD SMP DAYS #WE WONT HAVE IT!!!#it's nice seeing him stand up for himself #even as a bit you know?#I love Quackity #Feels like healing #Like that's being dramatic but man it's nice to see #Edit ''THIS GAY-ASS CAMFIRE'' QUACKITY???

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breadsticksandcheese · 4 months ago

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also also i had the worst depressive period of my life this year so i decided to actually go to the gp and get that sorted and jm not on therapy or anything yet bUT i did get a vit D injeftion (i was really low 😭😭😭) and i havent had an oopsy thought since!!! insane tjay i jusy had to go outside more

#bread speaks #who knew that sometimes the gp knows what hes talking anout #cause like i told him i wanted to get medicsted so i could stop thinking about offing myself #we got a blood test done #and he told me that the vit d deficiency could cause mood swings and stuff #and in my head i was like thays fucking bs #but whatever i got the injection cause like yknow it wont hurt to not be deficient in it #and like yeah damn its only been two werks and mahbr this is a good two werks or smth but i havent had problematic thoughts since??#and id been having them pretty consistenty for like 3 months #SO #yeah anyway he still thinks i need therapg #whicch real for that pop off king #but yeah i need to go back ✌🏽✌🏽

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akuma-tenshi · 6 months ago

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"you don't owe anyone anything" and "you should still be kind because the world is dark and scary and giving a little bit of kindness can help a lot" are statements that can and should coexist and i'm tired of pretending they're not

#this has been on my mind today #bc i was thinking abt how a certain youtuber (who shall not be named) really fucked with my worldview #bc i was a huge fan of her during my more impressionable years #and she kinda taught me that being nice is bs and just a tactic used to keep people quiet #which is some bullshit i'm still unlearning to this day #sometimes you should just be nice. whatever happened to treat others the way you want to be treated #sorry had to get that off my chest #if you think you know the youtuber i'm talking about please do not name her i'm trying to keep shit vague #rambling #kindness #life #positivity

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marc--chilton · 7 months ago

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(mgv) foreman not wanting to be like house but he doesn't give a fuck about him being an alpha and house an omega and he's so fr about it. "i don't care about the guy's status, i care about how he's an ass and how i personally would not like to also be an ass because of him"

#house md #an alpha being compared to an omega vs vice versa #one an insult to an alpha and the other a compliment to the omega #implying that one is better than the other #it's all bullshit and foreman clocks it #chase sometimes still will say some sexist bs like that but he's learning the little blond thing him #i love foreman man he's my fave of the og ducklings i fw him #of the second batch? kutner hands down. love that clown. thirteen also wonderful of course #mgv

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chocolate-cream-soldier · 8 days ago

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It is very exhausting to deal with mainstream mcu folks:

#wait so new rockstars talks about agathario's past and what's missing #and even quotes the article where jac schaeffer speaks about their meet-cute idea #but still he never mentions Rio as the other parent #instead theorising that it could be mephisto!!!#isn't that the same article where jac mentions that the writers room considered Rio could be Nicky's father #am I misremembering?#did he not read that part?#or does he believe that a cosmic entity like Death isn't capable of procreating?!!#is it because Death represented as female that's what the issue is?#ummwhatisgoingon what's wrong in considering this theory?#why stretch it back to that mephisto bs again?#I am so very confused #is this the video we spoke of yesterday or is this another video!#also can they pls stop with this mephisto thing...first he theorized that it's agatha who is mephistos' child #now he is saying nicky could be #both are horrific ideas to me but still fine it's his theory whatever #but it's really getting on my nerve now mcu dudes need to be more open minded and do better #especially coz I do like this channel...they have been pretty consistent and supportive #it seems like they are too attached to this comicbook character and feel the need to shoehorn him anyway possible #it's fun for a bit but then it becomes extremely irritating #anywho I have already lost my patience today once with desidudebros watching aaa and completely missing the points #and now this #I needed to vent #it really gets under my skin sometimes #I'll try to ignore it #rant mode #talking to the void #tag ramblings #personal #for ts

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megaclubdiolis · 4 months ago

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柄本佑 || 「光る君へ」 (2024) · 第二十七回「宿縁の命」

#柄本佑 #tasuku emoto #光る君へ #hikaru kimi e #1x27 #made by me #fujiwara no michinaga #藤原道長 #okay first of all finally someone called out michinaga's bs #that the waka thing was all about vanity #way to go sanesuke #the way his face glowed up but tried his best to keep it cool & act reluctant when haruaki suggested 1 emperor 2 empresses #oh my god michinaga just say you want it #only with the mahiro part that he's still somehow saburo😢#but idk I'm not sure about the way Oishi sensei -- I dont even know how to put it into words #I think it really is the tackiest way of connecting these two together #sometimes I watch this show and certain parts make me feel like that she lives in a like Y2K east asian idol drama time-capsule #I feel a little bad for nobutaka - not that I feel I get to judge mahiro for that #certain humor in this ep is so crazy and genji like emon misunderstood Tomoko #and complained that it's too much to teach Akiko to moan during sex with tenno. omg ijbol so hard🤣#anyway artistically I love a bi-color episode #Tasuku's getting so friggin' THIN in the past few episodes #he did michinaga justice but I hope he takes care of himself

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rayclubs · 10 months ago

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I guess I'm gonna have to come to terms with the fact that I'm not that much into TF2 anymore. I mean, I still like it fine, but I probably won't finish any WIPs or write any new stuff anytime soon. New interests so far are The Mechs and - in a vague undefined way - horror, but they're not, like, hyperfixations or anything. I guess I don't really have a strong interest right now. Would be nice to find one.

#sucks because I found all my friends through TF2 and they have all been into TF2 for years and still are #while I got into it maybe something over a year ago? and poof! gone #it's probably tangentially related to my shitty job sucking every positive emotion out of my life #but also sometimes people burn out and often i am people #ray's bs #i don't even know. i want to like something. really like something yknow?

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neutron-stars-collision · 2 months ago

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I just think it's incredibly unfair that those worst days and experiences are as unforgettable as the best moments of your life. If not more

#it's mostly about how I can still remember grandpa's death and that whole day hour by hour despite the 8 years that have passed #and sometimes I wish I didn't #because it was bad and it definitely left a mark #and I still can't talk about it without breaking #and it's the same with when my dog passed away in 2020 #I wish it would just fade so I didn't have to relieve it like this #pointlessly because it's happened and I can't change a thing about it #I don't know #just feeling melancholic #to the max since there are tears streaming down my face at this very moment #I should probably go to sleep #personal bs

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shikai-the-storyteller · 19 days ago

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#i talk #Sometimes I think I need to get my temper under control then I remind myself that no. I am always justified #That being said I did have to find an appropriate ''haha funny meme'' picture #because voicing what I would LIKE to say would get me put on a watchlist #[Monotone voice] At Least This Application Was Upfront About The AI BS #and it did let me opt out #but I still hate them. Perish #AI can be useful but ITS LITERALLY BEEN SHOWN TO HAVE BIAS AGAINST CERTAIN JOB APPLICANTS!!!!! IT ISNT UNBIASED!!!!!!!#IM LITERALLY APPLYING TO A THING TO HELP FOLKS WHO ARE HURT BY THIS!!!!!!#DO YOU NOT SEE THE IRONY!!!!!!!#Anyways L to all the recruiters. If I couldn't be bothered to read something I'd at least do Ctrl + F #And I WAS a recruiter at one point but I Did My Damn Job #And Read The Damn Applications #job talk

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bibleofficial · 5 months ago

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saw a starfish on the beach today & was absolutely ENAMOURED - literally 3 of us were just squatting over this tide pool watching him move

#stream #omg i just remembered i was the last 1 to change / shower & i had just walked back from the cold ass shower thing to rinse off the salt &#punya came over & he was like ‘brother …’ & i was like what ? & he went 😏🫴#& i asked what do u want me to give u ?? ‘a cigarette u motherfucker’ ‘u know what i would love 1 TOO bitch but GUESS who smoked them ALL b #it WASNT ME !!!’ 😭😭😭😭 AKSJAKSKAKSKKSKSKAKSLSKSL #& NOW I DONT EVEN HAVE A VAPE BC OF THE FREAK BRIT THAT JUST WALKED OFF W IT #i’m still not upset abt it i’m more so just bewildered ? just shocked ? like i didn’t even care to try to get it back i was just like ok ?#i’m still shocked by it bc it’s just so #COMICAL ? LIKE ??? 😭😭😭😭 did neither of us speak english like 2 entirely different messages weren’t sent #LIKE ITS NOT A DISPOSABLE THIS IS A RECHARGABLE REFILLABLE VAPE #it was just 20£ & getting 2 disposables are also 20£ from the off license & i used literally like 80 ? 100ml ? in it ? so saved money #regardless but i did buy a pack of pods but 1 of the 3 that i used didn’t end up working & that was the third on it excluding the original #battery & those are 10£/pack so 30£ overall for what would equivalently be like idk probably around 10 of those 5k off license vapes which #would yea be 120quid so including the price of the vials themselves it’s 3-for-10£ used 5 #so that’s 50£ bs 120£ even w the cost of a new device say + 30 that’s still only 3/4 of the price of what it would be using dispos which ar #cheaper than cigarettes REGARLESS #even the 30/120 that’s still u know literally a quarter of the cost it’s just a bigger upfront cost but it’s significantly cheaper long ter #STILL SAVING MONEY …. i say as if addiction isn’t inherently a waste of money but u see to that argument i budget it like food bc that’s ho #addiction works it’s just going to continue & ur going to include it in the budget as if it’s a PHYSICAL NECESSITY TO LIVE #to be fair sometimes it is lol like bro i couldn’t stop drinking w/o being in a hospital bc alcohol withdrawls can literally kill u #like my blood pressure was over 180 at 1 point when i was detoxing in hospital 😭😭😭😭😭#SCREAM #anyway #forget that #happy new year 2024.5 😍😍😍#my new year starts now fuck u the first half was just warm up #could i stop smoking if i wanted to ? yes ! will i ? absolutely fucking not !#IM ALLOWED THIS AS A TREAT #THAT I INHALE LIKE OXYGEN: CONSTANTLY

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crowcryptid · 1 year ago

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Me realizing I unintentionally made the game harder because I didn’t know you could sell your weapons and parts for a 100% refund and you aren’t expected to hoard your money to buy a single body part

Yeah I saw the sell option but I assumed it would be like 75% refund. Assumptions are dangerous

Anyway. Game is fun I am having a good time but it’s almost 2 AM so goodnight

#I just beat the sea spider #the spider felt kind of bs though. sometimes it basically did nothing and other times it was spamming lasers #cause the times it did attack me I would die about 20 seconds into the second phase #it didn’t feel like I beat it because I did good it felt like I just got lucky that it barely attacked me??#despite the unintentional self imposed challenge I am still not struggling #which. idk if it will get harder #still a little scared but less so #anyway I will be trying actual builds tomorrow instead of just swapping my gun cause I was broke lol #crow plays armored core

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feisaru · 1 year ago

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