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Playing Computer Surgeon
I apologize for any lack of updates or of activity. This week has been stressful, and let's just leave it like that because I tend to ramble too much about my grievances when I shouldn't do it in front of others.
For a little blessing, the new heart for the computer arrived:
I'm very grateful that my friend went on a limb to buy me the replacement and pay the shipping expenses. If you didn't know yet, the PSU of the computer started to fail in the past two months and giving less and less juice to the components, to the point of disabling the stylus detection of my tablet or not letting me to play any games without the computer blaring fans and overheating like I could cook an egg on top of it. Heck, even playing YouTube videos puts the fans on a fritz.
So... it's time to play surgeon and replace the heart of this old NEO (yeah, I call my computer NEO by no reason apparently <coff coff coff>) with a brand new one with some odd but cool LEDs. I'm a bit scared though because it's been aeons since I fiddled with computer components and I fear that I'm going to break something irreparably and then I'll be cooked because I need the computer to work. But if I don't replace it, NEO will die regardless so... I installed Tumblr on my phone so that I can at least post an update if everything goes south.
And if it goes well, I hope this new PSU will give juice to revive the tablet. If the tablet is still not working after all of this... Well, as Sears would say "Never try to heal the wound before getting it on yourself". I'll go and just channel my inner Spam engineer and just do it. Doing nothing would be far worse anyway.
<goes to make password backups on paper and unplug everything>
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Dc x Dp Prompt #6
āIām a twinā, Damian said one night. He could feel the narrowed eyes of his family drilling holes on his back in disbelief. Not that he could blame them. Damian had never so much as implied being raised with a companion, much less a sibling.
āI had a brotherā. Damian paused to recollect himself. He had not said his brotherās name out loud in over 8 years.
āHis name wasā¦ Danyalā. Damian hated the way his voice wavered, but he could not help it. Danyal was everything to him, his other half. Their heart beat as one and when one heart stopped beating, the other one died with it. At least until his family put his heart on metaphorical life support without ever realizing.
āWhere is he now?ā His father asked, voice filled with knowing grief and a hint of betrayal. It had in fact been 6 years since Damian first showed up on his doorstep.
āUp thereā. All eyes shifted towards the specific star he was pointing to. āRight before he died, he promised me heād guide me from the stars. Unfortunately, the stars are not visible in Gotham, so my brother is unable to be of much help unless I leave the city.ā
āYour brother is Polaris, the North Star?ā Tim questioned warily, most likely in attempts to not offend him. Damian was aware of how stupid it sounded, but Danyal had promised, and his brother never broke his promises.
āYes. Danyal is with the stars now, just as he always wantedā
#dc x dp#dp x dc#dpxdc fanfic#dc x dp prompt#dp x dc prompt#dc x dp crossover#dp x dc crossover#ghost king danny#demon twin au#danyal al ghul#batpham#they are not in Gotham at the time of this conversation#Iām thinking theyāre visiting the Kentās on their farm but tbh as long as the stars are visible it can be anywhere#Danny did in fact reincarnate as Polaris#sort of#Polaris is more of a title the Realms gave him the day he was crowned#he is the star meant to guide them through a new era#or something like that#But Damian does look up at the stars for guidance whenever he sees them#and before he knows it heās accidentally begun praying to Danny#itās his coping mechanism for being unable to speak about him to anyone#but back to Danny - he regained the memories of his time as Danyal Al Ghul when he died in that portal and became a halfa#well it was more he regained the memories of ALL his previous lives but his most recent one holds a special place in his heart#if only because he knows his brother is still alive on whatever earth he was born on#as bad as it sounds Danny canāt wait until he gets to reunite with Damian#he hopes Damian forgives him for not guiding him though#fun fact! Danny was once known as the god Dan-El in one of his previous lives#heās ALSO the reincarnation of the Greek Titan Astraeus (and heās pretty sure Dani is his daughter Astraea)#his previous lives are all so interesting (he still canāt believe he was raised an assassin or that he was a god in multiple lives)#but in all honesty āitās even weirder feeling so old and so young at the same time
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I love the "existential dread of discovering you, your family/friends, and anything else you consider 'life', were created only for entertainment of someone else" topic in media!
Though with WH, we're not sure what Eddie's behavior is after making his 'discovery', I think it'd be interesting if we saw him tread that territory, maybe even confront Wally about it?
Reference photos below!
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#welcome home#eddie dear#wally darling#the amazing digital circus#pomni#gummigoo#wh eddie#wh wally#welcome home arg#welcome home fanart#welcome home puppet show#tadc pomni#tadc gummigoo#tadc#tadc fanart#making big assumptions w/what'll happen in WH in the future#but i liked the idea enough#at least this scene sort of had me thinking about how the wh characters would react to figuring out they are puppets#npcs...puppets....not being considered āaliveā by our standards.....you know?#also as you can tell i got lazy with the last photo...but i still wanted to finish it....the struggle
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reunion
#In my head cosmo is alive and sonic X season 4 is real#Tailsmo my beloved#They deserve to be happy together :(#Also tried to look like sort of a screenshot kinda vibes!#Donāt think i quite captured it butā¦ still looks pretty lol#Did some diff lineart than what i usually do here#sonic the hedgehog#sth#sth series#sonic series#sonic#cosmo sonic x#Sonic X#tailsmo#cosmo the seedrian#tails the fox#miles tails prower#sth tails
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Prompt 149
Danny is not the ghost king. In fact, heās never going to be the ghost king.ļæ½ļæ½
However, that doesnāt stop him from getting summoned, which is stressful. First of all, he has school to deal with, second of all, heās just a lil baby ghost so shouldnāt even be able to be summoned, and three, his new ghost-dad gets aā¦ tiny bit upset. Not at him, but he can only talk him out of destroying a world thanks to some idiot-cults so many times before thereās the temptation to let him do so.Ā
#DCxDP#DPxDC#prompts#Pariah adopts Danny#Stops his plans to take over the world by the ghost equivalent of a tiny baby holding ur finger for the first time ever#Aka new halfa child came at him swinging and thatās utterly Adorable#To Pariah heās just a lil guy- a lil baby boi#And since heās still half alive he Supposes the city needs to still exist in the living world#Heās just going to hold the lil child in his hands and marvel while Danny tries to gnaw a finger off#Fright Knight is his official babysitter & now lives in his shadow half the time#The crown only transfers through a mutual battle/challenge#Which didnāt exactly happen#Vlad is technically also a ghost-child & gets sent to a medical foster-home until his obsession-sickness is fixed#no one bothered stopping the cult because the summoning hasnāt worked for hundreds of millenia#They now regret this#if wanted could also be marvel#dp x marvel#or really any sort of crossover#if there's magic or summoning it works lol
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original thief series basso & garrett :)
ngl, it's about quality over quantity for me. an npc can have a total of three minutes of screen time, but if they have a cool name, they can live rent free in my head and I'll spend several hours trying to decipher drawable features from a blurry screenshot of pixels
there is a vague hint of a story here, and that's because every time I try to play thi4f, I get incredibly frustrated with how Not Fun the game play is. like, is the story good? well. but it has a PLAGUE. that should've given it instant 'I'll replay this once a year' status in my heart, but the game play sucks so bad that I've never finished it. I can't believe Not Fun gameplay beat out my obsession with narrative plagues.
anyway, the idea is basically if the original era had a game with a plague centric narrative and some other stuff I liked out of thi4f thrown into a narrative blender, with a heavy dash of horror thrown in because some parts of the thief games were scarier to me than entire dedicated horror genre games.
ā places Iām at! bskyĀ / pixiv / pillowfort /cohost /Ā cara.app
#if i had a laptop and the skillset i would attempt a story mod because the thief modders who create whole mission stories#are GENIUS and also somewhat terrifying. love them! xoxox#anyway im actually kind of obsessed with parts of thi4f but its also like. not at that sweet spot of almost good enough to be fun#to talk about. which. for the record. has not stopped me from talking about it at length to people#the city itself actually fucking fascinates me. its almost alive and im SO mad that not a single part of that game is actually terrifying#it should be gnarlier and instead it feels a bit like it doesn't quite want to be trapped in the story it has to tell?#but between the level that has the bodies on the meathooks#and the scene with the bodies hanging from the rafters or whatever that was and garrett living in a clock tower#because the game is very much ALMOST about changing times and authoritarian violence and capitalism#(like. by virtue of how the story sort of spins out i think it misses it's mark on a lot of stuff here#in the sense that i dont feel like it actually wants to tell that story. it wants to. go in a different direction. or at least walk on top#of those themes instead of through it)#ANYWAY between all of those things. it does kind of live in my head rent free. they did create a compelling setting#SHAME THEY DIDNT WANT TO ACTUALLY EAT ANY OF IT#unrelated but i would've given thi4f a 10/10 if they kept garrett's fucking nail polish from the concept art. cowards. unforgivable#thief the dark project#i still have no idea how to tag the game series as a whole RIP#sorry for the dedicated dark project fans. if you know what the general series tag is. please let me know#garrett thief#basso thief
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Wedding Honami I drew for a fantasy collab on ig! Competely forgot to post this here lol
#anyways jumpscare i am alive#rejoice my 5 tumblr fans#today is a great day#or night#currently going thru some sort of art block??#so uh enjoy the food you might not get anythign for a while#unless i find more art i havent posted#this is still one of my fav pieces...wedding hona is soooo#and i love the watercolor brush#ive lost my csp priviledges for the time being so who knows if ill be able to replicate this style but lets see#anyways enough yapping#time for tags#rosiedraws#project sekai#prsk#prsk fanart#honami#honami mochizuki#mochizuki honami#l/n honami#leo/need
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you don't get it. she loved him once. she didn't have a maester, she had a brother. he sold their mother's crown to keep them fed. he said Dany, please. she loved him, once.
#I feel like the tragedy of viserys and dany is they really might have been close and loved each other normally of they'd been allowed to#barristan says viserys always seemed aerys's son but when has westeros had any sort of developed understanding of mental illness#dany knew him best and she said the last kindness left him when he sold their mother's crown#it begs the question how much kindness there would have been if they hadn't been children forced out on the streets#a brother dany says never forgave her for their mother's death giving her birth.#but who told her stories and brought her up while his own mental faculties were wearing thin#it doesn't feel like tywin keeping tyrion based on lannister name and blood alone#she loved him once.#that viserys had some inherent lecherous evil in him doesn't feel in line with that to me#it doesn't feel in line with dany please#if ned is the good guardian to tywin's bad one viserys was just a boy who found himself in that role under the worst possible circumstances#and who under duress of those awful circumstances and his own undiagnosed mental illness#(for which he never got any help or support)#failed his sister very very badly#leaving daenerys to feel the hole of his absence even when he was still alive#because she loved him. once#lol anyway!#asoiaf#daenerys targaryen#viserys targaryen
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do you consider your self made?
#my art#self portrait of sorts#been musing a lot on disability recently and how being relatively freshly unable to do Most Things has changed my perspective on things#for a long time growing up i was fixated on the idea of being An Impact On The World yknow? mainly the next Big Writer#(and that it would be sooo impressive that everyone would make my books bestsellers when i was only 12 because it was That Good)#and i mean. obviously that didnt work out as originally planned because i was 12 and learning. but I've felt a lot like#I've kind of built my sense of self on those big achievements. even if they were only big to me. and a lot of them#are now out of reach or very difficult to reach. and it's been a lot to. recontextualize#to take what ive been told my whole life and ignore it in favor of just being being enough.#things will happen as they happen. i havent earned anything by suffering but it hasnt ended the world either#im here doing what i Can do for as long as I'm able to do it. and thats all i need to be for now#just making sure that i Do do the things i can do rather than assume i can do them later#anyways. love you#cw:#top nudity#artistic nudity#the dreaded ambiguously presenting nipple#if you put any pro weight loss eating disorder shit on here ill kill you btw#my body is sexy because im in it and im still alive. not because its struggling to stay that way#lindwormposting
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I feel like I've seen a lot of "Empress Padme" or "Sith Padme" stories where Padme's gets pushed to a breaking point and becomes evil or convinces herself into doing evil things in the name of justice, and while that's all entirely valid, I feel like I need more Empress SATINE stories.
Because Satine is, canonically, someone who is absolutely willing to go for torture and wrongful imprisonment when pushed far enough. She is someone who will performatively destroy things just to prove that she's "against corruption." Satine is someone who will see the consequences of her own choices happen and refuse to take an ounce of responsibility for it.
So I can absolutely see Satine becoming a violent tyrant while convincing herself and telling everyone else that she's just getting rid of corruption, she's just doing what has to be done. She will purify the world and anyone who tries to get in her way is just part of that corruption and will be eliminated.
Like maybe this is in an AU where she doesn't die during the attack by Maul and Death Watch, she manages to survive, but then she lives through the rise of the Empire and instead of being deposed by Gar Saxon, she fights back and fights back hard enough that Mandalore gets glassed early. And that pushes her to a breaking point because she REFUSES to let her people just... scatter, she WILL hold them together if it's the last thing she does, and she WILL get vengeance on the Empire for what it's done to Mandalore.
And poor sweet pacifist Duchess Satine just spirals further and further into her own darkness, convinced that she's just doing what she has to, swearing that it's necessary in the name of justice. But if her own people start questioning her, if they try to stop her, well they're probably spies for the Empire and she's promised to take out the Empire as vengeance for what was lost.
#star wars#satine kryze#satine critical#satine kryze critical#empress satine au#bo-katan is probably her general or her advisor or both#bo-katan is standing behind her telling her that their father would finally be proud of her for living up to the family name#and like at least obi-wan probably has no idea that the woman he had feelings for is turning into a monster just like anakin did#because obi-wan is off being a hermit on tatooine at this point#but man maybe after the events of the kenobi show he starts hearing news from beyond tatooine#and news of mandalore starts reaching him and he thinks it's just slander#but he has some sort of communication with bail at one point and asks about it and... it's true#and now he has to live with the knowledge that both anakin and satine became the things they swore to destroy#and now even if satine is technically still alive there's yet another person he has to mourn as if they were dead
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fairest of the fair
#hi! im alive and back and etc.#six the musical#six the musical fanart#katherine howard#thinking of that post going 'i think eventually you become the person you needed most' and like maybe that's the thing with my art#this started out as a redraw and <improvement meme> i think i've finally reached the stage where i'm making the things that my younger self#aspired to create. like i can do this now! i've reached That level of technical skill! tiny me would be so proud. it's very gratifying#redraw from august this year actually. i've made a surprising amount of improvement HAHA maybe it was the adamandi stuff getting me#back into digital rendering. i think that obsession has quietly slipped away but yknow. one never truly leaves a fandom. just less intensit#also speaking of old fandoms! we're back with the six stuff haha. as of writing i'm in the midst of blog revamp- figuring out how to chill#multifandom status doesn't mean ditch all the old stuff ! but i do feel much freer and less stressed. i think hiatus has been good for me#notes on this piece particularly: redraw about cutting hair and thinking of the lyric above. also lowkey &j ref + pinterest poem excerpts#of female suffering. and maybe a dash of amanda heng let's walk inspo. this work is really just full of contradictions..#1. the mirror and cutting hair as an act of self liberation 2. the & is part of the lyric but also a nod to &j (in another iteration it was#pink but the white looked better) and like. &j is really all !!! girl power!!! etc. and i was like hmmmm. also matching pink shiny aes#3. the frame as a cage; the mirror as a self reflection idea (ie. saville's propped insp) but also as a sign of vanity. 4. sparkly costume#and pretty pose- read one too many poems about women feeling like they have to be pretty even in their suffering. something i wanted to#explore. and also in 5. the show itself... all you wanna do is. despite all the dancing and pink and sparkly the content of the song is#darker. and even though it's a story of her suffering it's still presented as a shiny fun pop song and ajshdhfhfh ok... 6. the lyrics fall#outside the frame. sort of a caught inbetween. sort of a trapped in the narrative and yet#within the frame it's all. vaguely handwavy breaking free vibes. like i said contradictions?#7. cutting off the long ponytail vs the pull my hair lyric at the end. yeah#8. the blocked off & looks a bit like scissors. positioned to cut right at the neck#anyways yeah irl remains hectic! but if i get around to more doodles they'll appear here :)
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Been thinking a lot about Oda choosing Queen of Night as Law's image flower.
Like. Isn't that really important? In a story heavily featuring sun symbolism, MC with an image flower called Sun-facer, being assigned with "Beauty under Moonlight" is a dead giveaway that the author considers his role to be complimentary to the protagonist, an alternate source of light that takes its light from the sun.
A lot of Japanese fans think the last bit of vegapunk's message, "Those of you who are toyed by that fate, I hope this message reaches you" - was directed at Law's plot. There's no other D who is currently alive and interested in their "checkered fate" other than Law. Dawn and Dusk shared an interesting observation about Law's family being the only family of D's confirmed to originate from the opposite side of the red line (x). Then there's the hidden family name, and a five billion berry devil fruit ability. The groundwork has been laid out and none of these have been properly explained yet, there's no way Law wouldn't be important to the endgame plot.
#I'm still onboard my theory that Law's ancestors didn't belong to the ancient kingdom#but they embraced their will and passed it down in own bloodline - perhaps to fulfill some sort of duty#the knowledge is lost in law's generation but he's being 'guided' and 'kept alive'#it's all probably a red flag but let's stay hopeful#even though losing his hat was Hella ominous#BUT LET'S STAY HOPEFUL#one piece#one piece meta#1 am feels#it's not 1 am tho#trafalgar law#trafalgar d. water law#monkey d. luffy#mine
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ā¦but you forced me to be bad, so now i gonna be bad.
#hlvrai#is this fandom still alive#i miss you guys. please be my friend#half live vr ai#half live vr but the ai is self aware#benrey#benry#gordon feetman#gordon freeman#half life vr#frenrey#sort of?#hlvrai art#hlvrai anniversary#belated though#fanart#artists on tumblr#the skeletons#spooky
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Oh my gosh Isaac Newton!!! My boy Isaac Newton committing atrocities against God and nature!! Youāre doing amazing Isaac!!!
#and Robert Hooke and Robert Boyle!!! blorbos from my degree!!!#wow this episode was *so much*. so many things to think about holy shit#weāve known that alchemy had something to do with all this but we got some important confirmation#and the protocol is something people *do*? to contain menaces? to contain this ādreadā?#a sort of total reset bomb? a ground-zero weapon?#is the OIAR just the modern version of Hooke and Boyle?#Sam finally figured out the computers are listening to them!!! well done!!#and COLIN IS STILL ALIVE omg what a revelation!!! heās trying to protect himself the poor man#afraid youāre in too deep Colin my boy#and all that stuff with gwen and lena???#thereās too much to talk about Iāll need like two to three weeks to process this#the magnus protocol#tmagp#tmagp spoilers#tmagp 19
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little nanago / gonana ship chart! (Original template by goomyloid)
#nanago#nanami kento#satoru gojo#kento nanami#gojo satoru#jjk#howl draws#ummm hi i'm still alive#SORT OF.
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Prompt 171
Danny would like everyone to know it was a complete accident. Look, normally he was really good at not altering the timeline! He was!Ā
But the dude was definitely not in the right Time, and he had to get his trust which took so long, like damn he thought he had anxiety. Seriously though, kevlar in the 1700s? Yeah that wasnāt right, and Peepaw always complained about the messes that the speedsters caused, so he was trying to prevent a mess by tugging the dude away and helping him out.Ā
Falling in love maybe a little, was not in the plan. But honestly the man had a worse sense of self preservation than he did as a teen and was also straight up adorable, in a wet catĀ who could kill you sort of way.Ā
So maybe he helped the dude grab a child that was going to be drowned. It wasnāt like anyone else saw them! Even if similar situations mightāve happened a few different times.Ā
Still, no one saw them!Ā
So why is there now a small cult who worships the Shadowed one and Radiant one, aka his companion (who would not give his name save for B, which, fair, probably didnāt want to accidentally wreck the timeline either) and well, him?! At least they worship them as guardians of children, but uh. Should he maybe, perhaps, fix thisā¦?Ā
#dcxdp#dpxdc#prompts#Spirit Halloween#Danny is in fact an Adult in this#He helps CW out with time stuff & getting stuff that fell through natural portals back to the Zone#Does Danny ever mention his affection for Bruce during their travels together? No.#Was it obvious to literally everyone else who was not Bruce? Yes#Danny is inwardly dying while learning about the cult he accidentally made because they decided that the Radiant One & Shadowed One are lov#Tim has a way easier time proving Bruce is in the past when he stumbles across one of the organizationās meetings#The cult-isnāt-exactly-a-cult and more like a minor religion focusing on the protection of children#Bruce is going to have a headache when he gets back to modern day#Hey he at least still has that cloak of shadows that his travelling companion (Call me D then.) gave him to help hide his not time appropri#League: Batman is dead#RR barging in: Batman is alive & in the past & definitely met some sort of higher being or spirit or something#League: Who the fuck are you-
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