#sti speaks

[littlesistersti]

As a fandom and/or roleplay blog? As a Quotev veteran

I think it’s the fact I used to be super rampant on Quotev as a role player or fanfic writer/reader and everything consumed. Unfortunately, recent Q updates no longer provide any of its classic charms anymore.

No more “feed” where you can see everybody you follow in one scrolling, sometimes see half of a conversation because someone decided to openly chat with a mate in the feed instead of under one post/feed post/comment or PMs. We use pm. Activity is the proper place for the feed, and while it’s still available, you would have to crawl into people’s profile to access it, unless they private it.

Also there used to be a separate bar in the side menu to access the feed. I don’t remember which year when two bars got switched. “Anybody here still pressing the Home button?” I think someone said. I think it was the Home button. I don’t remember the names anymore :(

No more PMs too. Yeah, they remove Messages.

No more Groups. Imagine removing the feed, the pm, and the group, which are all places where you can roleplay as a group or with a partner. Roleplaying pretty much died or became a closed practice or something.

The long and short of it, Quotev used to be a social circle and a nice spot to hangout, but now it’s exclusively a site for books and quizzes. They really said no playtime.

What’s worse, Quotev removed their home screen banner. It used to be a blurred out royalty-free photo (I stumbled upon it on Unsplash woohoo — Photo by Clem Onojeghuo on Unsplash) but now it’s a boring blank slate of blue-grey.

I still itch for rambling and small-scale roleplay (no partner or party necessary) and fun chain games (the sort that goes “add a band, pass it on”) that you might find in the feed or profile About and all the stuff that made Q fun. I think some of the Q exclusive gifs are gone, except maybe the after dark gif.

So I guess to satiate my itch, I’ll just start some random posts here where I ramble about my muse, Lillesøster Sti or Stine Køhler, the younger sister of Hetalia Denmark. She had half a life on Q, but not like it’s canon or anything. It was meant to be for fun and plus, I was a teenager back then. Don’t take this as me moving, it’s just me having a sequel provided by a different distributor. Like how Doctor Who got some content on Di$ney p|us. Same producer, same boss.

Don’t mind the other posts I queued though.

Ps. I never encountered a Quotev crash so no, I do not deserve a “I survived the Quotev crash of (date)” badge. Thought it’d fit the mood though

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fr @tainbocuailnge

I know the Sanders Sides fandom is supposed to be wholesome and means well but sometimes ... Roman gets this treatment

ah yes, I understand he can be filed under the jock bubble when standing next to Logan

okay - let me tell you, Roman may act before thinking, but that's not "dumbass." He may have his "not smart" moments but like, everybody does. It depends on your field. Logan may be the smartest one in the room because he's Logic but don't forget, he gets out of touch with slang and makes an effort to learn what he doesn't know. Roman has a strong skillset in the creatives as well as typical fairytale prince stuff like slaying the dragon witch. He definitely knows how to test swords for weight and method (does it stab? does it slash? what direction of slashing?) & if the enemy is the type you should aim for the head or aim for the heart & how to rhyme the word orange or purple & how to adjust his spec for the different producer(s) he's selling himself to.

Roman gets carried away and yeah that's the point of him as the aspirations, creativity, and dreams of the Sides. Yet it does make sense. ex, big castle = prince big dream = regular person's big dream is having your own living space

His set back is not "dumbass," it's his traditional prince values, his biases, and/or his pride

I guess Patton gets this too but I see Roman more > and Patton somehow gets away with parental wisdom in fan media.

Hulk in Marvel cartoons get this treatment too. He's always the "brawns and no brain" because comedy and I think the only cartoon ver of him where he is as smart as human Bruce off the top of my head is Avengers: Earth's Mightiest Heroes (to be fair, that cartoon strongly follows the comics). Thor is in the same boat.

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[at time of writing this] We weren't one month out of Across the Spiderverse, and I had just got home from the cinema, searched through the tag for Pavitr Prabhakar only to find really cool fanart and character analysis or memes and incorrect quotes reducing him down to either uwu soft boi or British hating uwu soft boi.

Also hate seeing MCU Peter Parker reduced down to uwu soft boi who can't tie his own shoes and needs dad Tony Stark 24/7. Did you not see Peter expressing typical teenager "I'm not a baby" feelings when he saw Tony named his things "training wheels" and stuff like that? Did you all forget he's also theeee Peter Parker Spider-Man, as in some kind-hearted kid from Queens who's brilliant in STEM with a strong attachment to his family/friends?

Reason why I never go through Pavitr tag or mcu peter parker.

I wish I can cover Transformers but I haven't read MTMTE

Hetalia is a wild one as a veteran. Romano Italy is always the guy to curse and if your fanfic is rated T or M for swearing or violence, guess who is the culprit? Did all of you forget England is more likely to curse than Romano because he's British? Forgot that Molossia's first appearance is a middle finger taking half of a panel? Romano is so flat, and he's not even violent. He would hurl a few complaints and insults but leaves it at that because he's more likely to cry drama queen style or begrudgingly ask for help after failling 100x.

Unfortunately, the opposite hurts more. Uwu soft boi edition of Romano where he's so afraid of violence, he must ask Spain for help?

I cried on the inside when someone shared an angry rooster video (and there is no Hetalia context, it's just a rooster angry) and wrote "romano bird" above the link, on a hetalia facebook group.

Really hate the design of fanon 2p! England. You all really think a second palette version of this absolutely invincible gentleman wears bright pink and a turquoise bowtie as the offset to the green uniform? Think about it. 2p! Nyo! England is the opposite palette to Nyo! England (one wears pink, the other blue, both wear a dress) and in the same pattern, 2p! North Italy is the opposite to 1p! North Italy (they wear same uniform but blue/brown). Did it not occur to you that 2p! England would be based off the green?????

i have something to say 

[littlesistersti]

To Fans of Nyo!Belarus...

To any of you who named him “Arlovskaya”, do you know how surnames work in Russian-speaking countries? Also, did you read the kitawiki? It never said “Arlovskaya”, it said “Arlofsky” or “Arlovski”. Although, Arlovski is a real person, and I’m pretty sure Natasha’s surname isn’t Arlofskaya with an f. 

Can any Russians and Belarusians confirm if Natalya/Natallia is still relevant? Is it an outdated name or still going? I feel most of the characters have old people name.

Update: Wikipedia said the Belarusian spelling is feminine “Арлоўская” (Arlouskaya, Arloŭskaja, Arlowskaya) or masculine “Арлоўскі” (Arloŭski, Arlowski) but I know every Belarusians will write however they think is correct, because we all think differently according to the language we understand. You know that internet meme what language do bilinguals/polyglots think in? The better question is what language rules do they think in? Example, came across a name on a social media handle “Bitl” and I thought “wait, I thought your name is Zhuk?” Turns out, Zhuk means beatle. (Edit: I mispelt beetle)

PS. Why did people name Romania “Vlad” after Vlad Tepes then proceeded to name him “Vladimir” when that’s a Russian name and Vlad Tepes the Impaler’s full name is right there, “Vladislav”. How did we fail that one?????

PPS. I forgot when I wrote this. This sat in my drafts forever. 

[littlesistersti]

My profile picture :/

It kinda feels wrong that I’ve been going about my whole tumblr existence as LittleSisterSti with pirate!England from Hetalia as the profile picture. It doesn’t make sense for the grand lore of Sti the little sister … of Denmark.

I mean, it’s the same handle and muse as my Quotev. Lillesøster Sti or Stine Køhler is the younger sister of Denmark who sometimes goes by the human name Matthias Køhler. There is some other lore stuff but that that’s not relevant for now.

So uh, gotta fix that. Give me a hot minute.

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Before I start, I will say I have strong suspicions these tiktok rcta and/or ecta things are satire or clickbait then got people fooled then got angry people to satire them back and now we're stuck in a loop

also tall stack of tw: racism, xenophobia, exoticism or fetishization then brief mention of homophobia, queerphobia, sexism, immigrant parents trauma, slurs

at least, I hope everything is a grand prank because my brother told me nobody actually did the tidepod challenge (not the sponsored one), it was a hoax people fell for. I don't know?

These rcta or ecta tend to pick Asian. You want to be Asian so badly? Okay then. I'll help you:

Parents always compare you to cousins, siblings, or some other kid of friend

parents disapprove if you're an art major

you must hide your tattoos unless it's eyebrows or lip

get called a slur if you're gay/queer because there is no real translation to "gay" or "bisexual" etc.

you must be a doctor, lawyer, dentist

straight As in everything even if your parents don't know English

after school sports/music or study/tudor

the sport is probably tennis or badminton

the music is piano or violin

music is just to show off to family gatherings, not a career choice

parents insist you're doing it wrong even though they'd never done it and you already got the best coach

your American name is probably Jenny because it's simple for parents who can barely speak English

parents ask you to translate every letter in the mail and/or help write a text message or email

if you're a girl, your brother will receive strong favoritism

"wow, you look so handsome after your haircut" (you both got haircuts...)

gender bias and gender stereotypes and sexism

spanking with a giant chopstick or la chancla

this is not child abuse, this is normal parenting

people blame you for the pandemic

people poke fun of your small eyes and smelly lunch

people always assume you can read Chinese characters even if your language only has Latin letters

receive whitening cream if you have natural tan/olive skin

were told you must be friends with only Asian people ... although White people are ok

if you're Vietnamese, never hang out with Black people or Mexicans

even if they're not Mexican, all Latin Americans are "Mexicans"

hate on the Chinese because Communism and colonialism trauma

get called any of the East Asian nationalities even though you're actually ASEAN

if you identify as Japanese and work in an office job, then you put work above everything else

you're a kid and identify as Japanese or Korean, you help the declining population

if you're a kid and identify as Chinese, you either have 1 or 0 siblings

aunties are always blunt about your physical appearance esp weight

pda is frowned upon

receive hair straightening products if you have natural curly hair

say you like the cut watermelon or mango once and your parents buy you a whole pack of 50 the next day

parents are always right and you're an ungrateful child for disagreeing

parents never listen to you and if you try to reason, you're disrespectful

parents threaten of disownment or toss you outside in the streets

parents make fun of you for small mistakes

lectures for every small joy in life

teachers assume you are fluent in (language) and must help the new kid even though you're a heritage speaker who forgot

teachers assume this one English word doesn't exist in your language even though you simply forgot the word

teachers will teach media covering AAPI and command the class to never correct them because you're all a bunch of rowdy kids and I can't be bothered to pronounce everything correctly

your name is too hard, do you have an English/American name?

parents dictate how to eat, including which order or how to cut it a specific way ... why? for best enjoyment

even if it's a simple burger

"you can do this" actually means "you should do this"

anything you say can and will be used against you ALWAYS

you're always too skinny or too fat

"wow, you're a weak eater" yeah I wonder why

you can't do that physics project because you're a girl, even though everybody is required to do it by themselves

girls can't be engineers

if you're a Korean gal with short hair and athletic, you'll be called a "feminist" derogatory

you can only marry other Asians

preferably "city Asians" (you know the derogatory term)

"you have the right to speak your mind" except when it's your parents

parents are always better than you

that one small lecture about that one small thing turns into one long lecture (five or ten lectures merged into one) about everything else that came up and I swear they just want to keep going

"her hair was as curly as a Black person" derogatory

"I don't want to wear that, it makes me look gay"

everything you do is wrong

"women aren't supposed to have hairy legs, it's dirty, you're wrong"

good gods they can't understand tone

I be telling them there is another hole in my room in a straight voice and they yell why are you complaining it's going to happen deal with it

your mom doesn't know how to read English, can't be bothered to slow down and read English labels properly so she calls you about the wrong product/names

you're not allowed any joy in peace

ok I'll stop

[littlesistersti]

TF Armada Alexis’s Full Name

Full disclaimer out of the way, I’ve never watched Armada. I plan to though. Also, pull up a chair. This is another long one.

Some of you know her. Some of you know a specific version of her. Whether it’s Alexis/Alexa from the anime, Alexis Garner from @itsthelass​ ‘s fic, Faeformers, your own, etc. During the time of the show’s run, she wasn’t given an official last name until this Almanac came out. 2010 vs. 2002 difference. Her full name is Alexis Thi Dang, confirming she’s Vietnamese. We don’t know she is full Vietnamese or half Vietnamese or what. Her design isn’t helpful. 

I’ll accept Vietnamese American girls with brown hair. That were a few of my classmates in elementary school and almost every auntie I see. (Years are VERY off, but you get the point.) Good times. I don’t understand her green eyes though. Green eyes are less common than blue eyes, but genetics tend not to apply in anime/cartoons. (See Marinette’s blue eyes from the Miraculous Ladybug show. Also the fact, how Japanese characters look in anime compared to non-Japanese characters or real life Japanese people) I don’t know what eye colors her parents have, but if the green is natural, she must be at least a quarter Vietnamese. I think? I’m not doing math right now. Unless it’s a genetic mutation, but I don’t know how to tackle that. Yes, I know it’s possible for Vietnamese girls to have blue eyes. However, Google gave me one result of a Vietnamese girl with natural blue eyes, but she is one of the mountain people (ethnic minority). I should know the word for them, but I took Viet 1 some four years ago and forgotten. Other than that, all I have as evidence is this one girl I saw at my high school who has striking blue eyes and can never tell if it’s natural or not. I should’ve asked her, but her fluency and mien bac accent scared me. 

I’m suspecting her green eyes are contact lenses, with prescription or not. It could be a headcanon for a fic. Do what you like with it. I edited some pictures of her with different colors below. Just to see how it’ll turn out. 

You might be wondering why I’m even starting this discussion in the first place. “She’s from an old anime, don’t make a fuss.” “It’s just the color choice of the designers, whatever.” Yeah, but you know how excited I was when I read her last name? The fact I got a smidge of representation, even if it’s more Word of God than canon? The only other Asian humans we got are Sari Sumdac (kinda? Techno-organic?), Isaac Sumdac, and Miko Nakadai. There might be more I’m missing; feel free to let me know. 

So where I going with all this nonsense? I want Alexis to showcase more of her Vietnamese culture. 

Yeah, I know. Awful of me. Again, I’m giddy she’s Vietnamese. I know it’s impossible to show any of the Vietnamese stuff since the anime’s long over and almost nobody knows she’s Vietnamese. All I’m asking is a fanfic where it’s shown. It can be small or big. You know what, draw her in an ao dai or something. Have her eat banh cuon. I guess I should write my own things too. “If you can’t find it, make it yourself” sort of feelings. 

Edited on PicsArt using only the Adjust tool. 

Black hair only

Black hair with brown eyes

Brown eyes only.

Black hair and brown eyes. Tried to give her black hair that blue effect comic books tend to have. 

[littlesistersti]

Rant or Trauma Dump: Overblot Leona is Relatable as a Student in American Public School

Will keep this short as possible

Abstract: Leona's trauma = shared trauma but (American) 12th grader student edition. I share my experience. Am I allowed to say it's my trauma when it's just resentment?

Work count: 585

Leona expressed strong resentment at the idea of birth > skill so why r bother trying? Nobody cares. I understood it from a story writing standpoint at first then this came to me and I felt things.

Not sure how common this is around the globe but I went to an American public school for high school/secondary school education (why do I sound like a foreign exchange student haha) and every week of/before homecoming or winter break or some major event, there’s spirit week in which each grade level compete with themed outfits, lunch time activity\games, and assembly games. Win enough points to beat the other grade.

Off topic but my school’s Assembled Student Body have zero creativity for lip sync and themes because why do they keep doing Marvel and Disney? I might as well think we’re sponsored by Disney because we could’ve had HTTYD or Wonder Woman for crying out loud. Also there was a spirit day for “hype beast” in which you wear the high end stuff like Supreme. Well, I was bullied in elementary school for being NOT high income so I held resentment for those things.

Freshman year (9th grade), I did my best but we came in last place. Seniors won. Sophomore year, I felt bad for the freshmen who tried harder than us last year and they lost. Their side was decked out in white, it looked like Big Bear. Seniors won. Junior year, I figured it out it was pointless. Seniors won. Then came our turn. I noticed it. My fellow seniors would not bother trying because they knew they’d win anyway or would cheat the system like raising their hands for points even though they’re not wearing anything spirit (sometimes they be counting shoes). I hated it. I hated it more when the senior favoritism happens before your eyes.

Every winter assembly, there should be a sled race where one player is in a cardboard box and another pulls. Seniors never pull because their box has a giant hole so they can stand up and run to the finish line like a Grinch. I never saw that my senior year. Every assembly ever, there’s supposed to be a clapping game similar to Simon Says. The freshman are always duped on the first “clap” and the seniors don’t even play the game, it’s an applause! A standing ovation even! Even the seniors get to win the lip sync battle every time. Makes me wonder if they could stand in the corner then still win first place. In elective and math (above Algebra 1) classes, you would find mixed grade levels so not sure how much the point-counters scrutinize. They are not nit picky with seniors. If you raise your hand, we don’t check. Below seniors? They check. Yet, I think the cronyism is the main problem.

Seniors don’t need any skill set. They just need to be that class and bam, easy win. Any other class could try as they might and never win. I hated it more when people say, “let them win, they’re graduating.” Might as well give them all passing grades, senior year is the easiest anyways. No worries about senioritis. All the teachers love you because you’re mature baby-adults and about to leave. Hate the freshmen because they’re the hooligans. Let’s bully the freshmen.

Conclusion: Leona is relatable in the birth order > skill set resentment and not trying hard if nobody cares, because of the high school seniors favouritism I witnessed during spirit week.

[stagefoureddiediaz]

The way Tommy is recoiling he totally thinks Buck has an STI doesn’t he - which obviously he doesn’t have, but it does then open up some interesting conversations and creates a very interesting hurdle that plays into so many aspects of Bucks character

His self confidence and self value being placed on his body and what it can do for others a his appearance being key to all his relationships

His past as a playboy

The lack of faith and trust tommy has in him

It brings up the cheating aspect as well

And plays into the idea of masks (especially as people with syphillis used to wear nose masks or face masks to ‘hide’/ cover up the facial deformity it could cause!) perfectly and the mask tommy has been wearing slipping now bucks appearance is compromised

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Someone should do a survey on maid cafes (and similar) where the staff use silly names

What kind of name do you have (typical Western human name, Japanese/East Asian human name, foreign human name neither Western nor Japanese/East Asian, object name, anime\manga reference, food name, etc.)

and which names result in more tips and/or more positive interactions

If you work a tipped job literally make up a silly name for yourself and people will think you’re so much more charismatic and personable for the exact same service. People are soo much nicer and tip me better when I say my names Melon. They fucking love it all I gotta say is yup that’s my real name. my parents are huge hippies. I know fucking insane right. Fucking stupid. With a straight face and especially the old people they have to fan themselves they get so excited

[hypermoyashi]

PSA but please don't use "are you clean?"/"I'm clean" when characters are having discussions about STIs/STDs

[littlesistersti]

How often are Neurodivergent (mostly Autism/ADHD) people accused or mistook for being drunk/high?

CW: mention and jesting of alcohol, drinking, drunkeness, drugs, high, sober, intoxication, spiking drinks, how many more synonyms can I gather?

Word count: 586

Abstract: An observation on my own behaviour and a couple other people's behaviours that gets conflated with inebriation/intoxication.

A thought came to me post-event; one night my cousins decided for a get-together with drinks. I was not drinking because my period suddenly came and I took painkillers. Everybody in the room knew. However, I randomly asked, “Can you keep a chicken in an apartment?”

In my head, it made sense since we’re in an apartment right now and I have chickens so put these two things together… Everyone except my sister thought it was weird and joked I’m already drunk, someone spiked my water, I’m going to black out, bla bla bla, cliché.

I thought about this the next morning. I am not diagnosed with anything but my (current, as I write this but let’s not jinx anything) partner was diagnosed with ADD as a kid. He recognized the same signs he has with me and we both recognized I have something. I could get myself diagnosed, but my dad thinks I don’t have anything because he only knows the obvious stereotypes of ADHD/Autism/neurodivergence. (Although I think he doesn't know the difference between them and thinks ADHD is the same as autism.) Let’s digress.

I thought about that one time Eurovision Norway participant TIX had to select his position for the show (1st half or 2nd half), and there’s a live stream with chat but I can’t find the video. One of the hosts has her hand inside the bowl and TIX was supposed to say stop or something like that, I can’t remember. Throughout the whole time he was there, he showed the same behaviour I recognized in myself, Ethan Nestor from CrankGamePlays, and Mark Fischbach from Markiplier (those were my only references off the top of my head at the time). Unfortunately, what is a singer without haters, especially he won Melodi Grand Prix 🇳🇴 and defeated the fan favourite KEiiNO — the chat overflowed with “wow he���s such a weirdo” and “get him offstage, he’s drunk” and “is he high right now?” and such. This hurts when he stated multiple times in interviews about his Tourette’s and ADHD. He named himself TIX for a reason.

So I pulled up a Go0gle and searched “autism or adhd accused of being drunk?” I mostly found medical or psychology stuff on how someone with autism is prone to alcoholism and similar. I found one article on someone mistaken to be drunk and arrested for it. Link below.

I didn’t find much else on Youtube. Maybe it’s my weak key words and searching. I don’t know but can anybody else provide their own input? Has anybody done a study on this?

PS. Slightly off topic, but there was one year, one time, I said I was overstimulated and two other cousins in the room laughed and said something about what substances I took or not (everybody knew I didn't take anything). Don't remember the words but remembered them laughing and not taking any effort to change the setting. That was years ago, at least two. A few years later, Christmas season of 2023, those two cousins and a couple other cousins mentioned getting overstimulated. I don't know if they got better in the timespan or if the situation was dramatically different. The case here was, imagine your typical family gathering but it's immigrant parents so there's more than three aunts and uncles each, and everybody's default volume is 50 instead of 15. Smaller space without windows. The case then was less people, exactly or roundabout three aunts and uncles, bigger space with a glass door.

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[lichdolly]

Well good, because that’s really none of his business

[persephoneandherhades]

My ex-wife did not give me cancer.

I realize that most people who get divorced dont get cancer from their ex-partner but I spent 6 months thinking that she might have. She gave me HPV and I had an abnormal pap smear, then an abnormal biopsy, then finally they scraped all the abnormal cells away and tested them. I do not have cancer. I have been holding on to my last shred of sanity by the skin of my teeth and now I have a slightly firmer grip. I don't have cancer. I keep saying it so that I can slowly start to believe it. Months of crying, screaming, and then numbness have finally left me here. I hate her. I hate her even more than the man who traumatized me as a child and I thought that wasn't possible. I don't think she understands what the last 6 months have done to me and I doubt she cares but some part of me wants her to finally face some consequences for her actions. So far I am the only one who has faced consequences and it was for her actions, not mine. How do you make someone without empathy understand the gravity of my absolute terror these last 6 months? She gets to move on and live with her lovers and I am stuck with medical debt, less faith in humanity, and so much rage. How does she face justice?

[king0fcrows]

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[woodsteingirl]

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eek i remain still pondering game theory — todays thought is! so in zermelo’s theorem it states that the proof is vaguely like. games of length less than or equal to n+1 can be solved using backward induction; but when you go to do a proof by induction it seems like literally any number can be n? like there’s no number it can’t be except for like a negative or something.. that’s what it seems like to me. maybe n is like the maximum possible moves given in a game? that sort of makes sense i think. eek