#stephanie powell

[batsmilelove]

-We are taking only what we need, Stephanie Powell

[loliquiu]

The best canon ships on tv by year (part 2):

• 2018: Ryn x Maddie

• 2019: Eve x Villanelle

• 2020: Dani x Jamie

[scifipinups]

Julie Benz No Ordinary Family (2010)

[mostunderratedawards]

Best Feel Good Movie

The Little Mermaid

Anyone But You

Flora and Son

Next Goal Wins 

The Miracle Club

Wonka

Good Grief

Joy Ride

[sonicpanels]

Sonic the Hedgehog (Archie Ongoing) #102: "Family Dysfunction"

Writer: Karl Bollers Pencils: Ron Lim Inks: Andrew Pepoy or Pam Eklund Letters: Jeff Powell Colors: Stephanie Vozzo

Editor/Art Director: Justin Gabrie Managing Editor: Victor Gorelick

[gardenofedenuniverse]

28th Annual Critics Choice Awards – Red Carpet. 15 Jan 2023 - Fairmont Century Plaza.

[the-final-sentence]

I'm not sure where they will set up next, but come fall these women or others like them will be back with their stand of Watchtower magazines, peddling hope in a five-color brochure, offering a moment of connection to any passerby.

Stephanie Powell Watts, from "Witnessing Hope"

[milliondollarbaby87]

Ordinary Angels (2024) Review

This is inspired by a rather incredible true story about a hairdresser Sharon who manages to against all odds bring a community together to support a widowed father, Ed and fight for the life of his critically ill young daughter Michelle.  ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ Continue reading Ordinary Angels (2024) Review

[sirlancenotalot]

family museum of the ancient postcards - stephanie powell watts / spn: 3x16 + 15x20 + 4x01 + 5x18 + 12x23 + 13x01 + 2x21 + 5x22 + 5x16 + 13x21 + 1x01 + 14x18 / spn: 6x20 - the man who would be king / elektra - sophocles (trans. anne carson / liberation - louise glück

[nerdgirljen]

Restarted to Camp Cretaceous for background noise, and within 8 minutes, I was hearing a familiar voice in Counselor Dave…

Anyway, I went to Google to see who the voice actor was, and…

WAS NO ONE GOING TO TELL ME THAT COUNSELOR DAVE WAS VOICED BY GLEN FUCKING POWELL?!? WAS I REALLY SUPPOSED TO FIND THAT OUT FOR MYSELF?!?

I also didn’t know this has an all star voice cast besides Glen: Jenna Ortega, Stephanie Beatriz, Haley Joel Osment, and Raini Rodriguez just name a few.

Anyway, that’s today’s realization that Glen is somehow tied to all my fandoms (and I mean like my fandoms I’ve liked well before TGM).

[seeinganewlight]

2024 books read

2024 goal: 150 books

january: 1 - heartstopper vol. 1 → alice oseman (reread) 2 - heartstopper vol. 2 → alice oseman (reread) 3 - heartstopper vol. 3 → alice oseman (reread) 4 - heartstopper vol. 4 → alice oseman (reread) 5 - heartstopper vol. 5 → alice oseman 6 - a fragile enchantment → allison saft 7 - some shall break → ellie marney (audiobook) 8 - only if you're lucky → stacy willingham (arc) 9 - over my dead body: a witchy graphic novel → sweeney boo 10 - notes on an execution → danya kukafka (physical & audiobook) 11 - murder on the orient express → agatha christie (reread) 12 - our wives under the sea → julia armfield (physical & audiobook) 13 - the invocations → krystal sutherland (arc) 14 - red string theory → lauren kung jessen 15 - the breakup tour → emily wibberley & austin siegemund-broka (arc) 16 - the name drop → susan lee 17 - the secret of the old clock → carolyn keene (reread) 18 - bright young women → jessica knoll (audiobook) 19 - last call at the local → sarah grunder ruiz (audiobook) 20 - no one can know → kate alice marshall

february: 21 - worst wingman ever → abby jimenez 22 - drop, cover, and hold on → jasmine guillory 23 - with any luck → ashley poston 24 - the atlas six → olivie blake (reread, audiobook) 25 - that's not my name → megan lally 26 - not here to stay friends → kaitlyn hill 27 - this golden state → marit weisenberg 28 - today tonight tomorrow → rachel lynn solomon (reread, annotation) 29 - past present future → rachel lynn solomon (arc, annotation) 30 - the atlas paradox → olivie blake (reread, audiobook) 31 - the guest list → lucy foley (audiobook) 32 - in the market for murder → t.e. kinsey (audiobook) 33 - the neighbor favor → kristina forest 34 - in the mix → mandy gonzalez 35 - everyone in my family has killed someone → benjamin stevenson 36 - the seven year slip → ashley poston 37 - veronica ruiz breaks the bank → elle cosimano (audiobook) 38 - finlay donovan rolls the dice → elle cosimano (audiobook) 39 - the simmonds house kills → meaghan dwyer (arc)

march: 40 - the mysterious case of the alperton angels → janice hallett 41 - the book of cold cases → simone st. james 42 - what the river knows → isabel ibañez (audiobook) 43 - cut loose! → ali stroker & stacy davidowitz 44 - how i'll kill you → ren destefano 45 - the reappearance of rachel price → holly jackson (arc) 46 - when no one is watching → alyssa cole (audiobook) 47 - outofshapeworthlessloser: a memoir of figure skating, f*cking up, and figuring it out → gracie gold (audiobook) 48 - julius caesar → william shakespeare (rerad, audiobook) 49 - the family plot → megan collins (audiobook) 50 - if we were villains → m.l. rio (reread) 51 - alone with you in the ether → olivie blake (physical & audiobook) 52 - disappearance at devil's rock → paul tremblay (audiobook)

april: 53 - shakespeare: romeo and juliet graphic novel → martin powell & eva cabrera 54 - shakespeare: macbeth graphic novel → martin powell & f. daniel perez 55 - shakespeare: julius caesar graphic novel → carl bown & eduardo garcia 56 - shakespeare: a midsummer night's dream graphic novel → nel yomtov & berenice muniz 57 - twelfth knight → alexene farol follmuth (arc) 58 - kill for me, kill for you → steve cavanagh 59 - murder road → simone st. james 60 - everyone on this train is a suspect → benjamin stevenson 61 - listen for the lie → amy tintera 62 - king cheer → molly horton booth, stephanie kate strohm, jamie green 63 - twelfth night (musical adaptation) → kwame kwei-armah & shaina taub 64 - in juliet's garden → judy elliot mcdonald 65 - fat ham → james ijames 66 - death by shakespeare → philip l. nicholas, jr 67 - a good girl's guide to murder → holly jackson (reread) 68 - good girl, bad blood → holly jackson (reread) 69 - as good as dead → holly jackson (reread) 70 - dark corners → megan goldin (audiobook) 71 - the one that got away with murder → trish lundy (audiobook) 72 - funny story → emily henry 73 - imogen says nothing → aditi brennan kapil 74 - people we meet on vacation → emily henry (audiobook, reread)

may: 75 - episode thirteen → craig dilouie 76 - the girls i've been → tess sharpe (reread) 77 - the girl in question → tess sharpe (arc) 78 - wild about you → kaitlyn hill (arc) 79 - just for the summer → abby jimenez 80 - my best friend's exorcism → grady hendrix 81 - second first date → rachel lynn solomon 82 - the ballad of darcy & russell → morgan matson 83 - the good, the bad, and the aunties → jesse q. sutanto (audiobook) 84 - truly, madly, deeply → alexandria bellefleur 85 - your blood, my bones → kelly andrew 86 - amy & roger's epic detour → morgan matson (reread) 87 - romancing mister bridgerton → julia quinn (reread) 88 - the viscount who loved me → julia quinn (reread) 89 - bittersweet in the hollow → kate pearsall 90 - to sir phillip, with love → julia quinn (reread) 91 - when he was wicked → julia quinn (reread) 92 - it's in his kiss → julia quinn (reread) 93 - on the way to the wedding → julia quinn (audiobook, reread) 94 - emma → jane austen (audiobook, reread)

june: 95 - first lie wins → ashley elston 96 - we got the beat → jenna miller 97 - firekeeper's daughter → angeline boulley 98 - chlorine → jade song (audiobook) 99 - what stalks among us → sarah hollowell 100 - hollow fires → samira ahmed (audiobook) 101 - part of your world → abby jimenez 102 - the road trip → beth o'leary 103 - yours truly → abby jimenez 104 - finally fitz → marisa kanter 105 - the last love song → kalie holford

july: 106 - dead girls walking → sami ellis (audiobook) 107 - home is where the bodies are → jeneva rose 108 - we used to live here → marcus kliewer 109 - the children on the hill → jennifer mcmahon (audiobook) 110 - what moves the dead → t. kingfisher 111 - my throat an open grave → tori bovalino 112 - dashed → amanda quain (arc) 113 - asking for a friend → kara h.l. chen (arc) 114 - beach read → emily henry (reread, audiobook) 115 - book lovers → emily henry (reread, audiobook) 116 - happy place → emily henry (reread, audiobook) 117 - you have a match → emma lord (reread, annotation) 118 - bonnie & clyde musical script → ivan menchell (reread) 119 - such charming liars → karen m. mcmanus (arc) 120 - she left → stacie grey (audiobook) 121 - let the games begin → rufaro faith mazarura (audiobook) 122 - death at morning house → maureen johnson (arc)

august: 123 - cleat cute → meryl wilsner (audiobook) 124 - i wish you would → eva des lauriers 125 - the break-up pact → emma lord (arc) 126 - water for elephants → sara gruen 127 - when you get the chance → emma lord (reread, annotation) 128 - come out, come out → natalie c. parker (arc) 129 - my lady jane → cynthia hand, brodi ashton, jodi meadows 130 - the lies of alma blackwell → amanda glaze (arc)

september: 131 - the spare room → andra bartz 132 - late bloomer → mazey eddings (audiobook) 133 - savor it → tarah dewitt (audiobook) 134 - triple sec → t.j. alexander (audiobook) 135 - the skeleton key → erin kelly 136 - the examiner → janice hallett (arc) 137 - the dark we know → wen-yi lee (audiobook) 138 - pretty girls → karin slaughter 139 - a good girl's guide to murder → holly jackson (reread, annotation) 140 - lady macbeth → ava reid 141 - the pumpkin spice café → laurie gilmore 142 - the main character → jaclyn goldis (audiobook) 143 - queen macbeth → val mcdermid (arc) 144 - the cinnamon bun bookstore → laurie gilmore (audiobook)

october: 145 - midnight on beacon street → emily ruth verona (audiobook) 146 - make me a mixtape → jennifer whiteford (arc) 147 - haunt sweet home → sarah pinsker 148 - graveyard shift → m.l. rio 149 - the bitter end → alexa donne (arc) 150 - morbidly yours → ivy fairbanks 151 - someone in the attic → andrea mara 152 - a new lease on death → olivia blacke (arc) 153 - the christmas tree farm → laurie gilmore 154 - staged → elle cosimano 155 - the reunion dinner → jesse q. sutanto 156 - a crime of fashion → emma rosenblum 157 - the nosy neighbor → nita prose 158 - one lucky subscriber → kellye garrett 159 - a classic case → alicia thompson 160 - interview with the vampire → anne rice (audiobook) 161 - horror movie → paul tremblay (audiobook) 162 - everything is poison → joy mccullough (arc) 163 - romeo and juliet → william shakespeare (reread) 164 - no place left to hide → megan lally (arc) 165 - macbeth → william shakespeare (reread)

november: 166 - dinner for vampires → bethany joy lenz (audiobook) 167 - make the season bright → ashley herring blake 168 - a bánh mì for two → trinity nguyen (audiobook) 169 - merriment and mayhem → alexandria bellefleur 170 - a novel love story → ashley poston 171 - guilt and ginataan → mia p. manansala

december: 172 - looking for smoke → k.a. cobell (audiobook) 173 - seven lively suspects → katy watson 174 - the rival → emma lord (arc) 175 - a lively midwinder murder → katy watson 176 - the cheerleaders → kara thomas (rerad, audiobook) 177 - the champions → kara thomas (audiobook) 178 - a guide to the dark → meriam metou (audiobook)

[battyaboutbooksreviews]

🌈 Queer Books Coming Out in May 2024 🌈

🌈 Good morning, my bookish bats! Struggling to keep up with all the amazing queer books coming out this month? Here are a FEW of the stunning, diverse queer books you can add to your TBR before the year is over. Remember to #readqueerallyear! Happy reading!

[ Release dates may have changed. ]

❤️ Farzana's Spite - Felix Graves 🧡 Archangels of Funk - Andrea Hairston 💛 How It Works Out - Myriam Lacroix 💚 Queer History A to Z - Robin Stevenson, Vivian Rosas 💙 Queerceañera - Alex Crespo 💜 Second Night Stand - Karelia Stetz-Waters, Fay Stetz-Waters ❤️ You Can Call Me Cooper - Cali Kitsu 🧡 Gooseberry - Robin Gow 💛 Grand Slam Romance - Ollie Hicks, Emma Oosterhous 💙The Witches of Silverlake - Simon Curtis, Stephanie Son 💜 Drawn to the Enemy - Barbara Winkes 🌈 The Truth of Our Past - Heather Leighson

❤️ Infaust - T.D. Cloud, Ambi Sun 🧡 Garner for Gold - Catherine Labadie 💛 The Z Word - Lindsay King-Miller 💚 Snake Charming - Genevieve McCluer 💙 The 7-10 Split - Karmen Lee 💜 Loving Jemima - Sienna Waters ❤️ The Potion Gardener - Arden Powell 🧡 A Swift and Sudden Exit - Nico Vincenty 💛 The Worst Ronin - Maggie Tokuda-Hall, Faith Schaffer 💙 Murray Out of Water -Taylor Tracy 💜 The Guncle Abroad - Steven Rowley 🌈 The Weight of What Was - Pip Landers-Letts

❤️ The Amazing Alpha Tau Pledge Project - Lisa Henry, Sarah Honey 🧡 I Met Death & Sex Through My Friend, Tom Meuley - Thom Vernon 💛 Malicia - Steven dos Santos 💚 The Sins on Their Bones - Laura R. Samotin 💙 SLUTS: Anthology - Michelle Tea 💜 You Should Be So Lucky - Cat Sebastian ❤️ Death's Country - R.M. Romero 🧡 Cinema Love - Jiaming Tang 💛 The Brides of High Hill - Nghi Vo 💙 Emma - Jenna Kent 💜 Wish We Were There - Lionel Hart 🌈 A Troublemaker in Her Eyes - Genta Sebastian

❤️ I Make Envy on Your Disco - Eric Schnall 🧡 Lavash at First Sight - Taleen Voskuni 💛 Queer Power Couples - Hannah Murphy Winter, Billie Winter 💚 In Repair - A.L. Graziadei 💙 A Heart Divided - Angie Williams 💜 Long After We Are Gone - Terah Shelton Harris ❤️ The Queen of Steeplechase Park - David Ciminello 🧡 Lunar Boy - Jes Wibowo, Cin Wibowo 💛 Hot Boy Summer - Joe Jiménez 💙 Sunhead - Alex Assan 💜 The Summer Love Strategy - Ray Stoeve 🌈 Into the Mouth of the Wolf - Erin Gough

❤️ The Girl in Question - Tess Sharpe 🧡 The Lost Erwain - Mariah Stillbrook 💛 Starfire - Naomi Hughes 💚 Adrift - Sam Ledel 💙 Shanghai Murder - Jessie Chandler 💜 April May June July - Alison B. Hart ❤️ A Bone in His Teeth - Kellen Graves 🧡 Cabin Fever - Tagan Shepard 💛 Don't Be a Drag - Skye Quinlan 💙 The Ride of Her Life - Jennifer Dugan 💜 The Redemption of Daya Keane - Gia Gordon 🌈 Nearlywed - Nicolas DiDomizio

❤️ The Sunforge - Sascha Stronach 🧡 The End of Time - Trudie Skies 💛 Silent Ones - Melissa Polk 💚 Prime Time Travelers - Neil Laird 💙 My Darling Dreadful Thing - Johanna van Veen 💜 The Honey Witch - Sydney J. Shields ❤️ Spitting Gold - Carmella Lowkis 🧡 Last Chance - Claire Highton-Stevenson 💛 Road Home - Rex Ogle 💙 Only for Convenience - Shannon O'Connor 💜 Linus and Etta Could Use a Win - Caroline Huntoon 🌈 Finding Molly Parsons - Alyson Root

❤️ Breathe: Journeys to Healthy Binding - Maia Kobabe, Dr. Sarah Peitzmeier 🧡 See You Next Month - Jamey Moody 💛 Until You Say My Name - Tatum Schroeder 💚 Disembark - Jen Currin 💙 True Love and Other Impossible Odds - Christina Li 💜 Flyboy - Kasey LeBlanc ❤️ Thirsty - Jas Hammonds 🧡 Hands Off - N. Slater 💛 Flooded Secrets - Claudie Arseneault 💙 The Deer and the Dragon - Piper C.J. 💜 To Be Loved - Frank G. Anderson 🌈 Snowblooded - Emma Sterner-Radley

❤️ Blood Remains - Cathy Pegau 🧡 Blood on the Tide - Katee Robert 💛 We Were the Universe - Kimberly King Parsons 💚 Loyalty - E.J. Noyes 💙 Spirits and Sirens - Kelly Fireside 💜 Clean Kill - Anne Laughlin ❤️ The Worst Perfect Moment - Shivaun Plozza 🧡 Oye - Melissa Mogollon 💛 Here for the Wrong Reasons - Annabel Paulsen, Lydia Wang 💙 Exhibit - R.O. Kwon 💜 Experienced - Kate Young 🌈 Parenting with Pride - Heather Hester

❤️ Road to Ruin - Hana Lee 🧡 Meet Me in Berlin - Samantha L. Valentine 💛 The Advice Columnist - Cade Haddock Strong 💚 where lost & hopeless things go - Bryony Rosehurst 💙 Pit Stop - Ellis Mae 💜 The Switchboard - Christina K. Glover ❤️ In the Shallows - Tanya Byrne 🧡 Have You Seen This Girl - Nita Tyndall 💛 Another First Chance - Robbie Couch 💙 The Only Light Left Burning - Erik J. Brown 💜 Keepers of the Stones and Stars - Michael Barakiva 🌈 A Little Kissing Between Friends - Chencia C. Higgins

[thursdaygrl]

follow up to my original starter call — like for a smutty starter from one of the muses under the cut cause i'm itching for that too. if there's inspo on your blog i might use it, otherwise i'm winging it.

aurelio ferrante, 21, bisexual, he/him, simone baldasseroni fc, switch

edward ‘dawson’ dawson ii, 22, bisexual, he/him, spencer house fc, very soft dominant

elias stratford, 30, lesbian, they/them, e.r. fightmaster fc, dominant

grayson rhodes, 34, straight, he/him, glen powell fc, dominant

luther olander, 26, straight, he/him, valter skarsgard fc, dominant

river im, 24, lesbian, she/they, london thor fc, dominant

rosalie sandoval, 24, bisexual, she/her, camila mendes fc, switch but sub leaning

slater pruitt, 26, bisexual, she/her, victoria pedretti fc, switch

stephanie mcnamara, 45, bisexual, she/her, sarah rafferty fc, submissive

orpheus ‘sully’ sullivan, 26, bisexual, he/him, mike faist fc, switch but sub leaning

susanna ‘sosie’ vanderbilt, 21, bisexual, she/her, sydney sweeney fc, submissive

[mermaidinthecity]

I Love You’s

I love you, family. Dad, because you are my biggest fan, and I’ll never get tired of the way you smile when I pick up a guitar and play. Mom, for being my best friend and most trusted companion, even in times when you were my only friend. That was just fine. Austin, my little brother, for being so much more brave than I ever hope to be. My aunt, Alison, for being such a beautiful person. My aunts, uncles, cousins, and relatives (even the ones I didn’t know I had) for making Thanksgiving something someone should write a book about. I love my mom and dads’ friends who have been so unbelievably supportive (and so unbelievably loud at my shows).

I love my friends. Abigail, I love you because you are my best friend in the entire world. Can’t wait to room together when we’re 65 and wrinkly and living in Minnesota. I love Ally, Kelsey, Kathryn, Jeff, Clay and all my awesome friends in Hendersonville. Britany Maack for being my first friend, I miss you!

I love everyone who helped put this album together. Scott Borchetta for believing in me and actually DOING something about it. Shake and bake, Radioman. This is how we roll. Nathan Chapman because he is the most amazing red-headed freckle-faced little producer in the world and I love your beautiful wife Stephanie. Thanks Nathan for gracing me with your first album. Liz Rose, you are my songwriting soulmate, and one of my dearest friends. Robert Ellis Orrall, you Rock! Nick for breaking your drumsticks on my songs, Tim for playing on my session ON YOUR BIRTHDAY, and everyone else who played on the album because you are THAT GOOD. Chad, for your amazing mullet (and engineering skills).

I love my record label. Jack Purcell, for your Minnesota accent. Mandy McCormack, for humoring me in my mailbox obsession. Rick Barker, because I learned everything I Know about radio in… nevermind. HAHA. Bobby Young, thanks for taking us shopping. Whitney Sutton, you are so organized and I love you for it. JZ, because of that adorable laugh/nose thing you do. Erik Powell, for being cool and pretty much a genius. Larry Hughes, you rock! Jamice Jennings, for being the sweetest ever. Kelly Rich, you are the wizard of Marketing! Jayme Austin for adding so much spirit to the label. Sandi Spika Borchetta, for being creative/brilliant/beautiful and buying me pretty things to wear. Penny Lazo, you are a crazy rock star. Andrew Kautz, if I ever walk into the label and you’re not there, I will not know what to do with myself. Natalie Kilgore, for your amazing sense of humor. Ray Pronto, for putting this Big Machine in motionnn.

I love the people who helped me get here. Arthur Buenahora, thank you for signing a FOURTEEN year old to a full writers publishing deal. I will never forget that. In fact, I love everyone at Sony Publishing. Pat Garet and Suzy Dalton for letting my little ten-year-old self open up for you. Harry Warner, for being such a gentleman and having my back at BMI. Frank Bell for being so brutally honest about my music from the time I was like 12, and so supportive of my career NOW. Andrew Orth for 14 years of great photos!! Paula Erickson for being the most stylish publicist in the world. Jody Williams, for listening to my rants about high school, and being such a dear friend and musicologist. HHS for supporting me 100%. Bob Taylor and Bob Borbonus at Taylor Guitars for believing in me and making perfection in the form of guitars. Mike Milom for being a genius and the best lawyer ever. Sarah, Ed, and Jim at GAC for taking such a vested interest in me, and PUTTING ME ON TV! CMT you’re awesome! Trey Fanjoy, because you are such a visionary and for directing an amazing video. Pete Fisher you are amazing. Rod Essig, for believing in me from the beginning and being so passionate about what you do. I Love Tim McGraw for making such inspiring music. I love Faith Hill for being the most graceful woman in the world. I love you, Jack Ingram. If at any point in my life, ever ever amount to being HALF as cool as you, I will throw myself a party. I LOVE RADIO because I haven’t met one person I don’t consider a friend. I love all of my myspace friends for taking such an active roll in what I do, I will never forget how you all rallied for me from the beginning.

I love everyone who’s inspired me to write a song, whether you know if or not. I love anyone who has ever turned the volume up when my song comes on the radio, anyone who has bought this album. Anyone who can sing along to my songs when I play them live. Anyone who’s ever requested my song on the radio, or even remembered my name. If you ever see me in public, I want to meet you. I will thank you myself. You have let me into your life, and I will never be able to thank you enough for that. I love YOU, and I love God for putting you in my life.

Love love love

-T-

PS: To all the boys who thought they would be cool and break my heart, guess what? Here are 14 songs written about you. HA.

— Taylor Swift (2006)

[polyamorouspunk]

How would you tell the story of your life up till now through music? Artists and bands that marked key moments, lyrics that changed how you thought, albums that helped you grow and live, etc.

This might be the best ask I’ve ever gotten.

The first music I remember listening to is what my mom played in the car: classic rock and hair metal. Specifically my mom was the one who drove me around everywhere, but that’s not to say that I didn’t listen to my dad’s music either. He would play old country on Pandora. I liked some of those songs enough that they ended up in my own music for a while, as did my mom’s.

I also remember knowing the words (in part) to a lot of my favorite kids media. Nothing specific comes to mind outside of some Scooby Doo movies. I mean, who doesn’t know the chorus to the Hex Girls song?

Middle school I had my own iPod/early iPhones/DSI that played music.

You could find songs ranging from Jingle Bell Rock to Kesha to Elvis on my DSI.

You could find AC/DC, Kenny Rodgers, Katy Perry, and more on my iPods/early iPhones. My music was really a mix of what my parents and my contemporaries listened to.

Around this time a few things musically happened around me, that I remember.

First, I also started paying more attention to the music my brother played. My brother played 90s pop, as he grew up in the 90s. Therefore there were some traces of the songs HE liked in my music too, like Gwen Stephani.

Second, my mom started playing Elvis Gospel in the kitchen radio on Sunday mornings. I’m not religious, but Elvis Gospel still brings me some childhood comfort. I also know there is a South Park parody of a very specific Elvis Gospel song.

Third, my mom would play film scores on Pandora in the living room. The channel was called “Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows” and it had film scores from things like Indians Jones to Game of Thrones to Harry Potter to Inception and more.

Around this time I started listening to film scores on my own, to a point I was very invested in them and really felt like maybe that was something I wanted to do as a career. This was around 12 years old roughly. You can even find diary entries where I mention my favorite parts of film scores.

This brings me to the first favorite song I had: Forbidden Friendship by John Powell from the film How To Train Your Dragon.

I used to listen to this song on the way to school as I watched the snow fly around outside and it was truly magical.

This was peak nerd phase for me. I was heavy into Lord of the Rings and Marvel. I was even writing my classmates into a self ship LOTR fanfic and reading it to them with permission from my teacher. Ultimate cringe. I was OBSESSED with The Avengers. Still has a great film score. I was in LOVE with Pippin from LOTR, and Billy Boyd’s performance during Denathor’s order of the raid of Olisgilith to take back control, though different from the movie, was one of the most cinematic and poignant moments of the triology. Also Vigo Mortensen singing while Aragorn gets crowned as the rightful heir to Gondor? Also amazing. I really love the few reoccurring overtures in LOTR. There’s also a specific track from the third Harry Potter movie (understand, this was before anyone knew that Harry Potter was problematic, and even reading in the text I was too young and naive to put 2 and 2 together) I liked. I was a VERY avid reader at this point. I had read the Harry Potter books multiple times, starting in 2nd grade. I had read LOTR once and once was enough because honestly the books kinda suck ngl. I was high cringe because I would listen to film scores in computer class where we were allowed to listen to music (WHAT???) and I would hum VERY loudly and not realize (hello, autism?) and I was bullied for it, but I didn’t give a shit. However, I was still listening to the music of my peers, but being a bit more selective about it. Around this time I was listening to actual artists like Johnathon Young (because he covers movie soundtracks and I was really into film scores) but also more mainstream artists like Imagine Dragons, which was my best friend’s favorite band at the time.

In fact, there was one Imagine Dragons song I liked in particular, and it even came off of a Marvel soundtrack, but tracking down this song is VERY difficult outside of YouTube.

Thus enter my second favorite song ever.

I loved this song because it fit SO WELL to a ton of my favorite books and movies.

Actually, speaking of, my favorite book series, Skulduggery Pleasant, had one particular scene that I always listened to the SAME song whenever I read (and I’m telling you I probably read this book like 5 times at least). I can’t remember the song, but it was on my DSI.

Back to Imagine Dragons, by this point I’m leaving the music of my mom, my dad, and my brother behind. I’m rarely touching music on my DSI, and around this time is when I’m starting to find “my” music. This is 9th grade for me.

I love Ready, Aim, Fire by Imagine Dragons so much I cry myself to sleep at night with it I start offering it as a “music trade”, asking for my friends for song recommendations in trade for this recommendation. Two songs in particular stand out.

1. Centuries by Fall Out Boy

2. Mona Lisa by Panic! At the Disco

Thus, if YOU are my contemporary, you know this means one thing: this is 2/3 of the emo Trinity. 1/2 of the emo quartet. I’m about to become. EMO.

Summer of I wanna say 2015 was the summer of Fall Out Boy for me. I fucking LOVED Fall Out Boy. I would sit on the couch reading my YA fantasy novels for HOURS listening to Fall Out Boy. It’s funny, I used YouTube, but if I had Spotify, a decade ago FOB would have been my top artist too. Literal insanity.

I actually was able to go see Fall Out Boy, my first “real” concert, on the Boyz of Zummer tour in 2015. I still have both my tour shirts.

When I did arts and crafts, sometimes they revolves around FOB. Oh we’re face painting? Put on your war paint! There is a photo of my buried somewhere with my hair all in a frizz I think wearing my Boyz of Zummer tank top with AB/AP face paint I did myself on my face looking like a frumpy as fuck tween. It might have helped too that the person who gave me the FOB recommendation was my FP, probably my first FP tbh.

It’s the summer of 2015, I’m dating a guy, my first real boyfriend. Shitty relationship. Traumatic. I don’t want to get into details. Dumps me over text like 2-3 weeks after being MIA after I almost died at his house. Actually let’s talk about that. First songs to ever keep my sanity and basically save my life? You’re Gonna Go Far Kid by The Offspring and WTTBP by MCR (we’ll get back to this in a second). I’m listening to this, I’m fighting tears, I’m texting my FP freaking out, I had a gut feeling as my mom dropped me off that something wasn’t right and I should have listened. Baby’s first Big Trauma™️ to the soundtrack of YGGFK and WTTBP. Over and over and over again. Like my life fucking depended on it.

It’s 2015, I just had the worst night of my life up until that point. My ex doesn’t talk to me for 2 weeks straight and dumps me over text and I respond with ��Thnks Fr Th Mmrs” and never text him again, and I swore when he dumped me I was going to make the sweatshirt he gave me into a FOB sweatshirt. My FP’s favorite band. My favorite band. And the first person I tell is my FP. I loved my FP the whole time, and I hated myself for it. How could I love someone while dating someone else?

It’s 2015, my parents are getting a divorce. My brother is moving out of the house and we’re going through his things. He has a stack of CDs. I see Blink-182’s Enema of the State. I don’t know what an Enema is. I grab it and say that I’m taking that CD. I don’t think I even asked. I just said it was mine now. It was my first CD, passed down from my brother, even if unwillingly. We’re nothing alike, but at the same time, super similar. I’ve never heard him listen to Blink-182 ever. But I think music was almost less segregated back then. MTV. Teeny bop girl magazines I didn’t read because I hated boy bands with a diehard passion. The good old days.

It’s 2015. I’m uprooting my life. We’re moving house. I’m watching emo band music videos. I hated music videos up to this point. The main music video I remembered was a Nickleback music video from a song I honestly loved but was super depressing. But I had never seen anything like Danger Days. I LOVED Danger Days. And I decided that while making music was cool, directing music videos seemed a hell of a lot cooler. And I thought that’s what I wanted to do.

It’s 2015 and I become close with the person who recommended me PATD’s cousin. Really close. And he likes MCR too. I got him into it. So we start writing Ferard smut together. One day I’m staying home sick with cramps and I’m reading Ferard smut in my new bedroom and I’m thinking man I wish I was gay. And then I realize. I think I am gay.

It’s 2015 and I’m having a sexuality crisis. And I start falling in love with someone I bonded over MCR with. And our characters are in love but that’s not a story, surely that doesn’t mean anything between us… right? Or does it? And then suddenly it’s my 16th birthday and I’m feeling high on the rush of being infatuated with the person I still consider to have been my soulmate and I ask them out and they say… no. They say no. Until. They change their mind. And then they say yes. And suddenly I’m dating someone in a GAY relationship that I’m writing MCR fanfic with. And our characters had relationship issues but surely it wasn’t a metaphor for us…

By this point I wasn’t just listening to FOB and MCR as I read my nerdy YA books. I was also listening to bands like CTE, BVB, FIR, PTV, SWS… full on metalcore emo. Some dark shit. I mean, have you ever listened to Knives and Pens, and seen the music video? But I wasn’t that mentally ill, of course. I mean, other emo kids I met cut themselves. I would never do that. And I didn’t. Until this year. And I wasn’t suicidal… until, I guess, I was.

By this point I had my first internet friends I had made by being dragged into a FOB group chat. I knew these people for years, and when I disappeared one night after telling them I was thinking about killing myself, them and my ex freaked out. By this point it was senior year, I was hardly talking to my own best friends. I had a group of younger emo kids I sat with in the morning instead of my friends I grew up with. I was truly One Of The Emos™️. That night my mom had enough of my undiagnosed BPD and cut my internet. I was able to listen to music and that was what held me together. I don’t even know what I listened to. People thought I was dead.

2017, 2018, 2019 same deal, musically. I was clinically diagnosed with depression and anxiety. I was on antidepressants. I was listening to emo and metalcore music.

2019 I moved to North Carolina. That winter I started to feel… different. Like. There was a part of me who loved artists like Halsey and Hayley Kiyoko… and a part of me who loved BVB and shit… and I felt almost… torn.

Covid hit and I started feeling more that way. Like there was the “bad”, angry part of me, and the soft, gentle part of me… so I… split. Not in a BPD way but a… I guess system way.

And thus I made this blog. This was angry me, metalcore me, and my main blog was light me, airy me, soft core me… nothing much has changed, really.

2021 I saw Ice Nine Kills for the first time in concert intentionally, my favorite band. Met a guy there, we started seeing each other, it was unhealthy, but I loved it, because my ex had just dumped me, the person I thought I was going to marry after falling in love over MCR fanfiction, and this gave me an opportunity to break out of that domestic lifestyle and be a bit of the person I felt like I couldn’t be before. 2022 I started listening to more bands like Motionless in White, who I saw with Ice Nine Kills that year. They joined my main playlist with Fall Out Boy and All Time Low and Panic! At The Disco, titled “system failure”, a reference to me realizing I was some sort of plural system, because I felt so at odds with the self who was angry and listening to metal music and using he/him pronouns to the self that loved dressing in yellow, listening to Tessa Violet, recommended to me by people who watched soft core Dan and Phil…

2023 I discovered a song by one of my favorite artists Maisie Peters, who specializes in “shitty ex boyfriend” music, that PERFECTLY highlighted the guy I had been somewhat with during that time period:

In fact, Savvy’s playlist was (and still is) filled with this “shitty ex boyfriend” genre of music. Eventually, though, that year, we even started adding some metalcore into her playlist, like In This Moment, who we saw with Ice Nine Kills again.

2024 rolls around and I am HYPED to see OG metal band Metallica headline on a tour with 5FDP and INK (again). Did not get to see INK play because they got rained out (devastating) but around this time I’m checking out some other OG metal bands that were too heavy for me at the start of my emo era, like Slipknot.

Growing up I saw older emo kids who intimidated me, but I wanted to be like them… and that’s what I aspired to be. A metalhead dude.

Backtracking a little, end of 2023 I discover a musician I’m super into as a person and an artist. Talking to him every day was a blessing during that time. Around March 2024 I started to get really depressed and started to lean into the band Beartooth, which really has some heavy music, lyrically. I spent nights upon nights crying to Beartooth in my car on the way home from work, if I wasn’t already crying at work. I had 3 bands I wanted to see last year: Tallah, Beartooth, and Electric Callboy (and INK ofc). I technically went to all of those concerts but like I said INK got rained out.

And welcome to 2025. Honestly I’ve been listening to Savvy’s playlist a lot, which contains pop music, female-led metalcore, and more.

There’s a lot more that I didn’t quite include as well.

I had a few phases where I listened to a lot of wlw music pining over girls, or at least songs that weren’t outright heterosexual, even if it was implied.

There are some classic 2010s songs on Savvy’s playlists, the highlights from that time where even if we weren’t super into pop music, the songs were good enough that they survived the test of time (aka being majorly overplayed).

We took a music production class senior year where our main influence were artists like Skrillex, who we used to hate but found a love for playing Just Dance 2014 (?) which was the artist of our favorite track to play on that game, playing it year after year.

In 2023/2024 we also discovered a love for “female hysteria music” with artists like Ethel Cain, Kiki Rockwell, Paris Paloma, and more. Songs that take history and horror and blend them into a narrative of historical suppression and exploration of women by men.

If any of these things interest you, check out my and Savvy’s accounts on Spotify:

Punk:

Savvy:

Joint playlist:

This is probably the most interesting ask I’ve ever gotten, and though it’s been sitting for a while, it was a joy to work on. Thank you so much.

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2024 List of Books Read

This year has a “when in Rome” vibe and I was in Ireland. Also may have forgotten to write a couple.

Irish Superstitions Daithi O’Hogain

This Road of Mine by Seosamh Mac Grianna translated by Micheal o hAodha

Babel by RF Kuan

16 Lives: Thomas MacDonagh Biography by Shane McKenna

16 Lives: Joseph Mary Plunkett Biography by Honor O’ Brolchain (who I met several times wonderful woman and i love what her and her family does for disability activism in Ireland)

Authority Jeff Vandermeer

Tales of Gravity Falls (graphic novel)

Book of Bill (BN edition)

Magic Fish (graphic novel) Trung Le Nguyen

Black is the Body by Emily Bernard

Lies My Teacher Told Me (graphic novel) by James W. Loewen, Illustrated by Powell

Goddess of the River Vaishnavi Patel

Rebel Sisters Colon-McKenna

Now I’m still working through Absolution and a book on Palestine. Theres also Weight of a Feather a poetry collection by Stephanie Ní Thiarnaigh I have dipped in and out of. But on my mind is collective action and resistance which at the moment being isolated what it even means.