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Just realised when I get to the stage when you can see my spine, people will see how messed up my spine is from my spine disease 😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅 talk about spooniespo! 🥄
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What I Grieve Because of my Chronic Illnesses: A Non-Exhaustive List (that only scratches the surface)
*All the opportunities that I could have had
*A future I thought would be possible
*My career that I had only just began
*My friends and family, who walked away, as I slowly faded into the walls and sheets of my bed, while chronic illness stole my ability to be the person that they expected me to still be.
*My independence and self-reliance
*My pride
*My passions
*Who I was
*My potential
*My purpose
*My Hope
#spoonie#chronic illness#cfs#chronic fatigue#spoonie problems#out of spoons#invisible illness#pots#post sars#postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome#myalgicencephalomyelitis#myalgic encephalomyelitis#chronic fatigue syndrome#chronically disabled#disabled#permanent disability#chronically ill#chronic pain#spoonie probz#spoonie grief#grief#spoonie things#spoonie lists#spoonie life#sad spoonie#no spoons
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My fingers hurt so much lately and it is making so much of my life hard
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You're telling me there are people who AREN'T in near-constant pain? That people can go multiple days, even WEEKS without being in ANY pain? Sounds fake but ok.
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Real talk: Being nonbinary and/or trans masc and having debilitating endometriosis is fuckin awful. The disease is aggressive, incurable and leaves me unable to work, think or exist outside of the house and on top of that I'm dealing with dysphoria and alienation because every support group/site and every endo blogger is like 'LADIES!' 'WOMEN!!' 🙄🙄🙄🙄
#Endometriosis#About me 2k20#People who menstruate#Men who bleed#Trans and disabled#Queer and disabled#Spoonie probz#endo warrior
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Conversation with my spanish professor
Me: Can you tell me if this vocab list i found online is accurate? I'm trying to learn some extra words to use
Him: Hmmmmm... well these are all medical terms. You should focus on words you use every day
Me: right!
Him: I mean honestly how often would you even use these? Almost never im sure.
Me: *sighs in chronic illness*
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I just saw a Neurologist today who told me I didn't have MS, which was ALREADY confirmed by the MS Specialist I saw the beginning of this month. I also told him most of the testing he wanted performed had been done before. His conclusion was that I was perfectly healthy, but have depression and anxiety and that he could prescribe me medication to make me quote-unquote, feel good 😒
I could have told him I have anxiety, but most of it is due to PTSD from the symptoms I've been having for over the course of a year, because I can't get a proper diagnosis. At this point, I honestly feel like I'm going crazy and am losing all hope in doctors. I'm going to continue my vegetarian diet and doing yoga. I would be appreciative if anyone can give me any kind of insight, suggestions, or just help me feel like I'm not alone in this fight. I feel like no one understands what I'm going through.
I have had:
Random shooting pains (hasn't happened in a while)
memory problems (forgetting things, trouble finding words for things, and often use the wrong term for things even though I'm thinking the right one)
Numbness and tingling in legs (this has stopped since last November)
Burning in feet (extremely rare)
Leg jerks (I think maybe myoclonic jerks, only in left leg)
Pain in muscles and joints (I think this could possibly be restless leg syndrome)
Dysphonia (very rare)
Heat intolerance
Working out makes leg weakness worse
Occasional headaches
Eye pain (occasional)
Fatigue (random, and happens more when overheated)
Leg weakness (more in left leg, and has stopped since changing to vegetarian diet and doing yoga)
fasciculation (rare)
Ibs (I believe because I've never had stomach issues before)
Those are the symptoms I can think off the top of my head. My previous doctors said I could have conversion disorder, but I have found that's an outdated term and it is now known as Functional Neurological Disorder. But my current doctor just said I was perfectly healthy and blamed my symptoms on depression and anxiety after seeing me for all of four minutes each visit. He's seen me twice.
The treatment of doctors bother me more than the actual symptoms, and at this point, I'm at a loss on what to do. I went to the ER Sunday night because some symptoms came out of nowhere and scared me because I had a sharp pain in my left side that made me double over, and my leg started to jerk excessively. They ran a toxicology test for illegal drugs without my consent. I guess because my left leg was twitching, even though I told them the only drug I've ever tried is marijuana and rarely use it because I don't like the way it makes me feel. Btw, all the tests came back negative. They gave me Ativan because they said it would help me relax and stop the leg jerks, it helped my anxiety, but the leg jerks continued. They didn't tell me what drug they were giving me before or what the side effects could possibly be until I asked them. I felt like I wasn't even a person and did not like the way I was being treated.
#spoonie#fnd#functional neurological disorder#chronic illness#chronically ill#savior hide#spoonie problems#spoonie probz#invisible illness#spoonie life#invisibly ill#depression tw#anxiety tw#drug tw
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So I started aimovig for my migraines the other day. That night I ended up sore and tired. The next day I had a pretty decent migraine that lasted 23 hours. One of my longest. And now I'm just so fuzzy brained. My brain fog is really really bad. It almost feels like I'm trying to disassociate.
#aimovig#chronic migraine#chronic pain#chronically ill#spoonie probz#spoonielife#spoonie#spoonie problems#new meds
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Things that suck about being underweight #1
My itty bitty subQ infusion needles hurt like a bitch due to my lack of proper leg fat
#ibd#crohn's#crohn's disease#crohns#crohns disease#chronic illness#underweight#spoonie#spoonie problems#spoonie probz#life of a spoonie#life of a crohnie
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Falls asleep after dinner now my brain feels the way kitty looks in this photo. . .
#nap#2am thoughts#sluggish#brain fog#whats going on#what day is it#ha ha ha#oh my gawd#you ever just#where am i#spoonies#sloth#chronic fatigue#spoonie probz
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Does anyone sometimes wonder if they were misdiagnosed because it was easier just to give you this diagnosis than to find out what the problem really is?
I feel like it's easier for my doctor to have thrown m.e. at me than test for anything else that it could be, idk maybe I keep hoping it's something they actually have a cause for or can actually see & prove in tests.
I just wonder if they'll finally find the test for m.e. & it'll turn out it was something else all along, that they could have fixed.
#spoonie#m.e.#m.e./cfs#chronic illness#cfs#myalgic encephalomyelitis#chronic fatigue syndrome#cfs/me#spoonie problems#spoonie life#chronic fatigue#chronic pain#spoonie probz#spoonie living
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List of things I have to think about that able people don’t:
When they can eat in the morning (I have to wait for a specific time after taking my meds)
Can I manage a shower!?
Walking up stairs, oh god the stairs
Leaving the house to go to the shop around the corner
"If I meet a friend today, will I be okay for the thing I have to do in two days time"
Simply being able to roll over in bed
Being able to put together a basic meal (including "easy" things like sandwiches)
Having to have emergency food for when you cannot make it to the kitchen
Hope can I escape this mind-numbing boredom without moving?
I have 4 days to finish this essay, if I have a crash or a flare what can I do?
How can I relieve the neck and back ache I have from always lying down while continuing to lie down
Here's just a short list of things, add your own!
#invisible illness#chronic illness#disability#ableism at home#ableist systems#what able people don't know about disability#chronically ill#chronic fatigue#chronic fatigue syndrome#cfs/me#cfs#spoonie#spoonie life#spoonie living#spoonie probz
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I would pay so much money for a conceal carry back brace. Do they even make those? My wrap-around holster braces somewhat, but not very well and wearing it with my holster is too bulky, plus I wear the holster to low anyway. So all this means I can't carry on flareup days. Y' know...the times I'm most vulnerable.
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I am on perscription grade ibuprofen and still in "I cant move" level of pain
Send help
#cw medicene#tw medicene#tw medication#tw medical#ibuprofen#pain killers#spoonie#spoonie strong#spoonie struggle#spoonie stuff#spoonie problems#spoonie probz#chronic pain#chronic illness#chronically ill#chronic fatigue
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Ive spent all day in bed cause sitting anywhere else hurts literally even just sitting up takes so much energy
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5.18.19
Had a bad night a few days ago.
I completely lost it. Lost all control over my emotions. I spiraled out and cried myself to sleep. I couldn’t breathe at one point. A full blown freak out.
As my lungs felt like they couldn’t possibly pull one more breath in, I blissfully fell asleep.
I haven’t had an episode like this for almost a year. I feel 1) shame 2) anger and 3) hopelessness, always hopelessness. I want control over my body, over this pain, and some days it is just too much to take. This was one of those days.
I’m ashamed that I relapsed into this negative thinking, this spiral of angst and hopelessness where I get trapped.
I’m angry at the world for dealing me this shitty card. I don’t want to live in pain anymore. And here I am.
The hopelessness is the worst. I got “esperanza” tattooed on my body to remind me that I’ll always have hope. And I forgot that. I can’t afford to forget it.
I need to remember that not every day is a bad day. Some days are actually okay. And other days are even good.
I need to remember that hope for a better day is what will get me through the bad ones.
xxA
#chronic pain#chronic illness#daybyday#pelvic floor dysfunction#pelvic pain#pelvic floor#pain management#interstitial cystitis#pain#pfd#depression#anxiety#ic warrior#ic pain#spoonie#spoonie probz#spoonie problems
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