#sorry went off on a rant

[trilledllamatri]

I really like trigun and the fandom in general, but I feel like this needs to be said.

Dear Trigun Fandom, Please remember to tag your nsfw work as such. Brony's tag their work better than some of you. -A Sex Repulsed Ace

If you already do this, from the bottom of my heart, thank you. You deserve the fanciest dessert you can imagine.

[buggachat]

To be clear, I goddamn hated the finale on first watch. I was withering in my seat. My heart had dropped to my stomach. I had no fucking idea what I was watching in that final scene lmao

and then Adrien said "when Ladybug gave me the rings—" and I was like— wait. LADYBUG? LADYBUG STILL EXISTS?

I THOUGHT THE ENTIRE TIMELINE HAD BEEN REWRITTEN 😭😭😭😭 I THOUGHT LADYBUG AND CHATN OIR DIDNT UFCKING EXIST uNTIL ADRIEN SAID THAT I WAS SO SO SO SCARED

and then I realized, oh wait. This isn't a complete utopian timeline rewrite. This is just a timeskip of a few months and Mme Bustier is just a kickass mayor. In fact, she's only mayor BECAUSE it's still the same timeline. And then I realized, hey, wait, if they didn't rewrite the timeline, then how tf is Emilie casually there with no questions?

And then I realized she was wearing black. And Félix was there. And I remembered Amelie exists.

Basically, I went into the finale chanting to myself "it's okay, it's okay... they probably wont bring Emilie back... they probably won't rewrite the entire timeline permanently.... right? please....", even though I didn't actually expect it to happen, but just because I was terrified that it could. And apparently that fear actually got to me so much that I misinterpreted the episode as being everything I didn't want it to be... when... it actually wasn't that at all

anyway, all of this is to say, everything in the episode happens so fast that it confused and terrified me at first. And when I realized what had happened, my opinion went from "my year is ruined" to "oh. well. okay. kind of disappointing, I guess". And then I kept thinking about it, and the ending, and all that is set up and rewatching the scenes and all the loose ends still in place and.... i realized I loved it?

like, every time I think about this finale, I love it more. every time i rewatch a scene, I get a little obsessed. this episode went from my nightmare to actually really really cool to me, and I'm still kind of reeling from it

Basically, this is why I've been kind of passionately defending the finale— not because I think people who don't like it are """dumb""" or anything, I don't blame people at all for that, and I totally get the confusion. I was confused too. And I know I'm not the only one who went in preparing themselves for the worst, or went in with very specific expectation on what will happen, because this finale has been long awaited for so long. I think everyone was shocked with how it ended. I think most people probably startled at Amelie's face (it's so easy to forget she exists....)

Anyways, I started this post basically as an apology for if I seem too aggressive or defensive about the finale. Because I get it! I get hating it! I get being disappointed or frustrated or confused! Part of why I'm so defensive is because I have all the arguments so ready on the tip of my tongue because I had the very same argument with myself already 😭 So I'm sorry if any of my posts came off as too aggressive and in advance for any future posts that might. I promise promise promise I'm not trying to make anyone feel bad for having bad opinions on the finale! I just think this episode is really cool and the fact I related to a lot of the nay-sayers makes it easy to feel so impassioned about it.

But this post is getting off the rails and I'm just gonna let it, because some of my regrets w my participation in fandom is that I find myself chickening out of actually talking about my thoughts on episodes a lot. I get kind of overwhelmed and overthink everything after I've posted it and I'm a shy person. But my inbox is closed and this is the season 5 finale and I want to ramble and ramble so I will allow myself this

Basically, I went in with some very specific expectations for this episode. We all know about the Hawkmoth defeat story. Many of us have read it in fics over and over again, it was teased in Chat Blanc, we all know what we expect, we all know our favorite beats from it.

And what actually happened....... met virtually none of those beats. (For me, at least).

Like, Adrien wasn't there for the final episode. At all. He was completely absent from the confrontation. He never found out his father was Hawkmoth. He got his rings, but he never found out he was a sentimonster. He is living in the dark.

Ladybug confronted Monarch... alone. Which is sad, when so much of the series is dedicated to the partnership of her and Chat Noir. Them against the world....... and Monarch was "defeated" with nary a Chat Noir in sight.

The whole entire "Gabriel is known as a hero" thing. I don't think anybody was expecting that. Absolutely shocking.

The fact Marinette would lie to Adrien like that. The fact she's keeping so much from him. The fact everyone is. SO MANY people in Adrien's life (Marinette, Plagg, Nathalie, Felix, Amelie, Kagami, probably Alya, maybe more I'm not thinking of....) are just... lying to him, now. He is so in the dark. He knows nothing.

But.........

I kind of like that I didn't predict nearly any of this. I like that it caught me off guard. I love how this show just completely baffles me at every turn, how it will present concepts and ideas to me that I've never read a fic about.

In retrospect, Chat Noir being absent from the final battle... makes sense. It actually makes a lot of sense, if I think about it, because... there is only one possible way that could've gone, right? Chat Noir would not be allowed to have the emotional implosion that he would have to have. This is devastating. This is SO devastating. This is the entire shattering of Adrien's entire world we're talking about, and Chat Blanc is the only real way for that to end. Adrien has an emotional implosion in front of Monarch, he gets akumatized, it turns into an emotion explosion, extinction event. The end. We've already seen it.

And........ even if it didn't end that way, even if he managed to avoid akumatization...... how could the finale satisfyingly end on that note? How could it end in any semblance of a "wrapped up" way, at the very start of Adrien's emotional breakdown? It couldn't. I wouldn't WANT it to. In retrospect, Adrien finding out his dad is Monarch and then.... what? The season ends on a close-up of him crying? The season ends with a time-skip to the new school year where they skipped his entire grieving period!? I would HATE that, actually. I would hate that. I thought I wanted it, but I would hate it. I would hate it so so so much.

What's kind of amazing is that the finale ended with Monarch being defeated.... but Adrien still has those realizations to make. He still has those betrayals to come to terms with. There is time for him to make these realizations, for him to come to these conclusions, perhaps one at a time, perhaps in a more controlled environment.... and that gets me far, far more excited for the seasons to come than an episode that tried to wrap it all up in the last 5 minutes.

Also, the reason Adrien didn't go to the final battle was because he feared becoming Chat Blanc. He didn't know the truth to it, didn't understand that literally, yes, that's what would have happened if he was there, even if he hadn't been under a nightmare curse. But he still knew. He still expected it. He willingly chose to sit it out, no matter how much he hated it, because he knew. And there's something kind of powerful to that, I think, of Adrien making a choice that is so unequivocally the Correct choice, even more than he realized. And the strength it took for him to make that decision...... damn.

As for the lies and the Gabriel statue? I... it's upsetting, but it's supposed to be. And I believe it. I absolutely believe it. I 10000% believe Marinette would keep the secret of Monarch's identity to herself to try to save Adrien the pain. I 10000% believe that the population could easily be led to believe a famous billionaire is a hero. I 10000% believe that Adrien would WANT to believe it. I 10000% believe Tomoe would take advantage of it.

And I can't wait to see that illusion crumble.

Also.... this is the beginning of The Lila arc.

And the Lila arc begins on........ Marinette telling the biggest, boldest face lie she ever told. The Lila arc begins on the most extreme city-wide illusion we've ever seen. It begins on such a huge fabrication and....

..... it's Marinette's lie.

............ and Lila knows that it's a lie.

I'm

!!?!?!?!

This is so fucking cool???? The irony here??? the deceit???? All these loose ends, all the possible confrontations, all the ways this could GO. I don't know where the show is taking this, obviously, because nobody ever can predict where this show is going apparently (and I love it for that), but oh my god. I'm imagining all the fics I could read about this. all the fics I could write. all the thoughts and scenarios that this finale has provided me with to daydream about as I go to sleep.

Adrien, going through the motions of life. Looking up to his father as a hero, despite the fact the last time he saw him, Adrien was sobbing, in tears, and cursing his name. Adrien, after all the abuse he was subject to, having to look up at a statue of his father and...... be forced to think that maybe he was wrong about his father. But he's not wrong. He WASN'T wrong. He just THINKS that he is. His father is going to continue to loom over his life in ways I never expected post-hawkmoth. Adrien's relationship with Gabriel has not ended, a new and terrifying and horrible new chapter of it has simply begun, and Adrien is still as manipulated by his father's ghost as he was by his father himself.

THAT'S. WILD!!!

also, Adrien now believes that MONARCH MURDERED HIS FATHER. Chat Noir now believes that his greatest nemesis KILLED HIS FATHER. CHAT NOIR, resident self-sacrificer, believes that HIS FATHER was a HERO who DIED FIGHTING MONARCH. Adrien thinks that maybe he should be more like his father— more like his father who died in battle. This is. Not Good. For Adrien.

And it's Marinette that started this. Well intentioned Marinette, who doesn't really understand the extent of the horrors. Marinette, Adrien's girlfriend, the person he trusts most. She did this.

And, I mean.... god. I totally get how this sucks for a lot of people, because it's objectively upsetting.... but I LOVE lovesquare tension. Season 4 is probably my favorite season for that reason alone (still mulling over if season 5 beat it for me). I love the relationship drama, I love that it's in character drama, I love how it fits everything we know about them sososo well, I love that it's horrible and it's terrible and it's awful and it's all because Marinette loved Adrien too much to want to hurt him.

I was worried no reveal would mean that season 6 would just be... what? adrienette fluff? not that I don't love that, but where's the drama? well. there it is. that's the drama.

I need to stop typing this. I know this is abysmally long and ranty and if you read all of this then I'm sorry. But I wanted to get some of my thoughts out.

But basically, I was expecting a lot of things for the finale.

In my best case scenario, it would somehow, miraculously tie up and address all the loose ends with Adrien's angst and character arc in two episodes.... and then end with me totally satisfied, ready to only half-heartedly watch season 6 like it was just a small dessert after the main course.

And I already described my worst case scenario (my first impression of the episode lmao)

But it wasn't that. I was expecting a series finale, but I got a season finale. And I love season finales. I love how they keep me wanting more. I love how excited I am for season 6, because in both my best and worst case scenarios, I honestly didn't expect to be. I love all the new ideas and thoughts and scenarios swirling around in my brain. And even if season 6 doesn't address some of the things I want addressed, I'm so excited to see the creative content in this fandom that DOES

[fellshish]

A bad writing teacher can really mess you up even if you know they’re wrong

[gearbroth]

who put all these owls in my house smh

[starrysharks]

i want to delete my twitter account so fucking bad

[bigmammallama5]

nothing like taking your car in to get brakes replaced only for the cost to double bc the mechanic found something else the dealership didn't "find" that genuinely needs to be fixed

[rickybaby]

I don’t think I have yet come to term to how things went down over the weekend.

Is it wrong to call it harassment by the press? Because make no mistake, while Red Bull bears a huge part of the responsibility for how the situation developed and for not doing anything to stop it, the press is truly the real culprit here. I don’t think there was a single instance over the weekend where someone took his name and it wasn’t followed by ‘potentially his last race’. And this situation has been building up for months. Week in, week out, they’ve constantly harassed him. Daniel, Jacque Villeneuve said you’re worthless. How do you respond to that? Daniel, Helmut Marko has said you’re losing your seat. Is it true? Daniel, we’ve asked your ex-teammate, your current teammate and Lance Stroll if you deserve to stay in Formula One. Daniel, why are you smiling?

Is it any wonder he cracked after one of the most gruelling races of the year?

[an-au-blog]

I always felt like Usopp feels hard to love. He needs constant reassurances, he will never feel like he's good enough, he watches his friends move forward and feel cemented in place, he will always be the needyest. Especially pre-timeskip - he will always feel like the weakest link, pulling them down, it will always be a matter of time before they realize they're better off without the dead weight.

So he lies. He lies to gain some kind of status in their eyes. He needds to feel the admiration from whoever will believe him because if he's not as cool, and useful, and strong and brave as the rest of them, then then what is he?

But the thing is that he is cool all those things. And I think that he is perhaps the bravest of them all. he's never faced anything like what he was suddenly exposed to when he joined the crew, all of them had some kind of experience in adventures or wandering on their own, but he had been in his peaceful village for his whole life and suddenly he's forced to face the great unknown and he takes it without hesitation.

Usopp is a man who knows his limits. He knows his limitations, in fact, I feel like he often underestimates himself. He is a cowered in compared to everyone else in one piece but that's exactly what makes him so brave. Bravery isn't not fearing anything, it's overcoming it all despite how petrified you may be.

He is honestly one of my favourite characters and I love him dearly. I can talk about how awesome he is for days, but I guess I just wanted to share this for now <3

[transgenderprototype]

Ill go onto someone's profile and their pinned post will have like "DNI IF YOU SUPPORT [insert artist] ILL BLOCK YOUR ASS IF YOU REBLOG THEIR ART anyway u can dm me if you want more info on why i have a vitriolic hatred for this person, i pwomise it wont be biased and full of bullshit :3"

Ill be like "okay thats fucking stupid, im not dm'ing them for what'll clearly be a biased response. I should probably look more into it.

I find out why.

"Oh these are lies. These are lies being spread because someone leaked a queer person's nsfw alt and found something they could twist into being "morally wrong" and theyre still continuing as the artist clarifies that what they drew isnt [whatever theyre trying to twist it into]."

[sdvshanewife]

honestly anyone who compares any stardew characters traumatic backstory with another’s as a way of feeling superior or validating why they like a character who starts off as kind of rude feels icky.

BUT ESPECIALLY in shane’s case, “haley changes unl-“ who ever says shit like that is, and i say this with my full chest, ANTI-RECOVERY and also.. probably has a sprinkle of classism, fatphobia and general ableism.

shane is a recovering alcoholic, he is in recovery through out most of his cutscenes. he’s going to therapy, cutting back on how MUCH he drinks (which is important!! cutting back is alot more effective than cutting off! him having a beer every once in a while is not shane “not changing”, thats him knowing when he should stop and finally being able too..) he is actively suicidal when the farmer meets him, he isn’t just going to immediately stop drinking or never have mental issues again just cause he has a partner now, he’s going to have his ups and downs and he’s going to relapse sometimes but thats not him choosing to not change!! thats just how it is when you have been so codependent on a substance for years and decide to quit it!!

i dont really understand the classism and fatphobia point? and i don't think theyre anti recovery, i think they just don't understand the way addiction works and just shanes character in general.

and for the last point, theres wayyyyy too many people that marry shane/like shane because hes the "i can fix him" character in the fandom and it always gives me a bad feeling. so many of them its super annoying that they expect him to quit completely and be a little angel that does no wrong just because... theyre married and he got fixed with just love? and when he drinks (after marriage), they all get pissy because they dont actually understand addiction works and/or because they don't actually understand his character in general. it's so upsetting to me how shane, the depressed, suicidal and alcoholic man has just become the "i can fix him character".

[saint-ambrosef]

honestly one of the most painful things to see as a religious person is for someone who left your faith to explain why, and its because they misunderstood a major tenet of the belief (or had it misrepresented to them).

like most of the time there's not really anything you can do to help them see it differently or undo all the trauma that the misunderstanding caused, and that sucks. especially when the ex-believer then uses it as proof for why your belief is bad.

[wayfinderships]

Oh boy! :D I can't wait to look through my f/os tag!

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[teatitty]

Honestly your takes on Iruka are so refreshing this fandom treats him like he’s not a ninja and it’s so weird because he has quite a few A ranks under his belt along with being noted as having great potential I kind of wish it was explored more but who knows

You're so welcome because I've read many a fic where people act like he'd clutch his pearls over killing someone like guys. Fellas. He's been on multiple B and A rank missions. He's absolutely fucking killed many people before, not to mention all the times lower ranked missions simply Go To Hell or a client lies about how dangerous a job is etc. Shit happens. He's literally training kids to be killers he would not be doing that if he had some uwu innocent civilian mindset

And he has three chakra natures! Fire, Water and Yin, as taken from his actual databooks. There's so much you can do with that alone just by looking the various jutsu in those three categories! We know he uses strong barrier seals so it makes sense for so many of us to have him as an excuse to create Seal Jutsu lore but you can expand outside of it too!

His basics would be fucking flawless given how often he has to teach them to kids, his aim with a kunai or shuriken is probably immaculate, like sure in a 1V1 taijutsu fight he's not beating Gai because Gai is a literal expert at that style but that doesn't mean he can't do decent hand to hand against other shinobi and bandits and fighters!

I saw someone complain once that some fans make him overpowered enough to "break the canon" and that has me going tch because like. Kishimoto broke his own canon powerscaling all the time. The Sannin. Sasuke and Naruto. Pain. Madara and Hashirama. Kakuzu and Hidan. Obito for a long while. Fucking Danzo even. If canon is allowed to break itself multiple times then so are we

Cringe is dead make your faves as overpowered as you want for the stories you want to tell. For instance: me making Sakura the hokage in my canon instead of Naruto and having Ino and Hinata as her ANBU guards. Yanno

[tai-janai]

hey tai, u’re a big narrator fan, right? 

could i ask for ur opinion on the line “an endless pattern of forgetfulness leading into the joys of rediscovery” when we ask him what it would be like to live in a world without the shifting mound?

like what did he mean by that?? im interested in seeing how u interpret it!

well yeah im a huge narry defender and appreciator

i think hes just explaining eternal life, no?

experiencing so much that you forget the earlier things youve experienced, to go back and experience them again in an endless loop? and without all the bad stuff like illness or death, with the people you love with you forever.

i think some people (not meaning you or anyone in particular, i mean like as an overall viewpoint in the fandom) believe that shifty will take all forms of change and experience when she is slain. but thats specifically stated to not be the case; lq has a bit of her with him, he is a bit of change and development along with his stagnancy (like how shifty has bits of stagnancy in her unending change)

narry's little construct he made seems to be almost everything as perfect as he could make it (his only struggle was giving LQ free will, but even that was purposeful) he wasn't trying to make everything boring. he just wanted to get rid of death and all it would encompass. endless patterns of forgetfulness and re-experience mean living on forever with all the joys of being alive.

[stop-breaking-my-heart-telltale]

if dorian didn't show up, do you think louis would have shot minnie?

I do. I know some people think either he wouldn't have or he would've missed so that's why the writers had him shoot Dorian instead, but mmmmmm no, I don't personally think so. I like to think that if he had taken the shot, his shaky hands would've caused him to shoot her fatally.

Mostly because I'm already so normal about the fact that of the Ericson crew, Marlon and Louis are the only ones with a body count. Well, that we know of, but shown to us in the game, at least. Plus, we know it's Louis' first kill.

Like yeah, Clementine and AJ become part of the crew and they have bigger body counts, and if we're counting indirect kills caused by actions, then Tenn has a count... and I guess everyone has blood on their hands for blowing up the boat... but I'm talking about killed directly with a weapon like....... I lied, I'm not normal about that at all, Louis and Marlon are the ones who have killed someone in Louis' route. I'm also not normal about the fact that Louis kills Dorian and then even as he's clearly in shock, he tries to go with Clementine to get AJ, and then later on when they talk about it, he says it feels like bile but not quite and he's glad he has it in him to do it.... listen, listen, listen... I'm obsessed with that.

Anyway, so if Louis shot Minerva, I think he would've accidentally killed her and can you imagine? He's already enough of a mess after killing the woman who pinned him down and tried to cut his finger off [or succeeded] but he knew Minerva, they were friends before the twins were taken. Even Violet couldn't kill her even though that would've been the smarter thing to do, and we know thanks to meta knowledge that killing her would've saved lives, but Violet couldn't, and I don't think Louis would intentionally either.

Speaking of Violet, if Louis killed Minerva, I hate to think about what that would've done to Vi. I think she might've actually left at that point, like what was planned before it got changed to her being burned. I don't think she would've attacked Louis over it, though, like yeah she attacked Clementine in the cell but Louis? I don't know, but I don't think so just because it's Louis and he'd be a mess about it anyway.

Though if he did kill her, it would be a neat parallel to draw... y'know, because Louis forgave AJ for killing Marlon even though he was pissed and heartbroken, and Violet was annoyed with him the entire time... but could she ever forgive Louis for killing Minerva? Y'know? We already have a similar parallel with AJ shooting Tenn, but still.

If Clementine killed Minerva in that moment, though, then I could see Violet attacking her since in her eyes, Clem proved her right.

So yeah, I get why they added the Dorian kill to his route. It adds another compelling element to Louis as a character, but we also need Minerva alive for episode 4; Louis can't kill her, he can't miss, and he's not going to stay with her because we need Violet to stay on the boat and him to be on shore for all routes.

[kaidabakugou]

the new girl at one of my favorite bakeries called me pretty this morning and it literally melted all my stress away 🥺