#sorry im being so autistic in your notes

[needer-of-xenodruggies]

Maybe but what are the odds that the weeds know about Ryūjō or Hōshō or Zuihō or the utter disaster that was what they did to Ise and Hyūga? Plus, I would wager that most Terrans wouldn't be able to tell you more than four of the eight capital ships in the Kidō Butai. In my experience, people know Akagi and Kaga (although they don't know why Akagi and Kaga were converted specifically, as they don't understand the implications of the Washington Naval Treaty and the damage of the Great Kantō earthquake in 1923) and they know Sōryū and Hiryū, but if you went out on the street, I would guess that most people, much less plants who just fought a war against the Accord, would be able to pick Shōkaku or Zuikaku out of a lineup, much less Hiei or Kirishima.

Considering the amount of military obsessed trans girls I've met I wonder how these inevitably domesticated sophonts would manage to explain to their owners that they need detailed WW2 battle reports for their latest overnet video breakdown of some obscure battle between the USS *insert state* and the DKM unbekannt

[velvetvexations]

as an autistic trans man, sometimes I feel less safe in public presenting as a man than as a woman, because, especially in certain places, man + visibly autistic tends to be more often falsely read as "dangerous and predatory" than when people read me as a woman.

Yeah, as an autistic trans woman who doesn't pass, I feel that. <3

Honestly thank you so much for what you do on this app. I'm so glad there's people who are actually willing to stand with trans men instead of pulling the "um well I have it worse so do NOT talk about your own oppression EVER or else you're a transmisogynist!" I'm so happy I found your blog and I hope you have a great week <3

I hope you have a great week as well!

Eh a long while ago Chris Fleming made a video making fun of polyamorous people which used a lot of the same hurtful stereotypes society already perpetuates against us and I’ve not paid attention since

Noted, as someone who is also poly.

i wish the queer community didnt put so much emphasis on sexuality labels like i just want to have sex why do i need to put a word to it

very valid

about the dropout “discourse”: hot take but real life people are not representation. theyre people. real people are not queerbaiting you and real people happening to not be transfem (and I have literally seen transfems in some dropout episodes theyre just not part of the main cast) is not a lack of representation. these are real people. stop* *not you, the people being shitty about it

the complaint is not in any way coming from a genuine place tbh

hey! i just wanted to let you know how much your blog means to me as a trans guy. you and your reblogs have given me hope at trans unity, and lets me know that i-- that we-- aren't alone. so thank you for everything you do, and i greatly appreciate your support and look up to you 💛

Thank you. <3

i redownloaded etsy recently and seeing all the trans stuff saved to my favorites is so sad. i used to feel happy and proud and i wanted to be open about being transmasc. but since all the discourse got worse i just. cant bring myself to feel like it matters. it makes me feel like im trans and yet i will never matter the way other trans people do.

You do matter anon, I promise. I love you, you matter, and I'm glad you're here.

As a trans guy a lot of the self-ID'd TME transmascs weird me out so much. Like why do they all sound like "I am so strong and my power to Harm Women is immense. I could do it so much and I feel the pull to the Transmisogynist Dark Side but *unsheaths sword* I will protect them instead with my big strong testosterone arms from my fellow men" like what even is that. Who is into this.

it's so incredibly obviously bad but it reinforces some people's victim complexes so it's praxis now

a trans person will joke about their experience and a trf will jump in to assume theyre a white transmasc who has never ever faced any real difficulties for being trans

every time

Out of the many, many stupid ideas in this dumb discourse, I've finally decided the one I hate the most is that underlying implication that transmascs just aren't trans enough. It's so gross seeing people imply that we aren't really trans. Our dysphoria is minimal discomfort at most, apparently. I've seen people post about and imply that transmascs will never understand not feeling like a person or being unable to live a life pre transition and that's why we have privilege, i guess - are you kidding me? It's like our experiences are a joke to these people who are clearly so wrapped up in their online discourse bubble that they're just detached from what it's like for trans people as a whole. Sorry for the vent (would rather not post this on main and I don't have anyone to talk to) but it's just the most grating part. Also it's like. Low-key transmed shit. Thought we left that behind, c'mon.

transmeds are like ants they come back every summer

i wish TRFs had a label they proudly called themselves so i could jsut go through their tags and block them, but noooooo they HAVE to frame their transphobic bullshit as Brilliant Transfeminist Theory. like atleast radfems are fucking honest about being radfems

That's part of why I made antigonism a label for anti-TRFs to call themselves~!

[goldenlikedayl1ght]

lover - p. parker

a/n: hi guys so sorry it's been a while i meant to finish this a million times and im still not thrilled with the ending but oh well! i want to make a quick note that as someone whose hard of hearing i am aware that being hoh/deaf has a lot of rheotric around it and there's a lot of positive associations with being hoh/deaf but reader in this fic is not always happy with being hoh because being deaf/hoh has a LOT of complciated emotions associated with it! just keep that in mind as we go forward. warnings: hoh!reader, cursing probably, suggestive behaviors, lots of kissing, lots of fluff, a poorly written ending, gn!reader, reader having a lot of complex emotions about their hearing, talks of weddings, and reader has a mom and a step dad who love them. AUTISTIC PETER BTW ITS ONLY MENTIONED ONCE BUT IT IS IMPORTANT TO ME word count: 4.0k summary: peter parker is quite literally the most amazing boyfriend ever. even when you realize you're hard of hearing. pairing: tasm!peter parker x hoh!reader now playing: lover - taylor swift "my heart's been borrowed and yours has been blue/all's well that ends well to end up with you/swear to be over-dramatic and true to my/lover"

Going to the grocery store is a nightmare.  

Especially when you go on a Saturday in New York City, on a relatively nice day out.

You’re pushing the cart through the grocery store, trying to focus on what’s right in front of you as Peter comes up behind you, placing a box of cinnamon toast crunch in the bag before you check it off your list.

This is your system—Peter runs around grabbing your assorted groceries for the next two weeks as you check it off the list, then there is two people making sure you have all your groceries. This pretty much eliminates the possibility of having to run out to the store during the week.

And usually, you do this very early on Sunday mornings—Like, you and Peter are the first patrons at the store.

But you’re out of just a few things that are essential—Toothpaste, Milk, coffee—You pretty much just decided to get it out of the way for the next two weeks.

The problem now, is that you’re in this crowded store, full of people talking, machines beeping and carts wheeling.. You’re struggling to focus. That’s what you pass it off as, at least.

Peter’s hand lands gently on your arm as he says your name gently.

“Huh?” You tilt your head to look at him.

“I just wanted to know what was next on the list.” He smiles at you. You glance down at the list,

“Uh, Bread.” You tell him, planning on making grilled cheese and tomato soup for dinner.

“Okay, I’ll be right back.” He hums, pressing a kiss to the side of your head. You smile softly. You’re not the biggest fan of PDA but Peter can recognize when you’re feeling upset and just need a reminder of your worth.

A few minutes later, as you’re struggling to ground yourself in the middle of this Trader Joe’s, Peter spooks you when he comes up behind you, his hand resting on your upper arm.

“Fucking Christ—” You gasped, “You terrified me!”

“I’m sorry, Baby.” He says gently. “I called your name a few times, was yapping all the way down the aisle.”

“Oh..” Your face softens. You don’t really know how to say all the things you’re feeling.

“Hey, I’ll—I’ll finish up here, how bout you step outside for a few minutes? Wait for me by the carts?”

Your list is almost finished up so you nod, smiling gently before leaving the grocery store, finally getting some peace and quiet. You lean against the wall of the grocery store, watching people pass the grocery store. About twenty minutes later, Peter walks out of the grocery store, holding your grocery bags. He hands you two bags but carries about four. Your boyfriend is Spider-man, and as much as you hate taking advantage of that.. You can’t’ deny how nice his strength is for situations like this.

He shifts the bags around to pull two candy bars out of his pocket—

A Snickers for him, and a standard Hershey bar for you.

You eat your candy as you make the short trip home, not saying much. The candy bar helps, but this looming truth lingers in the air, and you don’t want to be the one to say anything about it. So the pair of you make your way into the apartment, putting away your groceries wordlessly. But in the quiet of your apartment, you stop, suddenly plagued with a new trouble.

“My ears are ringing.”

“What?” It’s not something he’s asking because he did not hear you, but the statement catches him off guard.

“My ears are ringing.” You repeat. He gently takes the oranges out of your hands, scared that you might dig your fingers into them and destroy them half an hour after he picked them out.

“Okay,” he says softly, putting them to the side. “Why don’t you go sit down in the living room while I make some tea and put the groceries away?” He gently prods. Too busy wanting to literally claw off your own ears, you nod and head over to your couch.

Peter’s by your side a few minutes later with a mug of tea on the coffee table. However, it goes quickly forgotten as you climb on top of him, cuddling into him. His hands rub your back gently. You sit like this for a while, until he decides to ask—

“How long have you had trouble with your hearing?” His voice is soft. You reflect for a little while, before responding with a soft,

“A long time, now..” You remember being a teenager and having trouble hearing your friends in the lunchroom and lectures being a nightmare during college. “I think I’ve been just ignoring it for a few years..”

He had a feeling that’s what your answer would have been—you’re rather in tune with yourself, and something like this would’ve been something you picked up on a long time ago. But he doesn’t blame you for ignoring something like this.

“You know we should probably go to an audiologist, right?” He asks.

“Yeah, I know..” You sigh, cuddling into him further, as if you can hide away from the entire world.

“I’ll take you,” he says gently, not wanting you to worry about going alone or being anxious. You’ll be anxious anyways, but maybe he could help. And he will help, his fingers always brushing against your skin, making sure you remember that he’s there and not going anywhere. It’s the best way he can help-- By making sure you’re not alone.

“Thanks..” Your voice breaks, and he frowns, his hand coming to find your cheek, pulling you into his view. The sight of you crying makes his heart squeeze.

“What’s the matter, baby?” He asks softly, his thumb wiping your tears.

“I don’t..” You bite your lip, trying to form the words. You’re not an idiot. You have done some research on Deaf culture. You knew that it was an enhancement, something to be proud of. And that was phenomenal—You had done a lot of courses in college on disability rhetoric, and you knew how important it was to reinforce positive associations with disabilities, as well as the fact that most deaf and hard of hearing people did not consider themselves disabled.

And all that pride lived inside of you—But you couldn’t help your struggle about the subject. It would take time to adjust to, and Peter.. Peter deserved an easy life. He was Spider-Man for Christ’s sake!

“I don’t want you to have to worry about me if it turns out I do have trouble hearing. I don’t want to be a burden to you.”

He frowns at this, tilting his head.

“Hey,” he tilts his head, looking at you with admiration. “Did you know when I was adopted by my aunt and uncle they told them I would be a challenge to raise? That my autism and lack of social skills would make me.. harder to love..?”

“You’re not hard to love.” You immediately say, and he smiles.

“I know. My aunt and uncle proved that to me, they went into raising me knowing that I would just have different struggles as other kids my age. Even if you are heard of hearing or deaf—You’re not hard to love. You just have different experiences and struggles from other people our age. But that doesn’t mean I don’t want every part of that journey.” He leans forward and places a kiss on your forehead. It makes you smile a bit. “Now, no more tears. Let’s watch a movie, and we’ll start our research tomorrow, okay?” He hums.

You nod and grab the throw blanket behind him, pulling it across the pair of you as he grabs the remote and turns on your favorite movie. His hands stay on you, rubbing comforting patterns into your skin.

He turns the subtitles on without you asking.

• • •

The audiologist office has lights that are too bright. You and Peter sit side by side, as you look around at the other patients. Your chest tightens as you realize you are surrounded by people in their 70’s and 80’s—Except for you, a twenty something year old, a young boy, around seven, and a teenage girl. You all share similar looks of discomfort, but in your anxiety, you notice that there’s a sense of.. familiarity in seeing people your age here.

You decide to put a pin in your thoughts, as Peter’s hand finds your thigh, and you glance back over to him. In the past two weeks, He’s been giving more physical cues to get your attention, a small way he’s trying to make you feel more comfortable.

“Stop bouncing your leg,” he says softly, “You’re just working yourself up.” He says gently. You nod, and then your name is called, so you gather your things, and before you go, Peter grabs your wrist, before throwing up the sign in ASL for ‘I love you’. You grin and throw it back, before following the nurse into the back.  

Peter waits, for around half an hour, making sure not to draw too much attention to himself. He makes pleasant conversation with two of the older ladies who are there, after finding out that they all grew up in Queens.

After that half hour, you come back out of the back rooms of the office, and Peter grins at you as he says a quick, respectful goodbye to the two older women, before handing you your jacket.

The pair of you stay quiet until you’re out of the office, and only when you’re a few steps away does he slip his jacket on before asking,

“How’d it go?” And with this, he clumsily signs along. The pair of you have been practicing ASL—Short phrases here and there.

You hesitate for an answer, going into your bag and fishing out a small ASL dictionary. Inside, in his sort of messy handwriting, Peter has written you a note that you take a glance at every time you open it. It reads, ‘Don’t forget I love you’, and it never fails to make you smile.

Another challenge you’ve been facing in your journey to learn ASL is your facial expressions—You’ve never been good at properly matching your face to your emotions or words, so it’s been a struggle.

“Fine,” You speak and sign. Then you pause. “Actually, not fine.” You sign, and then you drop the signing, because you’re only a beginner. “It’s sort of what we expected—My hearing is.. bad, and will probably get worse as I age.” His hand finds yours.

“Okay.. What did he say about hearing aids?”

“That If I felt like I needed them to schedule a follow-up.” You tell him. “But they’re expensive and I’ll need to do research to see what sort of health insurance coverage I have.”

He nods gently, his thumb rubbing your knuckles gently.

“Well, we’re gonna cross that bridge when we get there, yeah?”

“Yeah.”

He throws up the sign for ‘I love you’. You throw it back. And it might seem stupid, but every time Peter holds up that sign, your heart melts a little bit. Maybe it’s a low bar or something like that—And it’s true. But Peter is learning a whole new language for the sake of making sure you’re comfortable and for your comfort. No one has ever done anything close to that for you.

• • •

Peter has become in tune with your body. Which is a weird way to say it, but it’s true. Those heightened senses of his come in handy, and mostly, he watches for tension in your shoulders and your jaw, perfect indicators that your ears hurt.

Usually, it’s this painful ringing, and usually, Peter just tries to make you as cozy as possible while you ride that out.

But tonight, you’re at a family party, celebrating your sister’s birthday. She’s getting married in a few months, and she’s been so busy with that you haven’t seen a lot of her. Peter holds your gift for her in one hand, and your hand in his with the other.

The party goes well for the most part, you’re just relaxing and hanging out with your family. It’s a nice party, and you’re grateful for your entire family. Your mom holds your nephew in her lap, your sister laughs with your aunts and her fiancé, and your brother and uncle are yapping about some football game.

You, Peter, and your stepdad stand in the kitchen, talking about all sorts of things. Your sister’s wedding, the cruise he just took your mom on, Peter’s recent promotion, and of course..

“Have you considered hearing aids?” Your stepdad asks.

“Yeah, they’re just.. expensive.” You laugh, nervously.

Your stepdad gently taps his own ears, “Well, you’d be part of an elite club.” He grins.

You roll your eyes playfully, before your attention is grabbed by a tugging on the leg of your pants. You glance down, and see your young nephew, gazing up at you with wide eyes.

“What can I do for you, little man?” You ask, a hand coming up to brush hair from his face. He says something you can’t quite make out, so you put your drink on the counter and crouch down to hear him properly, tapping right below your ear, “One more time, bud.”

“Can Peter come play?” He asks, still a little shy around the man you’ve been dating for a while now. You grin and nod,

“Of course he can.” You glance up to Peter, then to your nephew. “What do you wanna play?”

“Dinosaurs.” He requests. So, you pick him up and turn to Peter.

“Peter, our friend here would like to play dinosaurs with you.” You grin.

The way your hair falls into place, the way you hold your nephew close, the way your smile pinches your eyes together.. Peter wishes he could freeze this moment forever because you look perfect.

“Dinosaurs?” he repeats, before grabbing your nephew from you, and then positioning him so that he’s riding on Peter’s back. “Dude, I love dinosaurs!” that’s the last thing you can make out as Peter carries him off to the living room to play dinosaurs. You watch with an affectionate smile, taking small sips of your drink.

“So… Nice kid..” Your mom says as she walks into the kitchen.

You assume she’s talking about your nephew, so you shrug, “He is a good kid.”

“No, I’m talking about Peter.” Your face flushes as you realize where this is going.

“What about Peter?” You hum, looking over to her.

“I’m just saying, I think—”

“You two are gross together.” Your stepdad chimes in, but there’s no malice behind his comment. In fact, you only laugh because it’s something you used to say to them when they started dating.

“Yeah, I know,” You hum. “I really love him.” You confess, before shrugging.

“You know, with your sister’s wedding coming up, I’ve been thinking a lot about—” Your face flushes, as you finish your drink.

“When Peter and I are ready to get married, you two will be the first to know.”

“Oh, so you do wanna marry him.” Your mom smiles. Your face is warmer now.

“I’m gonna go mingle, you two should try minding your own business.”

You find Peter rather quickly, and he just smirks at you, before signing, ‘Talking about marriage?’

You roll your eyes, signing back, ‘Shut up.’ He just puckers his lips and blows a kiss at you. He wants to marry you too.

• • •

After dinner and cake, you sit in your old bedroom, rubbing your ears as you try and come up with an excuse to leave.

Peter finds you a few minutes later and sits next to you on your bed. You lean into him, your eyes heavy from dealing with the ringing you’ve been dealing with.

He gently prompts you to pick your head up before signing, ‘Ringing again?’

You just nod.

“Pete, I wanna go home.” You tell him. Your brother and nephew left a little while ago, and downstairs, your aunts and uncles are getting ready to head home.

“I know, baby. Let’s get you home.” He hums softly. He gently rubs his hand up and down your arm, before pressing a sweet kiss to your neck. Then, one at the base of your ear.

• • •

A few days later, you’re just doing chores around the apartment when your phone buzzes. When you take a minute to glance at it, you find yourself grinning.

It’s the link to an article, sent to you by your mom—Besides Peter, she has been the greatest support through your journey in figuring out you’re hearing. And she knows you have a bias towards Spider-man as far as vigilantes go (wonder why).

The link leads you to a photo of Spider-man, who is swinging across the city, holding up the sign for ‘I love you’. A grin breaks out on your face, just in time for Peter to crawl back into the apartment.

You find him with his mask off as he starts to calm down from a long day, and before he can do much else, you make your way over to him and pull him in for a long kiss.

He hums, his hands finding your waist as your arms wrap around his neck. When you pull away he grins.

“Hi.” He hums.

“Hey..” you smile. “I didn’t know Spider-man knew sign language,” You tease, and he just laughs, a light pink dusting of blush across his cheeks.

“He knows it for you.”

“For me?”

“For you, baby,” he leans in and kisses you gently. His hands begin to travel from your waist to the hem of your shirt, and then up, resting his gloved fingers against the skin of your sides.

• • •

Your hearing aids come in just in time for your sister’s wedding.

You pick them up and hold them in your hands as you go back and forth, worrying. Worrying about Peter not liking them, worrying about breaking them, worrying about everything, really.

But you stand in front of the mirror, and put them on carefully, before turning them on. You take a moment to adjust to how certain sounds are now. The drip of the faucet is more pronounced, and the sounds don’t just melt together like they usually do.

You can even hear Peter shuffling around outside, giving you as much time as you need to process the look and feel of them. When you finally step out, you’re nervous, and he must be able to tell.

“Look at you,” he grins, peering at the hearing aids. “Can we get a spin?” You immediately let out a nervous giggle, and then do a little twirl for him, and he just laughs and claps.

“You like them?” You ask nervously, and he nods.

“Absolutely.” He tells you. He leans in and presses a soft kiss to the side of your head, right next to your hearing aids. “I have something for you.” he tells you, before handing you a small black box. For a moment, you freak out. He probably senses the panic and shakes his head, “Just open it.”

You do, and when you realize what you’re looking at, your heart absolutely melts. It’s a gold star earing that has a chain that hooks onto your hearing aid, and another chain with more star pendants that dangle. It’s gorgeous, and you wonder what you did to deserve him. You lean in and kiss him gently.

“Thank you.” You say softly, and he can tell you’re going to get emotional, so he kisses you again.

“I think you look very pretty.” He hums, “Complete.” You grin and lean in for another kiss.

You’re beginning to feel it, too.

• • •

The morning of your sister’s wedding, you’re texting Peter as your sister gets her makeup done. You’re pretty much all ready, you’re just inclined to stay with her until she needs you.

‘Bug Boy

2:24

Attachment: One Image’

The look of Peter in his suit makes your heart melt.

‘Sugar

2:26

you look very handsome, pete <3’

‘Bug Boy

2:26

Aw, thank you, sugar. Do I get a photo of you or do I have to wait?’

‘Sugar

2:27

nope! gotta wait.’

‘Bug Boy

2:30

: (‘

‘Bug Boy

2:33

How are your hearing aids feeling?’

‘Sugar

2:35

good! they’re helping with all the commotion. i’m glad i got them before the wedding’

‘Bug Boy

2:36

Me too. I love you. See you soon?’

‘Sugar

2:37

see you soon <3 i love you.’

 You wear all black, as per her request, and you ask her a few days before if it’s okay if you wear your hearing aids, mostly because you don’t want the attention on you if you must answer a bunch of questions about your hearing aids.

But she’s more than happy to have you wear them, especially if it means you can hear everything that’s happening, and that your ears won’t ring.

The gold hearing aid jewelry goes well with your outfit, and you’re anxious to see Peter again—You’ve been so busy getting ready and helping your sister get ready that you haven’t given him a chance to see your fancy new outfit.

Just before the ceremony, as your sister is having her first look with her soon to be husband, you manage to sneak away, finding Peter mingling with your extended family, enjoying a drink, and eating some appetizers. Your spider boy and his appetite.

You tap on his shoulder when he’s alone, and he turns and quite literally gasps at the sight of you.

“Look what we have here,” he hummed, his hands running down the sides of your outfit. Then, he puts his drink down and begins to sign while speaking, “You look gorgeous. Your jewelry looks lovely.” He grins.

You blush, before signing back, “You don’t think it looks weird or clunky?”

“No,” He shakes his head, “You’re glowing,” he tells you, leaning into place a soft kiss on your lips.

“I love you,” You sign, “Do you want this?”

Your question catches him off guard, and he signs back,

“What?”

“This,” You gesture to the area around you. “A big wedding.”

His answer is simple but effective—

“I want whatever kind of wedding you want.”

“Even if I want big obnoxious flowers and a big ugly pastry gown?”

“Even if you want all that. Although..” He trails off, shrugging his shoulders.

“Although?” You question.

“I always imagined you in something simple. Something that shows off your features, not outshines them… And now, your little stars and hearing aids to go along with it..” He hums, grinning at your reddening face. “And pink tulips.”

“Pink tulips?”

“To go with the white roses.” He hums. You never really thought of Peter as a guy to have dreams and plans for his wedding, but he’s full of surprises. You know that better than anybody else.

“I love you.” You say softly, leaning up and pressing a soft kiss to his lips. On your side, the flash of a light goes off and you start to giggle when you realize that one of the many photographers your sister has hired, and you realize that the photos of you and Peter will forever be known as from your sister’s wedding when you were just dating.

“I love you,” he hums as he holds up the sign for it. “How much time do you have before the ceremony starts?”

“Twenty minutes?”

“..Plenty of time.” He has this wicked grin on his face. Your face flushes, before you take his hand, letting him drag you off to a quiet corner of the venue.

“You better not ruin my hair or my makeup, spider boy.”

“I’ll be nice and gentle- I can be mean and rough later.”

“Peter Parker, I swear to god—”

He cuts you off by pressing you against the wall of an elevator, and as the door closes, he runs his fingers over your hearing aids, before pressing another kiss to your lips.

[candiid-caniine]

Hey! Long time no see, i know i said id send you a fantasy i thought you'd like but now ive forgotten almost all of it, oop!

Life happened, and uh, i saw that you mentioned your libido being a bit low, which definitely is my case too (im recovering from depression, now that im okay id love to get my FULL libido back, or at least a good percentage of it) do you have any tips on that?

Also any recs of blogs writing in the same vibe as you? (same-ish kinks would be nice but im specifically looking for queer inclusive stuff!) it makes me 10x hornier than the regular video/photo porn!

Hope you're well, you pathetic little thing!

💫

hi friend!! ugh i feel you. sorry i haven't got any advice on regaining ur libido...we just let mine wax and wane as it will, though denial has been a big help in keeping it steady!

i've heard good things abt ginseng and some other herbs. obvs use at your own risk, mind that some herbal treatments can cross-interact with certain medications, remember that pre-packaged supplement pills are often unregulated and may contain toxins, and be aware that some herbal remedies work better on pw certain anatomy than others, and finally that many herbal remedies considered to increase libido are largely untested on trans folx!

finally, sorry it's taken so long to answer this ask...i'm autistic and have been cataloguing lol. i present to you a list of other blog recs under the cut, organized by general vibe! i've tried to primarily include blogs that do their own posts rather than those who primarily reblog :)

note that my headings may provide some context as to what to expect, but you read at your own risk and each blog will typically have its own trigger warnings addressed in the header/pinned. additionally, i've not tagged some of the ppl below because they prefer that "Men DNI" blogs not interact, and idk if "no cis men" qualifies ahah!

all blogs below are queer- and/or trans-inclusive, if not exclusive! there is no detrans/misgendering, at least I don't think - i don't tend to follow those blogs.

hard kinks (blood, knives, etc; includes primarily-cnc blogs):

@puppy-mommy , who also does general t4t kink content, but does state untagged hard kinks!

@visciousest is someone whose blog i scroll when i'm in a Certain Mood ahah,, i won't elaborate

@hell-hound-bites: just. fuck. would drool on his knife blade.

@snuff-fag: its username should give you fair warning as to how wild its content tends to get, so please browse responsibly.

@condor-bait is taking a break right now, and all my love is with him as he takes care of himself. he made me feel so valid and so fuckable as a young trans person learning to love myself in a new way, and i've always been too shy to tell him how much his content meant to me one-on-one (yes, despite its often-extreme themes!), and he deserves as much time as he needs to heal!

@unwillingfvckpuppy for mostly cnc and medical kinks! if you like his style, but not so much their harder content, he also has a more-tame main blog--i just mainly follow/scroll this one!

@vampvictim: top-tier cnc/intox stuff, plus some great knife/bloodplay :)

@cryptidtid is wonderful and holy shit i follow a lot of hard kink blogs lol. incredible

@cnc-pet: i have been following her for a long ass fucking time lol. they post a lot of really good cnc and stories, but you'll also find a lot of aftercare tips and advice on her blog! i really admire blogs who try to balance horny content with best practices

@dollobotomy

general kinky content:

@excessively-queer . just plain old good shit :) there's a good amt of edging and degradation.

@clouded-king was honestly one of my earlier introductions to the queer/t4t kink community on here and how fucking euphoric it can be :) he posts some hard kinks, but generally it's a balance of a lot of different kinks so read his pinned at your leisure!

@ / cottontailx : just good kinky nsft posts :)

@ / digitalpenetration: often specifically t4t which i love!!

@femmelovefemme can step on me :)

@bigothteddies: could not build this section w/o mentioning him :) they had a big influence on my fantasies for a long time!

@hazelj-xoxo: bigtime want her to cuck me. have followed her across multiple blog deletions lol

@transpidered is forever an icon!

@subspaceemo

@writefinch for great stories and text posts

edging and denial, specifically:

@6irlpet is 1 of my go-to hands-down-pants scroll sessions :)

@droolkink is my inspiration!

@flustersluts does exactly what the name implies lol. a good helping of other kink content too :)

@puppycvnt is a 10/10!

@barkwoofbarkwoofbark: we r denial friends imo!!

@strawbrrysub

@blyssful-abyss

@urhighnessbitch is a big fav <3

non-detrans genderplay:

@butchviolence does amazing butch supremacy stuff and i,,, fucking hell. even just seeing their username puts me in a Particular state of mind ahah. they also post hard kinks so be aware as you proceed!

@mtfdomme: i literally just reblogged from her today lol. tbh i want to be their little stupid pupthing. it's not all transfem supremacy undertones/overtones, but that's what i mainly follow her for, plus just general t4t goodness! also, their general personality? and the way she shuts down people who disrespect their boundaries? huge inspiration for me!

@cuntboydestroyer: take me to the animal shelter and neuter me. good lord.

@the-kind-of-dame is the main inspiration for my recent genderplay post lol

@terfbreaking-tgirl (be warned of dykebreaking if that's an issue for you)

@barbarian-lesbian is my other inspiration for the recent genderplay post

@superiorineveryway

weird asf (/complimentary; my favorite type of shit. robots, ND-focused posts, etc):

@specksizedgoddess has introduced me to things i didn't know, like...existed, and that's saying a lot as one of my special interests is kink! never knew how down bad i was to be a tiny buggirl, nor how much i wanted to be someone's stupid little robot... BIG tw tho: there is snuff and gore content here, so proceed with caution if you don't wanna see that!

@sapphling fucked me up real good with some bird!sub bondage posts awhile back lol

@nobelisha: found them through their ghost cnc post so that's why they're in this category ahah! they don't have a pinned so proceed w awareness :)

@devout-cleric: hierophilia/religion kink, and i'm something of an acolyte of hers :) if you've read this far down you may as well know i'm her Little Lamb anon lol

piss/omo:

@latenightomo

@pissheartmybeloved - their URL makes me crack up every time, plus good content!

@hold-it-a-little-longer - good scenarios/imagines!

@ohmyrashi - (i think) my original intro to omo!

monsterfucking/terato:

@septimus-moonlight was my first real introduction to trans-positive terato and i've never settled for half-fun cis-oriented terato ever since :) mind tags!

@eggedbellies as well!

@bredpun doesn't appear to be active lately but still good for a scroll!

@steamandcream

@of-mutts-and-men

[purityonice]

Hiiii!!! Could you write a Autistic!Reader x Clay where the reader is like really over stimulated and Clay helps them (NB reader preferred/nf)

📗CLAY X AUSTISTIC! NB! READER

Please note that this is my first time writing an autistic character 🙏🏽 and if i made ANY mistakes please tell me in the comments and i will change it ASAP!

Clay noticed how overwhelmed you were when you went to Pop Village it was to overstimulating with all their bright lights, loud sounds were too much. So he decided taking you away from everyone would help calm you down.

You were walking with Clay he was chatting as you nodded or shook your head in response was you stimmed trying to calm yourself with this new enviroment. Looking at the ground a small ball rolled towards you too.

The ball exploded as a glitter bomb went off infront of you and clay the sound frightening you as the glitter stuck to your skin. The feeling of the glitter and the sound of the bomb going off still ringing in your ears made you shake as you ran off your hands covering your ears.

Clay tried to follow you but he was pulled away by a few trolls that sang. He felt himself fill with anger as he watched you run into the forest. Freeing himself from the trolls who looked at him confused, As he turned around and began running after you.

He ran for awhile trying to listen out for you running from place to place before hearing you wail.

He ran out of breath huffing with his hand son his knees as his eyes landed on you. You had your knees against your chest as you rocked yourself trying to settle down as glitter was scattered around you crying and wailing could be heard from you as you hit the floor beneath you.

His eyes softened as he relaxed his body his chest still jagged as he walked closer to you as you continued to cry shaking as you tried hard to scrape the glitter off of your face.

“Baby?” Clays voice was low as his chest rose and fell rapidly his eyes never leaving you as tears rolled down your face he reached out to touch you before backing away. “Right-no touching. im sorry i- got your headphones you dropped them.” He said reaching to his side to give you your headphones.

You sniffled lifting your head fron your arms are your glitter covered face looked at him with teary eyes. “T-thank you Clay.” Your voice was meek and raspy as you took your headphones from his hands and placing them on your head. The sounds of nature being drowned out by silence giving you somewhat of a relief as you continued to sway and stim rubbing your face.

“Do you want to stay here for awhile or get the glitter off of you?” Clay asked leaning against the rock his face filled with worry as you, you didnt answer him as you closed your eyes basking in the silence your face still cringing in disgust as the glitter was still on your face. “Are you okay?”

Clay was filled with concern as you calmed yourself down. A few minutes passed before you decided to leave looking into Clays worried eyes. “I’m ready to go please.” He sighed in relief sitting up from his spot on the floor dusting himself off.

You walked through the forest making your way back to the village. “I don’t think I can live here Clay… everything is to…UGH it just isnt right nothings the same and it’s so loud all the time.” You vented as Clay listened nodding his head in agreement. Drinking in your form as you walked.

“Yeah it is alot right? I don’t get why they have so much energy 24/7 it’s like having a village full of Vivas.” You both laughed at how reckless that would be. You let out a sigh before looking into your boyfriends eyes.

“T-thank you for being there for me Clay…” You trailed off hesitanting before grabbing his hands. Blushing at how warm he was. He looked at you shocked before a huge smile crawled onto his face.

Turning his head hiding his blush as you did the same. “ eh hm yeah no worries its the least i could do you know i love you alot so i’d do anything for you.” He spoke as you guys walked hand in hand together back to Pop village and to get all the glitter of off you.

After you guys got back he made sure to protect you from any more glitter bombs after that.

IM SO SO SO SORRY IF THIS IS BAD please tell me if i made any mistakes!!!!!!!

[brokenmachinemusings]

hi!! i was looking through tianchen posts and i saw yours a long time ago about him having aspd... i was wondering about your thoughts on that more recently / if you have any other pd (or other disorder) hcs for the rest of the cast?? sorry if this is strange or random im just really excited to see someone interested in the same media as me who talks about this stuff, i find a lot of comfort in these kinds of things as someone considering and diagnosed with some stigmatized disorders

hi!!! thank you so much for the ask :-) so glad to see more mentally ill link click fans!!! (not saying mentally ill in a bad way btw, just that we are as an objective truth) i do have more hcs but due to dissociative amnesia i tend to forget them! plus i have to rewatch link click haha i’m long overdue

i know that i hc that lu guang has szpd and schizophrenia (as well as i’m a fan of him having ocd as well), cheng xiaoshi with bpd and dissociative identity disorder (my copium). a popular headcanon i see around is xia fei with npd but i don’t have quite enough of a grasp on his character yet🤔 (nor do i for liu xiao & vein). like i can definitely see slight hints but it’s like, ehhh, i need to know more. even though his pv tells a LOT about him

li tianxi i think has some kind of dissociative disorder as well… specifically headcanon her with depersonalization derealization disorder because i doubt she’s fully present in most circumstances, especially around the jobs. oh and the li twins (and shiguang) are all autistic to me though that’s off-topic

cheng xiaoshi and qiao ling share some kind of anxiety methinks as well… although anxiety is a much more “common” disorder i think they can get it. qiao ling can manage it through medication and routines, cheng xiaoshi is too disorganized to be able to do anything about it (also, generally speaking, i think his anxiety wouldn’t be medically noticed. nevermind all the other disorders)

anyway… time to explain the more interesting stuff. which will be under the cut, because this will get LONG.

cheng xiaoshi with bpd i think is kind of understandable. he has a huge fear of abandonment, he was also abandoned, he was reckless and impulsive as a child due to not getting the support he needed. he’s highly emotional, another trait among those with bpd and he can easily set himself into other people. despite that, nowadays he knows what he wants and he can focus very much on his tasks/goals. he is empathetic but there’s a distinction to be made — he’s empathetic because he’s in the bodies of other people, while someone like qiao ling is empathetic because she immediately notices them or their situation. not to say he isn’t empathetic outside of that, obviously.

anyway, how does this play into DID? well, see, first of all, we need to think of the root of what causes DID — severe and ongoing childhood trauma (it’s important to note this is in the child’s eyes and is different for everyone), typically between the ages of 3-10. this age is still scientifically debated, but we’ll use it for reference.

the sichuan earthquake in the show happened in may 2008 iirc — which would be cheng xiaoshi turning just about 8 himself. so, he was presumably somewhere 6-7 (or even younger) when his parents left him alone. simply that neglect can be enough for a child to dissociate into different states — especially with the bullying he was experiencing, i wouldn’t be surprised if it was so awful for him that his brain did start to dissociate.

but that’s not the only thing. he’s the most vastly depicted in different official arts, from the most happy-go-lucky guy to the most down in the deepest trenches man can imagine, specifically in that one recent cafe collab art where it was him & lu guang & liu xiao. if you want me to add any official art, let me know, i’ll reblog it under this post.

and by now, you might be thinking — doesn’t the possession play a big part in this as well? yes it does, it entirely does. to me, being able to enter different people’s bodies and feel what they feel so deeply is entirely DID coding. especially in correlation to the other characters — li tianchen’s possession is hollow, also indicative of his lack of empathy and even aspd if you’re willing to go that far. lu guang only peers into pictures — watching the events unfold, unable to do anything about them, even if it hurts him. li tianxi can see and feel thoughts & memories from far away, but not quite possess the same, she’s only there in relation. it doesn’t make her feel any less, though. cheng xiaoshi on the other hand, usually doesn’t know anything about the person, jumps straight in and turns into them. coupled with the usual disorientation before and after a dive, i think all of this is very indicative of him having DID. if you need more detail or have any questions though, let me know, i’m always happy to explain.

lu guang on the other hand… boy oh boy, where do we start.

actually, i never explicitly thought of lu guang with ocd — only as a passing thought pre-yingdu. now, recontextualizing AFTER yingdu gives a whole new perspective on this.

i’m not sure which to explain first, though. the schizophrenia is the most headcanon-y of mine, so i’ll just stop that there and say that i think it gets worse with each timeline and that his brain deteriorates in that way, which also causes him to get worse hallucinations/delusions each time and it all influences his decision making process. there, that’s done.

szpd i headcanon that it was more relevant in the first timeline. not that it still isn’t, it’s a personality disorder, probably untreated, but i think my way of seeing it is more “interesting” to say the least. while most of fandom goes “oh, they fell in love at first sight!!!” i actually think the opposite; i think that lu guang never wanted to be that close to cheng xiaoshi, that their meeting was all a coincidence and they kept finding each other. in the early days, lu guang didn’t want him anywhere close, explaining his aversion to contact early on, where he repeatedly pushes cheng xiaoshi away and is hesitant to be around him. also explains his lack of friends, methinks. not that he doesn’t care, he obviously cares, it’s simply that he can’t get attached very easily. by the end of the first timeline, i think that he realized that he actually loves cheng xiaoshi too deeply and that he feels like his only family is gone and he can’t live without him. which is, well, why he dives. complete with cheng xiaoshi’s dying wish! isn’t that lovely?

this all pairs into his ocd, i would say. he’s so careful about keeping each timeline the same — trying to act as his previous self, trying to keep the timeline in check. he’s under a lot of stress, and he thinks that if he fucks up once, it’s all over for sure. he doesn’t like unpredictable outcomes either. it’s why he has such an elaborate journal detailing every single thing — and i think it influences cheng xiaoshi’s dives too, when he leads him. it’s not just regular stress and worry, it’s the anxiety of messing up somewhere on top. that everything has to be right down to the minute and even the second. i would say that his habit to clean around is a way to keep his intrusive thoughts in check too, at least to some degree. could you imagine how much his brain cycles through? it would be bonkers.

i’m not sure if i ever made a post about li tianchen or not, but i still heavily hc li tianchen with aspd. he developed it as a kid, not just because of his mother dying — generally the way his father was acting towards her, the fact he had to protect tianxi and oversee all of this at the same time. he saw how cruel and unfair the world was from a young age. not to mention, the cunning liu xiao, who i still have to get into the brains for, instilled this mindset of “eat or be eaten” / “all or nothing” (specifically with “hunt or be hunted” and “are you a beast or a hunter? do you know the difference?”) that’s common within aspd minds. the fact that he had to solely take on the job of being li tianxi’s caretaker, be taken under qian jin’s wing and detach himself from anyone around in order to simply provide, all led to his developing aspd i think. “anyone against me or my sister” meant an enemy. it’s to supply themselves, really. to survive. and that’s what’s important, isn’t it? no matter the method. he doesn’t exactly have a grasp on right or wrong, either. i still find the scene where he gets angry at cheng xiaoshi for “not doing anything because it’s all the same” so heartbreaking and pretty much summarizing of his character. he doesn’t know what others go through, because it doesn’t concern him and doesn’t help them survive. which is why i find his whole story to be so tragic. he has to let go of his sister and his past, and somehow move on with nothing left in his life any more. that said, i hope they don’t butcher his character too much in the upcoming season. but link click very much delves deep into the psyche of their characters, i wouldn’t be surprised if director haolin researched psychology and mental health deeply before writing any of them. it’s also what's one of the strong suits of link click, and i hope we see more of it.

i hope you enjoyed this rant or analysis or whatever. if you have any further questions or want to add something let me know!!! i had lots of fun writing this :-)

[ferfbish]

What your spooky month pfp says about you!

all my muts @mayisgoingnuts @bulldog-geckorahhhhh @candyclazzyashton @0pumpkinpie @lolipoptheclown @roy-shenanigans whoooo!

(note im not a expert on people and why they like things so if you cant relate to some of these go talk to god or something idk) (one more thing no images cuz my computer sucks and it takes forever)

kevin: overworked, overstimulated, underpaid, GAY next

skid: you are a being of complete destruction for no reason other than ''I can and I will'' and the ADHD of the two.

pump: you also are a being of conplete destruction for no reason other than ''I can and I will" you also dont have autism you have ''awwwtisum''.

happy fella: you took that ''imma little trash rat'' to heart and i love you for that.

bob: you either like him cuz hes you energy or your that ''i wanna fuck your beekeeping dad" meme.

lila: you are the mom of the group or you wish your mom was like her.

father gregor: im forced to think your also a gf fan cuz ant no way your not a MASSIVE yoai shipper also 85% chance your a mad gilf lover.

skids dad: you prob started a cult on discord when you were 12 for funnsies.

moluch: you kin him cuz you got mad anger issues you also are that ''i eat kids'' meme.

roy: your 90% of sm fans you most definitely got that cartman swagg and im willing to bet you say something like ''i will cry scream and through up in that order if xyandz doesn't happen'' same babe same.

ross: you took the one guy with the least voice lines out of anybody and went like ''i love him i love him so much''.

robert: your cool and better than them all. * cough cough awwwtisum

streber: ok i went over this list like 30 times in my head and all i could think is yaoi shipper cuz like he looks cool, he likes Halloween, hes gay and he got de armed those first three things ARE LITTERLY ALL OF US.

frank: stop now bad no STOP SIMMPING HE KIDNAPPS CHILDREN BAD NO.

the clown: clownergy.

john: yaoi shipper but depressed.

jack: basic sorry.

dexter: dog person, autistic.

patty: depressed also youd be like the bill has a gun meme if you had a gun. *cough cough lesbian

candy dealer: you dissapoint me like HES JUST A FUCKING HAT YOU ARE SIMPING FOR A FUCKING HAT????????????????.

juan: you like lesbians, as you should as you should.

radford: you like one of the better ships, idk he cool.

roys mom: you looked at the 20sec she was on screen and went like "i mean shes an asshole but DAMM IS SHE FINE" which same my pfp would be her if i didint like robert more.

the guy who keeps quitting his job (i forgor his name): you gave up before you even started: hes one of the smarter ones tbh bro went like ''im not gonna get murderd over a shitty underpaying candy job fuck this".

alright thats all i could think of. if i missed any let me know and i might make a part two. i hope some of you are offended i want all the smoke losers.

[kuroshioi]

I’m very unfamiliar with doing requests; but I’d like to request Blade (or frankly whoever else you feel like if you want) x gn!reader who just recently realized they were masking (autistic) and has recently stopped and had a complete shift in personality (like maybe from chipper and happy to ‘I got 2 hours of sleep and I’m running off an empty spool of thread for caffeine’ energy) if that wouldn’t be too much

sorry if it’s like a little hyper specific but I’m mostly trying to give myself a little reassurance after realizing I’ve been subconsciously masking

cw: sfw, gn!reader, masking, angst with comfort !!

Jing Yuan x reader sfw !!

wc: 450+ !!

note: I'm so sorry for what you are going thru rn at the time, I'm sorry for being late and I hope you take care of yourself pooks !!

﹒You were not sure what made you this way but you just completely stopped being the sunshine people loved and adored alot.

Jing Yuan didn't know how to try and comfort you when you looked like almost a walking corpse barely holding onto your life, he couldn't help but wanting to hug you right on the spot and tell you everything is gonna be ok and you didn't need to bottle up your feelings

maybe but in a more right way he thought to himself as he looked outside the countryard where you were sitting on a stool silently simply stating into the abyss while holding your coffee hug in your hands.

this was the fourth cup of coffee you had today and he was starting to get more and more worried about your caffeine consumption too

he sighed to himself and decided to now make his move.

Jing Yuan walked up to you with furrowed eyes and you didn't even realize his presence until he stood infront you

you slowly blinked at him when you finally caught up to what was happening currently

"what?"

you asked dryly

"love"

he said in a gentle tone

"yea...?"

you say looking up at him waiting for what Jing Yuan has to say

he gives you a gentle smile

"do you wish to play a game of checkers with me?"

you look at him slightly suprised before agreeing

"I...sure I don't mind."

Jing Yuan smiles as he already starts heading to get everything set up

"Very well then love, come with me."

PART 2 COMING SOON (DW IM NOT DEAD)

[jewbeloved]

Hello Hello! Could you do Craig,Kyle, Damien and Cartmen with nonverbal autistic s/o who uses communication cards? :D

Craig, Kyle, Damien, and Cartman with a autistic s/o🌈♥️♥️

Note: I'm autistic as well, but I don't use communication cards so I hope this post still seems accurate for you.

Warnings: Cartman being an asshole.

Gender: Neutral

💙 Craig Tucker 😐

Get yourself a man like Craig, he's such a wholesome sweet boyfriend to have. But....you might have to explain what exactly communication cards are to him.....

Once he gets the hang of it, he can respond to your saying and needs by whatever card you show him.

Need to let him know you want to use the bathroom? Just pull out a card that has something to do with "I need the toilet" and he's completely fine with you going to the bathroom, even if you both are in the middle of something.

Not everyone exactly understands your communication cards so Craig will be glad to help translate what you said if you're speaking to someone.

You gotta admit, he found this similar to sign language except the words are on cards.💙💙💙💙💙

💚 Kyle Broflovski 🌈

Immediately researches about autism and communication cards because this boy is hella confused.

He can understand if you're not willing to speak verbal so he wouldn't mind doing the talking for you if you will let him.

I feel like Kyle would be more used to sign language so it will take some time for him to understand when you're speaking with communication cards.

He'll be able to understand completely once he gets the hang of it <3 don't worry, he's a fast learner.

He'll probably make you a hand made box to keep your communication cards in! In case you need them of course so you don't end up losing them or anything.💚💚💚💚💚

🖤 Damien Thorn 🩸

Communication cards??? what's that?

Again, this boy lives in hell for most of his life he doesn't know about these communication stuff humans use 😭 please help him out again.

So you communicate with cards that have pictures and words on them to indicate what you're saying or what you want? He's definitely writing this down so he can remember.

He'll probably steal a laptop so he can research more of this stuff on the internet so he can understand more.

Somebody steal your communication cards or judges you for how you communicate? Damien will send em right to his dad to burn in hell. Nobody disrespects his s/o like that.

Even though he doesn't understand this stuff all the way, he still tries to do everything he can to understand. 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

❤️ Eric Cartman 🍖

Not surprisingly, but he's mean. He'd make fun of your cards and tell you that you're not in "preschool" anymore.

You'd snap or punch him afterwards but he'd whine.

He'll pretend to understand when you're trying to explain to him what communication cards are, but he's actually not listening.

Eventually sucks it up and try to understand.

He's surprisingly fully understanding what the communication cards mean after learning about them.

He won't make fun of you anymore, only if you give him cheesy poofs in return.

IM SORRY IF THIS WAS SHORT I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO WRITE!

[my-castles-crumbling]

Anon Advice Asks - April 17

otter anon (new), teen angst anon, mourning friendships anon (new), undercover aromantic anon (new), short essay anon (new)

Hey so it's kinda the first time I'm doing something like that but you seems to be a safe place for people having feelings like me and more often than not the good words too so I'm trying my chance I guess?

Basically my life is a mess right now, I can't say I'm in the worse situation ever of course, I still have a roof, clothes and a relatively safe environment so yeah def not the worse but not good either...

The main event right now is getting a diagnosis for a potential ADHD and maybe some other things like autism and gosh it scares the shit out of me because my parents aren't the most open and kinda refuse in a way that there's even a potentiality that I could be autistic

And honestly despite all the stress this diag thing give me I don't think it's even the worse, I have to spend a good amount of money for that and even if thanks to my country's system I will be able to get some back it will still be a lot to pay and I'm just a student with a side job so obv that really stressing and also my mother refuse to talk to me because apparently I'm an ungrateful kid that always blame her when things go wrong (I just told her she was the one that told me to buy a train ticket but she was mad I had already paid for it and exploded, it's quite usual with her but because of the stress it hit harder this week) and I just realized I had some trouble with my work's shit hours and that's literally made me have a full blown panic attack because I was scared to again disappoint my mother and make her mad so I called my father in hope to get some help and he basically took my feelings and throw it away saying I was being extra and I had to calm down because all that was stupid and gosh now I just feel like my feelings aren't worth it at all and it made me realize again that gosh I truly don't have a dad and mom but just a father and mother that do the minimal to keep me alive without caring about my mental health at all and it just hurt a lot yk

I kinda just needed that out of my chest you don't have to answer or anything honestly I was just scared to annoy my friends with my mental health again and yeah like said before you seems like a safe place

If needed maybe I can be "Kuromi anon" or "Otter anon"

Hi!

I'm so sorry your parents are unsupportive, that's awful. Does your country have laws about kids not being responsible for medical bills? Because it might be that they HAVE to pay for the bills. I really encourage you to look into it.

Please know that you deserve unconditional love and to have your needs met. I really hope you're able to get the diagnoses you need <3

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Teen angst anon

hey Cas! Teen angst anon here.

I’m on spring break at the moment, trying to process through all of my burnout. I’m going skiing for half of spring break, and then I’m going to visit my godmother for the second half. I’m kind of nervous about that because I’m going to church with them for Easter Sunday, and I’m not Christian. Like at all. Anyway, it’s definitely going to be interesting!

Honestly I don’t have much going on at the moment, I just wanted to check in.

on a side note - your new subtitle (the being clever and kind thing) is the most quintessential teacher thing ever. And I mean that as a compliment, it’s just like the kind of thing my mom (a former Montessori teacher) would say to me.

Hi! I hope spring break is going well! Bring a bracelet or something like that with you to church. That way you can focus on playing with it instead of whatever's being said. That's what I used to do as a kid when I (rarely) went lol

The subtitle is from a taylor swift song! I can't take credit for that lol. It's from the song 'Marjorie' about her grandmother. But I'm glad I seem to have wisdom!

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mourning friendships anon

Hi I'm in highschool and I'm getting worried about friendships after highschool Im going to be a sophomore next year (yes I know its way to early to stress about this but here I am) for so context I was raised with a lot of family friends in a very very Christian community now while that's all fine and good I happen to be queer and these people who have been such amazing influential people in my life would hate me if they found out idk what to do it feels like I'm already mourning friendships

Hi!

So...I think the thing is, friendships with people who care about you WILL last. Yes, people will go to college or go into the workforce, but some people can and will make an effort to stay connected. And others...well, those are the people who you outgrew, and that's okay!

I think the same goes with being queer. The people who truly care WON'T care about you being queer. And if they do...well, why is their love conditional? I know its hard to think about, and people are so multi-faceted that I'm not just saying 'oh these are bad people' but like....your true friends will love you regardless of your gender/sexuality.

Sending love <3

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undercover aromantic anon

Hey cas. We're talking about relationships in health class and i think im aromantic qnd i just,, the wording of everything is kind of annoying. I know i shouldnt care but sometimes it just annoys me like:

"Romantic relationships are essential for development"

"You all have had crushes"

"When you get into a romantic relationship"

Like ik its stupid to care and it doesnt matter it just makes me feel so abnormal

Being an undercover aromantic is so ahrd yet so funny at the same time

"Whats ur type"

"Uhhhh i dont.. have one i ... think"

Yeah I feel like it must be a unique type of difficult to be aromantic because it's not even acknowledged as a real thing by most people. That must feel super invalidating. But you ARE real and you ARE valid <3

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Short essay anon (new)

Hi Cas! Hopefully this'll be short (she says, proceeding to write an essay)

(The rest is redacted)

PLEASE block the blog. You have EVERY right to block someone. It doesn't matter why. They get no notification of it, and you should be able to make yourself safe. The reason Tumblr has block buttons and tag filters is exactly for this reason, and this is MORE than enough of a reason to block someone.

Put your mental health first, and don't for a second worry about anything else.

[transformersandturtles]

Hello hello, this isn't my normal kind of posting but it's been about uh. . . 8 months since I've done private/1 on 1 roleplays (of course excluding my MK1 Syzoth acc) and have been curious in finding a new RP partner. Information under the cut!

Hello! If you don't know me, my name is Seven and I use They/Them! I am 18, a hs graduate, and am currently pursuing 2d art as a hobby and tattooing as a career! I do have a busy home life and am not on 24/7. Time zones aren't a problem, I'd prefer an RP partner 17+. I am autistic and have social anxiety so it is hard for me to reach out first but I am always happy to start talking! ^^

I mostly do AUs or post-story kinda stuff but I'm down for any kind of fun/chaos. Here is a list of fandoms I will RP -

bold/color is what I'd prefer most.

• ROTTMNT

• 2012 TMNT

• Transformers One

• Transformers Animated

• X-Men (live action + 97)

• MCU/Avengers

• DC (mostly Batman/Batfam)

• Pokemon (Mostly the game stories)

• How To Train Your Dragon

• Mortal Kombat 1 (2023)

• Digimon Adventures

• Spider-Man (ITSV & ATSV)

. . . And more but mostly these!

• Voltron Legendary Defender

• Invincible (Show) (New)

PLEASE NOTE I AM STILL NEW TO X-MEN AND DC SO PLEASE BE PATIENT WITH ME AND LMK IF I EVER GET ANYTHING WRONG MY KNOWLEDGE IS LIMITED 😭

I also do Crossovers! Mostly other fandoms x Pokemon or x HTTYD but I'm really up for anything! With that, I also do tend to put in headcanons so if something doesn't line up or sounds odd please lmk.

I also do -

• Canon x Canon (Rom/Plat)

• Oc x Canon (Rom/Plat)

• Oc x Oc (Rom/Plat)

There doesn't have to be shipping or pairing or anything, but if it is Oc x Canon I do wish for it to be two ways and even (i.e. Your Oc x Canon and my Oc x Canon. Doesn't have to be equal words but equal sentencing is preferred but not required!)

Here are some things I will NOT do -

✘ No NSFW! Don't care age or anything, will not do it at all. Time skips are fine, but nothing more. (im being so real it makes my skin crawl writing it so I'm really sorry.)

✘ No form of any kind of -cest. I'll do familial bonds but no blood relaxations at all! If they're in the family tree, leave them be! Also no adults x minors or anything of the sort.

✘ I will not be doing this "OC Name: *waves* Hello!" format. Nothing against it, I just personally won't use it, I like to be detailed.

There is probably more to this but that'll come and go depending on RPs.

I have been roleplaying for about 8-9 years and am very detailed in my responses! I try to match replies so if it's short then it's short or if it's long then it's long. I am a writer so I do put in details from time to time that may be too much so if that is ever the case please lmk and I'll tone it down.

Here is an example of my writing style for RP! -

Lucius blankly stared at his acquaintances, almost bewildered by them. "Have none of you played a game of Uno in your life?" He questioned, a slight country drawl to his words, something that often came out when he drank too much or got emotional enough. How the hell had a bunch of people his age never even seen a deck of Uno? "It's like, a classic, y'know? Have y'all been livin' under a rock?" Despite living in New York for years now, he never shook off that Midwestern talk.

Logan Howlett, by far the oldest of the whole table at the moment, gave a small snort as he let out the smoke of his cigar. "A rock? No. Runnin' for our lives is more like it. Not every day for pleasantries or domesticity." He stated firmly, before setting down a red reverse card onto the short pile. "Your turn, bub. . ." He leaned back in his seat with a huff.

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I do have OCs and information and stuff for all of them! Feel free to DM me if you're curious and we can talk it out on what fits! ^^

[jorisjurgen]

i been seeing moots post about topbottom and sexuality hcs and basically:

i think all matsus are bi. but they are all mutually bullying each other about it.

kara and ichi know they are bi. ichi fucking hates kara for being flashy and open about it because its making bisexuality cringe = preventing him from being open about it. also he doesn't want to be made fun of so he stays in closet.

jyushi thinks hes a straight fujoshi/fudanshi. he is deeply ashamed of "being heterosexual" and a fake yaoi fan. yearns for the swag of bisexuality. (he is bisexual but some new never seen before type of denial is happening)

todo is insecure about being bi and feminine. tries to overswing in the other direction. choro is deathly afraid of karamatsu's gay cooties and is too scared of touching gay manga bc it might reveal something about him. oso hadn't really thought about it but men make him scared, because what if whoever he dates is going to out-man him... thats scary... he doesn't like that...

topbottom:

jyushi would be happier as a bottom but in my interpretation hes someone who really values control over his actions and Not Letting The Mask Slip, and is, despite being Himself, just as heavily affected by gender expectations. so he's a switch. being a top means he gets to make someone he loves happy! and also not be truly vulnerable. (on a related note, no, i don't think his happiness is entirely a mask, but i do think he curates his own actions in behaviours to present himself in a certain light quite often. He's happy, and not the brightest tool in the shed... but he also wants people to assume he's happy and kind of stupid on purpose. I'm just osokun pilled. I like the way he's characterized as "shy. likes singing. extermely afraid of not being unique and being left out" and think going overboard with uniqueness is a thing he likes to do to mask being a shy introvert & be someone his brothers can rely on. yeah this all ties into me thinking hes a service-top leaning switch who would be happier as a bottom.)

oso also needs to be in control of himself but hes really easy to bully and changes his mind very quickly so he ends up being a bottom more often than not. hes afraid of being emasculated, yet being emasculated feels liberating and good in an embarassing way. like "im a jobless failure of a guy and now youre making me your girlfriend. waoh..."

choro is too embarrassed of being attached to men to agree to bottom without having ever topped before. but his weird ass sense of justice allows him to push past "but im a guy... this is wrong..." and be a switch. like all matsus, in my opinion, gender expectations ruined his brain and make him afraid of vulnerability. but unlike others, i think being oso's perma-bottom brotherwife would be even more ruining to his mental health. he has a great and deep need to be a leader and prove his "superiority" to oso that cannot be overcome, only changed.

ichi, just like others, has a need for control and masculinity. he also feels very protective of jyushi ever since they were kids. an inverse of choro in a way, where he's often preoccupied with Jyushi more than any other brother. yet his biggest flaw is not really being able to see past any of jyushi's masks and taking everythingggg at face value (tho, he still knows him the best). so i think he bottoms more often than he tops because he just goes along with whatever jyushi wants.

i don't have solid kara or todo hcs sorry

my other hcs are:

all matsus are autistic or neurodivergent in some other way. this ties into my vision of them all feeling like "a failed man" who does not meet societal views of masculinity and they all cope with this differently.

....they all may be nonbinary in some way we will never understand. but idk. i just think that six people who grew up reinforcing and critiquing each other's outward appearances and behaviors to fall into a certain type WHILE mostly only having their mom as a role model, have a very unique experience with gender in general. either way, they'd all be happier if they realized they aren't failures or broken just bc they aren't doing the same things in life as their dad (having a wife, kids, a house, a Normal Job that makes them miserable...)

thank you for reading my ted talk.... kissing you on the lips.

[auschizm]

Just wanted to share a reflection on a nice little area of autism+schizo-overlap

I’m autistic and my best friend is auschitzic and I’ve found that I understand so called “word salad” better than others. (Not just in my friend but also in people I met in the soup kitchen and others who have it)

My pet theory is that perhaps with autism, there are less perceived notions about what someone should say.

I feel others get distracted by the projection that the person “isn’t making sense” rather than just listen.

I think it’s a nice moment of solidarity. We have so much more in common than apart. Especially in the struggles with communication. In many ways we have very similar needs too

Sensory needs, needs for predictability, need for routines, need for very clear instructions, cognitive support.

I see it as auschizm mirrors my experience a LOT and at the same time that the overlap adds an extra layer of marginalization which makes it so that when fighting for freedom, against the coercion and other flaws in healthcare, I see it as us who are autistic or otherwise disabled needing to listen to auschizic and schizospectrum people first.

Oftentimes auschizic people experience everything I do (miscommunication with doctors, coercion while outpatient, financial punishments for cognitive deficits, dehumanization, etc) but a hundred fold.

Similar; same type of things. But at the same time completely different; we who are autistic and only experience minor symptoms of other things from time to time, we have to understand that there are levels of incarceration and violence that we dont have to deal with due to not being schizospec

The way I see it this gives us a moral obligation. To fight in our day to day lives for the dignity of our schizospectrum siblings.

We have to speak up when people stereotype and fearmonger. We have to be vocal in our critiques against psychiatry. We have to fight to make the world accessible for all of us.

Rather than mask because we understood that what was said was meant as a joke, if it was cruel or “unreality” we should still demand it be explained.

Be outspoken about all of the cultural discrimination and misconceptions with our friends who might be even further removed from psychiatry than we are.

It’s like a set of circles where my auschizic friend can tell me about the experiences they heard from others even more marginalized who were in the ward. They are in the middle of the circle. Then is my friend who is mostly outpatient. Who can talk to me. Next circle is people who are neurodivergent but “functioning”; maybe they have jobs and stuff. So I can talk to them. Then those people can talk to people at their jobs etc who are even further removed

We can each do our work in fighting to create spaces. When we are in social spaces, that in and out of itself, is a privilege. We can fight to try to fit others in these social spaces

Sorry about the very long and rambly ask. There are many thoughts on this subject that I have yet to articulate

I guess what I wanted to say was thank you for making this blog. Thank you for creating this space.

It is so important that this gets talked about

Im extremely grateful to get the opportunity to read about even more auschizic experiences and learn more about the perspective

Thank you so much

Solidarity

🤝🤝🤝

This ask is making my morning. I really appreciate your compassion and solidarity! Although I gotta note that I don't believe in simple hierarchies of oppression and discrimination. Like I wouldn't say that a low support needs auschiztic person who is stable and functional enough to live alone and work is inherently more oppressed than a nonverbal high support needs autistic person who needs extensive support and supervision simply because the person in the first scenario has two diagnoses instead of one.

[billluver0124]

"i love you y/n, i don't care..."

synopsis : the reader has autism, it isn't as severe as others but its still noticeable. bill and them are at a party when they start to have a meltdown. will bill be able to help them? WARNINGS : slight mentions of alcohol and drugs, cursing, autistic meltdown, angst themes

Bill and y/n were invited to a party at a club for a friends birthday, fun right? that's what y/n assumed. they didn't realize this party was going to be one of their worst nightmares.

They walk into the club, hands intertwined with one another. the smell of all sorts of alcohol fill both bill and y/n's noses. Everyone was either dancing with the music, drinking, smoking or sucking face with one another. It was truly a party. At first y/n was having fun, dancing with bill; enjoying the moment. "im gonna go get us some drinks schatzi, ill be back in 5 minutes" bill kissed y/ns cheek before walking towards the bar. y/n tried to be as patient as they could, happily waiting for their boyfriend to come back. but then all of a sudden, everything felt off.

The party lights became a little brighter for y/n's liking, everyone was dancing a little too fast. their vision was getting blurrier and their body began to warm up. y/n checks the time, the 5 minutes was up; where's bill? "5 minutes, he said 5 minutes.." y/n mumbled, 5 minutes turned into 7 minutes. And in those 7 minutes, everything became too much. Just as bill was coming back, he saw y/n bolt it to the restroom. He instantly knew what was wrong, they were having a meltdown. He runs into the bathroom a few moments after they did. he comes in and sees y/n on the floor, crying and scratching themself till blood was drawn.

Bill didnt know much about autism, but he knew that y/n becomes overwhelmed easily and he knew exactly how to comfort them. first thing he does is grab their hands, to prevent them from harming themself even further. "breathe y/n..breathe.." he said in a soothing tone, "y-you said-" their uncontrollable crying was making them unable to speak "..y-you s-said-said f-five m-min-minutes.." y/n cried to bill, hot streams of tears pouring out of their eyes. "i know baby, i know i said five minutes, but there was a line at the bar and i had to wait a little.." bill brought y/n closer to him, not caring that y/n's tears were staining his shirt. "i should've told you, im so sorry schatzi.." bill kissed the top of their head, y/n began stroking a lock of their hair to stim themself.

after a few more moments of bill holding them and making sure their okay, y/n is finally calm but they arent speaking; they went nonverbal for the time being. "do you wanna go back to the party?" bill asked, in a soft tone. y/n looked down and shook their head no, "alright then, we'll go home" bill held his hand out, y/n put their hand in bills and they walked out of the party; heading straight home the car ride home was silent, but there was a peaceful atmosphere in the car. bill glanced at y/n every now and then, making sure she was calm and relaxed. they finally arrived home, y/n going in the house first and bill following right behind her.

after they got ready for bed, they laid down and bill held y/n in his arms. their head on his chest. "m'sorry for freaking out like that and we had to leave.." they mumbled, y/n felt a little guilty that bills fun had to end so quick because of the meltdown y/n had. "no its okay schatzi, i care more about your well being then some party" "b-but you were having so much fun and i-" bill held y/ns cheek, causing y/n to look at him "i was having fun with you y/n, if you didnt feel okay to go on with the party im glad we came back home" bill smiled softly to reassure them "i love you y/n, i dont care about the party"

authors note: i lowkey hate this but you guys deserve some posts so i made a little fluff story<3 ill post the other stories tommorow, i love you guys:)

[loverboyjamespotter]

What’re your general prongsfoot head canons

hiii!!! im so sorry for the late reply ive not been online much recently!

and thank you for asking about prongsfoot hcs bc honestly i could talk about them all day lmaooo OKAY SO:

sirius has borderline personality disorder and his favourite person is james

this isnt really prongsfoot this is more james but i firmly believe he has adhd

on a similar note i definitely DEFINITELY think sirius is autistic

i think that no one truly UNDERSTOOD james like sirius. i think one of the most compelling things about prongsfoot is that james is obviously a performer. he enjoys attention and he likes being the centre of attention. however, i think at the end of the day that really is just an Image if you get what i mean? like everyone wants a part of james hes the most popular boy in school hes practically a legend like i really really feel like people underestimate the fucking FORCE OF NATURE that was james potter like he was the gryffindor chaser IN SECOND YEAR!!!!! but i feel like ... hmm this is hard to articulate but i think what i mean is sirius sees Through the facade and loves james for who he is not in spite of who he is. like in SWM when theres people in the crowd who are laughing at james' antics (along the vein of 'oh that james! what a card!') and lily telling james to stop it but i think sirius just sees the worst parts of james and loves them just as much as the good parts. i think he sees through the spoilt naivety, the arrogance, the everything to who james is as a person. and heres the really crazy thing: i really dont even think ... james KNOWS he putting on this performance for the benefit of everyone else because i think he absolutely is the most oblivious person when it comes to his feelings but sirius knows.

this links into my next big hc which is that i think BOTH sirius AND james love each other for who they are in their entirety like i think james saw sirius and adored him for everything he was.

i think theyre simultaneously the same person and polar opposites.

i think sirius because of the the fact he had the upbringing he did is hyperconscious of what hes feeling at any time so he knew he was in love with james like. within first year. but i genuinely think james didnt even realise he was in love with sirius just because he always WAS ... hes just has TERRIBLE reflection skills like that guy is sooo oblivious to his own feelings its hilarious. like hes ALSO been in love with sirius since first year he just didnt realise bc the feelings always been there.

theres this popular thing in fics and it really annoys me its like my pet peeve in fics where its like sirius only was obsessed with james bc james was his first friend or the first person that was kind to him :| i genuinely think thats just terrible analysis. firstly we KNOW andromeda and sirius were always on good terms and alphard cared for sirius too. but even if that wasnt true i genuinely dont think sirius is the kind of person to be obsessed with the first person who's nice to him. i think theres a tendency to remove sirius from his own canonical context like sirius is ... at best indifferent and at worst disinterested in ... pretty much EVERYONE. like he wouldn't just choose some random kid to obsess over. i think sirius consciously and DELIBERATELY chose james to obsess over because it was JAMES not because james HAPPENED to be the first person to be kind to sirius. also this is soo silly because if you re-read their first meeting ... JAMES ISNT EVEN NICE TO HIM LMFAOOOOO???? like hes a little shit he LITERALLY SAYS AND I QUOTE 'blimey and i thought you were alright' LIKE SIRIUS JUST SAID HIS WHOLE FAMILY ARE SLYTHERINS AND JAMES SAID THE EQUIVALENT OF 'lmfaooo your family sux' like????

this is canon but i just want to stress it more but i think the whole entire school knew james and sirius were obsessed with each other like again yes this is canon the fact 'you never saw one without the other' but i genuinely think everyone was absolutely so sick of them.

this is another popular thing in fics where it has jily being together and sirius 'moving on' ... sorry but sirius is not ever dating anyone that isnt james he is never moving on he is never trying to get past james. is that healthy? fuck no. but also prongsfoot as a dynamic is absolutely insane like it really really irritates me when fic has sirius trying to 'move on' sorry that guy is NEVER EVER going to try and get over james. ever.

another thing that is a pet peeve of mine and i realise this is now just becoming a pet peeves list but bare with me is that fic often under-emphasises how the nature of prongsfoots relationship was definitely reciprocal and by that i mean james was EQUALLY as obsessed with sirius like again to point to SWM .... it SAYS. IN THE TEXT. that harry got the feeling that james wouldnt stop being an asshole for anyone other than sirius. HARRY FEELS THAT PALPABLY BY WATCHING THEM FROM A DISTANCE!!!!!!!!!!!! but my hc is that over the summers before sirius runs away james mopes around the whole house sighing and everything because he misses sirius. like to the point where james' parents are concerned for him bc james is NOT the brooding type yet he spends a full day flat on his back glaring at the ceiling because walburga confiscated sirius' two way mirror and sirius hasnt stolen it back yet.

GOD IM SORRY THESE ARE SO LONG I HAD SO MANY MORE BUT I THOUGHT IT BEST TO CUT OFF HERE

[jonkleringjerster]

I don’t usually do this but i thought you’d like to know (in case u didn’t know idk) but Selina is bisexual in canon. Sorry I’m not trying to be that guy. Also I’m not mad at you or anything like that I’m just letting you know, sorry for wording this weirdly I am autistic lol

(i may sound hostile in this response but pls know anon that i understand your pov and circumstance and im not angry at you personally, this topic just gets me a little ignited lol)

i got this response to my harley quinn ref sheet too. “she’s bi and not a lesbian, don’t erase canon bi characters”

pls be aware that selina and harley being bi are very much not common knowledge. i genuinely didn’t know that selina is bi. and to counter, the nature of dc canon is so loose. just because these characters are bi in a few comics does not retcon past and future interpretations. the writing of the authors who made them bi is not monolithic.

i make characters gay, lesbian or trans because i want them to be. i haven’t read every comic or watched every movie and i don’t have to. this is my headcanon and i really don’t care to conform it to any present canon. i’ll make selina a lesbian if i want her to be. i’m not writing this from DC headquarters. My drawing with 30 notes will not effect the canon identity of anyone or any character.

disagree with me that’s fine. the art i create is for myself and i draw characters that i feel seen through. again, sorry for getting heated