#sorry i needed to vent rq

[lesbianturrets]

Everyday I get scared that I will be lonely forever

[shellxrls]

i AM GOING TO SHOOT MYSELF

[johndonneswife]

[enigma-the-anomaly]

:/

[gemharvest]

[queerandom]

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[caseywond3r]

me when the thing I want sooo badly is not happened fast enough so my brain decides that it would rather self-sabotage never have it at all than just fUCKING WAIT LIKE THREE DAYS FOR THE LOVE OF GOD

[smooth-perceval]

Angsty lando pleaseeeeee

This is my first rq omg, sorry it was rushed I have like 7 drafts and I’m trying to clear them out 🥲🫶🏼❤️

Surrender

Lando Norris x Fem!Reader

Summary: Reader was only trying to console Lando, Lando throws a hissy fit- and some truths are spilled. The ‘argument’ being quickly extinguished.

Warnings: Angst, swearing, very annoyed reader+Lando, fluff ending

Key: Y/N (Your Name) Y/L/N (your last name)

Word count: 1,397

A/N: I cannot see Lando being mean- so it was kinda weird to write 😂 Sarcastic asf? Yes! Mean- it seems so odd but I hope I done okay ❤️

Wether Lando was annoyed or not- I shouldn’t have recieved the back end of it.

I only asked a simple “you okay?” And I got back. “Just leave me the fuck alone.” Before storming back over to the car hopping back in and out on track.

Debating wether to go back to the drivers room or stay - I finally decided that going back to the drivers room was my best option. I felt embarrassed- after 4 people asked me if I was okay, I felt to upset and awkward to be around them.

My face was Ferrari red- no joke, shuffling my way back to the drivers room, I sat in pure silence. Did I really say anything bad? Did I actually annoy him and it wasn’t the car? Questioning my intentions for the next 10 minutes or so is all I did. Before I came to the perfect idea and decided to just leave in general, go back to the hotel and dwell on it all there.

While I had the chance to run I did. Straight back to our hotel and straight into the shower, a day washed away once again. I made quick effort to change into a simple shorts pyjama set, lounging out on the small sofa they had in the room.

—

My phone re-woke me. Grabbing ahold and answering, only to realise who it was when the angry voice spoke down the line.

“Where the hell are you?!”

“Back at the hotel?”

“I’ve looked everywhere for you! Nobody knew! You didn’t tell me!!” Rubbing my eyes, a yawn escaping me. I tutted at him climbing off the sofa and into the bed.

“I fell asleep and forgot to message sorry-”

“I’m nearly at the hotel.” And with that he hung up, here I anxiously sat. I get the annoyance but he was the reason I left in the first place.

Sighing I mentally prepared myself for the lecture I was about to withstand. And truthfully I couldn’t be asked for it.

“Y/N.” The door unlocked and he barged in.

“Seriously- what the hell is going on with you? I needed you at the pits today.” Frowning he stormed off into the bathroom.

“Errr- No, you told me to ‘leave you the fuck alone’ so I did.” Leaning over the bed I put my phone on charge.

“Just cause I said it, didn’t mean I meant it.” Tutting I hear him switch on the shower waiting around for it to warm up, he walked back out facing me.

“Wether you meant it or not Lando. I didn’t deserve it.”

“Well who else am I supposed to let my anger out on.” Throwing his hands up in the air like it’s the most problematic thing in his life at the moment.

“You can vent to me any day- you know that. But I won’t take rudeness.”

“I wasn’t fucking rude!” Shaking his head laughing to himself he went back into the bathroom slamming the door.

“There you go again. Just because your cars shit! Don’t take it out on me.” Laying back on the bed with a groan I stared up at the ceiling.

What a dick.

“My car is not shit-” glancing over at him now standing back outside the bathroom door, he looked so pissed off- but why is it okay for him to say stuff and not me.

“Did I touch a nerve?”

“What made you even bring that up? We wasn’t talking about that.”

“The whole reason for your sour mood is that car.”

“Can’t a guy just have a bad day.” Pulling his hoodie off throwing it on the floor.

“There’s a bad day and then a bad weekend. And you’ve been an asshole to me this whole weekend. If it’s not the car then what? Is it me?” Raising my eyebrows at him I sat on the edge of the bed.

“Your talking stupid again.” And once again he stormed into the bathroom, stripping down to his underwear.

“Then what is it?- I’m not a mind-reader Lando! I can’t help unless you tell me what’s pissed you off.”

“Your not listening! Nothing has pissed me off, fucking hell.” I could’ve got whiplash the amount of times he has stormed in and out that bathroom.

The hot and cold was pissing me off- and before I knew it, all the calmness washed away from me- and all the built up annoyance and anger reeled out.

“You are so frustrating- do you understand that.” Furrowing my brows I stood up, gesturing my hands in front of me.

“One minute it’s ‘can’t a guy have a bad day’ then it’s ‘I’m not pissed off’ or it’s ‘I needed you in the garage today’ but your not pissed off right? So why did you need me. Do you understand how fucking childish your being.” Chest rising and falling, we both stared at each other in silence.

“And while I’m getting everything off my chest for once- your car is shit! Man up and tell the team, don’t drive a shit car and then get annoyed at me for asking a simple question. I didn’t build the stupid car, I don’t drive it- I have no involvement!” Turning around grabbing a pillow off the bed I stomped towards the sofa. “Stupid fucking thing it is.” Mumbling to myself while shaking my head.

“Because I have human decency, I’ll sleep on the sofa. But don’t you dare speak to me unless your going to apologise for being a absolute prick.” Throwing the pillow down on the sofa, I went to the wardrobe pulling out the spare duvet, throwing that on the sofa also.

“What- why you sleeping on the sofa…”

“That doesn’t sound like an apology.” With a loud huff he disappeared once again.

When I turned around Lando had retreated back to the bathroom. It’s strange, lecturing someone tires you out, I flopped back onto the sofa, sighing to myself. Was I too harsh…? Yeah- maybe I should apologise…

Before I even thought about what to say I had dozed back off again, not even wanting to face Lando truthfully right now, I’ll only say more things I don’t mean.

—

“Baby…” rocking me gently, I was woken from my slumber. It was pitch black, I just about made out Lando’s face.

“You awake…?” Even though it was just us two, he still whispered. Humming in response, I rolled over facing the back of the sofa.

“I’m sorry…” pressing a delicate kiss to my shoulder, rubbing it gently, he then leant his head against my back. “I’m sorry for taking my anger out on you… your right about absolutely everything.” Followed by another soft kiss to my shoulder.

“Even about the car being shit??…” smiling to myself, I turned back over slowly, wrapping an arm around his neck, playing with the back of his hair.

“That’s the reason I’m so annoyed-” slowly he squeezed himself on the sofa, pulling me half on-top of him. “Your right- I should man up and tell them, not just keep allowing them to fuck up…” brushing my hand over his cheek, I laid my head on his shoulder listening to him vent.

“I just have had enough… I’ve had enough of feeling like a failure every race- because the cars so terrible…” sighing, he fiddled with my hand. “I love you- and that scares me…” smiling wide, I moved his head turning it towards me.

“You love me?”

“So fucking much.” Pulling him in slowly, I placed a gentle kiss to his lips. “Your not a failure, your absolutely wonderful…” a small smile crept on his face at my compliment.

“Your going to tell them what you really think about that car, your also going to give it your all the rest of this season, because you don’t give up.”

“Your also going to start understanding, I’m on your side always… no matter what, I’m battling from your corner. Because I love you, always have and always will.”

Smiling at me, he pulled me down slowly brushing his lips against mine, “does this mean I get some lovin’?” Laughing, I smacked his chest climbing over him standing up.

“You really are lucky I love you.”

“I know I bless myself everyday.” Standing up he placed his hands on my waist kissing me again.

“I’m sorry.”

“I know.”

Masterlist

[scp230kinnie]

Hi! Can you do head cannons for hunter from metal, lords,and he dating reader but reader lives in a troubled home? Sorry if this doesn’t make sense English is not my first language

Yesss

Hunter Sylvester x troubled Home! Reader (Headcanons)

Warnings: troubled home, abuse mentions, not proofread, cringe

⚠️ i do Not come from a troubled home, and I have little past history of abuse. If I get any information wrong or say anything hurtful, please let me know and I will immediately make changes

He tries to comfort you as best as he can.

He himself is uncomfortable around his father sometimes (canonically), but he doesn’t use it to try to compare your situations,, as he knows he’s in a very fortunate situation

However he does understand feelings of loneliness etc

He tries to be very patient with you. He already has low patience, but he really does try with you

He lets you come over to his place whenever you want. He knows how rough it can be with you.

Even if he has friends over, he’s willing to let you come over whenever you need

He prefers not to when he’s in a bad mood, because he’s scared he’s gonna lash out at you, but he does let you come over either way

He’s not sure if your parents are okay with you guys dating, so offers to keep it a secret if you want

He knows that if you don’t message him for a while, you probably got your phone taken away, so he doesn’t worry too much, he just assumes he’ll see you at school

If you don’t show up at school, he’ll be a bit worried,, but he doesn’t really show it

He’ll find some way to make sure you’re okay

If you ever need to vent, he’ll always listen

If you’re ever shit talking you parents, he will gladly join if you’re comfortable with that

He gets DEEP into it though

He is relentless until you tap his shoulder like… chill out a bit

He doesn’t like telling you to talk to counsellors cause… fuck authority or whatever he believes… unless you really need to.

He will try his best to find solutions and help you with things, even if he’s not really the best at it

If you aren’t allowed to listen to loud music or whatever, he’ll be so pissed like “what the hell do you mean your parents won’t listen to metal. I’d literally die if I was in your situation” or something like that

He will encourage you to make your own decisions, regardless of what your parents think. (Fuck authority, once again)

If your parents are like, super religious, he’ll try his best to be supportive of it. He might even go to church with you

Might

Yeah he’ll complain, but if you ask enough, he will comply

He feels really guilty when you get into fights/arguments

He comforts you as best he can

He is always a place of support and comfort whenever you need it

That’s all thanks guys

More rqs pls

[green-alien-turdz]

ok sorry but I need to vent rq some of my friends were being kinda transphobic and they were saying shit like "you can't even figure out if you're a boy or a girl" and idk why but I got really sad and offended and I had a really bad mental breakdown and I started biting myself a lot and cutting myself and I feel like I overreacted but I was seriously feeling really bad and I even missed Kenny's birthday and that boy is my SON and I feel bad for forgetting

Sorry

Don't be sorry for ventin to me, man, I been very clear with people that you guys are more than mfin welcome to talk to me about anythin. I'm so fuckin sorry that happened dude. n I just wanna say right now that those cunts ain't your fuckin friends. If they're gonna say shit like that to you, then they ain't real ones. Even if that is what you're currently goin through, yknow, bein conflicted about where you fall or if you fall on either of em, there's nothin wrong with that. While I obviously don't condone the act of sh, if you're already in a fragile state n somethin sends you into that, shit happens. Please just be sure to take care of yourself n try practicin harm reduction in the future. When you feel these things buildin up, take time to process n calm down to the best of your ability. Learn to talk with yourself n just have moments where you spend focusin on gettin outta that state of mind. Fuck those guys, man. I truly hope that you're doin somewhat better now. n don't let a bday of some character stress you out. I know missin somethin that's important to you can be overwhelmin n disappointin, but you n your mental health are far more important. You can celebrate Kenny anyday, but always put yourself first. Fuck those 'friends', dude. Please realize that you don't deserve to put up with people who will use shit against you like that. Hope that things get better, man

[mik0is0bored]

Im gonna vent rq so ignore this if you want idc

So yknow how in past posts I've said my mom is rude to me (telling me to go to hell is one of the many things she's said) and is nicer to everyone in my family? So yeah basically this all happened not even five minutes ago and basically I say "mom i think I have insomnia and depression can you try and schedule an appointment with my doctor" and she starts saying "no you don't need to go to the doctor your fine" and goes off on "you don't try to sleep at night you stay up and read or draw and think about whatever the fuck you want and you don't try to sleep" like last night I stared up at my ceiling or had my eyes closed and I only got four to five hours of sleep. I tried falling asleep. But I couldn't. I fell asleep at 11:30 last night. And then she starts saying "you dont get to defend yourself" and my irl friend let's me vent abt my mom right and so my mom stops talking and says "who are you texting" nd takes my phone before I can even respond and I say "why can't I talk to my friend" saysi explain why I am and she sits there with her mouth open like shocked or whatever and then she has the audacity to say "you don't get to feel emotions" and you do, mom? You get to decide my emotions? You get to tell me how I feel? Cause you dont. You make me feel like the scum of the earth and I don't matter, but you don't get to tell me that my feelings don't matter. She accuses me of yelling, I'm not yelling. I'm loosing my voice cus I was sick and I'm full on crying cus of all this shit like bro now your standing in the doorway of the bathroom apologizing? "Clean the mascara off your face" why? So dad doesn't see I've been crying? Like sorry i don't hate her, but don't fucking tell me my emotions don't matter then tell me to do shit that'll make it seem like shit didn't happen that's fucking unacceptable and it's beyond cruel to treat your fucking kid like that. And we wonder why people have mental illness and their mental health is bad. (Not all cases, but some) have unbelievable parents who tell them all this shit, and it makes them (me included) depressed, anxious, and fucking suicidal. This has nothing to do with it but I'm scared as shit to ask for help. It took me 10 minutes in health class today to ask my instructor "I'm i citing my sources correctly?" Like that should not take someone that long to ask a stupid question. Now I'm asking for therapy (wow I'm asking for help?) And my parents are ignoring the fact I said anything

[kingofcursessukuna]

hope u don’t mind if i vent rq Lord Sukuna . i think i’m gonna explode , i haven’t be able 2 cry 4 so long but rn i can’t stop crying . i’ve had a lot going on lately but im a protector yk . when evb is down they come 2 me cs they know imma be in good spirits always . i got sent home frm work nd it was the tip of my iceberg . my manger nd another coworker were bullying nd antagonizing my friend . i stepped in and tried 2 defuse the situation , as i should as anybody would . the manager blow up on me called me a bitch nd others nasty names nd sent me home . when i was walking out the door the side coworker i mention said i was fat nd sloppy . i told her come off the clock nd outside so we can see who’s fat nd sloppy. she acted like she was coming outside but ended up spitting in my face nd locking the company’s front door . in rage i run around the back trying 2 open the doors , basically finding any way inside the building . all the doors were locked , so i went 2 the drive thru window . only 2 be met by a male manager who told me . i’m not allowed in the building because of my behavior nd locked the window . i’m js so mad cs im very quiet nd stick 2 myself yet evil people keep finding ways 2 convert me into misery , im just tired .

I'm sorry to hear all of that. Above all else, make sure you prioritize yourself first and foremost. Let yourself feel whatever you need to feel and protect your peace. I hope things work out for you.

[ariestrxsh]

i gotta vent rq.

I have this rlly close friend and she just blocked me on everything because of a boy. we’ve been friends for 2 years and she changed classes just because of me. the thing is is that she was a rlly trusted friend and I gave her everything, I went to parties, I got her gifts, I made posts abt how much I loved her, I appreciated her and she just unfriended me because a boy was mean to me. for context this guy was rlly rude to me after my dance competition and made fun of me, he was my friends bf and I told her, hoping for her to comfort me but she said “your lying, he wouldn’t do that” and then asked him if he said that and he lied and said no and she got even madder at me. the thing is is that I legitimately told her everything from the boys I liked to my sue slide attempt and my dad (who passed away). she seriously didn’t have any empathy when I tried to talk to her aswell. I’ve just been crying tbh for the past day. any suggestions on how I can make this better? (for my mental health if she doesn’t want me anymore I won’t bother her.)

-🌪️ <3

I'm so sorry, babe. 💔 Reading this made me so sad. Unfortunately, the only thing you can really do is just feel it and not try to avoid the pain. It's okay to cry over it and be upset and mourn the friendship you had with this person, and if you let yourself just feel it, you'll be able to process it faster. Obviously, take breaks. Don't spend the whole day lying in bed crying about it if you can help it, but do allow time and space to feel your emotions in whatever way they want to come out. I know it's not the most ideal answer, but time will heal the pain. Hopefully, your friend will come around and realize that she's in the wrong here and didn't need to cut you off over something so menial. 🥺

[antiradqueer]

im so tired of radqueers... everything they do and say. and mostly, HOW MUCH they say "just block and move on!" but EVERY DAY there is a new radqueer blog. every time i block all blogs until i empty their tags, i already find several other new rq blogs the other day. and I don't understand it. most of the radqueer blogs I've blocked were, like, a week old or less! this is tiring. and contradictory. I'm just tired. I just wanted it to be over soon, you know?

(sorry for the vent)

I don't have that much to add, but there's no need to apologize for the vent! ^^ also, I really get the bad habit of doomscrolling, I do it too, but maybe you should just... stop trying to block all of them (because like you said, they're like a hydra) and step away from looking at their tags at all. take care!

[citriarchive]

thinking about this because i made the mistake of looking at Tumblr replies so pardon the half vent but how do people get in this mindset of "this song isn't good enough for someone to call themselves a musician, they're not a REAL musician" lmfao. like sorry but that teenager or 20-something who just released a TikTok song you don't like is still a musician. like by definition. there is no threshold to be a "real" musician, you spork. everyone has to start somewhere.

same with any form of art actually (that is made without AI). whether you like it or not, whether it's good or bad, someone crafted that shit. they are a "real" writer, they are a "real" artist, they are a "real" crocheter, knitter, sew...er, whatever form of art you're doing, if you're doing it, congratulations, you're now an artist, whether other people like it or not. full stop lmfao.

needed that off my chest rq sorry muts lol

[taintedlxve]

Wild that this was posted when I wasn't around to defend myself. Apologies to the person who sent me this I feel like they were trying to reassure me but all it did was make me mad lol.

Anyways, I'm mentally ill and reading this shit kind of fucked up my day and since I just can't let shit go without correcting the record I'm just gonna go over some things rq and go back to my hiatus. You don't gotta read, but I was called a liar repeatedly and I'm not gonna let that sit.

A lot of Awoo's post screams out to me as "i'm taking accountability but not really" and I just want to point out places where I feel she's being disengenuous and go back to my hiatus bc I had a good vibe going until now lmao.

I'm skipping the really long explanation about why she never followed me, frankly as I've said before my problems with her extend past that entirely and at this point I don't think it matters that much.

I'll just say this, we had a private conversation in which I made it expressly clear it was okay to come to me about something if she felt she had a problem the LAST time she blocked me for no reason (to be clear to this day I don't know what the hell I was supposed to be sorry for?) after I decided to just unfollow her from her breedingacademy sideblog bc she was replying to other folks' stuff and seemed to just ignore mine. She apologized for this and said she'd do better and I believed her. This, primarily, why I didn't reach out at first.

Further in the post she mentions the vent I wrote that was, in fact, 1000% about her. Ngl I forgot I even wrote it and was surprised by how recently it was. I dunno if I'm really sorry about what I said, it's how I felt at the time and just given the context of how I've allowed you to treat me I simply don't trust you like that anymore.

To be clear I had a LOT of dropped threads at the time or wasn't getting responses at all and that was actively fucking with me and making me wanna quit entirely, but Awoo's behavior stuck with me bc she was one of the few whose responses flooded my dash and I just wouldn't be included. Not saying she's lying but frankly frankly even if it was true Idk what to tell you cause that wasn't the reason she gave at the time.

You very much did say "it's nobody's fault" and "my brain works differently" since you're accusing me of malicously taking you out of context and/or misremembering, but unfortunately I can't access the reply in the image attached bc it's been removed. I'll link it here, maybe something's fucky with my tumblr, I thought it might have been from the blog she ended up deleting but nah it takes me back to her current so -shrug-.

To go into further explanation about what she said (bc obviously I wasn't going to commit a post to photgraphic memory in a vent post) it was something to the effect of "sorry, that's just not how my brain works. once you tell me you're tired of something my brain just labels it as 'avoid at all costs'. It's nobody's fault but…" etc. etc.

She mentions she's autistic, which, I know?? She's mentioned it several times over the last 10 years. Most of my friends are neurodivergent with needs unmet. I'm autistic and soon to be tested for ADHD with needs unmet. I understand that life and socialization is extremely difficult for neurodivergent people.

My partner literally has avpd but she understands that ignoring people bc they make her anxious hurts those people and she takes steps to do what she's able to to circumvent those obstacles bc she cares about those people. I'm really over this self-infantilization people leap to to avoid being criticized the negatives things done because of their neurodivergence. Reminds me of when Sara would beef with everyone on dash and say 'Oh it's my depression'.

And it's not like you were unable to communicate. When I said I was playing fem!Izuku is like the ONLY time I've ever had you reach out to me in my DMs unprompted

Sure, maybe I missed the point of your callout post, whatever, but the point of my message was literally all I've ever asked of you was like, to talk to me and you blocked me without communicating again. The diff is I'm just over being gaslit into being nice and feeling like it's my fault.

You trying to push the responsibility back onto me with a "Oh well she never asked if she had a problem with me" in spite of the fact that I went SO far out of my way to accommodate you to the point of giving you different Cyr icons bc you were squicked out by hair covering eyes just puts the nastiest fucking taste in my mouth and it makes me mad tbh.

I cannot stress how much I'm always the one people expect to make the first move and how sick of it I am, that's why I didn't come to you. I'm not a 'coward', I just was done bowing and scraping for people who didn't like me.

If you cared, you had my discord, and it wasn't like I blocked you first. You had ways of contacting me, and you didn't. So the rigamarole of you 'being worried for me' just doesn't pass my smell test, sorry.

Maybe it does make me hypocrite to smell bs when I see it but it definitely doesn't make me gullible.

The rest is just her demanding an apology from me (nah, you first bitch) but, and I wanna be explicitly clear, the feeling is very mutual, I want nothing to do with this chick.

I wanna be very clear that the end result of this was never to rebuild a friendship with Awoo bc again, once she blocked me I realized this wasn't even the bulk of my problem with her, it was the last straw.

I'm don't wanna be friends with someone who publically calls me me disengenuous and makes me feel so bad I end up apologizing.

Or, again, someone who blocks me when I just say "oh, this person doesn't seem to want to interact on this sideblog so I'll just unfollow"

Maybe you're not like that anymore, or your neurodivergence makes you that way, but I just don't want people like that in my life anymore, and I'm done letting people make me feel small for standing up for myself.

I'll cop to calling you a bad person and saying you hate me bc a lot of that was me being in my feelings and I'm not a mind reader, nor do I know you well enough outside of the internet to make these claims.

But as much as you've tried to victimize yourself I 1000% stand by what I said before, I hope you don't treat you muts as shitty as you treated me.

Thank you for confirming tho that you're not sorry I think helps to know