#sorry for the rant probably gonna delete this

[jellyshark-jester]

I’m so sad

When I was younger and look Thai and is literally a walking roast chicken I used to draw myself wHITE and now that I don’t go outside like ever aside from work and idk hangouts witch is like once a week I am pastier than my wHITE friends but i just wanna draw myself tan cuz I was fucking tan but no I’m out here Casper, the fucking ghost, literally out whiting my white friends.

My point is that I wanna draw my self inserts tan but because I’m not it feels weird cuz I did that with my HI3 oc :/

[numberonepartyboy]

'kai raised nya alone' is such bs. oh yeah those other village people wouldn't fucking help two babies who's parents are missing. they totally wouldn't provide them food and help them to get enrolled in school or help with their home.

(( i do hc that kai and nya grew up very fast, being too mature for their age and having no close friends with others bc of their more adult behavior. both of them are school dropouts (kai dropped out in middle school and nya in highschool.) ))

[proshipconfessions]

Responding to your last post about proshippers complaining about other proshippers. You didn't provide this option, but I really think it should depend on the content of the ask... And yes, this is a confession blog for proshippers/profic, etc. aligned people. Telling us to go to antiship confession blogs is horrifically stupid and is only going to put us in dangerous positions.

The proship community is not immune from being shitty. There are proshippers who act just like antis. People who think they can change their race and give themselves disabilities are straight up infecting the community as well. There are proshippers who are horrifically ableist against pwOSDDID, schizospec disorders, etc. There are proshippers who straight up use slurs they can not reclaim. There are proshippers who call people the r slur. I especially think proshippers with these disorders (including myself) should have a safe outlet to talk about the toxicity and abuse within our own community without telling us to basically become an anti. Because what the hell???

Of course, I can't read every single anon that you get, but if they are anything along the lines of what I'm talking about here, consider not deleting them. Especially don't tell people to "just become antis" or "just go to antiship confession blogs." That's harmful as fuck.

If anything, these confessions should serve as a reality check that our community isn't perfect. Or serve to remind people that this behavior shouldn't or won't be tolerated in the proship community. Not every self-proclaimed "proshipper" is actually a proshipper, especially if they act abusive, ableist, or harass people like antis do. I will die on this hill.

If you don't want to house confessions about these topics, that's fine. Just say so, and I'll make my own confessional blog where these topics are allowed.

You’re right that there are plenty of people who are proship and also shitty af. It’s something that I’ve both posted plenty of confessions about and have actually even—in case you haven’t been familiar with my blog for a while—made my own post about! It’s like one of just a few posts that I have made speaking directly from my mouth and not a confession. It’s just a post that I wrote about behavior that I hate seeing pop up far too commonly in this community. I literally can’t count how many people I have blocked, which includes not only antis, but also shitty proshippers and pricks who claim to be them while supporting harm caused to others in real life.

You’re also right that you can’t read every anon that I get. I would have much preferred that you even just ask what kind of thing I’m talking about instead of acting like you’re some secret second mod and I’m just some asshole who refuses to hold anyone or any behavior accountable as long as I agree with them on some level.

I really do wonder what you would think about one of the (many with a similar tone) asks that inspired this post.

Do you know how many anons I get with the same fucking attitude and the same fucking insistence that they’re right and I’m wrong and evil, and yet I’m somehow the perfect mouthpiece for their beliefs? What reality check is this supposed to be giving me? Please either stop assuming that everything I say is in bad faith or genuinely try to explain to me what the good content for my followers is in this ask. This is the behavior that I mocked in my post. I also have an old one that I think is somewhere in my drafts(?) where the evil behavior that they’ve seen among a bunch of proshippers that has made them hate all proshippers is venting about harassment from antis. The fake post I made mocking them is an amalgamation of those two, but you only get this one since I’m way too tired to go find the other one rn lol. If someone reminds me, I can reblog it with it later.

Also, I really can’t tell where I said in my post that I would tell these people to go to antiship blogs (other than my reference to a comment where I said that if all that people send to my inbox is how much they hate proshippers and basic proship ideology, then they should probably take that to an anti blog) instead of just deleting the ask, like I actually said in the post. The post that was really more of a way to let off some steam while getting some use out of the Tumblr polls that I practically never get to do anything with. Do you think that the person in those screenshots that I put above is more at home here than they’d be sending this to some anti’s blog?

But like to try to put myself in your shoes, you could’ve been having a shitty day when you sent this, you could be young, or hell, you could’ve seen someone say something similar to my statement recently while meaning this shitty completely different thing. Or maybe you’ve never seen my blog in your life and have no clue what kind of stuff I do/don’t post. My response might sound super defensive, and I hope that it doesn’t, and that I’m not jumping to conclusions, too. I’d hate to blow this out of proportion over what could easily be just a misunderstanding. If I’m being too harsh, sorry. I aim any coldness towards all of these bigoted ideas and the idea that I hold them, and not at you as a person, as I’m willing to believe that you’re an entirely rational person who just misunderstood me and lashed out at me bc of it. But if there is a next time, please try to give me the benefit of the doubt. I don’t ever intend to do anything harmful, and what I said wasn’t intended to imply anything like what you’re saying here at all. I’m not talking about proshippers venting. I’m talking about actual antis coming into my inbox with the “I’m like TECHNICALLY a proshipper, I guess, but I just despise proshippers and think that people who engage with certain types of fiction are inherently bad!!!” So unless you’re one of these people coming into my inbox, then I am NOT telling YOU to go to antiship confession blogs. And if you are… well, then you’re probably not gonna see this, since I’m going through and blocking all of these dickheads soon.

[pkmn-smashorpass]

Respect to those making clear that the baby pokemon aren't actual babies, but even as someone who's been assuming that all of these pokemon pass the harkness test, I still don't want to fuck anything that looks like a baby. I'm not trying to claim any moral superiority, but the looking like a baby part is still a deal breaker here

Completely valid

[tantei-armin]

Man, it's so sad (and kinda pathetic, sorry), that so many of the bad reviews for Trigun Stampede on MAL, are basically "it's different from the OG yadda yadda".

Why is it so hard for people to separate both shows? I mean, Im ok with people not liking Stampede, or not liking the new designs or missing Millie, but if your only argument to shit on the show is because you are a nostalgia baby that cant deal with change, then Im sorry, but I consider your opinion invalid.

Don't like stampede, then just go rewatch the OG anime. At least be real and admit that the OG had its faults too (have u seen the static fight scenes?), but dont come at me saying Im stupid for enjoying Stampede and claiming the OG anime was "perfect".

Dont like the show? Dont watch it. I didnt like the OG anime, but you dont see me going around calling it trash or insulting people who enjoyed the show. I like Stampede's designs more, I like the darker tone of the show and I find Orange's CG style stunning. But I understand why people enjoy the OG too even if I didnt, its just a matter of personal preferences.

So really guys. If you dont like Stampede, thats fine, no one is forcing you to watch it. But let the people who do enjoy it have their fun and bebhappy instead of going around trashing the show and insulting people.

[ganondoodle]

something thats been driving me crazy is the constant worry that i am somehow using harmful stereotypes for the characters i write

like i am unfortunately white tm and me also being autistic and queer does not erase that obviously, im always trying to educate myself as best as i can, yet i feel like im always doing something wrong

its less of a problem when im working with the normal forms of hylia and demise since they are not really human, and though their humanoid disguises technically are still not human they do represent what they might have looked like if they grew up as one; i didnt want to make demises form too dark since i felt like it would perpetuate that stereotype of dark skin = evil which is already not great about ganondorfs character design, but didnt want to make him too light since i felt it would erase that part of his connection to ganondorf altogether and make it all the worse, but then again my demise isnt actually that evil, hes good at heart, so making him too light then would be even worse bc it would imply that light = good thing again

for hylia im even more anxious about it bc i intentionally gave her very dark skin to kinda subvert that light = good thing with zelda (tho in my AU the gods are not good and hylia isnt actually as loyal to them as it may seem bc she knows that.. which i feel complicates things just further; and also light an dark is just a very good contrast aesthetically?) but then i also like to intentionally make characters rather ?gender? but then i worry her being somewhat masculine would also be sth harmful bc i know black women are often treated as inherently less feminine .. which isnt my intention at all (tho my hylia .. doesnt rly have a gender? idk many characters i like to write/design dont have anything specific, like what more do you need than knwoing the right pronouns to call them?? qnq) her being rather cold and ruthless also feels like im doing something bad somehow

then theres the whole sexualization worry, i dont know if im doing that in a bad way bc honestly i just like .. drawing ...bodies? aesthetically? like yes they are very sexy but also wheres the line, am i somehow overstepping it without knowing?? how can i recognize what is normal 'finding certain things pretty or sexy' and what isnt??

so far i dont remeber anyone pointing anythign out as bad which im taking as a sign that i cant be doing that badly .. hopefully, maybe all this is a very stupid thing to worry about and its obvious to everyone else but i am so god damn afraid of doing something even slightly questionable and being hunted down for it (probably bc similar happened to me when i was a teen and it was about an absolut non issue, literally, so even the thought of doing something actually bad is mind boggling to me bc that other thing nearly cost me my life and i literally dont know how i survived and i would 100% not if it happened again..)

this is probably a very chronically online thing too but hoenstly i needed to get it out of my head for once

[itslottiehere]

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[diagonal-queen]

i really am like...the worst, huh? like i sometimes get sad that people hate me but i also get it cus same girlie me too! like fuck me!! i suck!! every time i think about myself, my identity or character or whatever, i'm always so wowed by how much i fucking suck!! i'm not even doing anything with my life- i'm not making any kind of impact or helping anybody. i'm doing the opposite, in fact. i'm also just...a really terrible friend, and i think about that every single time i talk to anybody i care about. it makes me feel so sad. i am just the worst!!

[that-angry-noldo]

we have a saying in ukrainian, "горить сарай - гори і хата", which basically translates to "if the stalls are burning, let the house burn too", and if it doesn't describe my attitude towards school perfectly.

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[drrobobitch]

Sometimes I feel like I’m actually going to blow my brains out because I’m literally so done with everything (again suprise suprise)

I literally work so hard and get nothing in return.

If I see someone complaining about getting less than 100 notes I may crash tf out like actually I may hurt someone 💀💀😭

I CANT DO THIS SHIT ANYMORE I LITERALLY WORKED ON A FIC FOR LIKE WEEKS AND GOT NOTHING I DONT GET IT I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO BE AT LEAST A LITTLE IMPRESSED WITH THE WORK I PUT IN BECAUSE I ONLY HAVE ONE PERSON WHO WILL ACTUALLY TELL ME AND THE OTHERS JUST LOOK AT ME FUNNY OR LIE STRAIGHT TO MY FACE I WANT TO KILL MYSELF I DONT UNDERSTAND I WORKED SO HARD AND GOT NOTHING AT ALL LIKE WHAT

IM SICK OF LYING TO MYSELF I FUCKING LOVE VALIDATION I NEED IT I NEED SOMEONE TO TELL ME WHY THE HELL I DESERVE TO EVEN BREATHE WHEN I GET UP I DONT GET IT I CANT MAKE IT STOP EVEN IF I TRY I JUST CANT IT WONT

I work my ass off for nothing. I just want people to talk to about the things I like and enjoy I’ve never gotten that before and idk how to talk to people I don’t get it I’m doing all this to impress you because if you like my work = you like me I need everyone to like me I NEED EVERYONE TO FUCKING LIKE ME

[liesmultixxx]

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[scuorge101]

(Probably gonna delete this later)

I honestly do hate it when people try to paint Remy LeBeau as an awful boyfriend/husband to Rogue. He’s not.

Does Remy have flaws? Yes, especially in the beginning! But, he grows from it and they both work through their problems TOGETHER.

I know Gambit did push some of Rogue’s buttons in the beginning of their relationship but he did grow from it if you actually read the comics.

Also to anyone saying “why doesn’t he just get Rogue to wear a collar or something?” Remy wouldn’t make Rogue do that, especially when he knows those collars do drain her. If she wants to put one on he will make sure before she goes through with it. He also experienced how painful one of the collars were!! So no he wouldn’t make Rogue wear one unless she absolutely wants to!!!

TW/CW// Talk of Sexual Assault

Also trying to call him a cheater feels super SUPER wrong to me because both cases of “cheating” I’ve seen people try to point out to me look more like sexual assault/harassment 😭 To me personally it looks that way, with how that woman practically drags him into that room after he constantly says no and then Mystique cornering him in his room and taking Rogue’s form 😐 also before anyone asks about that stupid Mystique situation; No. I do not think Gambit slept with Rogue’s mom. After how he tried to say he didn’t do anything and was shut down by everyone? Yeah no, I don’t think he did anything and everyone else was just being an ass.

Remy LeBeau has flaws, yes, but he’s not a bad boyfriend or husband. He and Rogue both have problems throughout the comics about their relationship that they both talk about and work out together.

God I’m genuinely sorry for all the rants lately. I promise I’m not a ranting blog 💀

Also everyone has their opinions! This is just mine! I personally don’t think either are bad. Feel free to debate with me or something in the comments or something.

I actually debated really hard with myself rather to post this or not, especially with the SH part.

[callmecammie]

Not a horny post but a rant ab something im so mad at I wanna delete the app

This shit is getting toxic

90% of findoms are the LAZIEST and most cringe on this app. They just expect money for no reason. Like damn, how dumb and lazy do you gotta be? I have to send you money just because you’re unreasonably hot and I get nothing out of it? I also have in my bio I don’t do tributes?? I think the other 10% of findoms on this app will agree with this next statement: If you’re a sex worker, or you sell nudes, or content, whatever your deal is. You still treat your people like they’re idk, fucking people?!? And you give them what they paid for(tasks, nudes, sessions,etc) and that’s respectable. I’ve had some decent interactions with findoms, where they’re like “hey, how are you? I’m a findom by the way” and then I’m like “ah that’s not my thing sorry” and then we both go on about our day. But these findoms that are just raging cunts make me wanna delete this fucking app so bad. I’ve met so many cool people on this app and have found some fun people to play with but this shit is getting toxic. I get at least 1 a day with that shitty fucking attitude and this morning I woke up to 4 of them. And btw, if you’ve felt like you’ve been attacked in this message, then I probably called your ass out and you’re part of the 90% of findom that gives not just legitimate findom, but also femdom in general a bad name. Stop being so fucking toxic Jesus fuck. I’m a nice guy, I love talking to people, and I am submissive, but do not go past my boundaries or I’m really gonna hurt your feelings.

[solchle]

!! Small announcement about this vlog !!

hello guys HIII gosh i dont usually do text post like this but i just really need to get this out of my chest for a while now /what a way to start the post,, (im really sorry my English is not my first language i just need to post this because it is bothering me)

i dont think im still gonna make content about dhmis like used to, it feels slowly like a chore now to me :( im sorry for the lack of post these past days, and now that i have this post out i think I better start posting about what i feel i want to draw. DHMIS was a blast, its a big interest of mine and it had a big impact on my life, thank you thank you so much for sticking around this blog, the community was so inviting and the people inthis fandom are the sweetest! this is Tumblr so archiving all post has no use but ill just put it out that I wont probably still post dhmis from now on. OH but you can still expect me to be around on this app, it will be mostly still art that i want to make for myself hehe :>

thank you for listening my rant! i would have this deleted soon and im planning to make another account so things could be organised for me (ill update soon!!). THANK YOU FOR REACHING THIS FARR i do have different interest atm so i will mostly post fanart on what i desirehehe! ihave a small introduction on my site you could check it out!!

[yandere-yearnings]

I won't keep this up for very long, but I think I do owe it to all my mutuals, followers and those who'd just browse on occasion or who found a safe space in this blog.

My previous account under the same name disappeared about a week ago, and it was sudden enough that I'm sure some of you may have chalked it up to Tumblr deactivating it. In actuality, it was because I deleted it myself.

I haven't been in the best mental state as of recently, even before I first started the blog, but I thought things would get better over time. My intention isn't to turn this into a rant or vent, so I won't expand but, I think all the self-imposed pressure I was placing on myself to write, paired with other factors had just pushed me to the point of breaking. I had a panic attack, and didn't give myself the time to calm down and think things through after, when I had decided to just give up.

My biggest regret is not making at least one final post, because I know how jarring it can be to have someone there one second, and find out they're gone the next. I can't imagine the worry I put some of my friends on here through, nor can I ever apologise enough that I still won't feel guilty.

I have a habit of leaving abruptly like that when I'm overwhelmed. Every time I promise myself I won't do it again, I end up breaking it. At the very least, this time, I'll try and have realistic expectations of myself and take breaks when I need them instead of impulsively deleting weeks and months of time and effort.

It's ironic to me because I'm the type of person who saves every single thing I write just in case anything happens, but I didn't do that with most of the content that I had on this blog — because I wasn't expecting things to turn out this way. Some of my works are probably still floating around Tumblr thanks to reblogs, so if anyone sees anything and lets me know, it'd help me find them again. For the most part, I'll probably have to start over from scratch anyway.

Unfortunately, all my unanswered asks are also gone, and I had a lot of them. I'll try to put out things for the ones I can remember somewhat. If you've sent any in that I never came around to, you're free to send them in again if you still want a response.

This got lengthier than I anticipated, but I hope it was a sufficient enough explanation. I'm sincerely sorry for any distress or just negative feelings I may have caused. I'm sorry to my mutuals who I left without even trying to talk to. I'm sorry that I took away a safe space for some of my followers, because I used to get the sweetest messages about how my writing helped and how my ocs would make everything feel less lonely. I truly hope this can become a place like that again. I'm gonna try my absolute best.