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#mine#personal#gonna vent/rant a little sorry#someone reblogged my gif tutorial and then deleted it again#because they got an ask about it letting them know the gifset it used as an example was puck#who is portrayed by mark salling#and then they got 'all ew gross why are people even making graphics about him' about it#ughhhh like very valid if you cant deal with the character because of who portrays him. that's fine.#but dont act like nobody is allowed to appreciate a character because of that#I literally even tagged it as tw mark salling because I KNOW there's valid reason to avoid him#and that's fine#but now I just feel like shit that I put a lot of effort into putting a tutorial together#just for people to act like it's gross that I would even consider making the gifset it's based on#anyway. idk I'm just like. I feel deflated about it gkdhdkd#I'm probably being overdramatic sorry#this is wht I get for trying to branch out beyone my tiny little section of fandom I guess
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ARMYs are really just burnt out and I don’t think the rapid fire pace of releases has helped anything. It’s amazing as a fan to get all this music, but the expectation to chart everything I think is unrealistic and kind of overwhelming. People just don’t have that kind of time, energy, or money to go all out for every comeback when they happen every other month, sometimes several in a single month. It especially doesn’t help if ARMYs aren’t feeling the song, and I don’t think they’ve felt quite a bit of CH2 music.
I have longer thoughts on all this, but I just have so much annoyance towards some chart ARMYs and their unrealistic expectations and their refusal to acknowledge that the current organized fandom streaming power isn’t what they think it is. Another big wave of HL victimization (but sometimes TH is also included??) from ARMYs and it just opened the doors for so much resentment and hatred to be thrown towards jkk but especially Jimin. It was really disturbing to go and block these people & find I had 5-10+ moots following each time. It’s really out of control.
I’m just tired of this RL discourse while they ignore the twenty elephants in the room that explain why the streams are where they are (and no it’s not because “ARMYS hate RL”.). Instead they just throw these tantrums that further divide an already deteriorating and toxic fandom. I don’t know what it will take for them to understand that a fandom that doubled with Dynamite is going to prefer pop music, and that the majority of ARMYs are in fact not zombie streamers but fans who casually listen to the music that appeals to them. Not to mention the fact that a lot of ARMYs aren’t even active right now, so many of them have been dropping off and waiting for BTS to return as a group.
It really just keeps getting worse and worse in ARMY spaces. I’m pretty sure active ARMYs are about 90% diet solos at this point. It’s extremely messed up what a lot of them can get away with saying and not get canceled or called out for. It’s also just this hyper-fixation on drama, shooter accounts, NewJean’s, MHJ, raging against whatever fandom approved villain of the month, trending pointless hashtags for random reasons, and then being shady and resentful because of these arbitrary goals they set that are often influenced by using Jimin as a goalpost.
#discourse#just a little fandom rant#wanted to be present for NJs comeback#but yeahhhhh#definitely shouldn’t have come back to this side of the fandom#they’re genuinely intolerable sometimes#most of the time actually#they’re really going to chase all the good people out#maybe they already have#and some of the nasty stuff i was seeing about JM yesterday was unreal#ARMYs are entirely to blame for the solo and diet problem too btw#just like they are with tkkrs#but i wont get into all that rn#alright sorry#back to ignoring the fandom mess#ahdgljhadslghsdg#just remembered something else i read that pissed me off#but im going to stop myself 😩#vent series#wait actually one last point in my tags#but RL streams arent even that low#its because they lost sight of what our normal streams ACTUALLY look like#because theyre comparing everyone to jkk#and specifically jm#even though they pretend theyre not pitting the members against each other#like how on earth can you complain about THs streams??#its neglect if any member is lower than JM??#im gonna write another post about JM being the goalpost one day lol
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aroace joy vs aroace loneliness fight
#im saying that as someone who IS aroace if this ends up in discourse territory somehow#sometimes i think it's some form of internalized arophobia and it probably is a little at least#but i just feel so wrong and lonely thinking about the future#because i love the idea of being in love (as one can tell) but i just don't love people like that#and aside from any other self worth and confidence issues involved in obtaining a partner it just seems unfair to them you know#that id never be able to love them in that way#before anyone says qpr i am WELL AWARE!!! but then we go back to the Other Issues#besides its so easy to find other aros online but irl nobody really understands#so its kinda hopeless#ive always wanted to get married and have kids of my own !!! like genuinely i love the idea of it#but i doubt id ever find someone who would like#want to be a secret 3rd thing with me and get platonically married and raise kids or smth#and then theres the whole thing about me probably not being a good parent or being able to even afford to have kids so like. GRGRRARARSRR#cant win#ive accepted the fact im gonna be alone but it doesn't make it any happier. it feels like theres something wrong with me you know#but on the other hand i love being aroace its such an integral part me??#and it makes me so happy to be apart of the community and to know its okay#that there are people who understand the Lack#and even in the specific ways i do!!!#so its like so. aughhghhghh#saying this feels like a betrayal because i know theres nothing wrong with not#finding love. i heavily criticize the idea that people need love in their life to be fulfilled.#i feel like im wrong on both ends. to want it AND not feel it#personal posts and stuff idk#cw vent#aethers rants#sorry to be a party pooper i think its getting a bit cloudy and its getting to me
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i don't feel like looking for it rn bcus of the mood i find myself in but i need to like. tattoo that post about wishing your mind would be kinder to you and then remembering that you have to do that on my fucking eyelids.
#little rock.txt#venting#it's not even. specific. i've just been in kind of a shitty mood for a few days#like i thought i knew what had triggered it so i walked myself through some thoughts on that#but i'm still just. vaguely pissed off all the time.#i don't feel particularly motivated to write the important things or talk or draw or do fuck all#like i Have done stuff. i did my laundry bcus i have work and if i didn't get a clean bra together my chest dysphoria was going to get Bad#but i've stayed up until 7-8 a.m. and woken up at 2 p.m. both of my days off#i'm supposed to be helping plan a pathfinder mission and i can't think that hard about fucking anything#i'm just tired and angry and trying to keep up appearances bcus i don't want to be tired or angry anymore#but sleeping and trying to nurse myself through my feelings don't Work bcus i'm Not Good At Them Yet#i know people love me and i'm trying so fucking hard to love myself too bcus i don't want to let them down#anyway. sorry. rant over. if you live with me uuuhh sorry i've been like this the last few days. i don't. super want to talk about it.#i need to call my doctors is what i need to fucking do but i'm gonna try to do that after work
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slight rant/vent
Though I'm also posting on twt at @bluravenite in case you want to interact with me outside of hate anons
Yk there's probably hate anons going around all the time but it's been really apparent this past week that some people genuinely don't know to shut the fuck up... I have stopped posting with the same frequency as i was bc i am working on commissions and drawing takes time but i might just keep a more sort of closed parasocial relationship/ treat Tumblr more as a portfolio than as social media if that keeps happening... Sorry that i rant in here a lot but it's genuinely exhausting sometimes when most of your mutuals on this app are getting rude anons...
#it's genuinely worrying bc it really makes you question what kinda people have it against u/ur friends#like why cant you just leave some people alone#and it makes me feel guilty too for wanting to also protect/defend my friends?? you know nothing about these people#but thats never an excuse to be such an asshole to people#once talked with someone who had me blocked here and they told me they didn't remember why but “clearly my values didn't align with theirs”#that still hurts because my values have always been to make this page safe for everyone#posting my silly little doodles and hoping it means something to people#because right now?? THIS is the closest I'll ever get to my dreams#so it really sucks that the closest thing to being a concept artist and freelance illustrator is seeing my friends getting hate for nothing#i might actually close comissions for the public after this... 1 because i need higher prices for my work#and 2 because i am unfortunately scared that im never gonna be good enough#because people who draw cant catch a fucking break sometimes#sorry for the rant again#raven vents
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#ableism tw#(( ooc. ))#venting tw#when i'm in a 'be as ableist as possible ' competition and my opponent is my mil 0_0#i can't drive. its not safe for me to drive. i don't have a license#it's not a good idea for me to get a license atm bc my health issues make it so i would be a risk and danger to myself/others on the road#but trying to explain that to mil doesnt stop her ( and husband ) from making snide little comments about how immature and childish#i am bc i dont drive. how im just lazy bc i 'choose' not to drive. guilting me really hard lately bc there's been some circumstances#that would be easier to deal with if i could also drive... and she made sure i knew that. repeatedly. so did husband#man. the ableism doesn't end. screaming at me and throwing literal tantrums about all the housework not being done to her standards#bc i literally collapsed halfway thru. treating me like shit due to my anxiety disorder and panic attacks. aka acting like i'm just being#'dramatic'... when my ptsd / anxiety are kicking my ass#and husband not having my back with her makes it all the worse. anyway. sorry rant over. gonna get back to writing
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Hhhhhh why does it always have to take me six hours to transition into doing anything it's so frustrating I just wanna write that fanfic NOW or take the shower NOW or get out of bed NOW I don't want to spend half the day hyping myself up for it >:|
#vent#<- but not a truama dumping vent or anything#just frustrated with... executive dysfunction? I think that's what this is#idk im not diagnosed I haven't talked to any professionals or ND folks all I know comes from the internet#(namely youtube and instagram shorts/reels)#just me rambling#like legitimately the not being able to shower unless I hype myself up for three and a half days thing is so frustrating#esp when combined with the brain fart of “welp! did my shower don't have to worry about that anymore:)”#*continues not to worry about it for half a week and suddenly needs a shower again*#only exaggerating a little. I do struggle to get even weekly showers done sometimes#like I manage to scrape by but it's not easy for me#fully hate being undiagnosed thank you very much#and since the tone of this is probably kinda heavy/angry: don't worry about me or anything I'm currently happy and doing alright in my life#just wanted to vent a bit bc this is one thing that does bother me still#and it does kinda lead into other issues when life gets busier#like nlt being able to keep up with homework#but I'm good for now! I'm doing well :)#anyways. yes. sorry 'bout the ranting and rambling#gonna go do something fun now bye!
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I got up around 9am and it was already 30 degrees I'm----
Just kill me already it' be easier 😭
#personal#vent#it must've been like over 20 at night too#I could sleep for hours even with my window open#couldn't*#and I woke up sneezing and sniffling and both my eyes and head aching like#did my allergy just flare all of a sudden??? I dont get it...#I hate this heatwaves#we got an alert yesterday for extreme heat and then another today for today And tomorrow like----#I hate hate hate HATE IT#what even Im supposed to do?#I cant pass time with gaming cause it'll only turn my room into an oven and its already super hot inside#and going outside is okay but only for like 20 min max or Im gonna turn into a tomato and suffer sunburn#ughhhhhhh#sorry for all the ranting y'all the weather is just killer on me 😩#maybe I'll try some writing or outlining#tho this heat is really sapping away all the little enegy I have 😩😪
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I kinda want to like Lowhunt, like it's a cute ship and all(when done correctly. *ahem.*) but I just get it recommended to me so much as someone who personally doesnt ship it for personal reasons its kind of annoying and puts me off from it even more.
#maybe its something ive done to not properly curate my experience#but i could swear ive seen more for this ship than the CANONICALLY EXPLICITLY GAY WLW SHIP#even in the tag for Luzmity some of the. most popular posts. are more about hunter and willow. than THE FUCKING CANON BI AND LESBIAN COUPLE#incorrect ship names to avoid this popping up in the tags#sorry im an annoying little gay person lmao#not art#text post#vent#bunbon overshares on the internet#and i do follow people who ship it but thats cause i like their other art.#another thing about not shipping something thats 'canon' is that i cant find a lot of good artists that dont draw it#rant in the tags#plus another apology because i really am so annoying also#its like a repeat of my last fandom. where i disagreed with most of the fandom on this one thing#and it became outright uncomfortable for me to interact with canon or the majority of the fandom#and i feel like its gonna happen again if lowhunt becomes canon#yeah theres nothing objectively wrong with it and most people ive seen are pretty good about it#im not gonna pretend like im morally superior for not shipping it or anything#because most of the complaints i have about it are things im guilty of in other ways#i just wish people werent so in-your-face about it yk?#i will probably end up deleting this at some pointttttt#bunbon is a stinky little hypocrite
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#i think i know what bothered him the other night#but instead of talking to me he sent other people to deliver messages#and then made me drive halfway through the entire city to meet him just to stand me up#I’m still so fucking mad/disappointed#he didn’t even have the decency to tell me he’s not gonna come#he actually made me wait in the freezing cold for like 45 minutes lmao#i really wish i had stayed at home#been crying all day#i fucking hate that i like him#i will probably never get over this#🥲🥲🥲#so much pain#sure i got a little pushy bc he wouldn’t give me a definite answer but i had the worst week ever and i was cold#so i get to be mad when he says he will be back to talk to me and then doesn’t show up and sends other people instead#and then seemingly tries to run from me for no reason at all while simultaneously telling me we would go out for a few drinks#i just don’t get it lmao#i can never see him again#rant over#sorry for whining#this is the only place i can actually vent#personal
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Hey so we're a liiiitle bit pissy rn, nothing much but I wanna rant anyways about some double standards here.. please don't reblog/reply if you're gonna be negative— We're open to well-meaning debate, but if it becomes rude/demeaning we aren't hesitating to block. If you don't like us, I encourage you to do the same /gen
TW for syscourse and the endogenic debate under the cut
OKAY SO as far as we know we're traumagenic but may have alters formed out of loneliness(?), so take that how you will
Tbh, I don't?? See the point in bashing endogenic systems???
The way we think of it is that since plurality is so barely understood—to the point that some "professionals" claim that it isn't real, or things to that effect—then why on Earth should we say that endogenic systems CANNOT exist?
What's gonna happen if, say, a few decades in the future, intense clinical research and better references confirm that you can be a system without certain traumas? (I.e. being extremely lonely as a child, maladaptive daydreaming when your identity is still forming, etc) Are anti-endos just gonna take back all the rude, demeaning things they said about endogenic systems and just.. move on?
Also worth noting is that, in many cases of plurality (commonly DID), your trauma is hidden by amnesia barriers. It's a possibility that many endogenic systems actually don't remember trauma!
For a community so focused on providing support and being validating to each other, it just seems hypocritical to say that your support ends at This Specific Line. Even in the case that you're a psychologist, have a psychology degree, etc— guess what? You are ONE system/singlet. ONE collection of experiences, especially in a situation like this, is not NEARLY enough to make a definitive statement!
We tell singlets all the time to stop assuming based on what they think. We tell them that their knowledge may be outdated/inaccurate! And yet, the minute there's something we don't understand, we just say that they're fake or ignorant. Isn't that just.. stupid?
Nobody said that endogenic systems existing was "taking" anything from traumagenic systems. The meer fact that a system exists without some kind of intense trauma does NOT threaten your validity. It's not "making fun" of trauma survivors to just.. exist differently.
Want a hard pill to swallow? For those systems, seeing these constant reminders that they are not welcome, that they should feel bad for trying to figure themselves out, and that people hate them without even knowing them? Saying that they aren't valid because of a "standard" set for being a system?
That's traumatizing. So, I suppose, congratulations in the most sarcastic way possible— You were mad that they didn't have trauma, and now you've given it to them. Does that make you feel better?
TL;DR — There's not enough research into DID, OSDD, and plurality in general to say that one type of system exists and another doesn't, especially when there's still people who deny that plurality is real/everything that it is. When we consistently bash these people and exclude them, calling them bad people for trying to figure themselves out, we just give them the trauma that we hated them for not having.
#humansouls.txt#sorry for the rant but GOD#i jsut.. it makes us dosgusted yk?#the plural community is all “be supportive!! all systems look different!!” until someone shows up and doesnt fit into the “Holy Bible”#(aka the DSM-5)#we have ppl fakeclaiming us and some saying we dont even EXIST#and even people trying to call us dangerous for just EXISTING#and instead of that we're just gonna.. beat the metaphorical shit out of eachother?? what rhe fuck#like YALL. yall.#if we have ppl saying that systems dont exist/arent actually plural.. you know damn well there isnt enough research#and if theres so little research then how are we supposed to definitively say that this CANT exist#uggdhshsh....... hrhrrrnnnn /neg#the voice of gem#rant#vent#well. vent-ish
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#this meme became I little too tea tonight huh#real*#im sorry feel free to block me or my vent tag or w/e im gonna be going a bit insane about my ex for a while now#for context that a picture they drew of us as little cats going to the movies…..#ugh#ranting ratcoon
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being overly emotional when pmsing when ur usually a reserved blank face 😐 kinda person is genuinely the most embarrassing thing in the world
#i go from Genuinely Being Fine to having a nervous breakdown in the middle of a restaurant a day later#from Being Fine to Feeling Depressed#also when u have a kind of bad day but like its not a big deal and then the next day ur pmsing and just like 'yesterday has left me feeling#empty like theres nothing and no one in my life and like im absolutely going nowhere'#like#be so fr#its fine ur fine#i literally cant wear makeup whenever im on my period bc im always CRYING which is also so fucking annoying bc my period comes at the beginn#beginning of every month and like#guess what else is ay the beginning of march#my birthday!!!!!!!!!! cant do Anything on my birthday bc im depressed and wont stop crying like hello#hello. hello. im embarrassed. im literally just a little guy on their birthday what The fuck#the universe is homophobic#vent ish#ykw thats j gonna be my rant tag from now on sorry#'ish' this is literally a full on rant#im so annoyed
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AITA for getting someone fired? (this is gonna sound like a rant and i’m sorry in advance)
I. Fucking. Hate. My. Boss. he thinks he’s so fucking smart, like i hate to break it to you pal but you’re just human like the rest of us.. you can be dumb sometimes (dumb often, in fact!!) not even mentioning how disrespectful he is to those lower down the ladder. really out here thinking he knows our jobs better than we do like ?? hello ??????
anyway, so i was venting to one of my friends who also works there (outside of work hours, obviously), and we decided to kind of go to HR about it because he is making the work environment so awful (i would leave just cause of him but the pay is worth it).
HR says they’ve already had complaints about him but everyone’s afraid to do something on their own, so we start making a sort of paper trail and talking to managers about him, etc.
managers surprisingly agree to have a meeting about him, so we all show up and they were maybe a little harsh? this isn’t super relevant but he did kinda fuck my mum at one point so i maybe had a built up resentment of him lol
so, aita for kinda stabbing my coworker in the back? (literally, haha, we stabbed him like 23 times…)
What are these acronyms?
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DA:TV rant … if you are of the mind that BioWare can do no wrong /its games can be criticize or if you truly enjoying the game and are loving everything that you’ve seen so far this post is not for you. Please move along and if you don’t want me showing up on your feed please block me.  I will not be engaging with any fan that will not allow me to take up space and vent my feelings on the disaster that is this fucking game.
*Also a lot of spoilers!!
.. it’s horrible, like I knew I was going to be disappointed but holy fucking shit …
I’m about to finish act one and .. they destroyed their entire lore … BioWare destroyed their ENTIRE lore /world build of Dragon Age
Minrathous has NO SLAVES !!! They are briefly talked about via shadow dragons but they’re are none visible at all in the city ( but they have the animation to give a poor person “fake money” )
The qunari who literally fought and tried to kill solas in trespasser have been turned into mindless brutes who willingly joined the evil gods … because they command dragons ?
The blight except for one mission is harmless. They purposely turned it into a bio weapon and then (besides the dark spawn spawning from it like something out of an MMO) due to *plot armor, no one actually contracts the blight ???
The black chantry minus one building that you go through in a side quest doesn’t exist? No chantry members , no talk of the black divine ..
Dalish are all engineers now and part of the veil jumpers ( which should not exist lore wise) and all elven magic has been converted into cyberpunk technology and artifacts. Very little talk about their oppression and they are all very willing to drop all their history , even their distrust of solas , to flight the old gods .
Varric Has been demoted to inspirational speaker and narrator he has no other role and the entire team acts like he died , even when he’s in the room with him ( I think BioWare actually planned to kill him but then chickened out ) and is a husk of his former self
Same with Morgan , you can’t interact with her at all and she’s given the same mysterious background as flemeth ( the theory that she carries mythal spirit is very strong right now )
Lyrim potions don’t exist, in fact lyrim doesn’t exist at all besides the dagger. All magic has turned into technology, and if you play as a mage mana just has an automatic replenish rate /cool down effect that you can level up.
Evil gods go back and forth between an actual intense adversary and threat to the world, and a typical Disney villain.
These are just the few I can think of off the top of my head, there is so much more than this …
The game can literally be summed up as Mass effect andromeda x2 with God of war animations and marvel style writing ( not the avengers I’m talking about the recent shit)
Also for the people who want to kill solas or simply dislike him, the game pushes a sympathetic view of him on you ,even your companions who outrightly want to kill him will feel sorry for him. And I’m saying this as a solavellan fan. Yes they’re options to be mean to him and antagonize him, but you won’t get anyone agreeing with your actions ,at best they’ll be neutral about it. Now this might play out differently for those who picked the “chooses to stop him “ option , but for those who’s inquisitions wanted to save him but they wanted their rooks to hate him … you’re not gonna be happy about what you get ..
The only thing that keeping me playing is the reveal of history of ancient elves and Titans and solas’s story. And Assan!! Assan can do no wrong !! Everything else is a slog to get through.
#dragon age the veilguard spoilers#dragon age critical#extremely critical of this game even more now#veilguard critical#if you like this game /are enjoying it this post is not for you#toxic positivity fans can fuck right off#skill up was 100% right about this game#solavellan#solas dragon age#bioware critical
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I have a vent fic wip that I may or may not finish so I just need to tell someone that I am...feeling so many things all the time about the consequences of the 16th birthday but...
primarily, right now, at this moment. without Robin/Bruce, Tim thought he would lose Dick and everyone else he knew through Robin. and then a little bit later when he quit for Jack, he got radio silence for Months until he became a potential victim, and even then it was just Cass stopping in to give the message and be like "I'll watch you to keep you safe 👁️👁️ ok bye" and he had actual Proof that without Robin, he would lose everyone.
and then. Dick "you're my equal (even tho I'm drastically changing your life without your knowledge or permission), you're my closest ally (even tho you don't even have a name to go out in the field to assist me as backup), I need you (even tho, as mentioned, I made a huge decision without your input because I didn't need it because I know best actually)" Grayson.
skipping over the fact that Dick didn't even have the time to say "you're fired" or anything resembling that, when Tim lost "Robin" to Damian, he felt like he lost everything else too. it didn't matter what Dick said about "equals" or "allies" or "needing". he already had Concrete Proof that it was all false. cheap words that are easily disproven do nothing in this situation, Dichard!
(disclaimer: I love and respect Dick Grayson, I just also think Dick Stopped Existing as soon as he made Damian his Robin for the most pathetic stupid illogical risky-ass excuse he could ever give for making anyone Robin (or a vigilante in general). "because he'll kill someone again". who the fuck says that?? who thinks "oh no oh god oh fuck this kid is gonna go off the rails he's gonna kill someone, I need to Put Him In A Place Of Power Over Oblivious Innocent Untrained People Who Are Expecting A Kind And Empathetic Hero To Save Them" hUH???? ok sorry, I just wanted to rant about what Tim "losing Robin" meant)
I agree with ya. Dick Grayson is fantastic, but it seems weird that he nuked his entire relationship with Tim (a very strong one that other fans have referred to them as "The Brothers") for the new kid.
Yes, Damian is a ten year old traumatized kid who just lost the dad he didn't really have the chance to get to know. Yes, Damian needed guidance, boundaries, and compassion.
But DC spent so much time and effort building up Tim and Dick's rapport only to obliterate it once the "blood son" came in (I also love Damian. This is not hate on the kid. This is confused commentary on DC's choices). It's just a strange idea, but that's also why it hurts so much when Dick does that to Tim.
Then you tie in Tim losing Robin by Dick to Tim's experiences before? Fuck. You are so right for that.
As far as the RR run, Dick could've handled Tim believing Bruce a bit better. I don't necessarily blame him for that one. I get why he wasn't supportive in the way Tim wanted, even though I would've chosen differently for my siblings.
Dick taking Robin, though? That was fucked up. I, honest to the gods, do not see how that was a justified course of action. I can understand his perspective, but it's still not okay. At all.
There's your very adequate analysis:
Robin, for Tim, is his tie to his loved ones. He has proof (twice) that without it, he does not have access to the people he cares about and his support system.
Dick said a lot of pretty words about "equals," but his actions were precisely contradictory to his "intentions."
Tim has had Robin taken from him before or had to give it up. He chose to go back despite this. He obviously feels strongly about being Robin
Damian has not proven, at this point, to be trustworthy as a vigilante (someone in power without oversight). He has instead shown use of excessive force
This isn't even going into the way he found out. That's just an extra layer.
The way Tim has repeated lost and regained Robin (even after RR) as well as his title as Red ROBIN are, to me, a sign that he's still trying to hold on. It's my belief that he would have moved onto a new title, like his predecessors, if it hadn't constantly been an unsure role.
His start was rocky as hell due to Bruce not initially wanting it. Tim had to prove himself and put himself into the costume.
He "quit" twice before it was taken from him in a traumatic way (nothing like being instilled with the fear that the position you've held for four years can suddenly be yanked out from under you without warning)
Damian and Jason both vehemently protested to him being Robin
It would make sense if all of these factors combined to Tim's unwillingness or inability to just let Robin go, especially when we factor in his reason to be Robin. Since Bruce never really gets "better" and continually falls back into bad habits, Tim needs to maintain his task of pulling Bruce back from the edge. We could also throw Jean Paul into this to further how Tim is forced to play as the barrier between a grown adult and their desire to harm others in the name of good.
So, Tim's time as Robin is marked by consistent instability while contrasted with his inherent position as Bruce's leash and the batfam fixer. While the other Robins did have times of doubt, the predecessors of Tim did not have the pervasive role insecurity with regards to Robin.
They had their big moment at the end and some smaller moments in-between, but not quite on the continous scale of Tim. Tim had three big moments and was still sucked back into Robin when Damian quit.
To be Robin is to earn Bruce's love and the ability to be part of the Wayne family. To lose Robin is the risk of losing that (at least to the perspectives of the Robins if not 100% the reality).
I'm not sure I'm articulating this accurately. Regardless, no wonder Tim clutches the title of Robin with bleeding hands no matter how much it cuts him and costs him.
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