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I’m so sad
When I was younger and look Thai and is literally a walking roast chicken I used to draw myself wHITE and now that I don’t go outside like ever aside from work and idk hangouts witch is like once a week I am pastier than my wHITE friends but i just wanna draw myself tan cuz I was fucking tan but no I’m out here Casper, the fucking ghost, literally out whiting my white friends.
My point is that I wanna draw my self inserts tan but because I’m not it feels weird cuz I did that with my HI3 oc :/
#why am i the way that i am#it’s so weird that I’ve been in England for 10 years now and I’m still not over the culture shock#I just wanna go back to Thailand and just be silly there but ngl thailands a mess rn#can’t say shit either cuz English is a shit hole#no matter where I go I just don’t feel like I belong anywhere or included#I hate being queer mentally ill on the spectrum and half#there’s really no where I fit in ;-;#I’m not white enough to be white#I’m not Thai enough to be Thai#and I’m too fat to be Asian like girl what?#and then some ppl are saying I’m not autistic enough to be autistic#and the shit I get for being a lesbian also sucks ass#like omg I can fix you you just need good dick#like stfu woman can have dicks too asshat#I’m just tired ;-;#anyways at least I’m funny and hot and amazing#honestly ppl just just suck my dick#sorry for the rant probably gonna delete this#wait how tf did I end up ranting about myself when I was just trying to make a joke about me being whiter then my white friends#oooff
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hannibal questions! 🍖🔪
@nietzscheantrout @horrorlesbians and @hanniba1 wanted me to answer these hannibal questions and i wrote too much but oh well! thanks to all 3 of you ilu!!!
favorite episode and why: oh we’re just goin straight to the hard questions huh um OKAY so i think i can only do an ep a season - s1: SORBET SUPREMACY! you get to see the exact moment will looks at hannibal and thinks “.........shit. it’s him isn’t it. he’s The One. SHIT.” and that is so important to me - s2: this one is really hard maybe naka-choko? it’s so fucking gay and sexy. but tome-wan... but mizumono............ yeah idk - s3: torn between digestivo and the wrath of the lamb cuz they both hurt SOOO good much; i love will breaking up with hannibal and hannibal manipulating the situation so will can’t leave asldkjansk it’s so toxic we have to stan..... and for twotl i mean do i really have to give a reason every scene LIVES in my mind and it contains my favorite shot in the whole show:
that is LOVE baby! that is DESIRE! that is being ENTHRALLED!!!!
least favorite episode and why: i feel like they’re all so necessary that it’s kind of impossible to say but probably antipasto. i get sick of hannibal and bedelia’s shenanigans really quickly and as much as i hate to admit it... i miss will. i also think it was an extremely weak season opener and i blame it for getting the show canceled sjshshsgsg the resentment...
favorite side character: chiyoh or jimmy or actually wait— RANDALL TIER 🖤
if you could bring back one character who died, who would it be?: RANDALL FUCKING TIER. i want there to be a weird thing with him and hannibal and will going on. but also i love what his death did for will so idfk, other than him it’s gotta be beverly
dish prepared in the show that you would like to try eating/making: i was supposed to make hannibal’s osso bucco recipe like 3 weeks ago but it completely slipped my mind so i guess i’ll get on that my next grocery trip
which side character would you kill off?: chilton just because for god’s sake just let the man DIE ALREADY poor guy <- i’m taking ava’s answer because YEAH
was there any scene that you didn’t like to look at?: nah. the skin ripping scenes at the beginning of either kaiseki or sakizuki (idk i don’t remember, i hardly watch s2a) are particularly brutal but i tough it out
biggest ship: i mean do i even have to say
why did you start watching hannibal?: my wife, who was my girlfriend at the time, and her dad were watching it as it was airing and i was like “oh cool hannibal lecter origin story” but due to inconsistent access to the episodes i would just watch it randomly and that is... not the way to watch hannibal. i gave up around the end of s2 but knew hannigram was It regardless. i decided to watch s3 for the first time earlier this year just to have finished it and was like HOLD UP and did an immediate rewatch that left me... well, how i am now
favorite hannibal fic if you’ve read any?:
oh boy. yall ready for this? all of these can be found on ao3 obviously (i’m so sorry this is so long but i guess i’ve been asked to put together a fic rec anyway)
as soft, as wide as air by blackknightsatellite, the ladders series by emungere, blackbird by emungere, consenting to dream series by emungere, taken for rubies by emungere, at first meeting by emungere, protect me from what i want by @alienfuckeronmain, god of the cold, cold wars by highermagic, the abyss smiled back by highermagic, pomegranate seeds by highermagic, absolute zero by highermagic, in the truly gruesome do we trust by sidnihoudini, TKO by sidnihoudini, oh dear by lunarwench, each according to its kind by chapparral_crown, a flood in our hearts by nanoochka, let me sinful be by darlingred, uncomplicated by stratumgermanitivum & youaremydesign, good bones by @damnslippyplanet, like they do in babylon by @damnslippyplanet, your obedient servant by kareliasweet, past our satellites by shotgunsinlace, only the tender meat by isagel, the shape of me will always be you by missdisoriental, a white-walled room by rodabonor, spleen et idéal by rodabonor, the paper doll series by rodabonor, a common point of interest by rodabonor [i do NOT like a/b/o stuff but if i did... it’s this fic], just thought you should know by earthsickwithoutyou, the sacrificial lamb by princesskay, transcendent suffering by itsbeautiful, not something polite by moistdrippings, leave your message after the tone by onewhositswithturtles, holes in the floor of the mind by feverdreamblood, crossing caina by feverdreamblood, the archipelago series by melusine10, but seas between us braid hae roar’d by kareliasweet
have you watched any of the hannibal films?: yeah all of them except manhunter! i grew up watching silence of the lambs because my mom loved it and i went thru a big edward norton phase as a teen so i’ve seen red dragon like 10 times
have you read the thomas harris books?: no and i’m not going to lmao #fakefan
favorite murder tableau: if we’re talking just hannibal’s- the judge. if we’re talking Murder Bad But Kinda Pretty like in general probably the mushroom people or the totem
favorite blood spill: will imagining hannibal while he beats randall to death or The Gutting of Will Graham
what’re some of your headcanons?: - will is good at shibari (backed up in canon: his fishing knots, the firefly man’s full body hishi karada harness) - hannibal rarely listens to modern, non-classical music but he’s a björk fan and he saw one of her chapel performances during the vespertine era and was Moved - will listens to classic rock (zeppelin, the doors, pink floyd) with some classic country (patsy, merle, johnny) and blues (billie, muddy, bessie) thrown in. he’s also a sucker for early/mid-90s college rock/alternative/grunge - will plays the piano (because of the piano in his living room) and the harmonica (because he’s country white trash); he’s kind of shit tho - hannibal fell for will somewhere between “my thoughts are often not tasty” and “you won’t like me when i’m psychoanalyzed” (love at first sight! at last sight! at ever and ever sight!!!) - will’s circumcised, hannibal isn’t 🤪 - hannibal’s a gemini!!!! adaptable, creative, intelligent, outgoing, impulsive, etc - will’s an aquarius!!!!! analytical, a loner, temperamental, unique, compassionate, etc - will’s mom was jewish go read my fic about it https://archiveofourown.org/works/26774326 - hannibal is an agender man (tbh i think of this as canon, it’s just unstated/undefined) - hannibal can speak russian, spanish, and a teensy bit of portuguese in addition to the other languages we know he speaks (lithuanian, english, french, italian, japanese) - will speaks limited amounts of french; he learned it as a kid in louisiana - ED TW will sometimes has a Difficult relationship with food due to food instability by the way of poverty as a kid and goes through periods where it’s hard to keep himself fed, but hannibal is so good for him in that way because he keeps him from going hungry 😓 (yes this is me projecting but also it makes SENSE) - hannibal typically bottoms but THEY DEFINITELY ARE BOTH VERS and will never stops being surprised by how much he loves catching a dick. every time is like religious experience. okay? okay - they’re also both very kinky and switches but tbh.... will was made to Dom hannibal like that’s the reason he exists he could drag that old bitch around by a leash and hannibal would be in heaven HANNIBAL WOULD CALL HIM SIR - the first time they have sex hannibal comes like immediately but he isn’t embarrassed because he’s hannibal fucking lecter and hannibal lecter doesn’t get embarrassed - i have a hc for their favorite sex positions but i’m not gonna put that here because i don’t want yall calling me crazy any more than you probably already do but if you wanna know just DM me all i do is think about them fucking it’s a curse - okay no more dirty stuff abigail called hannibal “dad” on more than one occasion and it was half-joking but it also felt comfortable to her; she never thought to call will “dad” because he’s a weirdo and never knew her as much as he knew his idea of her - hannibal taught her to play piano at the cliff house - beverly is pansexual!!! - brian and jimmy kissed one time when they were drunk and they NEVER talk about it EVER - chiyoh is straight probably. i know, i know, everyone says she’s a lesbian and if she’s a lesbian to you that’s awesome! she’s a lesbian! but idk i just think she’s SO fucking straight and tbh i mourn bc that’s my wife. she could MAYBE be bicurious... - chiyoh is non-monogamous and doesn’t do serious relationships, she doesn’t like the idea of being tied to one person ever since she left the lecter castle - she helped hannibal and will escape after The Fall; she told hannibal she would continue to watch over him and i think she did, she got them a boat and got them the fuck out of there - MOLLY IS DOING SO MUCH BETTER WITHOUT WILL. SHE’S SO GLAD SHE GOT OUT OF THAT WHEN SHE DID. she has a good, long talk with alana and finds out all the shit about him and hannibal that will never told her (and it was a lot), gets drunk and burns all his shit, and then washes her hands of the whole thing; moves to a different state, gets a girlfriend, and never thinks about will again
okay i’m capping it there or i’m never gonna stop!! i’m not tagging anyone cuz i think everyone has done this by now lmao but if you’re a mutual who hasn’t and you want to just do it and say i tagged you!! mwah!!!!
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Do Black Hole to Pluto.
Shit Liz okay lol i’ll put em under the cut
Black Hole- What are you most afraid of?
Dying unfulfilled, I guess.
Galaxy- Do you have any nicknames? What are they?
Yes. It’s Hax.
Star- What song(s) do you feel describes you?
Uhh… Honestly just about any version of Smile Bomb you can find but mostly the english one and the jazz cover lol. Those are the only constants lol
Moon- Are you currently reading any books? If so, what book(s)?
If we’re counting manga, Detective Conan, Shokugeki no Soma, Orient, and Tate no Yuusha no Nariagari. I’m waiting on Dr. Stone to get translated cuz I’ve heard that’s pretty good too.
Planets- If you could go anywhere, where would you go?
I’d take a trip across the US, Australia, Japan, England, Italy, Canada, the Caribbean, Africa, and Bolivia cuz it has the world’s largest salt flat and after it rains it looks like you’re standing on the sky
Mercury- Describe your aesthetic.
Pseudo-90′s
Venus- What’s your favorite tv show?
Yu Yu Hakusho
Earth- If you could be anyone else for a day, who would you want to be?
Will Smith
Mars- If you could change one thing about yourself, what would you change?
Either the yourself part about me or the fact that I can’t drive.
Jupiter- If you had to pick one color to use for an entire week, what color would you choose?
It’s the color of my favorite hoodie.
Saturn- How far would you go for those you care about?
I guess I wouldn’t go to the point where it would kill me to care for them, but get heavily injured for them…? maybe?
Uranus- What would you say is your greatest achievement?
making it to 24 feels like an achievement in itself sometimes lol. Idk I can’t say I’ve had any definitive moments to be proud of
Neptune- Describe yourself in one sentence.
People think I’m cool and I don’t get why and I’m not sure they do either
Pluto- If you could meet anyone, alive or dead, who would you meet?
I think whoever decided Magi didn’t deserve a season 3. or whoever made the last 40 chapters of Magi be… like that. Cuz I know DAMN WELL Ohtaka did not want it to be like that lol
I also have a lot of feelings on Magi but that’s for another post lol
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Get to know me tag! Tagged by @random-hylian thank youuuu <3 Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people nah
THE LAST: 1. Drink: Water 2. Phone call: to my mom / from one of my best friends 3. Text message: to a friend / ex-boyfriend 4. Song you listened to: It was on shuffle, but I’m pretty sure it was “Six Who Are Strong Are Stronger” from the Haikyuu soundtrack 5. Time you cried: I was about say “I can’t remember”, but it was actually on June 12th HAVE YOU: 6. Dated someone twice: no 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: yeah 8. Been cheated on: no 9. Lost someone special: I guess so 10. Been depressed : yup
11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: no fortunately haha
LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12-14: purple, sea blue, light green IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: yes
16. Fallen out of love: nope (still in it oops)
17. Laughed until you cried: yes
18. Found out someone was talking about you: umm no?
19. Met someone who changed you: no
20. Found out who your friends are: yes they’re great people as I always knew they were :*
21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: probably my best friend
GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: like 95%. I’ve deleted a bunch of people I just knew from school corridors, so now there’s only actual friends and the family members I’m stuck with
23. Do you have any pets: Yep. Two cats, an unknown number of fish, and a bird
24. Do you want to change your name: I remember not liking the sound of my name (and I still kind of don’t) but it’d be too much trouble
25. What did you do for your last Birthday: I went out with my best friends to a “park” and then we went to my house and ate cake. Super chill. Too bad there were praxes (google it) going on at the park
26. What time did you wake up: 10AM. sweet, sweet summer vacation
27. What were you doing at midnight last night: Texting my friend in a weird giggly mood
28. Name something you can’t wait for: Idk, something new. Even college
29. When was the last time you saw your mom: 20 or so minutes ago
30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: My living arrangements
31. What are you listening to right now: Unfortunately, the beeping of a truck just outside my house. What are you doing here, go away
32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yes! It was his new name after coming out
33. Something that is getting on your nerves: Mom, and my health
34. Most visited website: I would say tumblr or youtube, but it’s probably my email cuz I’m always waiting for updates or notifications on various things
35. Mole/s: Many. Many many many many many. My genes + the sun here are one hell of a combination
36. Mark/s: umm besides the scars from skin picking, I believe I have some on my legs from childhood
37. Childhood dream: a doctor
38. Hair color: Dark brown
39. Long or short hair: I guess it’s mid-length
40. Do you have a crush on someone: Yup! A big, fat one
41. What do you like about yourself: about my personality? umm, well I’m patient and a good listener. Otherwise I like my singing ability (sometimes I find my voice annoying but that might be because I never shut up)
42. Piercings: I’m a tattoo-over-piercing person, and though maybe I wouldn’t mind a couple, I only have earring 1 hole in each ear
43. Blood type: Oh, oh, oh! 6 months ago I would’ve said “I’ve no fucking clue”, but after a Biology lab, I found out it’s O+
44. Nickname: Nini or Dani or a bunch of inside jokes with my friends haha
45. Relationship status: single
46. Zodiac: Virgo
47. Pronouns: she/her is cool
48. Favorite TV Show(s): Oh boy, TV? I don’t know, I don’t watch TV regularly anymore and I’m terrible at keeping up with what I like and is airing?? I used to watch mostly FOX and AXn so I guess you can figure it out from that. Oh, but when I was on vacation last week there was a creepy police show in French airing on Portuguese TV and it left me intrigued so I’ll try to remember to finish watching it!! It’s called Les Témoins which I assume was translated to English as “Witnesses”
49. Tattoos: None, but I want multiple!!
50. Right or left hand: Leftieeeeee :D
51. Surgery: None yet but that’s about to change tomorrow *slightly scared laugh*
52. Hair dyed in different color: nope, I’ll try it someday
53. Sport: My favorites? Humm I liked handball the best, followed by basketball, but recently I’ve learned to like volleyball and badminton. If you’re asking what sport I’ve done, it’s swimming, ballet and karate *shrugs*
55. Vacation: Umm, I’ve passed a bit through Spain to go to France; I’ve travelled fairly little in Portugal itself; I’ve gone to Brazil obvs and Cuba and I think that’s it. Ah, no, I guess Switzerland counts even though that was visiting family
56. Pair of trainers: I am confused, what is this question?? My favorite sneakers are All Stars <3 (Do you call them Converse in English, I have no idea) MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating: I was straight up eating a downgraded Nutella just before starting this 58. Drinking: Wateeeerrr (but if you’re asking my favorite, I will go to my grave drinking milk) 59. I’m about to: Hopefully finish folding this laundry while watching YouTube and then continue cleaning my room 61. Waiting for: Exam grades to comw out (tomorrow) so the stress can die out a bit 62. Want: an apartment of my own tbh 63. Get married: I guess I’d like to, but it’s so messy I’d have to trust the other someone really well. I wouldn’t mind just living together either 64. Career: Hopefully a biologist, thought my mother is still salty about that
WHICH IS BETTER 65. Hugs or kisses: I raise you: kissing while hugging. Haha I choose hugs 66. Lips or eyes: eyes <3 67. Shorter or taller: umm I’m mostly different, but taller? 68. Older or younger: for dating? Humm.... I’ve dated either people a year younger or my age *shrugs* I think my age is cool
70. Nice arms or nice stomach: umm, again indifferent or both?? I think I’ll go with stomach 71. Sensitive or loud: ho? I’ll go with BOTH 72. Hook up or relationship: relationship my heart ain’t good for hook-ups 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: it depends tbh. It is a kind of troublemaker similar to me so we have fun fucking shit up together? Is it a troublemaker on a way-too-high scale? Is it a person slightly hesitant (which is fine, I’m a bit too) or it someone super indecisive HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a Stranger: no 75. Drank hard liquor: Umm I’ve tasted it, but never had a glass of my own. Scratch that, I was thinking of whiskey only before I realized vodka is hard liquor as well: YES. I barely drink but black vodka found a spot in my stomach <3 Also, I’ve tried Portugal-specific liquor or Cuban cocktails because well 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: Uh I left my glasses in a dressing room last year (they were black and the room was also black, I’m not usually that distracted!!) but I also stepped on my glasses and snapped the lenses out when I was a kid oops 77. Turned someone down: *sigh* yes
78. Sex on the first date: not even close
79. Broken someone’s heart: *sigh* yes, multiple times 80. Had your heart broken: I guess so, but they were nice breakups? 81. Been arrested: no! 82. Cried when someone died: Yep, I broke down in front of the body, it was just great 83. Fallen for a friend: I think I’ve only fallen for friends to be quite honest DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. Yourself: I sure try! 85. Miracles: ummmm I don’t know ‘-’ I don’t have anything to base my decision on 86. Love at first sight: meh 87. Santa Claus: nope 88. Kiss on the first date: again, I’ve only dated friends. I was probably in super deep already on the first date
OTHER: 90. Current best friend name: I have three but I’m not naming them, sorry 91. Eye color: Uuummm wait what was it called? I think it’s olive green. Or hazel. They’re brown and green, you name it 92. Favorite movie: real-life I’m not sure because I don’t watch many movies, but animated it’s Prince of Egypt
#fuck that took a long time haha#personal#tagged thingies#thank you for tagging me Erika :*#also it was through that I remembered about your bday I'm sorry >.<
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