#I’ll post some that are still in my inbox but after that it’s subject to being deleted

[pkmn-smashorpass]

Respect to those making clear that the baby pokemon aren't actual babies, but even as someone who's been assuming that all of these pokemon pass the harkness test, I still don't want to fuck anything that looks like a baby. I'm not trying to claim any moral superiority, but the looking like a baby part is still a deal breaker here

Completely valid

[osachiyo]

please for the love of god, read my rules before interacting/requesting.

𝐆𝐄𝐍𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐋 𝐑𝐔𝐋𝐄𝐒

do not steal/copy/repost/translate ANY of my works. plagiarism is not cool.

I write and interact with nsfw stuff so minors (-18) please don't interact with my blog. I am not responsible for anything you consume on the internet.

this blog contains dark content. if you are uncomfortable with that, I suggest you click off and don't attack me. just because I think something is hot in fiction, that does not mean I condone such acts in real life. fiction is not reality, keep that in mind.

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be nice. I write for fun, please remember that. writers don't owe you anything, and I'm not being paid to do this, so have decent manners while requesting

please refrain from trauma-dumping in my askbox. While I do love talking to you guys, please refrain from sending me extreme stuff. I understand if you are going through something, but I am a stranger on the internet, not your therapist.

any anon hate, threats or bullshit like that will be ignored or I'll most likely clown on you.

don't bring any drama in my askbox, especially not about other creators. this is a writing blog and we're just here to be horny and read stuff, not partake in any drama's.

absolutely no kind of discourse. but I will speak up if I sense some bs going 'round and esp if it involves my moots.

refrain from giving me criticism unless it is asked for.

be specific but not too specific please, like paragraphs after paragraphs. only a few sentences should suffice.

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𝐈𝐅 𝐘𝐎𝐔'𝐑𝐄 𝐀 𝐌𝐔𝐓𝐔𝐀𝐋

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please don't feel offended or attacked if i block you.

if you have a problem with me, don't be shy to dm me about it. don't subpost about me, because i WILL see it. let's handle shit like adults, yeah?

tba

Stuff I don't write ↓

amab/male reader + etc, pseudo/step-cest/incest, necro, vore, character x character, age regression, lolicon/shotacon, ddlg, foot fetish, bukkake, gang bangs, pedophilia, breast feeding, watersports, piss kink, domestic abuse, brainwashing, scat, cbt, food play, snowballing, race play, m-preg, knotting, bestiality, eating disorders, wound fucking, heavy bleeding, milf! reader, shock play, shoe licking, high school au! setting (nsfw), panty sniffing, sounding, race/color specified reader, oc's, SUKUNA, aging up minors etc. — these are subjected to change.

any confusions? don't be afraid to throw me an ask !

↪ 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓𝐒

[suffarustuffaru]

I think Subaru remaining a child is actually a very purposeful choice?

It allows us to explore Subaru as his child prodigy self, and who he would be if he had come to this world as that version of himself instead of at the age of 17, and who is VERY different from the Subaru we’ve come to love over the course of the series so far. He’s more brash and arrogant, WAY more cutthroat, and even though I don’t think he’s lost that compassionate core of his personality, he does lack a great deal of the sympathy and kindness that’s defined his character so far. Like, older!Subaru would absolutely not have abused RBD like this, especially not after Arc 4, and it is turning him into something that is genuinely terrifying. Like, you said that Arc 8 would not have changed if Subaru was returned to his normal self but — I actually COMPLETELY disagree with that, because while the general plotbeats might remain the same so far, Natchuki Subawu is a MONSTER. He’s paralleling every IF Route so far, he’s disregarding his life as a tool, he’s dismissing other people’s wills and wants for how they live their own lives, and he’s explicitly been using RBD in a way that prevents them from developing unfavorable opinions of him (Gladiator Island) and is now promising to keep using it with Jamal and Berstetz in order to prevent them from dying “noble deaths” on the battlefield (which is a complicated subject, but is current way of dealing with that conundrum is just him going “I’ll just bring you back lol”).

I really believe that Natsuki Subaru would not have done any of this — at the very least, not to this extent. Natchuki Subawu is allowing Tappei to explore 1) a version of Subaru we have been told existed but have not been properly introduced to until now (his child prodigy self, before his mental health spiraled and he ended up alone and anxious) and 2) a version of Subaru that is turning into something really, really terrifying — and I honestly believe he’s going to end up getting very severely punished for this by the end of Arc 8.

(I just took that line in your previous post talking about why Subaru is remaining as Subawu for so long as an excuse to dump my thoughts in your inbox lol, sorry)

hey anon!! no need to apologize hah, in my last ask i invited anyone who disagreed with my stance on the childbaru arc (given my general opinion being “i get Why its there but i Dont Like It and dont feel its 100% necessary”) because 1. id love to learn more about the intricacies of this arc!! subaru is such a complex interesting character as well on top of that!! and 2. i feel like some people, not just me in this fandom, have some mixed feelings on the childbaru arc so im very curious to hear from people who are bigger fans of this arc yes!! i would like to expand my horizons and all ☝️☝️

and also its been a while and im only answering your ask just now Oops but my feelings on childbaru have changed over time for sure 👍 just a little bit. and i didnt explain myself super well in past posts!!

yeah so. you really delivered on very succinctly explaining the purpose of the arc and you have such a great understanding of the plot and the effect this all has on subaru!! (i also appreciate you using “natchuki subawu” HAH we should all stop using childbaru or something and just use “natchuki subawu” now because that has gotta be one of my favorite rezero chapter titles ever). and also all the points you bring up are really really good!! and it takes all of my more in depth thoughts on it out of my head because yeah, its why i dont Entirely dislike the childbaru arc. in fact, its why i like it hah.

it’s absolutely a very purposeful decision. as much as the symbolism has the subtlety of a hammer (i can respect that though <3). it builds off of the natsumi arc and subarus previous major arcs (arcs 1-3, arc 4, arc 5, and amnesiabaru in arc 6) in a very interesting way and shows subaru regressing to Horrifying extents thats still different yet fascinatingly reminiscent of the if routes. i like a lot of aspects about the childbaru arc for this reason—the complexities of subarus character in general, the themes regarding Heroism and Image, more Horrifying exploration of rbd, the way subaru is reaching whole new heights but extreme lows (like the suicide pill) and is likely bound to be narratively punished for regressing at some point!! because tappei doesnt Usually hold back on punishing subaru, so i have next to zero doubt that he’ll deliver on that hopefully!! childbaru is a Regression overall in more ways than one, which is an idea ive warmed up to for sure because its fascinating!! i also am pretty fond of childbarus design—his outfit is very nice and fits him perfectly imo, and ive always liked the decision to add green to subarus color palette post-arc 5. his color palette quite Literally depicts him having a more colorful palette to match the colorful fantasy world around him, i think. and it just looks really nice with the warm yellow/orange.

but okay enough about me gushing over subarus character design, back to the topic at hand!! yeah so. i still have Some mixed feelings on childbaru despite all the Purposeful Intent behind it and all the things i like about it.

and my only reason is like. okay i feel like this is super petty but at the same time HAH. i Really dont like how subaru declares louis as spica, his daughter, when they both look the same exact age 😭😭😭 i have a few personal problems with louis’s arc 7-8 storyline anyway, as much as i like her causing drama in arc 8, but im hoping tappei proves me wrong on that with the rest of her arc but. anyway.

yeah like subaru and spica both look 12 yrs old 😭😭😭 preteen adoptive dad moment??? its just so incredibly awkward and i feel like the impact of that scene did not Hit. both in the sense that the entire time i was thinking “subaru you look like a kid just like louis how the fuck are you her adoptive dad” and also my personal problems and opinions regarding arc 7-8 louis means i dont care about her too much so that scene did not Land for me. but thats mainly a personal thing!! and i might change my mind on it later but yeah like. louis is always gonna be my biggest beef with arc 7-8, which i talked about a bit in previous posts iirc??

as for subaru, i def like both the natsumi and childbaru arcs and completely understand their purpose. i respect tappeis crazy wild character development hes done with subaru—its absolutely amazing. but i do kinda wish the transition from natsumi to childbaru wasnt so Jarring. i almost wish we just saved natsumi and childbaru for Each Half of arcs 7-8, which is a combined arc as you know, or moved childbaru to when capella comes into play later in rezero.

and i know that sounds like doing A Lot just to avoid subaru and spica being the Same Age when he declares her his daughter, but i feel like pacing wise it wouldve been cool to give the natsumi arc and the childbaru arc Their Own Main Story Arcs. not that theyre bad as they are in canon—i love them, for the most part (apart from my beef with louis HAH)!! but def i think it would be way less jarring in a lot of ways if—and ok youd have to move and change plot points but this is just me spitballing random ideas here—if childbaru was All/Almost All of arc 7 and natsumi was arc 8.

childbaru takes up a good chunk of arc 7 anyway, and then once the emilia camp and julius/ana come back in arc 8, subarus grown already to put him on an. Aesthetically Equal ground as the rest of his friends bc now hes grown again. but this is after childbaru arc so the Wack Lessons his childbaru self learned carry onto the natsumi arc—and i know in canon the natsumi arc lay groundwork for childbaru but the themes go right into each other in canon anyway so i think this could work!!

and since im sure the Consequences of Subarus Actions will probably start catching up to him around arc 8 (and kind of already have. with the louis drama ig?? if you wanna count that??) the natsumi arc is. a good transition ig. and now we can have mom natsumi with spica instead of 12 yr old preteen adoptive dad subaru ?? 😭😭 natsumi but in front of all of her friends and the entire country and the entire world this time ?

but no yeah what i just said is a wacky idea and its not that i think canon is Bad. i just have personal problems with louis 😭😭 and im petty about 12 yr old preteen adoptive dad subaru akfndnd and i kind of wish natsumi got a full arc to balance out the Combined Themes of natsumi arc and childbaru arc !! the transition from natsumi to childbaru felt a little jarring imo <3 but as im rereading arc 6-7 now (its been a while and my memory is Hot Garbage pfft) ill probably think more on this. and ill be reading arc 8 front to back once its fully wrapped up to get a better and complete read on it 👍

also other people like cecilus al medium got turned into kids too, but i think it just felt the most significant with cecilus :,) though i may be wrong on that. feel free to enlighten me 👍

i just think the thing with a lot of tappei plotlines is that they go on for a while. theyre kinda slowburn and of course theres a lot of characters in the cast so arcs get put on pause and picked up later alll the time. which is totally fair and understandable with so much ground to cover!! but bc of that i feel like for me personally (and for a good number of people probably, such as how audience reactions to the amnesiabaru arc 6 arc were when it was beginning (people Did Not Like It) vs when it ended (people called it the best arc ever))….. anyway for me personally i think bc of how tappei does his arcs its normal to feel uncertain about it in the beginning or middle bc its hard to predict how itll wrap up and If itll get wrapped up well. which is how i be feeling rn with rem and louis and otto and lots of other people 👍 and honestly even when i first saw childbaru in arc 7 i was like “wtffff but okay ill trust tappei for now and hope he wont get weird about kids again ahahaha”. but thats just my thoughts on it.

so all in all thanks for the ask :3 !! you have a lot of passion anon ty <3 (and im pretty sure i know who you are but totally cool if youre shy pfft)

[pleaseeeimjustagirl]

🎀30 Day Glow Up Challenge🎀 - day twenty nine

♡ Mindset : yesterday was tough so it followed into today but I sat down and cleared my thoughts trying to figure out the issue. I found out the issue or what triggered these feelings and I feel better. I watched a lot of self help videos and vlogs on YouTube to relax before my over 6 hour study sessionnn. Finals are next week and I canttt girliesss but we are pulling through lol. I read Survival Of The Prettiest which is a must readddd. Every person needs to read this book the topic of beauty and the biology of beauty how it is truly subjective and changes by person. The author covers different features that are considered beautiful by majority people from different parts of the world, tribes, and so on. I got a 68 on my third math exam I wanted a 80 or higher I am so upset about that like I want to cry and yell but I know I tried my best and studied for over 6 hours and that’s all that matters is I tried and I’ll try for a 80 or higher on my final exam.

♡ Health : I woke up on time 7am and I drank some nice warm tea and watched a few of my fav self help YouTubers. I worked out and the workout almost took me out lol but it felt good I’m still a bit sore but I’m just proud I got through the workout it was short only 20 minutes so my goal was to get as much steps through the day.

♡ Self Care : I applied my skincare and sunscreen the sun is officially out babessss. Put your sunscreen on and reapply every 2-3 hours! I watched youtube before my study session. I was originally going to study before hand but I didn’t want to put that pressure on myself I wanted to go into my study session relaxeddd. I pampered myself all night because of how upset I am about my final exam I watched a few movies and drank tea after a pretty crying session lol.

♡ Experience : I studied today I have been putting my best foot foward when it comes to school and I’m so proud of myself. This semester I truly tried my hardesttt to achieve academic success.

Aweee today is the last day of the challenge I’ll post day 30 tomorrow morning. Tell me how you’re doing babes I would love to know my inbox and requests are open<33333

[simantopia]

indie 𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐯𝐨𝐮𝐬 𝐬𝐮𝐛𝐣𝐞𝐜𝐭 && 𝐜𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐩𝐢𝐧 𝐛𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐤 of 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐢𝐦𝐬 franchise.

heavily headcanon based .

simulated by wikia * est. 5.18.22 / rebooted 9.15.24

CHOOSE A HOUSEHOLD -> CRISPIN BLACK -> NERVOUS SUBJECT

rules below.

MUTUALS  + FOLLOWING

I’ll only interact if we follow each other. However, non-mutuals can still like posts, reblog posts, & send me asks if they desire to.

I’m also likely to unfollow if the content on your blog makes me uncomfortable. If I unfollow, I really appreciate it if you don’t ask me why unless you suspect that it was an accidental unfollow, as Tumblr can be wonky.

As for DUPLICATES? Although they're unlikely, I don’t mind following other Subjects & Blacks if they’re around, and I’ll happily interact with them! We could write sibling or clones AUs, or simply have them acknowledge they’re from different universes.

This blog is also very accepting of OCs and crossovers (does anyone even write sims?)

CANON DIVERGENT

My portrayals will be quite HEAVILY headcanon-based. Most of Crispin Black's background & history is created by ME, seeing as most of it is unknown.

As for Nervous, this blog completely ignores the canon of Sims 3 & PSP Sims 2. Not that I dislike them, they just conflict with my own portrayal & headcanons. This blog also doesn’t acknowledge “Hidden Nervous Subject” as the “real Nervous / In game Nervous being a clone.” In my canon, there’s only been one (1) Nervous Subject, and that’s the son of Olive, & the test subject of the Beakers. It’s just a theory I never cared for, and it also conflicts with my portrayal.

Also, this blog likes to adhere to the theory that Nervous’ mother, Olive is a serial murderer. (After all, this blog will have many themes of death!) If there are any Olive writers that, however, don’t. I can ignore this when writing with them.

NSFW + Triggering content

This blog may have themes that could be considered triggering. Mostly with death, abuse, medical/laboratory themes.

Smut MAY occur, maybe. I really don’t know why or how it would. But if it does, it'll always be tagged.

This blog will be 18+ just because I, as an adult, feel more comfortable with other adults.

GODMODDING + METAGAMING

Godmodding is a no and metagaming is also a no. However, considering that Crispin is a celebrity with a high reputation, it's okay for your muse to know some things about him due to fame (dude has the sims equivalent of a wikipedia page!)

SHIPPING

This blog is multiship. However, while I love to ship with chemistry… I don’t mind pre-established relationships as long as we’ve plotted them out and we’ve reached an agreement. Though I must say, Crisp isn't very interested about "being stuck in" a relationship atm. As for friendships? I’m okay with canon blogs (Which, meaning, if you’re a Pascal or anyone from the Foundry, & perhaps Neon East & Kicktail Park) being pals pre-established! Other muses? We'd have to discuss...!

REBLOGGING

Anything but threads are rebloggable! 'Cos typically my partners don’t like threads to be reblogged. Whether you’re a mutual or not, feel free to reblog my ooc posts, my shitposts, memes, my art. (highly encouraged!) I don’t mind at all!!! 🥺🥺🥺 Also, if you sent in a meme or anything in the inbox, you’re very free to turn it into a thread.

MUN EQUAL DOES NOT MUSE

Crispin's an ass, & Nervous may have different feelings or do different things the mun wouldn’t. Please don’t think we’re of the same “mind.”

GRAPHICS + ICONS

Icons are made by me! As are all graphics. IN FACT, the art used in the bios & promo are by me!

MUN

Hi hi hi! I am the mun, you can call me by Wikia or anything, I am 26 years old. If you made it down here, I just wanna say that there’s no password to send and thank you for reading and respecting my rules! I hope to write with you soon. ❤︎

[flytohurt]

Hi, sorry if this is a weird question or you've answered it before, but what do you think about all the stuff with Darby and Hawlee? I like Darby but people bring it up all the time and I never know what to think.

i’m sorry this took 400 years to answer. i’ve been trying to find a way to answer it that won’t just cause an eruption of hate in my inbox but honestly it’s gonna happen regardless so whatever lmao

the short version is i think it was a bad relationship that she used for extortion. i’ll explain why under the cut if you’re interested. i know myself & some of my mutuals left twitter to get away from this subject, so this is probably the only time i’ll be responding publicly about it.

to put the extortion claim in context, they trained together & he immediately got booked for bigger indie promotions. by the time she first came out with her claims, he was already signed with AEW & had been on PPV. when she named him over a year later, he was coming off his first championship run & starting to get momentum with Sting. she still hasn’t gotten anywhere in her career, & i think it’s pretty reasonable to say it would hurt to see someone you started out with being so successful if you’re not the kind of person to use that as motivation to better yourself.

Darby also has no known pattern of abuse, there’s no corroboration to her story from anyone who was close with them (not even a vague “yeah i remember how horrible he was to you”), & he was cleared in the internal investigation by TK. the industry as a whole has started taking allegations like that far more seriously post-Benoit so i really don’t believe they would have cleared him if there was any doubt. a still-up-&-coming company can’t afford a hit like that.

this is just speculation but if he really was cleared by text messages or DMs like some have reported, then it’s within reason that she was trying to get him to help her get a push somewhere, & if he said no, probably said she’d retaliate, ruin his career, etc.

on to the SA bit. i would like to be very clear that i am not saying she was outright lying - i wasn’t there & didn’t have any connections to him at the time to know 100% for sure.

however, it’s completely valid to not want to be with someone whose sexual desires don’t line up with yours. Darby is very likely demisexual. he’s been open & forthcoming about needing to really be in love before wanting to have sex, & otherwise it’s not on his radar. that doesn’t really check the box of a sexually violent individual.

i also know from personal experience that what may be interpreted as coercion can be incorrect when you’re emotionally fucked up, & disconnected from your partner. your own mind/body can be just as disconnected & one will be trying to tell you what you may not be consciously aware of yet.

of course this is only my experience but my ex & i had nearly an identical relationship to what she described. he would scream & hit/break things, serial cheated on me, & took out his own frustrations on me. we’d have fights that escalated to physicality on occasion, & i became emotionally abusive back to him as a result of all of that. i would disassociate, shut down completely, & not speak to him for fear of instigating a fight. he would threaten to leave me because we weren’t having sex, would even be physically aggressive about it, but it wasn’t actually about sex.

after well over 5 years of reflection & even talking to him about it recently, he was really just desperate for affection & he considered intimacy to be sexual. my body reacted negatively to him & i misinterpreted what was happening, because my definition of intimacy was different. i no longer wanted physical intimacy because there was no real connection in our relationship anymore. we just didn’t know how to not be together & kept digging ourselves deeper into the hole with the on again/off again pattern instead of just accepting it & finding partners who actually aligned with us.

i don’t like PK but i do think she was right in her response. people change & grow from their mistakes. being the person who was married to him at the time all this came out means she’s the one who’d know him best at this current point of his life. & that’s all that matters in my book.

[cloudsandcrescents]

Will you post another rough publishing schedule like your pinned post?

I’ve been meaning to do this again so thank you for giving me a nudge. Here’s a rough schedule of where we are.

Publishing Schedule (Subject to Change)

Leather Black - I had hoped to have the next chapter up yesterday but between no sleep, errands, and a family event that went on pretty late, I didn’t get around to it. At the latest, I will have the next chapter up tomorrow but I am really striving for today since I actually have a full day of free time. With my two larger fics pretty much done, I can dedicate more time to this one to start getting the rest of the chapters out faster. I’m expecting this fic to have a final chapter count of somewhere around 11-12 chapters. With AH and PM done, I’m hoping I can grind these last few chapters to have the fic complete by the end of the month.

After Hours and Promise Me - These two fics are technically complete but I did have a very brief epilogue chapter that I wanted to do for both just to wrap up a few things. Since these will probably be more on the shorter side, they shouldn’t take too long. Realistically speaking, I’m hoping to have those done end of next week.

Tumblr Prompts/Asks - I’ve got quite a few asks sittings in my inbox so for anyone who has sent me one, I am working on getting to those in the coming weeks. After Leather Black is concluded, I plan to take a small break from multi-chap fics to clear out what I can since these will likely be written as single chapter/one-shot experiences. I’m thinking about two weeks before I can start getting to them but I may be able to get one or two done sooner.

When We Serve/Hour of Need - I’ve reasoned that two multi-chap fics at a time are my limit. Once LB is done and I can get through some of the asks in my inbox, I’ll be resuming updates for these two fics. Realistically looking at beginning updates again for these early next month. It’ll likely be an alternating biweekly update similar to how AH and PM use to be (updating one fic one week and the other on the next).

Other Impacts to Publishing Schedule - I currently have a private work that was commissioned so that will take some precedence in the coming weeks. I’ll still be updating LB during this time but want to ensure I’m dedicating adequate time to that request.

Work interferes with writing more often than not which is really why I’m not able to get updates out as quickly as I’d like most of the time. I do have a personal writing endeavor that I’m hoping to embark on so that someday I can have the freedom to just write all day.

I appreciate everyone’s patience as I work through the motions and know that, even if I’m quiet, I’m still working on these stories for you all and that your support means the world.

[silkflovvers]

I’m finally (momentarily) free and in desperate need of getting back into the art groove so I can work on personal projects I’ve been sitting on for nearly half a year.

So, I am opening up drawing requests for a very limited time (this week). I’ll chip away at them over my lunch breaks and as warm ups and cool downs before and after work. I won’t have time to do very many, so I’ll honestly just be picking the ones that inspire me most.

[EDIT: Okay, I have no idea how out of so few requests I’ve gotten, the majority of them have managed to pick out some of the specific things I said I wasn’t going to list because I didn’t think anyone would choose. So congrats, I guess? You guessed right but for the wrong thing.

I have never seen such niche requests in my life, but I’m not drawing those. If you send something that looks like niche fetish fuel from the depths of DeviantArt, I’m not drawing that. Sorry not sorry. I may be an NSFW artist, but it still feels gross to have these requests in my inbox. The people asking for these don’t even follow me, so they’re clearly just lurking for people offering drawing requests... Watch out fellow artists... there’s some real freaks out there.

I’ll take this time to add on other things I thought I wouldn’t have to, but probably ought to just in case.]

What I will draw:

Characters from pre-existing franchises (example: video games, anime, comics, etc)

Characters from fandoms I am and am not part of

Ships (within reason)

NSFW (within reason, may be posted to poipiku instead of Humblr if it doesn’t meet their guidelines)

Hybrids/Monsters

What I will not draw:

NOTP Ships

OCs

NSFW of underage characters (including non-sexual nudity)

Niche fetish fuel

Disney/Pixar characters

Cats*

TWST characters

Owl House characters

Steven Universe characters

A3 characters

Enstars characters

*To the person who wanted me to draw the cute lady cat from Puss and Boots, I’m sorry to say I have had to draw so many cats for work I’m actually just kind of sick of them, so I’ll have to say no to that request, I’m sorry TT  I’ll accept requests that may have cats as like.. a side thing, but I won’t do the request if cats are the main subject.

Request Guidelines:

Choose 1 to 2 characters and list them by name and what they’re from

Choose a style from below that you want me to draw it in

Any specifics you may have (example: specific outfit, bloody/injured, specific pose, etc.)

Send this information in an ask (can be anonymous or not)

[Image text: Sketch Style - Style 1 or Style 2, Finished Style - Style 3 or Style 4]

Please note that the rendered styles will take longer to complete.

If I choose your ask to draw, I won’t reply to it until I’ve drawn it so I don’t lose your ask. I’ll tag all the drawing requests with “#silkflovvers drawing requests” so they can be found easily.

[EDIT: I’m just going to delete the asks that made me uncomfortable so the people who made the weird requests can remain anonymous. I’m only doing that because I honestly don’t want to deal with it any more. But if you’re the one of the people who sent them, you’re getting blocked, actually. I never want to see the content you’ve requested on my dash, ever.]

[thatgordongirl]

for the fic asks

💖 What made you start writing?

🙋‍♀️ Do any irl people know you write fanfic?

⌛ How long does it take you to write a fic, or a chapter?

Thank you for the ask! Always a pleasure to see you in my inbox :) if anyone else wants to leave an ask, the list is here

💖 What made you start writing?

English was and still is my best subject, I guess I started because it seemed to be something I was good at. I started writing specifically online because everyone else was doing it and I thought it was cool, I’m a sheep, I followed the crowd haha. For the longest time, I would write fanfiction but have nowhere to post it, and it would just sit there. 

🙋‍♀️ Do any irl people know you write fanfic?

Yes, I have a friend who also writes fanfiction, but they’ve never actually read any of mine. They don’t even know what my account is because I’ve never told them. It made me a bit weary to think they’d be combing through my life in some way, and frankly she’s a better writer, so it would be awkward for me. She don’t know the specifics of my fics, and she think Wattpad is better than AO3, so can’t do much there. 

⌛ How long does it take you to write a fic, or a chapter?

Chapters for bigger fics take me ages because I want them to be as long as possible. Oneshots take an hour or so and I usually post them not long after. There was a fic I really liked writing that was about 19k and it took me about two weeks to finish. If I’m working or busy with anything it takes much longer to sit down and write something because I’ll be so worried about whatever else I need to be doing. 

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⋆ That’s me! I’m the owner of this blog. You may know me as Dee/Dee Dee(sugasbabiie, sugakookitty, dawnagustd, babecoups). I’ve been writing since November of 2020 but I’ve started over about 3 times since then. I’ve written a lot of stories (probably close to a hundred. if not, more). I hope to repost them all someday, but if I don’t get a chance I’ll make up for them in the 100 WIPs I have lol.

Find out more about me here or you can ask me questions in my inbox.

do you have a posting schedule?

⋆ No, but I will try and let you know what is about to drop.

will you write part…?

⋆ No, unless I’ve said otherwise. 

note: I know you all mean no harm, but receiving such a comment after dishing out a fic is so discouraging. Instead, let them know how much you like the story; even after it’s no longer new. You never know if it’ll motivate them to write more. Most importantly, just thank them for what they shared. You never know what they went through to write it.

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⋆ Yes! I post on ao3 and wattpad.

do you allow reposts of your work?

⋆ No, I don’t! I do not allow reposting, copying, plagiarizing, translations, etc. Even if you ask for permission or credit me, the answer is still no and you will be dragged publicly for 40 days and 40 nights.

note: You’re also not allowed to use my work for inspiration. Don’t read anything of mine if you’re planning on writing something similar because if I find out you copied parts of my fics I’m calling you out. I’ve been nice about this for too long. Not anymore. Also, do not write any continuations to my work. That’s another way to piss me off.

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[eirian-houpe]

The Monday Menu

As they so often say on TV, “Normal service will be resumed as soon as possible.”

Here we are in May already and the last time I did one of these was January. I’m going to try and push back against all the stuff keeping me from what I love... writing, engaging with my mutuals, with readers when they comment or send me DMs or asks or… just plain contact me in any way.  Fandom IS a community after all!

Speaking of communities - there have been some... upsetting observations, and things happening in the last week. I’ve sitting on my feelings on what happened, and what I subsequently discovered for DAYS now, but... I’m still feeling salty, so watch out for an ugly (sorry/not sorry) post later today on that subject.

For those of you that are new to the fandom, or have been hibernating (and who could blame anyone for that given the state of the world) the past couple of years, the Rumbelle Showdown is in full swing. There is still time to read the fics and get your vote in before the deadline (tomorrow at midnight I do believe). There are some awesome fics in this years Showdown, don’t miss out!

Hopefully I will be able to find time to get some writing done this week, and here’s the plan for what this week might look like:

Monday - The Monday Menu - what it says on the box. A plan for the week, also, this week, a Monday Mmmm. There won’t always be one of these, just when something troubling or interesting crosses my path.

Tuesday - TMI Tuesday. - Ask me… go on, anything.  Ask my characters -they’ll answer. Nothing is off limits, but be sure you want the answer before you ask the question.

Wednesday - WIP Wednesday - Current state of my works in progress. So many - and still climbing!

Thursday - Three Things Thursday - any fic of mine is fair game. Doesn’t have to be Rumbelle, I have Rushbelle, a bunch of crossovers, some shows people might no know, some ST: DSC, some SGA and some Tolkien too… ask three things, I dare ya…! Please… This is also the day I’ll do the ‘Behind the Scenes’ post, which might just end up as part of the TTT post.

Friday - Final Line Friday. - Assuming I manage to write anything, I will post a word cloud, and the last line that I have written right before I post this. Also I hope to be able to start a Fic Rec Friday too, which won’t always be Rumbelle, but could be any fandom out there.

Saturday - Saturday Secret - another one of those where you can ask about any fic, and I’ll tell (or show) you a secret. Feel free to follow up with conversation or guesses.  I will tell you if you get something right. Again, no one took me up on the offer… so we might also have to think of another ‘SA’ post.

Sunday - Seven Sentence Sunday. - yeah, I have to write something to be able to post this.

Writing this week - Modern Wonders (At least I’d like to try and get some writing done on this fic.  It has been calling to me after all).  Also perhaps dabbling in some Not Yours to Keep and/or some Laer o Faen, (assuming I get over my tizzy).

As always my inbox is open for thoughts, questions, asks… I don’t restrict people to any particular day of the week, and I - like most fic authors - love to discuss things to do with fics and fandom.

I just want to add a shout out to those readers who have left me comments and kudos these last several days.  It has not gone un-noticed.  love you guys for those votes of confidence..

Talk to me, peeps! My inbox is lonely,

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Rules and About || Mobile Friendly

Hi, I’m Skull!

I haven’t touched an rp blog in about 4 years, so I’m a little rusty. But Jan was always a favorite muse of mine, and, lately, I just haven’t been able to shake him. So, I figured I'd try my hand at RPing once more. But some things to know about me;

I’m currently 25 years old

Pronouns: They/Them 

I was an active RPer from 2013 to 2018, my character of choice mainly being Jan Valentine.

The main reason I stopped rping originally? I kept getting deployed on the ocean (can't maintain an account on a boat), and then I got stationed at a hospital where I aided in the treatment of Covid-19 patients. I still love writing, I always have; I just got really busy.

Rules and Boundaries

No Nazi shit - Yes, I’m aware of Hellsing canon. No, I don't want to write about the Nazis, WWII, or the Holocaust. I don't have any intention of making light of those subjects by using them as a plot point for our silly thread.

Triggers - I don’t have any. This, first and foremost, is a Hellsing RP Blog, and, if I’m being honest, there’s very little I’m not willing to write (those exceptions being nazism, homophobia, transphobia, racism, and pedophilia). With that being said, I tag basic triggers as #cw, #[trigger], and #tw [trigger]. If there's a certain type of post that you want to be tagged, please let me know.

Have Patience - Unmedicated ADHD is my greatest weakness, and I have a relatively busy home life. I promise I’m not ignoring you or our thread. I’m doing my best to stay on task, and that proves to be difficult more often than not. This isn’t, in any way, a reflection of how I feel about you or how excited I am to write with you; I just have a hyperactive squirrel on crack for a brain.

Shipping - I’m open to shipping with chemistry. If you’re feeling our characters might have some kind of chemistry going, let me know because, more than likely, I do too! I don't ship with underage characters and never will; no exceptions.

NSFW Content - I’ll be honest, I’m all for violence, but as far as smut goes? I’m not sure. Jan is a maybe, but Anita is the only character where NSFW is a hard no. All NSFW Content will be tagged as #NSFW.

Canon - As far as Hellsing Canon goes, I’m not that concerned with it. Anita is completely independent of the Hellsing Canon (or any canon for that matter) anyways.

Personalities - For everyone's sake, I toned down Jan's personality by... a lot because, let's be honest, interacting with an abusive jackass is about as fun as gouging your eyes out with a plastic spoon; it gets stale after a while, and it's likely to piss someone off one way or another. This doesn't mean he's a big softie- he's still predominantly evil, still an asshole/shit disturber, but less... like his canon counterpart.

A Hard No - Please do not write a scene where either one of my characters is sexually harassing/assaulting one of yours. The first time, I’ll politely decline the thread and we can work on something else, but the second time will result in a hard block. 

No Tolerance - I don't care what we're writing, I absolutely won't tolerate slurs in or out of character. I don't care if you've reclaimed it, I don't care if your friend said it's okay, I don't care if you're personally okay with them- I don't want them in my inbox, DM's, threads, or anywhere near me. Same as before, I'll only tell you once and the next offense is going to result in a hard block.

Mind Reading - Unfortunately, I was not blessed with the gift of telepathy, and probably never will… probably. But, in the meantime, if there are any issues: you don’t like a reply I gave, I said something off-color or problematic, posted something untagged that squicks or triggers you, etc - Just let me know. I’ll apologize and do my best to correct the behavior. 

18+ Only - Regardless of what I’m writing, I’ll only interact with muns who are 18 and older. I don’t have anything against teens who want to rp (I mean, I started rping when I was 15), but, as someone who’s 8 years older than someone who’s 17 on top of the fact that I’ve worked with kids/teens in the past… I don’t feel comfortable with that. There are no exceptions to this rule. If I find out that you’ve lied about your age, that will result in an immediate block.

[twistedmusings]

A/N: Planning to post some finished requests tonight thankfully but I wanted to share something super self indulgent with you guys since I just recently got an Alexa! I'm still kind of in a funk (since classes are STILL not over with) so thank you everyone for your kind words in my inbox q wq For now I only have Riddle and Leona...but if everyone likes it I'll make an effort to finish! I kinda am working on Azul's as we speak >:3 Warnings: Boys missing you terribly, Riddle justifying the breaking of rules and Leona realizing that he is talking to an inanimate object.

The Ramshackle Prefect leaves to go to RSA for a month, following a lead that could get them back home. And while the dorm leaders do miss them terribly, it seems one of them is hiding something.

. .

“AZUL-SHI DO SOMETHING.”

The Octavinelle dorm leader barely listened to his friend's request as he also crowded over Idia’s phone, the other five dorm leaders looking down at the screen as a pair of familiar eyes stared back at them.

“Where is Idia? Can you please hand me back to him?”

Riddle blinked at the sprite on the screen before looking back at Idia with a frown.

“Explain yourself, Shroud.”

Idia whimpered as he hung his head low in shame.

“[Y/N]-san...I mean...the Prefect left to go to RSA for a whole month, right? Crowley said it was to help them find a way back home but apparently there was some trouble there too and...and he brought them to fix it...”

Malleus’s neutral expression changes into something a bit sadder while Kalim lets out what everybody was thinking.

“To take them away so suddenly...I didn’t even get a chance to give them a goodbye party!”

“They’re only away for a month, Kalim.” Vil’s eyes stay on Idia’s phone screen.

“But I’m sure a party would have let them know how much I would miss them!”

Riddle clears his throat, “That still doesn’t explain anything about what I am seeing. Why in the world do you have something that looks like...that looks so much like them on your phone!”

Idia was sure this was hell. Of all the people to catch him using his phone during a dorm leader meeting, why did it have to be Riddle? What was he even supposed to answer to that question! That he missed talking to [Y/N]-san about the new animes that were releasing this week that he had purposefully made an AI from data Ortho had collected on them and their mannerisms?

He would rather die!

“I--I was testing a new AI! Just...for schedules and stuff like that! And I didn’t have anything else to base it on so I just took [Y/N]-san’s information and made a prototype! It’s not just going to go out to the public like that! They can customize it however they like--!”

Azul hums as he taps the screen, the sprite giggling as he touches their cheek before looking up at all of them expectantly.

“...A prototype, huh.” he smiles and leans back while taking his phone out, “Everybody stop crowding around him, we might as well be breaking his arm slowly at this point.”

The rest of the dorm leader's move back with only some protest, Idia’s eyes shining as he looks up at his other friend.

“Azul-shi…”

The dorm leader of Octavinelle grins, “If it’s a prototype then that means it needs users, correct? More people to test it out?”

“Eh?”

Azul puts his phone in front of Idia and smiles at him like he was just about to close a rather important business transaction.

“Well then I want the prototype as well. Download it to my phone, will you?”

“Eh?!”

Idia presses his phone to his chest as if Azul was about to take it, looking around nervously as the other dorm leaders take their phones out and set it in front of him.

“If it’s an application for scheduling then I could use it to keep Heartslabyul’s matters in check. I’ll take one too.”

“Ruggie is gonna be busy during exams...this thing better work as an alarm.”

“Surely this would help me keep track of my schedule for both the Monstro Lounge and school. I’ll take one with a statistics program built in, Idia”

“Oh!! I want mine to be able to sing! And can I also get them in Scarabia’s dorm uniform? I want to see what [Y/N]-san would look like!’

“I’ll take that as well. I also want a photo re-touch feature as well as one hour updates as to what is going on in my Magicam account.”

Each phone was placed in front of him as Idia felt his head start to spin. He just wanted to keep this thing a secret only for himself! He wasn’t even planning to release it, it was all just a lie so they wouldn’t know his greatest shame!

A shadow was casted over him, Idia looking up slowly as Malleus smiled and placed his phone down.

“I am eager to see your finished product, Shroud.”

The tarts in front of him looked absolutely delicious.

Trey had really outdone himself this time. The strawberries were cut into perfectly neat shapes and the glaze over them made them so mouth wateringly shiny that he could practically taste the sweet treat without even having to taste it!

Which only made his want of one grow even more.

“And here comes the next batch.” Trey smiles as he puts down another plate in front of him, Riddle’s eyes now staring at that plate while his vice dorm leader cleans himself up.

“When did you say the Unbirthday party was going to be today?”

“A-At three o’clock sharp.”

Trey nods as he looks at the clock in the kitchen.

“Perfect. I promised to meet Jade to get some herbs he has been growing as well as letting him teach me how to make this one soup they had in the Monstro Lounge about a week ago.”

He grabs his phone and heads out, leaving Riddle with a quick goodbye and a promise that he would make it back as quick as possible.

Leaving him all alone with two plates filled with his favourite treat.

The dorm leader looks around once...then twice...checking if anybody was coming into the kitchen before going back to stare at the plates.

It wasn’t like he was going to grab one

The Unbirthday party today would be using pastries that Trey had made yesterday. It was the third of the month so the rules required a completely different pastry. The strawberry tarts were most likely for tomorrow.

So Riddle could wait. He was the Heartslabyul dorm leader after all so not only could he wait but he was required to wait! As the dorm leader he was to set an example and he couldn’t let himself be seduced so easily by just two plates of such yummy looking tarts--!

He quickly takes his phone out and looks down at the screen, face flushing as he tries to remember how Idia told him to open up the new app.

“[Y/N]-san…?”

A face peeks out from the corner of his phone, smiling as it recognizes his face and steps out while giving him a polite bow.

“Good morning, Riddle-san! What can I help you with?”

He can’t help a small rush of excitement at seeing the Prefect’s face after not seeing them for two weeks. Riddle would make an effort to stop and talk to them whenever they made their way to Heartslabyul that not seeing them for so long had almost thrown him off his schedule.

And...he missed the conversations he had with them.

As the dorm leader and a student in NRC he didn’t necessarily have time to go to any other events or take part in any of the shenanigans others would get up to, not that he necessarily wanted to, but it was entertaining when the Prefect talked about it with him.

It felt like they were letting him into their world.

So maybe this substitute would suffice...it was a scheduling app after all so it wasn’t like he was using it for pleasure only.

“Would you please repeat rule 56 of the Queen’s handbook?”

The AI clears their throat as a book animation appears before them.

“Rule number 56: On the third of April, black tea should be served along with pineapple tarts. Followed by a game of cards in which the loser must pour the Queen tea for the rest of the Unbirthday party.”

Riddle sighs as he looks back at the plate of tarts.

“...I guess I’ll wait until tomorrow…”

“Wait until what?”

He looks down at the AI, the sprite blinking in confusion as it waits for an answer. Idia had mentioned adding a conversational feature…

“There is no rule about what to eat tomorrow so I decided that we would have strawberry tarts.”

“Are those your favourite?”

Riddle nods and steps out of the kitchen, making his way to his room as he stared back at the open door.

“They are. Ever since I was little. I couldn’t have many because of--”

He decides to not go deep into the subject.

“I’m sure Trey’s pineapple tarts will be excellent. I will just have to wait until tomorrow to enjoy the strawberry ones.”

The AI hums before the book animation pops up again, looking down and flipping a couple of pages before speaking up.

“Riddle-san. While it does say that black tea should be served with pineapple tarts...it does state that it should be done for the Unbirthday party and the Unbirthday party only.”

He frowns, “Your point?”

“I am sure no rule would be broken if only the Queen has a tea party before the Unbirthday party. From what I am seeing here--”

They flip a couple more pages.

“There is no rule about a tea party of one enjoying a strawberry tart.”

Riddle blinks before looking down at his phone, the sprite smiling as they shut the small book and lets it disappear with a ‘poof.’

No rule would be broken...if it was only a tea part of one?

He looks down at the AI when he hears them giggle.

“Riddle-san looks really happy.”

A blush covers his face at being called out on how big his smile probably was.

“Did I help in any way?”

The dorm leader takes a deep breath before smiling as he looks down at the phone and presses his fingertip on top of their head, rubbing it back and forth as if they were petting them. Something he knew he could never really do with them in real life lest he was looking to get odd looks.

“More than enough. Would you like to accompany me during this tea party?”

“Yes please!”

Riddle nods before looking around once more and clearing his throat.

“And...would you refer to me as ‘dorm leader’ from now on?”

The sprite nods as they give him a polite bow.

“Yes, dorm leader!”

He would need to send his report of the app as quickly as possible, Idia had really outdone himself this time...maybe he could ask if he could get them dressed up in the Heartslabyul uniform?

Riddle still wished you would hurry back.

“Leona-san! Please wake up!”

The blankets on the bed wriggled a bit as the phone was tousled over from one side of the bed to the other, the sprite inside frowning as they tried again.

“Leona-san! Please wake up! Ruggie-san texted you!”

A hand comes out of the blankets before holding the phone up.

“Read the text out loud then.”

Sighing, the AI pulls the text up and reads out loud.

“Please be awake by the time I get there, Leona. I need to make sure I get your signature on these papers for the dorm budget. If you don’t I’ll hold your lunch captive!”

Leona’s face finally pops up from under the blanket, the man sitting up and running a hand through his hair as he speaks up again.

‘Oi. What time is it?”

“It is 3:14 in the afternoon, Leona-san.”

“And when did Ruggie send the text?”

“At 3:00 o'clock.”

He groans and lays back down, the pillows flying about as he holds the phone to his face and smiling when he sees the sprite looking down at him worriedly.

“You really do look like them…” Leona whispers before tapping the screen so that he is poking the sprite’s cheek, “What is that face for?”

“I’m just worried for you, Leona-san. Too much sleep is a symptom of some sicknesses so--”

“Hah? You think I would get sick so easily?” he yawns and stretches, “I’m different from humans. Beastmen need a lot more sleep than regular humans do so...I’m just doing what my body tells me.”

Green eyes watch a notepad appear before the AI as they write down the information, smiling as they close it up and watch it disappear.

“I’ll keep that information in mind so I can serve Leona-san better. Thank you so much.”

Leona blinks at the words before a lazy smile crosses his face.

“Serve me better, huh? Never thought I would hear you say that.”

Usually the herbivore would be frowning and telling him to get up and actually take charge of his dorm and how he didn’t act like any grown up they knew. The sprite, however, tilts their head in confusion before speaking up once again.

“I am yours, after all.”

“Damn right you are.”

He looked at the phone a bit more, the sprite smiling up at him as he poked their cheek or patted their head. A part of him wondered if you would react like that with him as well. You always seemed so annoyed with his antics yet you never failed to come back to talk to him, telling him how he needs to get his act together if he is ever planning to go back to the Afterglow.

Leona would bet money that if he patted your head out of nowhere you would be highly flustered. Getting praise from him was something that didn’t happen often, after all.

“What day is it?”

“The 12th day of April, Leona-san.”

Another two weeks of you being gone. He frowns and closes his eyes as he thinks about you meeting those other students. RSA was just full of idiots...like his brother--

“Dammit.”

He slams the phone down but blinks when he hears a small yelp, turning the phone back around to find the AI looking rather frazzled with their eyes closed and hair all over the place.

“Shit. Are you....okay?”

Great, he was asking an application if it was okay. He could understand why Idia would hide this, right now he felt like he was crazy.

“Y--Yes! It was just unexpected!”

The sprite fixed itself up quickly and smiled back at Leona.

“Are you okay though, Leona-san?”

The dorm leader chuckled and nodded as they set the phone down gently and laid down next to it. At least that part was very much like you, worrying about others before focusing on yourself.

“You’re not going to complain? I almost just threw you.”

Without missing a beat, the AI stands up and looks at him.

“Leona-san is still working hard despite his body telling him to sleep. My program tells me that it would be a natural emotion to feel frustrated if you are not allowed to do something you want. Normal actions of frustration speak of physical manifestations such as kicking, punching or throwing. I was simply calculating it for it to be the latter and for it to happen towards a pillow. I’ll make sure to fix my calculations next time.”

He shakes his head and sets the phone down gently.

“Weird thing. You shouldn’t forgive someone so easily after they wronged you.”

“But you didn’t wrong me, Leona-san. I didn’t feel any pain. I just want to make sure you are feeling your best! You are my number one priority!”

This machine is going to make him go insane, he knows you would never say that but the fact that Idia had gotten your voice down so well that it was almost as if you had just told him he was your number one---

He was already getting a headache.

“Set an alarm for an hour. Ruggie will take around that long anyway.” Leona lays down and wraps the blankets around him.

“Of course. Alarm set for one hour. Would you like to be woken up with a personalized message?”

Leona hummed before grinning.

“Wake me up by calling me ‘King’.”

The sprite fixes its settings before giving a polite bow.

“Yes, my King. Please enjoy your rest.”

After this he would send his report to Shroud and maybe ask for an outfit upgrade. He only needed to show him some Afterglow clothes and the nerd would probably be able to make the AI wear them, right?

Whatever, the moment you came back Leona would make sure that you gave him some headpats for making him wait so long.

[keepingupwithfundies]

we’ve decided to close down the blog

Phew. After nearly five and a half years, I can’t believe I am actually writing this post. But here it is. For the past few months, we’d been discussing officially closing the Keeping Up With Fundies (KUWF) inbox for good. The combination of the increasingly busy lives of the admins with Josh’s conviction for possession of CSAM has led each member of the admin team separately to realize that it was time to close the inbox one last time. 

So, here it is. We’re going to permanently close the inbox on April 17th, in the evening. After that point, we won’t be posting on this blog any longer. This is slightly anti-climatic, due to the lack of posts recently, but we decided we still wanted to take a moment to close this down rather than simply fading away quietly. 

To be clear, though, we aren’t deleting the blog, or the blogspot or anything. We’re going to leave it all up. But there won’t be any new posts and you will no longer be able to send in asks. 

Ok, end of announcement. I’m going to take a second just to share my own thoughts. 

In some ways, this is bittersweet. This blog really has meant a lot to me over the years - especially due to the connections I’ve made with the other admins and other bloggers here on tumblr. The nights spent chatting on the discord, waiting for an announcement. The polls I worked hard on to entertain people throughout the early pandemic. Typing up recaps in between law school classes. Those early days on Skype with Annie, talking through how we wanted the blog to look. I have some really fond memories of my time as an admin.  

However, ultimately, this decision feels very right. First, my life has changed pretty drastically.  I was an undergrad when I joined the blog, and now I’m a practicing lawyer. And second, things for the fundies have also changed very drastically. I feel like 2016, when I joined the blog, felt like the beginning of the fundie influencer era with Jinger’s wedding, and now they’ve all got a vitamin or hair tool to sell you. The shows have come and gone. And Josh’s conviction has made it really difficult at times to follow these families. It is time to shut this door. 

So, thank you for following along with us throughout the years. Even though it feels strange to say given the subject matter, this blog really truly was something special for a while there. 

Below, each admin is going to share their own little piece about their time on the blog. Mary was unable to write an addition to this post, but sends her best wishes to all going forward. And if you’re looking for me, I’ll still be hanging out on tumblr at @keepingupwitht. But my season of life with KUWF is coming to an end, and it was really neat. 

-T 

From Em: 

Thank you to the whole Fundie Tumblr community - collectively we’ve created a really cool place online where we can make friends while safely and kindly deconstruct toxic belief systems around us, be it in our own lives or in our media outlets. That’s super super cool. Thank you for letting me be part of that over the last few years, but most of all, thank you for being my friend. As the last year has unfolded with news from the Duggar (and the Bates) family, I’ve felt a sense of needing space to step out having to watch them so closely. To be able to shift my internal energy, as those families show themselves as a darker force. 

I've been spending my time doing environmental work, nurturing my creativity, volunteering, and rescuing hospice shelter cats - all callings I need to follow. 

I’ll be around here and there on my personal fundie blog @fundietrash and scrolling through fundie news every so often, but I’ll always be grateful for this super unique and wonderful experience ❤️ 

From Suz: 

I am so thankful to have been a part of KUWF and to have worked with my wonderful co-admins. I'm thankful to the Fundie Tumblr community for the insightful discussions, mutual support, and compassion we've maintained for people in spiritually ab*sive situations. In the time that I've been a part of this blog, I've graduated from college and began a lifelong journey of land stewardship and farming. Social commentary on religious fundamentalism will always remain a part of my life, and I will surely carry my experiences from this blog with me. My mom used to lurk in Fundie discourse communities. She has since passed, so I've also been thankful to feel close to her through this process. 

Many of us know the harms of religious extremism and were compelled to discuss these groups and families because of it. As the darker aspects of the families became more apparent, it became more difficult to analyze the reality of their lives and their actions. The hypocrisy, political extremism and ab*se became too dark to comfortably discuss. 

There is hope for the children and adults who are stuck in spiritually ab*sive situations, and there is hope for all of us who have stumbled across this blog during our own religious deconstructions. I hope that this community and the relic of this blog will remain a safe space for people seeking solace in exvangelicalism. I will be around on my personal blog @echoesofthequiver and will remain a part of this community, although in a different capacity. Thank you everyone. 

-Suz

[leejungchans]

hi !! this blog hit 1k a while ago, and i just wanted to let you all know that your support and love really do mean the world to me and i hope you’re all doing well ☹️❤️

as a thank you, i’m opening up requests again (which is very long overdue ;;;;) !! please read the rules under the cut carefully before requesting <33

have fun !!

groups i write for: stray kids, seventeen, ateez

genres i write: fluff, angst (i usually sprinkle in some humour wherever i can hehe)

what i write: drabbles, headcanons/reactions

requests: closed

requests will close on june 1, 12am kst (subject to change depending on how many requests i get lmao) so any requests sent after this time won’t be written! thank you for your kind understanding!

I. GENERAL RULES

please be respectful <3 if you’re being entitled/rude, i have the right not to write your request

please be patient!! while i’m on break i still have an online course to take, so if you want your request done super quickly i’m probably not the best writer to go to :( i’ll try my best to finish your request as soon as i can but there is no set schedule for when it will be posted. i want it to be as best quality as possible so i hope you can understand <3

i’ll include a list of all the requests i’ve received below as well, so you can check the list to see if i’ve gotten your request. if you don’t see yours after a day or two it might be bc tumblr ate your ask so feel free to send another!!

i take member x female/gn reader requests: if the reader is not specified as female in the request i’ll write them as gn with they/them pronouns!!

nothing nsfw, suggestive, or contains gore, violence etc.

please specify if you’re requesting a drabble or headcanon

you are more than welcome to request a few times, but please don’t spam my inbox as i’d like to write for as many people possible <3

if any details (eg. drabble or headcanon/reaction, genre) are not specified in your ask, i’ll write what inspires me/works better for me with the info given!!

i have the right not to write anything that makes me uncomfortable, so feel free to ask if i’m comfy with writing something that isn’t mentioned in this post!! chances are if i’m not (and you’re not being a jerk about it hwjsjaj), you are more than welcome to send in another request <3

requests are open to everyone!! you don’t have to be my moot/be following me to request 💗 feel free to request on anon as well if that’s what you’re comfier with!!

II. FOR DRABBLES

→ send me an ask with:

1️⃣ 1-2 aus from the list below

2️⃣ the genre(s)

3️⃣ one member from the groups i write about

4️⃣ the reader (f/gn)

5️⃣ optional: anything else you want me to include—plot point, prompt, a certain line of dialogue, etc. i’ll do my best to incorporate it into your request!! it’s also completely okay if you want to skip this part, it just means i have a little more creative liberty with what happens in the drabble!!

example 1: hi sol! can i request a royal au drabble (fluff) with minho (skz) and female reader [optional: where he’s a prince who develops a crush on a seamstress after helping her find her cat]? thank you!!

example: hey! can i request a lovers-to-exes drabble (angst) with hongjoong (ateez) and gn reader [optional: with the prompt “if you leave, don’t come back”]? thank you!!

III. FOR HEADCANONS/REACTIONS

→ send me an ask with:

1️⃣ the member or group

2️⃣ the reader (f/gn)

3️⃣ what you’d like it to be about (feel free to be more specific as long as it’s within my guidelines!!)

→ i can either write for 1) a single member or 2) the whole group

you don’t have to use the au list below for requesting headcanons/reactions, but you can reference it to get an idea of what i write about!!

example 1: hey!! can i request a headcanon about chan (svt) and gn reader where he’s a barista and starts liking them after they order a weird drink? thank you!!

example 2: hi! can i request a headcanon about how ateez would react to their s/o getting shy after giving them a kiss? i’d like the reader to be gn please!!

IV. LIST OF AUS FOR DRABBLES

this list by @/ficscafe includes a lot more aus to choose from but there are some on it that i don’t write for, so feel free to reference the list and ask if you’re unsure :’) i don’t bite i promise <33

please choose 1-2 aus per drabble request!!

established relationship au

newlyweds/marriage au

parents au

enemies/friends/idiots to lovers au

lovers to exes/friends/strangers au

meet-cute au

fantasy au (eg. witch, shapeshifter, mermaid, fairy…)

high school au

university/college au

roommates au

neighbours au

coffee shop/barista au

florist au

royal au

tattooist au

badboy/girl au

actor/singer/celebrity au

bakery au

blind date/first date au

fake-dating au

soulmates au

V. LIST OF RECEIVED REQUESTS

crossed out = completed

you’re more than welcome to ask ab the status of your request (eg. if i’ve received/started to work on it), but please don’t rush me :( i have a life outside writing and as stated in the rules i’d really appreciate it if you could be patient 🤧 ty for bearing with me

drabbles.

joshua (svt) + newlywed au [f]

jeonghan (svt) + f2l/blind date au [f]

mingi (ateez) + i2l au [f]

hoshi (svt) + parents au [f]

jongho (ateez) + established relationship au [f]

seungcheol (svt) + bakery/florist au [f]

jeonghan (svt) + bakery/tattooist au [f]

joshua (svt) + idol/parents au [f]

joshua (svt) + parents au [f]

mark (nct) + airport reunion au [f]

mingyu (svt) + newlywed au [f]

chan (svt) + university au [f]

wonwoo (svt) + cafe au [f]

jeonghan (svt) + e2l/neighbours au [f]

seokmin (svt) + i2l/theatre au [f]

wonwoo (svt) + parents au [f]

jaehyun (nct) + meet-cute au [f]

wonwoo (svt) + royal au [f]

minho (skz) + royal au [f]

vernon (svt) + florist/college au [f]

san (ateez) + royal au [f] [a]

wooyoung (ateez) + e2l au [f]

wooyoung (ateez) + coworkers au [f]

hongjoong (ateez) + pirate/soulmate au [f]

mingyu (svt) + fantasy/domestic au [f]

minghao (svt) + badboy au [f]

san (ateez) + soulmate au [f]

wonwoo (svt) + biker au [f]

wonwoo (svt) + domestic au [f]

minghao (svt) + model au [f]

woozi (svt) + music teacher au [f]

joshua (svt) + fantasy au [f]

joshua (svt) + parents au [f]

joshua (svt) + neighbours au [f]

chan (svt) + honeymoon au [f]

seokmin (svt) + knight au [f] [a]

chan (svt) + established relationship au [f]

jun (svt) + established relationship au [f]

soonyoung (svt) + mutual pining au [f]

chan (svt) + high school au [f]

(please note that i won’t be writing for groups outside ateez, skz, svt for this event with some exceptions for friends, so if we’re not close please stick to these three groups! thank you for understanding 💗)

headcanons/reactions.

svt as new parents [f]

seungkwan (svt) + uni au [f]

fake dating svt [f]

ateez as baristas [f]

ateez pirate au [f]

jisung (skz) + e2l au [f]

meet-cutes with svt [f]

svt’s reaction to you clinging onto their shirt while asleep [f]

svt’s reaction to the camera panning to them when idol!s/o is on stage [f]

chan (svt) + barista au [f]

svt’s reaction to you being a witch [f]

svt as streamer bfs [f]

playing horror games with svt [f]

svt as your uni boyfriends [f]

svt’s reaction to collabing with your group [f]

perf unit (svt) falling for their dance partner [f]

VI. OPTIONAL

this is totally optional, but i’d love to raise interactions on this blog since at the end of the day, the connections and friendships i made here are what brings me an indescribable amount of joy aside from writing 💗 so if you want feel free to stop by my inbox, anon or not!

you can ask for recs! ask me about biases! tell me about yours! rant about things! share about your day! confess something! ask me to confess something (lol)! ask for advice (though i’m not sure if you want to come to me for any advice wgshhw)! there’s really no limit hehe all i ask is that you be kind and avoid any nsfw topics ^^ i hope you’ll send something in and we can get to know eo 😽

thank you once again for all the support and love, and i hope you’ll send in a request/ask!! take care 💗💗

[crimson-mayhem-archive]

(( “if y’all want, feel free to hop in my inbox with a muse and i’ll write a lil drabble.” If you’re still doing these, I’d love to see one with Ruki 🏃‍♀️ maybe they could be discussing a topic relating to a book they’ve read? HFDJKDK SORRY I know that’s pretty vague. ))

「 if y’all want, feel free to hop in my inbox with a muse and i’ll write a lil drabble. 」

🥀 the way i read through a good CHUNK of your posts bc i was like “how in the hell do i write this man.” 🥀

Well articulated words were spoken quietly, and in a way that flowed through the human’s ears comfortably, as his head rested upon his arms on the library table. Glasses were strewn off to the side, school blazer draped over his shoulders, as he listened to the Vampire’s reading. The subject changing from reading direct lines from ‘The Master and Margarita’.

❝ Have you noticed a particular pattern as you’ve progressed through this novel? It throws out the traditional views of ‘good’ and ‘evil’, and even the common thought that the Devil himself is the embodiment of it—❞

Virek’s eyes trailed from the book to Ruki’s own gaze, though he could easily be mistaken for snoozing whilst Ruki went on with how his eyes drooped. The human found himself quite fond of the way the Vampire projected his voice. Elegant, articulated, yet not hard to follow. It reminded him of the way the aristocratic class would speak— At least in some books he had read as a child. But it lacked the usual oppressive, or condescending nature that was laced within the others.

(❛ I don’t really have anything to compare it to… But at least his voice is nice to listen to when he’s passionate about something. ❜)

❝ Oi. Are my words even making it to that little brain of yours, or do you believe I’m speaking for my own betterment of health? ❞

Tilting his head so his cheek was rested on his arms more than before, scarlet eyes met steel, as Virek’s response came rather quickly.

❝ You could have been. I heard it’s quite good for your memory if you read aloud and vocalise your thoughts. Who am I to interrupt you at that point?❞

To say that the Vampire was irked wouldn’t have been incorrect, though he wasn’t angry either. Slight annoyance was perfectly hidden behind a wall of apathy, though he was also… Amused? Virek certainly was a human, who had a lot more to him than met the eye— Especially in the academic fields. Someone so versed in literature having such mediocre performance and outward expression simply didn’t sit right with him, though it was always a treat to find another as equally as passionate about literature as he was. Though obviously less experienced.

❝ While I do appreciate the care you put in to not interrupt my thoughts, I have to say it would be a lot more enjoyable for us both if both parties were engaging. ❞

A soft silence filled the room after Ruki’s words, likely as Virek was thinking up his own thoughts to share. Even going as far as to let his eyes fall completely shut in an attempt to organise his thoughts in a way that would make sense.

❝ I guess I’d have to agree with you on one thing: Bulgakov did provide a new perspective on ‘good’ and ‘evil’s dichotomy. But I wouldn’t say he completely got rid of the idea of the Devil being the embodiment of the latter. ❞

If Ruki’s attention wasn’t caught before, it was caught now. Wondering in what direction the human planned on taking his speech.

❝ Woland takes delight and enjoyment in causing problems in Moscow, that much is obvious. And Bulgakov even go as far as to make it known that Woland is Satan— Leaving it up to the reader’s to balance this depiction with traditional views.❞

❝ The targets in this novel are specific, and hand picked. All of them who were, or prone to be, inherently ‘evil’ or ‘sinful.’ Those who were materialistic, and greedy. Artistically making a show out of his victims death, and plunging Moscow further and further into chaos.❞

For Virek to express such well articulated thoughts, whilst seemingly being indifferent to his and Ruki’s entire ‘hang out’ session, may be surprising to those who aren’t familiar with him. But for the Vampire, he never thought he would ever here the human speak the much at one time. Let alone with such refined vocabulary.

(❛ So behind the choppy, apathetic responses of his normal demeanour, he was hiding such in depth analyses and well formed sentences? But why limit yourself in such a way..?❜)

❝ I believe that Woland’s character did a great job in opening up a new perspective to morality and philosophical concepts. New perspectives on the ambiguity of good and evil, as well as the revelation that evil is something that has been, and always well be around for the rest of eternity. In fact, he even proves that evil is necessary— A necessary rival to good. And one cannot exist without the other. Everyone’s committed evil, even vile deeds in their lifetime; just as much as they’ve exercised good deeds. The scales may be tipped in one way or another, but given how flexible and ambiguous morality is, it is truly impossible for a person to be entirely good or evil. And sometimes, one may be more necessary or useful than the other. ❞

❝ After all, without evil then being good is meaningless. To deny it would be to deny life’s complexity, and this denying life itself…❞

Well then… Such an in-depth explanation from someone like Virek is something Ruki had be curious about hearing, yet not something he would have truly expected from him. A man who didn’t seem to care enough about any one topic to speak on it for such a long period of time, without his usual buzzwords and pauses to fill the empty space.

❝ Colour me impressed. I never would have guessed you analyse books with such depth, nor speak for more than a few seconds at a time. If you had such an arsenal at your disposal, then why present yourself in the way you’ve chosen?❞

❝ Gah… My throat always hurts when I’m around dust… Cough—❞

(❛ He’s back to normal then, I’m guessing. Now I’m inclined to think that explanation was just a fluke that he’d already heard before… ❜)

Little did Ruki know, or perhaps something he already had a hunch about, Virek had read this novel at least twice or three times. After all for the past twelve years, there was nothing else to do but read and study— Even access to the outside world was nonexistent, so all Virek had were books. For years he spent his time analysing different texts, both fiction and nonfiction, historical documents, sketching the different descriptions he found in books, and pushing both his mind and imagination to the fullest. So it wasn’t unexpected for him to have such eloquent speech on something so complex— Not like Ruki would ever find that out.

The Vampire, on the other hand, was plotting different scenarios in which to trick Virek into vocalising more of his thoughts. Silently wishing to pick apart whatever complex barriers lined that mind of his.

❝ Hm.. I suppose we should have these kinds of meetings more often, if it will get you to say more than ten words to me. ❞

❝ I have no clue what you mean. I didn’t talk for that long… And I’m not even good at talking…❞

(❛ I find that odd coming from someone with scholar level diction and speech, but some things are best saved for another day… ❜)

🥀 HELLO I HOPE THIS WAS OKAY!!!! AND I FIND RUKI’S LITTLE “this is the most words i’ve heard you say ever” MOMENT SUPER CUTE. SO I HOPE YOU ENJOY.

and Virek’s usual ‘answer the question with a completely unrelated statement’ quirk just had to make an appearance 😎

also did not actually go through and read this book bc that is a lot— but i did read a bunch of different analyses on it to sorta grasp the concept 😞🤚. 🥀