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My parents were the first to teach me to see myself as ‘less than.’
Not in so many words, of course, and not explicitly. If asked, I know for a fact they will deny this reality to their dying breath. And maybe an argument could be made that I was (and still am) reaching, where this is concerned. Maybe I am, and all of their gaslighting when I try to explain this to them is actually true. Maybe I’m the crazy one. But I’m asking all of you to indulge me anyway, because what if—
What if I’m not?
My earliest memories as a kid go beyond being taught basic manners and respect. As I’ve grown older and spent more and more time thinking about stuff like this, trying to dig out the why behind some of the mindsets I’ve adopted through the years, I’ve learned that for them, it was less about respect and more about complete, unquestioning compliance with their will. Of course, I can recognize the wisdom in that, depending on the circumstances. If a kid is rushing, full-speed at danger, you want them to listen and stop when you tell them, and you can’t always afford the time it will take to delve into an explanation as to why that stop is necessary in the first place before they comply.
I’m not talking about that type of situation, though. Rather, I’m talking about any act. Any conversation. Any opinion I had, from a very young age, where I differed from them, and they retaliated, despite how my perceived “deviance” truly would have had little to no bearing on my continuing health, or safety.
If it didn’t match up, 100%, with their own thoughts and expectations, I had best change my behaviors/actions immediately, or risk severe consequences.
I can remember coming home from church one Sunday, after some vague transgression, and being screamed at, at 5 years old. “Who the hell are you, and what have you done with my daughter?” I can still see my mother, kicking her shoes off in the hallway, in my general direction, and me, ducking out of the way of the flying projectiles as she was storming up the stairs to leave me with my screaming father. Whatever I’d done, it clearly failed to live up to who they thought I should be. How they thought I should represent them. And I was going to pay the price.
Sure, this did teach me to toe the line. To behave. To be the girl who was “far more mature than her age, a genuine pleasure to have in class.” And maybe that’s not always a bad thing. I did learn how to show respect, and how to treat people—all people—as human, and I value that more than anything. I never wanted to be cruel. But what it also taught was that anything I wanted, or needed, or thought? It always had to fall underneath the desires of others, or there would be a punishment.
And that punishment did not always fit the crime.
Fast forward to my first friendship. A girl who was not raised like I was, she was confident in herself, even in kindergarten. Sure of her place in the world, and her worthiness of love. That confidence astounded me, and intimidated me, and when she tested the boundaries between the two of us, however tiny they might have been at the time, given our age, I immediately fawned. Capitulated. Whatever she wanted, she got, without a fight, and whether on purpose or not, she grew used to that, and continued on. How could she know to do any different, when I never once acted like I minded at all?
Still, it reinforced how I thought my life was supposed to be. I didn’t recognize it as such at the time, of course, but the people-pleasing tendencies were already firmly in place. As I grew, and found other friendships, or at least what I imagined were other friendships, the same sort of patterns emerged.
Confident, and potentially domineering alpha friend?
Check.
Me, giving in to their every whim, to keep them as a friend because I was terrified of being alone? Because being alone, somehow, would mean that I was even more inferior than I already felt myself to be while sometimes being blatantly and openly disrespected and mistreated, and I sure as hell couldn’t afford that?
Double check.
And then, enter the time when most of the girls my age were finding their first boyfriend, and I was still, predictably, single.
It added an entirely new layer to the inferiority complex. Not only with the obvious “something must be wrong with me, since no one ever shows interest” side of things, but with the “my friend canceled plans at the last minute because her boyfriend wanted to do something instead” angle as well. I often asked myself why would anyone want to spend time with someone like me, voluntarily, when they had something else better to do? Someone else better at their side.
And again, I said nothing, because only having a part-time friend was still better than no friends at all.
By the time I reached high school, I can’t honestly say if pure chance kept me finding these so-called friendships, or if I was somehow unconsciously seeking them out by this point, because they were all I felt I deserved, but it created an interesting situation at home, as well. (And by interesting, I mean…not in a good way). My parents were flabbergasted as to why I put up with this treatment. They would spew vitriol my way about my “wrongness” for choosing these allegedly terrible people to spend my time with, and demand that I “stand up for myself” as though it was as easy as flipping on a switch. As if they hadn’t created this perfect, meek little people-pleasing mess with their own hands, words, and actions.
I was being criticized at home, and at times openly bullied by these ‘friends’ at school, so there wasn’t a second of escape from it, at all, and when I dared to inadvertently take out my frustration at the entire situation on—you guessed it, my parents—we returned to the “consequences” stage as easy as breathing. Punishment was far more of a routine in that house than praise ever was, and how could it be any other way? How could it, when the things I was praised for—grades, performances in band and dance—became what was expected of me, instead of something to be celebrated (and you might have already guessed, any transgression here was punished as well).
It was just a matter of what that punishment would be. Spankings and groundings turned into guilt trips, facial slapping, and screaming matches almost overnight. And so, the cycle of drilling into my head that I was to be meek and subservient at all times continued, even if those specific words were never once spoken out loud.
So why am I rambling about this at all? Honestly? It’s not because I’m against discipline, or boundaries, or making sure that, if you’re out there, raising a child, you’re helping to develop someone who will treat others with respect and kindness, and compassion as well.
Rather, it’s because in the process of training and developing young minds, stressing the importance of obedience when necessary, and so much more, it is imperative that there is some sort of balance. That compliance when needed is still achieved (particularly as it pertains to the health and safety of the child and those around them), but that it is not emphasized at the expense of the child developing any autonomy and confidence in their own right. Demanding that your child become a mirror image of you, a puppet on your strings to do with as you will because you’ve drilled into them early to never question you?
That is just a one-way ticket to a lot of pain and heartache for years to come. At best it will create a shell of a person with no real self of their own. No experiences and feelings that didn’t come about because of someone else’s orchestrations, and at worst?
At the worst, it will create a constant internal voice in your child that tells them they have no right to their own thoughts and feelings. That anything that doesn’t match what someone else tells them to be, think, or feel, is inherently wrong, and that they are somehow at fault, and horrible people for it. It will teach them to quiet that part of themselves that is in any way ‘different’ because being different is unacceptable to the two people who were meant to show them the meaning of unconditional love.
And lastly, it will teach them that they were put on this earth for the sole purpose of belonging beneath the weight of someone else’s boot.
#text post#apparently i'm in “process stuff and things” mode tonight#pigeon ramblings#sorry for the longish post#don't mind me just needed to get it all down somewhere before it imploded in my brain#childhood#people pleaser#inferiority complex#fear of rejection
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i don't like the growing opinion that people are being 'too hard' on deku for his failing to save shigaraki.
i've seen quite a few people complaining that a lot of the bnha-critical crowd are being too mean to deku for getting tomura killed, arguing that it isn't really his fault, and that hes a 16 year old child soldier who's been failed by almost every adult in his life, why should we be putting all of this on his shoulders? hes just a kid after all?
and the truth is, they're right. deku IS a 16 year old boy whos had the fate of the world thrust on his shoulders. but the story itself just plainly refuses to acknowledge this.
the narrative doesn't acknowledge how fucked up having a school that trains literal children how to be combo cop-celebrities is. it only tentatively acknowledges the fact that a universe having combo cop-celebrities is fucked up, and even then the only people who ever point this out are antagonists, who are portrayed and treated in-universe as untrustworthy. the narrative doesn't care how fucked up dekus circumstances are. the narrative treats deku like hes a fucking messiah here to touch the hearts of the evil depressed villains with his magical empathetic heart of gold before they get blown up or just sent to fucking superhell for daring to challenge the status quote.
deku isn't a person. he's barely even a fucking character at this point. he's a plot device, and a mouth piece for the objectively shitty themes bnha is trying to spout. the themes that tell you that if you're mistreated by society and want to do something about it, you're a villain. that disrupting the status quote and refusing to repent to some random teenage boy spouting empty platitudes at you means you deserve to get sent to fucking superhell. the themes that portray people fighting for civil change as mass murdering supervillains. the themes that look the audience dead in the eye and can call deku the greatest hero to ever live.
deku, who barely spared a second thought to lady nagant telling him the truth about the hero commission. who spouts meaningless platitudes about heroism and morality at nagant, and aoyama, and toga and shigaraki, when even the thought that he should question the world around him comes up. who's constantly talked about as this truly kind, empathetic person, but hasn't spared an empathetic thought to literally anyone who is classified as a villain. who listened to every authority figure around him except the ones who asked him to question his worldview. who saw la bravas tears, shigarakis various breakdowns, himikos plead for understanding, chisakis catatonic state, lady nagants truth, and barley batted a fucking eye. deku, who killed tomura shigaraki.
people don't criticize deku for failing shigaraki because they just hate deku. people criticize deku because of what he represents. because hes a mouthpiece for the atrocious morals and themes of this ideologically rotten manga. because any character he had was chopped up to bits in favor of the incomplete husk we have now. people criticize deku because hes the main character of my hero academia. theres nothing more damning then that.
#my post#bnha#bnha critical#izuku midoriya#midoriya izuku#sorry if this sounds really angry. i mean i am very angry at bnha for being such a nothing burger of empty platitudes and wasted potential#but like. that was extremely predictable#bnha wanted to be more than it was willing to put effort into being and so now its just. worthless#so this is just kinda a vent on all my angry feelings abt dekus failure as a character and a protagonist#tomura shigaraki#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#mha critical#my hero acedamia critical#boku no hero acedamia critical#deku#bnha meta#i mean techinally#mha#mha meta#bnha manga spoilers#bnha manga#long post#well longish
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more info on version releases here
#bearer of the curse#polls#minecraft#I wanted to put something like pre 1.8 update and post 1.8 update butsince it was kind of split between beta and the official java release-#-I just left it who cares. I DO#but whatever#sorry to the pocket crafters also I have no idea if there are complexities to that#I love information sorry for longish poll
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Andy Murray + posts from my drafts
#tennis#andy murray#tennisedit#Sorry apparently im really into sharing my drafts via memes atm#i am living in a state of denial xoxo#posts from the drafts#longish post
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love how antis love to call ppl ‘porn addicts’ as an insult even though
1. porn addiction as a concept has been debunked as porn is not in and of itself addictive and people who considered themselves porn addicts actually consumed similar amounts to non addicts, they just felt shame about it where the non addicts didn’t
2. if porn addiction WAS real, then it would be, yknow, an addiction. the mental illness that holds no inherent moral value. like i thought we were past the point of thinking that the simple act of being an addict is a moral failing.
3. they call people ‘porn addicts’ in response to people who post exclusively about nsfw on their nsfw accounts. like they don’t exist outside of one specific account. this just in if you post exclusively about fandom on your fandom blog than you are a fandom addict.
#sorry if this is incoherent i have no idea how legible my longish posts are#proship#pro ship#proshipping#pro shipping#proshipper#pro shipper#anti anti
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OH GOODNESS I JUST LOOKED AT THE TIME AND IT DAWNED ON ME THAT I'VE BEEN WORKIN ON THIS FOR 5 HOURS
Never again am i preparing for Fakeman Friday by drawing this thing on Whiteboard fox.
I did try something different though (it's just that I made his bow bigger bc he NEEDS a huge bow and i tried to somewhat mimic the way his eyes were drawn in clh compared to giving him the usual 'Rayman 3' style)
#rayman#captain laserhawk#digital art#fakeman#IM SOOO SORRY ABOUT THE LONGISH RANT OMG OMG OMG#i will post other doodles i cooked up here soon :3#the PAIN this drawing put me through was impeccable#every time i draw fakeman his bow grows slightly bigger
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as much as I adore the ship and am absolutely obsessed with it, nah I don’t think of should have been/be canon.
Personally, in terms of speaking “canon”, I just don’t like Nancy and Steve together—they give me the ick. Maybe that’s why I originally latched onto Steddie bc it was new, gay, and practically and au.
It just doesn’t seem possible for Steddie to be canon bc a lot of the chemistry between the two (as far as I know) is made by the phenomenal writers in the fandom. I think this ship is one of those amazing and situational ships that often don’t make sense/have low chances of being canon, but are a testament to the powers of fanfiction. It is because so many people are out there, writing their fic ideas for the sake of making someone on the other side of the screen giggle and kick their feet, that this ship has become so powerful and so loved.
Are there really Steddie shippers that think it should have been/be canon? I only ship it because I like making my Barbies kiss
#Sorry for the longish post#I just love analyzing characters#Fr I made a PowerPoint abt my special interest of “Color-Coded Characters”#steddie#steddie fic#steve x eddie
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You Will Rot
I adore this entire scene and their entire exchange and there are plenty of other posts out there on it but I’ve never come across the points I wanted to make hence why I'm writing this. Specifically on the implications of exactly what rots since that latched into my brain and would not let me go.
As always: this is only my interpretation of canon, there is no one true analysis to take as gospel. In fact please interact with your thoughts if you have any! I enjoy talking to other people about this sort of thing, fandom is all about discussion after all!
My stance on this line is one of nuance. I tend to think Sephiroth chose the worst words he could think of without fully considering the full implications. He said the thing he knew that would hurt Genesis the most after the entire conversation beforehand.
What does it mean to be told to rot? Or even so told you will rot.
In the FF7 universe, most explicitly displayed in CC, bodies dissolve. Corpses, both monster and human, are depicted as dissolving to return to the Lifestream. This is re-confirmed in the remake.
Rot is not a term for humans, it’s not a cultural concept the same way it is for us in the real world. To decay and decompose are not processes that sentient beings undergo.
Rot is something for objects- things that live but aren’t alive enough or connected enough quote-un-quote to return to the Lifestream in the same dramatic manner. Rot is for things like food and flowers and things that are below the level of humans or animals or anything with general sentience.
Sephiroth is telling Genesis here, he is not just a monster: he is insignificant. He is telling Genesis that he is not enough of a sentient being to return to the Lifestream and he’ll continue falling apart in real time just like a piece of fruit left forgotten and rotting on the kitchen counter. He is telling Genesis that at the end of the day he’s already dead in every way that matters and is no longer a person. Sephiroth is telling Genesis that he will have no mercy given to him at the end of the day: he will rot and waste like an object lacking sentience and then he will be left there.
Sephiroth is digging into Genesis’s own deepest insecurities here. Genesis fears not just being irrelevant but being rendered a non-entity, to be kept or out of control. Genesis has defined his entire life as a journey to be someone to be enough to be someone worthy of love and praise and being seen. Objects aren’t people, and Genesis is an object to Sephiroth with that statement.
The only person who could help him no longer considers him a person- nor a thing with sentience.
Obviously this is all over analyzing Sephiroth’s dialogue. This line was said with calculation, yes, but it was also somewhat reflexive. Sephiroth is under a lot of stress in this scene and Genesis has been slinging everything he never wanted to be told at him in a single conversation. Genesis then has the audacity to try to act as if he did something good. While Sephiroth’s world is collapsing around him and his other defected friend acts like he did him a favor. Sephiroth is angry, who wouldn’t be angry. Sephiroth thought the world of Genesis prior to his defection, he thought the world of both of them and those illusions have been crashing down around him.
So he uses Genesis’s own grief over his former friend’s tattered life that manifests as self deprecation and self dehumanization against him. He confirms the de-humanizing rhetoric that Genesis has been attaching to his own existence. Sephiroth in his pain and anger pushes past the fears that Genesis has been externalizing to what he knows Genesis is truly afraid of.
If Genesis considers himself a monster than by the standards of the person Sephiroth thought he knew he is already living out his worst fears. He is nothing, he is nothing without his mind. If Genesis wants to be what he once considered a non-entity: wants to wallow in the rot and non-personhood so much then he can.
Sephiroth turns his back on, in his mind, the moving corpse of the long dead Genesis Rhapsodos and walks away.
You will Rot You are Nothing
There is also something to be said here for the Kanji used in the original!
I’m not touching on this as much as I would have liked to but it would be criminal if I didn’t at least pull out a Kanji dictionary.
I pulled Sephiroth’s line from here; warning the website is not in English at all but easy enough to navigate via context/knowledge of story events and the characters' Japanese names.
Sephiroth’s line is: 朽ち果てろ kuchihatero
This is translated in the official English release as “You will rot” and in a pre-US release fan translation from May of 2007 roughly the same way as “Go decay”
朽 Decay; Rot; Remain in Seclusion
果 Fruit; Reward; carry out; achieve; complete; end; finish; succeed
[1][2] [3 specifically for 朽][4 specifically for 果]
Thanks for reading!
#sephiroth#ff7#ffvii#crisis core#genesis rhapsodos#you will rot#nibelheim incident#rivkae writes#some of my thoughts on the nature of decomposition in ff7#i successfully kept the length under 1k I'm proud of myself#apologies for the longish post anyway#Sorry this took so long to get out for being fairly casual- my spoons just kept getting away from me#riv’s lil rants
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; eating isn't difficult except for when you're suddenly 11 and sitting at the table trying not to cry because the food in your mouth has the most horrible texture, the lights are horribly loud and everyone's chewing is horribly painful and you feel so bad because you never eat full meals and you feel so guilty, someone cooked this for you and you think it's disgusting ?? and your throat constricts weirdly and swallowing is hard but you don't want to say that because you're already weird and cause so much stress for others, adding to that list won't help anyone so you won't tell anyone about this until you're 14 and keep choking on your food because it's gotten worse recently and a doctor asks about it and your mother accuses you and yells asking why you never mentioned this but this is the exact reason why. but you won't tell anyone because you don't want to be any weirder and more difficult, you're already a burden as is. from the day you were born from now on everyone has made it very clear you're strange. but it's okay because eating isn't difficult
#text post#stateventers#tw vent#cw vent#disabled#disability#vent#chronic illness#cw food#tw food#autistic#autism#actually autistic#sensory overload#sensory issues#actually disabled#disabled stories#- ⭐🦊#sorry this was brought on by something and it js escalated SO UH.#longish post#physical disability#ask to tag#ask to tw#self esteem issues#confidence issues#cw choking#tw choking#disordered eating cw#kinda#???
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God maybe I'm just not seeing the majority or smthing but why am I only seeing people like Kaiser and ness' relationship MORE after the Kaiser baclstory chapters.
Like. I've ONLY seen people go "oh I hope ness NEVER leaves Kaiser 🥺🥺🥺 he NEEDS HIM"
Like. Did yall skip over the part where he EXPLICITLY learned psychology EXPLIXITY TO MANIPUALTE SOMEONE.
This manipulation isn't a natural outcome of his abusive childhood. He sought it OUT. His backstory DOES NOT excuse his behavior towards Ness. it EXPLAINS it yes, but that DOES NOT make it okay still.
Even of we take away the fact that he learned how to manipulate people on purpose, I STILL wouldn't say I want them to stay a a pair forever, bc if you ACTUALLY cared about Kaiser, you should want him to get better. To heal. And he CANNOT do that with his dynamic woth Ness. Ness is too malleable, hes too weak specifically for Kaiser in a way that Kaiser will not be able to change for the better, to get "redeemed" with Ness still here, acting as he normally does.
This is because Kaiser, whether consciously or subconsciously, is getting a sense of safety from the control he has over Ness. And he will not, can not give up that safety just to what? Have Ness be happier? To be a "better person"? We've already seen that he doesn't think he's a good person(he's cprrect) and doesn't care to et better because he fundamentally doesn't think he CAN be better. And his relationship with Ness(treating him bad) only emphasizes that thought process.
Yea no so yea I really want the duo to break apart for the good of the both of them, and if you cared about either of them you would too.
#blue lock#michael kaiser#alexis ness#bllk#bllk kaiser#bllk ness#yea no im not sorry#longish post#blue lock rant
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@bellaphomet3 is right. As much as I'd love someone younger and further to the left than Biden, it's either he or Trump who will be in the Oval Office this time next year. Biden is far from perfect, but I would argue that he is the best president we've had in generations (granted, the bar is not especially high) and that he's the best option we have right now both for Palestine and for the United States.
Something important to note about Biden on Palestine is that he can be pushed. At the State of the Union, he called for a six-week ceasefire, and was caught on a hot mic saying he and Netanyahu need to have a "come to Jesus" meeting. Meanwhile Trump has called on Israel to "finish the job" and literally has an Israeli settlement named after him.
(I cannot stress enough that Biden's current stance is not by any means perfect, and ideally would be calling for a permanent ceasefire, but the fact remains that he, unlike his opponent, is willing and able to listen to angry constituents.)
Another thing we need to be thinking about this election cycle is the Supreme Court. There are some old conservative justices who might die or retire in the coming years, which could give us a chance to pull the court a bit to the left. If Trump wins, I'm almost certain they would retire willingly so Trump can replace them with young conservative justices, locking the court into a conservative supermajority for decades. Considering what they did to Roe, plus the abortion pill case they're hearing this week, I'd rather not live in that timeline.
If you want third parties to win, you gotta start on smaller scales. Not to say smaller scales are less important; on the contrary, state and local elections are just as, if not more important, than federal elections. You gotta vote down ballot, and advocate for ranked choice voting, which not only weakens the two party system, but severely fucks over conservatives (which they aren't happy about, I believe Alaska Republicans are currently trying to repeal the recently-enacted ranked choice voting laws over there). To be frank, if Trump wins in November, then even if there is an election in 2028, there'll be a lot more GOP fuckery involved.
TL;DR: the system sucks, but we won't have any real opportunity to make it better under Trump. Please vote Biden if you're an American of voting age, and vote in local elections too!
Nessie, what are your thoughts on Joe Biden VS Donald Trump, as well as the 2024 election as a whole?
I’ve said this a thousand times before, but choosing between Biden and Trump is like choosing whether to microwave a baby or bake it in the oven. I voted for Biden the first time but only because the alternative was Donald fucking Trump. I was told he was “the lesser of two evils” and I’m sure he probably still is, but I can’t excuse his involvement in the Palestinian genocide so I won’t be voting for him a second time. The two party system has failed us yet again, which is why I’m voting socialist in this election instead. I know Claudia and Karina won’t win but I simply refuse to vote for either major candidate, and this way we can hopefully help to normalize voting 3rd party so that one day a 3rd party candidate might have a legitimate chance of winning a major election.
We’ve been alternating between microwaving babies and baking them in the oven for hundreds of years. Everyone thinks that “oh, maybe the microwave won’t kill the baby this time,” and to be fair, sometimes it doesn’t, but they all still seem to think that we need to pick one or the other because that’s the way we’ve always done it. Nobody’s listening to the few people standing in the corner who are suggesting maybe we SHOULDN’T still be cooking the baby or even have been cooking it in the first place, as was intended by the baby’s creators. Literally all it takes is enough people realizing this, and eventually we can stop cooking babies altogether (yes, I know that in reality some of them are basically advocating for deep frying the baby but ignore them, I’m talking about the ones who don’t want to cook it at all).
Allow me to frame it another way: when you get shot, putting pressure on the wound is the best thing to do in that moment, but you can only put pressure on it for so long. You’ll live longer by packing the wound with gauze than if you did nothing, but it’s a very stressful and strained existence. However, if you don’t do anything about it you’ll still bleed out, just more slowly.
On the other hand, you can try to remove the bullet so that you can stitch up the wound. You’ll bleed a lot more in that moment and it’s way harder to stitch up a wound than it is keep changing the bandage, but ultimately you’ll heal. You’re going to have to do it eventually, so you might as well do it before you lose even more blood and before things get even worse. It’s not the quicker or easier option by any means, but it’s the one that leads to the best possible outcome.
#sorry for the longish post#i really gotta update my pinned sometime#politics#us politics#united states#palestine#israel#gaza#joe biden#donald trump#vote#voting matters#vote blue
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often when i'm watching football-related videos or reading newspaper articles from the 90s i think to myself, damn i wish social media existed so that i could understand the reaction that the general audience had to these events. and then i realised that social media did (kind of) exist! but in the form of usenet newsgroups.
early internet users would discuss soccer results and news on groups like rec.sport.soccer, es.rec.deportes, alt.sports.soccer.european or it.sport.calcio (and many more!).
(screenshots of newsreaders that were used to access usenet groups in the 80s and 90s)
thankfully we can still access usenet posts via google's archive, so it's fascinating to see the things people were discussing in the 90s.
for example: was marco van basten overrated? according to this user from 1993 (who would have loved reddit, probably) he was.
it's also pretty interesting to see people's reactions to defining soccer moments that we take for granted, such as baggio's penalty miss against brazil in 1994. most users were pretty understanding of baggio and felt sorry that he had to lose in such a tragic way.
there's also the usual hate posts directed at players (with some casual homophobia). here's one from a real madrid fan directed to luis enrique:
and of course, there are still endless debates about who the better players were between two footballers (eg gary lineker vs marco van basten), who the top 10 players of the decade were and who deserved to win what award at the end of the year.
i think it's kind of surprising how football discussions haven't really changed in the past couple of decades. people still argue about tactics, about players being better in the past, about coaches who allegedly know nothing and about annoying fans of rival teams. of course, in the past football fans still had zines, VHS tapes, magazines and newspapers with which they could engage in football content, whereas football content in the 2020s seems to have centralized onto social media. i wonder if those usenet users in the 90s knew that their form of communication would become the basis of sports discourse for the next thirty years.
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Wanted to try redrawing some older art and my 10 year old magical girl design was picked.
There are some things I prefer in the older version but dear lord at least I'm a bit better at ruffles!
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God tell me about it
My first therapist was a real piece of work
Didn’t know how to deal with SHIT, would openly talk about other patients problem (took phone calls during appointments and than told me the problem of the patient she got off the phone with) and would talk about how my problem would be fixed if I became christian
THAT SOUNDS AWFUL
Therapists who just yap about other patients should be outright ashamed and fired. The only time my current therapist has ever told me about someone was to tell me I’m not the only queer person she speaks to to help me feel less isolated in the rural Midwest.
A lot of Christians and Catholics don’t know shit about mental health. A family “friend” outright thinks it’s bogus and a principal when I was in elementary school and middle school thought I was faking shit. Same principle was apparently afraid of me because of my mental outbursts, I don’t know how adults can fear children they manhandle regularly. Neurotypical children get upset when manhandled, undiagnosed and undermedicated child me was having melt downs. I don’t like being touched without my permission to this very day.
You can skip my god talk if you want (My relationship with god is complicated. To hold any form of faith in the bastard I consider them an artist or writer that can’t interact with us in real meaningful way besides edits to the story or canvas. If god is an artist and/or writer then I kinda understand the madness of the world, you want an interesting story to tell. Doesn’t mean I have to like it.) god talk over
The rancid YouTube comments people keep thinking I’m the crazy one for saying we shouldn’t be calling anyone a serial killer unless they’re Ted bundy or some shit. Is bullying kids online for their mental health normal for them?! I’m going to just mute YouTube I think. Their argument is that killing animals is an early sign of becoming a serial killer. And I wasn’t really saying it wasn’t, I was saying we shouldn’t be calling mentally ill people serial killers in the making. We shouldn’t be cyber bullying people. Especially children. But I also think their argument is bull shit and they watch too much true crime. Is farmer joes son who learned to kill chickens for the family young and learn to hunt deer going to be a serial killer?! Fuckers?!
Christians will find anyway possible to try and convert people. Going into psychology to convert mentally ill people is piece of shit behavior. And a lot of Christians (hey mom!) think queers/lgbt people online are converting their children. They are projecting I think!
#long post#longish post#ask answered#answered asks#anon ask#ask box#rant#vent#sorry for the rant#but a YouTube video and it’s comments royaly pissed me off#if I could punch people through my phone I would’ve done that#might need to take a break from those Reddit reading videos. or stop watching them completely#tw god mention#god mention
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England (mostly) Cricket + posts from my drafts (w/ alt text) f1 x x x x football x tennis x
#cricket#england cricket#im sorry i dont know how to tag anything#its like an obligation that i use my cringe drafts for every sport i watch#this is just for my own amusement tbf#longish post#but not really#posts from the drafts
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Hey I don’t wanna be an asshole I’m just so fucking noisy (I feel like that word should be spelt noisey) anyways where the og ummmmmmm porn mental health hate post- I can’t find them :(( my need to know everyone’s business is quacking
you're not an asshole dw, basically it started here and you can check the notes on that post for what went down in there, and here's a list of asks that followed the post if you want the whole thing:
here <- chill asks
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here <- "harassment" begins
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here <- stopped responding to them altogether despite them flooding my inbox and went back to only replying to chill asks
here <- last two follow up asks i answered on the topic before not caring anymore
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3 interactions i made with them, 2/3 being after i had blocked them, so i don't think i can be called a harasser for blocking people i found annoying lmfao this topic is old news and this list is more energy than i thought it was worth but enjoy
#im gonna nap now#sorry for the messy list but i cannot be bothered to put more work into this lol#spoilered because i hate scrolling through longish posts
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