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i don't like the growing opinion that people are being 'too hard' on deku for his failing to save shigaraki.
i've seen quite a few people complaining that a lot of the bnha-critical crowd are being too mean to deku for getting tomura killed, arguing that it isn't really his fault, and that hes a 16 year old child soldier who's been failed by almost every adult in his life, why should we be putting all of this on his shoulders? hes just a kid after all?
and the truth is, they're right. deku IS a 16 year old boy whos had the fate of the world thrust on his shoulders. but the story itself just plainly refuses to acknowledge this.
the narrative doesn't acknowledge how fucked up having a school that trains literal children how to be combo cop-celebrities is. it only tentatively acknowledges the fact that a universe having combo cop-celebrities is fucked up, and even then the only people who ever point this out are antagonists, who are portrayed and treated in-universe as untrustworthy. the narrative doesn't care how fucked up dekus circumstances are. the narrative treats deku like hes a fucking messiah here to touch the hearts of the evil depressed villains with his magical empathetic heart of gold before they get blown up or just sent to fucking superhell for daring to challenge the status quote.
deku isn't a person. he's barely even a fucking character at this point. he's a plot device, and a mouth piece for the objectively shitty themes bnha is trying to spout. the themes that tell you that if you're mistreated by society and want to do something about it, you're a villain. that disrupting the status quote and refusing to repent to some random teenage boy spouting empty platitudes at you means you deserve to get sent to fucking superhell. the themes that portray people fighting for civil change as mass murdering supervillains. the themes that look the audience dead in the eye and can call deku the greatest hero to ever live.
deku, who barely spared a second thought to lady nagant telling him the truth about the hero commission. who spouts meaningless platitudes about heroism and morality at nagant, and aoyama, and toga and shigaraki, when even the thought that he should question the world around him comes up. who's constantly talked about as this truly kind, empathetic person, but hasn't spared an empathetic thought to literally anyone who is classified as a villain. who listened to every authority figure around him except the ones who asked him to question his worldview. who saw la bravas tears, shigarakis various breakdowns, himikos plead for understanding, chisakis catatonic state, lady nagants truth, and barley batted a fucking eye. deku, who killed tomura shigaraki.
people don't criticize deku for failing shigaraki because they just hate deku. people criticize deku because of what he represents. because hes a mouthpiece for the atrocious morals and themes of this ideologically rotten manga. because any character he had was chopped up to bits in favor of the incomplete husk we have now. people criticize deku because hes the main character of my hero academia. theres nothing more damning then that.
#my post#bnha#bnha critical#izuku midoriya#midoriya izuku#sorry if this sounds really angry. i mean i am very angry at bnha for being such a nothing burger of empty platitudes and wasted potential#but like. that was extremely predictable#bnha wanted to be more than it was willing to put effort into being and so now its just. worthless#so this is just kinda a vent on all my angry feelings abt dekus failure as a character and a protagonist#tomura shigaraki#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#mha critical#my hero acedamia critical#boku no hero acedamia critical#deku#bnha meta#i mean techinally#mha#mha meta#bnha manga spoilers#bnha manga#long post#well longish
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glasses
the narrator cleans up some stuff and stanley comes by
#artswin#tsp narrator#tsp stanley#stanarrator#(yes he tied his hair back into a small pony)#(my hairs gotten that longish as well so i figured narry would too aksjhd)#tsp#tspud#the stanley parable#the stanley parable ultra deluxe#stanley parable#tspud narrator#tspud stanley#technically the narrator gave those glasses away to davey wreden according to kevan brighting iirc so theres one way to explain it akjshd#but eh this is just a silly
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one string is all that I need
#Hatsune Miku#VOCALOID#or rather#piapro characters#Hatsune Miku Single String Ver.#<- yep that's the fan module I made for fun last year#the thing is. only half a month to go until it's mid autumn. and every year I try to draw something for the occasion#I just. started early this year... for some reason......#well I mostly just wanna draw Her lmao. because the pokemon/miku voltage stuff is still being released and Im feelin the effect#and this year's magical miral design is so fuckign good.... thank u to miku artists. especially LAM and rella#as is always the case with this module the instrument/weapon (lol) she uses is a heavily stylized đàn bầu!#and I just realized while drawing this and looking at the ref sheets that I never detailed the pluck lmao#to be fair. usually its just like a piece of. anything#commonly bamboo or bone or plastic. shaped into a longish fingernail shape. its really the way u hold it that matters iirc#but yeah I spruced up the OG design for the instrument in this one lol. this is actually like my original vision I think#I really wanted to make that thing beast shaped. but I Just figured out how to properly stylize it when I designed the module#and! I did say this on stream but I am genuinely very proud of that design! that was genuinely big brain of me! so#future instrument variants will still probably base heavily on that general shape and principles lol. I'm playin in this space its MY muck#also I switched the number on her coat from 39 to 01 bc it's more on theme thats really it. nothin else to remark on there lol#and! once again based the dragon head on the lý dynasty dragon rather than later iterations. thats why the nose fin and no whiskers#and the metal nozzle is kinda supposed to call to mind a temple bell. not super sure i got that across well#but the rim design IS historical! I thiiiink early lê dynasty. just on ceramics instead of on bronze lmao#anyways thats it. I had fun colorin this one! kicked my ass a bit but I think I hashed it out mostly okay#have a good night lads! thank u mid autumn moon cakes for being bad to eat and sponsoring my late night drawin. and remember:#u only need one. but never say having more doesn't make it easier
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"Did you love medical school?" Avery asks Max.
"Medical school is the greatest longest hardest thing you're ever going to do," Max says, not answering the question, as he is already fucking famous for doing to get out of talking about himself.
(But this is not a post about Max. This time.)
The use of the word love here and the subtle framing of medical school as a relationship... Well.
My theory for Avery since the start has been that part of her arc is going to be growing to understand herself and realizing that becoming a doctor is not synonymous with fulfillment.
In episode 2, we got her saying,
"I've given up everything good. Everything that matters. Relationships, family. All for this job. And at the end of the day… I'm alone. Adrift. With nothing to show for it. I'm never going to be a doctor. This is all there is for me."
(This follows a pattern of a thing this show does with dialogue where characters say things that are more revealing to us as the audience than the characters themselves are conscious of, but that's a point for another post.)
Her bucket list included,
"I want to know myself."
because she doesn't know herself yet.
And now we got,
“I always thought that if I became a doctor things would start to make sense.”
I think Avery wants far more than just being a doctor... or, to be fully honest with you, I think they're conceivably going to go the route where she decides she doesn’t need to be a doctor because she’s found fulfillment in her life and work (and love!) in other ways anyway. I’m not talking “Rachel gives her life up for Ross” type of bullshit with two men instead of one, but rather tied into the explicit arc of how Avery wants to know and understand herself because she doesn't currently, and the "you're never alone" theme. That's part of what this pregnancy and future abortion plotline is setting up anyway: it's a brute force tool for self-reflection for her.
Does Avery really want to be a doctor, especially at the expense of all other parts of her desires? Or has that just always been The Plan and is she unconsciously thinking that earning that title will fix the holes she feels in herself and in her life?
If you think this sounds tricky to pull off as a story, you'd be correct – but hey, so is polyamory, and yet they're doing that. They’d have to write Avery's arc well enough that it doesn’t come across as reductive, but I really think they could land it because of the character setup they seem to be doing for her – and I've thought that for several weeks already. This week just has me locking in on that possibility more.
Now, going off the rails here from meta to straight up crack theorizing even though it's way too early to be predicting shit...
Weeks ago I was already wondering… what if the season ends with Avery going to leave to become a doctor and the guys decide to follow her? Maybe even in a big dramatic traditional “they run off the ship / to the airport” sort of romantic scene sort of way lmaaaooo. And as the boys abandon ship to follow her, at the same time, SHE turns around to go back to them without knowing they were following her! Idk. Who knows! Not me. Like I said, way too early to know anything.
Regardless though, the Hot Take™️? I would not at all be surprised if Avery changes her mind about wanting to become a doctor. And I think it could, if done correctly, be a weirdly bold move (in a show that's already planning to pull off A Big Bold Move).
#doctor odyssey#ODY3#avery morgan#11pm longish post of meta? which should be part of a big post about all 3 I had half drafted? oh well life comes at you fast
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Just opened FB and saw one of the most baffling “my good bitch, he would not say that” -inducing takes I think I’ve ever seen about a character: transphobic Luffy
Like… the guy who canonically thinks every one of the several GNC, ambiguously genderfluid/genderqueer people he’s met is a) cool as Hell, and b) a person to affectionately refer to with -chan if that feels like it would be affirming for whatever gender situation they’ve got going on? That guy? That Luffy????
For fuck’s sake, Bon Clay was introduced as far back as the first main plot arc after they get to where the plot happens, and like, ok, not everything Oda wrote 20 years ago has aged perfectly, but Bon-chan has *always* been presented as neither exclusively male nor female, and as brave, earnest, caring, and someone Luffy admires and respects.
And it’s even more confusing if they’re up to date on canon! Queens and queers are explicitly shown as the heart and soul of the Revolutionary Army! A trans woman gets outed to Luffy and his only reaction is “wait, I thought you were a girl?” followed immediately by “oh, ok” and nothing changing! He meets a trans man with big ol’ titties and is briefly confused, then shifts immediately to calling him by a pointedly masculine nickname and otherwise treating him exactly the same as any other guy, up to and including hanging out with him in the men’s hot spring with The Boys after that arc’s plot gets wrapped up! The only person who’s weird about his inclusion for the Hot Springs Episode with The Boys is Sanji, who has Chronic Can’t Be Normal About Boobs disorder!
Like I know transphobic trolls will do what they do and are probably being dumb as hell on purpose, whatever, but I’m genuinely not sure I could come up with a major character in any mainstream anime, shonen or otherwise, for whom being transphobic is more demonstrably, canonically, pointedly OOC???
(Which isn’t even touching on the points of “my boy is clearly SOME type of aromantic and/or asexual” or “seriously I think HIS gender is Future Pirate King; why would he care about gender, he can’t eat that OR fistfight it in the parking lot behind Arby’s at some ungodly hour”)
#one piece#one piece meta#tw transphobes#monkey d luffy#transphobes keep your dumbass takes off of that boy#HE WOULD NOT FUCKING SAY THAT#long post#well. longish
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#for the 3 people still interested#hyunjin#hwang hyunjin#stray kids#skz hyunjin#stray kids hyunjin#tw: eyestrain#tw: flashing lights#tw: flashing gif#there's always so much going on any given skz stage#i've kinda grown accustomed to him with short hair now#as long as the front is longish it still works well for him#its when they do it too short#and his head look disproportionately tiny#anyways#dude still got it#and by that i mean the Power over me
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Interesting 🤔
#will be looking to try on troj#her hunter harness is ok and the zero dc is pretty good#but im still looking for another longish option#i have the trekreg but not sold on it for how she normally moves. the custom she outgrew a bit#freemotion fit her well but she doesnt really need a full length
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I present to you, BtVS textpost memes, part 1:
AtS textpost memes
#i had too many buffy memes to fit in one post so expect a part 2 soon#not trying to join the xander debate. i have complicated and mixed feelings about him but this post fit the scene‚ okay?#buffy the vampire slayer#btvs#buffyverse#angel#rupert giles#anyanka#anya jenkins#faith lehane#xander harris#spike#buffy summers#original post#meme dump#btvs spoilers#long post#well. longish
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I’m interested. How do Apollo and Artemis’s desire to protect each other drive a wedge between them?
I'm glad you askeddd. Thank you for being my first anon ever btw. (@crowmakeska-boom idk if you are the anon but anon, whoever you are, sorry for the wait). This is probably not a very good meta cause it's mostly vibes, gut feelings and filling in the blanks with below the bare minimum of textual evidence but oh well.
First I'd like to talk about why I think Artemis and Apollo's relationship is kind of distant. They're a confusing duo. When you first meet them in the titan's curse it may seem they don't like each other much or atleast Artemis seems to not be paticularly fond of her brother. Calling him “irresponsible”, “lazy”, “big headed”. But reading between the lines reveals how much the two of them care for each other, especially on Apollo's part from all the illegal help he was dishing out to the questers.
But then when you read some more, their relationship just feels a tad too distant to completely take what they say as just banter. When we see them on Delos in Blood of Olympus the distance is literal. They're recycling banter that's getting old and you can tell that even if it had been lighthearted before, it’s definitely getting on both their nerves now (stolen from fsinger lmao). They’ve both been playing the part for a long time but it feels like they don’t have the closeness anymore to recognize they’re both just playing parts.
So what happened?
I think it's their need to protect each other that's causing this rift between them. From my point of view Artemis & Apollo are protecting each other from different things but Olympus is at the core of it for the both of them.
The twins have a very different experience of Olympus. Since her introduction Artemis seems pretty critical of Olympus. According to the hunters she's the only one who can get the ball rolling during solstice meetings and she's shown to not really act the Olympian way. Taking the sky off the shoulders of a mortal girl. Shrinking herself down to make the human heroes feel more comfortable and demanding they get rewarded.
It wouldn't be far fetched to assume that she's never fit in with Olympus and doesn't agree with most of the views of her family.
Then there's Apollo.
Who fits in so perfectly with the messed up inner workings of Olympus or so people think. He's perfected his mask over the years and no one is the wiser about the abuse he's gone through or even the fact that this isn't actually who he is.
To me, Artemis wants to protect Apollo from Olympus' true nature. In her head she's got every part of Olympus figured out and for the most part she has. Even if it's not something that works for her I think she would want to protect her younger brother from knowing what the kind of people he surrounds himself with are truly like.
I feel like Artemis would be conflicted on it for other reasons too because if Apollo is aware of the kind of people the Olympians are and he's alright with that, what kind of god is Apollo?
So she'd much rather think of him as stupid and irresponsible cause those atleast mean that it isn't he isn't a bad person. But I feel deep down she doesn't really believe completely that what she knows of her brother is correct.
But then she sees the way Zeus loves Apollo and cares for him and in her mind it's the right decision to let him live this way. He is safer now than they ever were as children.
Apollo on the other hand wants to conceal their father's true nature from Artemis. We know that he cares deeply about appearing fine on the surface because of how others would worry and who would worry more than his older sister.
Artemis and Apollo may be the protectors of youth but the first ever youth they protected were each other. It's the foundation of their relationship and caries on into the present day. Both of them feel a desperate need to protect each other.
I would go so far as to say that this is THE relationship they have with each other. The both of them never find comfort in each other, only protection. You can tell that comfort is not something they usually derive from each other from the way they're both completely blindsided by simple things like an "I love you" , a hug and just concern in general.
Comfort from each other is not a priority for them no matter how much they crave it. The twins purpose to each other is to protect.
So of course Apollo would never tell Artemis about the way Zeus hurts him.
I also think there's a little bit of denial on Artemis' part on just how abusive Zeus is. Cause Apollo is dropping hints. Even the way Artemis talks during Blood of Olympus makes it clear that she understands Zeus is gonna massacre the guy. She just doesn't want to believe it will be permanent.
And it's got a lot to do with the fact that she wants to protect him. Because if she acknowledges this isn't a situation Apollo is gonna come out from unscathed that means that she's incapable of protecting him. That means that she's failed to protect him before and cannot protect him again.
So she'd much rather pretend that Zeus is persuadable and not that bad. That it's Apollo's fault Zeus comes down so hard on him and if he were a little better and a bit more like her he could be safe.
And this would hurt Apollo because Artemis can pinpoint exactly what Zeus is like. But instead of comforting him she confirms for him that this is his fault. That if he could be better none of this would happen. Artemis helps prevent but never helps heal because helping her brother heal means he was in a position to be hurt in the first place.
All this mess and miscommunication and disbelief stemming from the fact that they love each other and never want to see each other hurt creates an impossible distance between them.
But there is light at the end of the tunnel. Slowly but surely they're trying to comfort/ seek comfort instead of just protect each other.
I wept on my sister’s shoulder. I felt like if I let go of Artemis, I would fall back into Chaos. Huge parts of my identity would shake loose, and I would never be able to find all the puzzle pieces. “Whoa, there.” She patted my back awkwardly. “Okay, little fella. You’re all right now. You made it.”
Apollo's trials sucked. But I'm glad it's given the twins the opportunity to bridge the gap between their relationship again.
#trials of apollo#toa apollo#pjo apollo#pjo artemis#asks#thank you for reading#toa analysis#toa meta#tentatively#this has probably been reiterated a thousand times since the first book came out#oh well#longish#should add quotations when I'm freee#nice Argument how bout you back it up with a source🔪
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Ridiculously hot guy was kinda flirting with me at the counter at work 🙈 something abt a guy in a leather jacket hoo
#well he was really hot and friendly + made small talk and complimented my tattoo#maybe he wasnt flirting and just had a naturally very sultry voice. idk#and yes he had longish hair. btw#its the little things that get u thru the workday
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them, but young (late night sketches)
(i make a DE comic)
#i believe in longish hair young kim#AND his 70s style glassess#young and beautiful#well fine jean's only got better with age#disco elysium#disco elysium fanart#my art#art#jean vicquemare#jean heron vicquemare#harry dubois#harry du bois#harrier du bois#kim kitsuragi
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Gari Gari, my good friend Gari. Can I please please get an H3 Mr. L? 👀
(send a mario character and an expression!)
hate this guy /j
#lakimusings#gari answers#gari draws#mutual chatter#hehe mario#ask game#YAYYY TY FOR ASKING MIMI#i’ve never drawn mr l before so got to think about how i want to portray him#a little paler than my luigi (i think he’s on another canvas) bc castle bleck has no sunlight but it’s not like he would go soak it up#too busy working on brobot 🙏🏽#i also think spm took some period of time. idk how long but luigi’s likely been missing for at least a month#whoever that guy is#eyes are a compromise on the silver deal a lot of people do. no shine bc brainwashed#piercings are bc i think luigi would get them if he wasn’t chicken and mr l is slightly less chicken/mimi is willing to do it#im not saying they healed well or anything. luigi probably took out the tongue one post spm#i have a feeling the helix is fake but who knows#hair is hair. my luigi has longish hair and it just gets longer during spm#mr l’s shit is probably greasy asf tho#ALSO i started typing this out and forgot i wanted to give him a stubble so stubble under the cut 😭#i’ve had to edit him too many times today
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Penumbra: Undoing
cw: illness, whump aftermath, death/war mentions
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They were locked in the blacksmith's woodshed; a cold, cramped room made smaller by the logs stacked along the walls. Once securely inside, one of the men loosened the bindings on Tansy's wrists; enough to grant a scrap of comfort, if not freedom of movement. Another fastened what looked like a bridle around Cerus's head, forcing the metal bit into his mouth and pulling the leather tight.
For the hundredth time, Tansy tried to pull at the party's sympathies.
"Sirs, please. I only wanted to—"
And for the hundredth time, they were ignored, this time rewarded not with a blow, but with the slamming of the woodshed door. As the footsteps outside retreated, Tansy tested the door, ignoring the throbbing of their bruised abdomen as they threw their weight against it.
It didn't give, not even a little, and they fell away from it with a wince. Their various injuries were scattered in such a way that while moving wasn't agonizing, anything they did caused some kind of pain. In their face, in their torso, in their knuckles, a flicker or a flare.
With an immediate exit out of the question, Tansy turned their attention to Cerus. They felt a twinge of relief as they watched the shallow rise and fall of his ribcage, and found themselves wondering once again why they'd done it.
Treating his wounds was one thing, but fighting for him? Hurting fellow villagers in the name of helping the damned Shadow King?
They pushed the prickly thought aside, scanning the cramped room until their eyes landed on a small woodaxe. In their hurry to lock the pair away, the search party hadn't bothered to clear the shed.
Tansy trudged over to where the axe lay, freeing their wrists, then carrying the blade over to where Cerus lay and cutting his bonds.
The man still seemed unconscious, though he was shivering uncontrollably, and after a brief moment's hesitation, Tansy sat against the wall and gently pulled Cerus into their arms, wrapping their cloak around his shuddering form and cradling him against their chest. It was likely they'd be in here for a while, and after all they'd already done, they weren't about to let him freeze to death.
Despite his fever-hot skin, Cerus leaned into them as if seeking warmth. His head lolled back onto their shoulder, eyelids fluttering as he uttered a soft groan. Shadow King or not, warmth was warmth, and Tansy made no effort to create a distance between them, instead setting half-numbed fingers to work on removing Cerus's makeshift muzzle.
They could break out of here. It would be fairly easy with the woodaxe handy, but what then? Would they spend the rest of their lives running? Would they even make it out of the village if they were dragging Cerus along? Abandoning him was no longer an option. They'd made their choice, however stupid, and they'd stick with it.
Still, there were better paths than further ruining their own life. They could wait for the Council to arrive, and explain the situation. They could claim it was a misunderstanding, and distance themselves from the Shadow King. Or maybe they could plead for mercy. For reason. Find a better fate for them both.
They'd managed to undo the first clasp on the bridle when there was a voice at the door, muffled and reedy and familiar.
"Tansy?"
They frowned. "Uncle?" Normally, Aldon would be out on the sea at this hour. Had the news already spread to him?
"So it's true."
They felt their heart sink at his tone, shock ringed with stark disbelief. Tansy wasn't particularly close with the old man, but he was the only family they had left.
"Why?" Aldon said, his voice quieting. "Why would you do such a thing?"
Tansy grimaced, fingers moving to the second clasp. All these whys. "If you'd seen him on the dock… if you could see him now, you wouldn't ask me that," they answered.
"Child—"
"He's suffered enough abuse, Uncle. I don't care who he is. I won't stand for it."
There was silence on the other side of the door, and for a moment they wondered if he'd left. Then,
"The men are saying you've allied yourself with him, Tansy," Aldon said, his tone sharpening. "Allied with the Shadow King. I'd thought them mistaken, but now—"
"Would you have me scorn a wounded man?" they cut him off, unable to keep the anger from their voice. "Leave him to die in the cold? I thought we were better than that. I thought we all were better than that."
Aldon sighed, and the door creaked, as if he were leaning on it. "Is there nothing I can say to sway you from this madness?"
Madness. There it was. Spoken insistence that Tansy really had lost all sense when they'd chosen to hold out their hand. "Nothing," they replied. For a moment, they were resolved to speak no more, to end the conversation there if it would only amount to more accusations, but thought better of it, remembering the healing herbs still tucked into their cloak.
"If you have any love for me… if blood means anything, will you bring me some hot water? And…" they swallowed, their head throbbing. "And some willow bark. For the pain."
"For him?"
"For us. Please, Uncle."
Another long silence, filled in with the slight creak of the woodshed walls and the short breaths of the Shadow King.
"I… I will. For your sake, not his."
And then the silence lingered. Tansy let out a sharp, frustrated sigh, and at last opened the final clasp, gently removing the leather from Cerus's tangled dark hair, and pulling the bit from his mouth. As they did, his body gave a little shudder. A reaction to the touch, they thought at first, but then it came again. And again, accompanied by a small gasp. Cerus was… was he crying?
Of all the things he'd done, from his insults to his wary questioning, this was the thing they'd expected the least. This was the thing they knew how to respond to the least. Even with friends in the battalion, most preferred to hide their tears. What were they to do with an enemy?
They opted for silence, shifting slightly beneath the man, hoping he couldn't sense their discomfort.
"I lost," Cerus said after what felt like forever.
"What?" they replied, wondering if the man was in the grip of a fevered dream.
"I l-lost the war," Cerus continued, his voice laced with a tremor. "The victor chooses the fate of the defeated, and the defeated accepts." The end of his sentence was choked out by a cough, but he pushed on. "I failed, and I'll reap the rewards of that failure. It's what is right."
"Is that what you think?" Tansy said.
"It's—" Another cough, punctuated by a whimper. "It's what I know."
Reaping the rewards. Was that why he seemed so numbed to the world? Had he accepted the Council's drawn-out death sentence, and consequently given up on life? They remembered how confused he'd been when they'd started cleaning his wounds, as if it was the last thing he'd expected to happen. Yet he'd gone with them without a fight, willing to bear whatever horrors a stranger decided to drown him in.
They didn't expect him to continue, but somehow were still unsurprised when he did.
"Th-thought it was a dream," Cerus said. "When I heard the shout to stop. I thought the fever had my mind, I thought, who would say that? Who would do that? Yet here you are. And I still don't know why."
Tansy opened their mouth, the same explanation they'd given a hundred times—to their uncle, to Cerus, and more than anyone else, to themselves—on their tongue, but the Shadow King spoke again before they had a chance.
"I know, I know, you don't want to see more suffering. Then look away. Or close your damned eyes." He let out a bitter laugh. "I lost. A-and I–gnh—I earned my fate."
"You think you deserve it then? All of…" they gestured aimlessly, "...this?"
He was quiet for a moment, and when he spoke again, his voice was even, devoid of the tearful quiver that had gripped it before, replaced with something hollow.
"Such a funny word," Cerus murmured. "Deserve. Who is to say what anyone deserves? I suppose the decision falls to whoever is in power. Yet seeing as it was these new powers who chose my fate… perhaps I do deserve this."
Before they'd won the war, before they'd watched the guards drag the Shadow King's broken body into the city square, Tansy might've agreed. A man who ruled with fear should be made to feel that fear himself, shouldn't he? Terror, pain, loss. All the things they'd wished on Cerus when their home burned, when they counted their battalion's casualties, when they raised their sword against an undead soldier.
But now that he'd tasted them all, Tansy felt no closure. They only felt tired. Putting Cerus through misery didn't make anything better. Fighting fire with fire only made more fire.
"What if you hadn't lost?" they asked. "What do you think those of us who rose against you are deserving of?"
"Death," Cerus said plainly. Despite the implications, Tansy felt no fear, nor anger, nor even indignation.
"And what would you have done?" they said.
"I would have the rebel leaders and generals executed," Cerus answered with little hesitation. "Leave their corpses hanging as a warning. Foot soldiers and lower ranks would choose to swear an oath of fealty, or follow their leaders into death." Something almost joyful had crept into his voice, and a sick sense of unease crawled into Tansy's gut in response. Cerus had reason to hate his former subjects, especially after the treatment he'd received from them, but that didn't make it any easier to hear him gleefully speak of murdering them. For a moment, they could remember their determination to see Cerus fall.
"I would double the patrols," Cerus continued. "Enforce a curfew. Set up wards to alert me of any future plots. But that would be all." His voice had grown quiet, the hint of joy swiftly fading. "The deaths of the traitors would be swift. I wouldn't—" his voice broke. "I-I wouldn't have…"
The moment passed. Not knowing what else to do, Tansy wrapped their arms around him, letting him clutch feebly at their shirtsleeves as his body shuddered with suppressed sobs. Another surprise. Even now, after all he'd endured, Cerus seemed opposed to torturing his enemies.
A soft knock came at the door, and Tansy looked up to see an earthenware flagon being passed through a gap in the boards that made up the wall. They gingerly removed themselves from behind Cerus to retrieve it. The water within was not hot, but it was warmer than the surrounding air, and they fished out the pouch of herbs, pinching some between their fingers and dropping it into the water to steep.
A finger's length of willow bark followed the flagon, and they took it with a murmured thanks.
"How long are they to keep us locked in here?" Tansy asked, once they'd repositioned themselves.
"The Council will be notified, but you will not walk free before their arrival," their uncle answered.
Would they be kept here in that time? Freezing in this tiny shed? "And when will they arrive?" they asked.
"With luck, they'll garner transport with a mage's circle and be here within a few days," Aldon replied. "But child, the village will not wait."
Dread curled in their stomach at his words. "Will not wait for what?"
The old man took an audible breath before continuing. "You are both to be punished," he said. "Flogged in the square. I tried to reason with them, but people are afraid. They want to show that the Shadow King, and… and any collaborators, are subdued."
Flogged? Tansy forced themself to take a deep breath, a futile effort to ease the curdling in their gut.
"Tansy?"
"I heard you, Uncle." They closed their eyes, resting the back of their head on the wall. "It's… it'll be alright."
"I will see if I can bring you a meal," Aldon said. "Please… I ask that you think on this in the meantime. How much are you willing to sacrifice for him?"
As the sound of their uncle's footsteps faded, Tansy placed the willow bark between their teeth, chewing anxiously. A public whipping would be both painful and humiliating for them, but for Cerus it may well be a death sentence. The bandages they'd wrapped around his torso the night before had already darkened with blood from the wounds that covered his back. The thought of layering more on top of those…
They couldn't let it happen. There was one thing they could do, one way to shield Cerus, but it wouldn't be pleasant for them.
A rueful smile crept across Tansy's face.
But what's one more sacrifice?
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white-knuckling being a functioning adult by reminding myself not to worry about the haircut until I've washed and restyled it myself
#it hasn't been this short in almost five years! and i loved it then but I've been wearing it in a longish shag for a few years now and#that was a good fit. pine affirming haircut#but! have been looking at shorter cuts lately and it's summer and i was tired of maintaining it at the length it had grown to#and it was getting sad at the ends so. a good time for 4 inches+ shrinkage to come off i guess#anyway hairblogging because I've been feeling really fundamentally unattractive lately and so i went and got a haircut I don't love about it#that was a sensible choice#i think my problem with this cut is that i worry it reads like I'm trying to make myself look like a Normal Guy (tm)#my hair does a lot of heavy lifting in terms of my general presentation and now i suppose i have to Try again to be perceived as I'd want#ah well. grows back don't it
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I don’t think enough people ( particularly, among those who critique the ending of the series with the diamonds ) realize that the conflict in steven universe is about toxic and complicated familial relationships, and how the people who care about you can hurt you deeply. Like once you think of it in this lens I feel like it becomes pretty obvious that a lot of the stuff with the diamonds is an allegory strongly representative of harmful but complex irl family relationships.
( example: white diamond is basically the matriarch of homeworld, and she’s visually depicted as this ethereal, larger than life character, lending to the effect of an untouchable parent—and her literally being able to control other gems and actively doing so when defied is a direct tell of just what kind of parental figure she is. She only loses that scary quality to her once faced with the fact she was wrong, and is thus forced to confront that there’s a multitude of ways in which she’s fucked up—she realizes that reparations need to be made, even if she doesn’t quite get it, and is effectively neutralized as a threat. )
( But her effects aren’t just forgotten either, as we see in the movie that Steven is uncomfortable around her and the other diamonds—they’re affectionate, but not quite in a way that meets emotional needs, and they’re clearly trying but it just rubs the wrong way—and while she’s actively working on herself so as to never hurt anyone again, you see the lasting effects in SUF pretty clearly )
I don’t know, it just makes me sad that a story with so much love and care put into it got a completely undeserved bad rep, and I do wonder if that could have been avoided if more people had realized this about SU
#steven universe#long post#well. Longish? But probably not super friendly to phone users so we’ll tag it#ravens ravings
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Okay okay so as someone in the aromantic spectrum, I absolutely hate the whole soulmates concept. But I just had a thought based on the idea and I kinda like it.
Okay so let’s say over two thousand years ago or something along those lines, symbols started to appear on every person’s wrist when they reached, idk let’s say 16. No one knew what they meant, or why they were there. Then, in some community, two people found they had the same wrist symbol. They grew close. They fell in love. And the townsfolk decided that’s what the symbols meant. They would guide you to your soulmate. Word of these lovers spread fast. It became fact. Of course, other groups of people were found to have their own meanings for the symbols, but their beliefs were quickly “fixed”. It became engrained into culture. Homophobia never really happened, because of course these people are allowed be together, they were literally made for each other. Finding your soulmate, the one with your matching symbol, was something on the minds of everyone. Sure, there were some cases where the people didn’t like each other, but of course they were simply confused. They were made to be together, and they would be together. In many countries, it became illegal to marry someone who isn’t your soulmate. In others, it became law that you had to marry your soulmate when you eventually found them. Because why not? You had to be together anyway. You were made to be together. Fast forward to modernish times (well probably closer to about 20 years ago). The internet is here. And, unsurprisingly, someone basically creates a dating app. You upload a picture of your symbol, and the program matches you to the person with the same one, assuming they’re on there. It became an instant hit. No more searching for them, hoping you’d bump into them at the shop or move in to a town they lived in; now you could find your soulmate at the click of a button. But there’s a hitch. Soon, the app found something interesting. No one was only getting matched with one person. There were always more than two people with the same symbol. People usually only found one person in real life because each symbol is rare, and you’re unlikely to have more than maybe two or three people with the same symbol in the same area. But with the app, the symbols were being shared everywhere, and although rate, they weren’t unique. And no, not because of polyamory, although I love that too. It’s simply because it’s all bullshit. The symbols don’t mean soulmates. They never did. One coincidence, and the world was hooked. But it isn’t true. The whole world’s concept of love isn’t true. And as you can imagine, that isn’t going to go down too well.
#west says#writing prompt#writing#world building#i don’t think i understand how people react to this stuff well enough to write this but i like the idea nonetheless#longish post
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