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My perfect thick idiot son, Calvin, who has never done anything wrong in his entire life except today when I let him climb my young redbud tree and he went to the highest branch and wedged himself in the crook of it and wouldn't budge and he's so big I was afraid that he might break the branch so I had to get a stepladder and get him down while the neighborhood jays that come by for peanuts whenever they see me in the yard freaked out and sat screaming on the fence to warn me that there's a snake very near me because I'm obviously too stupid to see it and clearly in mortal peril.

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if tumblr shuts down you can find me on tumblr. ill still be here. they cant make me leave

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smoking weed with my tits out hell yeah

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tes THDPSSSSPS 💜

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the character

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you're nEVER going to guess who's alive!!! (me). I dont think I've logged into this site for at least a full year my BAD gang I was in the TRENCHES

I'm readvertising here for 2025 as I was just in a pretty un-fun car crash and definitely do not have the money to cover it (as my insurance will not fix my car), so I'm offering up any commission!

I also take custom feline design commissions (for you warrior catters out there) and animatic/PMV commissions, which I can whip up an estimate for if you reach out to my at my e-mail: rileyclaw.art@gmail.com!

Reblogs or shared are super appreciated, thank you!

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misread a post pretty severely so I’m making it a reality, reblog if you and the person you’re reblogging from are absolute freaks

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what if you wore a shirt that featured a picture of you trying to claw your way out of the shirt with a horrid desperate expression and the text "THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME I'M TRAPPED IN THE SHIRT"

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I remember, years ago—back when I finally found the meds that worked for me, and started to come of of the miserable haze I’d been in dealing with untreated OCD—googling something to the effect of if it was possible for simply having OCD to have lasting traumatic effects. No, being the answer I received, from medical web sources.

I strongly recall that answer not sitting well with me. I recall feeling hurt, and unsure what that meant for the feelings I was experiencing.

Flash forward through years of continued medication and therapy, with my OCD symptoms so rarely making any sort of appearance that sometimes I actually forget it’s an applicable diagnosis to me—and I’ve suddenly had a realization that now I’m calling bullshit on that “no”.

Because I have spent years working through the way OCD made me feel, the way it was compounding on my existing insecurities and fears so badly I could hardly function. One of the forms of OCD I struggled with was social, with me experiencing excessive intrusive thoughts concerning how one day I was going to be all alone because it had convinced me everyone was only pretending to give a damn. Despite now knowing this to have always been a false conception, it remains a very strong insecurity of mine. Sometimes, the right emotional trigger makes it all come back bad enough that I end up numb and distant for a bit.

There are other ways I’ve been impacted that I’m realizing, and gonna have to start unpacking, but as I consider the areas I still feel most deeply wounded by how much OCD spiraled my thought and feelings out of control—such as the way my ability to trust the people I care about with certain things is just shot, no matter how much I try to logic my through—and I’m gonna argue that yeah, simply having OCD can have long lasting traumatic effects.

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FLOW

Congrats to the team , it was so very much deserved!

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STRAUME / FLOW (2024) — dr. Gints Zilbadolis

for @madworld-bbs

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Congrats #flow!

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STRAUME / FLOW (2024) — dr. Gints Zilbadolis

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due to inflation you must answer my riddles five

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