#sorry for that venting session

[hightidejellyfish]

I hate feeling like I have to fix everyone else’s problems before I fix my own. I hate feeling selfish for wanting attention when I post something and obsessively refresh it to see if I get any. I understand that everyone wants attention to some extent but why do I feel guilty when I want some? Is it so wrong to ask if I can talk about something we both like? I hate worrying if I come across as annoying because I see a stranger with problems and I try to go out of my way to help when they probably don’t want it. I don’t want to feel like I’m helping because it makes me feel better, when I know I’m doing it so I can ignore helping myself. Especially when it’s someone I don’t know and/or barely know becuase it makes me look like some kind of lurker/stalker. I should be trying to help myself but I want to help others because I want to see others happy. Maybe if they’re happy then I can be happy too.

[minimal-4me]

My back had been getting worse and worse . My next appointment is next week friday.. and i've been waiting 2 weeks for further treatment :( How am I supposed to handle it stinging all the time ?

The more I exist , the more it hurts .

There's never been a time of no pain . And I can't do or prove anything . I'll just have to wait and wait . I guess if I can't be a heavy-duty mechanic , an advanced physics professor is ideal, too .

[austinslounge]

⚠️ WARNING: Vent Coming Through

I've been trying not to say too much about this topic just to keep the peace, but I'm sorry, but I have to say something.

I am sick and tired of people trying to make excuses for Kaia's strange flirtatious behavior on the red carpet with her costar Corey Michael Smith, or that weird recent DM sighting of Kaia hanging all over Marcello Hernandez.

Austin has never been hanging all over a woman out to dinner like that, and while he's flirty by nature, he has always treated his female costars with nothing but respect. Never have we ever seen Austin touching his female costars on the red carpet, claiming: "I just can't stop touching her!" 🙄

Nor does he pose pressing the flesh to his female costars. 😒

Those who are trying to justify Kaia's recent weird (and disrespectful I might add) behavior by trying to say "well, Austin does the same thing!" are disgusting, and definitely aren't Austin's real fans.

Anyone who can't tell the difference between Austin's behavior and Kaia's behavior is obviously biased and operating on a double standard.

Keep in mind, during her relationship with Austin, this is a woman who:

Is queer and kisses her female friends on the lips

Is spotted "making out" with other guys in the club

Has been spotted "hanging all over" a male SNL cast member

Has been seen rubbing all up on the chest and body of her SNL movie costar

Posted the comment "best kisser" on her friend's IG post that pictured the two of them kissing on the lips with her leg straddling her friend's hip

I'm sorry, but these are all just signs of disrespect imo. But if Austin is perfectly fine with it, then fine! Shows how much he really cares about her I guess lol 😆

One day, it would just be nice to see Austin with a more mature woman who doesn't behave like this. 🥴

[zoomingupthaathill]

I do not wish this on anyone, it's absolutely awful. Unfortunately one of my family members passed away unexpectedly last week. I am not sure if that means i'm going to disappear for awhile, or if i'll be here more because I need the distraction. I can barely form a coherent thought tbh..

I know a few of you have reached out and just sent random discord messages , I promise i'm not ignoring you, I just haven't really been around much.

[rapidhighway]

[zoomclown]

i am such an avatar of the buried because I require hugs and safety and sleep and weight on me while I sleep but also I am deeply afraid of being crushed underground, being poor, and intimacy. Like my biggest nightmare is what if I get buried alive in a coffin. Like I will only rent because I'm terrified of the idea of buying a house and not being able to up and leave on a whim, I'm afraid of any job that I anticipate needing to commit to for more than a year.

Like I will give you the tightest, best hug of your life but you want me to let you in emotionally? You want me to form a relationship with you that doesn't allow me to just ghost you whenever I feel like it isn't no consequences? Ew get away from me.

[cheesuschristman]

i just neeeeeed them to know :(

[juliandrws]

“I don’t understand why people ship Ava and Janine, they’re like sist—”

[berrycake99]

On Valentino's morals:

This ain't nothing new, but I see a lot of people talk shit about anyone liking Valentino. For the longest the "I just like his design!" was probably a cover for fans to escape being called the most horrible names and getting death threats.

Most recently I saw a person commenting that it's ok to like his design "as long as you don't make any fanart or endorse his character in any way".

Listen to me, YOU ARE ALLOWED TO LIKE A BAD CHARACTER. He is a VILLAIN, and amazingly written one too. It's really hard to make good antagonists because as an author, you have a tendency to make your characters at least somewhat likable and excusable. Which is why in lots of shows we have the ''he had a very traumatic past/good reason to do it actually!" trope. People see someone being horrible and they want at least something to wrap their head around, to understand why someone would do that.

Also, Valentino is a vital character for the story. He is the one that made Angel's story the way it is. Yes, it was traumatic, but imagine if we erase Val from the picture - Angel is suddenly a lot less deep of a character.

What I'm saying is, I think every normal person knows that morals =\= morals of a fictional character you like. If you have a healthy relationship w fiction, you can endorse in the story/psychology of a character, understanding that that doesn't influence your personality in any way.

And if you don't watch Hazbin, I assure you any show you ever watched had someone you'd never wish to touch with a 10ft poll irl, and you probably liked them too.

Let's stop being stupid about media consuption that is the end of my Ted talk thank you

[coquettejohnny]

i feel like my acc is so boring now i apologize deeply for that </3 i initially made this account to post my fuckass outsiders related thoughts without caring what other people think and i didnt have any friends who liked the outsiders as much as me so like why not just post them not the internet. idk anyone on here anyway so like even if they make fun of me it's whatever lmao idgaf what other people think. but then erm..... i kind of started caring about what they think......now im terrified if i say something wrong one of my mutuals will find me annoying hate me forever LMAO but we ball ^_^

also i have like no more ideas LMAO they all just happened in the span of a few weeks and i posted them all at once now i have no more.... my bad

[savage-rhi]

Magneta????

[tired-lamb]

you ever have that feeling like you really wanna cry and have a breakdown but you physically cant

[austinslounge]

I Have To Vent --

I find it so funny how Kaustin shippers will blatantly ignore constant signs of the Kaustin relationship being weird, and Kaia being kinda disrespectful to Austin (imo) just to keep their precious ship alive and looking good. 🙄😒

We've had pictures and DM sightings of Kaia:

Full on kissing and making out with other women

Getting cozy and making out with other guys (Bazi - Nov 2022)

Flirting with male costars on the red carpet (Corey Michael Smith)

Supposedly being flirty and "all over" her costar Marcelo Hernandez

Pictures of her making out with her girlfriends

Going on "honeymoon" trips with her girl pals

Like, come on. Make it make sense. 🙄😒

This relationship is weird and you all know it.

And say what you will about Vanessa, but Vanessa would never. And I hope the next woman that Austin gets with treats him better too.

At the very least, I hope Austin's next girlfriend is much more mature, and doesn't have any rumors about her making out with other people, being flirty with other guys, and making out with guys in clubs. 🙄

Everyone knows good and well that if the roles were reversed, and Austin were the one with these pictures and rumors, he'd be ripped to shreds. 😒

[ratpinkartiste]

People treating DID like a funny little OC dress up game piss me off okay I’m sorry. I am diagnosed with and live with DID and it is not like “ohh sometimes I become Vampire Markiplier the 3rd!!!!” It’s lapses in memory, people telling you you said something you did not remember, finding things you did not remember buying in your apartment, dissociating, forgetting to take care of yourself, not being able to have a normal life or relationships… it’s not just something you can decide to have as a cool little fad because you’re actually boring as hell

[linabirb]

mmaybe suddenly breaking down and hugging your cat who looks at you with an expression that's somehow both confused and understanding and who's not trying to leave is okay sometimes

[binders-and-beanies]

Tumblr is full of uninformed takes about therapy and therapists and I think one of the funniest ones is the idea that we’re rich. Like sure some of the most privileged therapists in the swankiest practice environments are pretty well off. But do you realize how many therapists are homeless with a masters degree. How many have a PhD and three jobs in different states just to make ends meet. How many of us are using the same public assistance services we refer our clients to. Can’t afford to go to therapy ourselves, or a doctor for that matter. Idk it’s just like morbidly funny to me that the absolute highest salary I can dream of once I get my master’s is lower than a lot of people make with no college degree and then I come on here and see people talk about how all therapists make six figures. You know nothing