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[pokes head in] Homestuck day tomorrow queen?
#Homestuck#classpecting#classpect#413#um#hi#I'm alive#sorry I do not control the hyperfixation the hyperfixation controls me#(I only really actively engage with fandoms I'm actively hyperfixating on oopsie)#hiveswap#homestuck day#4/13
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ULTRADOODLES
i need to be sedated i need to be put down i am not normal this game is making me insane(r) oughghuogh
#guys ill get back into op soon i swear put-PUT THE PITCHFORKS DOWN PLEASE#IM SORRY 😭😭😭 ILL GET TO DRAWING MORE OP AS SOON AS I CAN#i do not control the hyperfixation unfortunately 😔😔 anyways god damn the sun is harder to p rank than p1 help me#v1 ultrakill#v2 ultrakill#minos prime#sisyphus prime#gabriel ultrakill#mindflayer ultrakill#ultrakill#insane that all characters are trans thats such a win#my art!!
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Can I be mega autistic here and vent for a second and ask if anyone else is lowkey scared for whatever the next RE game is HSBWHDNDJ
#having hyperfixations/special interests combined with a PARALYSING fear of change SUUUUUCKSSS MAAAAANN. IT SUCKS ASS#like realistically I KNOW it’s silly and I KNOW I’ve got nothing to stress over BUT ITS STRESSING ME OUT BAD AND THERES NOTHING I CAN DO#RE4R/Luis has been SUCH a massive comfort of mine and turned into a full blown special interest and I guess the thing I’m most scared of is#the fandom moving on and forgetting abt re4r/luis as a whole which again I KNOW is silly but I can’t control my brain!!!!#and also combined with the fact that Luis probably isn’t coming back to the franchise at least anytime soon is HEARTBREAKING man. like thats#my special interest!! that’s the thing I’ve poured hours of my time into!!!!! I’m scared to see people move on#he’s already a fairly unpopular character in the wider fandom too!! and the fact that the content we do have of him is ALL we’re gonna have?#I dunno that makes me so much more stressed out and anxious than I should be which. again. I KNOOOOOOWW IS SILLY BUT I CANT HELP IT MAN#THE AUTISM!! THE AUTISMMMMM#I dunno I’m expecting Capcom to announce their next game this summer fest and it’s genuinely stressing me out sm which I hate#I hate being so afraid of change it sucks so much man#anyways sorry for the massive vent I just had to get this off my chest cuz it’s been weighing me down massively and making me more anxious#than it has any right to BCNDNENDJXJ#and again the fact that there’s a solid chance we may never see him again at lest not anytime soon is so so so so so devastating to me it#again makes me so much more upset than it has any right to HDNSHENDJDJ#not to mention people who are already weirdly mean and nasty to people who DO like him. I’m Not having a Time rn
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Hurt/Comfort Bingo Masterlist
sleep deprivation ➡ driving them home
chauffer service Fandom: NU: carnival Characters: Edmond & Rei
thought spiral ➡ "I've got you."
silent as the grave Fandom: Dangerverse Characters: Henry & Ray
panic attack ➡ falling asleep in their arms
no threat in sight Fandom: NU: carnival Characters: Huey/Quincy
secret revealed ➡ much-needed hug
a house is not a home Fandom: Dangerverse Characters: Chapa & Ray
#that combination of fandoms will never not be funny to me#i do not control the hyperfixation sorry#sweetspicyhc
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*stands up* alright im. going to go make a milgram x reader blog. wish me luck
#the things i do instead of writing requests for my other x reader blog#okay but to be fair. my physical and mental health has not been kind to me lately#also every time twst is mentioned my brain is like. imagine a blank screen. that's my brain#so sorry. i do not control the hyperfixations#also milgram x reader is not really that popular so like👍 less pressure#[ 💚 𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐚 𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐬 ]
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fourth of july by fall out boy is the PEAK anxceit song and i will not be taking criticism because i am RIGHT
"you and i were fireworks that went off too soon"
"i said i'd never miss you/but i guess you never know/may the bridges i have burned light my way back home"
"i'll be as honest as you let me"
"you are my favorite "what if"/you are my best "i'll never know" "
"oh, i'm sorry, i didn't mean any of it/i just got too lonely, lonely/in between being young and being right"
"my nine to five is cutting open old scars"
"had my doubts but i let them out"
"oh honey you don't have to lie"
"i wish i'd known how much you loved me/i wish i'd cared enough to know"
"i'm sorry every song's about you/the torture of small talk with someone you used to love"
I DONT KNOW why they are inside my head again but HHHH AHHHH
anyway. peak anxceit. thanks for coming to my ted talk
#anxceit#sanders sides#janus sanders#virgil sanders#fall out boy#i ramble#does this count as meta? probably not#ANYWAY they live in my head rent free.#sorry if i have talked about this before except NO I'M NOT#sanders sides lies dormant in my head and sometimes it activates like a sleeper agent. i do not control the hyperfixation#anyway happy almost fourth of july i will be thinking about gays and fall out boy all day instead of this Hell country#join me :)#also yes i may have begun to write a one shot based on this song last night while at my peak of sleep deprivation#but that fic is between me and god and unless yall actually care. NO ONE WILL EVER SEE IT#anyway. anxceit. reblog if you agree.
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to be honest i don't think i'll ever stop thinking about what people were saying at stream last night
that for all of the incredibly interesting and well-developed side characters in this series, the vast majority of the fandom never seems to breach the crust of snow on top of the iceberg - namely, kazumaji
#of course i recognise that one can't really control the hyperfixation but idk it's just wild to me#half of the art i see is of kiryu and majima going gaa gaa eyes at each other#and i'm sitting here in the corner volleying my rarepair tennis ball off the wall#thinking about how i feel the need to replay dead souls and yakuza 0 so i can enjoy seeing majima on my screen again#I Don't Hate Them. i do not hate them#i'm just exhausted idk#like you can't even really call a lot of characters side characters in an objective sense but maji/kiryu's presences are THAT overbearing#sorry if this is too controversial on main i just couldn't get it out of my head while i was making pancakes#me#text
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i have a tendency to reblog posts about promoting one's own art and/or the importance of reblogging art, onto my art blog, as a sort of "wink wink nudge nudge i do have followers on this blog don't i" kind of thing
but whenever i do that, it feels as if people pay more attention to that than to my art
i know that's not literally true, i'm sure the note count does not actually rival or surpass a new art post, it only feels like a note spike because that blog posts so infrequently and therefore its activity is usually flat line, and reblogging the post made there Be Something There For People To Interact with
i guess it irks me anyway because i reblog it with the intent of "hey, look at the message of this post and where it is right now, mind giving my blog a scroll and maybe hitting a couple of green buttons" but it doesnt really work that way because people just see it in their dash. i constantly be reblogging shit with little if any awareness of which person i follow that i'm getting it from.
i just wish there was a way to be like, "hey, please give my art some attention, i work hard on this shit and it feels like there's at most about a classroom's worth--if that!--of people who care enough to show it to folks" without literally just being the annoying pushy attention-seeking bitch on the dashboard that's like "just fucking reblog my shit"
#idk#ive been on tumblr since 2016#ive had my current art instagram account since 2016#and neither of those have even surpassed 200 followers literally ever#its hard not to envy other artists online even those who make fan art. similar content to me. just more of it i guess#why do they get to grow so fast and not me?#im sorry i dont have the mental energy to put out a new sketch every day im doing what i can#i do not control the hyperfixation and et cetera#if posting frequency were literally my only issue all these years that would. be fucking unfair and mean and rude#but i literally dont think that IS my only issue. i think theres something else but i dont know what#which is the theory ive had basically the whole time#im kind of glad i fly under peoples radars most of the time because there is so many kinds of unwanted attention#but that doesnt mean i never want to be noticed ever ever ever#i dont think THAT poorly of myself. i do have things im proud of#idk ive written this vent how many times over the course of my tumblr career. yall know this shit by now#and i appreciate yall who do interact with my art#harper babbles#vent#i guess
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W/ all the reactionary talk regarding trans peoples bodies and shit i would love to see repubs and tεrves reactions to all the fascinating body modifications that exist for aesthetic and fetish purposes
#Ns*fw i guess#I briefly hyperfixated on body mods some years back and the absolutely insane shit people can and will do to their body is awesome actually#Like this ranges from getting subdermal saline injections like bagelheads to splitting your junk down the middle. Who cares its your body#Ive seen several people that EXTENSIVELY altered their body for purely aesthetic purposes and years down the line never regretted it#Bc it made them feel at home with themselves or was just a very personal choice. I see literally nobody screaming about mutilation wrt this#I know the answer as to why but its ironic you never see anyone crying about someone mutilating their body bc they split their tongue#Or people who get scarification... or people who get genital piercings... or hell even people who just get tattoos#Hell even entirely medical procedures such as using your toe to replace your thumb is by technicality ''mutilation'' in these ppls eyes#''ITLL NEVER BE A REAL THUMB!!!'' No shit sherlock but it works for me. Better than not having a thumb at all lmao#Idk i dont understand how people can attack bodily autonomy and then act surprised when repubs want to strip ALL bodily autonomy#You do not have to agree to a lifestyle but you absolutely have no business dictating what one does or does not do to their bodies#Bc at the end of the day they're living in it. You are not. End of story#And statistics prove that the vast majority of people in some form modify their body; i.e. tattoos piercings & minor corrective surgeries#Can you imagine screaming at someone for getting their tonsils removed bc theyre 'perfectly healthy organs' bc they dont want tonsil stones#Bc thats what these people are saying about elective hysterectomy/vasectomy/internal birth control/gender procedures#SORRY THAT IS A LOT. I just have a lot to say about this as someone who is deeply invested in bodily rights#emf
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y'all might not see supernatural fic from me for a little bit
#bullet train for real has me by the throat#mer rambles#i'll come back to it but for now... riding a wave#sorry about my katemary fic i will get back to it someday#i do not control the rate i which i hyperfixate
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i need,,, to follow more arcane blogs
#lowkey getting tired of just 911 on my dash#which im sure everyone who follows me for 911 is tired of the arcane posts too#sorry i do not control the hyperfixation#katie.txt
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#i know we're gonna a get like no online content from those two until tour#and probably throughout tour tbh#which is fine we'll get tour content and i remember ii era was fun but i feel like we just got dnp back as entertainers online#and now that's gonna back to being on the back burner again#again it's fine they're in control of what they wanna do with their careers but as someone who can't go to tour it's just making me sad#maybe i need to find another hyperfixation in the meantime#or more it needs to find me#i have been a little disappointed that the announcement was tour cuz i wanted then to do something different this time#but i get it#and i don't wanna put a damper on all the happy people who got tickets#i seriously am really happy for everyone and i hope they have the best time#i just need to get this whining out of my system#if anyone read all that im sorry
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this was twenty days ago..... and now i almost exclusively watch clips of him and miyabi.....
#and im planning to do a spreadsheet listing out all the times they've collabed#BECAUSE THEY DO IT SO OFTEN I THOUGHT IT WAS ONLY GONNA BE LIKE A MONTHLY THING BUT IM P SURE JUST RECENTLY THERE WAS#ALREADY A 🌸🦔 COLLAB ITS NUTS#im very sorry to everyone and all the people who ive tricked into thinking im cool because now im just very much#i think i have a brainrot#again.#i think this is the first actual one this year because this absolutely came out of nowhere#im not even remotely kidding#I HAVENT EVEN WATCHED VTUBERS IN MONTHS AND SUDDENLY IN COMES BACK IN FULL FORCE#like at least with the other one it was relatively contained and then died out#this one just came out of nowhere and slapped me in the face so now i realize i really *cant* control my hyperfixations#bc every time i do i am just completely confounded by how the fuck i got there at all
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Omeletverse fans...I may have a surprise for y’all coming tomorrow...👀
#...#.....#.......#(April Fools)#(I'm sorry)#(I do have a third and fourth work planned but alas I do not control the hyperfixation)#(though another person thought my tdbk reference was a different todo ship that I am not fond of and the spite is making me feel motivated)#For full clarification: this is an April Fools joke.#I will not be writing any more fanfiction until I have graduated from college
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Thanks for the tag @evita-shelby <3 (All of these WIPS are for my sideblog @a-wayfairing-stranger by the way because I’m in a warhammer brainrot hell)
We have
1- My duty, My love- A AU in which Leta is Gaunt’s Bodyguard and wife, super interesting to explore their relationship in a setting where its Leta protecting Gaunt and not the other way around, also super fun writing Leta having to interact with rich people.
2- A thousand lives- My fantasy story about Boudica and Felix Jaeger, Hit a roadblock with it so I haven’t updated much but its always open on my google docs just in case.
3- Home sweet Home- The Poly! AU with Leta, Gaunt and Rawne...really just smut with a tiny bit of plot.
4- Angel of small death- the second fic of Leta’s expanding on her story.
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ASS, TITS OR THIGHS?
— featuring ┊satoru gojo, toji fushiguro, suguru geto, kento nanami, choso kamo x fem!reader (all separate)
— warnings / content warnings ┊suggestive obvi, not proofread oops, cunnilingus, uhm uhm use of nicknames, riding, mentions of titfucking, overall suggestive content | 18+ MINORS DO NOT INTERACT
— a/n ┊jujutsu kaisen hyperfixation got the best of me guys i betrayed u all and accidentally became a gojo + sukuna liker i’m sorry. apology coming soon /j 😔
𖦹 𝐒𝐀𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐔 𝐆𝐎𝐉𝐎
let’s be real here.. i know damn well this guy is definitely a tit man. cmon it’s just this feeling in me that can sense this guy’s love for titties, he’s the number one tit lover guys im telling you! i bet gojo is def the type to stand behind you and tower over you) at random times and slowly slip his large hands into your shirt, squeezing your tits like it’s the most casual thing for him! of course you wouldn’t mind.. so you would just carry on with whatever you were doing. up until he nuzzles against your nape, inhaling your scent as his fingers tug and pinch at your sensitive nipples, smirking against your skin when he hears you whimper at his touch. this guy makes your head spin sometimes it’s actually insane. “ooh. they’re soft.” “that’s how they’re supposed to be, dumbass” ngl i feel like gojo would love your tits for the dumbest reason ever, like since he’s rlly rlly tall i feel like he would like your tits all because “they’re easier to reach” LMFAO he’s so silly! this guy probably love’s embarrassing you sometimes cuz he would grab your tits literally ANYWHERE (if ur fine w it ofc) in conclusion.. he loves seeing you all embarrassed whenever he brings a hand to cup your tits in his hand!
gojo here loves stuffing his face in your tits, he doesn’t care.. it’s the ocean he wants to dive into 2nite lol! anyways sometimes during sweet little cuddle sessions he would straight up pull you up by your hips and press himself closer against your body before leaning down to drown his face in the softness your tits, cmon.. can you blame him? but anyways! gojo loves your titties regardless.. big or small, small or big, he’ll still be willing to shove his face in ‘em! he definitely has a thing for titfucking, you just.. look so hot laying there all sweet for him, squeezing your tits against his hard cock while he thrusts in between them, trying his best not to overdo it. “f—fuck.. they’re so soft.. so perfect. no one has ever fucked your tits like this like i have right, angel? mhm? look at them.. s’pretty and all mine.” he pinched your nipples rather harshly, forcing a whine to leave your pretty lips. “all mine, yeah?”
𖦹 𝐓𝐎𝐉𝐈 𝐅𝐔𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐆𝐔𝐑𝐎
look me in the eyes and tell me toji fushiguro doesn’t look like the ultimate ass man ever, cmon tell me! are we really surprised tho? are we REALLY surprised? he looks like the biggest ass man known to mankind it’s not even funny at this point he loves ass he mfing does i tell you. this old hag probably steals a few glances at your ass from time to time whenever you wear a skirt.. or a dress for special occasions, toji cant control himself bro it’s not his fault you had allat back there.. it’s not his fault for looking it was an accident! (no it was not and you knew it) ngl the first time he caught a glimpse of your ass he probably said “damn.” so loudly, loud and clear for you to hear. “damn.” you heard a familiar voice behind you, glancing over your shoulder to see your boyfriend’s intense gaze at your bottom. “i knew your ass was nice but i didn’t know it was this nice.. damnn.” “oh shut up, will you?” idk abt u guys but toji is probably the type to slap it while you walk past him sometimes.. like it’s so unexpected you just straight up flinch and glare up at him, rubbing it to try and ease the pain bc i bet his slaps HURT sometimes
toji 100% a fan of you taking it from the back.. he loves it! i mean do i need to explain further? though he loves seeing your facial expressions to see just how well he fucks you but i feel like he prefers to see your ass and well-defined back. you have this man in a TRANCE. no matter how hard he tries to focus on you, his eyes always manage to wander down to your rear. he loves pounding into you mercilessly like there’s no tomorrow just to see the jiggle physics of yo ass because gahhh dayummmm he loves the way it moves, my guy probably spanks too i’m telling u this dude loves ass, especially yours.. it’s an unhealthy obsession at this point idk what to tell u 🤷♀️
𖦹 𝐒𝐔𝐆𝐔𝐑𝐔 𝐆𝐄𝐓𝐎
suguru def a thigh man, i don’t even know my reasoning but he just screams thigh man.. like he seems like the type to love them ykwim? like he just loves diving into them any time he gets, holding your thighs against his hands while he pushes them to your chest. he def loves eating you out just so he can feel your thighs caging around his head, he loves how soft they are, how warm they feel whenever he gives them a little squeeze. personally i bet this fucker is probably a lil crazy about your thighs, just a little bit! whenever you sit on his face, he pushes you even more against his mouth. his tongue is talented that’s all i have to say, suguru doesn’t give two fucks if he can’t breath against your overstimulated pussy, he wants you to crush him with your pretty thighs thighs.. he wants your thighs to be the last thing he feels + sees before he suffocates and dies a happy man! suguru would keep you spread on his face, not caring about anything else in the world but you and your plushy thighs around his head. buddy probably eats you out like it’s his last, squeezing and helping your thighs trap his face in between them. god, he loves your thighs
suguru wrapped his lips around your pussy again, forcefully pulling you even closer until his nose was bumping against your clit, was that even possible? “s—su.. suguru!” one orgasm, then the next.. and the next after that, he hasn’t even came up for air.. you were worried at how much your thighs caged around his head, worrying about suffocating further. you tried pulling yourself up, looking down at him as your lips quivered. “suguru you okay?—“ no. he was most definitely not! he was struggling 2 breath but he didn’t give TWO FUCKS!! “your thighs.. feel so warm around me. sit back down, princess. i’m not done.. ‘wanna feel your pretty thighs against me again.” “.. but are you sure? you were struggling to breathe i could feel it—“ “sit, princess. i said sit. do i need to repeat myself?” no siiiirrr 🙅♀️
𖦹 𝐊𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐎 𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐀𝐌𝐈
ngl out of everyone here nanami is the most “normal” and tamed if this question ever comes along, my guy would probably answer with something like “they’re just body parts. is there even a reason to pay attention to female assets?” uhm. no obviously not but they’re hot ++ the question is important smartass. tbh i feel like nanami wouldn’t really care, he just.. appreciates you for being there by his side, he wouldn’t really care much about your body and what he likes about it, cuz babe he loves everything about you! such a sweetheart! but in all seriousness, i feel like he’d really be into your tits for some reason.. i mean come on! sometimes if he’s feeling a lil extra EXTRA bold be would sneak a few glances towards your cleavage, swallowing the lump in his throat as he notices you didn’t have a bra on that day. nanami would literally fight for his life and try his best to restrain himself n his desires every single time he would see you in any outfit that shows your cleavage.
i bet there was this one time you guys were about to cook together n you needed help with the apron so he helped you tie it, but then his hand accidentally brushed against your breast LMFAO. poor guy would realize slowly after and start contemplating his whole life and life decisions, apologizing to you sincerely and that he didn’t mean to do that! “kento seriously it’s fine, i don’t mind! if you wanted to touch them, you could’ve said so.” “i told you it was an accident, love. it’s not like that at all.” you chuckled at him before grabbing his hand and slowly bringing it close to your tits, making him touch em as the soft skin of your tits melt into his palm. “soft right?” you cooed, wincing a little when you felt his thumb brushing against your hardened nipple. “..mm.” cmon kento ⁉️ don’t be in denial! accept yourself as a certified tittie liker!
𖦹 𝐂𝐇𝐎𝐒𝐎 𝐊𝐀𝐌𝐎
tbh this guy could love all three of these, like there is not a single part of you he loves more than the other but if he really had to choose.. he would probably be fond of your ass, making him a semi ass man despite him.. probably liking all three! but then again.. lemme just say.. i know an ass/tit man when i see one (n he looks like one but my pick for today is ass) poor choso probably caught himself looking at your ass for a whole minute and he had to slap himself for a second to get himself back to reality, he can’t help it! your body is so hypnotic to him. i bet he’s also the type to give your bottom little taps and pokes whenever he needs something from you (damn) ++ my guy is probably a fan of you taking it from the back also, just like toji! listen listen okay. listen. reverse cowgirl position. lemme tell u he gets SOOO flustered whenever you ride him with your back turned against him, bouncing yourself on his cock while he can’t help but look down at your ass and how much it moved (lolz!) and how well your cunt was sucking him in! choso probably the type to bring a hand up to pull your hair, running his fingers through your hair as he tugs your back to him with your back arched, planting soft chaste kisses on your neck
choso doesn’t want to make you uncomfortable in anyway so he absolutely refuses to even plant a lil smack to your ass, even just a soft one! he would hold himself back n wouldn’t do it unless you wanted him too! if you do.. expect a lot of them coming your way because i bet he loves seeing your ass jiggle LIKEEE ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY NO MORE i bet his cock would twitch inside you every single fucking time he would see the jiggle physics of your ass! like i said.. he’s a fan of you taking it from the back! jiggle physics go absolutely craaaaazy 😝🙏
#ᖭི༏ᖫྀ maryse’s diary ૮꒰˶˃̵ ^ ˂̵˵꒱ა#maryse jjk era??#jjk smut#jjk x reader#geto smut#choso <33#gojo smut#gojo x reader#toji smut#gojo <33#toji x reader#toji <33#geto x reader#nanami x reader#choso smut#nanami smut#choso x reader#jjk x you#nanami <33#geto <33#when u gonna let me fuuuucccckkkk satoruuu!
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